I am glad you have a wonderful mother looking out for your well being and making calls on your behalf to ensure you get the care you need. Try to have someone around when you try the new script so they can monitor your behavior in case of serious side effects. It sounds like your latest experience was very scary and I hope you do not have to go through that again especially with nobody home. Be sure to follow directions with any scripts or force yourself to eat a light meal prior to taking pills. I know it is easier said than done. Feel free to message me on FB if you ever need to vent about what's going through your head. You are not a burden. Friends should be there for another especially through the darkest hours. I may not know what to say or may not understand everything but I am willing to listen and reach out in whatever way if it helps you feel a little bit better. Best wishes as always. I sure hope the new pills you are being put on help this time around.