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@hellonearth75124 жыл бұрын
can you do a song about guilt from the past and its not yours to carry?
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
hell on earth we have a song written about that for the next record :)
@kotrum63094 жыл бұрын
Most or all your song have lyrics that hit me hard listening to u guys helps me alot thank you so much
@Stardust_Studios8484 жыл бұрын
thank you for making your music. I remember one night I was really depressed and concidering just giving up, but my boyfriend sent me "Let It Burn" and it stopped me, so thank you
@audriusradziunas54514 жыл бұрын
Not trying to be negative but could you disable sound for subscribe animation. I want to add a lot of your songs to my playlist but that click to subscribe sound makes me feel like a beginning of an Indian youtuber video. No offense.
@miguelbaide13094 жыл бұрын
Listening to your music makes me forget about all my problems. Except one: having to decide which of all your songs is my favorite
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Hahah yes! That means a lot. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
@cheriehathaway85774 жыл бұрын
I love how music can take me away. It helps me see myself and the world in a different light. So far I'm loving all their music 💖
@CBAmoofin3 жыл бұрын
Lol, that last one is an easy fix! All of them are favorite worthy! ;]
@spellespelle73633 жыл бұрын
"If these scars could speak" is the best one for me , Addicted to this one
@EyeTea3 жыл бұрын
Mike you don’t have to choose, all of them can be your favorites :)
@elliemaej5204 жыл бұрын
"Secrets are dark things. They don't exist within the light. They glow faintly in forgotten corners, in mysterious mind nooks, in our lost memory maps. Secrets are the shadows of our soul"..🥀xx Every song is always so relatable every word just hits so close ♡🥀xx
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Beautiful 🖤🙏🏻
@shadowhawk41644 жыл бұрын
It is so very true
@shadowhawk41644 жыл бұрын
Citizen Soldier she (?) is so right citizen solder
@joshuajones2794 жыл бұрын
@@shadowhawk4164 she is right and she is my little sister, she has suffered so much and I can't do anything to help all I can do is be here for her when she is ready to speak. I only know parts of her abuse the rest she hides so well
@shadowhawk41644 жыл бұрын
Joshua Jones I hope she gets better
@diamondblade34903 жыл бұрын
"Maybe I should say something, but I'm terrified you'll put the blame on me" It hurts to know how many people relate to this line. No one should be scared to share their story.
@viiviiviiv Жыл бұрын
I am one of those people
@sparaxisblanc2473 Жыл бұрын
Happens all the time.
@AKRosebud11 ай бұрын
I'm one of these people
@glitchmo13724 жыл бұрын
"Fight a war every day that no one sees" i can relate to that part all to well
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Glad you felt it. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
@xceryxdemurstra63233 жыл бұрын
All day every day. I'm not sure if there's ever an end to it all... The war just rages on and on and seems to only ever get harder...
@DarknessRealm3 жыл бұрын
Facts
@missinichols84193 жыл бұрын
Me2! EVERYDAY !
@xlide313 жыл бұрын
Reminds me of Chester :-(
@EyeTea4 жыл бұрын
I’ll tell you a little secret: This won’t be the only time I listen to this masterpiece.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Hahaha thank you so much 🖤🙏🏻
@calumcartridge74114 жыл бұрын
That's no secret,that's a given.
@lobo758014 жыл бұрын
same :)
@christina1174 жыл бұрын
Jade Clark same
@alexandriavictoria12204 жыл бұрын
I believe you! XD Love the song from the first second it started playing! Thanks for the heart! I'm screaming right now lol
@fernandaferraz94694 жыл бұрын
Citizen Soldier doesn't even have a single bad song, I wonder how that is possible.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
You are so kind. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
@shadowhawk41644 жыл бұрын
It is so true
@Dies0Personal0Freak4 жыл бұрын
Because they know how it is to suffer and to fight agains your inner demon. I think thats why :)
@fernandaferraz94694 жыл бұрын
@@Dies0Personal0Freak Yeah :)
@arielshadow76674 жыл бұрын
No, they just don't know how to make bad song XD
@hannahutt694 жыл бұрын
This hits deep as shit when you deal with PTSD...
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So glad you felt it. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
@hannahutt694 жыл бұрын
Citizen Soldier thank you for making music to get us thru the days & truly understand the lyrics. Y’all are by far the best!! Much love to y’all!
@kittynefarious22933 жыл бұрын
Was gonna say the same. C-ptsd is a bish to deal with. Love this song 💕
@juliemeador71553 жыл бұрын
I agree.
@kadinbearden38153 жыл бұрын
Honestly feel that. Ive struggled for 4 years to shake this feeling of anxiety and desperation that everyday won't be a struggle, but here we are.
@dafneinsapersonal3 жыл бұрын
I'm sure you are not going to read this, but: I found your songs when I was very sad and somehow you made me feel less alone. I'm better now, but your songs are art to me. I identify with many, the rhythm, the voice and even the lyric videos are completely amazing. I'm surprised you are not more famous... I've following you for a long time, but I never comment, sorry. *Keep it up, thank you. ♡*
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
We're so happy our music can do that for you. Thank you so much for the support 🖤
@dredragon27073 жыл бұрын
I am your 130 like (also i like how there music can relate with a lot of people who are in pain)
@cademurphy69983 жыл бұрын
I had lost my gf a few days or so ago she came back thankfully but I first heard their song I'm not okay and it legit described how I felt when she was gone down to the dot , kept me from ending it along with a few other things
@angelofdeath96913 жыл бұрын
I'm surprised to!
@apprenticegandolf54723 жыл бұрын
Light work I got this in the bag 2021
@Chronicle_MV4 жыл бұрын
Here's to all the abuse victims 🥂 May they find relief from their pain and secrets 😔
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Well said!
@jasminewells31014 жыл бұрын
Thank you Savage Chronicle. Thank you form the bottom of my heart. We will someday heal from it.
@FreakyOnLeash4 жыл бұрын
A toast to all survivors out there indeed!
@moirasmommy98384 жыл бұрын
I am a survivor
@jamisenjohansen3 жыл бұрын
Thank you, Chronicle MV. I found your comment at the right time. Karma will sort everything out just fine. Hope you are doing well. Stay strong out there. 💖
@stephanie95774 жыл бұрын
If you ever feel stupid... Remember there are people who disliked this song
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Hahahahaha savage!
@csakegyismeretlen4 жыл бұрын
Lol my sensei the truth is spreading out of you
@stephanie95774 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier thanks
@Onizuka-White-Hat4 жыл бұрын
SAVAGE!
@canadianpoilt55973 жыл бұрын
Thank you u just motivated me
@Madamegalaxiatarot3 жыл бұрын
This and "Hope it Haunts You" really hits me! I'm a survivor of sexual assault, and was something I was blamed for and was told I was lying about because the person was my fiancee at the time! So I couldn't speak about it for years. I'm still working through it in therapy, but these songs definitely help. Especially when so many amazing people comment and I feel like I'm not alone. Sending love and positivity to everyone💞
@nickn41352 жыл бұрын
No, you're not alone. Some of us have an idea of your hell and some of us know different hells, but we all know hell, and we all root for you and dare hope that someday it has no hold over you. To not be believed about what you've been through is its own kind of trauma.
@CamilleHouston-dp7qq Жыл бұрын
I can relate my ex husband raped me and sexually abused me song hits home I've been sexually assault 3 times
@stonedumaruto95704 жыл бұрын
Everyone has that one secret they'll take to their graves.....
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Very true!
@seanroth40633 жыл бұрын
yeah
@elizabethclendening67493 жыл бұрын
Truth
@bindu19223 жыл бұрын
Truee
@nraisor65073 жыл бұрын
I have many and I'm 13
@I9719I4 жыл бұрын
The little pause at 1:33 really sells it. "It's my little... secret." And again at 3:17 it just *screams* hesitation, the way they don't finish it and then repeat it, it's just SO FUCKING GOOD I AM S C R E A M I N G. It reminds me of when someone is actually going to tell a secret, they hesitate. They're hesitating to say it because revealing a secret is a hard thing to do. You never know how the person receiving said secret will react and then you get nervous and your anxiety is being thrown out the building through the roof via super cannon straight into the friggin moon all because you just told your best friend of your deepest secret. Do they still like you, do they despise your very existence? It's always a gamble when you reveal a secret. Especially if it's incredibly personal like some kind of trauma or something similar, I think depression is a common example of that. Even though this music video is centered around victim shaming I think it still applies because depression is commonly hidden and remains a secret until it is inevitably uncovered.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Appreciate you so much. Thank you for the kind words 🖤🙏🏻
@mystiangel964 жыл бұрын
"I've learned to suffer silently Fight a war every day that no one sees It's torture always remembering I don't want them to think I'm weak So I bite my tongue until it bleeds" 💔❤
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Glad you like the lyrics 🖤🙏🏻
@kotrum63094 жыл бұрын
I was like that when i was young cuz i just put on a face and didn't show my feelings for so long and until a few years or so im finally opening up
@tanyavondegurechaff13444 жыл бұрын
Those lyrics make me shiver how true those lines are
@mystiangel964 жыл бұрын
❤ I recommend checking out the song Trauma by Nathan Wagner. It makes me feel similar to how this song makes me feel.
@mykee4264 жыл бұрын
I'm not alone..😭
@garrettbrooks2853 жыл бұрын
Very good song. Phrase that saved my life: "I am not what has happened to me. I am what I choose to become."
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Thanks for listening Garret! 🖤
@garrettbrooks2853 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier No problem, this song reminds me of my old mindset before I broke out of it. ^^
@socialdeviant133 жыл бұрын
@@garrettbrooks285 I know this is late, but how did you break out of that mindset? It seems to permeate everything, and I would love to know how to crawl out of this hole.
@garrettbrooks2853 жыл бұрын
@@socialdeviant13 Sorry for the late response. For me it was realizing that I have the choice to stay focused on negative thoughts or focus on positives.
@hannahwilliams56812 жыл бұрын
💖
@robertmayes26964 жыл бұрын
As someone that has been through some terrible things this song hits home.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
We have too friend. We need to support eachother 🖤🙏🏻
@Gamergirl368263 жыл бұрын
same here man same here
@spiritangel13672 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier all i have is music and the lyrics. Every single song has a story. I seem to be able to relate to them all. This isn't life to me. I was born to the devil. I literally have no one. I love so many of ur songs, like "isolate". It's true, i can only trust my ceiling..!!
@elliemaej5204 жыл бұрын
For me its still very difficult to reveal all the hurt that I've been through, I try but there are some thing's I can't and I don't know if I will ever find the courage to speak of them. There will always be people that will never understand. That go out of their way to tell you to just get over it, I wish it was as easy as that. I know that I've said this many times but it is true.. You WILL always be the voice to those that are struggling. You guys inspire so many. Maybe one day if we continue to stay strong we will all be able to show our appreciation to you for all that you have done.. ♡🥀xx
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Much love to you friend. You’re definitely not alone 🖤🙏🏻
@elliemaej5204 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier it took me so long to figure that out, but with your help and that of my family and everyone here, I know that I'm not alone. There are days you still feel it but we are not. Thank you ♡🥀xx
@halomasamune27624 жыл бұрын
I know what you mean, I still haven't opened up about everything that has happened to me, not with my therapist and definitely not with family. I might never. I suffer from ptsd from what was done to me , and it hurts that if I told people about what is torturing me, they would think less of me.
@xceryxdemurstra63234 жыл бұрын
@@halomasamune2762 I do as well. I have PTSD and clinical depression from the abuse of my childhood. I've fought it for 24 years now, and every year it gets harder and harder to keep fighting because there's nobody beside me.. and I've tried to reach for help, and I've tried to talk to family and shrinks and none of them want to hear it, or they don't believe it's as bad as it is and they think I'm exaggerating how hard it is just to get up every morning... And I fall asleep at nights hoping to not wake up in the morning
@halomasamune27624 жыл бұрын
@@xceryxdemurstra6323 Yeah... it's the same here. I've had issues since I was 13, I became shut off from the world cold and distant. Nobody in my families wants to hear it, cause they think my childhood was something I enjoyed. I can't even talk to my family, my therapist isn't bad, but he is under the opinion that I can choose to set down these issues like they are a bag of rocks. If it were that easy I would have done it already. I don't sleep, I have nightmares, I have to take medication to sleep and if I do sleep I nightmares feel so real... Last bad one my wife had to wake me, I had dug my fingers into my arm, required stitches.
@baelzebulofficial4 жыл бұрын
Whoever disliked this doesnt know a masterpiece
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much 🖤🙏🏻
@ivanquintana_4 жыл бұрын
Literally 0 dislikes as im commenting this.
@I_Am_Nerox4 жыл бұрын
@@ivanquintana_ Same. Just as it should be.
@randomguyfromslask71134 жыл бұрын
People who diliked itare Australians trying to like the video
@NinjaThorn4 жыл бұрын
No dislikes that I can see as of now.
@xiDreamy5 ай бұрын
Sadly, I was r worded 2 months ago, and I haven't told anyone. I see the person who did it everyday as we are in the same school. I've gone down a spiral, and I haven't even told my boyfriend. Im ashamed that my family will judge me and say I did it.
@Dn-Neo4 ай бұрын
... I waited years to tell people what happend to me in in a similar situation. And as much as it did help finally getting it out to family, friends and police. I waited too long for anything to be then done about it. So as much as I said the fear of being judged and not heard, say it to the ones you can to start off with. And report it when you can. Don't do my mistake and wait too long please 💙
@mckenziesmith29383 жыл бұрын
I am 15 and I have been a victim of abuse since I was 11... I sought out help, and my screams haven't reached anyone. I connect with this song on a very deep level and your music gets be through another day. I have thought about suicide multiple times and I have several attempts on my record. You're music saved me and I want to thank you for reaching out to people in need.
@aubreyackermann8432 Жыл бұрын
Are you holding up? I can't do much, but when I was at my lowest I'd have wanted someone to ask.
@mckenziesmith2938 Жыл бұрын
@@aubreyackermann8432 yes I really needed this at this moment... thank you
@aubreyackermann8432 Жыл бұрын
@@mckenziesmith2938 any time
@kelliekell5088 Жыл бұрын
I hope you're doing well. 🌻💜
@shadowgate286 Жыл бұрын
Hi, I’m 15 too, if you ever need help, I’ll be here, send me a message, and I’ll reply as soon as possible. If you ever need to get away, let me know, and I’ll figure something out.
@KyleGamerX4 жыл бұрын
Great message! Why is victim shaming accepted by society? Why is it the victim's fault? People don't choose to be abused 😩 Who agrees? ⁉️
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So true. Appreciate you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@sonadronefuturistic92934 жыл бұрын
From my perspective, most whom shames the innocent are the ones who does not care anyone but themselves thus I put them in the idiots category. So yes, I agree 👍🏼
@dianavandentillaart-kool93354 жыл бұрын
I agree If those who are abused stand together, we'll beat those who abuse! We can't change our past but we are able to create a future where others victims will be heard, if not by society then by us, by those who were abused! Together we can stand strong!
@buckmarkner4 жыл бұрын
I was always labeled the weak one , hiding in the cracks staying away as much as possible , living around ego , their dark is greater then yours ,their troubles are greater then yours , ive always managed to feel like a piece without the help of daily reminders .
@lostinmystudy43664 жыл бұрын
i thought people only blamed the victim when they thought they were lying. so there are people who just blame the victim?!?!
@just4me7544 жыл бұрын
As someone who's dealt with the stigma surrounding mental health for most of my life and a counseling student focusing on trauma, I just want to thank you for using your voice and your platform to highlight such important issues. I'm always amazed by the depth in your songs and the way you approach the topics you represent. You have given a voice and strength to so many people with your music 🖤🤍🖤
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So glad it is helping. Thank you for doing what you are as well to fight for others 🖤🙏🏻
@j_mack19964 жыл бұрын
I have bipolar disorder. These songs say what I deal with every day. Makes me feel better knowing that there's people who actually get it.
@shadowhawk41644 жыл бұрын
It is hard to struggle with mental health, I have at the very least 4 mental health issues and 3 of them is undiagnosed and all or most of citizen soldier’s songs just help so much, I agree with you comment very much
@just4me7544 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier Thank you!!!
@devile26104 жыл бұрын
i told my friend about citizen soldier my friend: he has a hot voice actually me @_@ you mean to tell me that this masterpiece the music the style the lyrics filled with emotions and truth that many can relate too and all you think is that the guy's voice is hot? my friend: yeah me: -_- me: your not wrong but still tho @W@
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Hahaha that's a great compliment! 😂🖤
@odalysvelez31963 жыл бұрын
Wow. I probably have people that would say the same thing. 🤣
@vesperslounge27933 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier I mean it is true haha
@user-vb1qr2wt7w3 жыл бұрын
Fellow somnia
@TheAnImEfAn942 жыл бұрын
“You always remember the past” “just forget about it” And this song explains everything…
@scifiauthor6 ай бұрын
And my personal favorite, as someone with O.C.D.: "Stop obsessing." Dang right about "I'm terrified you'll put the blame on me," part.
@aidee41864 жыл бұрын
The fact that you released this song about not being able to sleep at 1 AM was a premeditated decision? 😅 Also, it’s great! I love the melody!
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Hahahaha you have a point 🖤🙏🏻
@andysixxstalkerangeloftrag58334 жыл бұрын
A band means something to the listener when they don't even have to press play to have the song liked and saved. And I'm one of those people with this band.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
That means the world. Thank you so much 🖤🙏🏻
@justindufresne58054 жыл бұрын
For me this song can go two ways. One way is someone battling memories of what someone did to them, the second, it is a battle within themselves for not being what they feel is not good enough. Absolutely love the track. Keep it going guys!!!
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Well said. Appreciate you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@AnythingBtOrdinary913 жыл бұрын
Nailed it!!!!
@adamtravis73173 жыл бұрын
Why not both at the same time?
@justindufresne58053 жыл бұрын
@@adamtravis7317 true. You can feel both at the same time.
@VCoverAI3 жыл бұрын
Just heard "Would Anyone Care" For the first time, had to check out more of there music. All I have to say is love your music and hope you guys continue.
@soldier08314 жыл бұрын
As a veteran fighting my ptsd Citizen Soldier has always made songs that I can relate to. This one is no different. There’s so many things people have to deal with but it’s not something people are able to talk with someone about. Even if it’s a therapist, friend, family, or loved one. So many people truly feel that this is their little secret. Thank you Citizen Soldier for another amazing song putting into words what so many of us are unable to find the words for
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Of course friend. Stay strong. You’re not alone 🖤🙏🏻
@oliviafronkova56783 жыл бұрын
Stay strong, you're never alone and we see you 🙏❤️
@majesticdreams2403 жыл бұрын
Not a veteran but coming from someone who was recently diagnosed with PTSD I very much relate. Thank you for your service and stay strong 💖
@somnus94373 жыл бұрын
Stay strong mate your not alone on this journey.
@insanemarauder20033 жыл бұрын
Stay strong man. And thank you for your service
@jaycee16704 жыл бұрын
I seriously love how guys have been covering so many heavy subjects recently. Most people are afraid to do this, which is understandable, so it's very nice to find a talented band capable of covering these issues well and inspiring others to move forward and help be the change. I adore these songs, the messages, the vocals and instruments and jist everything about them.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for the kind words friend 🖤🙏🏻
@willmccormack83814 жыл бұрын
This song perfectly describes how it feels to live with ptsd
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Appreciate you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@JB-jy8qp3 жыл бұрын
Dealing with the memory of sexual assault This song explains everything Helps a million
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
We hear you 🖤 Stay strong friend
@hearts4livi4 жыл бұрын
*WAIT- WAIT I LOVE THIS I-* You guys seriously are amazing- you never fail to impress me🤧✨
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
That means the world. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
@deaththeraven79304 жыл бұрын
Citizen soldier can I find your albums on iTunes?? Because two days ago I broke up with my boyfriend and when I found your song will anyone care it really helped me.
@skullgamer60054 жыл бұрын
Kati The Raven yeah it’s on iTunes just type in Citizen Soldier and you will find their songs
@deaththeraven79304 жыл бұрын
Skull Gamer thank you
@KaitlynnRager4 жыл бұрын
Jake's voice gives me goosebumps 😭 I love this so much. I can relate to this song so much. I've been diagnosed with PTSD at a pretty early age and the flashbacks usually haunt me at night making it very hard for me to sleep and when I do I always end up having really bad nightmares about my past. I'm so glad I've found this band. They've really helped me just in this short few months I've been listening to them 🖤🖤🖤
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
You’re the best. So glad you found us. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
@nickn41352 жыл бұрын
*grabs your hand* You're not alone. You're part of an army of us who have fought and still fight the fight.
@lottie09034 жыл бұрын
It took me 3 years to even talk about what my abusive ex did to me, I felt exactly like this and I still can't really talk about parts of what he's done to me, 6 years on. This song describes how I feel when I could never put it to words. A beautiful song, thank you
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Proud of you for speaking up. Stay strong 🖤🙏🏻
@thegodlyclouds64344 жыл бұрын
I've never found a band that perfectly matched my thoughts until I found you guys, i love this band and every song is a masterpiece
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much. Appreciate that 🖤🙏🏻
@blackthrone69764 жыл бұрын
This is the reason why it's so easy to talk to people on the internet. When we talk to people we know, we fear they will judge us, but when you know nothing about the other person, only knowing what they want us to call them, it's easier to say that tiny thing that's been hurting you, pushing you down, and even the things we would never admit. As much as it would be best to talk about these things in person, to have consolation and assurance, that fear is more often than not, so over powering, we would rather suffer in silence, than to show people how weak we really are.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
This community needs to support eachother through our pain 🖤🙏🏻
@cyansloth17633 жыл бұрын
It’s very very true
@nickn41352 жыл бұрын
But there are those of us who have fought the fight, and still fight it, and even though you can't always feel it, we're at your back.
@reydragonclaw11284 жыл бұрын
"...So I bite my tongue until it bleeds" is SUCH A GOOD LINE I do love me some clever rhymes
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
🖤🙏🏻
@charlytb Жыл бұрын
As a victim of rape by my brother I totally relate to this song. Thank you very much for your music, it makes me feel understood and less alone ❤
@natalieskyddad22657 ай бұрын
Omg hope you feel better love😢
@ASingleLettuceLeaf3 жыл бұрын
The fact that they reply to the comments just shows that they care. I can't think of anyone else who does this. This song hits like a truck when you're in recovery for self-harm. Your music has helped me to come to terms with my past and I can't thank you enough for that x
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Appreciate you Jess 🖤 We try to reply to all of you
@arifxawad64204 жыл бұрын
It feels sad to think When you grow up , no one will be there for you to share your pain , its all yours....Your little Secret!
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So true. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
@FaeTomioka4 жыл бұрын
This make me think of my last relationship... Hope the next one will be more joyful. God, I pray I will be fine and that he wont ever find a way to contact me again... It does haunt me at times... Afraid to love again at times... It's scary to put all your love and trust in someone else hands. It got me in pieces... Shattered... Slowly building myself up though. Finally well I love your songs and I am thankful I can hear them. I also suffer from depression and a high case of GAD. It feels... good to know you are not alone. All the love and please stay safe 🖤🖤
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Much love to you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@neurotic77794 жыл бұрын
You will find the person to heal your soul as long as you leave yourself even the tiniest bit open to love. I found mine the same time she found hers. We had been friends for 3 years and a former friend of mine took advantage of her and was very very abusive. One day he just dumped her at my door and moved out of state. I let her stay and she slowly started opening up to me about the things that POS did to her. One day we were watching movies together and I wanted to be closer to her, but was afraid she might pull away, so I did nothing. Later that day she told me she resigned herself to never being loved. That sent my mind into action and I told her that she shouldn't give up just yet, and I kissed her. Everything clicked into place and it felt like we had been together for a lifetime. We are going strong six years later and will be married as soon as this pandemic winds down enough for our court to open. So I will tell you the same thing. Be Strong. Don't give up because your true love could be just around the corner.
@FaeTomioka4 жыл бұрын
@@neurotic7779 Awww your story was sad at the start then it got so adorb. I will keep on praying I end up finding my special person. I am not giving up. And who knows that person might be nearer than I think. Thanks for sharing your story with me and congrats on your wedding to come 😊
@stickerdoesstuff24-74 жыл бұрын
@@neurotic7779 that just made me cry tears of happiness, there need to be more lovers like you, & I can't wait til I find mine, and I wish you and your woman the best marriage!! 💖😭🤧😍
@saralackey3 жыл бұрын
I left a marriage of 18yrs where the depths of the abuse was concealed with a loving husband support a wife with a mental illness. He used my mental illness to control me beyond imagination. I keep picking up emotion baggage that I didn’t know I had. I know what you mean by little secrets because I can’t mention anything to my new husband. Thank you guys. Having that one song that relates to your life somehow soothes the pain and pour out the words that are stuck in the heart.
@user-lucariogirl3 жыл бұрын
I understand! I was abused by people as well, both sexually, emotionally and mentally. It is hard but you are so strong!! Keep going, just like me...maybe someday all will be better.
@notmydidea2 жыл бұрын
why can't you tell your new husband?
@x-3Winter548 күн бұрын
This is how it felt after both cases of SA with the help of other students and my friends i was able to speak up. Now im dealing with PTSD, life is hard, but knowing others understand makes it more bearable.
@storrorartonline64034 жыл бұрын
About 2 years ago, I lost my grandpa, my best friend to a car accident and my guardian(uncle) to pneumonia all in the course of about 4 months. I went to a therapist, tried to talk about it, I just couldn't. Then about a year and a half ago, I slit my wrist. I was found by a security guard on the apt rooftops just in time to save, I was taken to the ER and kept there for a few days while in critical condition. I survived, and I hated myself for it. I was closely watched over 24/7 after that incident. Not soon after, I discovered your music, it helped me cope with whatever I was feeling at the time, all the anxiety, suicidal thoughts and depression. Your songs helped me put everything I felt into words. I started talking to my therapist, I started feeling good for the first time in months. Now, even though I have such thoughts even now, it's not as bad as it used to be. I have healthy relationships with my friends, a really nice girlfriend and I just graduated as valedictorian a few months ago. Your music was a huge inspiration for me and thousands of others like me who had experienced loss, depression and anxiety and your music gave a voice to all of us. I owe you so much and I sincerely thank you for it. I hope you gain a lot more success and you reach out to a lot of people who might need your music to help them cope with tough times.
@fernandaferraz94694 жыл бұрын
:0
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So sorry for your loss. Sending love your way friend 🖤🙏🏻
@storrorartonline64034 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier thx a lot mate
@expectnike44144 жыл бұрын
I am actually speechless right now.. this song came out at the exact time as I'm battling my problems... and I absolutely love it
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So glad you love it 🖤🙏🏻
@jamescrady41144 жыл бұрын
I wish you luck with battling your problems man.
@expectnike44144 жыл бұрын
@@jamescrady4114 thanks man.. keep safe out there as well thanks for showing support
@caden17343 жыл бұрын
Not many bands tackle themes like you guys do. I've never felt so listened to. People always talk about pedophilia, but don't think of online grooming as a way of being traumatized- it took me 4 years to even think of the experience as actually being traumatic. After my first therapist did absolutely nothing with my story, I thought I was just overreacting. There are so many forms of abuse, big or small. There are victims from all walks of life. Society has to see and acknowledge this. Thank you for making this.
@kpopper_chingu3 жыл бұрын
"Fight a war everyday that no ones sees" It's scary what we can hide behind a smile.
@fallxn_freak41744 жыл бұрын
Oh my goodness, I'm in literal tears after listening to this masterpiece. It's hard to explain what I'm feeling right now, it's a mix between being absolutely breathless and feeling like someone finally understands me. I'm pretty sure I have moderate depression. I'm constantly surrounded in family drama, friend drama, and just drama that I don't want to be in but can't get out of (I'm not allowed to leave my house ever since this pandemic happened.) I'm not one to self-diagnose and this result is only from a few online tests I've done in secret on medical websites. A couple weeks ago, I decided to try and get help and, possibly, get an official diagnose. I was crying when my mom found me, I was actually listening to Gunshot Lullabies. So anyways, I tell my parents, they don't believe me for anything, even when I told them that I have attempted to cut my wrists in the past with scissors, even when a couple of months before my school councilor phoned home because she though I was suicidal, which is true, and I received counselling for around 4 months. Instead, I just got asked if I was doing it for attention, they said I have nothing to be depressed about, and they criticized me when I told them some of the stuff I was depressed about (a few incidents that happened years ago that, even after talking them out, I can't let go off.) Then the next day they asked me if I was feeling depressed, and in all honesty, why would I say yes when I got called an attention seeker the day before? So of course I said no and plastered on the biggest fake smile I could muster. Then for the next couple of days, my mom, in a way, made fun of my "non-existent" depression, saying I can't be depressed but want to hurt myself and constantly, constantly popping out our private talk in public situations. Even when I recently came out to my parents as pansexual, I'm told it's normal for girls to want to experiment and that I've never dated a girl (I have online dated girls a few times, never physically dated any.) so I wouldn't know, even when I've felt this way before I knew what pansexuality was and what the "normal standards" are . Little do my parents know that sometimes when I'm in my room, I'm crying because my demons are tearing me apart. When I hold a bottle of pills longer than I should be, I'm thinking about how much I would have to take to overdose. When my own mother says I'm worthless when she's in a fit on anxiety, I'll remember it for as long as I live. The only person I feel comfortable to talk to is my best friend, I'd say we're practically sisters. It's better than having no one, but it hurts that I'm not comfortable telling my parents anything personal about myself. I just realized how long this is, sorry for that. I just feel safe in the comment section telling my story, your music has changed my life. Whenever I get into a rut of self doubt and my demons come back to haunt me, I turn your music up real high and sing, sometimes it's just sitting on my bed crying everything out, and that quiets them down for a little bit. Thank you guys so, so much from the bottom of my heart for what you do, it's helped me and lots of others cope. Much love to you guys and God bless
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Wow. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so proud of you for fighting through all this. You’re worth it. Much love to you 🖤🙏🏻
@fallxn_freak41744 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier You better believe I'm not going down without a fight ♡
@obsidianblade52824 жыл бұрын
@@fallxn_freak4174 Now that's the little piece of what society is missing. Never give up, no matter how dark it may seem. Because, the darker it is, the brighter the spark. Once more, keep fighting, and you shall make it through.
@fallxn_freak41744 жыл бұрын
@@obsidianblade5282 Thank you, I will
@fallxn_freak41743 жыл бұрын
@Sebastian Kolb-Davis Thank you so much for your kind words, and I'm sorry about what happened between you and your girlfriend. God bless you
@orton2204 жыл бұрын
"Seen so many things I can't unsee; I've learned to suffer silently". So powerful and so true of trauma survivors
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
🖤🙏🏻
@princesscrystalofthejewelw91783 жыл бұрын
That's another song to add to my playlist that represents my life!
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Thanks 💜
@acidiclizardgaming55832 жыл бұрын
This songs sums up my PTSD, every day I try to sleep but memories keep flooding into my brain that I cant get rid of
@teraba16964 жыл бұрын
This song hit mehard as i know that im not alone with this struggle. This is relatable to me because of what my mother has done in my past.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Much love to you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@jennifergoldsberry5884 жыл бұрын
This hits too close to home. I just found this man and his wonderful voice. This group is amazing
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much friend 🖤🙏🏻
@carolusrex24074 жыл бұрын
This is way too relatable. Reminds me of my own little secret. Listening to this physically hurts.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So sorry to hear that friend. Thai community is here for you 🖤🙏🏻
@WonderingOwl12 Жыл бұрын
I’ve been fighting my PTSD for 3 years now, I’m happy that this song reminds me I’m not alone
@kyledean36384 жыл бұрын
Never clicked so fast in my life and never been so surprised when i saw u release a new song great as always
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
You’re the best. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
@xsbb_xh11064 жыл бұрын
Wow, you really do know how we feel. I feel like my past is still haunting me. And that it won't let go even if I tried to fight it..🖤 Thankyou soo much Citizen Soldier❤ You really understand your fans, and we understand how you feel❤ Love youu so much ❤❤🤍
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Love you back 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
@cute-little-psycho-momokod43684 жыл бұрын
I was thinking the same OwO! I think he is watching us xD but how he does it is like a dream - it's to beautiful to be true - BUT it is true!
@xsbb_xh11064 жыл бұрын
@@cute-little-psycho-momokod4368 ikr! Citizen Soldier is the best!! ❤ actually he should be heard on the radio. In stead of other people like rapper's. CS has the best lyrics..❣ ans so that everybody who hears it knows, that he knows what's inside of us. And that we're not alone🤍
@cute-little-psycho-momokod43684 жыл бұрын
@@xsbb_xh1106 oh yeah! You so right! He deserves more love, likes, followers! So less likes! He don't deserve this! He understand as all what not even sometimes our parents does!
@xsbb_xh11064 жыл бұрын
@@cute-little-psycho-momokod4368 yeahh!! Exactly! He just know whats inside in our hearts and heads. And most importantly he knows what's behind our smile 🤍 i hope he'll comes to the top of the world soon!!❤❤
@ashley_885 ай бұрын
This is the song you wish you could share with your family but you're to afraid and ashamed.
@mcdonaldsguy84203 жыл бұрын
Sweet buttery jesus I love this song. Long Live Citizen Soldier!!!
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Appreciate that!
@slipknotmfkrlocust88434 жыл бұрын
"The weight of this is breaking me to keep it under lock and key" This line really says a lot to me. Fortunately I met someone who I can unlock everything to. To everyone out there dealing with this, telling someone you trust really helps. There are people who care, silencing your pain only gives it fuel to have it build up over time.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Much love to you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@jessabelleume4 жыл бұрын
Me sobbing in corner: Why Do All Your Songs Hit Home So Hard?!
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
🖤🙏🏻
@ryssaval44274 жыл бұрын
Haven’t heard a bad song from this band yet. Really love this one, wish I could give it more than one like.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Appreciate you so much 🖤🙏🏻
@zopa56613 жыл бұрын
Yesterday I was goin to tell my mom that I've been thinking of suicide for the past weeks, but she had friends over so I had to hide it bcz i ddin't want to ruin anything on that moment. So now, I can relate to this song even more. But I'll make sure to tell her today.
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
We hear you Zopa 🖤 Stay strong friend
@Only_-_Yours3 жыл бұрын
You must tell her , that's a great and brave step ... You are too strong and too beautiful to die .. Don't leave her please ♥️
@dawnramos58463 жыл бұрын
Hope u r well
@hannahturnbull66803 жыл бұрын
How did it go?
@minico77903 жыл бұрын
Your not a burden. Your not Worthless. But what you are is is amazing, unique, special and more. You don't even know how many people care about you and love you cause TRUST ME your loved by more people than you think. I know your sick and tired of trying but please for the sake of God if you just try a bit harder to be happy and love yourself and Actually love the world, then you never would want to leave this world again. Your future awaits for you and no it is not that hole named "death" inside of you waiting to gobble you up and drag you in it, your future that has you being alive in it having a big happy smile on your face with you having to finally figure yourself out and having fun is the future for you my freind. Trust me...just stay strong cause the world needs you❤
@bornilmurchhona4 жыл бұрын
Your songs always hit right in the heart. They always say what needs to be said, what the world needs to know. Thank you, citizen soldier, for everything you're doing. And also for amazing inspiration for the series I'm writing.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Appreciate you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@aggroTheShark4 жыл бұрын
Fun fact: This guy's music never diasappoint 👌❤
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Appreciate that AresK!
@randybonthuis51623 жыл бұрын
My little secret would be suffering from sleep paralysis every single day for the last 2 years. I don't want to go to sleep, but after listening to you guys I feel like I can take on another round of torture. In case you read this, thank you so much, you're actually keeping me alive.
@UmbraSanguinis4 жыл бұрын
There's a chance you won't see this... I resonate so much with this song. I've been through hell and back, recently discovered something that makes sense, and overall been feeling like I need to hide my feelings and put on a mask. I love you guys. You make songs that actually matter and reach the hearts of millions. Thank you for releasing this song. It means so much to me. ❤❤❤
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So proud of you for fighting. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
@UmbraSanguinis4 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier thank you. And thank you for caring for your community and taking the time to reply. It means a lot. ❤
@ryojinjakka4 жыл бұрын
I'm so glad that KZfaq recommended yall to me 3 to 4 months ago! Yall have made excellent music! Yall are just amazing! Love yall!
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So glad you found us. Welcome to the family 🖤🙏🏻
@Nocteul4 жыл бұрын
same, i found them a few months ago when youtube reccomended Would Anyone Care to me
@ryojinjakka4 жыл бұрын
@@Nocteul KZfaq for once recommended something awesome. I can't remember the song that was recommended to me though.
@nathanh.97674 жыл бұрын
I know this probably isn’t the song premise but this describes perfectly how it felt when I suffered from addiction and I was afraid that everyone I know would turn their backs on me. Thank you so much for this song
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Always friend. Glad you made that connection 🖤🙏🏻
@blackphoenixgirl22363 жыл бұрын
The lyrics "trying anything to forget what you did to me" hit me a different way
@lexmewhorter82113 жыл бұрын
I think you guys are my spirit animal.. Words that get so close to what's in my head. So far every song I have listened to resonates with my whole life. The depression, the insomnia, the anxiety.. All of it.. Right here in music.
@mochaxx64822 жыл бұрын
Ikr I havent heard any other songs so relatable i dont understand how they hit it exsactly
@spiritangel13672 жыл бұрын
@Lex Mewhorter, 100+% feel the same thing. I hate my existence..!!
@BasantKhalilMan4 жыл бұрын
Few seconds in and I'm in love already, you guys are so creative ❤️❤️
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Appreciate you so much 🖤🙏🏻
@blacksnow39044 жыл бұрын
Loving the new song!! The edit is lit! The music is addicting! The lyrics are connecting to me! A new song added, and in repeat! 😍
@blacksnow39044 жыл бұрын
Another song supporting me emotionally and mentally. Hoping for more 🙏❤
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
So glad you’re happy with it 🖤🙏🏻
@jolly_raven_56573 жыл бұрын
This song is so important, I’m so happy you guys wrote it, mad respect ✊
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much!
@randomguy-bm5ck4 жыл бұрын
This band has helped me in my darkest days. There will never by words to express how grateful I am to these people thanks for being awesome guys
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Honored we have helped. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
@anush_x_a4 жыл бұрын
Even though I'm a teen living in a pop world, I always keep coming back here. No band makes songs this great!!! I genuinely love Citizen soldier. My first song ever of yours was 15 minutes of Fame and I absolutely loved it. Thank you for this song!! My list of favourites only keeps getting longer.♥️
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Thanks for staying with us through it all 🖤🙏🏻
@anush_x_a3 жыл бұрын
Omg you replied!!!! I absolutely love you!!! No other song is as relatable. Please never stop making music. The world's a better place with your songs.♥️🎶
@Dalko914 жыл бұрын
Actually amazing how every time Citizen Soldier uploads a song, I have to mentally prepare for being hit with a truck of feelings.. and I was always taught to suppress everything. Just.. mesmerized by this band.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Appreciate you so much 🖤🙏🏻
@jaycripps66 Жыл бұрын
I've been spamming listen to all your music on different platforms, your songs help to know that no one is alone in what they are feeling. I've been using your music to help calm down after I have my panic attacks.
@Arterielle3 жыл бұрын
"I've learned to suffer silently I don't want them to think I'm weak So I bite my tongue until it bleeds" As someone who comes from a family where i always had to be the strong one for everyone els and never had a chance to show weakness myself i can relate.
@Mae-cq9xn Жыл бұрын
I can relate and I'm sorry for that
@cookiemaster06664 жыл бұрын
I swear you guys never disappoint. Keep up the good work
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
You are too kind. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
@charlenemorton41854 жыл бұрын
Every song is a masterpiece. The best band is this world.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
That means so much thank you 🖤🙏🏻
@fireraptor66702 жыл бұрын
To anyone struggling in silence just know no matter how hard it is to talk about it you unfortunately have to tell someone. I was in your shoes once and it took awhile but I finally opened up and got help. That was about 7 years ago still struggling but in a better place now. We're all rooting for you.
@justanotherloreaddict4 жыл бұрын
This band helped me through a dark time in my life, and it‘s good to know their still producing incredible songs.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
That means a lot. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@hunterwier9404 жыл бұрын
Every song you guys make I feel like you understand the pain alot of People struggle with it feels good to not feel alone in this world it's all because of you guys I feel like texting you guys personally and telling you everything about me I love you guys
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
We love you back friend 🖤🙏🏻
@cryptidvt4 жыл бұрын
Citizen Soldier once again writing about my life. I'm so glad I found these guys. Great work.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@cryptidvt4 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier No, thank you. I really mean that you've saved me several times since I found you.
@stephaniebaker57183 жыл бұрын
Every song just hits the feels so hard. They are so amazing and heartfelt and I feel each one says how one person or another feels in their lives, so many of them hit home for me. You are a truly amazing band and I hope you are around for a long time to come. Stay positive in this crazy world. God bless you all.
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Thanks Stephanie! 🖤
@cyansloth17633 жыл бұрын
Holy fuck this was literally me last night. Yet I’ve been in therapy for years- it seems to make no difference when the memories attack -hold on by the skin of my teeth to my 2 years of sobriety. Thank you Citizen Soldier. You make us survivors feel less alone
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much 🖤
@akilanqaburdenofall82634 жыл бұрын
It’s sad and scary to think how many people relate to this song
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Very true 🖤🙏🏻
@danielalvarez-arevalo6883 жыл бұрын
I enjoy this kind of rock based music. The type that feels like it’s telling a story instead of putting words left and right. Has a good rhythm also.
@AnUnnaturalNaturalDisaster2 жыл бұрын
It hurts when you know you can't tell anyone. Yet another song that's just too damn beautiful.
@thebattyashcat8032 жыл бұрын
Every song, I still battle the demons in my head. Singing along at top of my lungs is so cathartic. The relief feels so good and it’s always good to know that someone understands or has been in your shoes. You’re awesomesauce and I can only imagine how many people you’ve touched with your music and just how many have been pulled back from the edge knowing that things can get better
@liljarantala92073 жыл бұрын
I'm pretty sure I was a narcissist as a kid. I don't even know why I was the way I was or why I hurt others. I never treated anyone with respect or show that I even cared that much about them. My therapist once sat down with me in 2nd grade and said "Hey, if you don't change your behaviour, all your friends are going to leave you and you'll be alone the rest of your life. You don't want that, do you?" And that finally got through to me. I tried to apologize to my friend for allcthe shit that I had done, but I didn't even know where to start. Nothing went right with that half-assed apology and at the end of 4th grade I just gave up. I told myself that everyone already hated me for what I had done and how I acted so what's the point in trying to mend something unmendable. I didn't talk to my classmates for 2 whole years after that. I never spoke in class unless I absolutely had to, I sat alone during recess behind the school, I never paid attention in class and only stared at my desk. Pretty patheric, not gonna lie. But my mentality back then was that I can't hurt others if I don't get close to anyone. That I was bad and didn't deserve the kindness of others when I never showed any myaelf. I was pretty depressed about it too and tried cutting myself, but when the pain didn't help me feel better anymore I quit. I ended up befriending a girl I had bullied back in 1st and 2nd geade by some miracle and she introduced me to one of the new girls in her class. After 6th grade me and the new girl (let's call her Sam) got pretty close and I'd dare to call her my soul sister. She helped me through so much by just being there. I never wanted to hurt her or anyone ever again. Never again would I lose someone because of being a piece of shit. I regreted evrything I had done from birth till 5th grade and never ever wanted to lose someone who I loved and cared about. I got help in 7th grade again. It was the same therapist that I had in 2nd grade. I had her for nearly the rest of middle school and I got better. I was more social, I had friends and I was doing so much better mentaly. Hell, I even got a long distance boyfriend in 8th grade. I was sure that I'd never be loved by anyone because of my past. Because of being a piece of shit child. Sam was the first one I told about our relationship, I didn't tell my parents until it we were already past the 2 year mark. So 9th grade came to an end and I was feeling good about myself. I had noticed Sam seeming a little off, but I thought that it was either just hormones and teen angst or smth at home that she hadn't told me about yet. How stupid of me. 3 months before school started again, she sent me a measage telling me that she didn't want to be friends anymore. I didn't even question why and said that it was fine and to pretend like I never existed. I told my boyfriend who then went and asked her why she didn't want to be friends with me even tho I told him not to do anything. Turns out that I was too affectionate to her liking. Fuck me, am I right? I didn't know if I should laugh or cry at that point. I lost my best friend, my soul sister, because I was too affectionate. How do I even fuck up this bad? How? For 3 months I tried to brush it off. It was nothing, I had lost people before. How is now any different? After the first WEEK of high school and me realizing that we would have to see each other once a week at the same damn art school, I had a breakdown. I cried at home, in school, at night, didn't sleep and played tug of war with myself over if I should push everyone away in case they decided to leave me too so it wouldn't hurt as much if they left, or if I should embrace them and beg them not to leave me alone. If my best friend of 5 years could leave me like that over text, what's stopping everyone else from doing the same? It took nearly 6 months for my other friend and my boyfriend to convince me that they weren't going to leave because of Sam. I was scared that I'd fall back into depression and tired to get help from my high school but the school therapist told me to come back when I had "real problems". I had fits of paranoia and fear all throughout the year and ended up failing the first year of high school. Not a good time, to say the least. I dropped out and switched to a Vocational Colledge to study media. I broke up with my boyfriend of almost 3 years at the start of the new semester and I'm much happier now. He wasn't a bad guy, the exact opposite actually, I just felt more like a therapist than a girlfriend and I was mentaly exhausted from everything. And I don't mean only him, I was exhausted from being everyone's therapist while trying to keep my own shit together at the same time. I need to get some time for myself to just think. What is the point of my sob story essay? This song reminded me of how scared I was when Sam cut ties with me. I felt like I was 8 again and had completely failed to turn my life around. Like the past was going to repeat itself no matter what I did and I was going to lose everything and all my hard mental work would be nullified and I'd be back in quare 1. Sorry for the long comment.
@CitizenSoldier3 жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing all that Lilja. Life could be a rabbit hole. Thanks for listening and for your support. Hope things are better 🖤
@juliemeador71553 жыл бұрын
Hugs. I'm realy sorry you've had to feel so much pain in your short life & thank you for sharing your story. I was blessed to be able to read it. Btw, I don't think you were a narcissist as a child, just an innocent child who started off on the wrong foot but just as you'd made that choice to start evolving to be a better human being, you started living with the true hard you'd always had from the beginning. O & narcissists rarely change. They don't have a soul so that makes them incapable of loving another human being...they've never even loved themselves. ha
@shazani183 жыл бұрын
I was talking to my mother about parenting with violence, even to this day, she thinks it is the best way of parenting and they do not believe in the consequences that it can leave. She will never know my little secret, that her way of raising me left me with consequences that I had to solve alone.
@evanlabrake19918 ай бұрын
honestly you probably wont read this but this song is now my anthem cause no one listens to me about my pain my mental trauma nothing but u helped me atleast tell people what i think even if they dont believe me
@shadowredatto53284 жыл бұрын
The 6 people who disliked this clearly failed an IQ test and don't have ears.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Savage
@obsidianblade52824 жыл бұрын
I think the 40 dislikes now were people who missed the like button. :)
@jonathanniederhauser36613 жыл бұрын
Or they just are these pop freaks that dont like this e-guitar jam
@peace27253 жыл бұрын
@@jonathanniederhauser3661 or maybe they are some abuser and they don't like that people can speak about them....
@jonathanniederhauser36613 жыл бұрын
@@peace2725 or maybe they're bots. Did yall know half of the internet users are bots?
@davidnissim5894 жыл бұрын
It’s like Seether meets Bad Wolves.
@CitizenSoldier4 жыл бұрын
Awesome 🖤🙏🏻
@samuelgoff34683 жыл бұрын
You're do right
@Thomas-fg1jf Жыл бұрын
Damn.. it's sad to see how so many relate. I'm glad I'm not alone. When we cry for help we're called liers but when we die were called selfish
@Asaylum1174 жыл бұрын
I know what it feels like to hardly fall asleep. Every time I wake up I feel like crap, because I feel like nothing will change in my life & there have been many times I still can't forget my past pain experiences. And not matter where I go in life, I still feel like I'm always alone this dark world we call reality.