I am a 68 year old female former Mormon and only today did I realize that the horrible yeast infections I suffered as a new bride and mother were likely related to the “sacred” underwear I was in. Yikes! The church was the source of so much unnecessary suffering for so many. 😢

I went into the temple with no warning or "preparation" for what was going to happen.....I was FREAKED out by the entire experience. I continued to look at my parents throughout the process wondering, "who are these people" and felt like I had been blindsided. I always thought they were normal and smart people, but now I questioned them and everything I had ever been taught in the church. We were always told the "catholic" church was the church of the devil and that any religeon who has rituals or wears similar clothing was false - then......I went to the temple and was shocked at the similar clothing, the rituals, being touched inappropriately and just spent the entire time screaming on the inside! It was horrible and I ended up leaving the church. Thank you for speaking out and making others not feel crazy or that they are alone with these feelings!

I find it ironic that if we were to go by the rules of this day and age, Joseph Smith would NEVER be temple worthy.

I like this lady. "All religions deserve criticism."

I did the Initiatory in the late 70's. Creepy. Nothing prepared me to be nude, covered in a loose smock, and yes, the worker touched me as they blessed me. After going through the Endowment, I was totally creeped out. My father and brother said, just keep coming back and you'll get it. I did. I became a veil worker. And once I deconstructed LDS truth claims, I could get the creepy garments off fast enough. Cult.

Informed consent!! As a convert I thought for sure I missed something obvious. I didn’t even know the washing and anointing and initiatory existed until the DAY of my endowment. It’s crazy to me people raised in the church or who take a temple prep class know the same amount of nothing I did.

The more I learn about the use of oils for anointing, the more it makes sense that Utah MLMs are often based around essential oils. That slso makes me feel really upset that corporations are exploting a lot of people based on their faith's practices.

I was Catholic for 30 years. I don’t think anything is secret as far as their doctrinal or church practices. Now on the finances…

I was totally uncomfortable during the endowment ceremony. Everyone who went with me was so excited for me and I felt nothing but cold and empty. I did not get this warm feeling they all spoke of. The apparel we wore was uncomfortable. Some of the things they spoke I either did not understand or felt uncomfortable with. I actually refrained from saying some things, put on a good show to make it look like I was compliant. Inside I was praying to God to please keep me from taking on any spirits that are not of God. When I went, they actually did touch different parts of the body. I had such morbid nightmares before I went to the temple, morbid enough that when I left home i said goodbye to my young children, as if I thought i might never see them again. I ended up leaving the church less than a year later. I realized in the temple that there was no way I had any hope of attaining the highest level of heaven w/o a man and temple marriage. I was told that people like me could only hope to be a servant to those who had temple marriages and who have met all the requirements of the highest level of heaven. One thing that struck me funny was the food stains on the temple workers clothing, you would think if the temple were that sacred, you would keep from spilling your meal on your temple clothing. I eventually went thru a deliverance about a year after I left, just to remove the attachment of spirits I feel like I gained in the temple experience. So so so thankful my eyes were opened. I was living the life, doing what I could do to help myself, so It wasn’t bc I did something wrong. My eyes were opened. I left. I lost all friends and family I gained in the LDS church when I left.

The whole temple ceremony grossed me out. Felt nauseated and the prayer circle was a huge 🚩. Wearing garments put me thru severe depression feeling I had no autonomy over my body.🚩🚩🚩 Uncomfortable, uti’s, etc… So much to say! My heart cries out for my nieces and nephews and family who are still in. I’m sick about it! High demand religion for sure. Thanks for all your work! Almost 3 years since I was in a church building!!

I left the church when I was 16, and never went through the temple. I didn’t find out about the temple rituals for another 8 years. Even after almost a decade, learning this felt like I had been betrayed by every adult member in my life - it felt like all of them, including my family members, had been living a secret double life that was deliberately hidden and obfuscated from me my entire childhood.

I’m 18 years old, I’ve deconstructed the faith, but I haven’t done any other ordinance in the temple except baptisms for the dead. But my friend who is 19 years old got her endowment yesterday. My parents drove 3 hrs to go be there. I’ve heard about these temple ceremonies and gave her a text along the lines of, “I hope this is a good experience for you, but I know it can be upsetting for some, I’m here for you if you want to talk with someone.” She was grateful and texted me back later that it was good experience for her.

Yeah. Having an old dude reach under your poncho and start tapping you with an oiled finger is strange as fuck. Especially when you have no idea it’s going to happen. That’s my experience

I’ve never been Mormon but I remember the first time I went to a gym in a heavy LDS area knowing nothing about the faith. It was June and hot. I watched in utter confusion as everyone showered and then proceeded to put on Long John’s! I started asking some questions and soon found out about the magic underwear. Head scratcher.

You are so wonderful with your words. I have shared your videos with my sisters (who left recently) and you are helping them feel seen. Thank you so much for that. In a future video I would LOVE a break down of the boys and girls camps. I remember feeling so betrayed how the boys learned to canoe, archary, survival etc. while when I was at camp, all we did was crafts, read scripture, pray and write in journals in the woods. I didnt know to call it sexism back then, but I sure do now.

I went through in 2002 at the Denver Temple. I wore what they called a “sheath”. It was just a wide cloth with completely open sides and a hole in the center for your head. An old man definitely touched my groin area with water and oil. Two old men also “helped”me put on my garment bottoms. I remembered thinking at the time that I would seriously consider opening a lawsuit for harassment if this hadn’t been an ordinance sanctioned by God.

Love your shorts but. . . These long form videos are just gold! Keep up the good work

When I converted at 25, I became friends with a girl who converted almost a year, so she was able to get her endowments. I left the church before she did, and when we spoke a year later, she told me the endowment ceremony was so traumatic that she couldn’t even talk to me about it without having a horrible PTSD response. She and her fiancé left the church right after. I had absolutely no idea what happened until this video. 😣

Just a note about new names and sexism: the sexism extends beyond husband/wife. As a former temple worker, usually men and women would meet separately, and men were shown both the male and female names of the day. Occasionally, however, we would all meet together; when that happened, they would show everyone the female name, then dismiss ALL the women, and only after verifying the door was shut did they show the male name. That never sat well with me. I understood that the men need both because everyone receiving at the veil is a man; but why was it so important that the women never ever know the male name?

What kind of backlash are you getting from publicizing all of these secrets? I fear for you I’ve always been curious, but I hope you don’t get in trouble for this.

Until I discovered this channel I always just saw Mormons as slightly different clean living christians who really loved knocking on doors and Im in my forties! If you dont live in a Mormon " hotspot" we really dont know anything about the LDS church.

As someone who was a priest when I figured out about this, I will say that even by 17, no one taught me about this so I thought it was fake. Nope, I went to the church website and it is an ACTUAL FUCKING CEREMONY! WTF.

Okay. So I almost converted when I was 18… and going through a REALLY tough time in my life. And I didn’t because my mom was super against it. And I am so so grateful I found your channel.

Hello! I’m no expert MO, I’m an ex JW, and this is helpful to even me! Let’s shine a light on things done in secret, let’s talk about all of it. Thank you for sharing your story, and knowledge! ❤

My endowment was horrifying. My entire family on both sides attended, and they forced me to go up to the prayer circle, where we then had to veil our faces as women, and I cried silently the whole time. I remember putting my eyelashes in my pocket because they fell off. To top it off, a rude woman behind me who I didn’t know kept telling me my clothes were on wrong after every step. It was the beginning of the end for me, but my wedding was the next weekend so I just tucked it away and settled in the relief that it was over. I was 20 btw lol

Appreciate you educating and being open about your experience. Hope you're in counseling and telling yourself you are enough every day because it sounds like years of feeling inadequate at a spiritual level could leave signifcant trauma. Hope you're healing and thank you again!

your point about secrecy is SO accurate! i was raised catholic. catholic school, church choir, i was confirmed, i was an altar server, etc. (everything i say is related specifically to my own experiences, im sure others had different ones) when i was confirmed at 12, we knew pretty much everything about it. we were also told many times nobody can make you get confirmed. we had interviews with priests where we could ask question and sponsors to help us. we also got new names, but we could pick any saint we had a connection to. (i picked saint margaret because she was queen of scotland plus she was married and most of the female saints we were taught about were nuns.) not to mention it was added to our names, never meant to replace them. i think it relates to shunning, or some form of shunning, as well. when i was 18 i decided to leave and become an episcopalian. (it’s very common, robin williams once called it being “catholic lite”) my old elementary school had pressured to resign (fired) a teacher for having a harvey melk quote in her classroom. my family was incredibly supportive. it’s been 3 years, and i’m unsure of where i stand now. (i’ve come to realize it’s specifically american catholicism i have an issue with) regardless of which sect of christianity i choose, or if i became agnostic/atheist, or something else entirely, i know my family would support me. i wouldn’t lose an entire community. i can’t imagine how much harder leaving would’ve been if i would’ve lost my family.

I didn't realize I was still programmed by the church until I started watching channels about Mormon abuse survivors. I left the church at eighteen years old. I participated in baptism for the dead but didn't further go through the temple, thank God. However my parents did and many siblings have. Therefore I am sealed to them through these rituals I do not consent to. Your channel is the first time I've actually learned what happens in the temple. I had my name removed seven years ago and it's been two decades since I left and I am just now breaking the silence, I was too scared to look at anti Mormonism sites till now. I was bound despite all I'd done to leave, till now. I literally feel like the bondage is lifting, not so much for me but because I am now realizing that I have young family who are in the middle of this web of insanity and I must liberate my soul from this mess to forge a pathway out for them.

Damn that cloak looks like it decently covers you! i’m old enough to when that “cloak” was a complete see-through pillow case. 😂😂😂 and i got touched all over including my private area. it was odd but i was kind of just numb taking in all the weird shit that was going on lol 😅

As a former 25 year old ex Mormon I'm so happy I left. I found my true faith in Jesus 10 years later and it was something completely different than my previous experience with this cult. All about Mormons feel so restrictive and religious it kills your spirit 😞

I grew up LDS in a member-mom/non-member-dad dynamic, and when we first joined the Church (in 1972) women could not get their endowments if their husbands were not members (it may have been true for men as well, but, since you never talk about these things, I'm not sure). I was a pre-teen when my mom finally got endowed. But, it was all VERY hush-hush. So, when I was about to get endowed, I was TERRIFIED because of the rumors I had heard (like having sex on the altar, etc.). I asked the Stake President (who was teaching our useless Temple Prep class) to talk me off the ledge about it. And he took such gross pleasure in freaking me out even more. He said, "Oh, it's weird. REALLY weird." When I asked him to be serious, he just kept doubling down on how he couldn't tell me any specifics, but it was SUPER weird. He was having so much fun and I was scared to death. When I was actually getting the Washing and Anointing, I was shaking so hard, I could barely follow directions. And, really, for no reason. It was an unusual experience, but not the full-blown sexual assault I had heard of. It would have been so easy for that man to allay my fears and be kind--but, he chose cruelty instead.

“Brother KZfaqr” sent me 😂

during my first watch thru I missed that you said you’re going to be recording your audiobook soon and I’m so so excited!! never-mormon here but learning about religions fascinates me and ever since one of your shorts was randomly recommended on my KZfaq feed, I’ve been hooked! you have a good head on your shoulders ❤ thanks for educating us with humor and passion.

Love your videos so much. I never went through the temple thankfully. Your videos help remind me that I don’t need to feel guilt over leaving the church. Your videos help validate the choice to leave!

you can be so proud of yourself for sharing this and likely helping people change their lives

omg when u made the first vid i was like “i hope she talks more in depth about this later” so thank you!!!

I've only done the washing and anointing twice. First time was near when I got married in the temple. So many things happened during that time that I dont remember it too well... though the endowment session I do cuz tfat was just really something I wasn't expecting. The second time I did washing and anointing was 2007 or 2008. I was living in married student housing by byu, and ward members were asked to volunteer to do this in the provo temple when I was there. I guess you are supposed to be butt-naked under the cover they give you. I didn't remember that from my first time. I was so devout at the time, that in my mind, I considered the temple garments (magical mormon underwear) a part of my body. So I considered myself naked while wearing them. The temple workers who were washing and anointing me asked me multiple times if I was naked underneath and delulu me smiled snd confidently said yes each time. Afterwards I realized I wasn't supposed to be wearing my garments. This apparently has changed since and people aren't naked under the covering anymore. I do find it interesting that the temple workers can observe I was wearing underwear.

I'm loving your long-form content. Keep it up!

I've been waiting for your next video. I've never been Mormon but enjoy your content!

This was your best video yet Alyssa. Thank you so much. ....I first went through the Temple in 1981. Just days before my Mission. It was a horrible experience. Before 1990 they had "The Blood Oaths", where you had to reenact slashing your throat. I looked around the room and everyone looked like a Zombie. The expressions were so robotic. They looked at this like it was no big deal. Like it was going to your nearest ATM machine to take money out. .....I personally was shocked and appalled. I thought that Charles Manson had hijacked the ceremony. The same way ISIS and Al Qaeda have hijacked and perverted Islam. .....Thank God someone had a revelation to take out the blood oaths in 1990.

Brother KZfaqr is cracking me up! 😆 As a never-mormon individual with a physical disability that affects body function who uses a wheelchair full time, even symbolically, this is hugely harmful and problematic.

Interesting. My former husband joined the Mormon church and became quite insufferable about it. He has since passed away. I'm a Catholic, and will remain so. I've been anointed three times in my life - once when I was baptized (I was a baby), once when I was confirmed and I knew what to expect. I also got a new name that I chose and I picked Catherine after Catherine of Siena who was a strong woman who told the pope to get out of France and come back to Rome where he belonged. I also have received the anointing of the sick where I was anointed on my forehead and hands. When my ex joined the Mormons I did a deep dive into the history of the church and concluded it was very much like Freemasonry and when it came to the book of Mormon, if you take out the phrase "and it came to pass" the book would be very much shorter.

As a jewish nevermormon, the idea of the secrecy is so strange to me. How can you be told to believe in something when you dont even know what it is? Fascinating to learn about.

I love that you make this content - you're so strong! Please make more!

“‘Cause he hopes to get excommunicated.” I liiiiiiiveeed. What an icon. 💅💪✨

Yes, the secrecy is huge in making this feel uncomfortable. I am Episcopalian and we share a lot with Catholicism and we have a lot of symbolism and ceremony, that if we were secretive about, would make it feel uncomfortable as well. Nothing we do is secret, so instead it just feels very traditional, coming from long ago, and not looked at as odd, but at most, outdated.

as someone who only knew of mormonism as “a weird american religion” until finding your videos, all of it is so unfathomable to me. so much respect for you and everyone else in the comments sharing their stories

You are doing such a great job explaining this topic. Thank you this is really interesting

Oh, man, your stories are equal parts horrifying and intriguing. I live in Southern Idaho, in a city that is wildly Mormon. 70%+ of the population is mormon, and it's caused me to be ostracized from my peers since a young age. Growing up in an atheist family (well, direct, the rest are nearly as intensely religious as your family is/was) lead to some turmoil in school, but I just only wished the best for my peers. Learning more about what you and others have gone through/go through only allows my sympathy to grow, despite what they've done to me. Thank you so much for sharing these videos, you do so much good!! ❤🫶

I was going to suggest you make your own audiobook! Glad you're one step ahead of me there, keep it up.

Love that you are bringing this information to the light and the internet!

My family moved to Brigham City Utah when I started highschool. We were completely ostracized not being Mormon. The kids in school were so mean. If you aren't Mormon they will look down on you and hate you.

I was a convert back in the late 1980's. Was rebaptised for my soon to be second wife. I considered the LDS church just another mainstream religion with some differences. Never sought a temple recommend because I new it would not be. I had a major tithing issue with how the "church" pushed it so hard. Went to a couple "tithing settlements" that didn't go so well. Never went to any more. Soon began to skip church. My LDS wife didn't like it much. At the 10 year mark we divorced and that was the end of my church going regardless of denomination. I still study different religions and lately have become intrigued with "reincarnation" and reading about near death experiences. My wife never shared any of the "secret" ordinances with me even though I asked. Thanks for what you are doing here. 🥰

I would love a video of you reacting to The Book of Mormon Broadway show. What’s a correct portrayal vs what’s just for laughs?

I only discovered you about a week ago, and binged all the long form videos. I’d love to see more of that. Maybe consider doing it as a podcast, that’d be super handy

I remember being in primary, and learning about temple marriages. I remember the teacher emphasizing that only a man and a woman should be married, and I remember thinking that it would make more sense for two men to be married because they're the same. Anyways I'm gay now.

I don't remember much about my temple ceremony except that the couple who were my "friends"' didn't show up so I was on my own with strangers who were temple workers. I left the church because I was pregnant with a 4 year old daughter. I was on welfare, I was shorted on my food stamps and only got $100 to feed us for the month. I went to the church for food, not money. The bishop sitting behind his mahogany desk, pulled out an enormous 3 ring binder, opened it up, then told me the church wouldn't help me because I was on welfare. They would however take their 10% from my $500 per month welfare money. $400 was for rent and the rest was for non food items like laundry soap, toilet paper etc. You couldn't buy stuff like that with food stamps. The church was happy enough to take the first $50 of my assistance money which I had to pay to be a full tithe payer.

I had some Mormon missionaries come to my door and I invited them in because they needed to get out of the pouring rain and I offered them tea, lol, smh. I had no idea it was taboo. They politely declined.

If I remember correctly they sent out a survey asking people what made them uncomfortable in the temple rituals and that was the basis of the 2005 changes

The touching hasn’t been gone that long. Manti temple 1995 when I receive my endowment and washing they still touched you under the poncho.

"You could always be doing more." So true, and such a great insight. "Be ye therefore perfect" -- but it's impossible to be perfect. A very effective way to keep everyone in line...! I left before doing the endowment, but hearing about the sexual assaults and gaslighting in this ceremony is so horrific, I'm so sorry for everyone who went through that. It is deeply sickening, just hearing about it; I cannot imagine the trauma of experiencing it. 😑 You are doing great work here, shining a light on the truth.

Would be nice if temple prep actually existed when I went. Only info I got was from my older brother and sister. “Don’t think about it much, it’s kinda strange and overwhelming.” Great advice

My brother was so traumatized that even now, 10 years out of the church, he won't say his "new" name.

24:30 I'm a forgetful person and was so worried about forgetting my "new name" because I didn't know about the certain names on certain dates system at the time. I found where the name shows up in the Bible and marked it in a unique way so I would know what it meant. But I didn't label it in case someone else saw the notes in my scripure margins. Oh the scrupulosity 😅

Great job explaining in detail what happens. Mormons/LDS want to be considered mainline Christian but the temple stuff is anything but.

I am against religion, too. As a teenager I had an experience where I had a nervous break down in a church. I was crying silently about the priests opinions while evangelicalic church service and couldn't speak up for myself cause I was teached to stay quite while church service. I also didn't have the possibilty to excuse myself to get some fresh air and calm down because I sat in the middle of a church pew and couldn't get out. I don't go into churches anymore and this feels really good. Happy that I made that decision.

It's an abusive cult that, quite frankly, should be illegal!!! I'm glad you've left!

We always heard stories about "magic underwear", but could never confirmation from any Mormons we knew. Any responses usually were laughter followed by denials.

Thank goodness i didnt get my Temple reccomend b4 i left. Some of things they tried to explained already freaked me out. No way washing & annointing by others...nope, nope....but i didnt know it all until your video. God Bless & protect you. You are the Leah Remini of the Mormons.

I live in Scotland and have only ever came across one Mormon family in my time. I did find myself in a high control group of the Christian flavour though 😄 was in for a decade and been out for a decade. So even though I learn SO much from your content, I can also relate to s much of it, too. Keep going and never stop telling your story. Much love 🫶🏻

Ugh. Jesus died so that we would be saved by simply believing, not following rules until you drive yourself insane. NO ONE can be "righteous enough"! That is why He did what we could never do! Mormonism and any other religion are social clubs based around rules; to simply follow Jesus and to know Him is freeing!!!

Raised catholic here. Adah is such a good name that if I was given that name, I would be angry I couldn't use it irl. No longer a catholic and didn't get confirmed, but that's why choosing a confirmation name yourself is better than this system. No one is stopping you from using a confirmation name in the world, making it your middle name or using it as a pen name. Religious ceremony should feel exciting and like something you want to share, if faith is important to you, not like a secret.

Coffee will be devil bean juice forever in our house now 😂

As an atheist who has never been in a religion, it just sounds so wild. The whole temple, underwear, some magic ceremony. It's just sooooo mind-blowing. Honestly sounds like some creepy movie.

Thank you for all the information you give us. Great Chanel!!!

One of my closest friends is exmo, I'm nevermo but due to being exvangrlocal/exbaptist and a bit obsessed with cult deconstruction we have a tradition of sending photos when we travel.to eacjother of them flipping one to temples and me to certain churches and together we bond over our deconstruction and loving ourselves and eachother in this more expansive forgiving life. Thank you for sharing your story ❤❤

What happens if paramedics or other first responders need to enter the temple (like if someone receiving the washing and anointing has a heart attack) - would they be denied entry?

I have a Mormon friend that says it’s not secret it’s sacred 😂 cra cra

Commenting for the algorithm. I like your sweater.

I appreciate your spontaneous rants against mysogyny. Keep it up!

When I went through the Atlanta temple, they actually touched each part of my body as it was “washed.” It was really a traumatic experience for me because then as now I didn’t like being touched on my body. I suffered 8 years of CSA by my children’s pastor at the Southern Baptist church I grew up in. As a result I cannot stand being touched involuntarily because it was and is triggering for me. During the ceremony I was given the new name Solaman (and yes it is spelled correctly).

I feel like you’re the first person to be so frank about “not all religions deserve respect” bc yes, do individual people deserve respect? Yes. But we have to get away from the mindset of “man is flawed so trust the company” when the reverse is the reality.

I just stumbled across your channel and I love this so much! As a nonmember, but who has had more friends and girlfriends and things of that nature that were members than anybody, I know, I’ve studied the church more closely than, probably any nonmember ever, but the temple ceremonies, of course are never discussed so thank you for this. I also really want to discuss this stuff and be your friend.

The home I was raised in was deeply dysfunctional, but largely irreligious. I felt more pressure from my peers in my very average suburb to be religious than I ever felt from my parents. From that context, I want to say, thank you so much for sharing these experiences. I have been weary of any branch of Christianity that attempts to influence members' political beliefs, and the more they do that the more red flags they're flying for me. So I had always classified Mormons on the "cultier" end of the spectrum in my mind, but I had absolutely no idea how horrific that actual ceremony is. I guess I understand what the obsession with queer people is with them now, but the bigotry I've heard coming out of that church is just shocking. Thank you for bringing more attention to this. Thank you for sharing your experience, and shining a light on the experiences of others. Thank you everyone in these comments for engaging with it and talking about what you went through. That takes a strength that I really admire, as someone who's had to pull through an entirely different set of trauma. I hope that every day brings a new joy and a new moment of freedom for you.

Catholic here 👋 - this is actually not wildly different from one of the RCIA rites for adults who are converting to Catholicism. (I can’t remember which one) It includes a list of specific body parts that receive the sign of the cross, although we don’t include breasts or loins! Difference being that our catechumens go through months of classes first so they know what to expect, and the person actually touching them is their sponsor, who they get to choose. Also if happens in public in front of the entire congregation, and everyone is wearing their normal church clothes.

You said your husband hasn't left the church and is instead "trying to get excommunicated" what's the rationale behind that? What's the difference and how does one go about it?

Comment for algorithm. I find your ability to convey information with a touch of personal experience and emotion very insightful. Its easy to find a hater like me whos ruthless, or a ex mormon with alot of emotional turmoil. You strike a lovely balance of empathy for the people, without pulling many punches

I find your content so interesting thank you for sharing

The naked washing ceremony sounds like abuse and sexual assaults. That's so sick and disturbing. That's an invasion of your personal space and of your private areas.

I was a convert for a year and I was never given this whole information.

I am a 25 year old ex Mormon as of about 2 years ago. I just have to say I really loved your part about you can always be better. The whole good better best part. I struggled with some "sins" at different moments in my life that made me not temple worthy. I too felt soo much, even when I was not participating in that "sin," that I could always do better. It REALLY FUCKED ME UP! I was honorably released from a mission early as well (do to mental health issues, and me overly wanting to follow the rules that my companions complained about me to the point where they sent me home). I also had an engagement broken off (good thing too since it would have put me in a bad relationship all in the name of wanting to be married, wanting to be intimate with someone, and wanting to follow "gods plan." It was kind of mutual (happened after she got endowed which might have been why she started it)) do to no fault on me. After all of that while in collage I started to get Depression and also had bad Anxiety (making me want to "sin" more, but that's a whole different conversation), and this was because of this idea of always needing to be better and not being "perfect." I had a messed up bishop as well who really beat my down for "sinning" even though I was doing all the other "right" things to stop, but still at times having issues with my "sin." Since I left the church I still struggle with my mental health, but it has gotten a lot better and I feel sooo much happier and freer now that I have that weight of needing to be "perfect" taken away. The Mormon church is a cult, and anyone who says otherwards is a fucken liar, and it has FUCKED me up in ways I am finally getting over (although it took me over a year of being out to get over it in ways like where I started to drinking coffee). I am still on my journey of getting passed that part of my life, but I feel soo much more relief now being out! Please never stop making these videos and letting people know the truth about this Cult that fucks up people bad in every way. also feel free to share my post or ask me more about my experience having just gotten out, and I would be happy to share. Thank you again for putting words to something I have felt, but could not put the right words too, so I can better move past that. (as a devils advocate the church did instill good values in my that I still hold dear in a way that I still find morally right from my perspective (ie. no stealing). Yet, contrary to that point you can still teach those values to others without the threat of eternal damnation or "being put in a lesser place the others" (ie the lower kingdoms). So, ya...).

New subscriber. Loving this content. So educational. I grew up on in the Anglican Church but learning about Mormonism is so interesting!!

I grew up in an incredibly catholic family, to the point where for much of my life I was CONVINCED I was going to go to the seminary. Long story short I'm not anymore, but I still have all the knowledge and awareness from growing up within it. I recently found your channel and went on a deep dive of all of your content. It's fascinating the stuff about the temple compared to the Catholic mass and sacraments, because much of your explanation of the washing/anointing and the endowment are very similar to the sacrament of confirmation in Catholic mass, but confirmation was literally a yearly event that everyone knew about and prepared for. Literally as a cantor I knew all the hynms specific to confirmation by heart because of how often I sang them, usually like twice a weekend for two weekends each year. It's shocking to me that they essentially "spring" all of these religious rites on to you (most likely because they know most would say no) when within the Catholic tradition, the WHOLE POINT is to see those doing the sacraments before you and want to be like them and folllow in their footsteps. By the very bullshit of religious theology, you're supposed to want to pursue your faith personally, not because of social pressure. Churchs wield social pressure like a machine gun, but it's shocking to me that doing so so explicitly is baked into the mormon faith. And the Catholic church has *much* to apologize for, but I had always put off the talk of mormonism as a cult as religious tribalism and overblown "we're more right" as is common between Christian denominations. Thank you for sharing how much the "harmless nice folks from down the road with a silly book" actually weaponize shame and manipulate their populace at levels extreme even compared to other christian faiths

Never Mo here 🙋🏼‍♀ your videos are fascinating Alyssa, thank you for sharing your stories! Would love to see a video on what Mormons actually believe or what the Book of Mormon is about. Enjoy your devil bean juice queen ☕

I was raised in the Morman church but left as a teenager. I literally had no idea that any of this was a thing.

You’re so courageous for doing what you’re doing! Thank you for sharing your experience

My brother married a Mormon woman over 30 years ago. They are deeply rooted in the Mormon church. We were raised Catholic, so it was a shock when we found out he became a Mormon. They raised their 3 children in the Mormon church, 2 went away on missions after graduating high school. We love them and my sister -in-law is like a sister to me. What is the best and most effective way to talk to him about the cult of Mormonism? My niece is getting married in a few weeks, and will have the "secret ceremony" . It's devastating.

I am an ex Mormon.. I am in my late 60s now I was in my 20s when you used to attend.. I had seen the temple garments drying on a clothes airer. But I did not comment as we weren't supposed to talk about them.. I respected the couple who I was staying with at the time with my son.. I had a lot of mental health problems, I suffered nightmares whilst attending the church.. I did manage to get away and although very curious I never went to the temple now I am glad I did not.. Keep up your good work

Yay!!! Gorgeous seeing another 1+ hour post!!! Thank you for sharing. Interesting content, and you are lovely 🩷☕️

Everything you have said its absolutely true, the high levels of dedication and if you have doubt to pray about it and to not question things and its okay to question but to not know the answer is also ok as long as you keep doing what the church says its such a huge mind fuck I totally agree... Ugh gives me shivers hearing you talk about it because im just going right back to being a little girl with so many questions but basically being brainwashed