Fans: “Gaz is the best husband and cannot get any better” Jamie: “Hold my tea”

“DID is not about the alters but the TRAUMA” LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK

Oh Jess love. That flashback said so much about why us non-DID folks, with our inexplicable morbid curiosity about trauma, REALLY need to show respect and not ask stupid personal questions. Thank you for your frankness, it humbles me.

I carry a lot of trauma, and my boyfriend would always tell me to get over it. That life is life and I should just let it go. He once got so angry with me for having a panic attack because he was embarrassed. He left me a few days ago and it was crushing, because I do love him. But hearing Gaz try to calm you instead of shutting you out is a good reminder that I deserve more. And that there are partners out there who won't abandon you because of mental illness.

Also, can we all talk about how sweet Gaz was? I’m so glad that you have a husband like that.

I was aware that you guys have trauma and that it's the cause of your DID but actually hearing a panic attack really made me understand that fact. It was a really upsetting recording but what made me really upset and start crying was the idea that you guys had to go through something so bad and that someone did something so horrible to a child that this is the result. It took a lot of bravery to post that, but I feel like I've learned more about the PTSD side of DID just like everyone else who sees this video. Wish you guys the best, especially now with all of this uncertainty in the world!

"People like us aren't monsters but, the abusers who made us this way, are." I don't know the reason why I used to have panic attacks regularly but I believe I put them behind me and that clip was totally heart-wrenching for it was...real. That's how it looks like, and that's why it happens and I hope with all of my being that you can manage this in time, I know you will.

My partner has CPTSD and her panic attacks with/triggered by flashbacks sound so so similar to this. As a S/O, it is one of the most harrowing and horrific things to watch the person you love experience pain like this and to feel so useless. Listening to Gaz repeat the same things I say, the same way that I say them, is strange comfort to me. I do what I can, but most of the time, I am only her reminder to breathe. I admire the bravery it takes to show such vulnerability and honesty, especially with the nature of trauma-responses in DID and the openness of a platform like YT. Every day that I get to learn and listen to Jess and the boys is a privilege, and a step towards being a gentler and more understanding person overall. I am a better partner, daughter, and friend because of this channel. I approach the traumas of my loved ones, and my own trauma, with much more care and consideration. Thank you for sharing this with us, thank you for trusting us with this, and thank you for being a source of such light and compassion in a time of chaos like right now. ❤️

This is the side of DID that some forget about when they say things like "I wish I had DID" or "Isn't it just like having friends in your head?" It's so much more than that. We thank you all for being brave and putting something so personal out there for people to see. Much love from our system ❤️

As someone who doesn’t have DID, but wants to be educated I want to just send as much love as I possibly can to everyone in the community and just the world in general. I got so emotional watching this as I have friends who have PTSD and it is so beyond brave of you to share this and everything else you share. Sending a ton of love and encouragement and thanks for everything you do ♥️

Hi all! Thank you so much for watching and helping us bring this subject to light! There is a big trigger warning here for the audio clip involved as it's quite upsetting. The timestamps are as follows: The panic attack begins at 3:51, increases to a flashback by 4:06 and ends at 5:28. Links for further help & support are listed within the description, please take care of yourselves and practice self-care where necessary

Crying doesn't usually get to me... but that cry was so primal, such raw terror that it punched me right in the gut. I'm so sorry for what happened to you guys and I hope life will become easier. You forever have my support

I literally started crying as soon as the audio clip started. I could not even imagine how scary having to relive any of those memories, in any capacity. I am so so sorry to all of you. And also I am so so thankful that you all have Gaz as someone to help in all ways that he can. This absolutely broke my heart, but I think could be so helpful and important to others. You are all so strong and I am so proud of you all for posting this. You are amazing!

I'm getting mixed feeling because, as someone who doesn't have DID, this allows me to get a raw view of what u live with, but also makes me really sad and angry how the selfishness of another human been causes you that much pain :(. Truly admire your strenght and transparency and your will to educate us. Send you and your family a lot of love! 💙

As someone with cptsd, this is oddly.. comforting to see. It’s absolutely heartwrenching don’t get me wrong, but I have never had an experience with flashbacks similar in severity to mine being represented. People really aren’t aware how terrible and debilitating it can be. Especially when you have no support system, or access to help.

This was unbelievably courageous of you to put your vulnerability out there. These flashbacks can be horrific. It's nice to know I am not alone, yet I wish I were. That this disorder was never needed. That abuse/trauma was not in existence. But, this video helped in ways unspoken. I will go back into therapy with a heart that perhaps is a lil more brave. Again, thank you.

Those cries were purely harrowing, I'm so sorry for what you went through and continue to go through. I've been watching you since the early days and am so grateful you choose to share about your condition in such an insightful manner. You are so immensely strong as a system and Gaz seems like the most wonderful, helpful and supportive partner. I hope the therapy is going really well! ❤

Hearing that audio gave me the worst kind of chills. I had no idea flashbacks could be that intense! :( Thank you so much for sharing and educating. You are all immensely strong.

it hurts my heart to hear the raw pain and horror in the audio clip, and to know something so awful and horrifying happened to a child. the bravery of the whole system to put out something so personal is stunning. so much love to the system, and gaz, who is so lovely and wonderful. I have an anxiety disorder and I know how helpful it can be to have a loving and kind presence to guide you through the worst feelings and see you to the other side. you are all amazing people and you are breaking down barriers for mental health advocacy.

As a person with PTSD I greatly appreciate how incredibly vulnerable you have all been with showing panic attacks and flashbacks. You’re powerful and your husband seems like a lovely support.

It’s mad to think that even after all of that stress from the flashback they still managed to pick up the camera and give us the knowledge and information about what was happening. Strong is an understatement.

I actually started crying when i heard that voice recording. Gaz is so good of a husband and you all take care of yourselves. I couldn't imagine having to deal with something like that every day, it sound so heart wrenching. Im here to be educated as I had no idea that this was even a thing before a month ago and ive watched almost every video. Keep doing what youre doing and stay safe!

I’m sad that, for whatever reason, the system’s or his, Anthony Padilla didnt have you in his thing on DID. You’re all so amazing and have been working so hard to reduce the stigma. When I think of “DID spokesperson/activist’’ I’ve always thought of you all. So sorry things were tough at this point. Hoping they’re better now, for all of you. 💜

I am a therapist with a special interest in trauma and DID, I'm proud of all of you for this I think particularly Ed as I know from previous videos he is a little more private and hesitant about sharing this stuff. I feel like you're all moving forward together and it's beautiful to see 💕💕

The audio alone broke my heart. Really doesn't sound pleasant in the slightest. But it gives a clear imagine.. per say.. on how difficult D.I.D is. And it's dare I say interesting on how the body remembers but the mind doesn't! Sending lots of love guys, stay safe ❤

Oof that was hard to watch. But I think it was equally so, so important too. Thank you guys for sharing this in order to shed some light on just how life altering the severe anxiety effects of these types of disorders can be, whilst also proving that people can still have a life outside of your own mental health struggles by taking the good and the bad as they come and learning to cope xxx

Omg the worst part about the panic attack was that the audio sounded like a child crying. I'm so so sorry that you all have to experience this. I am sending you so much love and virtual hugs.

Panic attacks suck, emotional flashbacks suck, auditory flashbacks suck, visual flashbacks suck, complete flashbacks suck. It's really hard to understand how badly they suck if you've never gone through them, but I believe your clip shows it really well. A part of my trauma was not expressing what was going on. I felt like I had to pretend to be okay to protect my family from all the ridicule I got from school. My panic attacks and flashbacks reflect that, they're quiet even when they're internally extremely violent, I just collapse, throw up, squeeze my own hand or leg, curl up in a ball and cry silently. I couldn't scream if I wanted to. It's interesting (as much as I had to take breaks in between) to see a loud version of that. The pain is real either way. I wish you all the best in your recovery.

It hurts my heart knowing that Ed, Jake, and Jess go through flashbacks and panic attacks. I know this probably won't mean much but I've watched you guys for a long time and I genuinely care about and appreciate you (or at least how you present yourself online) I want you to know that people care and you aren't alone pls stay safe 💕

Jamie, Jess, Jake, Ed and Ollie you all are such amazing people. I can not imagine how difficult this particular video was to put out into the world. You are brave and worthy of so much more than the trauma you have been put through. I want you to know that we are here to listen and let your voice be heard. Sending you all, Gaz and Eve included, so much love and support.

We have an alter in our system who is like this so much. Just screaming and crying. Just hearing you it was so similar like you had recorded her. I genuenly without thinking went into action stations to calm things and then remembered it was you. Even now my heart is beating so fast. I applaud you for being so brave and we really look up to you so much. To see someone experience what we do. To hear it. Thank you so much. Even with just this one video you have done so much. 👏👏👏👏

At age 13 when you thought till that moment “I don’t have trauma and events that could cause trauma never happened to me” and were told “you went through traumatic events that you don’t remember” it must have been so difficult to process. It really must have caused a lot of pain for you when you started having panic attacks and other crises. I’m sorry that you had to deal with that

I had to pause hearing Jess panic made me cry right away. My panic attacks have gotten less the more i work with my d.i.d, but I'm right there with her, the pain and terror just... Thank you for being honest and brave enough to share this. We love you all. 💙

Phenomenal courage and bravery, sharing something here, that for us, at least, is accompanied by massive shame and self recrimination for just not knowing what is happening or has happened, despite it having been so real at the time. It has been a while since we had flashbacks so devastating as the audio you shared, but we do get the body and emotional memories often. This disorder is so very clever, this was not a conscious "thing" to not remember, but not remembering has allowed us, me, to have some level of normalcy in some small way. What you have shared here is so powerful, it was impossible to not be affected by it. I listened with gritted teeth and tight jaw and a fuzzy head, remembering the last time we can actually recall this happening to us, but no matter what, not remembering what we were remembering!! Jamie, you explained this for people so well, so clearly, people who may be experiencing these types of fbs and bms etc and not being able to understand the logic behind their seemingly illogical experiences! It's frustrating to us that we have a lot of insight into the theories and current understandings of dissociation and fbs and dysregulation etc but as yet, no clue how to pivot that insight in the direction of our own experiences in order to help ourself. In short, it's hard to have good insight when you cant remember much about much! Though at least with good info, with explanations with the clarity and simplicity that you employ to share them with us, Jamie, at least we are able to apply them in the wake of confusion, even if we cant at the time, which is a vast improvement on before when we were just in a full time muddle! Somehow hearing these things from you-as a system with whom we relate strongly, though our presentation is far less florid- those insights carry much more weight and meaning than when we have read them written by well intentioned therapists who admit to never having experienced these things. Again, we are going to say-you are so brave, courageous and powerful to override the instinct to file this stuff away, manually compartmentalise the mess and keep the fact of your success and "okness" at the front of peoples' minds. In fact, to me, seeing and hearing the truth of your vulnerability, I believe that you are so much MORE successful, MORE ok and do even better than I knew you did anyway! Because you are not successful "in spite" of these painful experiences, you are successful and manage so well in addition to these being a part of your life. The biggest thing that I will take away from watching this is: being vulnerable does not make a person weak. Allowing your fear and vulnerability to be visible and to be afraid but do it anyway, that makes you so incredibly powerful, so full of courage. And this is why you survived, all of you. Because you were able to use your strengths to weather the most fearful and terrifying and dangerous storms, and find creative ways to survive and thrive. What others see as that Hollywood "monster" to us, seeing you now.... you are no monster, you are a warrior. You are the writer of your story. Thank you 💜

Our dog came running when she heard your panic attack. She was really alarmed. I hope you guys are oké 💖

Jamie, you used the phrase "People with DID can still live fruitful lives." I have to say, I laughed out loud, because (of course) I heard in my brain the biblical phrase "Be fruitful and multiply!" How apropos! Love to you all, thank you for sharing yourself, your family, and your journey with us. I appreciate you so much!

I don’t have DID but I do have PTSD and this was very validating. The audio was heartbreaking but as someone who has experienced flashbacks to this severity I felt so heard and understood. So thank you. ❤️

We weren't doagnosed w/DID until recently at age 51 and this makes so much sense why we didn't know all these years. Thank you! 💜💜💜

I have CPTSD and suffer from flashbacks and anxiety attacks too. It's not fun. Hearing the absolute raw terror and pain in your voices, throughout the video, was very intense, very necessary for some people to understand, and very sad. I just wanted to reach out and hug you, to help you feel like you weren't alone. Sometimes in our pain and trauma it can feel that way, but I love how you reached for Gaz and how loving and supportive he is of you. Ed, you're not broken, babes. None of you are broken. The person who hurt you is. You are all survivors and have the strength of titans. Sending you much love and support.

As heart wrenching as that audio was to hear, it definitely spoke VOLUMES about the side of DID & other mental illnesses that most people don’t know about & this awareness is important... I do not have DID but I do struggle with mental illnesses of my own & I have had panic attacks, so this was triggering (I appreciate the warning, though) but it reminded me that those of us who struggle, in any way, are tremendously strong... I can not commend you enough for your bravery & transparency to show us this side & it pains me deeply that you have to go through this because some monster put you through this... I’m so glad you have a supportive husband to help you & I’m wishing your system the absolute best! Thank you for fighting the good fight! 💚💚💚

I cried and I didn't know hearing this would affect me this much. I've been sitting here teared up for about 20 minutes. And to think that you are far from the only one going through this. It's heart wrenching. Guys you are so strong and brave, even if you don't feel that way. Thank you for educating us non-DIDs and being so open about your experiences. I know it sounds cheeky but I love you all so much. I feel like you're my friends of some sort even though you probably don't know I exist. Lots of love to each and every one of you, and Gaz and little Evee (or Eve, I'm not sure how to spell her name, sorry) Edit: tried to become a patron... But I don't have a credit card. PayPal seems to require a credit card as well. So that sucks.

I know you guys were debating whether or not you wanted to post this but I'm glad you did, I think it gives people without PTSD a good understanding of what it can be like. Times are tough right now in the community and in the world in general, take care of yourselves!

I don’t have DID, but I have PTSD and all the memories of my traumatic childhood. I envy the amnesia part of DID, because I remember everything and with so much detail it’s unbearable. Not only that, my trauma made me a person with better than average memory, and that includes the trauma memories. Watching video’s about DID started as a curiosity thing for me, and I had no idea trauma is the thing that triggers DID to develop in the first place. After years of watching educational videos about DID, I’m now in the fase of processing the trauma memories and trying to heal from the traumas. Probably a lot of people watching your videos started watching because of curiosity, but some suffered traumatic situations too, like me, and are getting help from these videos, like me.

Hearing the pain jess was in during that flashback was so so so upsetting. You can hear her literally reliving that trauma. I'm so sorry this happened to you

Thank you for trusting us with this intimate side of you and your whole system, thank you also to Jamie for explaining everything so very well and thank you for making me and others who may suffer from panic attacks not feel so alone. Sending alll my love and well wishes 💖

This broke my heart💔 no one should have to go through this. It makes me angry people would do this to children and affect them for life

"We have to live a fractured life through no fault of our own" Very well said Jamie ❤️❤️

No, D.I.D isn't trendy and all funny awkhard situations Thank you Jamie, for putting it into the light. You're all very brave, and determined for sending such a message by sharing your personal experience. You truly are models for our system -Nils

Thank you. My best friend has DID and one of his EP’s is a little who I’ve witnessed have flashbacks and it’s so heartbreaking. All I can do is hold him until he switches again.

This video is so so so important. DID is so much more than just having alters. Also “It’s a nightmare! ... And, those too. They can happen too.” made me laugh WAY more than I should have asdfghjkl maybe because I’m an ANP? Idk lol -Alex

I've had breakdowns that sound scarily similar to that and I think I might suffer from cptsd. Thank you for sharing this with us. As much as hearing a similar singular experience of trauma to what I have heard out of my body is terrifyingly reality shattering, it's also... something I am thankful you shared.

holy god. you weren't kidding that was going to be upsetting. im so sorry. i have ptsd too but never have episodes where i end up screaming. plenty of crying and dissociating and panicking, but i've never screamed like that before. im so sorry. i feel for you guys so much

Wow this video was so eye opening. I’ve never really seen this part of someone who is struggling with DID and even though I knew that this disorder stems from the evil in the world but until now, everytime I watch a video from a DID creator it always slips my mind how horrible it really is. I was always only intrigued about the alters and their personality and just the surface of it. Cause just hearing about panic attacks isn’t the same as actually hearing/seeing it happen. Thank you for sharing this. It must have been hard but you guys are very brave to do this. 💛💛💛💛

My heart broke when that audio clip played. You and the alters are amazing to be strong and share that with us.

I was diagnosed DID in 2003 and ever since my system has been aware of this channel, we have begun to have the utmost respect for you’re system.

I don't have DID but I have had panick attacks and yes I imagine mine sounded just like that. I am so thankful my husband is much like yours and can help me though that dark moment. I know how terrifying it can be to not have any control of the tears and the breathing. May your medications and therapy help you get back to a more stable place.. I haven't had an attack for a couple of years now, but I aslo have recognized many of my triggers and avoid them like the plague.

Thank you for this, Jess and Jamie. I completely understand why you guys wouldn't want to show these things all the time. But your vulnerability in showing this footage just shows how DID is NOT something that should be romanticised or seen as something enviable, and I think that's a really important message to put out. Can I also just say - Gaz was SO supportive

Hearing that audio broke my heart...you guys are so strong and brave for posting this 💕

This gives me such mixed emotions, heartache aswell as a sense of connection? I have D.I.D, and used to hear voices, and I've never heard someone go through that same sort of panic attack and flash back. I thought i was alone in feeling that intense retched pain, the sobbing and throat breaking crying, I didn't realise others have to go through that too. I'm so sorry. It's horrendous, and I never want anyone else to go through it. I wish I could take the pain and deal with it for both of us. ♥️ My heart goes to you

I don't have DID, but I do have PTSD from my childhood. I've been going to trauma therapy for a year now and this video really resonated with me. Hearing the flashback made me feel less alone. I feel so alone when i have them and it's comforting to know that I'm not exactly abnormal.

For someone like me who doesnt have did but have mental disorders this was so raw and hard to watch, but I'm so glad I did as I have learned even more about you and the did community, thank you for doing what your doing and please stay strong ❤🙂❤ x

Oh my goodness Jamie thank you so much! Jess and the boys and Gaz, I'm so proud of you!!!! Good job guys this is amazing! This is so helpful and gives us a sense of solidarity. I don't often (you know ever) see other people experience panic attacks on this level. Especially while staying functional. Like we usually are. Makes me feel like I'm not by myself. I'm not so weird. You guys aren't weird, so maybe I'm not. Thanks guys We love you

Jamie, I don’t have DID, I have written to you about de-stigmatising DID as Mindful Raven,I would still like to work with you on this, but only when you all are up to it. The community needs support.

being someone where i go completely nonverbal, like almost no crying, no speech, just pure breathing when i flash back, this really sent me back on how opposite someone else can be. this really showed me another side, and i’m glad you were brave enough to edit this and show this to the world

That audio was powerful, so brave of you to share something so vulnerable!

That audio clip broke my heart, I am so sorry that you experience this. I have so much admiration for you guys (and Gaz as well) for how brave and determined you are. Your channel is a lifeline to so many people. I think you are so creative and courageous and every video is so informative and personable. I am really glad that you have such a lovely family and a great career and although you're suffering you are still not letting it stop you from succeeding in life. In fact I think you have achieved more than most people ever will and that is fantastic. Keep going guys! Love and support, G x

This is a really remarkable thing for you to be willing to share. I'm embarrassed to say that, even as a long-time viewer of your channel and being logically aware that DID only exists because of trauma, there was still a part of me that thought, "but it's kinda cool, though, right? like, they have a whole inner world! there are multiple people in one person!" This raw reality was a wake-up call for me as to just how deep that trauma runs and what you have to deal with constantly. I send you so much love as you continue to do this hard work to process and heal.

It is extremely difficult to explain to a person who has not themselves experienced a flashback/s and/or panic attack/s how debilitating, horrifying, and seemingly never-ending it/they can be, but you have done so, so well with this video. It is one of the more honest videos I feel like I have seen and is so important for that. I'm so sorry for what you all have gone through.

I can't even begin to process how hard and scary releasing this video must be. The amount of courage you guys have is unimaginable. You inspire me to handle life as best I can everyday

This hit me harder than I thought it would. I sometimes struggle with flashbacks, too. It's hard to see the dark side of the past, especially when you think you're stable and everything is fine. Send you lots and lots of love and strength. Stay safe.

"But the people who made us this way, are." I love that.

I think this is my favorite video so far. “We are not monsters but the people that made us this way are” probably has to be my favorite thing I’ve ever heard ❤️

OMG thank you Jess for filming and explaining this, and thank you Jamie for presenting it all. Seriously, I can't imagine having this kind of courage, but this is so helpful l. We've been struggling to understand how we can be fine one minute and crushed or panicked the next. Feeling memories I don't recall or the kids having nightmares that seem to come from no where, etc. This makes so much sense now! And Jamie, you're manner and voice made it feel safe to think about this. I don't know if we could have got through it without your presence, so thank you for helping our protectors protect us while we learn. Thank you, thank you, thank you ❤️ You after both being real heroes right now! And don't deny it, because you are (as a system) our hero and today you two just stepped that up to a new level.

This is such an important video, Jess we just want to give you the biggest hug, when I’ve heard that awful cry on recordings of myself it’s always made me feel so alone, because no human should made a sound like that, no one should be in so much pain... but this video helps me to feel like others understand 💕 you are an incredible system of wonderful people and knowing that it’s normal to go through this stuff when you have a traumatic background just means everything... and learning what that means and how the brain is behaving is really helpful for people... thank you so much for putting this out 💕

I've tried three times to type this out, but each time just can't find the words to say. The audio clip was emotionally moving (Tldr: I cried), it made me want to reach through the screen and comfort you. Gaz is a wonderful person, and you are such an amazing bunch of people, I find you all absolutely inspiring! Thank you to the entire system for compromising on the audio clip, it just highlights the severity of DID and other PTSD related mental illnesses - it really isn't a joke. Thank you again, and sending love to you, your system and your family 💖

"I'm not defined by my scars but by my incredible ability to heal" 💞

Woah that was tough to watch, I can’t even fathom the courage you must have to post this. Thank you so much for sharing this with us, it’s an incredibly important thing that people need to know about. You are all so inspirational and brave ❤️

The body memories are absolutely horrendous for us, we get them so long and so harsh that it can send us into a suicidal spiral if it doesn't end within a few days. This happens every month for around 5 days of increasingly long symptoms that then taper off after an apex of intensity. The flashbacks are are almost entirely tactile, with audio features, and with extreme insomnia, full body ratcheting up tension, and hyperarousal in every way. We have found nothing effective for this, grounding has made it worse, no medication has been approved for this shit... So now we self-medicate ourselves into a "coma" to get through. You guys are incredibly brave for showing this, we are terrified of being seen that way but it is so so helpful for us to see that we're not making this up. Thank you 🖤

I'm so sorry that you bear the consequences of another's horrible choices. You are so strong and sharing your story is such a brave way to help others.

On a personal level as someone who has had to relive flashbacks ourselves. Thank you for this video. It is so hard for people to understand what we are going through or what we are experiencing. The inability to sleep. The inability to feel safe in a safe environment at that moment in time. You have our support and well wishes. And thank you for sharing this. Thank you for advocating for those with mental health. Thank you for giving them a voice.

maybe by showing that you can prevent some people from wishing of having DID and stop the thought that it is so wonderful cos you have friends all the time with you and your own world inside your head. Truly much love from me in this dark times

This was probably one of the hardest things I've ever watched/listened to, but I am so glad you guys took the chance to be vulnerable with your audience and the Internet. DID is so much more than the alters, thank you so much for taking the chance to educate everyone on this. I hope your trauma processing goes better, you are loved.

This was powerful in so many ways. I also am a practicing therapist who had to take a step back during studying due to being triggered and countertransferance, so I understand how much of a set back it can feel at the moment. Thank you for being vulnerable.

I can barely handle myself, and you have managed to all operate within one system. Props to you and I have definitely educated myself more into DID, and continuing to learn. Thank you, Jaime.

I've been watching your channel for years and I'm happy to say your channel was my introduction to DID. My view of the condition was shaped by you rather than the movies. Hearing the audio of your panic attack was a powerful tool to show how this type of pain consistently inflected on a child with no hope of escape can fragment. With that being said, I'll be happy to watch your journey as long as you post and I wish all of you well.

Sending lots of warm wishes your way! Always happy with any content you release and really grateful to be trusted with the vulnerability. ❤️❤️

So hard, but IMPORTANT, to listen to. This is what it sounds like when my mom has a panic attack (not PTSD flashbacks to our knowledge) and I always feel so helpless. It is helpful to know that these reactions are something others do as well. It feels like the end of the world. It's terrifying. It sounds like death. What a... sad normal? I'm having a really hard time expressing myself. I feel I might accidentally come across insincere or dismissive. Hearing Gaz helps. I have panic attacks but nothing like this. And occasionally during this there are calls to die. I want to be able to support like this. Thanks for listening. For sharing. You guys inspire.

I want you to know, I found your channel after I witnessed a very traumatic event. Although I do not have DID, I do suffer from PTSD and some memory blocks. You all help me so very much by showing that we are not alone. I have so much love and gratitude for everyone. Thank you.

Jamie is so eloquently spoken 💕 love ALL of you.

Oh my heart. My heart for you all. I don’t know how to convey how strong, intelligent and wonderful you all are. I can’t believe how long I’ve been following you all - I’ve been so happy to see you get married, have a baby girl, Ollie growing and maturing, and you continually reaching out to help others at the same time and braving your own trauma. Thank you.

I'm sorry you all are dealing with these attacks. We all here on KZfaq love you and are sending our love. I hope things get better for all of you. You're all so strong and smart and I'm extremely thankful for all of you and this channel. Thank you for sharing all this with us.

So sorry that you have to go through this broke my heart hearing the audio but can I just say you are so brave for sharing this x

I respect Jamie and all of the rest of you so much for sharing so many personal things about yourself in the interest of educating others like myself who don't have DID or PTSD. It can't be an easy decision to put things like this out there - thank you so much for being so raw with us

It was SO brave for you to even post the audio of your attack up. The last time I heard someone crying like that they had dislocated their ankle during a rugby game. And just like then, hearing you cry out broke my heart. I cannot even fathom how terrifying it would be for your body to react to something you cant mentally remember happening. You are all so so so amazing. You are so tough and amazing warriors.

You are so brave for posting this, I feel like I’ve been following along for so long but it has NEVER hit like this. This is so important for people to know. This is raw and real.

when Jaimie said "one by one" ... that thought of someone having to go through all this trauma processing ... I literally had goosebumps. I'm really happy I don't have trauma right now. Thanks.

So, getting diagnosed and having a name to everything is very important to me but my psychiatrist barely agreed to even try diagnosing me and doesn't help think about potential diagnosiss i can get at all so im completely alone with this. Because i dont get any info from any professionals and because alot of the information online is either misleading or very confusing im having a really hard time to find any names that i can relate to. But, now that i heard that audio clip it just made sense to me. I think that it's gonna really help me identify my own problems. So i just wanted to say thank you for putting this out there, i cant imagine how hard it was but it means so much! Edit: they liked it Holy shit

Thank you so much for being vulnerable enough to show us what living with DID and trauma is like. So helpful for those of us dealing with CPTSD to see we aren’t alone and can still live normal lives.

I feel honored to be able to hear something that's so hard for you to go through. Every time I watch a video on DID/OSDD-1B (hope I got that right), and other hardships people have to go through I am struck by a few things: 1. How blessed we are to have people strong enough to talk about it 2. How incredibly wrong it is that these things are still stigmatized 3. How much we as the internet often demand answers or proof or footage, when really we don't need any of it - I am in awe of what I see, and would support your system, every system, and every one struggling...

Every video you guys make blows me away. You explain even the most sensitive topics with such grace. Thank you for doing the work you do. You inspire me every day.