Disclaimer: What I am talking about is related to Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. It is not political in any way. It is not a for or against being gay. To learn more about this subtype of OCD go here: iocdf.org/expert-opinions/sexual-orientation-obsessions

I’m straight but got this HOCD out of nowhere to the point of panick. I love women and never see myself if gay, but these thoughts come out of nowhere and brings weird feelings and anxiety, something I start loosing my breath because it’s scary. It’s like your brain is trying to take away your identity from you with these thought and tricks itself into believing them. It’s terrifying, but I will overcome this and I will be back to normal again

Im straight but over 10 years ago I struggled with this type of ocd. It’s funny to me now. I bever used to go outside or watch tv because of triggers. After about 6 months of hell, i gave the thoughts less and less attention and it all just fizzled away like a bad dream. Anyone who has searched for this video has ocd and is looking for reassurance, like i was. It helps short term. Some of you need it because you’re not ready to start accepting the thoughts. When you do get to that point you will find out how ridiculous all of this panic was.

Your videos have helped me immensely (as well as talk therapy). Over a few months I had experience trans OCD, and I would continuously fall for compulsions because in the moment they would make me feel more at ease. They would provide me with an “answer”, but realistically there is no answer. Making an answer irrelevant sounds crazy, but with exposures I’ve created a “yes and” attitude which seriously changed my life for the better

Great video! I remember you made a short video similar to this and it changed my life. The commitment to not figure out my sexuality took a huge burden off my back. The freedom not to figure it out is wonderful.

I am literally binge watching all your videos right now and I feel a huge sense of relief. OCD can really make you feel like you’re alone in this world, some thoughts I have (intrusive one’s) really scare me to the point I leave rooms and sit somewhere quiet. I’ve been with my partner just over a year and he makes me so happy, I love him so much. I just wish I didn’t have thoughts that I’m not good enough and he is going to go out and find someone better. Because of the way I am I just feel he’ll lose interest, I always have an intrusive thought that maybe I’m a psycho or crazy… it does scare me to the point I feel I believe it😒

It's sometimes really hard to live with HOCD. I have some days, where I'm whole days in my bed and can't get out of it because the thoughts drain my energy so much.

i’ve been trying to incorporate some humor into dealing with this theme. instead of rumination, i respond with something completely different and not a yes or no or an answer even pertaining to the question “am i gay?” or “does this thing i did/saw/felt make me gay?” for example: intrusive thought: “what if you’re just gay and in denial about it?” response: “sorry, we don’t serve coke products here” it’s weird and goofy, but it keeps me from doing compulsions cause i can’t help but laugh as i get more creative with these non-related responses. thanks so much for your content on this!!

Nathan I’m dealing since December with trans ocd, which is really similar to hocd. For almost 4 months I was a shit, thinking about gender all the time, stay all the day in the trans forums to figure something out. Then it start with the feelings, I don’t like anymore my beard, my height, my voice, alL things that I love since puberty. I’m going really better now doing erp, and your videos are really really useful to me. Thanks you Nate!

Im actually going through this right now, yesterday was my first session with nocd , Id like to thank you so much Nathan because of your videos and this wonderful community you’ve helped create, im now getting help!

Just wanted to offer some support to you all going through this. It dominated my mind for a while and while I’m not perfect by any means I can’t believe how much better I’ve gotten with this. Just keeping fighting through, your mind will eventually become bored with the idea and move onto other things.

Thanks a ton Nathan ! You're a god sent ! You have no idea how much this video means to me ... keep growing and im so proud of you

Doubt. Doubt man. Ocd loooooooooves doubt. Give it an answer you’ll get 100000 questions in response. Ocd will take .0000000000000-ad infinitim-1% of uncertainty and twist it into near-certainty with compulsions. Only way way to win the game is to stop playing. Best of luck all, there is hope in treatment.

To anyone Watching this and struggling with this, brother. I'm struggling with this too. And if looks like I'm getting ever so closer to therapy. This OCD has ruined my life and led me down some dark paths. Before I go I'm going to say...if anyone is watching this. If you're in a place where you think you need help. Get it. Call somebody. Text somebody. Coming from experience it's the hardest thing you can do but the bravest. Let's get help together guys. Good luck to all brothers and sisters suffering ❤️

It's taken me so long to figure out what is going on in my head. This is amazing. Thankyou

I can't tell you enough how much I needed this. Thank you Sir.

I started having HOCD a few weeks ago, it fucked up my trip to San Diego and made it hard for me to even step back into the boxing gym and wrestling practice. I’ve liked women forever but two things happened that I believe triggered my ocd, finding out a close friend was gay (he’ll always be a close friend) and when someone made a gay joke abt me. I am just starting to ignore obsessing over it and I got back into my hobbies and I’m starting to feel great again.

Anyone struggling with this look into the presence process book, ocd is simply our inner child’s way of gaining our attention because of built of fear and anxiety. Feeling your way through is key !!

I've had hocd ever since covid started. It almost seems like it will never end, and it's a vicious cycle that I can't escape from. These videos have been helping me see some light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you for that!

I have been suffering from it since December. And trust me hocd is a real thing i started showing symptom of it too like gronial response (which i never had before the onset of OCD), remunerations all day long, loss of interest in girls etc. But after February it started to get better and better. I would advise you to stop remunerating, find a hobbie, never Skip school, college or work because of it(i know this is tough but just trust me). See you need to understand that the more you remunerated the more hypothetical scenario you will create which will give you anxiety because you are suffering from an anxiety disorder. And you are so concerned about your sexuality because it is the part of your personality this this the thing that you value the most in your life that why you can't stop thinking about it. You need to go out and realised that Their are other important things in life and sexuality is not the only thing that defines you you are more than than and neither is sexuality just black and white(straight or gay) it very complex. And i would highly recommend you to not take opinions from randos. And for godsakes STOP YOUR ONLINE RESEARCH. It has been three month since i start getting better i am starting to feel like me again because I started focus on my life again. Now i don't bother to find the answer, may be i am gay, may be i am straight, maybe i am bisexual may be i am a potato wtf cares! And i couldn't have done this without the help of mr peterson he is a true healer and a knowledgeable man who know what this disorder is and understands it. Truly a genius. Stay strong folks, this aren't gonna last forever but time that you pass not being productive aren't gonna comeback. #starvethemonster

YES! I've experienced this before. Thanks for normalizing it.

I suffer from this form of ocd and seeing that people actually acknowledge me made me feel better. I am going through therapy at the moment but sometimes it gets overwhelming. Constant remunerations, looking back at past relationships. I feel extremely guilty that my mind makes up these doubts regarding my sexuality and i feel even more guilty for the hundreds of lgbtq people who struggle to live a normal social life. I feel like Im doing them a disservice by rejecting them and seem homophobic.

Thanks mate I needed this video I’ve struggled I’ve always ya know worried that I’m serious Ill or I have a “sign” of something and I get really worried I also struggle with ocd from time to time and I woke up one day having thoughts that to me didn’t seem right and felt like they shouldn’t of been there like I wasnt thinking them but they were just there and I started hiding from people stopped talking to friends avoided social media had really bad anxiety about it panic attacks etc constantly was seeking reassurance from people but this video has really helped me with these struggles so I just wanna say thank u again

Your videos always hit the pointy. No matter what topic my OCD takes up the pattern is quite like you discribe.

I don't know if I have it because I haven’t talked about it with my therapist yet... out of fear she might tell me that I'm actually straight in denial. I've been continuously struggling with this since my teens, questioning myself if I made the correct choice by labeling myself as bi, checking my childhood, my past experiences, my fashion, my hobbies; spending hours trying to figure out if I'm really attached to both genders. But maaaan this video is such a relief! I never thought there were more people like me going through this. Thank you so much seriously!

It's been 10 months since the onset of my hocd and i can confidently say it'll get better for you as well. Im not fully cured yet and it still gets bad whenever im depressed, i start having doubts again. It happened when i turned 30 for some weird reason i wont discuss. I was sure of myself before this event so it's really twisting me of what could have happened Edit: Im going out again to get some training and ive been falling in love to girls and the female form all over again. Sometimes hocd would make me too self conscious and look at dudes but its gone now Edit 2: It's back and terrible again. It roots down to overall anxiety disorder. Ffs i never had any romantic or sexual desire towards men nor im in denial either. I guess i have to take care of the anxiety first

I went through this as a teenager - for months it overrode my thoughts. As soon as I found out that HOCD was a thing it pretty much went away. Was such a strange and depressing time for me prior to that

I struggle with sexual orientation ocd. It's been a long ride but its safe to say things get better. In the end life is short so we shouldn't waste time letting it control us.

For some bisexuals myself included this never stops unless you just stop caring lol

I’ve got HOCD combined with internal homophobia. I’m definitely not straight but I constantly obsess over whether I’m gay or bi and constantly contemplate various scenarios in my head to try and prove one or the other. It’s funny because I’ve known for a while I’m not straight and I used to rarely even think anything of it. I’m 18 now and it’s completely taken over my mind the past few months and it’s hard to even imagine my thoughts going back to how they were. This video is great though I agree on the themes part as I’ve had other “themes” I’ve obsessed over in my mind just not to the same degree. I just have to try to not even engage these thoughts a bit before they get too strong to control. Hopefully I see this comment later and be happy I’m over this

Thank you so much Nathan, I have been dealing with transgender OCD for some time now, and just watching your videos makes me feel better! :)

Whenever im stressed out i get intrusive thoughts i can go weeks without them , then suddenly a new theme. I cried watching this reading how many others are plagued by OCD, i got diagnosed when i was 12 years old im 32. Yes intrusive thoughts still bother me but im trying to cope

Honestly i got rid of it after 1 week...u have to realize if you were straight your whole life and had tons of crushes on different female actresses or girls in school then you can't just change your sexuality over night 😂 it's just paranoia....stop looking into those thoughts and eventually your brain says "whatever"

Ah, this is something that I have been dealing with for years and yet I'm still convinced that I must be in denial. Thanks for clearing that up.

I’m so afraid I won’t get what I want, that everything is supposed to be a struggle. I’m autistic so I’m used to being on the outside. I tell myself that I am gay because nothing will ever be easy for me, that I will always have some type of adversary, and that I don’t deserve what I want. I have become so obsessed with trying to “figure it out” that everywhere I go the mind is constantly racing. “Why did I notice this woman? I must be attracted to her”, “oh look, there is an attractive man. He would never want me because I’m gay. I can hardly even look at him”. I just want to be at peace…

Have not been diagnosed with OCD, but have had a tendency to ruminate and become overly concerned with things I cannot control or am unsure of. This was the last one, came in like a shot from darkness just short of a week ago. I genuinely do not think I am in denial, I am genuinely sure I am heterosexual or bisexual. But I can never be certain, and I find myself asking at random times. It's like I need to interrogate myself, even though I know the logical answer and what feels right to me. But this thing does not let out. Is it denial? Who knows. I do not think it is. Are you gay? Who knows, doubt it, but could be. OCD? Unsure. OCD-like? Most likely.

This was triggered for me with a girl I met for the first time. I had a lot of pressure on me to “do it” with the girl that day from my friends and even found out that she wanted to also “do it”. I’m a pretty nervous and anxious guy when it comes to girls especially if I meet them for the first time. Eventually we spent the night together and I wasn’t able to get it “up” with her and that’s when HOCD was triggered for me. I wasn’t in the mood that night to really have sex but i know she did and I felt pressure from my friends to do it. Thanks for help last couple of days have been rough.

As someone who has genuinely questioned my sexuality before, AND had SO-OCD, I can clearly feel the difference between them, but for some reason I can’t stop the OCD or being anxious. Ahhhh 😬

Nathan I have a great video idea for you. Can you do a video on Dream OCD? It's basically where you have a dream and you believe that it may be like a warning for you. Maybe God is warning you about something. "I saw this in my dream, this is what it means, so I better not do this!". Compulsions include avoidance for me.

This really helped me discover myselft, thanks a lot! I smashed the like button

I struggle with SOOCD, false atracttion and groinals are what's keeping me

HOCD has been happening to me since two weeks ago, where it became newly formed, I don’t understand what caused it, but it made me mentally breakdown, I am a guy and I’m terrified of the thought of turning gay, because I seriously and wholeheartedly don’t want to be that, and throughout my young childhood, I was always deeply attracted to woman, but it just doesn’t feel the same anymore, I’m afraid the accept any thoughts or groinal responses. I’m seriously afraid to look at anything that has the littlest of homosexuality or anything that resembles it, I’ve become obsessed with looking for ways to cure it and find reassurance in who i am, I can’t stop and it’s making me extremely depressed.

I'm 16 and have never been diagnosed with OCD, but I'm convinced that I've got it because of this subset. My entire life I've been attracted by girls (I like one now as a matter of fact) but it was only recently that i started having doubts about myself. They were manageable at first, but now it's gotten to the point where I sit in my bed at night and constantly have to reassure myself that I'm straight. I tried telling my parents about the issue to possibly get me tested for OCD, but they just dismissed it as me questioning who I was and said "everyone goes through it at your age". I genuinely want this to go away and just get back to my normal life

I started going through this in December of 2020 and it’s gotten significantly better. For the past 6 months it’s been pretty non-existent but yesterday I’ve had the first flare up in a while. It’s not exactly intrusive thoughts, but more like physical feelings and fear that I’ll lose attraction again. I’ve sat with it since yesterday and feel better for the most part, but some anxiety is still there and I’m definitely looking at people to check if I’m attracted to them or not, which I know is the compulsion that’s making me not feel attraction. Any advice to stop checking? It’s just been a while since a relapse

My OCD thoughts are telling me right now that NO YOU ARE USING OCD AS AN EXCUSE NO YOU DO NOT HAVE OCD YOU THINK YOU HAVE OCD, MAYBE YOU WERE LIVING THROUGH A LIE i have medically diagnosed as an OCD patient i was even taking medicines for it, NOW i think the monster is back, everything looks so real also looks like imagination,what should i do HELP MEEEEEEE

Haha, this video helped me a lot... I have both Hetero and Homo OCD and this video helps go about my day without checking. The downside is, I still don't know what I am

Thank you I needed this.

i think this is all in my form of anxiety because not only is this messing with me, my girlfriend cheating, thoughts about death, and many more dumb things i think it’s because i don’t leave the house often, maybe i should get back into school or something because it’s very annoying at this point, i go on the internet and all that tells me is to accepting that i might be gay, i don’t have thoughts of men, it’s the fact what if i am or what if i might be in the future, it scares me at night, it’s all stress and i have to fix my sleep schedule soon.

I have a problem and I don't really know if it's 100% OCD or not, but anyway there was something that happened from like a month ago and it was that there was someone and he's really impolite and likes watching inappropriate stuff and all that, so he told me "hey I wanna tell you something" so I looked at him and he showed me an inappropriate photo so I looked away and yelled at him and left. So my OCD (at least I think it's my OCD) keeps on blaming everything on him and keeps on saying "you would've been so much better and almost perfect but because of that kid you're nothing." and it's also reminding me of that photo. And those thoughts are really distracting especially when I study and I just keep on thinking of them and it keeps getting worse and worse everyday so should I keep doing erp or is there anything that I can do? But anyway thank you so so much for making these videos it really makes some hope for me in this journey.

awsome video man

This sucks cause I've been going through it for so long that it doesn't bring anxiety anymore but feels real

A thing that helps me is when I remember sexuality is not just one or the other, its a spectrum, you can be mostly straight but slightly attracted to the same gender or maybe the other way round

I'm happy because i think I just go ahead constantly. My brain is calm, i have less of bad thoughts, rumination etc. I can be sure without compulsions^^ Guys, listen to him, this video tells concisely how to recover^^

i didn't know about HOCD... nice video!

Can someone help me with this my hocd started around 4 months ago with everyday and every second of the day having intrusive thoughts that were very repulsive to me causing lots of anxiety and stress but after around 2 months the anxiety and thoughts died down and i would feel a quick zap in my chest when i would get a thought but then it would go away now im not getting many thoughts and there is no anxiety with them and its scaring me im only 16 but have like girls my whole life even like a few days before my hocd started me and my friends were talking about what girls look good and with what is going on right it is freaking me out but there are days that i do have attractions to girls and somedays i don't and when i don't it freaks me out

I Had HOCD from 2 years and i was so doubt if i was gay but then i read about HOCD because i was 100% sure that i am not gay but i have weird thoughts (sexual thoughts) about literally everyone it was very hard on me and it is still hard till now and i can not even talk about this with anyone

My ocd makes me question based on the situations I am if that makes sense. If I am in a relationship it always makes me question about my sexuality and gives me feelings that I don’t like my partner. But as soon as I am out of the relationship or not in a relationship it diverts to another side and makes me think I am a killer because I will have thoughts of killing my loved ones. So as he said your ocd will never stop questioning you so leave it and deal with it you have never answered yourself about your sexuality because you didn’t feel like. So ocd cannot make you question these things.

Can someone please help me. I’ve had ocd for around 6-7 years due to trauma and have had other themes before. This is one is like no other. It feels so real and I’ve watched videos on hocd and denial. When I get these thoughts I feel sick and like I want to die. I know something is wrong here and I’ve tried to dig deep and think if it’s denial or not but it makes it worse. I can’t deal with this anymore it’s nearly Christmas and I thought I was recovering and my therapist does too. I’m happy when I don’t have these thoughts and I truly believe I’m straight. Then I suddenly get stuck on one thing and I can’t shake it. I need more help but I’m only 15 and already have a therapist but she’s online and I don’t want to ask my parents because everything costs so much nowadays. If you have any advice or a way to help please reply to me.

OCD never stops.

i love this !

It sometimes gets into my mind like a normal thought like, when I'm discussing with my boyfriend it goes like"i don't even like man" makes me go insane..

When i say to myself i am not gay, my mind reply you saying this because of society you live, then i answer i don't care about society but i don't want to be gay. And these thoughts continue for over a year... sorry for my english

This video was helpful

I suffered w this til v recently between whether I was bi or lesbian, and came to the realisation that even if I knew or didn’t know, it wouldn’t make a difference since I would like the people who I liked anyways whether I knew or not, that realisation rlly helped me

me having an existential crisis a year and a half ago discovering I'm gay to end up getting diagnosed two weeks ago with ocd and question myself again is honestly so 🤡🤡 that I have to just laugh about it...

im so frustrated. i’ve been dealing with this off and on for almost 2 years and now right after i start liking this guy/getting serious with him, the socd comes back harder (it had always been in the back of my mind) and now my brain is like “break it off with him, you probably like girls” and i hate it. i have so much to rant about dealing with this topic and i just want to scream.

I know I'm a hocd but the idea that I developed this to suppress my homosexuality scares me

How can I know if the thought of getting involved in a relationship with a man causes me distress or pleasure but I feel distress because I like that thought?

I've been going through this since the beginning of 2019. Today i feel like i might just be bisexuel but it dosent feel right anyway. I know that i am attracted to women, but i still feel like im attracted to men in a way i dont want to. I keep shaking my head every time i think about the question.

or about a month now ive had alot of Hocd symptoms and the intrusive thoughts. Now before I go on I just want to say I have not been diagnosed with OCD but I have had recent harm-ocd themes and hocd themes beforehand. This may not be connected but I recently sat my year 11 GCSE exams and before they started I had harm-ocd thoughts about killing my mother and it absolutely tore me apart. Looking back on it now I can see how ridiculous it was but at the time the feelings and urges felt so real. After I overcame this theme I had about one or two weeks before the theme shifted and now its hocd themes. I have been having them for about a month and prior to this I have had a few episodes but none have been as extreme as this. at the start of this new episode i had extreme anxiety and panic and guilt but now i'm about three to four weeks in i have not got much of a reaction to it anymore and it's worried me as the feelings and the ideas i get feel so real and like i like them when deep down i know i don't but the feeling of me 'liking' them overpowers the realistic idea of my knowing i don't like them. This has also resulted in a next to none libido and feels like I've lost all attraction to guys. I've spoken to one of my friends who has gone through a similar thing but I feel like mine is different and it just feels so draining and gives me this feeling of numbness to it and I feel like everything used to trigger me but now the thoughts are just there and will not budge. i have always had the idea of what i want and what i enjoy and now im doubting all of it and everytime i look at another girl i over analyze it think maybe i did that on purpose and or maybe i want to be with a girl. this is really taking its toll on me and eventhough i know so many people who are part of the LGBTQ+ community i just dont want to be that sexualality and i feel like since i am rairly in a relationship im always the friend when someone first meeets my group that people think im gay due to that fact and i do act more ladish as i grew up with brothers and this all makes me overanalys my past also and like i said i feel drained now and dont have any reaction to this anymore but the thoughts are still there and i just cant shift them and without the fight or flight feeling kits makes me believe even more that this is all true. i just really wanted a professional opinion on this as going to a theripist does scare me as alot of poeple experiencing ocd that i know have been misdiagnosed due to the lack of understanding on this topic and i dont really have the money or time to see a theripist so i just really need a nother out look on this.

Is it normal that when I do feel comfort and I’m not stressing over these thoughts. My brain says what if it’s because I’m accepting that I’m gay. Which sends me into an even worse spiral down

How is moving forward and not figuring out different from being indenial? Also i have HOCD and i’m just curious…

I Needed this

In this video, he gets to the point, makes sense. He cannot answer your sexuality preference. But he can answer just as he did here, that your ocd will always make you question yourself in one way or another. And not to really over analyze your thoughts if you can do so, and not to put a title immediately on your thoughts. Imo. I’ve liked girls my entire life, but all bc someone made a gay joke at me 17 years ago when I was at a vulnerable unstable time in my life, it’s haunted me ever since. Crazy what one comment someone makes in your life impacts your for years to come.

You are talking about denial and pushing thought away, does it mean that just because i try to push the tjoughts away i am in denial?

Does anyone else feels afraid of being afraid of homophobia? Like for example in my head, if I'm afraid of being gay, then I have OCD but if I'm afraid of homophobia then I'm gay. So I think now I'm afraid of being afraid of homophobia, and sometimes I can't tell if I'm actually afraid of being afraid of it or I'm just afraid of it.

Being gay or transgender does not disturb me the only thing that does disturb me is pocd and driving ocd.

Been struggling with this for the better part of 3 years, as well as random spurts throughout growing up. It’s been hell and I am so much more damaged of a person than I was before it.

tbh ive had other themes in the past but idk if it was ocd or anxiety because i remember my first time when i was 7 years old i was extremally scared of killing my little brother but i only had obsessions then but now im getting obsessions and compulsions with this theme.

I'm currently suffering of hocd( I hope it's just that) and i remember when I was like 9 or 10 there was this other boy that i felt anxious around him,i don't remember much about that time but i think at that time i might have dreamt about him and was anxious during the dream( just like I was in real life), could i be gay? I've never had any other incidents. But I did get aroused by women and fell in love 4 times before what i hope is hocd kicked in.

Ok having uncertainty i understand but after hocd when u want a patner form opposite gender then u uncertainty was there,how u figure out that times.i know it sounds complosion but i really want the answer

Thank u mate❤️👍

Do you know if being obsessed with coincidences and noticing them is a theme of ocd?

Wow that was great

I don’t understand it ever since I was born I was straight but these feelings have made me believe that I am I’ve always said that I am straight but it feels like I’m lying to myself. Sometimes the feelings get so convincing I feel like I want to be gay and I’m not in reality that I’m straight and it’s really torturing me. Like sometimes I’ll sit here and say “maybe I should just accept it and be gay” but then the thought of actually accepting something like that makes me go mental saying “no no no I can’t I can’t do it” and I can’t do anything but think about going mental and breaking things

As a straight man and a Christian I KNOW this is OCD I pray to God daily on Why am I getting these thoughts and I think about it daily and it makes me cry because I have a beautiful amazing girlfriend and yet I have these unwanted never ask for thoughts that has literally put me into a depressive state in my life. And I think about it 24/7 because I DONT WANT IT but why do I have it

ive had this for over 3 years now and im just 15 and it literally ruined my social. T_T

Hi, i dont understand people who are in denial push feelings or thoughts, they dont like them? I have hocd i dont like my thoughts or feelings, what is diffrence? Sorry for bad english

really helped me thanky ou

is it possible to have had both? I had what was diagnosed as sexuality ocd when I was 13 but now I'm 19 and questioning my sexuality in an inquisitive and not anxious way. VERY VERY different feeling but I wonder if this is still old or if before was just a sexuality crisis and not ocd

Thank you so much!

There are time when i see a picture and It like "oh you like It , your felling attracted to It or you have alwasy been attracted to It but never know" and then days later when i pass tru that same picture the seem to not be a single ingagement to that thought like I fell like im seeing a regular picture Other times they make soo manu assumptions to the topic and i seem to be more confuse that befor and anxious Sometimes i ask my self :"but why im not obssed with the idea of beeing straight or that im straight:" and every single time i wouldn't find answer to It , like i would go in suprise mode and then realise that i was Just following an intrusive thoughts This starter as a simple thought then escalete and wont let me live

Heyyy I'm back still discovering myself with new sensations ;).

I think I went through this back in 2017 and the ridiculous thing is that it came out of nowhere

I’ve been going through this for years I’ve been diagnosed with ocd and depression can’t even have a gf without stressing I’m not living

UGHHHH! HAD A DREAM OF KISSING A GIRL, AND I THINK IT WAS A LUCID DREAM SO I HAD CONTROL OVER IT. I think I was even happy about it. I WANT TO SELF HARM. IM PANICKING AND ITS RUINING MY DAY

thank you bro

Hey! I had HOCD for long but after long, the anxiety and thoughts are going down quite a bit but I feel scared that maybe I am changing because no thoughts, no anxiety, etc. Does this mean I’m getting better? I don’t even feel the need to do compulsions anymore but I don’t even feel like I know ny sexuality anymore. Ugh, no anxiety but also weird! Please help!

How can we find a good therapist for HOCD?

Thanks!!