When I explained that I discovered that the default view always comes up with "top comments" to my sister-in-law, and what happens because of that, she asked the question that was completely relevant. Who decides what is more important. I told her that, in some views, I am one of the closest people to the camera in this video, and yet the things I write are not even seen because of this. She does not think it is my vanity that has me upset about this, and she explained how frustrated she would be concerning these things. What I found is that "something" is deciding what will even been seen, much less placed in some order on this page. Whoever, or whatever, is choosing these things did exactly what I explained. The one post that talked about love, faith, and hope was gone. It was a loveless thing that did that because it did not understand that short statement had these things contained in it. If it was an AI, people programed it to make the decisions it makes. I was not joking about the "stuck poop" ads. This makes me wonder about the AI? It also makes it very suspicious, that an unbeliever in Jesus Christ is actually making those decisions and deciding on those ads that come in distasteful timing. Or the AI is programmed by people that are so ungodly, that this is how the AI behaves! I will mention the phone thing again. I really don't think people understand the negative impact that had, and has, on me.

I think about the phone thing on occasion, and I realize that if things were right in a marriage, that woman or that man would have absolutely no reason to want to listen in or read a private journal. In fact, I now remember how my brother and his wife kept a personal journal. It was a journal of thoughts for each other to read. What an awesome idea! I am thinking, I would rather be completely honest, about everything...no matter how ridiculous or wrong I am... with the woman I love. I would hope for the same respect, and that if we cannot stand each other's actual wrongs (not personality dislikes) and help each other in those things rather than walk away from each other, then it is time to work on ourselves for a lack of forgiveness.

The bad news is that the strange ads were coming way before I mentioned them. I realize that now I have to see them even more often! I really don't need these products...but the AI doesn't know that either.

That guy doesn't want anyone else, and he doesn't need anything else. Maybe he needs someone else to help him understand that God placed us here for a reason, and that counselor that he says he doesn't need might help him understand this...but he doesn't need other people...all he needs is Jesus, even though he won't listen to Jesus telling him he needs another person to confess to...like His Word explains.

It is not time to delete this statement yet. You can keep arguing a point if you want, but this man came out there for an argument. He needs another person in his life to confess his reasons for arguing with me. He might actually need some counseling too. I don't know him, but I believe he came out there to directly argue with me. Why? That song is problematic, and it is causing people to turn His House off. I still have to wonder why that does not matter to His House leadership that is trying to survive this. They can lack wisdom if they want, and I can now move on from this argument. One day, I came back after about 20 minutes. I had something to do, and she was singing these words when I walked away. When I came back, she was still repeating the words. I wonder how many new people were turning His House on because they read about the controversy. If they had not heard this when they first turned it on...they might have stayed with you. But they heard this and made their decision based on a song that is problematic. I have to wonder if that proud woman that did not mind it pissing my mother off is going to keep being proud like that?

In talking about confessing our sins to another human being, God puts one person at a time in my life for such a purpose. His timing is also perfect. One of the most difficult and personal sins is easily eradicated when I am completely honest...every time! God gave me the perfect person to communicate such things with. The fact that the person's face turned red the last time I confessed tells me there will not be a next time, and I will not lie or omit such a thing again. In this way...God put a stop to somethings I used to do. This is why we must confess to one another and be honest! It is embarrassing to have to admit something to someone else. It is much easier to tell God and keep on sinning...it is not as easy when confronted with the human aspect of confessing.

Something is happening inside that second guy. He is behaving very strangely after talking to him about God and praying for him. He works where she does, and he has been asking people about my brother. Then he went off on her about how she was putting my brother on a pedestal that he did not deserve? He also said that everyone else there was doing the same thing. He spouted out something about my brother's sins with another employee, before my brother met my sister-in-law. He seemed upset that all those people held my brother in such esteem. I am guessing that he is upset that she refused him, even though he is married, and she loves my brother enough to at least give things a lot of time in her heart before moving on. She is where I am right now on the matter of marriage. Considering what is happening in the world, there may not be much time left anyway...because time ends now anyway, but certainly after we are given glorified bodies. This will be soon, and I know where my heart is on this matter. God did so much to help me understand what He meant the day I wrestled with Him. I am with God on that matter after remembering the woman I still love like no other woman told me that God is not a liar when I was wrestling again later on. My sister-in-law remembered me talking about pedestals. When he kept talking about my brother being on a pedestal he did not deserve before her and everyone else's eyes, she was wishing I had been there. I told her that I wish for the same thing, and if he does it again, to call me, and I will come right over and set him straight! She knew his faults, and by no means placed him on any pedestal he did not deserve. It would seem to me they loved each other correctly. He was looking at God first and trying to love her properly in a human frame. She was looking at him because he was looking at God. She knows her relationship with God...and she also understood her place with her husband, that God gave to her. Yes...that man is acting very strangely! I am going to keep praying for him because something is obviously happening, and I pray that God grabs him in all that confusion inside of him.

stay mad 😃

It just occurred to me that the second pastor actually lied to me because of his control issues about the reason for the meeting. I was there to talk about starting that ministry at his church. This was the supposed purpose he gave to me for that meeting. His actual purpose, after lying to me, was to confront one of my (my) leaders, that the Holy Spirit had already spoken to me about. The Holy Spirit told me to be patient with him and it would work its way out by the time we were ready. That pastor's control issues completely blew away that prospect of starting a Celebrate Recovery in his church. It was a few weeks later that he broke up with his girlfriend, under direction of the Holy Spirit, because the Holy Spirit spoke beautifully to that man, a very simple man that was my best friend for a time. More control issues came about, and we realized that starting a meeting in that now, gone, church would be impossible when he had to have someone that knew absolutely nothing about twelve step programs in charge, because it was his informant for that church. That was unnecessary...but who can tell an arrogant pastor anything that matters the most. He thought I was disrespecting him in his office. That was not me!!!!

I actually had to lie to this pastor to calm him down after Jesus spoke to him through me. I lied when I told him he was right. It was the only way he would calm down, was to tell him a lie and say he was right. This is when, I tried my best to keep a straight face and listen to him explain his childhood and his issues after Jesus confronted him. The real expression would have been my jaw dropping to the ground as I sat and listened to this man confessing to me, in a meeting where we were supposed to be talking about starting a ministry! Then he calls my current pastor, at the time, to complain about me? I went outside again after writing this. The Holy Spirit fire surrounded me in a pleasant fire as some tears fell over all of this. I prayed for HIs churches again!

I meditated again in all of this, and it kept coming to me something else that makes me cry...but at least this was better...coming from a humble heart. The Holy Spirit caused me to pull this pastor aside one day. Things had happened that I won't explain here, but those things He directly said to me to do caused me to see an issue with that church that He wanted corrected, and I listened to Him about how to do this. Although he did not want to go over the document that reached him, written partially and firmly by the Holy Spirit, he was thinking about telling me being there was in jeopardy. But he did not want to discuss that letter that someone that I trusted to keep that letter between us private...left it where someone would see it. I thank God it was just the sound person! The Holy Spirit can be very firm, and once again, this was my private journal that was mishandled by someone I was trusting to help me deal with this...one of my leaders. Sometimes, I have to wonder, is it truly God that is the only one trustworthy. I guess He is right again! But that was obviously supposed to happen, and I thank God for that wise and humble man. God bless him and his wife! I pulled him aside and the Holy Spirit asked him, through me, "Who is in charge of this church?" I had to stop him, almost immediately, twice. It was the third time that the light bulb came on. He then corrected himself, explaining that, of course, Jesus is in charge of His Church. God...help me, I just started crying again. If it took that humble man three times...please God, help your Churches!!!!

I have to wonder why a detail like this would come to my memory as I am so loving the sound and words coming from His House. I remember that the pastor and his wife attended a pastor's event there, before he said something to me. I told him I was floored and bewildered concerning someone telling him anything about me...especially when he never heard my side of things. I basically told him I was ready to just give up on it all and walk away.

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Thanks! I'm feeling pretty dang proud of myself right now!

It's such a good game!

Sorry, I didn't realize you were wanting to play Co op yesterday! Hopefully next time 🫶

Heck yes!

Thanks much! Feel free to hit me up for co-op!

The more I think about it, I have to wonder if the numbers did not add up because of the second part, but there is nothing I can change about that. Only that I can keep believing. The name of that journal entry was...To Bring Them Together.

Are you seriously promoting your own book in my comments? Get out of here.

@@SieNoel Well, how do pastors control audiences (or lie to them)? How do they actually do it? Well, have you considered that pastors use NLP or Neuro-Linguistic Programming? Well, actually they do. The Leader at IHOP KC... did, in fact, use NLP on congregants and staff. Therefore, you might be interested in the book. If you don't want to look into it, then forget the book. It is good to know how pastors can tell lies and get away with it. Answers are good. It is good to know how cons work.

@@SieNoel Are you curious HOW the leader of IHOP KC... actually gained psychic control and kept it all those years. The above book is a how-to-understand lesson for exactly, precisely what y'all went through. So learn what the answer is?

@@robertburke9920 wow, you have the one real true answer and all we have to do is give you money? yeah, you do seem to understand exactly what they were doing. dude. come on.

It was fun! Thanks for having me. Hit me up when you're gonna play next! Happy to help.

Damn...the tears started falling again!

For whatever it's worth, I wasn't typically trying to look at people in the room when I played, the exception being when my friend told me that they were being mistreated and I could see the meeting happening in the side room. Generally was focused on playing. I do not know of any in-person support groups and I have not lived in Kansas City since 2019 to be up to speed on what's going on there Appreciation the clarification that you misunderstood because I really am not sure what you were referring to! Is your username your name? I am not sure if we ever met, which team of mine'e sets did you come to? You don't have to answer, just trying to place what era you're referring to

@@SieNoel Never met, just remember people...love music and had admiration for those that make the music. One reason wish I could go back...there was just something good about being in the prayer room, minus the manipulation, lies, spies, arrogance, Mike Bickle, and on and on. There are a few that would know my name. I will no longer be silenced!

Nancy and I had a conversation about that a little bit before all the mike stuff came out

Why are you asking me this question in public? Why wouldn't we chat about this in public?

Because exposing evil is always a good thing.

Shining a light into the darkness is done through speaking out!

They are brave and truthful, perhaps. Those of you attempting to keep the evil perpetuated by Mike Bickle and his “followers” , in the dark are failing!

You're not wrong in asking that question. What's revealing is how the host avoided answering. Blessings.

Nah. This was an Instagram live that I imported here. Didn't ask for feedback on the shot, it's not what's important about the content here.

@@SieNoelit seems you have an issue you seem to be fighting everybody we get it you had a bad time in ihop but stop Acting like a bitch someone is just trying to make your awful video better so you can reach out more people isn’t that the purpose of the video?

Headstone: good point, an improvement

@@laurie9993 "Headstone"?

Breadstone: Opps, sorry! My mistake