Can you tell me which clinic you were treated and what type of therapy you received? It's for a friend who's struggling. I am happy for you Jess;

I have the same pillbox!

Congratulations!!

As someone who is suspected system, I am unsure if I do have Did/Osdd, but the trauma that I been having as a child, and such was going to seek therapy pretty soon but most ppl think I am faking it when I’m rlly not? 😭 like.. it’s hard

Who would want to fake this horrible disorder? This is so insulting TBH.

not sure if someone will read this, but I need some help. one of my best friends who quickly became like a brother to me claimed to have DID. we were both 15 at the time and are currently 16, and I’ve heard that in teenagers DID expresses itself quite differently and is very hardly diagnosed. I didn’t really question him though, I didn’t have a reason why, and I’ve always thought that unless you’re that person, or a specialist, you can’t really know. perhaps he was a special case. the more I got to meet him the more I realized I can’t really trust what he says. he loves messing around with people and lying constantly. don’t get me wrong, he’s a really nice fella, he just likes attention and it’s easy to tell why if you get to know him. he likes to do this thing where he’d claim something out of pocket and as soon as that claim lost attention he’d change it for another. it goes from stuff like saying he’s vegan again (which usually lasts a day), to saying he’s allergic to the sun but then forgetting about it to even saying he’s a hermaphrodite. he told us he had a surgery to get rid of his pussy, but then he had another one to get it back, which as a trans person, I have not heard of a procedure similar to what he describes. he keeps changing and changing again and again. I must admit it made me question if he indeed had DID or not. I don’t really care if he’s faking it, he’s still my bro, rather what he does. he gets away with screaming at people, snapping out, even physically hurting others by saying he was either disassociating or it was an alter of his. then he started saying he was developing another alter and was afraid it was “evil”, proceeded to blame his wrongdoings on this strange new alter. i guess it’s just hard for me to believe that whenever he makes a mistake, even the smallest, it’s cus of his DID. he’s made me get bad grades cus he refused to send me the documents I’m supposed to work on, saying it was amnesia, when I reminded him over and over throughout the whole day. and I mean to the point where I was begging, only for him to say that whenever someone demands something from him, he forgets it more. then he completely forgot about this new alter. said that all of his alters merged in one while still talking as if they were separate. and would often talk to one of his alters in a groupchat where it would take him seconds to dissociate and switch back and forth. I think I couldn’t care less about him faking or not, but I dislike the fact that he never does anything wrong, doesn’t ever apologize, and never takes accountability. sometimes it’d just be nice to hear him say “sorry” instead of hearing him justify every single one of his actions. I still love him more than anything, he’s just frustrating at certain moments ig.

It's a pretty universal question for people that comes up eventually in everyone's life if it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all, and it seems the mind will find a way to honour whatever the individual decides at that time is the right answer for them. It could change later in life too. The mind is amazing. I'm happy for you having found access to what sounds like some really beautiful memories. I'm sorry for your loss.

It is so lovely to see you so confident in your own body, and your little mannerisms that show the boy are still apart of you, but as one like you said. I've learnt so much from you, not because I needed to but because you make not just DID but mental health as a whole so easy to follow along with. <3

This was amazing!

is it offensive to say i kinda wish i had DID...? like i know its a condition that is like horrible and hard for the people who have it and i dont have any real trauma, but like idk the idea of me being multiple people makes me like feel this kind of envy?? idk how to explain it.

thank you for this. the letter is also very lovely <3

Watching this video 3yrs in to Jess being DID FREE is mind blowing I love the boys and I can still see parts of them in Jess now because they are all parts of her but at the same time looking back you think how is it possible because they are so different to her however Jess now is still very much Jess then, the brain really is just amazing the different looks voices mannerisms and now they are just all one. It's something magical I can't explain... I'm just happy for Jess and her family that she is thriving and doing well. ❤❤❤❤❤

Thank you Jess. It's so lovely that you take the time to help and create resources. I saw you feel those emotions during that explanation and we're so grateful for your example over the years we've watched your videos. You're truly a blessing on this earth and much love for your success and for the family. Hello to Gaz. We don't really see him anymore but sure he's there supporting you and family as always.

Wow Jess so glad to have come across this update and I'm super happy you are doing well DID free. I Miss the boys videos however I can still see them here with you as one it's a awsome thing to see you are one very strong amazing women and I always love hearing from you. Hope Gaz and Girls are also well I bet the girls have grown so much. Your awesome keep living your best life lots of love Dee x ❤

The confidence and depth fo your voice is striking. I love hearing it. So, so happy for you.

Swiss cheese memory... Yikes. That really hit me. How much of it is DID, and how much is psych meds? Both? I'm happy for you. These changes sound so incredible. I hope this lasts for you guys for the long haul. :)

"We were created to stop remembering." ... Ouch. Or hold memories so other alters don't have to.

My part Rose really liked your "Raindrop" analogy. Thank you so much for speaking truth.

Im soooo glad you are still posting. THANK YOU

Another fantastic video. Thank you Jess

Im so happy for you.

I don’t have DID but I do have flashbacks and they are as horrific feeling as it sounds

Thank you, because the people who are going through it, me, seeing a snap shot of your real life experience, HELPS ME SEE MINE! 😅. ya because I can see clearer with another view, while I, this part, or whoever part I am right now is able to connect that with our own experience. I would explain it just like that, but couldn't actually remember what happened inside or out, (with the flashbacks, I didn't know what was happening or why, and I couldn't remember afterwards so I wasn't ever able to ask for help, because once I was around people, I was like super happy and functioning, so I was like 🫤🤨 ... ya know. So uh thank you, seeing the real, or hearing it, HELPS me, cuz I be like lost n found and not aware of which, you know what I mean... ok anyway. Thanks

Thanks

even though the symptoms ive had/been having are genuinely happening i can't tell if i gave myself a pseudo case or not 😭

who willing to handle the truth its simply demons and you are the alter you are being robbed out of living a fulfilled life demons are living through you they are intelligent beings with a mind of their own hence for different personalities only by the blood of Jesus Christ you can be set free

I was hesitant to post this here, but here I go. I really want to just believe that I was, for around 6 months, trying to "fit the square into the circle", but never got help because back then I was still a minor and my parents didn't believe in mental health or therapy. I did this because I've had some of the experiences that was described: missing chunks in memory, waking up in different places in the house, speaking to two voices in my head whenever I was alone, extremely vivid dreams, among some reasons I was grappling at like straws. After a while, I realised that if I did indeed have DID, then there should have been physical evidences and anecdotes. I felt like a liar and felt really guilty about it, not because I told it to anyone (I was scared to mention it), but because I felt like I was lying to myself. 2 years later, I discovered this online diary that I don't remember creating, and there are pages where my name was mentioned in third person and I was very confused. This diary also happens to coincide with the time I attempted something very bad out of depression, followed by distorted memories. The only thing that has changed since then is that I could no longer talk to those two voices (if it was real or simulated by me in a bad mental place), and I've felt very lost and confused. I'm yet to have an actual diagnosis about this but I guess I just wanted to know if this could be a case of an extremely warped coping mechanism or if I could experience some symptoms without claiming to have DID. Sorry for the extremely long comment, I tried to keep it as concise as possible.

Wow!😁 You can see the boy's mannerisms every now and again! I feel really stupid saying that, but it's fantastic. I definitely saw Ed a couple of times near the beginning. We're so happy for you Jess, we really are. We're also aiming for final fusion, if it's possible. We're pretty complex though, there's a couple of subsystems etc so we'll see what happens but that's the aim for me, the host, anyway. Take care Jess. Love to you, Gaz and the girls....and pets!😁🫂💖

Jess you're a very wonderful person. I'm struggling with anxiety and to see you in a much better state being a psychologist and being so confident is very inspiring. I genuinely want to reach that state someday - imagine the severe horrible anxiety being gone and I could study smoother! Please keep uploading. Your presence and voice is soothing and it's calming me down :) - Jesse

I have been waited for you soo long.. i am so happy ❤

Micro amnesia!! There's a name for it!!! It causes so many issues in day to day for YEARS and never knew what to call it beyond "in one ear out the other", going as far as to repeat things such as instructions immediately after given in order to not lose them to the pocket hole (with limited success)

The practical examples at the end I think was a really smart knowledge integration tool!

You seem to look like a little girl some times in this video, I noticed thought I'd share 🙂👍🏻

The "the day is so much longer now. I have so many hours!" really hit home hard. I'm glad you went on this journey and came out so much happier! Only good wishes for your future!

We often rub our head and eyebrows when we're switchy. Even when we were itty bitty (like four) we would do that.

Jamie:Hey, I need you to marry me, so I have higher chance of getting custody of Ollie. You can divorce me day after the trial, so don't worry. Ed: Ok. *day after the trial* Jamie:As I promised, here are divorce papers. Thanks again for your help. Ed:Sure I will sign it tomorrow. *14 years later, Ed with Jamie in one bad* Jamie:I don't want to sound wierd but did you sign the divorce papers already? I'm starting to think you actually like me. Ed: *half asleep* Yea, I will sign them tomorrow. *curls up closer to Jamie and uses Jamie's hand as a teddy bear*

DID "non-fictional" alters. Had no idea that DID personalities could be switched like TV channels. Now thats entertainment! Can you please share your diagnosis from clinical psychologists? Love the cuts, costumes changes, music etc. I beleive some DID diagnosed individuals have underlying mental illnesses that need treatment. You however are something else

Question that I hope doesn’t come across wrong: What’s your opinion on the Internal Family Systems model? I’ve been to a few clinicians now who have recommended it to me, and DID usually seems to get brought up in those resources, so I was wondering what your opinion was as a person who formerly had DID.

Thank you for this video.

I'm SO HAPPY For you Jess you're doing great! Also i TOTALLY understand your freak out re the driving and crumpet gate & going back to therapy was 1000% the right choice. I think id do the same just to make sure if i was in remission. I'm still working towards that for my cPTSD. I'm glad you're feeling healthy now & living peacefully! Youre an inspiration to those of us still working towards our own healing journey's. Thank you for sharing your journey youve changed many lives, inuding your own. ❤

What does Gaz think of the real, whole, integrated you? Are you two still together? Next video maybe.

So much of this resonates with my experiences with OCD. I’m not *fully* recovered (may never be), but can hardly believe how I used to “function”

Does your asexuality affect the marriage at all ? I think I recall something about your husband and Ed having a relationship of sorts. Sorry if thats quite personal, dont feel compelled to answer. Just wondering how that has changed with the fusion, how hubby is handling things, and the relationship dynamics. 💖

Im so happy for you !! Since watching you, I have discovered I am a system myself and your channel has been really helpful and informative. Unbelievably happy to see you and your family thriving.

I found your vids because my therapist brought up did during a session, i have always had significant memory lapses and stuff but i always chalked it up to bad memory, because of all the people who are most seen online describe a very specific type of experience that i never had, inner worlds, dating alters and whatnot, its scary that i might have to come to terms with it, thank you for the well researched info it helps a lot

If you’re faking a mental illness chances are you have one yourself however don’t jump at the chance to do this as it stigmatizes these disorders even more. Also meet with a doctor and get a proper diagnoses because it will actually help you to have the correct one so you know what type of therapy and medication you need!

Fantastic way of calling yourself a liar. Nothing in mental health is "healed", that's the real truth. And why does no one speak upon the real issues. The difference between men and women. Violence. Full body numbness. This is a job for you, not a disability. You are another foolish girl. As bad as dissociaDID

you’re so empathetic compared to others talking about did. i don’t have it, but youtube seems like a whole ocean of michelle manas talking about 15 year olds named bug talking about their alters on discord servers as if they’re the biggest problem this world has, whereas this video isn’t mocking at all.

Thank you for checking in. I think of you occasionally and send my good vibes to you.

Thank you for all the work you've done, the work people like you do makes me a better social worker.