You and Timmy were a great team!!! It's so hard to live without your other half and you're going to have days of grief but you can't blame yourself with "what if." You were a great partner to Timmy!!! Keeping you in my prayers sweet lady!!!!

Stephanie you do whatever you need to grieve Timmy. Having the good time with him was such a blessing- it’s a blessing many never experience. I am an RN and I can say you did everything you could…blood clots are unpredictable and it just sucks! I know it’s so hard for you; I can say the pain does get better, but you’ll always miss him. ❤️ You may not realize it, but even now you are helping so many others by just being you. Love you Stephanie. ❤️ Darla

This is by far my favorite episode. A lot of people feel like you do, but would never allow that side be seen. You are so endearing and so real and you allow us not only to share in your grief but grieve along with you our loved ones....but the absolute best was Timmy singing....Praise God, Praise God, Praise God!!! Hallelujah!!! Love you sister!!!

Stephanie, you do not need to apologize for grieving. It is a long hard thing to go through and all of the things you are experiencing are completely understandable. You and Timmy were a great team and an inspiration to so many people. We will always be here with open hearts to listen when you need to talk. Love you, girl!

I was a widow in my forties. I kept thinking “maybe I could have done something different”, but in hindsight, I know was his time to ho home to the Lord. You are processing your loss of Timmy…yes, the shock has worn off I’m praying for the comfort of the Lord! 🙏❤️

Stephanie sweetie....you CAN NOT blame yourself! You were such a wonderful person, wife, and caregiver for Timmy! You two were DEFINITELY A TEAM! The love was over powering! You know when God is ready for us, no matter what we do or what we've done is going to matter. We are going home. He was ready for Timmy to come home. I know how hard it is, but please try to remember he's pain free and watching you everyday and he doesn't want you to suffer his loss. That's what helps me through the day of the loss of my son and husband. Take one day at a time, keep busy like your doing and God will do the rest. God bless you, Stephanie! You've got this, Sweetie! You're yard is looking absolutely amazing! ❤️💯👀

You sent a beautiful message out today Stephanie. I'm sure a lot of us here have had those same questions, realizations and thoughts upon losing a loved one. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other, we're here walking beside you. Much love.

I'm right there with you Stephanie. I lost my hubby 3/15/23. Just 4 months short of our 50th anniversary. I'm so glad you are on and say exactly how I felt thinking back. But I know he is with the Lord just as Timmy. Thank you for being transparent. We love you so keep doing what you do. ❤❤❤

How awesome are you that you don’t make excuses for not working out!! The more I watch you the more I realize what an amazing young woman you are!!!

You don’t have to apologize for grieving. Timmy is a part of your channel so you’re allowed to cry, laugh, or just reminisce. You have your home looking cozy and pretty. Can’t wait to see the reveal 😊

Thank you so much Stephanie for adding Timmy in to the end of this video, was so good to hear him and see him again, my heart was breaking for you watching and listening to you talking about how Timmy passed , I'm just so glad your mum and dad live next to you and we're there for you , you are an amazing woman , you did what you could to keep Timmy here, but God wanted to take him home , sounds like Timmy went fast and didn't suffer that morning as God had him in the palm of his hand and said It's time to come home my Child, we cant see beyond the veil , but Timmy believed with every fiber of his being , that his savior was going to greet him one day , and that he would be in Heaven singing with the Angels, he would be so so so PROUD of you , let your heart greive , there is no time limit there is no manual , when you have walked thru this greif you will be stronger for it , and the days will be less sad and more happiness will fill your days , you will never stop missing Timmy , but those happier times in your memories and videos and photos will carry you thru this life till you see him again, always in my prayers , sending massive hugs across the seas from NZ, keep your faith and each day will get a little easier much love Cat❤ ❤❤

As someone who lost a loved one in January, I can say that this was the most beautiful - and cathartic - video I have been blessed to watch. I am so glad you didn't hold back both for you and for me. After my loss, I learned that there are stages in the grieving process, and believe me that I have cycled through every one of them more than once. I think I have been learning just to let each one happen and to reflect on it both as I am going through it and after. One of those stages for me has been blame. I have blamed everybody - the doctor, other family members, and, most of all, myself. But rationally, I know that none of us were responsible for the passing. It was God's will. Your honesty, openness, and willingness to share the pain of your loss with us is actually a fitting tribute to your memories of your husband and your marriage, especially when you are helping someone like me who is going through a similar experience. I think Timmy is pleased to know that.

Stephanie, thank you for showing the segment of you talking about Timmy. My brother just recently and suddenly lost his wife of 36 years. It is perfectly normal to do the "what if" head game...it is part of the grieving process to mull whether you could have done anything to avert the outcome. Be gracious with yourself and those feelings.

Stephanie, don’t ever think that you have to cut these emotional parts out of your videos. Grief doesn’t have a timeline. My oldest brother passed away 42 years ago and I think of him often. You never get over grief, you learn to live with it. Thank you, for sharing how Timmy left. My pastor spoke about courage today. My prayer is that you wake up everyday and have the courage to put one foot in front of the other to have the good life that Timmy wanted for you. 🙏🏻❤️

Sweet Stephanie❤It’s so not easy. Thank you for sharing all of you. We know he’s watching over you. Big hugs, ✌🏼💕🙋🏻‍♀️

Next month it'll be 23 years since my dad passed away, so hard to believe. The distance of time acts as a cushion and our love for those we lost is still there, but the hurt is buffered by time. Don't apologize for the loss you feel for Timmy and showing emotion...... All things work together.......... I'm glad to hear you're going to having a good life because that's what your husband would want you to do. We sang Amazing grace in church this morning 😊❤

Such a beautiful and heart warming end to your video. Grief is a journey with no end destination. The pain doesn’t go away, we just learn how to live with it. We learn coping strategies that help us live with it. That’s so beautiful when you said, “my husband wanted me to have a happy life so that’s what I’m going to do for him”. No more beautiful words have ever been spoken. Timmy was a very selfless man and he loved you with all of his being. Your memories of him will continue to provide solace, forever❣️

Thank you for sharing Stephanie...it's so hard being a widow...you were a good wife and you loved your husband so much and Timmy knew that and all your viewers did too...keep going...we are survivors!❤

Stephanie, this is your best video. You are ministering to so many unseen people in need of your words spoken from the depth of your soul. Peace be upon you, my sister ❤

Well we all liked Timmy . I mean how could you not love Timmy? Thank you for sharing with us details of his death. Although your grief is different than ours we understand and appreciate your feelings. Timmy was blessed to have you . I will be praying for you sweet lady .

HI Stephanie! I am usually pretty quiet, but I have to tell you what an amazing woman I think you are! Taking the time to show everyone what you are feeling at this most tender time! Thank you for that!! I have had my share of losses in my life. I know how it feels to grieve! So I have nothing but compassion for you. Just keep trusting in God and you know he will show you the way! ✝💜

Such a beautiful end to your video. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing what you're going through with us. I cried with you. Sending loving prayers your way, Stephanie. ❤

Steph don’t ever apologize for your grief. As someone who’s been grieving her Daddy for over two years, it hurts yet somehow helps to let it out. I understand all the questioning, I have so many times. I’ve been taught all my life that God has an appointed time when he calls us home, so there’s not a thing we can do. I’ve even questioned Him, I guess that’s our weak, grieving flesh, but in the end we have to remember to trust Him because we know He doesn’t make mistakes. Isn’t it such a relief though and less a burden when we know our loved ones are with Him? Much love and a hug from “across the hill” (Southwest VA)

Wish I could just hug you. I lost my husband of 55 years on April 2, 2021 from cancer. I know how you feel. You are such a sweet person and you did all you could do. Timmy is watching over you but I know how deep the grief can feel. Hurts so every much. I had a wonderful husband and I miss him so much still.

It’s been 5 months today since I lost my dad and your words about the time growing from the last time you have seen your person is something I have felt every day. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Please don’t apologize for feeling your feelings - which are completely valid. Sending you love!

Sweet Stephanie, I think it’s really good that you share your feelings and emotions. Thank you for adding Timmy in your videos. I miss Timmy too and when you add him at the end of your videos it touches my heart greatly. Also know that you are a true blessing to us all! I truly look forward to seeing your video every Sunday. Stay blessed sweet friend and I hope you received the card that I sent you. ❤️❤️❤️ Roseanne

P.S.Seeing Timmy and listening to him was very touching and wonderful.For us and so many people,he was one of God's messengers!Thank you for sharing him with all of us!!!He is now your guardian angel hon.🙏❤🙏❤

Stephanie we love you...we want you to chat about Timmy all you want to! My heart wishes I could give him back to you & erase all your pain. Many hugs & prayers are sent to you! I absolutely adore you, fur kids & family. PTL you have videos of Timmy!

Oh Stephanie, you can’t blame yourself for Timmy’s death. You loved him and took amazing and dedicated care of him. I am so sorry for what you had to go through and are still going through. Beautiful ending, both your words and Timmy’s singing. Hugs and God Bless,Caroline

You are truly an inspiration Stephanie, you are stronger than you know it shows in how you are able to pull yourself up. Grieving is not linear, as you said you go through every emotion during grief. I love your attitude as well about the gym, I have been thinking of joining my locate plantet hollywood due to watching you. This has given me that extra push I need to get my butt in motion to finally join. God bless you Stephanie, Timmy will always be watching over you, you have a wonderful Guardian Angel in him.

I'm so sorry. I lost my sister from a blood clots in the lungs, she was only 44. I miss her so. It's gonna take a while. But talk about Timmy, talk to Timmy, tell old stories. Let him live on through you. The pain will always be there, but it gets easier. You don't believe that now, but you will see. My whole family is gone. My parents, sister and brothers. Its hard I lost 3 with in this past year, cancer with all but one. Involve Timmy in everything you do, bring him up, I talk to my loved ones alot. They are all ok, it's us who are left behind that need the prayers and love. And you got mine. Bless you sweet girl.

Oh sweetie, don't apologize for missing Timmy, we miss him too, and we thank you for feeling that you can share your feelings with us. You are such a blessing to me, and you are always in my prayers!

God Bless you Stephanie. It's so hard, grieving, but you let it out girl whenever/wherever you need to - we all understand and are grieving Timmy's passing as well. I love how you still put him singing in your video's - he was a blessing here on Earth and continues to be a blessing after his passing. You were the best wife/partner Timmy could have ever had, and I believe in my heart that you will see him again on the other side, xo

Stephanie, please don't be so hard on yourself. You did everything you could for Timmy, and he knew that! The what's will drive you crazy. Sending hugs your way!

Stephanie your niece and nephews are such a blessing(distraction) during the day,what a blessing. I often feel the loneliest at night and wee hours of the morning and if that is your case I am sincerely praying for you during this grieving process. Loving the patio it is coming along beautifully:-)

It’s very helpful to leave these moments in your videos to not only help others who may be struggling with similar situations, but to also show your transparency. You’re a real live person trying to navigate through this very difficult time. I believe everyone out here has asked those same “what ifs”, it’s just part of the grieving process. At the same time, however, please don’t overthink them because they will bury you. The first year with all of the “first times without Timmy” are also difficult. I remember not wanting to celebrate, or even have, New Year’s. I didn’t want to leave my loved one behind. We are all stronger than we give ourselves credit for. The pain is real, but you will get through this. Timmy will be in your heart ❤️ forever. You’re the lucky one as he chose you to give his heart, his love and his life to. Hold onto that, Stephanie, as he’s going to be holding onto your hand, for as long as you need him to. If that’s forever, then that’s what he’ll do. He has one hand and our Lord has the other. Take the time you need, we all grieve at our own pace. There are no hard and fast rules. Let his love embrace you as he walks with you and helps you navigate through your grief. It’s good to see you putting in the effort to do things. Your projects and going to the gym, the flea markets, etc…. It is a very important factor in keeping your head above water. And family and friends. Let them know how they can be helpful because they love you and want to help you, they just don’t always know what you need from day to day. Keep your chin up, you’re doing wonderful❣️

I’m so proud of you. I know how hard it is, prayers

Praise God!!! Stephanie you are so loved,thank you for sharing Timmy with us out here on KZfaq. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. You are in my prayers ❤️🙏

Stephanie you and Timmy were always a Blessing to me and you will remain very special. Grief is so different for everyone. Timmy lives on in your heart and watching all the nice things you have done for him and with him you never have to second guess if you could have done more. Your video today was very moving. I also want to say your patio is looking awesome. You are loved by all. God Bless. ❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️

I love to see you smiling and spending time with your little helpers.❤😊🙏🏻💖.

Oh Stephanie, the courage it took to share the events that led to Timothy’s death goes unmatched. As I’ve learned, it is always God’s timing as much as it hurts. Knowing the details makes me weep even harder for you. Please know that there wasn’t anything you did or didn’t do to prevent your loss of Timmy. God has given you the strength you need. Thank you for continuing to keep Timmy in our lives as well. ❤

From one widow to another, there is nothing like this pain. This grief. It’s such a shock. Everything is drastically different. Even the way you grocery shop. It becomes part of every fiber of your being. But hold onto hope, your faith, the Lord. You are still so early in your grieving….its a lifelong journey. If you ever want to talk, I would love to sit and talk and pray with you. 🙏🏻💔 Praying over you.

Stephanie, After my Grandmother passed, I thought about how I should have done things differently. I think its normal & part of the grief to look back and question those things. Thank you for sharing your life & his! Always pointing us to Jesus!

Oh Stephanie, your videos are my very very favorite. There's so much meaning in them and I love how you think about things. You are really helping so many people and carrying on Timmy's legacy. I admire that you share your emotions. You are a best friend to your viewers and I'm sure we all wish we lived near you. Your home and patio is beautiful. I love your decorating. Your family is very special and you are so lucky to live so close to them. You are all a great team. I get very excited to see your next video when it pops up on my screen. You may not seem very motivated at times but you get so much done and your videography is very well done. Thank you!💋

Oh sweet Steph, this one got me bawling. I’m glad you didn’t take that segment out, I think it’s good to share how you’re feeling, and it’s also helpful to those of us who are grieving our own losses to know we’re not feeling those feelings alone. My sister in law was buried one month ago today, it still doesn’t feel real, but you’re right the further away it gets, it’s somehow harder. Love ya girlie, and I’m totally serious about you (and I told Chelsea the same) coming up and spending some time thrifting with me whenever y’all are up to it! I’m just up I75. 😊

Oh, sweet Stephanie… Thank you so much for your transparency, and sharing your heart with us. I lost my husband, too, and we will never know, on this side of eternity, why God had this planned. But I know that some ladies search their whole life to find what we had with our husbands, and they never find it. You were a blessing to him, and you are a blessing to us now too!

Oh honey, I hope that I am not speaking out of turn but here is what I think. From what you've shared with us, you were a good and faithful wife, companion, caretaker, and friend to your sweet Timmy. You should not feel bad or feel like you didn't do enough. Of course, you only shared a bit of your life with us, but it was, in my opinion a life filled with love and respect for each other. My prayer for you and those that also loved Timmy, is to find comfort in talking about him with us and others, I pray for your continued strength during his most difficult time. I'm so happy that you have your family so close to you. This video was so thoughtfully done, and we grieve with you. 💗

Stephanie, I continue to pray for peace and comfort for you as you go through this grieving process. Thank you for sharing the clip of Timmy at the end. What wonderful memories you have to look back on through all of your vlogs. Big hugs from Ohio!

Bless your heart. We miss him, also. He is always with you ,in your heart and you are in his. You both have changed our lives. 🙏💕

Thank you for sharing your grief journey. My husband has been gone 8 years. My emotions can still be all over the place. I still struggle with pushing myself to go work out at my local YMCA. I'm lonely in a crowd. But God has never left me. He's always there to encourage me. I have an awesome family and friends. You will make it. It's very brave of you to share your journey. It has helped me so much.

Oh honey, you talk about Timmy to us as much as you want, it helps with healing your heart!❤

Stephanie you are so blessed to have your precious family close by as you grieve your loss of Timmy. When I lost my husband, having a child’s hugs available was such a comfort for me. Little ones remind me of the normalcy of life and when adults are uncomfortable to show affection, a child is so open to show kindness and a simple hug. God bless you sweet lady. Still praying for you 😊 Oh precious girl your story of how Timmy died broke my heart. I wish I could give you a hug. I so understand your feelings and dealing with the huge hole that’s left and your thinking. Remember “all things work together for good” AND He is the God of the details. I agree with you that all that happened was in His purpose and plan. AND the volume of your pain is evidence of your great love for Timmy. Give that back to the Lord as a sacrifice of praise to Him. His love is sufficient to get you through.

Never apologize for tears and down days. Stephanie my heart goes out to you. You are very blessed to have those precious years. I she your utube journey that had given you and Timmy amazing time together, great building skills, creation of financial security. Timmy’s with you everyday, he would so proud of the patio you are doing. One day at a time. God has a plan, trust me I personally have questions I would like him to answer someday. Hugs thoughts and prayers.

I absolutely loved this video! Sending love and prayers to you !! Thank you for playing Timmy he was a true angel!❤️🙏😇

I lost my 35 year old son in 2017 and have gone around that what if mountain many times. I expect I always will. However, I do it less and less and with that darned passage of time and space you will too. We will miss them always…until we meet again…in whatever time and space we must take in this journey we’ve been given. My heart breaks for you. We thank God for the measure of faith we have been given and know firsthand how hard his loss was…ALL for us. You’ve got this. Hugs.

The pain never seems to go away! In 2021 my husband and I got covid , sadly he passed away. As sick as I was I had to tell the doctors to take him off the oxygen. Later I wondered if I did the right thing, I felt it was unfair that because I was so sick that I had to make that decision. I felt like I had failed him, that somehow I betrayed him! We may never get the answers we do need, we just need to go on. Know this, they are in a better place than us! They are whole now. Some days are diamonds and some days are boulders for us, but we must perservere. We will see them again when we to shall pass! God bless you! I so enjoyed hearing Timmy singing at the end of a video recently. It keeps his spirit alive for all of us!

You are loved Stephanie. Don’t feel bad about sharing your grief. I lost my Dad in June 2020 from COVID. I still grieve his loss and feel guilt about the situation. Thank you for sharing your videos with us. He is such an important part of your life and that will never change. You were a wonderful support for Timmy. Nothing we say can erase the grief but know that we care.

Your channel has been a blessing to me. I understand the blood clot issues ,have had two,I do get scared the third one will come, I try to do the right things for it. Your patio looks better every week. Thank you for Timmy's story! I can just feel how much you loved Timmy. You are right grieving never ends. Timmy would want you to go and do what makes you happy,until next week.

So sorry for your grief, you are helping so many, you talk about him all you want, I sure it feels better to talk about you hubby. God Bless

You were a loving wife to Timmy and a wonderful care giver also. The fact you had the presence of mind to do CPR and not panic was amazing (retired nurse here). Timmy was a man who number his days here and had gained a heart of wisdom from Christ. Timmy is worth the shedding of tears and you know the separation is temporary. Imagine his joy at hearing Well done my faithful servant, enter your Master's joy from Christ! May you know the Lord is close to the broken hearted!❤

You did all you could do. Trust and thank God for all the good times you had with him. You did a great job as his mate and caregiver. Cry yes, but keep moving and cherish all the great memories you have. God will help you as you give your time to other great things. You are a blessing to us. I watch you and have learned so much from Timmy and you. Your home is beautiful. Thank you so much! Keep sharing with us as we too miss Timmy. Keep going!

You are a wonderful person. I’m thankful for your channel. Don’t ever feel like you have to apologize for your grief. Everyone watching cares about you, and most (should be all) are compassionate to loss. I love the planter. Your patio is awesome! ❤

I love to see you smiling again. The yard looks beautiful. Knowing his history and the leg pain, the Dr’s should have ruled out a blood clot. I think that’s negligence on their part. Timmy was so blessed to have you in his life. Keep staying positive love. You have such heartfelt memories and thoughts when it comes to him. I know he’s smiling down on you and singing. Continued prayers and blessings to you ❤🙏🏽

Never ever apologize for sharing your feelings. When my Husband passed, I hung his jacket in his closet right in the middle and hugged it every morning and when I got home from work. Did that for at least 6 months., for me he was there with me. One day I come home and didn't think about the jacket and as I was changing from work, I realized that busy day I hadn't thought of my Dennis up to that part of the day. I went to his jacket and bawled my eyes out. Sounds weird I spose but for me it was comfort. Your Timmy sits on your shoulder every day and night. He is truly your angel now and watches over you. I cried with you today watching your video., the ending was so touching. I think he loved sharing on your channel as much as you do, and he knew it made you happy. Its easy to look back and try to see a sign you missed., you definitely cannot blame yourself. AND yes, I did the same thing. LOL Stick with your workouts., in the long run you will be glad you did. and feel so much better. Hey if you have to cry while you're on the treadmill go for it., most may think it's just sweat. LOL GOD BLESS YOU SWEET STEPHANIE. A beautiful soul.

Everything is gorgeous Stephanie the planter is SWEET !!! The privacy fence will be SHARP! LOVE those kiddos their GOOD children and the cutie little girl with the kitties is adorable! Dear Stephanie you are so much in our thoughts and prayers, l didn't lose my husband but when my Dad passed in 1987 and l know he is with our LORD AND SAVIOR and but it felt like my world as l knew it was ending couldn't understand how the world was still turning people goin about their everyday business and my Dad wasn't here anymore😭 the first holiday was Easter after Dad passed l've never colored any eggs since then and then came Christmas no holiday for years seemed the same without Dad and then my Mom passed in Sept.2010 as well as a beloved horse (Thunder)in June 2010 that l had for 29 years l had the same sorrows as l felt with Dad.😢 But l have JESUS and he gets me THROUGH l couldn't do it without him,praise Jesus! Thank you for Timmys song and l know he's right there with our heavenly Father because Timmy was always concerned about us folks having a personal relationship with JESUS, Timmy was and is blessed

Stephanie I can’t imagine your loss of Timmy , you are in my prayers .. I love your beautiful patio !! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️

There is NO timeline for grief. It's only been 2 months, the pain is very real. We lost our 12 day old grandson 4 years ago, and i still have my "Isaac days" as i call them. Praying for you Your garden is looking amazing

Im so sorry precious girl❤ I rarely comment but I have watched you and sweet Timmy from the beginning and I watch your sister too. I want you two to make it big on KZfaq because y’all deserve it. I lost my mama on April 19th and I know I had her 56 years but that wasn’t enough. I feel your pain and I’m praying for you! I love you Stephanie💕

(((Hugs))) Stephanie, thank you for opening up and sharing your loss, your pain and your love. My heart aches for you since I heard of Timmy’s passing. I felt as tho I’d lost a dear friend ❤️🥲

What a fantastic video, my friend! I call you my friend, because I feel close to you, and did so with dear Timmy. Sharing your grief with us on KZfaq is brave and so valuable to lift others. I especially loved the ending of this video with Timmy singing in the background. I am not currently grieving, although I’ve lost my precious parents years ago. But I have progressive Multiple Sclerosis, and my husband has diabetes. I am wheelchair bound, but thankfully I have a wonderful power chair. We retired last year from 40 years in the Methodist ministry, and built a handicapped accessible home near our kids and grandkids. We are so blessed, but the MS is so painful and limiting. I am mostly housebound. I struggle and grieve the loss of our health, and I so identify with what you and Timmy went through. You do a MASTERFUL job of making videos that are both uplifting, and heartfelt, as you share your ups and downs of coping with grief, and the joys of family. Timmy’s and your faith in Christ is so edifying. I look forward to your instagram posts, and especially your videos. Even though my husband and I, and our kids are very close, I often feel isolated and lonely because of my handicap. Keep looking up, dear Stephanie, thank you so much for sharing! Jesus is Lord!

Oh, my gosh. I'm crying right with you. He touched so many hearts. I miss his funny and sweet ways so much. We love you, Stephanie. I had second thoughts when my mom died. I wondered if I could have done more. We always second guess ourselves, but I do believe when it's our time to go, no one can save us. It was Timmy's and my mom's time.

I’m going through it too… my Mom passed away on May 21st and knowing I’ll never see her again or talk to her again gets more real everyday. My heart hurts for you… as long as you have your faith you will find the strength to persevere. He is with you and the lord is with you both. ❤️🙏

Sharing your last time with Timmy is such an amazing gift. Therapy can help with PTSD & grief. Remember self care. Your family especially the little ones love you & need you. Thank you. You are amazing. 😢❤

Sweetheart you and Timmy were an amazing team. My heart breaks for you. You are doing a great job. Your projects in the yard are looking beautiful. You are so talented. Thank you for sharing with us Stephanie. Never Apologize! You’re our friend and friends are always there for each other. ❤️🥰😘

Thank you for sharing the rawness of your grief. Been there. Grief hurts. And yes, you will always feel the pain and loss of your sweet Timmy but in time the pain does ease. It will get better. Takes time. Praying for you along with your many other subscribing "family." Please never feel you have to apologize for showing your grief. It is a natural part of life. Many of us have experienced it and understand and those who haven't, will. You are blessed to have your family so close and so supportive. Your little niece is precious. The Lord is your strength. Hugs!

What a sweet, pure heart you have. You are touching many lives. You're a gift. Please keep sharing. Feels like I'm hanging out with a dear friend. We're crying and grieving with you. Love and hugs ❤.

Stephanie I completely understand your emotions and grief. I lost my best friend of 35 years this January. You are working through it, you are doing it. One comment below says grief is not linear, I fully agree. Timmy wants you to be happy and content. Your home is blessed, it is truly your blessed nest. I admire your strength and love watching your clips. So glad your family is close. Love is the fabric that keeps it all together sweetie. Hang in there honey your husband loved you very much and he wants you to have a good life!!!

You don't have to apologize about crying over your grief. We like to hear how you are doing even when you are having rough days like this. Your little niece is so cute. Thanks for sharing your fun times with us. Sending you hugs and prayers!

Sweetie, don't second guess what you could've done. You were the best. Hind sight is always 20/20. You will see Timmy again but in God's time. You are so loved.❤❤🤗

You are doing well for Timmy passing only 2 months ago. It was Timmys time to go unfortunately and you did everything right. It showed on here how good you were to him. You will always miss him, that’s a fact. The memories you hold are the icing for you. Your little niece is adorable and a blessing to you. God bless you Steph.

Stephanie please know how much I love you and loved Timmie. This video has broken my heart “in a good way”. Thank you for sharing all this with us. You and Timmie are the most honest and loving people I have found on KZfaq and your faith is revealed in both your words and deeds. Please continue with your videos and words of love and wisdom. Plus you have a wonderful family I am enjoying getting to know.

Stephanie thank you for allowing us to see Timmy sing. Such a sweet sound. Love your new planter and really pretty plants. Glad you went to the gym. It always makes you feel better. Breakfast looks yummy. I toast both sides of my tortilla. Wish you had a porch to sit in a rocking chair with your fur babies and let you mind concentrate on the sounds and smell of sweet rain. You could attach a sun shade from your house to the shed that could provide shelter. Have a good week.

Stephanie there is so many stages of grief, I am glad you let it out when you have those moments it is much healthier for you than to hold it in. I lost my husband 10 months ago and there seems to always be a memory or thought that will trigger the tears to flow. There will be a day that the memories will bring a smile and even a chuckle at that point we will know we made it thru the loss and how blessed we were to have enjoyed the years that we shared with our husbands ❤sending you hugs

Oh Stephanie my heart goes out to you my lovely mum developed a blood clot in her leg then got septicaemia and passed away I was on holiday in Turkey at the time just devastating take one day at a time and try not to beat yourself up about it you'll never get over losing timmy you just learn to live with it but it will get easier sending love and hugs xx

Love all the projects you've done. Your outdoor space is really nice! Beautiful choice of flowers for the three tiered basket. Thanks for the laugh when you said you were afraid to tell your Dad about the free rocks!😂

Stephanie I lost my husband Raymond from a tragic fall. I know the way you are feeling . Your love for Timmy will help you learn to deal with this . He is watching over you . Stay strong beautiful lady. 😢❤

I’ve watched your channel from the beginning for mobile home reno ideas, because of my situation. I sold my 2 story house of 20 years to move into a mobile home next door to my Dad. He was grieving terribly over the loss of Mom but I could see a big change in him once I got settled in. We talked every day and I cooked and helped him out. Little could I have known that he would be gone less than 2 years later..he got Covid pneumonia and was gone in 5 days. I’m struggling as there are 4 other siblings and the estate didn’t go as my Dad’s final wish. Even though I am at a financial loss now, I wouldn’t trade that time for anything. I too, believe God has plans for everything. It’s one day at a time here for me. It’s good to see you keeping busy and your family is so close. Made me cry seeing Timmy sing, I know we aren’t acquainted, but I have always loved your little channel. God bless ♥️

I just found your channel about a month ago and I am so blessed I did. I really enjoyed Timmy's singing. I am so sorry for the pain and loss your feeling. I will definitely pray for peace and comfort for you. ❤️

Thank you for sharing your grief and all of the shoulda, woulda, coulda thoughts that are haunting your memories of that last week. It is normal, Stephanie. I went through the same thing with my husbands death. You just have to remember that you did your very best with Timmy. You took extremely good care of him, and I know from personal experience that the caretaker role is NOT easy. You were amazing with him. My heart and prayers go out to you. ❤️

Sweet girl, you share with us whenever you need to! We are praying for you to have God’s comfort and peace. Timmy was a very special guy! He loved Jesus, and I loved hearing his hymns! I imagine he is singing and playing the piano for Jesus right now. I enjoy seeing the progress on your patio! Those flowers look so pretty! How nice that you have a shed and storage bench too! Prayers, Shari

This is a grieving process Stephanie. I also lost my husband in 2013. My heart goes out to you. You talk if it helps. We all love you and are here for you. Prayers...

Stephanie, It has taken me two years to be able to remenber my husband and smile at the memories instead of crying. The first year is the hardest but it helps to have family to share memories with. I understand that talking about Timmy will help you as much as it did me. Yesterday was the two year mark for me. I am lucky enough to have a son that showed up early in the day to take me out to my husbands favorite restaurant for lunch and then to a Dairy Queen for my husbands favorite ice cream treat. We spent the day talking and laughing at memories. You are just as lucky as me to have family close by to share those wonderful memories with.

I sent the first message before reaching the end of the video. I have finished it and wanted to thank you for including your words about Timmy. What a blessing to be able to reflect and realize how much of a team you were. Life is hard, but God is good. He is faithful and able to comfort you. I'm thankful that you shared and for your honest and raw emotions. Praying for you, sister!

Oh Sweet Stephanie . How My heart breaks for you. We all wonder about the "what ifs" but there are just some things we cant fix. God saw his struggles and brought him home . This platform, your channel gave you a chance to let us get to know Timmy too and he got to tell so many people about his love for Jesus. He blessed us with his voice and we sang along with him on so many of the precious hymns he sang. He touched the hearts of a lot of people I just hope he knew that and hope we brought him some happines too. He will never be forgotten ! !

You are still in the grieving process. Time & Space, not for ever. Eternity awaits for you & Timmy. Grieving is needed. ❤

Your patio is looking fantastic It will be a great sanctuary when you enjoy it I am a girl who loves a free and thrifted bargain! Thanks for the video. Sending prayers. I lost my brother right about the time Timmy passed. I am heartbroken and the healing will take time.❤

I am so proud of you for sticking with your gym routine.

Stephanie My Heart & Prayers Stay with You Always!! I have Grieved through( the Loss of SO Many) not a Spouse who was Still Mine, but was the Dad to my oldest children. I have not met You in Person but I grieve for You & the Loss of OUR Timmy!! I LOVED THE VIDEO TODAY!! Your Patio is Looking SUPER!! The Flowers & I LOVE Free things too! Your Dad may need The Rest of Those Rocks for a New Project.. Your Family & those Littles I am Sure are A HIGHLIGHT to Your Life. THANK YOU FOR BEING REAL WITH US and NEVER Feel bad for That!! Amazing Grace is My Favorite Song!!! GOD BLESS AND TAKE CARE OF YOU!! Be SAFE during weather to be Coming Your Way!!

Oh Stephanie, hearing you go over the week and day is breaking my heart. I feel like I’m right there with you, listening to you and letting you get this out. It’s so good for you to do this. You had a beautiful relationship and God was so instrumental in every step. He is still is walking you this through this new season without Timmy but you are strong, girl! He has opened all of these doors & you have so beautifully, walked through them. Just keep moving, cry when you need to, laugh when you can, talk to your “family” when you need to have a blather, we are here for you. Timmy was so lucky to have you! God Bless you!❤️❤️

Stephanie, I love how all your projects are turning out. Everything is just gorgeous! Being the grandmother in me please check the storage chest to make sure little ones do not get locked inside. Safety first is my Moto. Maybe you could put a lock on it. Just a thought. Love all the babies that just love to help you. Till next time sweet Stephanie, hugs Betty 😘😘🥰🙏💕🏡🏡