i think the video made me become a faster reader

Great story...my only suggestion is that you slow the captions down. I'm a slow reader and I had to keep going back and pausing.

"...anorexia had taken a lifeform - as my best friend. And I'd do anything to protect it" This....spot on. so true

Are we not going to talk about how pretty you are

That big smile of yours looks much better on your healthy face. :)

I don't know you, but I'm happy you're on this planet

I usually shy away from these types of videos because i agree, seeing others girls' AN photos just make my disorder jealous and feel like I'm not sick enough. But I watched yours and it moved me to tears. We are so alike - no, scratch that, our DISORDERS are so alike - because as hard as it is for me to believe, I know I am someone else beneath all the lies my ED tells me. It broke my heart to see you morph from a happy young woman to a shell of her. I can't see that I'm doing that to myself despite what my family and friends are telling me. However, your video sheds hope. You transformed again, even though you were scared, into a woman with a genuine smile who lives life rather than hides from it. I'm struggling right now and plagued by those same horrible ED side effects you mentioned. I just want to tell you from one ED warrior to another that I admire your bravery. If you can do it, I can too. Xoxo

I'm in tears watching this video. I had anorexia for nearly 30 years. I applaud your recovery. You are a beautiful girl with incredible insight. I was hospitalized several times and tube feed but those stays were forced by my family and IMO don't work. Recovery has to come from within. Everybody's story with anorexia is unique. Unfortunately, mine started before the age of technology. Anorexia was my identity. It was my life and I was in my own prison unable to do anything else. I never had a family or a full time job because anorexia and exercise came first. I don't want to go on about myself because this is about you. I am so proud at how well you are doing. I'm finally better too. The only comment I want to make about your video is that I couldn't read some of the things that you because it flashed on and off the screen so fast and I was very interested in what you had to say and your story. Thank you for sharing❤️

You're beautiful, and honestly this was inspiring to me (as I'm going through my recovery)

aw, I really hope you fully recover. best of luck to you, you're beautiful. 💖

Thank you so much for sharing. I struggle with the other end. Overeating. I have since I was a child. It was my first addiction. Then came cigarettes, then drugs and alcohol. I have been sober for almost 11 months now. And only just started recently addressing addiction to food and trying to help myself the same way that you did. I'm getting my 10 month chip tomorrow for my sobriety, and was just reflecting on what my heart is telling me to say when I speak. It is so close to what you said, it's uncanny. You are beautiful. In so many ways. I'm glad you're learning to love yourself. God bless you.

You have the most beautiful smile I've ever seen! The video was so inspirational and well made :) I wish you all the best and I hope you fully recover♥ Tons of love from me xx

Your smile is so pretty!! I'm really so glad that u recovered,Tia !!😍

You're incredibly brave and now you look stunning 🍀⭐️

A slim fast ad played for this video.....not funny

I love how she is always smiling in all pics

She wasn't fat in ANY of these photos

You look so happy and alive. Im glad you got your life back.

I don't mean what I'm about to say as a reduction of your experiences, but a gesture of appreciation - your video on your experience is by far my favorite on youtube. I really appreciate your insight on why your disorder happened. And though it is so sad, and dark (your physical manifestation of your mind during the peak of your disorder), I appreciate you taking us there and allowing everyone to see just how awful it got. Your recovery is my favorite part. You are so resilient and beautiful!!! What you have taken away from all of the adversities in life is awe inspiring. You are a beautiful human, inside and out, and I'm so glad you MADE IT and choose to make it, even if the struggle looks different on a daily basis. Shine, girl. You are amazing!

I understand everything in this video soo well! Please be careful in the future, eating disorders never leave for good - it comes back when you feel down. For me it kinda destroyed my mind, health as well but mind mostly. (I have anorexia + bulimia since I was 11 years old).+ You are super beautiful

It took guts to share this story. You are a lot stronger than you think

So beautiful on the inside and out. Stay strong! Good to hear you're recovering. Just keep in mind to put yourself first before others!

Thank you so much for this!! People in my school call me fat and ugly... I don't what to do... But because of you I feel stronger now💗💗💗😘😘

you look super-healty and beautiful! so happy for your recovery

Wow, wow, WOOOOOW! Can I just say how incredibly PROUD I am of YOU! I have been anorexic since I was 14 ( I´m now 33) and have been hospitalised for a combined for 5 years in hospitals but this video really gave me hope and motivation for a better life. Thank you for making it and I hope you´re doing well at the moment Tia. Be proud of yourself

This video is way too fast to read and follow, had to turn it off. Slow it down a notch girl.

its crazy how the most beautiful girls think their ugly... U R FLIPPIN GORGEOUS! im so happy u overcame this wishing u more blessings & success muah xoxo

Thank you for the video. I use it every semester in my sr. high Health class for the subject of eating disorders. My district is just north of UW-L. Your growing up in a small town in Wisconsin hits home as well. Nice job. Stay strong. Keep the faith. Stay with your support system. Best of luck in your future!

You are such a special woman. I appreciate you very much!

This video has inspired me to eat cause I suffer from Aneroxia and it's made me realize that I don't want to go that far

thank you for helping me understand more about anorexia. I'm sorry you had to struggle and lose control of this, and it took so much to post it up to help other people. you're a very strong woman.

ive been struggling with anorexia for10+ years now and found your video really inspiring. Thankyou v.much x

wow at the end I was so amazed at how beautiful you are and how far you have come!!! thanks for sharing your story :) ps. - anyone complaining at the speed of the video, just choose 0.5 speed in settings haha that's what I did.

Well done beautiful girl. I'm so proud of you for getting where you are! That's incredible.

Wow... All I can say is wow. You're such a beautiful person... I feel like I know you and I want to say that I'm so proud of you (which I definitely am) as if I'm your mom. Things like this aren't a joke and the fact that you were able to overcome it in such a manner is incredible. Keep up the hard work, Tia. It's really paying off, you look gorgeous!

Wow, how brave of you to share your story! I pray that you continue to heal both physically and mentally.

This is amazing. You look gorgeous and I'm so glad you were able to recover. Keep smiling (it's beautiful!)

One of the most inspiring videos ever 💜❤️ I wish you the very very best xoxo btw ure so so gorgeous

This video is SUPERB. It's been hard for me to understand what a person struggling with this disorder feels like or why they do it. You are the first person who has made me understand why and how it snowballs. I understand addiction and it's really similar in so many ways. 6.5 years sober from vicodin here. 😊 YOU are amazing and have such good insight. I don't know you, but am SO proud of you. ❤❤

wow seeing the photos of you recovered made me so happy you looked so healthy and full of life! i wish you the best

I am so happy you're doing better. Thank you for explaining anorexia so accurately.

you were always smiley though lol

ive struggled with all 3...anorexia, binge eating, and bulimia for about 7 years now. watching your video was so emotional for me because I could relate to so much of what you were feeling and all of the pressure that society has placed on girls to be so thin. Just want to say you are an inspiration and I applaud you for all of your progress! you look fantastic and hope all is well!

Videos like these can be very powerful, and I'm glad that you amongst many others have overcome this disease😊

If I may point out something and for when you have your, "bad days" I hope my comment comes to mind. I want you to look at the pictures of when you were unhealthy and look at your face than compared to your face now. You look so much younger and pretty now. If I didn't read what you said in your video I would have guessed you to be in your late 30's early 40's when really you were in your early 20's. Your face was so thin and the stress gave you wrinkles. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!

so look absolutely stunning, happy and healthy after your recovery, I'm so happy for you. And I'm so happy you never lost your beautiful smile throughout all of this. Sending you love & keep up the amazing work! xxx

Tia THanks for shooting this and being so unabashed to document your pre, present and post-Anorexia states. You look so much younger with weight on- everyone told me that when i also suffered from this body dismorphia disease in high school and i applaud you for your bravado!

ive seen a lot of these videos, but yours really spoke to me. Thank you, from someone who is also recovering from an eating disorder. I applaud you for your strength.

I wish I could have read the words without having to pause it. But I was anorexic when I was 7. And I know it sounds weird but I was always the type to over think things and at that time I was being bullied so bad and I was always the short fat girl so I started starving myself and got really really sick. U could see my bones on my back and see my ribs and my face was starting to get so skinny my eyes looked so bad and skin got pale like sick pale not I'm just that color pale. I used to throw up whenever I did eat something. And I was going threw a rough time in life. I got ptsd that year. I wasn't living with my mom either but she did notice and had taken me to the hospital. I was like that for a year. And then again it started when I was about 9 or 10 I started throwing my eggs out the window or putting my food under my bed until I came home from school and I could take them to the kitchen without anyone knowing. And then I got better but it happened again when I was 12 and recently stopped when I was about 15 maybe early 16. Mid year of me being 16 I started dieting but I did it my way... I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted it but I ate very small portions of everything and only drank water. And then after all that I was like fuck it because I was getting to skinny again and now I was more developed then I was before so my boyfriend started telling me I needed to eat more because I was starting to look sick so slowly that started to change and I put on more weight he was happy I was doing better. Now I'm 17 and pregnant and I eat whatever I want when I want to and how I want to and I don't care and it's not because I'm pregnant I just don't care what people think of me anymore. If I like the way I look and my boyfriend does to that's all that matters. Learning to love ur self is key in everything.

Your beautiful! Just by looking at all these pictures of you, it obvious you are an amazing person!! And you really are, very beautiful!! I can only imagine how hard it is to over come this disease but you CAN do it!! God bless you! Don't give up!!

this touched me in soooo many ways!! I can't even describe it. it's helped me! I hope you are okay and i wish you the best in your recovery

Thank you so much for sharing your story and giving me more understanding of how a person struggling with this disorder actually thinks, perceives, and feels. Most people who haven't experienced this don't understand the pattern of experiences, thoughts, and actions that lead to such a disorder and keep someone in that disorder and this is very helpful.

You remind me of Blake Lively, so beautiful

She is ALWAYS smiling!!😍😘 That is cool!👍🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴

i'm so happy that you've recovered, you're beautiful inside and out and you seem like such a sweet, strong person 💕✨

I'm soo glad you are doing better. I hope your story can help others who are struggling with this disorder. Take care.

So gorgeous, too. It's unfortunate to see such an accomplished, amazing woman go through such an experience. Much love

who is healthy and little over weight and watching it?

Always glad to see these kinds of stories turn out for the better. You got your glow back and look alive again!

You are such a beautiful and confident girl, a great inspiration. I understand this feeling and insecurities, and your video is like a wake up call for me to stop starving myself before it becomes serious.

Amazing! I wish you could reach out to youtuber Eugenia Cooney and help her in some small way. She denies being anorexic but it's very apparent. I hope she gets help before it's too late.

Hi there, I'm so happy that things are going well for you now. I know your video will help others who are struggling with anorexia. It took a lot of guts to put your personal story on KZfaq for all to see. I think that says a lot about you. You are a strong person and you are truly beautiful!

You are an incredible person. I know exactly how hard it is to have done what you're doing and keep it up. Very few people will ever understand the effort and commitment but I hope you'll get a few congratulations along the way from people (like me) who do. All the love and congratulations in the world and you look absolutely beautiful, (I mean stunning!) now. Do you have any advice for someone trying hard to recover. I am 25 and was diagnosed at 12, I haven't had a period in over 6 years and have osteoporosis among other things. I am trying desperately hard to recover, and I have made a lot of progress in my mind - I used to barely leave the house and see my husband once every few days as I couldn't eat with him. Now we are moving in together, see each other multiple times a day, I can have smoothies and small snacks with him, I have a PhD position and a teaching job that I love and manage to fulfil despite the anorexia. I am a 1.5 kilos up from my lowest weight and my family and husband are so wonderful and I am more positive than I have ever been, but it has taken a year to make this small gain and I swear some days I just go right back to square one. And my psychologist is leaving so I am terrified! Aside from all the fab health benefits I would really like to be able to wear a dress in public and look fab (like you do!) without the stares and eatafuckingburger comments... It's the little things... Again. You are incredible. You should be so so proud of what you are doing and keep being proud always.

Eat no more than 1200 calories??? On a daily basis, no restrictions, I end up eating around 800 and I'm actually overweight...NOTHING MAKES SINCE ANYMORE

Wow. Thank you. I needed this. ❤ I'm seeing my dietitian today and for some reason this vid made me feel less fearful about it ❤

I also had anorexia. I previously watched this and felt triggered, but now watching this I feel empowered. Anorexia is a horrible disease and if anyone is struggling with it I just want you to know it gets better. No matter how hard it may feel right now, you will beat it. whether it's next year or next week you will get through this. your beautiful and worth so much, keep fighting💖. Thank you Tia you really helped me fight this disease and you are beautiful on the inside and out. I hope I can do the same! xoxo

Being raw vegan is not the source of her anorexia

Well i don't know you but i am so proud of you girl! And your smile is like the most adorable thing ever...just saying

It is very brave of you to share your story! You are an amazing individual. To be able to share your darkest, innermost secrets with us on KZfaq, had to be so challenging. I hope and pray you are able to find peace every day! Keep up the good work, Tia! You rock!!!

I can't keep up with your notes, but thank you for sharing. I am so glad you are recovering. God bless you

Life is as unfair...as it is fair. Life is as painful....as it is pain free, Life is as good as it is bad. There is as much suffering as there is happiness.There is always a balance in life, always.

You are beautiful and are so brave to share your story!! However, next time slow down the text

i'm glad you recovered.. I was very much worried after seeing your photos being so skinny to the bones... You are so pretty and your smile is ecstatic! You have that glow that makes everyone happy too... You were never fat to begin with.. Not even close to being chubby.. Keep living life!! Thank you for not giving up.. You inspired me..

congrats you are sooo beautiful when you are healthy-looking in the last few pics, your face was still beautiful when you were underweight but you looked sick and I am happy for your recovery

at 8:59 where's the rest of her finger?

It was so fast I couldn't read anything. But you are a beautiful girl, a inspiration I'd say. 😇

You look so great! not just your weight, but you look so happy, you're not alone and this is just truly inspiring for those who may be struggling

sometimes is hard to believe that a beautiful girl like you had such a terrible sickness , but you are a very strong human been, God bless !!!!!

I liked the video! Very well done!

Such a beautiful smile :)

She is such a beautiful lady who has found the real beauty and love for herself. Thank you for sharing!!!!

Hello dear person just a thought if you post again could you slow the video down.I haven't time read the words.Even if i remove my sunglasses

Africa is a continent-not a country. Which country did you visit?

Bless you. I stumbled on this video and feel you are very courageous. Recovery is YOURS! It's a lifelong commitment that we deserve. Every step counts. Keep learning, loving and sharing your beautiful purpose. You survived for great reasons. Sending you love and light!

I am SO proud of you for how far you have come. Your journey is truly incredible. You are an absolutely beautiful girl, inside and out. Never forget how truly incredible you are. Good luck on your continuous battle. You are a work in progress, it is okay to not always feel okay. You are beautiful and you are loved by so many.

Congratulatios,i am happy for you,GOD bless..

Your lucky. I am very overweight but down to 195. I eat barely 600 calories a day and instead of losing weight I either stay where I am or get fatter. At my age I am convinced I will die a big fat pig and plan to be creamated so I Wont look like a stuffed pig in a box. Yes I think of this. My doctor told me I was an obese anorexic, evidently it's a real thing. Either way, why do 99% of humanity starve themselves and loose weight and I don't? I have no thyroid issues at all. Yesterday I ate a rice crispy treat, crackers, drank my green juice and that is it, I was stuffed and that is a heavy food day. Of course my new doctor calls me a liar when I show him my food diary as he is convinced I lie, so my spouse writes it for me and guess what, it's the same! I was super thin naturally my entire life until a back injury then I piled on the pounds and now it won't go away no matter what. Wish I had the money I would just pay to have it cut off. I don't went to be deathly thin,as you sadly got, I want to be my normal weight of 100 pounds NOT 200!

It's scary and sad how much I can relate to this. I also had a spinal fusion for my scoliosis on top of it all. Thank you for making this video! I can honestly say that even though I wish it had never happened to you, this video has really helped (I don't know how that's going to come off). You're incredibly strong and I hope one day you'll fully recover and learn to be happy with everything!

If i am even 1% more like you, id be bloody happier. And i dont mean in a 'i wish i could be thin like you' kind of way. I just am admiring how amazing you are and yeah...i never normally comment on these videos bc they annoy me but yours pulled at my heart strings. Keep fighting on. You defo deserve life without this stupid illness. Ive been poorly for 14 years now and i dont think ill ever get better and have kind of resigned myself to the reality of this being my life forever. But seriously, well done to you xxxxxxxxxx Its so nice seeing people coming out of the other side of this crappy ED-life

+Eugenia Cooney

How can aperson stop thinking about how much they weigh if its the only thing they care about in their life?

I know I’m late to the party here, and I’m not sure if you’ll see this. Just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story! I too recovered from an eating disorder, and they really are devastating to your life. They take over everything. It takes an incredible amount of strength to recover and this video made me so proud! Great job and hope you’re doing well.

So glad that you could recover your life. This video has showed me that you should take care of yourself in a good way and that consequences of not doing it can be really serious. Thanks for sharing your story!

wow just wow.

You look younger after gaining some weight. Keep it up!

You are so beautiful and amazing. My son had anorexia and was off school for two years because of it. He nearly died and was only 5 stone and 6ft tall. It was a totally nightmare for him and the family. They told me every night he went to bed he might die as his heart could stop. I couldn't sleep at night checking he hadn't died. This went on for 4 years. He went to a clinic for 6mths this was a turning point. Unfortunately his 17 year old friend didn't make it. ..so sad. I have found anorexic people are usually perfectionists highly intelligent and beautiful. It is so sad. I am so glad you have turned a corner in your fight against it. Be strong, you are amazing...you can win. Thanks for telling your story your an inspiration you should be so proud of yourself xxx😀

Truer words were never said..."Some days I am okay with it, some days I'm not." It's a long journey.

All of those rude things people said to you like "go eat a burger" "you're so thin" "are you doing drugs" people say to me and I don't have an eating disorder and I'm not starving myself I'm just a small person and people call me anorexic. I feel like I have to do the opposite thing you did and just stuff my face but I know that wouldn't help me :/

This video is so ANNOYING I can't read without having to pause every two seconds

I cried through this video, I know what it is like to be starving and be literally unable to eat even a piece of raw broccoli. 14 years after my recovery I have not seen my weight on a scale, there are no scales in my house and I weigh backwards at the doctor. The world is cruel but mostly this is a disorder dying for control. I hope you have a complete recovery and realize that none of those number define you (and really are none of your business). Much love.