Thanks so much for making this video. By speaking openly about these intrusive, taboo thoughts, you help people realize the thoughts are meaningless.

Thanks. It IS a touchy subject. How you're exposing the thoughts is so liberating. I can breathe. I ain't alone.

I was exposed to sex and unhealthy and abusive sexual behaviors really young, and when I was a child, I exposed my sibling to those behaviors and engaged in the behaviors with and around them(not forcibly or aggressively but I was older than they were), and I never understood why I would do something like that. It hurts me so much, and even though I was very young and deeply regret and would never do something like that now, I am still haunted by intrusive thoughts about the event and what that means for me. I have struggled with PTSD since childhood and I am diagnosed with OCD and BPD, my therapist has told me that children that are exposed to sexual abuse can expose other children to it as well but I can never get the intrusive thoughts out of my head that I am evil. I remember after it happened I immediately told the other person we could never do it again and I confessed to my mom in tears and it has haunted me ever since for over a decade. I have other sexual trauma and I have intrusive violent and sexual thoughts that make me feel sick as well as intrusive thoughts about sickness, disease, death, relationships, religion, and other things but can my trauma be the root of some of my sexual intrusive thoughts? I try so hard to be good to others I don't ever want to hurt anyone. I feel so disgusting all the time because of things that happened in my childhood. I just want to make people happy and be happy myself. It's so terrifying living like this. I isolate myself and pretty much only interact with my partner at this point who knows about everything and is very supportive but I can never stop thinking that I am not good enough for him because of my past and things that I have done or that have been done to me. I feel like I will never be good enough for anyone

OCD is such an unbelievably scary topic so hearing you discuss it so casually and with laughter was awesome.

Hey Chrissie, pure O sufferer here. Thank you so much for your content! You're such a great support for all of us. Just bought your book. Looking forward to your future videos !! ❤️

You deserve so many more likes and exposure! You are so brave in talking about this stuff. You are unique Chrissie Hodges and your videos really helped me. I emphasize with everything you say and I feel so much compassion in your videos. Thank you!! 😘

Thank you so much for posting this, I have had so much more trauma then I realized related to porn and masturbating and questioning my reasons for doing any of it or clicking on something or wondering why I even engaged with things in the first place. Its so hard to know ill never be able to go back and read my reactions , but knowing that even those reactions would be impossible to decipher is helpful to know that sometimes reactions to things in OCD can't be a determining factor. We just won't know sometimes. And that needs to be okay

You are have such a gift navigating these difficult topics.... you do it like nobody else has ever done you are a true pioneer through social media dealing with these topics that only those like us can truly relate ... thank you so much ... you have been a vital part of my ongoing treatment and I won’t say recovery because we know it’s forever but at least I can enjoy my life as never before ... thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️

I am so grateful to live in a time where this is available for free online. What an awesome channel and what an awesome woman!

I just want to thank you so much for talking about something not many people want to talk about and you explained it perfectly. You are the reason I was able to get help for my ocd and continue to inspire me . Thank you !

Thank you for reuploading, it means a lot! This was a very good and very useful video. I was considering pointing out the term but I didn't want to get into an argument because I could tell it was an innocent mistake.

Thank you so much. I really appreciate that you are open and also humorous about stuff like that. I am going to try and open up about it to my psychologist/therapist. Luckily it all started with thoughts I had enough "proof" to be chill with the thoughts but it got worse and worse to a point where I am even to afraid to just write it down on a paper for myself. It's so tricky.

You don't know how much this video helped me. I'm crying thinking about how much I related to this. Thank you for talking about a topic that is considered so taboo!

So glad you devoted your life to this helping so many people going through it

I'm not diagnosed with ocd, but this is helping me a lot with intrusive thoughts.

Hi Chrissie, your videos are so so helpful! They’ve helped me through so much since I’ve been suffering. A theme I really need help with is cheating ocd/relationship ocd and acting on urges. There aren’t many things online which say about acting on urges and I feel so alone. I feel I genuinely do it for a bad reason. Could you talk about that in any other videos? That would so helpful! 🌟

Chrissie, I just want to thank you for being humble and empathetic enough to reupload this video and admit your mistake. You're an invaluable source of support to everyone in the OCD community. Thank you for everything.

Thank you thats all I have to say. You touched on a topic that effects me greatly. Sometimes I give in to the thought and it creates the fear.

I get intrusive thoughts. A lot. And the groinal. Got it while I watched this 🙁 so frustrating.

Im diagnosed with OCD and wrestle with intrusive thoughts. Chrissie I know this video is old but it's so much help, you are the resource that I first stumbled upon. Your videos helped me decide to get therapy, and I want to thank you so much, you're a really good person. Also to anyone else - NOCD has really great therapy options. I was scared and uncertain when I was looking, but they paired me with an awesome and very professional therapist. If you're debating therapy, do it do it do it! My condition got better really fast and I feel like I have my life back. Big thanks to Chrissie and NOCD

Chrissie, you are so brave to discuss such confusing topics that only Pure OCD-ers would understand.

I thought I was going crazy! So glad you shared this video- I feel less alone

Thank you. You saved my life.

I know you said this isn't a solution, that we need to do therapy. But let me tell.... I'm not currently able to search for profissional help right now, so this is the only way I can get help. And let me tell, it has been helping me a lot lately. I was so devasted before searching for help online, and all these knowledge is really putting everything in perspective. For once, I'm becoming able to shut down those thoughts. Or at least, I'm not allowing them to control me.

I feel so far gone I know it’s not true but it’s the feeling .

Before therapy, i was at the nofap community always avoiding my urges and thoughts. Its so hard to get rid of the idea that something is wrong with you. OCD therapists are the best way to deal with thease things...

Thank you!!!!! So grateful for all you do!!!

Dear Chrissie, could you do a video on "OCD thought architecture", i.a. the complex of obsessions and compulsions within a theme?

For some reason KZfaq kept deleting my comments about my experiences with my OCD and how the "proof" of my past decisions as a pre teen and teenager make it seem like the feeling is real. I had a traumatic experience with pron at the age of 13 and most of it at the time included violent hardcore depictions of cartoons and anime that I've watched at an even younger age. OCD used proof of this experimenting that I'm evil, a deviant, a bad person, and many other things and it really gives me trouble on a daily basis. It all happened years ago and I no longer watch those videos. It's been 10 months since the last time I've seen a video and because of those experiences it's hard for me to see what a healthy s e x life looks like. I'd never want to do any of the things OCD tries to convince me of doing even if it feels super real at times. I would just like to have positive thoughts and be able to forgive myself with self compassion, acceptance, and love rather than mentally review, ruminate, and constantly beat myself up over things that have happened while I had little control

Hi Chrissie, any videos on OCD-related insomnia? I think it can be a huge issue for people with OCD, thank you.

word for word, thanks...thanks

Thank you so so so so much for this video

I've been binge watching you for two days. I'm worn out and depressed

You're a beautiful person. And real.

I thought if I went back to my old habits, the thoughts would not be bad any more because I would know that that’s not what I like. The problem is, I just started a whole new cycle I closed almost a year ago after 1.5 years of stress and depression. I wish I wouldn’t have done that again.

I had something similar to this earlier on. I had the gas man come round and I happened to accidentally look at his crutch area and straight away my ocd thought O I bet he’s got a whopper!!! Which then made me feel anxious and distressed which then made me think am I gay?!? Which then made me ashamed and dirty

I am obsessing over finding someone - ANYONE - who shares my particular obsessions. There are 3 big ones that have been terrorizing me for decades, but I have never heard them discussed anywhere.

I know I shouldn’t say this but thank you for the reassurance!

Thank you so much for making these videos!!!

Thank you for this :)

Thank you sm ❤️

Thank you 🙏🏽

Let me say this I really could say that without a doubt you are very good I have pure o and yes its sexual in nature I have a therapist so I have a question for you therapist do have training but pure o is something not sure that therapist he the type of training to help with this form of ocd so how can I be sure if I have the right person to help me without hurting the therapist feelings anyhow I love your method of helping it really makes my life so much better thanks

Very nice video you uploaded Chrissie..how can I contact you personally through email..

you are a saint

Can u give eng language text ...for indian becoz we are unable to understand yr eng language pernacation

You are the best❤️

hey thanks for making these videos they’re so helpful , but you always refer to intrusive thoughts causing a groinal reaction - what if a picture causes it

WOW THANKS

Is there anyway I can message you?

I used to leave comments but I never get a response. I'm glad to get these videos tho.

This is what I’m facing 😮

Hey I need help!!! So, I developed a sexual orientation disorder about 2 years ago (I've had several themes, but the sexual ones were pedophilia and also transsexuality). When I was 16, I consumed sexual content, mainly yaoi. At that age, I had fantasies about boys and "did it" thinking about it. It was normal, however, sometimes I searched for videos of women dancing sensually and the movements were a kind of stimulus for me. I've always been attracted to boys, but one day I had an intrusive thought of "what if I'm a lesbian?" and this situation that occurred was a validation. For my OCD, this is the biggest proof that I am a lesbian, never mind that I was also stimulated by boys. I have all the symptoms of OCD, but I still have doubts about these occasions. The question at the beginning was about being bi, lesbian, pan, asexual, etc. However, I even came to accept myself as a lesbian because of this, but even so, a pathological doubt remained and the intrusive thoughts got worse and, after this topic stopped bothering me, other worse ones appeared (the ones I mentioned). After all, can I be a lesbian because I did it in the past?

I was wondering if you had an Instagram so that I can directly message you

There wasnt anything offensive in it!? I'm gay and didnt hear anything of the sort? Honestly people now get offended by literally everything.

I usually avoid porn at all costs....even though there have been timws i did watch it and felt ok because the women had no effect on me....but it seems to be the fear that builds up before i do watch something like that....

Ive been having a a really hard time, cause thoughts with hocd that causes so many anxiety but also, my body feel hypersexual, And i have a discomfort like an itch, i used to have a healthy relationship with my alone time, since my hocd came back, the itching feeling started, it can feel like arosual, till the point im so anxious and im not really sure if its arousal, i forcé my self to imagine myself in homosexual situation to see how i feel, so when i try not let it bother me, i feel the sensation and im not sure if i like it, and sometimes, i use masturbation as “proof” but to think about that Stuff can make it feel way more intense when im tocuhing myself but at the same time i have extreme anxiety and i blush more, but i feel extremly sad and guilty, and i Want to cry. I miss my usual fantasies, and my self. I miss myself so freaking much.

Still a taboo subject to this day

Can ocd ever go away how do I get rid of it

Lmao you’re not lying !!!!

Right but what about us that watched it before hocd hit😭

You are a goddess

8:30 literally me every day 😭😭😭😭😭

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I escaped scrupulousity I can escape this bullshit also eventually !

😂🎉

As a I'm straight man but I find I enjoy viewing lesbian pron I have view gay but keep having unwanted gay thoughts because of viewing pron

You are hot looking woman, I love that crazy hair 😊.

It's a pity I fell asleep watching this. I wish I could have heard more about the 'groinal'...

🥹🥹🥹 thank you