Proverbs 19:1 Better is a poor person who walks in his integrity than one who is crooked in speech and is a fool.

As a teen in the 70's, I thought rock stars were so very glamorous. I was 20 when Papa John's book came out, which I snapped up immediately. By the time I finished reading it, I was truly horrified. The stark reality of the lives some rock people lead is nothing short of tragic.

So horrible for a child to be forced to witness such depravity. You are so strong and brave for sharing your personal stories with us.

Wow Chynna, such an honest and articulate back story, I was riveted.. Don't apologize for anything.

It's not an accident that I have discovered CalPreach at this most difficult part of my life, that seem to be parallelling yours. Thank you for sharing so openly. I do not relish having to tell anyone about my traumas, but see now that therapy is the way to go. Can't thank you enough.

My mother was not an addict but her father was. She was so messed up and mean her entire life. When she was dying, Hospice quit twice. Addiction hurts generations. Hang in there and be calm within yourself. You are loved. Peace of Christ.

Thinking of that child sitting on the floor hungry...😔 Thank God you and your mother were there to care for him.

I'm so glad you found Jesus. You will be used by God to be a witness to so many people including your family members.

Oh Chynna you really struck a strong emotion in me with this video. My dad was an alcoholic and my mom was very verbally abusive to us 6 kids. Ill never forget failing my written drivers permit test and my dad cussing me out in the DMV and telling me how stupid I was in front of everyone.My sister and I cleaned the whole house one day when our parents were gone and when they got back our mom cussed us out because we hung her clothes up wrong.Like you there are many stories to tell. I looked for love in all the wrong places in my twenties but finally at 32 found a loving man and we got married and got baptized together and raised our 5 kids. I still have pain but have forgiven my parents and they actually taught me what not to do as a parent. Thank you and God bless you! Praying your broken pieces get put back together 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️

I do not cry easily--seldom cry, but the story about your brother was heartbreaking.

Your honesty is so refreshing. God bless you China girl. ❤

I’m sorry that someone was offended by Holy Spirit Activate but I wanted you to know that I was having a day where I felt lonely so I was catching up on Cal Preach and I found myself singing it as loud as I could in my kitchen. So thank you 🙏🏼

Chynna--wow. Just wow. You are an absolute treasure of a person. Thank you for sharing something so hard. No child should have to endure the horrors of drugs, neglect, or abuse. I appreciate your struggle, vulnerability, and strength. I am praising God right now that Jesus chose you and saved you. You are my sister in Christ! God bless you.

My grandmother use to take care of kids and one girl she started sitting at 3 months old. The parents had Adopted her but had a trip planned. So they still went...duh, cause thats what you do. Well my grandmother started watching her on a regular basis, usually over the weekend when they went to the lake on their boat. There were many time they would come to puck her up totally wasted. My grandmother would tell them, oh she just fell asleep can we just bring her home in the morning. The little girl(who i still know at 54) and i both respected grandma so much for doing that. Like your mother, it makes you look at them differently.

Chunks, I am a 67 yo man and I just want to tell you that your videos inspire me. I watched one recently where you talked about the strength of faith. My faith has always wavered and as a consequence made me doubt my salvation at times. What you said made me realize that my salvation is not based on the strength of my faith. It is based on the strength of the Blood of Jesus. It was a true ah-ha moment. Thank you for that. Blessings

Thank you for being so transparent. You are a woman of valor, an inspiration and are helping so many.

Druggies should never be able to have children around them.

Forget the haters, Holy Spirit Activate!!! 💯

I LOVE “Holy Spirit Activate”. There will always be critics and self righteous judgers. Sing away.

Oh Chynna, I feel like God was protecting you by allowing your father to leave you..I’m so happy you had your mother to love you and protect you and your little brother. Jesus (and your mother) SAVED you from so much more trauma. ❤️

❤️ Singing “Holy Spirit Activate” energies me too. I catch myself singing it ❣️

I felt physically sick to my stomach hearing about your brother going hungry. How aweful! Having a parent be so unreliable, irresponsible, and abusive is devastating. If anyone is watching this & you are experiencing this, as a child or a parent, please, please get help! Help is available! May all who suffer this way come to know their Lord & Saviour, Jesus Christ. He never leaves us alone in our suffering

Wow did John phillips mess up so many people chynna you are wonderful and will make it please hold on to your family and especially billy

Chynna, you are so precious to God. You are such a blessing to everyone who watches this channel. I thank God for the platform he has given you. Your honesty is a sacrifice poured out to God. You are his beloved daughter. I love your boldness for him. You probably don't even see but others do.

Being a sensitive person is a precious gift, even though it is often looked at as being weak. Your videos continue to help me. Thank you for sharing. 💖

Chynna, you are an amazing human being! I love your messages!

So your childhood was like mine. Now imagine how many others shared the same childhood. It was a cultural hell our parents were in and the reasons and answers are complex. Education helps us understand snd survive it. Peace of Christ Chynna.

Thank God your mom watched over your little brother..there are so many children suffering similarly every day right now. I pray our precious Lord Jesus hold them and protect them 🙏

Chynna, I just wanted to say your heart illuminates so much goodness and kindness.

People will misunderstand your intentions but God never will!! Your story about your brother made me cry too. Therapy will bring up so much but don’t give up. We have to go through it to deal with it.

Chyna your sister McKenzie came out with her story many years ago and the world supported her. Your trauma was paid for on the cross, you are still reliving some bits of this trauma, you deserve the respect and love of that little child that was so innocent. The Lord has given you a platform to the world, be kind to yourself you are loved.

Wow. I absolutely LOVE what you said that “trauma is really layered.” So deep and it gives us the opportunity to give ourselves grace. Jesus scoops us into His arms when we feel neglected and are hungry. He provides us sustenance and comfort when we feel so alone!

I love that you sing, "Holy Spirit, Activate!" 🎉 We should all sing it all the time!!! God bless you, Chynna!

Thank you, Chynna. I am binge watching all of your videos, which have me thinking about my walk with God. Also, I asked my doctor what the spots on my hands were. She said, “Here (in France) we call them cemetery flowers!”

So I keep coming back to see more posts. The religious isn’t what draws me. It you sharing your truth and willing to be vulnerable. It helps. Thank you.

I can’t imagine having a beautiful daughter like Chynna & not giving her the love she needs 🥺 God Bless You! Thank You for being you & sharing your stories with us to break these cycles ✨🙏🏼✨

Thanks for sharing these difficult memories... Childhood trauma affects us our entire lives... therapy helps process our past...God bless you...

Your transparency is such a beautiful thing Chynna. You do help many being by just being you. That's why Jesus called you for such a time as this. God bless you sweet sister. You are beautiful!!!!!!!!🙏 ❤️🕊️🌹

Holy Spirit activate song is cute. I do find myself singing it when I am low. Fill the void with God, even when you don't want to. That is a sincere prayer.

One's personal testimony is a gift from God that we share with other when His Holy Spirit moves us to do so✝️💕

I’m so amazed by you Chynna. I also had a traumatic life. My dad was mentally ill and I still have PTSD. I’m the one you mentioned who is sensitive and easily held to emotion. But I’m so grateful I have Christ. He is seeing me through and I keep remembering what you said FROG- you are beautiful Chynna! Thank you for this!

Chynna, my Dad too was nonexistent my whole life & I felt like a person at the end of a runway examining & "choosing" which woman would be my next stepmom ! Awful childhood. But so thankful Jesus's love endured! God Bless you & Billy &.your families always!!🙏🙏💕 Peace in Christ

Oh Chynna, that must have been so awful finding your little brother like that. It's good Mama Michelle cared so much for him and you. Jesus was guiding her, even if she didn't know it at the time. It's so difficult to have a parent who has to be a realist, like your mom, and one who always breaks your heart, like your dad. I care deeply about you and what you have gone through. I have had a lot of trauma, being bullied, losing a baby, having to settle for a master's degree instead of a doctorate I put in 6 years of work toward, and most of all, developing Congestive Heart Failure in 2018. I feel Jesus loves me no matter what. I have felt him in the hospital, in times when I cry.

Dearest sister... You are gorgeous inside and out!!! You are His precious daughter. Such difficult memories come to us at different times. Out of no where we have a memory that is so painful it's imbedded. Through Christ, He has given us grace that is sufficient to handle it all!!! I must remember the good times and the blessings. He has sustained us and continues to walk with us on our way. He was always there, when we didn't feel close to Him. Thank you Jesus!!! I must remind myself that His dying for us, means that we too will conquer death. Joy of everlasting life!! Amen, Amen , Amen Death is swallowed up in victor un O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting? Hugs to you sister Chy!!! Blessings in abundance I'm so grateful for you. Holy Spirit activate, Holy Spirit activate..activate, activate 🙏🏻❤️

I always say this to myself when my trauma comes to my mind - “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up, do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43... Makes me sick that Adults don't know how to act and leave adults trying to sort through the mess they made.

Abandonment.....Just that alone by your father takes a lifetime to work through...I know my father left after I was 8 years old. How fortunate you have been able to have a man and family in your life to help with the hurt . I hope your brother has been able to have some peace in his life also.

Thanks for sharing. I understand how childhood memories and or trauma can affect us as adults. We are all ahaped by the good & the bad.

I KNEW THAT HOLY SPIRIT COMPLAINT WAS COMING,THERE IS ALWAYS THAT ONE PERSON. WE KNOW YOUR HEART CHY AND COMPLETELY BELEIVE YOU. GOD BLESS!!!

Thru your bravery talking about your childhood , you are helping others, and it helps you to. You are a strong person!! You have beautiful children, a wonderful husband, an adorable doggie, and your faith in Jesus Christ!!! Keep being amazing!!

You are brave for sharing your struggles and sadness. You are a great role model for me. Thank you for showing your vulnerability and how you can survive.

I completely understand what you mean about trauma. It took me 50 years to finally realize my mother will never be able to give me all the emotional things I had hoped and dreamed she would. She is so damaged from her abusive childhood that she has nothing to give anyone not even herself! Accepting this fact has been difficult and painful. If I didn’t have a perfect parent in God the Father, I don’t know what I would do! He has been my rock, my comforter, and my sustainer. I am so grateful He’s in my life!

Please never apologize for being raw and real. You sharing the trauma you experienced is inspiring because you have triumphed over your fears, misguidance of some of the adults in your childhood, and more. You are lovely. Peace of Christ!!! P.S. I love your alien hairdo. Too cute.

Chynna, wishing you PEACE for the past, STRENGTH to persevere and ALL your days filled with LOVE. Let’s keep going!! 😘 XO

Chynna, you have blessed my life. Chilly has made me laugh out loud and I love when you are on here together. Also, love the shows with Beckett Cook. Thanks for all of your sharing, very raw and real. Much love!

He heals the broken-hearted and binds up their wounds . You are dealing with your pain, instead of repressing or trying to kill it🙌🏻🙌🏻. Thank you for being vulnerable. Only in Heaven will you know how many got saved or healed because of this

Raw and powerful testimony Chynna. You know that Jesus has gotcha covered...BTW, Holy Spirit activate fires me up so much, it gets me through tough times and helps my temperament. It's so uplifting! I'm not offended...I guess you can't please everybody 🤷

The Lord is giving you healing from these hurts. He loves us soooo much and wants to help us out of the chains that bind us. Cheering and praying for you♥️

Thanks for sharing the "daddy abandonment". While there was no drugs involved in mine, I believe it set me up for always choosing emotionally unavailable men. You seemed to get beyond that with Billy. I'm twice divorced with two amazing daughters. While they weren't the best husbands, I was so blessed that they were totally involved, and still are, with their daughters. Praise God.

Thank you for sharing! It means more than you know! ✝️

So sorry that you and your brother had to go thru this. It's sad for families where there is drug addiction. It is especially sad for the children because their parents can't help themselves let alone their kids. It is good that your mother came thru or you and your brother.

Your hair looks so cute Chynna I'm so sorry the horror you went through

All of our trials and hurts are for not for nothing. It’s hard to understand why God allows these things to happen to us but He can use them to conform us more into the image of His son. Once again, I am touched by your deep humility. You speak of fear but I see you standing up to it. You allow us to be encouraged by your weaknesses. It’s in our weakness that Jesus shows His strength. ♥️♥️♥️

You are a very smart woman. To understand all of this at the age of 6 is amazing. What is amazing is that you went through all of this and became such a great person. You are an amazing Mom and give back to this world. So many girls lived your life of partying etc that is a part of life for a lot of girls. You rose above all of this. NOT to say that you do not need to release this now. You have buried all these emotions for the sake of others and now it's time for you to heal. The first step to healing is doing what you are doing now...you are releasing them and hey on top of it you are helping others in your journey. You are brave and care about others! God is smiling right now.

The fact that your head is screwed on so tight is so so admirable. I remember your father well..from his days as a folkie singer before Mamas and Pappas. He seemed always to be super intelligent, so talented. Drugs, according to Cynthia Lennon..first wife of John...was when the "rot set in"..to many pop singers and so many more people. You are one strong cookie, and your faith comes from our elder brother, Jesus and his Holy Father and the Holy Spirit. "If God be for us, who can be against us?" NO ONE. We are forever protected in the everlasting arms of our God. Stay strong.

Dear Chynna, I just want to wrap you in a HUGE HUG! I know that it’s difficult for you to share certain situations from your past but know that you really are helping others when you do so. I’m incredibly sorry that you and your siblings had to be witness to... and experience in your life the demons of your father’s addictions; no child should ever be put in such a place. You know that God only gives us that which He knows we can handle and, I’m not trying to make less of your struggles or reality in any way... but I truly believe that your truth is not only a testament to the Christian being that you are, it’s also a testament to the strong and caring person that you are... and your tender heart. With every new episode of Cal Preach, not only are you growing in your faith and journey... you are also helping many of us grow in our faith and journey! I just love you, girl! Never apologize for bearing your heart and soul when your purpose for doing so is to unburden, release, grow, enlighten and help. You’re beautiful in every way! God Bless you and your family. ❤️ 🤗 🙏 🙌

We had such a similar childhoods, and it makes me almost disassociate at times, almost like youre numb, but when you do know Christ and get really close to him, you start feeling again, and it's hard because you've been so numb for a while and when bad things happen now, we want to almost fall back to being numb but Jesus loves us so much he walks us through it so we do actually feel and then we can heal and grow. Thank you, sending so much loves and prayers ❤️🙏✝️

Hi Chynna! I can totally relate. Except my father was not into drugs. He was into himself--a total narcisst. I am one of eight children. My father was terrifying to be around. It impacted me greatly. I try really hard to be a better person. I pray everyday for both my parents. I love them both. I can't even begin to imagine what it was like for you as a small child witnessing your father and everyone around him enabling his drug use. It's so disempowering. You are a beautiful person! God bless you!

His word does not return void. Thank you for sharing. You are blessing!❤️

I just found your channel a couple days ago. I am completely smitten with your Christianity walk. I was raised by Christian family but strayed for many years. Now I am now 67 and am back. You are such a blessing to the world for this. Jesus will take care of Billy. I know your fear as if Jesus returns tomorrow my husband will be left behind. God will fix it when he is ready. Praise the Lord. Love you.

I'm reliving my childhood through what you said, but mine wasn't drugs. You were lucky you had therapy. Within my childhood, it was violence & layer on, an alcoholic stepdad. Your sunspots aren't bad at all. You wanna remove mine from my legs & arms! Mine are from 2nd degree burns from the sun. I won't get into how THAT happened. 😭I also have a resedeing hairline too, (We're blonde twins; & I've an egghead!) I won't wear shorts or ever let anyone see my legs. You're so Blessed Chynna, to finally have them removed. I'm sobbing as your video ends. I recalled myself being inside my bedroom closet, my mom placed me inside of.... with the door closed. I knew my sister would be home soon to get me out. I used to be scared when my mom put me in there, & I knew better to not cry, or else. My trauma was like yours in a cense. You were lucky you weren't abused or saw your parents beat up one another. It was horrible. Ever time I return to Santa Barbara...I return to our house on Calle Rosales Street in San Roque. Our Christmas Tree is still in the from yard, now grown MASSIVE! (I lived in the "corner house", directly looking at Peabody Elementary School); & I often wondered if the people wouldn't mind my sharing photos of their house in the late 1950's & 1960's, & I fantasize that they let me see their house inside, & as I do this...I magically am able to let go of the bad memories I had as a child of 4, 5, & 6!? It's a weird thought I've had for years. I sobbed for & with you Chynna...I know what you went through. You're SO lucky, & so Blessed you had a healthy parent to go to! I only had my grandparents, but I couldn't tell them what was going on. It was SO AWFUL Chynna! I'm SO glad your mom had the where for thou all...to have stopped by that day! Your poor Brother! She's a special young lady Chynna. The fact she always stayed friendly to your Dad's X-wife; took GOOD care of ALL his kids...ALWAYS COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS; YOU HAD THE 1 PARENT, WHO WAS THERE FOR YOU...AND STABLE! MY SISTER IS JUST NOW AT AGE 68, UNWINDING, & BECOMING UNHINGED. I FEEL LIKE IM RELIVING MORE TRAUMA AGAIN BUT WORSE BECAUSE SHE DOESNT SEE SHE NEEDS A THERAPIST, TO HELP HER THROUGH IT. I NEED ONE TOO, NEVER GOT ONE. MY MOM STOPPED IT...SO I'M DEALING WITH THESE ISSUES & ABANDONMENT ISSUES, ALTHOUGH NOT THEIR FAULT THEY DIED; EVERYONE I'VE EVER LOVED ME, HAS LEFT ME; INCLUDING MY HUSBAND & MY BFF.😭😭😭💔💔💔 BOTH DIED ...JUST A MONTH APART...AS WELL AS A MONTH APART; MY BELOVED; "NANA". 😭😢💔I FELT WAS MY MOM....THE ONE PERSON WHO TRULY LOVED ME. ITS BEEN SO HARD. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO IN LIFE CHYNNA. I WANT SO BAD TP GO HOME TO SANTA BARBARA....I FEEL ITS THE ONLY WAY IM EVER GOING TO BE ABLE TO BE HAPPY IN MY LIFE. YOU'RE AN OLD SOUL CHYNNA...SO YOUNG. BUT ALSO SUCH AN OLD SOUL TOO. PLEASE HUG YOUR MOM AN EXTRA HUG FOR ME...SHE'S SUCH AN ANGEL HERE ON EARTH. CHYNNA, SHE WAS YOUR GODSEND LOVING ANGEL WHO WALKED THIS EARTH...AND NEITHER OF YOU KNEW THIS UNTIL I JUST SAID IT...TAKE GOOD CARE CHYNNA. YOU'RE SO LUCKY TOO, TO GET YOUR SPOTS REMOVED. MY GRANDDAUGHTER TOLD ME AT AGE 3 & 4, SHE WISHED SHE HAD MY "STAINS" [MY AGE SPOTS...THATS WHAT SHE CALLED THEM AT AGE 3 & 4!]; BECAUSE SHE SO BADLY ACTUALLY WANTED THEM BECAUSE SHE SOOOOOO LOVED ME & STILL DOES. AT AGE 9, SHE NO LONGER WANTS THEM... BUT HUGGED ME (IM SOBBBING AGAIN); & TOLD ME, " ITS OK GRANDMA, YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL & I LOVE YOU". SHE STILL LIKES ME TO ROCK HER IN A HUGE, DRY, DOWNEY FRESH, SHEET TOWEL; LIKE I USED TO DO, AS I SING A SING A SONG TO HER, 🎶"HUSH LITTLE BABY DON'T DAY A WORD" 🎶 (MOCKING BIRD SONG); CUZ SHE LOVED HOW I ROCKED HER IN MY LOVING ARMS, WHILE I SANG TO HER; IN A DRY, SHEET TOWEL, UPON THE TOILET SEAT, AFTER HER BATH. MY GRANDSON TOLD ME THE SAME! HES 16 NOW, 5'8, & WEIGHS 200 LBS, & ASKED ME AT HIS AGE OF 15, IF I COULD OR WOULD, ROCK HIM TOO. I LAUGHED & TOLD HIM THAT HE'D ALWAYS BE MY SWEET GRANDSON, & SURE! WHY NOT! SO I TRIED, WITH HIS CLOTHES ON...TO ROCK HIM ON MY LAP, IN MY LOVING ARMS! IT WAS HILARIOUS! I TOLD HIM, HE'D NEVER BE TOO BIG FOR GRAMMA TO HOLD. LOVE, & YES.. ROCK IN MY ARMS TO THAT SONG TOO!!☺👍 MY GRANDDAUGHTER LOVED IT WHEN I ROCKED HER BROTHER TOO! LOL! HE WAS WATCHED BY ME FROM HIS BIRTH; TO 6 YEARS OLD; M-F, 10-12 HOURS A DAY. IT WAS ONE OF THE 3 TIMES I WAS THE MOST HAPPIEST TIME IN MY LIFE! HE TOLD ME HE WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME TOO. IT'S SO SWEET CHYNNA, HOW THE SIMPLE THINGS, SUCH AS OUR GRANDKIDS, & OUR DAUGHTER; (I ONLY HAVE MY 45 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER, & I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!); THAT KEEP US SMILING FULL OF GRATITUDE! THOSE ARE THE THINGS CHYNNA YOU GOTTA KEEP FOCUSING ON, & IT WAS 💯% DEVINE INTERVENTION THAT DAY, THAT YOU AND YOUR LOVELY, LOVING MOM WENT INTO THAT HOUSE THAT DAY YOUR BROTHER WAS ON THAT KITCHEN FLOOR. SO SAD!! I LOVE YOU SPIRITUAL SISTER! YOU'RE LUCKY ALSO THAT YOU LIVE IN MY BIRTH TOWN OF 50 + YEARS (I NOW LIVE IN SAN DIEGO SINCE MY GRANDSON WAS BORN 16 YEARS AGO)...I KEEP ON THINKING YOU LIVE UP IN THE RIVIERA PAST SAN ROQUE OR MONTECITO...BUT I LOVE YOUR WALKS BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M IN THEM; WITH YOU IN MY MIND...BACK HOME AGAIN...I'M WALKING THERE TOO SO HAPPILY!! I LOVE EVERYTIME YOU GO THERE!😭💞😘👏👍SENDING YOU LOTSA HUGS OF LOVE & THANK YOU'S YOUR WAY!!💘 😘🙌💞💌💗💓💋MUUUUAH! PEACE OF CHRIST SPIRITUAL SISTER!🙏☝📖

Oh, Chynna, I am so sorry for the pain you experienced. God bless you. Your compassion for your dad is truly beautiful. Be good to yourself. One time my pastor was talking to someone who had a very difficult relationship with is father. The parishioner, who was in tremendous pain, asked "Why do we call God 'father'? I hate my father." And my pastor replied gently, "So many of us need a redeemed father." It's true. Peace be with you.

You're not a victim for sharing your story; you are a survivor setting the world on fire with your truth. And you never know who needs your light, your warmth, and raging courage. All emotions, even those that are suppressed and unexpressed, have physical effects. Unexpressed emotions tend to stay in the body like small ticking time bombs which eventually manifest in pain throughout the body. Talking it out is the best therapy for both your mind and your body. Thank you for being you, and so sorry for what you had to go through as a child. Children are supposed to feel safe, even when the world is not safe. That's a parent's job. But not everyone can achieve that, and those of us who didn't feel safe are paying the price.

You’re helping people in so many ways, it was not my parents but my young adult kids father , I have so much empathy and love for you, thank you chynna.

Chynna, I’m glad I tuned in. I’ve been in a very sad place and instead of connecting with you and others I’ve shut down and what a Cal preach for me to watch! I endured childhood trauma and I shut down, became stone. I’ve started Therapy and praise God, we are never to late to be healed. Oh, living in Florida I have old lady hands and they drive me crazy. I’m curious about what it entails.

Memories are formed and locked in when a lot of emotion is involved. That's why we remember certain things so vividly even when we were very young when it happened, no matter how hard we try to forget😲

You are strong and so honest. And you are touching more people than you know with sharing your experiences and overcoming. Your faith is so very uplifting. Please keep sharing🙌❣️

Chynna, once again...know this...your transparency is helping those that feel isolated by similar experiences. Thank you for sharing. This scripture came to my mind. 2 Corinthians 12:9. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

Gosh Chynna, please don't be embarrassed by your perceived "imperfections". I don't see ugly hands, I see a beautiful soul. If the procedure makes you feel more confident and comfortable, do it! But never feel shame, you're perfect as is. Blessings to you, always!!

Bless u, Chynna...trauma is so difficult to navigate through. You are a trooper...and a fighter. 💜

Chyna, they're freckles; they're so cute! I am an almost 52-year-old freckled red head who loves my freckles (or angel kisses as I told my daughter when she was little). I've always had them in my face, arms, chest, and tops of my hands. I hated them as a child because Dad said they made my face look dirty! (😭), but now they remind me of my younger days, and I really love them. The more weight I lose (lost 101 pounds so far - want to lose 50 more), the more visible they become, and the more I love them. Lol I even have some on my eyelids! 😂 You should do what makes you happy, but don't feel embarrassed by the angel kisses. 🥰❤

Love your truthfulness Chynna! God is amazing at healing and setting us free from past pain. He restores us!

You’ve created a platform of light and truth! Thank you for sharing your heart Chynna. I know we all have the light of Christ- the spirit of light and truth. When I hear or see acts of kindness and truth, the light of Christ witnesses to me that goodness, and I in turn want to be better! I don’t know why some people are born into challenges - but God knows. My heart hurts for that little girl that longed for a relationship with her dad, and you having to see what you saw regarding the drugs. You have gone through so much, but yet you are a shining example of light and goodness! You are loved Chynna! Keep shining bright for all the world to see❤️

Incredible that you had to justify and explain the "holy spirit activate" song to someone who had a problem with it.🤦 If they have been following you for any time, they should know your heart by now. Thank you for sharing your personal struggles and stories. I hope your hand procedure goes well! You'll have to show us the results😊 Peace of Christ!❤️

Your testimony will help someone in need❤️I love you for sharing your heart💖

Chynna...that story about your little brother is heartbreaking...I can understand your feeling this way & crying as you have in this video.It's okay to cry, Chynna. We are here for you. Know this. & so is God. You are a wonderful perfect human being- just remember that. There are some things within our control & others not. Keep expressing what's inside you as you have been doing here- the more you let out, the more you let go. the more you let go, the freer you will become. i'm sorry about Grandma Jacks- she seemed wonderful. I'm sorry too about the worries you've had over your boy's well being. I will keep praying with you over all of this. i have been watching your videos for a few months now & really feel for you. I enjoy how you make us all feel like part of your family by sharing your heart. That takes amazing courage. Love & Light always.

you inspire me so much. you have been through so many trials and tribulations but still radiate so much love to the world. you have such a way with words - the way you described those scenarios, especially with your brother with the eggs and flour on the floor...my heart just broke, so totally. I know you say your intent is not to make us feel sorry for you. I don't. But you bringing it up makes me think of abuse/unkindness I experienced when I was a young child up until I was a young adult and still tolerating toxic behavior from people who knew better than to treat others like s***. i know john made billions of people happy with his music but he left so much strife, misery and turmoil in his wake that people are still dealing years and years later. And it's not just him. i will never understand what makes people make such bad decisions that hurt so many of us well-meaning, benign people (especially when we are young, innocent children). I know people say "God only gives you what you can handle" but part of me thinks...why should we have to experience such bad things? Why? Thank you Chynna for your honestly. Sorry I always write so much in your comments. On a happier note, I love your hair in the double buns!!! But you have the perfect, classic face shape that can rock any hair style and make it seem chic and effortless - super long, double bun, bowl cut, bangs and then no bangs. You lucky!! You got those supermodel features, girl!!

Awe I'm so sorry Chynna. My heart just breaks for you. I, too, had a rough childhood being sexually and verbally abused...abandoned by my mom and biological father...neglected by my mother. My husband left me after 24 yrs of marriage. He just left one day and never came back. God uses us with what we've been through in our lives, so we can help others. How can we relate to others, when we say we understand what their going through, if we haven't been through it? God uses us to help one another and strengthen one another. God wants us to comfort and strengthen others. I think your testimony, where your pretty well known, will touch and bless others who's hearts are hurting. God honors us giving of ourselves to help others...and in the process we get healed of our own pain from our past..God bless you and your family. Your sister in Christ💞

Your story can help someone else. You are a strong woman. Big hugs to you

Dear Chynna, if I could wish one thing for you is that you could overcome all the hurt and wounds instantaneously, you’ve suffered enough, but I have no supper powers. Will say a prayer for you now. Ok done. Take solace from the fact that you are a very different parent. That alone proves you are a very different human being. Peace of Christ 🙏

Thank you for sharing yourself so freely..Your messages are always beautifully transparent and truthful & you thoughtfulness to clarify your messages is second to none. God Bless❤️🙏🏻

Yes .. you are Chynna .. a beautiful radiant light. Keep shining!! ⚡☀️🌞🌝⚡

Thank you for sharing your stories. We all have to wade through our experiences and traumas from childhood. I, too, had some experiences with traumatized me. It takes time and talking about these traumas to help you become centered and grounded. You are a good mom, wife, daughter and sister. Give yourself credit for living through your experiences and enjoy the family you have created with your husband. Live in the now and enjoy life. A year ago today my dad passed away. He was 88. He worked so hard to take care of our family. We were five kids, plus my maternal grandparents and parents. So, nine of us in a big house. Dad studied at night to earn his engineering degree. He designed a part of the guidance system that got the Apollo to the moon. From him I learned to study and work hard. Thanks dad. Thank you mom for choosing him. I miss him and his gentle voice and advice, especially in his final weeks. God bless you for working so hard to ground yourself. I love you too. Take care of yourself. 💞🙋🏻‍♀️🙏✝️

I cried right along with you this morning. Thank you again for your honesty, and for sharing your most personal stories with us. I have related to many of your childhood stories, and share some similar ones....and unlike you, I have not been as brave as to share. God Bless you, Chynna! 🙏🏻❤️ Continued prayers for you, your son, and your family 🙏🏻

Chynna, your honesty and baring your flaws helps me immensely. Knowing that such a lovely person as yourself, experiencing similar struggles and calamities, makes me feel not so bad...thank you for that! ❤️

Love the powerful and radient light.

Chynna, I can’t imagine growing up in the looks obsessed entertainment industry. Then having all the Trauma heaped upon you by messed up adults . Your transparency, authenticity and Heart for Jesus is contagious. So thankful for your message and channel. We all are getting older. It’s inevitable. You are a Beauty and you are even more Beautiful with the presence and luminosity of Our Lord Jesus Christ 💖💕✨

Your story about your brother just broke my heart. It is good that you are sharing your stories, because it truly might help someone else who has had trauma. God bless you and your family Chynna 💗

God bless you and continue to guide you on this beautiful path. So grateful for your raw honesty and trust in God. Keep California preaching, I LOVE it!

Chynna, I love how you know that even though you have experienced trauma in your childhood, that has caused you emotional hurt, that God is your healer. We all have a little child in us that remembers traumatic events in our life that have caused us hurt as adults. The way you share your heart and struggles and point us all to the Lord is the most important thing you will ever do in your life. In the midst of everything you have gone through, you have found joy and peace in Christ and that is what matters now. Thank you for being who you are. God is using your voice to bring glory to Him and at the same time, He is doing a work in your heart and life.

God Bless your testimony! Your commitment to getting spiritually well is nothing short of a miracle!