The best doco on Chemsex from the Gay perspective. Very generous men for sharing their experiences so openly. 'Shame' seems to be the (unspoken) common denominator within many of us Gaymen who have used drugs as both a social lubricant and self-medication. If anyone watching this is fighting with addiction; from personal experience, two options are facing you: at some point you either need to choose to stop use and deal with all the underlying cause(s) OR the drugs will, at some point, effectively stop you themselves - be that through illness, crime or death. I'm 20 years clean now - it's possible and very doable to stop using - even when it seems to be impossible!

I think 90 % of addiction is born from trauma of some sort. I worked in a prison for 3 years and almost all the addicts admitted to being sexualy or physically abused by a close friend or family member before the age of 10. Sadly drugs only mask the underlying cause of why the person uses in the first place. Very sad story!

The use of meth and other drugs is rampant among the the gay men in my area in Spain. It has wrecked so many lives

So I unfortunately do know why other people haven't commented- still taboo, still secretive, still shamed by people. Thank You to everyone involved with this video❤️‍🔥.

The guy with the mustache nailed it with his descriptions of the lifestyle. Although this is one of the best descriptions online of everything I’ve gone through myself I wish there were more success stories and how to succeed passed all this. One day! 😢❤ remember we are NOT the drug! It hijacks the brain and over time I feel our connection with others is all we truly need. Keep going, you got this ❤️❤️

I just watched a video the other day about this poor guy who was having chemsex… and he was so messed up that he didn’t realize how rough they were all being. The other guys were so rough they ended up breaking his back and paralyzing him 😣 and he didn’t really “feel it” when it happened because of the drugs. He just realized he couldn’t really move anymore. it was such a sad story. Anyway, be careful out there guys!! Peace and love ❤

I just ended a toxic relationship with someone ive loved for 3 years. He was on meth. Ive been clean off heroin and crack for years. I got drugged and gaslit. This documentary has helped me understand what i went through.

This was such a good documentary! Definitely something that doesn't get talked about enough. Bravo!

It is interesting to see that in an age where homosexuality is celebrated longer and with more priority than a national holiday, there is more drug addiction and abuse among gay men than ever before. As a gay man myself, I think that the gay community does a great job of turning everything into a big party and pushes the idea that to control or deny yourself any natural impulse or urge, especially when it comes to sex, is unnecessary, even bigoted, and contributes to the shackles of traditional "heteronormative" behavior. Unchecked behavior of any kind will definitely lead to self destruction. A little shame and humility would serve our "community" better than the "if it feels good, do it" idea they've been peddling over the last 2 decades.

Watched the same video about the guy who was paralyzed after using methamphetamine in a group sex setting. He's originally from the Philippines, but also lived in NYC. He's recovered now, medically but I'm not sure what he's currently doing. It was a very unfortunate situation. He's very candid in his interview about his ordeal. That video's still in circulation due to what he was using. It did, however end well for him. Methamphetamine has very addictive properties. Many people don't do well after the encounter with this drug, which made this story a true tear jerker, and an eye opener!😥The actual story did so well, many people are recanting this story! Very informative and well done!💕

The pleasure is incomparable. It absolutely intensifies any sexual experience. But the aftermath is brutal & can absolutely ruin you in several ways.

Great Doc. Needs more deserving views for all the good info it gave Good work ❤

Insane I’ve never heard of this and I’ve been out almost 9 years. I’ve always heard of “ poppers “ and that but never these kind of stories. I’ve never had grindr, been to pride or hell even a bar and it’s so sad to hear these stories of what others have endured. The world is a scary place and being lonely with your own thoughts can be even scarier but it’s just horrible that at our lowest we can easily do things to just feel “ needed or important “ and still at the same time getting more hurt. Thoughts are with anyone who’s been through this and hope you find healing and happiness.

So sad. I had a friend who grew up gay in Japan and then to London and went wild. He was big on chemsex and was constantly shooting up. Sad story

Getting high will enhance for a while but eventually the drug becomes more important and it's not just for sex anymore

So much real-ness but a complete glossing over of the lifelong addiction to the drug and the chemsex life, together and separately. The constant social exposure to people offering chemsex and the motivation for those people to inspire a relapse in you.

Meth is a very dangerous substance as long term use ALWAYS leads to hearing voices. This is well documented in the medical literature. And unfortunately anti-psychotics don’t necessarily drown out the voices either, they are basically tranquillisers to knock you out abit, and make you so lethargic that you’re not as irritable to the voices and therefore less likely to listen when they order you to stab someone or end yourself. They also make people put on a lot of weight and the voices always tells the individual to stop taking them because they hate it. They hate being drowned out and not being heard. I know it sounds silly but that’s what the majority of sufferers said, and why a lot of schizophrenics get off them in favour of going back to methamphetamine. And from there the cycle starts again. And goes on and on. I’ve worked in psyche wards and prisons so I do have some insight into this : meth users hearing voices have the largest un aliving themselves percentage in the world. Psychiatrists also have a high percentage of ending it as well due to being around the dark nature of the schizophrenic mind. Homelessness is linked to this phenomenon.

I have lots of young friends that do meth and they are straight. But just like all of these gay guys, they really can't see what the drugs are doing to them. I know way to many young couples who started experimenting and destroyed their lives completely. The sad part is that once it starts, nobody can tell you how bad your going down a pit. Because to you, everything is going great. I have also seen testosterone junkies do the same thing.

Trauma is the gateway to addiction. Those dots are so close together they are a solid line.

Great documentary... The silence needs to stop around chemsex

Methheads just call it sex.

Great documentary. I love the graphical effect used to disguise the contributors.

Try talking about sobriety or recovery within the gay community- it’s all but impossible.

This is such an incredible documentary omg

When I was first introduced to meth. I was not out of the closet.. I was 23 when I finally came to terms with my sexuality. But I was doing speed long before then. Then went through several years of cleaning myself up. And then in 1995 I fell back into it again. But by this time I had already came to terms with my sexuality and came out. It was no longer ashamed of myself to realize I was gay. Not a sick disease like others may want you to think it is. Anyhow. Well in the 90s and on into.2000s the marathon sex was phenomenal. Then became addicted to both. I worked support my own habit. I never stole to support my habit. But my rent and my bills were a total mess.. well, I’ve been 20 years clean now 20+ years. Still queer as a $3. Bill. No having sex now I’ve been a little desensitized. Let’s say I guess that’s what you would call it.. now I’m 63. And I regret nothing. Because what I’ve been through in my life makes me a better person today more excepting more understanding and more caring..

I have a friend who has lost himself in Meth addiction but doesn't recognize it at all because he's so driven by the sex. Honestly, he is one of the nicest people I know - or, was. But that drug stole my friend and replaced him with unclean spirits. People can believe what they want to believe about it. I've seen them manifest themselves in him and change his face, voice and demeanor instantly. It's terrifying to see someone you love become something you don't even recognize right in front of you. I totally believe that drug is an open invitation for unclean spiritual attachments. If you are struggling with these issues, please ask GOD to break those chains. And then turn away from the sinful thoughts that lead you to that path to begin with. You are created for so much more than animalistic behaviors. We are created by GOD, for GOD, not for ourselves

Quite overwhelmed & stunned but have been aware of it. It’s very sad. To abuse oneself after a lifetime of abuse to escape is eventually so deeply destructive & leads to an early death because of low self esteem & worth. Sadly, gay men helping each other’s demise is not even considered.

The "Just say no" mentality is obviously something that's never been effective. Self-help or12-step groups like AA can be useful, but they don't work equally well for everyone. We need to find what's at the ROOT of addiction, to understand what causes it in the first place. Until that happens, people are going to continue to fall into addiction and they'll continue to die.

This is very well done ❤ love to those who have their personal struggles to overcome. Wishing you find strength, peace and inner calmness soon.

Im no queer .. i feel sorry for gays... But my wife likes it and were having a rough time shaking this habit.. its very rough on your body..

What a horrific way to have to live, praying for all of you, for your safety, ability to come clean, and to find peace, love, and happiness. I have many gay men friends, and I am so thankful that they've all been in very long relationships w/the same man.

Great doc.

You've done an incredible job telling this story. This documentary as a genre is fantastic. The truth about the drug use in the gay community is alarming and needs exposure so others won't fall into this trap.

so many people need to see this

Oh.... it's " Chemsex" !!! And I thought it was "Addicts having sex together" !! I stand corrected.

There’s another post about this where the activity was so intense in a three way one guy broke his back!! He posted from hospital! This is a mental, dangerous pastime for sure

Thankyou, a well-rounded documentation 🎉.

My thoughts were always racing about doing crazy sex but was very private and just took care of myself sexually…So glad it was a short few months of that crazy drug….Hope i never have that again….

Some people can have occasional chemsex without spiraling into addiction. But it’s a dangerous game to play.

Great documentation

Great video.Thank you.People try to normalise everything today.This is where it will brings u.Absolutely slaves of their bodies.Just flesh flesh flesh,nothing hunanbeen😢

Even as a hetero, sex on certain drugs can be an incredible experience...if you can get your junk to work. Overall, though, everything works best when I'm sober.

Thank you for this.

So being gay seemed gross but then by using the miracle drug meth, these lads “found themselves” and could easily engage in the previously gross gay sex? Dude that’s really really really really fucked up and absolutely not something I’d want a loved one experiencing.

I was abused when i was younger (under 10) and ended up in toxic relationship at the age of 16 (told him i was 18), never really learned to socialize and my self-esteem was always down with what he would do. For me it helped me talk to someoene even if it was for sex, seeing how people didnt see they needed help and acted weird. I always kept myself on check, quit cold turkey 3 times, 10 year break, 2 year break and now going on 5 years 😊

Powerful and necessary. Thank you for this.

Ive certainly never had a whole weekend binge of sex and drugs. 🤞

Meth and sex? Never worked for me like that. All I remember of that timed in my youth was waking up in a hospital basement after sleeping for 3 days straight after being high for a week. As far as sex goes, it only shriveled it up.

I think it's that 100% of addicts just like being " high" Everyone's had "traumas" etc. etc. etc

What drug are they talking about? I heard one person say he was on "p" ..i thought people took meth for chemsexe? Is there another drug that does that too?

Every day has gone through strange trauma from childhood for not being able to be themselves not being accepted by society even if you have a very great parents and family except you society still looks down on you. It’s horrible and this is how they’re processing the trauma unfortunately.

So brave! ❤❤ thank you!

Dreadfully sad 😢

It's crazy how inexpensive meth has gotten. I was buying ounces for 500 in wisconsin, I thought that was a good price. And then I met some guys from California , they were getting it even cheaper. They said that is normal price for anyone. When you are an old gay man, the meth I had was a big draw for meeting young guys. Trouble was I was getting ripped off a lot .

This is crazy, I’m not alone i feel seen

Drinking and driving kills. Please- be safe when you party. Never drive drunk.

I think the only difference between the gay and straight experience is it’s considerably more difficult to find partners/parties in the straight community, so I’d guess more of us end up just using porn exclusively. I don’t know if that’s better or worse, but I know even as a semi “recreational” user, I stopped sleeping with my girlfriend/the mother of my children, because I preferred just doing my own thing once every week or two when I’d be high for a few days. She doesn’t do anything and doesn’t know that I do, but I have to stop and re establish our sex life… which means no more T..

Chemsex? Is this guys whos I knew men or guys who became gay when using meth. but with out the meth… OOO I’m clean from oxys etc but now I am not using since 2015 o don’t know how to act I haven’t even had a bf since I been like this realy only 1 guy I was seeing but that’s all. but I’m nervous I’m shy I hit the pipe w him dope pipe which isn’t my thing but it helped me do sex but it’s not something o use or look for not sexually

Hi, I’m a gay man from the UK and I’ve got to be honest I have got no idea why anyone would want to take drugs of any kind just to have gay sex. I have great pleasure and orgasms and I’m completely straight I don’t take anything what is wrong with people?

people in this lifestyle need a lot of help. we should not encourage children to consider it "normal", it is very sad.

❤appears to me sadly more and more people are hell bent on escaping reality with these drugs

Sorry guys, trauma is terrible- I thank God everyday for being drug free and alcohol free. We have drugs and alcohol addiction in our family as well as I am a member of a exclusive club where my brother committed suicide

Beautiful message. Greetings from San Antonio, Texas, USA 🌈❤️

These people talk about their growing up experience as if it’s only them that experienced this and therefore that’s the cause of their addiction. A lot, I’d say the majority of us have had horrific bullying about being gay but we didn’t turn to Chem sex. I think this is a complex issue and not all of it is just rooted in x happened to me so that is why I needed to take drugs. There’s also an addictive personality combined with a really poor set of social skills, knowing how to communicate and connect with individuals outside sex.

What happens as you age you pay the price.

Internalised Homophobia

Is this entirely filmed in NZ?

Why am I getting a bunch of gay sex recommendations? I am straight, not that there is anything wrong with that.

It’s the devils work !!!! Men for women the end

On the one hand, you ned to be aware enough to consent, otoh I don’t see why “sober sex” is seen as the only right way to be intimate.

I almost died 😮

crazy,.

😂

Gotta admit I burst out laughing when the guy described blowing up at his mom before every IG photoshoot. Like, wtf come on, you're trying to come off as sympathetic but I've accidentally just connected your inability to respect your mom with the inability to control impulse.

I hope Frank Williams isn't his real name

This is all so strange to me. Blaming it all on the drugs, when the root of the problem really is a cluster of mental health problems these people are suffering from. I'm an occasional indulger of chmsex and doing it in a way that it's a full-rounded experience. There's socialization, cracking jokes, watching out for one another and not just sex and substance, so basically just connecting, without the crippling depression, anxiety, paranoia or self-esteem issues that prevent people from enoying life. It's an upbeat thing, albeit occasional. Having healthy limits keeps you far away from any addiction.

I'm glad those drugs didn't exist back in my youth. Orgies with no HIV was much better than drugs. If Only They had gotten rid of HIV through Chinese style quarantining, we wouldn't need drugs during sex. Orgies would be enough you wouldn't need all the drugs. Today's generation doesn't know the difference cuz they don't have a way to compare cuz they never new what life before HIV was like. Carefree orgies with no HIV was much better than any type of drug use. They had their chance in 1985 to quarantine society and remove all the positives to stop the spread and they didn't do it so blame her American Constitution of you can't do that you can't quarantine people and look for the disease and remove it from society. And look at the damage it did by not doing so. Today they Implement unconstitutional laws like the offender registry and civil commitment with no two bats of an eye about doing so to people remember that when you go to the voting polls they wouldn't protect Society from HIV, but they will overly punish for life gay individuals and not think twice about it.

i drink wine, the other tenants in this property have inspired me to come here and learn more. It’s like watching an Attenborough documentary some will survive , some won’t. I’ve got my own issues .