I lost my son ,he also shot himself ,je struggled with depression,we have lived with such heart break for many years ,we loved him and he loved us but life became to hard for him to cope with .He felt he could not live like this ,every day sometimes so happy and sometimes so sad .Please get help,if only we could have taken all that sadness from him ,We miss him so much it leaves part of us dead inside our hearts .We love you all dont destroy yourself,you are loved and special .

My heart breaks hearing your story. Im so sorry Emily. Zach sounds like he was so cool and and loving person. My nephew's friend took his life 3 months after he got married, 24 years old. Last week, my sister in laws son took his life. He too was 24.

I am so sorry my uncle killed him self 12/31/2022 we tried our hardest to save him before he took his own life but couldn’t now am considering doing the same thing

Autism all the way buddy!

I thought this was common sense

They super care ❤, they do not have time yo reach out with family & coworkers

Thanks for sharing the video. Was suicidal for two years until 8 months ago because of going through so much in life and my 8-year soulmate who had been my life partner, best friend, motivation, work partner… I was stranded in a foreign country in denial that she was still emotionally connected with me, two years of pain living together with her boyfriend in the same building, paying for their lifestyle. We went drinking together, I was still giving the best to her while she was publicly kissing and hugging her boyfriend. Every night we went home from bars and clubs, it was always my fault that I caused drama, staring at the starry skies from the balcony, not knowing what to do. I met her last month just to collect some of my important stuff, her boyfriend was next to us the whole time crossing his arms in silence. I still love her but I know I need to let go. I can never understand why she has changed so much because she was never like this. But I have to live through it and nothing is going to be worse than this. :) I am so much better now, I keep meeting new faces for building my life back, but today I just felt emotionally exhausted because my comparison brain was subconsciously switched on. At 37, I feel like I have so much to catch up on. Just like your brother, when I was in the ‘situation’, I was too inside that I didn’t know how to get out of it. I had to turn off my camera and mute my mic halfway during my meeting because of any pop music could trigger my emotions, tears running down. You can do it! You’re such an amazing soul! (My apologies that my writing is all over the place)❤ Josh 2

If you want to make long-lasting friendships, consider visiting the Philippines. And after visiting for about a month, consider living there six months a year. You'll meet some of the friendliest people on the earth.

i understand your feeling, same thing with my nephew, he shot himself when he turned to 21 years old . he drove himself and got shot himself and car was hit someone's home. long time ago. it was hurt myself too young to die. maybe he did suicide. dont understand why he do it.

Have you deleted a ton of videos???

Jesus had great impact on my loneliness feelings knowing god is with me and would send people even if idont have now but i trust in him bec he loves his children. Bible Verses for Loneliness Isaiah 41:10 ~ Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Psalm 27:10 ~ For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the Lord will take me in. Matthew 28:20 ~ Teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” Deuteronomy 31:6 ~ Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” 1 Peter 5:7 ~ Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. Psalm 23:4 ~ Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. Genesis 2:18 ~ Then the Lord God said, “It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him.” Psalm 147:3 ~ He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. John 14:18 ~ “I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Psalm 68:5-6 ~ Father of the fatherless and protector of widows is God in his holy habitation. God settles the solitary in a home; he leads out the prisoners to prosperity, but the rebellious dwell in a parched land.

THERE s isn’t always a way or solution. For some, not feeling seems better than feeling. Accept that he is free of his pain and as much as he wanted, he couldn’t think of anyone, despite loving you all immensely. You’ll meet him again. I do believe, those on the other side connect, in dreams, thoughts and guidance. The world will forever keep creating us, through DNA. What brought us about, has nowhere to go, so new life will always take place. Also it wouldn’t surprise me if our non physical side looks for its own kin at birth. May all blessings available reach your hearts.

Ask yourself, what potential relationship would you pursue with a person if your job never came into play? As Josh has alluded to, a job does not make "family" or "friends" in and of itself. Quite often, people use those terms VERY loosely, IMHO. "Cordial" does not equal "family" or "friend".

Having "friends" is detriment. All people are in competition with you, whether you consider them "friends" or not. The sooner you realize this, the better off you'll be.

When I listened to what you were saying it was like listening to a clone of myself. You don't have to overly explain because as bizarre as it sounds, I feel like you and me are almost the same person. I hope someday I'll be lucky enough to make friends and bond with a guy like you. So that when me and that guy get together, we will both so get each other that we'll be able to relax and celebrate our own and each other's little breakthroughs in life without having to hide our real selves. Very good content. Keep up the great work!

I've had my share of lonliness living here in the Seattle area, until I met one lady who made me realize I tend to click with only certain kinds of people.. actually she's an immigrant from Venezuela and a mom like me. We just really hit it off and I'm so grateful, because I was starting to feel like making friends is impossible. I don't do well around people who are very self-centered, arrogant or immature, and find it exhausting to deal with people like that. My Venezuelan friend helps me with my Spanish and is also so kind and nonjudgmental. I then started to notice that I get along best with the Hispanic community, I think because their culture tends to be so warm and down to earth. I started using language apps and now have quite a few aquaintances around the world; many more people to connect with than I do locally. Growing up in the 80s we didn't have the internet so I really like being able to connect even with people from far away.

Wow. They wouldn't allow you to work the 2wk notice, I definitely wouldn't have cared after that. SOP deleted....y'all figure it out on your own.

i live in Seattle, You will like it.

I had two friends that killed themselves. One by drug overdose and the other threw himself in front of a truck. Additionally, I had a high school classmate who killed himself also. He was chronically depressed. Being mentally ill myself, I nearly killed myself years back in a crazy out of control psychotic episode. I'm happy to rebound from that episode. Luckily it was a crazed self injury episode and not a true planned suicide attempt. But the potential results were the same as a suicide. I'm so sorry to hear of your brother's passing under such trying circumstances. Your anguish and grief is understandable and thankfully your brother was loved. Loved by you that is, and that is important. Take care of yourself.

When I left my last job noone😢 l mean no one can or called me from my last job even though I was there for 3 years.

Emily, I just watched your video. Obviously this was hard to watch because I could feel your pain and it hurt to see you going through this. I have lost both my parents and my older brother to death by natural causes. My brother died suddenly on the 20th anniversary of 911. It was the worst day of my life. I miss him and just wish I could speak with him. I know your circumstances are different but I want you to know that even though we are strangers my heart goes out to you and your family in a very real way. Please do me a favor. I don't want you to relive that day in your mind. Please don't do that to yourself. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. The Lord is close to the broken hearted and He cares for you more than you know. Reach out to Him. We will never fully understand why everything happens in this life but you have a support system and people who love you. You are in my prayers.

Jobs come and go - and as someone who worked in tech for 10 companies in the past 15 years… I only talk to 2-3 people still. None of them are close friends. The calls and texts slowly trickle away once you don’t work together and have a shared experience. And that’s okay! I have loose connections for future jobs, but I’ve never maintained a real friendship with anyone. Are you Christian by chance? My husband started a local chapter of a group at church to make friends in our neighborhood and he’s got like 8 guys he’s done “Exodus90” with for the past few winters. These guys really bonded - it’s a cool program! Check it out!

I was 20 when I lost my big brother to suicide, less than 2 years after our other brother died tragically and suddenly of an accidental OD. They were attached at the hip, I don’t think he could handle the loss on top of all the trauma and mental illness he suffered with and the physical disability he had gotten a few years before his death. It was just too much. My whole family has struggled a lot, my father was abusive and we all have struggled but my brother struggled more than most of us. He was a very sensitive, passionate soul. I hate that he died the way he did. I have another layer of PTSD from it, it was so violent and the way he looked after and how the mortician described his last minutes is stuck in my head. I dont blame him. I don’t think suicide is a moral failing, there’s just only so much a person can take. Everyone’s limits are different. I just wish he hadn’t been in so much pain, I wish someone could’ve helped. It broke my heart. He could’ve been so much more, he was a musician and such a funny, charming guy. His highs were high and his lows were low, he felt everything to the fullest. If only he didn’t have to carry so much pain in the soft, precious heart he had.

In general this is true, but I met a lady on the job and we've been friends the past 8 years

I have attempted suicide twice, and in the last minutes before I went faint, I knew that I was extremely selfish, and that I would be the cause of lifelong trauma for my loved ones., although I had no good relationships back then. I remember praying to God that I was sorry, and I said please don't let me die. I was found in the area , and was hospitalised. I got involved in Jesus Christ's Words, and through that I have found healing. That was 11 years ago, and my life really changed step by step, and I am so grateful for every days.

I'm sorry to see your pain. He was indeed truly, authentically loved. With a family, friends, support & even employment. What everyone deserves and truly needs. Zack sounds like an amazing person, like you, his sister. I have nothing. No family. No home, no job. Wondering how I've survived this long and how many more days I can do it. In addition to a lifetime of unprocessed trauma, abuse & neglect. Now medical bills I can't pay, even if I had the courage to be seen. Doctors don't even care about physical concerns. You're just a number, dismissed and rushed out the door. Not even universal healthcare & this is the united states. This society, culture and system is so messed up in so many ways. Every way. Having to literally pay to be here. Pay to live in this world. A single adult cannot afford it, even if their mental health is in good shape. Including the stigma around mental health - makes days even more intolerable. Like an alien I watch people, seeing how much I don't belong & how alone I am. On my own. I'm so far gone it's an understatement of all understatements. If I knew I could 'pass away' without failing & in a location I'd never be discovered.. There would be no hesitation. Not like anyone would know I'm gone regardless. Factual. No exaggeration. I don't even know why i have a phone anymore. I don't have anyone to call & a hotline is a joke. I literally have nothing to say, it's so bad. I've turned mute. People say there is help and tell people like me that they're loved, but it's actually not true & these false narratives just make it worse. It's just because it's what they're supposed to say or they don't know what to say. They certainly cannot buy me a home where I'd have a slice of security and some semblance of safety. I don't even want to be seen & don't trust anyone enough to begin sharing. People genuinely don't care unless maybe with loved 1's if they have them. They care about their immediate family if they are fortunate enough. For your brother though, it was the truth. Life, especially in this generation and world now is not a gift to some of us. I wasn't asked to be here and it shouldn't be a crime or anyone else's choice to say "I'm done." I was just a burden to my parents my entire life & I lived a life struggling to get by alone. I was yelled at or rejected if I tried asking for anything or showed emotion. The scapegoat. My brother was the golden child. I've cried uncontrollably privately for as long as I can remember. I genuinely apologize if this message triggers you & brings you more sadness. You seem like a really good person with a lot of empathy for others. I appreciate the video being so open & sharing a part of yourself & giving me a platform to ramble while I break down for tonight, before trying to numb out with expired sleeping medication still with nightmares & waking into another conscious nightmare when my eyes have to open in the morning. Said cycle on repeat for far too many decades.

i feel you

I've lived here since 1997 and really have no close friends

My Father told me some years ago. 1. You get up 2 You go to work and do your job 3. You go home 4. You get a paycheck You may bond with folks from work but other than that, it’s a job. Don’t stress out over the small things at work. You don’t have to go home with them or sleep with them (in most cases) If you don’t like your job, quit. We shouldn’t have to work in a toxic environment to where you lose your mind.

I'm really sorry those tow ppl were so awful towards you hun . Unfortunately ppl are terrible but not everyone thank goodness and I'm very sorry about you're brother 😔🙏🏻❤ and you're family suffering.

I'm so, so sorry. I lost my sister a few years ago and it was devastating. Still is. It changed me on a cellular level. The pain of sibling loss is hugely underestimated. Please know that you are not alone. There are many of us out here who understand what you are going through. The isolation can feel so real and so painful, but i promise you are not alone. Many of us know your pain. Time heals and helps us transform this pain but you'll find that yourself. Until then, know that we're in this together.

So sorry for your loss. I lost my Mum January 2021. She was my best friend. She had cancer, but Covid and isolation was the catalyst. 😢

So sorry for your loss 😢❤ You are loved ❤️ Please hang in there ❤️❤️❤️

Thank U for Sharing Your Brothers Story. Unfortunately as Many of Your Comments have Said... It's Hard to Hear People Say IT WILL GET BETTER, WHEN the Pain, Hopelessness, Loss of Wanting to Continue in this Life and The Feeling of Being Not A burden But A Disappointment to Your Family Has An Over Bearing Hold On Your Thoughts, Your Heart and Your Faith In Anything... I Am Suffering From Depression, Addiction and Suicidal Planning, and I Can Admit... Most People including My Family tell Me That It Would Hurt Them if I Died... Yet Somehow find A Way To Make My Pain, About Their Feelings.... I Understood That My Family May Love Me, But When Its Been Said About The Time Soon Coming to An End, They Say The Same Thing Over And Over... Hang in there, IT'LL GET BETTER... I've Been hearing that Now for The Past 4 Years, Seems Like Things Keep Getting Worse. And I Pray every Night, yet Still, Things Only Get Worse for Me.... How Can Anyone want to Live In Such A Pointless Outcome.... If I See No Future in My Miserable Life, Y Can't I Make the Decision of Ending Me Pain. Y Should Others Think About How Their Going 2 Feel After It Happens, Or How Much It Will Hurt Them... This Is What We Mean By, They Don't or Don't Want to Listen......

Find a bunch of people that need your help and eventually you will look back on your lonely days and wish you could go back to them.

Im sorry.

1:12 disagree, have you heard of this place called San Diego.

This man is exactly the type of person that companies like to hire and abuse. He's calm, sweet and caring. They are easily manipulated

Why is this video flipped? Reversed? Mirror-imaged?

Josh I think this all great but the world is a broken! I mean we can all think about how to have compassion for ourselves, but we have to realize that thinking itself has the ability to think about itself! The problem with the world in which we live is it caters to left brain mechanics. The school system is the first place that starts manipulating our thoughts towards unmitigated thinking, priority being submission and applying that pattern to us over and over again which caters to the left brain of logic. If you are right brain dominant this system is never going to feel right to you, you are never going to feel fulfilled because you are right brain dominant! Right brain is suppose to be master, so we all live in polarity some worse then others. We are unfulfilled inside always! The philosopher Hegel said that spirit has been lost, because left brain thinking is robotic, right brain thinking is spiritual and creative. So now when people have personal difficulties, healing is not possible because everyone feels alienated, culture is in the ditch mentally! We live in a pick your flavor feel better culture. Meaning we treat each other with the idea that we have to do something to make each feel better. For example the mask everyone had to wear during the plan_demic. Passivism and victimhood is the currency of which we all live, almost everyone but the top of the pyramid, who get a free pass and has a chance at happiness.

Bruh, friends and people are overrated. Have you heard of the philosopher name Sarte? He says.... "Hell is other people" and that is in fact a true statement "hell is other people" so you are basically avoiding hell! So be glad you at least got a wife and friends well who needs them.

Hi Josh! Welcome to Seattle. I too live here and love it. You and your personality will fit in just fine with Seattle’s culture. If you are still looking for friends, I would be delighted to be one for you.

I know this is dated at this point and you probably won’t see this, but if you do, here goes. Yes, I know exactly what you’re saying. I go through it to this very day. Back when I was in my 20s, the only time any of the “friends” I had back then wanted to hang out was because there was no one better to hang out with. No one cooler, no one that they were close with, so they just used me to keep them company and bide their time until their more desired buddies wanted to do something. Then I was forgotten about completely. These days, my friends are just too busy to want to talk. Too busy to even say hello. Too busy to even begin to approach having a deep conversation about anything. I’m at the point where I just give up on having friends, a true best friend that values the friendship just as much as I do. It sucks, but it’s the reality. Maybe I have the social awkward thing, maybe I’m trying too hard? Like you, I have my wife, which is amazing. But there’s still this void in me that I can’t explain, over not having a real true best friend that actually has time to want to say hello, much less hang out or something.

No, God the Universe, Spirit is forcing introspection, times will change drastically soon! Blessings to all, we truly don’t know who we are, especially in the western cultures!

Welcome back to WA. This area is definitely one of the most beautiful places. Let's get coffee 😊

Get out there amongst people making friends can take time. Love yourself respect yourself ,trust yourself and take some risks try some different things . Peace.

Having a good family is more important than having friends. I dont have any of the same friends i had growing up up with. The people who i thought were my friends at work totally betrayed me. So i will never trust or confide in them again.

It's important for men to have male friendships . Its not a woman's job to be their husband's best friends, mother and lover. Women have enough on their plates. Men need to find a hobby outside of their relationships with their significant other's.

So true! I have no more friends now that im 40. My coworkers who i thought were my friends are miserable now that they have kids . Im just so done with people in general.

You also need to clip a microphone to your shirt.