Alcohol and cigarettes addiction actually destroyed my life. I could remember several years ago after divorce with my wife which brought me into my disastrous journey on Alcohol and cigarettes. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.

Hey man.. Fellow aussie here.. 66yo. Drinker for 50years. The last 20 pretty heavy.. Port and beer was my poison of choice. Morning till early evening. Never got hangovers. Life was sweet. I really enjoyed drinking.. That was until my liver sent a nuclear warning shot across the bow. (Cirrhosis) is now my partner in crime. My stomach swelled up HUGE.. (Ascites).. Went to the ER and was drained of ascetic fluid.. 15ltrs out.. That was at the beginning of January 2024. Sober since then. Not because I wanted to. Because I HAD to. My liver doctor gave me some sobering news. "If you don't stop the booze, you'll be dead before the end of the year"............. How can I live without booze??............ I'm doing it now. It was hard but is getting easier.. My method to keep the mind off the devils water.............. Keep your fridge full of easy to get to snacks like fruit, (strawberries / plums / kiwi fruit / apples / lemons / cherry tomatoes / baby cucumbers / low sugar and salt muesli bars ). Anything that's fresh and you like. When you think of a beer, go the the fridge and grab a few of those snacks. Protein shakes. I'm back exercising again. Swimming, weights, bike.. I've gone from 115kg down to 85kg.................... Do I miss the booze?? Bloody oath I do, but given the choice again, I'd much prefer to be 85kg and now eating like a horse than 115kg and feeling sluggish all the time......... Hang in there mate.. It could've been a whole lot worse................... Giving up the booze after such a long time was like losing my best friend.. But a new life is starting............

I’m a 69 yr old woman living in south Texas. You just popped on my feed. Thank you for making this video! I hope you keep telling your story! I will keep following you. I’m for you!

I read The Alcohol Experiment and This Naked Mind. It changed my life. Keep your head up, keep going. Ive got about 18 months under my belt now. I’m sorry you’re struggling. It’s freaking hard, but it’s so so worth it.

I’ve got just over two years of sobriety. 33 year old Irish guy living down under. Binged on alcohol every weekend since the age of 15 and never stopped until it got worse and the whiskey got the better of me. Multiple black outs and eventually it caught up on me after falling asleep too many times in too many dodgy places. AA helped me realise that addiction is a spectrum and that there are many different types of drinkers/ alcoholics. I did not want to quit and couldn’t imagine life without it but here I am today having a decent life without it. It’s been such a learning curve, with good times and bad times but there would have been so many more bad times if I had of continued. Change is possible and an open mind is key. Listening and learning in the rooms of AA gave me such a great scope of how bad the booze can be. Wishing you the best pal, If I can do it, you can

Hey man, quit now before the withdrawals and delirium tremens start. I’m 27, over the last year and a half I’ve put myself in the ER about ten times because of alcohol and withdrawals. On March 19th I checked myself into a rehab center for detox and residential inpatient. It was the best decision I could have made. 56 days sober now and no intention of ever drinking again. Alcohol just takes and takes from you, and if the bad shit hasn’t happened yet, like jail, prison, seizures, killing someone, killing yourself, etc, it’s coming if you keep diving further into alcohol. Quit now!

I am 22 and i got diagnosed with alcoholic hepatitis like 6 months ago and instead of stopping i just started drinking more, so honestly i wouldnt be surprised if im close to, or already have cirrhosis but i hope all these other youngings knows this aint a game u cant exactly win. Stay sober out there tbh ive been feeling like shit this whole month. Throwing up blood and all types of nasty shit. Wish i could start over.

Whisky was my favorite. Stay strong and just keep quitting until you don't have to anymore. I Quit drinking over and over so many times I can't count. I am over 2 years sober now and loving life. I know you can get there to some day.

Been 4 weeks sober from alcohol,have done it before and was sober for a while but relapsed A lot going on at home and with my health and this time I feel way more confident about staying sober, maintaining sobriety is difficult but I'll do it this time

I am 70 year old woman...sober 4 years...started at 16...you can do the math. I got tired of my heart going crazy at night and phycosis (spelling) of voices I heard that no one else did...plus terrible sleep. I drank less and less until I was able to quit...boy, am I glad thats over...I will never drink again. I totally loved wine and brandy...but it's not worth it. Blessings.

I came across this video on a perfect evening in my world. 99 days sober and I’ve been contemplating drinking tonight. Thank you for mentioning the bloating. Why I quit., my body was not assimilating alcohol and slowly shutting down my kidneys.

My 32 year old brother died of cirrhosis of the liver 6 months ago. He never drank hard liquor just beer and it killed him. He turned yellow and he was gone

Thank you for your honesty mate. Please try find some self-compassion. You will get through this too man. 🤜🤛

Been there. One day at time my dude. Dont be too hard on yourself. You'll get there when you're ready. I got 8 years dry in January 2025.

Bro you are an authority on quitting drinking. The relapse rate is over 95% in 30 days. I know because I have relapsed 1000 times. It takes me several months to even do a day 1. Please start a new series, and forget about having time under your belt before you start. Just vlog the day no matter what. Sauce ain’t the boss you are

I lost my mother 9 months ago to alcohol. And my father is drinking too, and i can't stop him. That's a terrible life situation im in. Don't drink guys. It's a road to nowhere, but hurting people around you, those the closest.

Life is so much more enjoyable sober. It is a lot funner doing things you really enjoy and not just dumb drunk fun

Get yourself some support! There are LOTS of people learning to stay sober one day (or one hour or one minute) at a time. You let it happen because it's an illness. It's the first drink that does the damage. Don't be so terribly hard on yourself--if you're like most of us who can't drink normally, you're beating yourself up all the time! Go get yourself support--go to meetings! The hardest part is in the beginning. Get the support!! And don't take the first drink TODAY. Just today. Then, do it again tomorrow. And oh, did i mention, get to meetings, get support!

I'm with you on this i was a alcoholic for 25 years now I'm 49 an I feel brilliant for nor drinking , just left my boyfriend for the same thing just don't want to be near it keep going x

What helps me a lot is to read comments from people on day one on apps or places like reddit. It reminds me of how I felt back then. Videos like this help me too. You mention that you are proud of your ability to push through the hangover. I will say that you are young at 33, they only get worse. I'm 41 and my last hangover had me in bed for 5 days taking anti depressants. It's really dangerous for your mental health. You must persevere if you want any chance at a normal life. I stopped for 6 months last year and then started again, now at 35 days hoping to never drink again this time.

Remember, it's not how much you stumble, it's how many times you get up! Keep getting up and you'll get there! ❤️

My son is an alcoholic and currently looking at 20 do 5 in prison bc of his drinking 😢thank you for sharing im praying for you and sending love ❤️❤️❤️

I'm From the Caribbean...Have the same problem with always relapsing I'm 4 days sober..need some divine intervention..keep strong..I could relate..

A month without a drink is fucking amazing. Keep grinding brother!

I feel you brother. I’ll be praying for your recovery as well as for my own. Even though I’ve got a problem with different substance I can completely relate to what you’re going through I can see it in your eyes. All the best mate

I did it too man. Back to seven days

I only started drinking heavily a couple of years ago. It's loneliness that drives me to it. I live alone and work more or less alone. I simply cannot spend too much time at home alone or I get depressed. I love the atmosphere of the pub where at least there's a chance I can talk to someone, listen to the music on the juke box, etc. Anyone else feel the same way?

My wife put herself into rehab last November. Sober over a year. Relapsed last week because she doesn’t think she has a problem. She can handle it, but she can’t. She doesn’t drink the hard stuff anymore just hard seltzers, but over the weekend she got drunk and had 4 tonight. I’m trying to stay supportive, but have been dealing with this for over 10 years. We were just married this past March. I don’t know what to do. I feel so alone, hurt,angry and depressed. I loved when she was sober. So much laughter and no fighting. That’s gone.

awesome video. i drank around the same amount as you did at the end and was ready to end it all. i was so tired of that damn disease and the dependency on alcohol. it helps to remember that forever is a long time. all we have is today, this very moment. it’s all we can control. keep your head up. sorry for you and thanks for documenting this.

Hi this is my first time watching you, i wish you the absolute best, im also a struggling alcoholic 23yo from across the pond 🇮🇪 . I go through about 20 cans of beer and 500ml of vodka per day. Not ideal but im waiting to get a spot in residential treatment. Best wishes 🙏

Yes my friend. Do a FAST.I have done about 5 day fasts in the past,and all I can say is that you could be in a different world after just 5 days.One where you wont have any desire to put a poison in your body. If you get hungry,slowly chew on some raw veggies. Fasting is a powerful tool to get you from A,to B.

After living a life with escapes being my existence, its soo hard to just be clean! But you know what, it is probably the BEST buzz you will ever have. I just fear straight, as do you. But being clean would be the ultimate because we are ALWAYS addicted to something. The key is controlling BOREDOM and your thoughts. Good luck my friend. I feel your pain.

My husband hasn’t had a drink since New Year’s Day and he was drinking heavy and the sheer admiration we have for him helps him stay positive and the fact he now also has tremendous pride now in fact he can now say he’s teetotal which we all thought was impossible! And to note he had two massive bottles of spirits at home but hasn’t touched a drop !Just take it day by day and say to yourself I will get though this one day at a time! Try not to cut everything at once as it’s so much to tempt you to quit and just concentrate on the 24hours🙂

It took a cancer diagnosis for me to stop. You can do it, it just takes the right kind of “motivation”, for want of a better word. I was literally too scared to drink after that so I guess you could say it was easier for me. That was over 11 years ago and I can honestly say I haven’t had a single drink in over a decade, and I believe that decision has literally saved my life. Never give up trying to give up! You CAN and you WILL succeed. All the best. 🥰

I'm on day 35. I attempted suicide Jan 1st because of alcohol, cold turkey and DT's. I jumped from a significant height and f'd myself up.. I was forced to detox for the first significant period in 20 years as I was in hospital for months. It was also not in my home country which made it even crazier.. I have life altering injuries because of it.. and still relapsed after discharge. I'm 38. I identify with everything you experienced here. I hope all is going well for you. I would caution to anybody in a similar position. Start slowly. Do not try and change so much so soon. Not having a drink is the only priority. Please do it with medical supervision if you have been drinking heavily. I know from a lot of experience. Greetings from Ireland.

Stay strong buddy. It’s so difficult but you absolutely can do it. Also, your cat is so beautiful.

btw bro im a web developer in training i dont know if this sounds stupid but i respect what your doing and if you need a website or logo or anything in the future il be more than happy to help ou help more people this video gave me strength to get back on track

Please go to rehab, or an AA meeting. You don't have to do this Alone. One Thing at a time. One day at a time. Good luck!

Sober since Dec 21st, that's about 6 months. My stomach is less bloated, more energy, happier in my skin, and getting a lot done. I'm 48, and at this age, every drink may be the last. Do I love life? is it without struggles? surely not... but that doesn't mean I want to drink myself to death.

Just went through this recently myself brother, prayers go out to you man. Best of luck 💯

You can still push through the hangover because of your age. At a certain point you just can't push through anymore. I hope you're able to quit before that point.

When I did a 7 day water fast, it reset my food and alcohol cravings. Weened back into food after the 7 days sticking to a high protein diet and I have had zero cravings since. Long term fasting is not for everyone, so if you try something like that do it with extreme caution and at your own risk. Ensure you are adding quality electrolytes to your water too daily. Have a doctor monitor you throughout it too if possible. Good luck with your sobriety brother. I have faith in you.

After a couple of weeks of Binge-Drinking I will go down to AA- Tomorrow. The Nightly sweats, anxiety , lost of Money, no excersise and the List goes on. I truly hope It will stick this time because I cant live like this anymore. I don´t want to either! Alcohol is A Terrible drug in all aspects imagineble.

Here's where I'm at with my recovery from alcoholism (6months, which is the longest stretch I've had in years). I have to immediately shut that voice down in my head when mentions alcohol AT ALL., which is often enough. I also have to remember what that hell was like, both the bottom and the newly sober...it was bad bad. The last thing, for me, is remembering that the first drink always leads me back to that dark hell. Maybe this will help you too.

You seem like a genuin , honest handsome man.I will follow your fight Love from Norway❤

Getting on camera and stating your goals probably doesnt sound like much but SO many people cant do that. Once you're cruising you start to feel better about everything. That hopeless feeling does fade. relapsed after 9 years and just getting started again was SO brutal. A relapse isnt 'starting over'. Every time you pull yourself up you get better at it. The months are already flying by again. Its possible to quit and be happy.

I had the blackest soul blackout that is such a weird shame trauma months later I still just embrace it as fuel to stay sober. Too weird, I don't want that ever again. A binary switch flipped in the soul and a deep seated realization of the alcoholic matrix that's infected an unnatural lack-of-nature lifestyle modern society so deeply.

Check out Tommy on The Life boat. He is an ex heroin addict and has helped so many ppl

I think I'm addicted to alchohol. Started about an year ago and I drink about 5 bottles per week. 3 days ago I spent all my money on 3 1L bottles of vodka and had it all by myself in my room with the lights off just chugging crazy amounts of alchohol , I wanna stop drinking I feel obesse and old and I'm just 18 years old. I realize I need help and I booked a rehab appointment.

It's so hard for day one ,I feel pain, now I ask my friend they all say little by little

Take good care and hang in there. I know that’s easier said than done. I’ve been sober 30 plus years. It keeps getting better, I promise. Praying for you. Please keep us posted as you can. Sending you lots of positive vibes and prayers from Maine, 🇺🇸 USA. ❤

You did well getting through January and no doubt would have learned some valuable lessons during that time. These lessons will help you going forward on your sobriety journey.

Thank you for sharing. Stay strong ❤

Relapse is part of the process. Don’t beat yourself up to bad. People who are trying to quit that relapse are actually more likely to eventually stay sober…. So technically, you’re doing awesome! Keep goinggggg

im doing the same mate i fucked up on ketamine god be with us brother

I don't think you're back to ground zero. HealthyGamerGG (KZfaqr; psychiatrist; former monk) says with depression, our brains perceive negativity over positivity. If you can, look at the positive of the situation and how many days you went without alcohol! It's incredible when you think about it! Alcohol is not my drug of choice - weed was... and I am 30 days cold turkey/clean after smoking daily for decades. You got this!

Hang in there man, I know addiction is hard but recovery is possible for everyone and you are worth it.

Please try and remember that the best times in life haven’t come yet. I broke my back and lost lots that i can’t get back. I smoked cigs off and on for years because of ptsd and loss. It felt bad. Way worse than the pain and stress. Life does get better, slowly but surely, but it does.

You GOT THIS BROTHER/ HOPE EVERYTHING GOOD WITH YA.. STAY BLESSED!!!🤜🤛

I finally broke down and realized that I needed support. I’ve been going to AA meetings and told everyone around me about my struggles. The overwhelming majority of people were supporting and loving. I got my 30 day token then f’d up with a lapse. Lapse is part of recovery. The best thing is to never say you won’t ever drink again because that just sends you down a spiral when a lapse occurs. Don’t give up. Get help and ask for help. I was really hesitant to go to meetings but it has been a safe place and therapeutic.

Love you bro! I'm struggling right now too your not alone but we will get through day by day aware and mindfulness is key you got this I feel you! We have more to gain than ever! 😁🙏💖

You can do it. You're very brave for doing this. I don't drink, but i abuse myself in other ways. I need to waitch this every day. Why do we do it to ourselves?

Keep the faith. Keep moving forward. Thank you for your honesty. Don't stop the process.

Hey bro. I’m a alcoholic. It’s been a rough decade for me since I turned 21. Before that it wasn’t an issue. Just sad that this is where my life went. The last decade I over drank. It got especially bad between 2021-2023. Since October of 2023 to now May 2024 I’ve only drank 6x total. That’s 6x too much. It’s a lot better then before. I use to get drunk 3-4x a week but now I’m a lot better and so proud of myself but I really do need to eliminate it all together. It’s a struggle. I just went out yesterday and drank- was dumb. Oh well- day 1. Here we go.

Hey, I've detoxed and relapsed a few times over the past year. I am on day 5 now and feel that this time it feels different. I'm in the same situation as you, I could lose my family. Keep it up 👍

If u cant get sober for yourself do it 4 your kids. They need u so please think of them

Be strong brother. You are loved and highly valued. GOD loves you. I am praying for your sobriety and continued health and wellness. Be strong. Love from Indiana/Texas USA

I started drinking and was absolutely obsessed from the start. I was in AA when I was 16. I had a psychic change at 42 years old after hospitals in my teens, rehabs in my 20s, the streets and jail in my 30s.. You can justify the drinking and madness till the cows come home but only God, In my experience, can take the obsession!! Self obsession is a critical part of the illness, me, me, me is all we care about in the madness, How do I look? How do I sound? What shall I say? With or without the drink. I've never met a real alcoholic who can do It without God....Just saying!!

the only thing that works is to avoid that first drink and don't replace it with drugs you are not just giving up drinking you are giving up a lifestyle that was the hardest part for me giving up the lifestyle that I loved living. but hey man the dead know only one thing it is better to be alive I can tell you this just by looking at you if you keep going the way you are going you will not live to see 50 or you will have a bad liver trust me I am 63 years old 11 years sober with cirrhoses and every friend I had that drank heavy and some that only drank beer is dead and gone I don't know if you have children but man when they watch their father or mother die from alcohol or drugs it Fs their minds up for life I have seen it so many times. semper fi wishing you the best man you have a long hard road ahead of you but you will get there if you want it bad enough you have to want it and you have to respect it when you get it. I sure hope you can trust yourself. man I sure wish I could start over fresh at 33 and all my dead friends do as well .semper fi.

I relapsed yesterday. Thanks for your honesty, now i know im not alone 😞

As someone who lost family to addiction, you have NO idea how grateful the people around you are that you keep trying! I wish the people I lost would have kept getting up again like you! Please Please no matter how many times you fall, Never give up! I am praying and rooting for you from all the way in the US! Thank you for posting this, this is real life content that resonates. I am certain you can become sober, you have it in you and I'm sure you know it! Keep going dude!

Good luck man! 27 here from Canada... I'm working on this myself as I do have much to lose.. I was also thinking of recording my journey

God bless for being so transparent good luck

I understand bro. I have three days sober. I’ve had time before. I just got off a five day bender. Pray and stay strong. Hate the liquid!!

I had to stop drinking, its extremely difficult stopping any substance and each one comes with their horrors, just take it day by day, keep yourself occupied, cut out bad influences around you like places and people and keep hydrated, dont beat yourself up, nothing ever worth having came free and easy! Hang in there dude 🙏

I stopped drinking alcohol at 34 so never give up keep going .stay away from the First drink.thats the secret.that was twenty years ago .

Maybe looking at your whole life without alcohol is too overwhelming. Maybe just get through today

Hang in there bro...keep fightiing❤💯🇻🇺

Hey, from Liverpool UK 🇬🇧. KZfaqs algorithm was the reason your video found me today. I'm not an alcoholic, so I can't say I feel what you're going through, but just want to say - You've got this ✨

I feel you are in my head. I have the same thoughts ❤ alcohol is the worst!

Thank you bro

I did January too and then I went back to it until 2 weeks ago. Now I hope this time is forever but my urge to have some beers is huge . This alcohol addiction is so messed up. People just say , don t drink anymore…..is not that easy

Struggling myself. Good luck Dude ❤

Complete surrender did it for me. Every day at the foot of the cross. Seeking humility

Have you considered going into treatment? I’ve been sober for 13 mos and the ONLY way it was even remotely possible for me was to get outside help. There are millions of people out there just like you and you don’t have to do this alone.

Here for you 🙌💜✊️👊

You've got this!

Hey there my name is Melissa I understand what your going through I'm off to rehab in July ☺️ I wish you luck ❤

Alcohol, drugs, addiction are not cunning, baffling, and powerful in the least. YOU ARE. More people need to realize this.

Listen to this ive been drinking heavy over 32 years, and last year I did 14 weeks clean due to a health scare with my throat and 12 weeks the year before that during covid. Then stupid me thought I would have 4 cans when I got the all-clear thinking I was in control. Silly me was wrong. I was hooked again. Now I'm on my 7th day, and I'm taking 1 day at a time not putting to much pressure on myself. Start again you got this 👍

I think you are overwhelming yourself with the sobriety and everything else you're trying to do. You might have been experiencing atrial fib from alcohol withdrawal. Good luck brother.

I will pray for you, mate.

I know this feeling

One day at a time .just for today simple.keep it simple .stay away from the first drink.Good old AA😊

Nothing changes if nothing changes! Stay Lifted new friend!

Been sober 17 years now . U can do it mate . Good to b honest gt to sm a a meetings

Just checking in buddy hope you are still keeping well

Jesus took it away from me overnight. Never needed AA .... never even desired another drink since jesus saved me. I praise him for what he did for me.

jesus be with you man. courage. stay strong

Keep it in the day, ever again can be too overwhelming. Don’t pick up today