Porn addiction has lead me to some deep holes, when I developed OCD it used my history in porn addiction to fuel itself.

When I tell you this has been my EXACT OCD theme for around 8 years, 8 YEARS! The guilt and shame around porn itself prevented me from seeking out help. This theme for me came with moral scrupulosity, an intense obsession on my morality, the morality & ethics of the industry, what that means about me? Etc. Etc. I don't even watch porn anymore, occasionally I will watch a video and the OCD starts up again so I am more at peace without it in my life (though this may be active avoidance but I prefer the peace). OCD has absolutely destroyed my life, and this theme with its nature has made me question things about my life I never thought I would have to question. I have even on occasion thought I was so "bad" for having watched pornography in my teenage years that I didn't deserve to be loved, that I didn't deserve to get married, that I have sinned and gone against God. It intertwined itself with all my values, especially the values I put so much importance on. Thankyou Chrissy for this video, I have not seen this theme spoken about often though I have come across many other people who have suffered this exact thing. I do hope in the future, with such a changing society, there will be more spoken about this theme.

I started having an OCD episode today about this exact topic so this video couldn't have come out at a better time for me. Thank you.

I've been going through this exact issue on and off for a while. This video is very helpful. Thank you for all the OCD awareness you spread. You are a lifesaver.

Okay… so I’m not the only one who dealt with this. You give me hope, you make me believe that I don’t need to die, because, yes, it’s got to that point recently. I don’t want to, but I started to think the only way out is to die because I’ve messed up my brain.

Thankyou Chrissie for tackling this topic. Porn, including books etc, as well reallly triggered, inflamed my OCD. All the issues you cover really hit the mark as part of my lived experience with OCD. Still struggling with it after 20 yrs. I stopped using Porn awhile ago because it wass just liking pouring petrol on my OCD themes. Actually contacted you a couple of years ago about this and attended a few peer support groups. All helpful but this a very sticky issue and deeply ingrained in my OCD.

Hi Chrissie, you are incredibly brave talking about all of this. You are really making a difference in people's lives including mines. Thank you.

Thank you, Chrissie, for making this video. You seem so accepting and nurturing. I have struggled with porn and my OCD around it for over 35 years, with a particularly acute period of nearly 15 years dealing with Internet porn and it's unique impact on my life..... One's newfound ability to open multiple Windows tabs at once, viewing simultaneously a seemingly infinite amount of content, leading to a stimulation overload.... Which all majorly affected my OCD. I truly love porn and all the possibilities and intimacies i feel it engenders, even if they're merely on a screen. When in it's grip it's blissful, escape is real and there's nothing i want more. But then afterwards, it's not so much WHICH porn i watched, or which identity i might have assumed, but it dumps fuel on the fire of my OCD (as you said). I have a particular obsession about food and chemical cans. I view them as the ugliest and most dangerous objects in the world. In my obsessions i see and feel myself harming my loved ones with them as weapons. I feel intensely the edges of the cans and their "horribleness" digging into my armpits as i hit my loved ones with them. It's a completely immersive experience and is a nightmare. Unfortunately, porn exacerbates these for me and watching it has brought on intense, horrible bouts of shame and panic through the years. The shear pleasure of porn is absolutely the dichotomy of the deadness and awful ugliness of these cans. It is this facet of porn and sex: after the blissful highs of sexual arousal which are heightened by porn, my body and sensory awareness experience a calamitous drop in arousal, and the result is like a hangover, the normal "depression" or emptiness which happens after orgasm, but much more enhanced and immersive. And my OCD mind keeps ruminating on my horribleness from the imagined cans with which i smashed loved ones either during the porn session, but especially after when all the arousal is gone, and I'm left with nothing but shame. My solution the last seven years or so has been to watch much less of it. But particularly helpful lately has been to set rules of watching videos only once (or twice if within certain guidelines) per month, and looking at pictures twice a month. This has solved a large amount of the guilt and allowed me to continue enjoying porn without nearly as much guilt. If it's watched within a set of guidelines, any guilt can be mitigated and released because I'm under the protection of those rules. It's been so helpful. So are you helpful for talking about this. Thank you again.

Porn was the trigger for my ocd. Feeling guilty and that i can't just think about women and porn all the time..

I just watched it,and then I didn’t feel a lot of groinal, but when in checked I was arosed, and I touched myself to prove to my self that I wouldn’t orgasm but when I did I felt such shame, fear and constant thoughts of this wasn’t a compulsion you wanted to, then you are, then I cried and got stock in a 20 minutes loop between changing scenarios in my head to try and see what felt more me but I ended up feeling so confused and kind of nasty and anxious because I did come, I remember my therapist saying it was normal that maybe I could even get a powerful one because of all the anxiety and feeling are doing physically to my body and I’m trying to hold onto that I can’t help but thing that I’m awful and I’m not like I thought I was and it has me spiraling.

Hi Chrissie did one of your recent videos get unlisted or deleted? I can’t find it

U are an incredible person 😌😌

Ty for this video. So much. My guilt shame. Trigger. 25 years pocd!! Can i talk with you chrissie please

This just triggered me into thinking something gross. Now I can’t remember if I did something or not.

I was addicted for over a decade, starting off with normal porn then escalating to trans porn to the point I started paying for onlyfans and custom content/video calls, then I had an episode of ED with a real woman and for 4 months I’ve suffered non stop intrusive thoughts that because of this content I must be gay. I feel a great sense of guilt, shame and disgust around it and the thought of having sex with a trans person actually horrifies me, in contrast I have bedded over 60 women in my lifetime and had an amazing sex life with my ex for most of our relationship so the evidence is really there that I’m not gay but I still have these thoughts in my head. I have stayed porn free for 5 weeks now and while I do feel better, more sociable, sleep better, morning erections are back and I’ve started exercising I still feel obsession and feel I constantly have to check photos of beautiful women to assure I’m interested. OCD does run in my family so it’s likely that but what’s the best way to stop this thought process?

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Psychological vocabulary while helpful isnt granular enough to penetrate the surface of whats actually happening in consciousness. Thought structures + emotions have specific densities and viscocities which are generally imperceptable outside of a meditation context. The ability of disturbing sexual imagery to stick around is like mud and silt at the bottom of a glass of dirty water. In the real world, water is often purified with filters and heat. Anyway, may seem metaphoric or abstract but these might be thought of as basic tantric principles. Tantra should be the religion of the porn obsessed world because its the only path which fully embraces this aspect of human consciousness with a useful vocabulary. Chrissie points to a metaphor of 'hole insertion might make you aroused'. It points to a complex metaphoric language which is governing consciousness and may only be able to be succesfully addressed using similar metaphoric framework -- hence the density and viscocity of thoughts and emotions. If it seems interesting, contemplate what might constitute purification by filters and heat. As Chrissie points out, Porn is often becoming about identity or identifying - do I like orgies, Am I a lesbian or trans??? But the sages always pointed out that truth is from non identification with ANY identity. Let that sink in. One love.

The best solution for this is to quit porn for good, there is no other way to tackle this.

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Im crying right now and my groinals repsonses wont stop 😭😭😭😭 I don't like theae thoughs and im a hetero female😭😭😭 My body is tingling and im flushed and anxiously crying😭😭😭 It feels so real an im scared

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No, I don't have OCD (I never seen a shrink); actually I watched a doccie recently that said mental illness (medical) is a scam, but I find the concepts of psychiatry and therapy to be true and useful. I guess a compulsion is something that drives one then. While I was listening I wanted to add 'don't test yourself. Compulsion from the past, or obsession with it is real... Things do get past, the age restriction filters, deliberately or not. And btw, not only people having sex is porn. Perhaps the lesson is to really forgive yourself. You can't know what others or God thinks of your mess, but mercy wants you to leave the behavior behind. The good person inside is ever present. Note to self...

This works really well under OCD.

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