Ever since Bourdain killed himself I've been taking a very serious and honest look at my mental health. If I thought the guy who had it figured all out killed himself at the end of my idea of the ideal life, what does that say about my dreams? My perspective of life and happiness have significantly changed after his suicide. It was probably the most important lesson he left us with.

To take your own life and leave behind a family and young children when you seem to "have it all" just goes to show how powerful and destructive a disease depression really is. RIP 🙏

Man, I loved this guy! He was so different than the rest! What impressed me most was that he turned his life around from a deep darkness. He also had success in his 40s which goes to show that there’s hope and that people can be late bloomers. I’m sorry his demons took over in the end. Rip Anthony.🥺

The false expectation of perpetual happiness is killing our spirit. Happiness just happens, sometimes for a moment, when you're life is built on good decisions. It may be eating a good meal, or seeing your daughter's fascination with the giraffes at the zoo. This diet of fake happiness on social media is ruining our hope of balanced expectations, life is hard, and you must be able to take the good times with the difficult ones.

Anthony is the reason I attended culinary school and had dreams of being a chef. It was not so much the cooking aspect but more so the learning of different cultures and nationalties. Tony RIP you were a true and honest man who told it like it was and was open about his struggles which has helped and will continue to help many people strugguling with addition which is a very common issue in the cooking world.

I wish he was still here. His casual mindset is so likable. Many people gaining fame become narcissistic in one way or another, but he remained so humble and true to himself. He's my idol.

My heart just breaks for his daughter and his pain. RIP Tony

He talked openly about his demons, but seemed to be getting on top of them. One never knows... No celebrity death hit me as hard as Tony's.

It makes me sick I miss him so much ...template of how a man should be

I miss you Tony, miss your show, your outlook on life and your attitude towards life, so sorry you were hurting that much to end your life. Thank you for everything

RIP Anthony, you seemed like such a smart and genuine and caring person with a great talent and taste for food, the world misses you and people like you

We are easily diverted by who we frequent, when you are a Loner we always go back to our comforts. I see myself in this lost soul of a man. I feel sorry for his daughter. R.I.P.

i can never speak for him but he just looks exhausted & almost let down in a sense as even though he has what anyone in normal life thinks they’d want, i see him feeling “this is all it’s ever going to be” it truly haunts me & makes me think if he out of everyone couldn’t find happiness what the hell am i even trying for

I love how he said the people are not necessarily their government. Meaning how people are not inherently nefarious. Gave me hope

God bless you Tony... We miss you... Thank you for the laughs,recipes,and sharing your struggles with addiction... I have recently put together almost 80 days...no booze, no narcotics....just cannibis...RIP Anthony Bourdain.

I feel as if he put a lot of pressure on himself Just like how the interviewer said " every man wants to be you " That's such a hard hit to yourself especially since Tony had major depression and addiction It's a hard hit and I feel it just became too much to the point that he didn't enjoy himself anymore

What’s for dinner? What makes you happy? Goodbye, dear one. Thanks for bringing people together. ❤️

What a perfect show ! In honor of a great man, I just did a portrait painting of him....😍😍😍

This was an amazing interview.

What a good human being. I love how he answered the reporter's question on having Obama try food that's off the beaten path. I knew where the reporter is going with that loaded question. Anthony didn't answer the way the reporter was hoping to hear. What a great answer and respect to someone else's question. He is missed greatly.

Unfortunately sobriety doesn't solve everything either. It the first step on a very long, hard road. Its hard to accept that you deserve to be happy and healthy, and that happiness is not reliant on external factors. I was drinking pretty much every day and using drugs for the better part of a decade. Finally went to the hospital and they put me through the first 48 hours of DTs, and I had to accomplish the rest on my own with a benzo taper. 2 months off the pills, and I still get crippling bouts of depression, anxiety and random spurts of anger, too. I have to stay constantly busy, or I start to ruminate upon my failings and past fuckups. I think Tony had a similar problem, too. When the sun goes down and you're alone with your thoughts, anything can happen.... I miss Tony, but I don't blame him for a second. I know what it feels like to be at the bottom of that hole. I just hope he's at peace.

God Damn it!!!! I miss him so much.......................

I always find it so bizarre and awkward when the interviewer only asks questions and then responds immediately with another question without acknowledging what the interviewee says. So weird. He says something very important and striking and she just goes to the next question. If you do that, you’re not an interviewer, you’re just reading questions

R.i.p he will forever be remembered we love you

sad tragic loss.rip

I'm telling you its just absolutely unbelievable the depths mental illness can take you. People who dont have it do not have even an Idea of the hell and suffering and fear and terror that comes with it.....I have been suffering with Borderline Personality Disorder since I was 15 and it has taken my life apart, the things that go on in my head are horrifying, multi multi multi layered and deep and black and your brain can just play tricks on you and the power of it is just so completely paralysing. It can become something the human body just doesnt have the resources to fight. I'm 34 in a month and I have missed out on soooooooooooooooooooooo much and I feel i dont have much left in me either. Am almost ready to leave the planet. His suffering has ended now so may he rest in peace xxxxx

Wish you would of looked in the mirror and saw that man again tony. R.I.P. you will be forever missed.

How can there ever be anything cooler than Tony and Barack sharing a meal in Hanoi

R.I.P

5:48 for those of you who are Last Dinosaur fans

Lmao the news reporter is giving Bourdain the fuck me eyes

RIP he had a pain that nobody could see. horror

5:35 this video segment was used in a song called Paranoia Paradise by Last Dinosaurs

i wonder who comes up with these questions, like "lets ask him something about his daughter, yes yes, interesting, NOW ASK HIM ABOUT THE DRUG USE 20 years ago, YES perfect, ASK HIM, ASK HIM NOW" its hilarious

i mean, jesus, good lawd those donut glazed optics got me on top of this

Wow.

Rip

Come on Fifth Estate... even back in 2018, you could have uploaded this video in greater than 360p resolution. sigh

I miss him well. very addictive man, if that makes sense. i think he killed himself because he had seen so much that there was almost nothing left. he led a life many would kill for, or die for. he was his own boss and in control. he made the decision and thats what it was. very fucking sad. in a way i respect his choice, even though he left behind a family and that is tragic.

Untreated alcoholism

Mouthy Buddha sent me here. Creator rest your soul Mr. Bourdain

"I was thinking about hanging it up in a year, or two..." damn.... that DID NOT age well :(

He said the words hang it all up. That hit me hard. No I wasn't there and I don't know how true this was but I've done a little digging and I heard that he was trying to open his marriage up and he was really jealous of another man. His wife was sleeping with and couldn't handle it anymore and I think that's what drove him over the edge. I do think he was sober when he hung himself or at least not on any drugs. I don't know why I've always respected this man then looked up to him but I just do.

"Reformed party boy"?? What? Since when was heroin a party drug?

RIP

The ONLY punk rocker of foods

Awnsering these questions to your therapist is one thing, after years and years of communicating. Talking about stuff like this on CNN is a whole new Level. This man, did not give a Fuck about anything but his daughter.

This darkness born with us. An enigma difficult to understand. A chain from the past. Maybe is just God will and maybe not.

I still can't believe he killed himself

I think Anthony Bourdain was the only human on earth who could say uhhhhhmmmm as many times as he did and no ones cared. And fuckkkk he was so hot. That personality though 🔥🔥

Orange dress was a perfect choice 👌 🍕

Wendy. 😍

Wow, this interviewer has NO FLOW. At all. Totally stilted. She has all the charm of a kindergarten yard duty; she could use some of Bourdain's charisma because she just stops the conversation cold, like a shut door. Right interviewee, wrong interviewer.

Anthony bourdain very inspiring yet so sad..death is such an enigma...what could possess someone to just leave their little girl behind? I couldn’t imagine having a baby girl and committing suicide...I wonder if he thought about her at all while it happened...

drugs will destroy your mental health

Reporter always asking stupid questions unsympathetically

Obama is very proficient with chopsticks.

There's no way he killed himself. Popular TV show, jiu-jitsu aficionado.

I get so mad when I think of you Anthony why did you do this we loved you so much you dummy…you were too cool to live

Omg the reporter wants to laugh so bad. She has to remember to keep her professionalism intact. #tinynubbins

Meu Deus abençoe a todos envolvidos no video e familias e todos aqui nos comentarios e familias em nome do Senhor Jesus Cristo🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏7777777..

6:22 was weird af.

This makes me feel even more in love with Anthony and President Obama❤️❤️❤️

My president likes steak WELL DONE @?

You can see Bourdain’s suicide in his living eyes. “I have the best job in the world”, yet beneath that line is the glacier of meaninglessness.

I love how he tore Donald Trump apart 😂😂😂

Whatever happened to him? He still hangin around?

Drone striker Obama

Well dissing trump, I am sure he won't hang around for that disrespect

Its not battling with heroin he was depressed because he cant take that other countries are like that and had seen the side of the poor and how poverty is consuming that country

Worst interviewer ever. She didn't listen to one single answer as she had the list of useless-gossip-questions. He didn't finish to tell the story of his daughter's meals as she jumped as a robot "You did a lot of DRUUUGS, tell us all about it". What a squallid image of journalism

Young woman abuse and heavy drugged lies and personal cc folks abuse... he faked so much, duh tho

Why did this turn into a bash trump interview 😧. Never new he was that vindictive.

Of course he had to diss DJT and abandon his daughter. #hero🙄

He preaches all this openmindness bullshit and doesn’t want to give trump a chance 🖕

He looks sad like a man without a real purpose.. It's all curated for TV.

If, if he killed himself, it’s cuz he found that the man he discredited was right about what, he in his life would ever think it would be true, that he faced the devils and was conned, and that, no matter how he is unpolitical about anything, for god’s sake... he has ever been.. made him so depressed.. in anyways, even if he really killed himself, he was murdered by power. Who would it have been? Who? Who? Who? ..

Anthony was a special special guy TRULY. An i dont agree with the suicide verdict...... Theres so much more to this story - he knew to much about Hollywood an Hollywood is dangerous an fake! Anthony - such an amazing man!

Willing to sit down with the Hezbollah honcho but wouldn't sit down with Trump? Did I really here that right? Really disappointing coming from a man I had a lot of respect for.

This man had the world .. he still killed himself and was so selfish. His poor daughter that he said was his life obviously not so much if he didn’t care enough about her to live

😂🤣the trump statement was the girliest shit I’ve heard a guy say.

No respect for anyone who leaves his child behind! That's a punk

Good to see the interviewer is very one sided. Very professional. Trump this Trump that. But didn't mention anything about Bengazi or however u spell that pos name. N why Obama spent so much time their 😂😂😂

says he'd rather meet with terrorist than Trump; yet he met with obama. his politics were atrocious but I do enjoy