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Listening to your music makes me forget about all my problems. Except one: having to decide which of all your songs is my favorite

"Secrets are dark things. They don't exist within the light. They glow faintly in forgotten corners, in mysterious mind nooks, in our lost memory maps. Secrets are the shadows of our soul"..🥀xx Every song is always so relatable every word just hits so close ♡🥀xx

"Maybe I should say something, but I'm terrified you'll put the blame on me" It hurts to know how many people relate to this line. No one should be scared to share their story.

"Fight a war every day that no one sees" i can relate to that part all to well

I’ll tell you a little secret: This won’t be the only time I listen to this masterpiece.

Citizen Soldier doesn't even have a single bad song, I wonder how that is possible.

This hits deep as shit when you deal with PTSD...

I'm sure you are not going to read this, but: I found your songs when I was very sad and somehow you made me feel less alone. I'm better now, but your songs are art to me. I identify with many, the rhythm, the voice and even the lyric videos are completely amazing. I'm surprised you are not more famous... I've following you for a long time, but I never comment, sorry. *Keep it up, thank you. ♡*

Here's to all the abuse victims 🥂 May they find relief from their pain and secrets 😔

If you ever feel stupid... Remember there are people who disliked this song

This and "Hope it Haunts You" really hits me! I'm a survivor of sexual assault, and was something I was blamed for and was told I was lying about because the person was my fiancee at the time! So I couldn't speak about it for years. I'm still working through it in therapy, but these songs definitely help. Especially when so many amazing people comment and I feel like I'm not alone. Sending love and positivity to everyone💞

Everyone has that one secret they'll take to their graves.....

The little pause at 1:33 really sells it. "It's my little... secret." And again at 3:17 it just *screams* hesitation, the way they don't finish it and then repeat it, it's just SO FUCKING GOOD I AM S C R E A M I N G. It reminds me of when someone is actually going to tell a secret, they hesitate. They're hesitating to say it because revealing a secret is a hard thing to do. You never know how the person receiving said secret will react and then you get nervous and your anxiety is being thrown out the building through the roof via super cannon straight into the friggin moon all because you just told your best friend of your deepest secret. Do they still like you, do they despise your very existence? It's always a gamble when you reveal a secret. Especially if it's incredibly personal like some kind of trauma or something similar, I think depression is a common example of that. Even though this music video is centered around victim shaming I think it still applies because depression is commonly hidden and remains a secret until it is inevitably uncovered.

"I've learned to suffer silently Fight a war every day that no one sees It's torture always remembering I don't want them to think I'm weak So I bite my tongue until it bleeds" 💔❤

Very good song. Phrase that saved my life: "I am not what has happened to me. I am what I choose to become."

As someone that has been through some terrible things this song hits home.

For me its still very difficult to reveal all the hurt that I've been through, I try but there are some thing's I can't and I don't know if I will ever find the courage to speak of them. There will always be people that will never understand. That go out of their way to tell you to just get over it, I wish it was as easy as that. I know that I've said this many times but it is true.. You WILL always be the voice to those that are struggling. You guys inspire so many. Maybe one day if we continue to stay strong we will all be able to show our appreciation to you for all that you have done.. ♡🥀xx

Whoever disliked this doesnt know a masterpiece

Sadly, I was r worded 2 months ago, and I haven't told anyone. I see the person who did it everyday as we are in the same school. I've gone down a spiral, and I haven't even told my boyfriend. Im ashamed that my family will judge me and say I did it.

I am 15 and I have been a victim of abuse since I was 11... I sought out help, and my screams haven't reached anyone. I connect with this song on a very deep level and your music gets be through another day. I have thought about suicide multiple times and I have several attempts on my record. You're music saved me and I want to thank you for reaching out to people in need.

Great message! Why is victim shaming accepted by society? Why is it the victim's fault? People don't choose to be abused 😩 Who agrees? ⁉️

As someone who's dealt with the stigma surrounding mental health for most of my life and a counseling student focusing on trauma, I just want to thank you for using your voice and your platform to highlight such important issues. I'm always amazed by the depth in your songs and the way you approach the topics you represent. You have given a voice and strength to so many people with your music 🖤🤍🖤

i told my friend about citizen soldier my friend: he has a hot voice actually me @_@ you mean to tell me that this masterpiece the music the style the lyrics filled with emotions and truth that many can relate too and all you think is that the guy's voice is hot? my friend: yeah me: -_- me: your not wrong but still tho @W@

“You always remember the past” “just forget about it” And this song explains everything…

The fact that you released this song about not being able to sleep at 1 AM was a premeditated decision? 😅 Also, it’s great! I love the melody!

A band means something to the listener when they don't even have to press play to have the song liked and saved. And I'm one of those people with this band.

For me this song can go two ways. One way is someone battling memories of what someone did to them, the second, it is a battle within themselves for not being what they feel is not good enough. Absolutely love the track. Keep it going guys!!!

Just heard "Would Anyone Care" For the first time, had to check out more of there music. All I have to say is love your music and hope you guys continue.

As a veteran fighting my ptsd Citizen Soldier has always made songs that I can relate to. This one is no different. There’s so many things people have to deal with but it’s not something people are able to talk with someone about. Even if it’s a therapist, friend, family, or loved one. So many people truly feel that this is their little secret. Thank you Citizen Soldier for another amazing song putting into words what so many of us are unable to find the words for

I seriously love how guys have been covering so many heavy subjects recently. Most people are afraid to do this, which is understandable, so it's very nice to find a talented band capable of covering these issues well and inspiring others to move forward and help be the change. I adore these songs, the messages, the vocals and instruments and jist everything about them.

This song perfectly describes how it feels to live with ptsd

Dealing with the memory of sexual assault This song explains everything Helps a million

*WAIT- WAIT I LOVE THIS I-* You guys seriously are amazing- you never fail to impress me🤧✨

Jake's voice gives me goosebumps 😭 I love this so much. I can relate to this song so much. I've been diagnosed with PTSD at a pretty early age and the flashbacks usually haunt me at night making it very hard for me to sleep and when I do I always end up having really bad nightmares about my past. I'm so glad I've found this band. They've really helped me just in this short few months I've been listening to them 🖤🖤🖤

It took me 3 years to even talk about what my abusive ex did to me, I felt exactly like this and I still can't really talk about parts of what he's done to me, 6 years on. This song describes how I feel when I could never put it to words. A beautiful song, thank you

I've never found a band that perfectly matched my thoughts until I found you guys, i love this band and every song is a masterpiece

This is the reason why it's so easy to talk to people on the internet. When we talk to people we know, we fear they will judge us, but when you know nothing about the other person, only knowing what they want us to call them, it's easier to say that tiny thing that's been hurting you, pushing you down, and even the things we would never admit. As much as it would be best to talk about these things in person, to have consolation and assurance, that fear is more often than not, so over powering, we would rather suffer in silence, than to show people how weak we really are.

"...So I bite my tongue until it bleeds" is SUCH A GOOD LINE I do love me some clever rhymes

As a victim of rape by my brother I totally relate to this song. Thank you very much for your music, it makes me feel understood and less alone ❤

The fact that they reply to the comments just shows that they care. I can't think of anyone else who does this. This song hits like a truck when you're in recovery for self-harm. Your music has helped me to come to terms with my past and I can't thank you enough for that x

It feels sad to think When you grow up , no one will be there for you to share your pain , its all yours....Your little Secret!

This make me think of my last relationship... Hope the next one will be more joyful. God, I pray I will be fine and that he wont ever find a way to contact me again... It does haunt me at times... Afraid to love again at times... It's scary to put all your love and trust in someone else hands. It got me in pieces... Shattered... Slowly building myself up though. Finally well I love your songs and I am thankful I can hear them. I also suffer from depression and a high case of GAD. It feels... good to know you are not alone. All the love and please stay safe 🖤🖤

I left a marriage of 18yrs where the depths of the abuse was concealed with a loving husband support a wife with a mental illness. He used my mental illness to control me beyond imagination. I keep picking up emotion baggage that I didn’t know I had. I know what you mean by little secrets because I can’t mention anything to my new husband. Thank you guys. Having that one song that relates to your life somehow soothes the pain and pour out the words that are stuck in the heart.

This is how it felt after both cases of SA with the help of other students and my friends i was able to speak up. Now im dealing with PTSD, life is hard, but knowing others understand makes it more bearable.

About 2 years ago, I lost my grandpa, my best friend to a car accident and my guardian(uncle) to pneumonia all in the course of about 4 months. I went to a therapist, tried to talk about it, I just couldn't. Then about a year and a half ago, I slit my wrist. I was found by a security guard on the apt rooftops just in time to save, I was taken to the ER and kept there for a few days while in critical condition. I survived, and I hated myself for it. I was closely watched over 24/7 after that incident. Not soon after, I discovered your music, it helped me cope with whatever I was feeling at the time, all the anxiety, suicidal thoughts and depression. Your songs helped me put everything I felt into words. I started talking to my therapist, I started feeling good for the first time in months. Now, even though I have such thoughts even now, it's not as bad as it used to be. I have healthy relationships with my friends, a really nice girlfriend and I just graduated as valedictorian a few months ago. Your music was a huge inspiration for me and thousands of others like me who had experienced loss, depression and anxiety and your music gave a voice to all of us. I owe you so much and I sincerely thank you for it. I hope you gain a lot more success and you reach out to a lot of people who might need your music to help them cope with tough times.

I am actually speechless right now.. this song came out at the exact time as I'm battling my problems... and I absolutely love it

Not many bands tackle themes like you guys do. I've never felt so listened to. People always talk about pedophilia, but don't think of online grooming as a way of being traumatized- it took me 4 years to even think of the experience as actually being traumatic. After my first therapist did absolutely nothing with my story, I thought I was just overreacting. There are so many forms of abuse, big or small. There are victims from all walks of life. Society has to see and acknowledge this. Thank you for making this.

"Fight a war everyday that no ones sees" It's scary what we can hide behind a smile.

Oh my goodness, I'm in literal tears after listening to this masterpiece. It's hard to explain what I'm feeling right now, it's a mix between being absolutely breathless and feeling like someone finally understands me. I'm pretty sure I have moderate depression. I'm constantly surrounded in family drama, friend drama, and just drama that I don't want to be in but can't get out of (I'm not allowed to leave my house ever since this pandemic happened.) I'm not one to self-diagnose and this result is only from a few online tests I've done in secret on medical websites. A couple weeks ago, I decided to try and get help and, possibly, get an official diagnose. I was crying when my mom found me, I was actually listening to Gunshot Lullabies. So anyways, I tell my parents, they don't believe me for anything, even when I told them that I have attempted to cut my wrists in the past with scissors, even when a couple of months before my school councilor phoned home because she though I was suicidal, which is true, and I received counselling for around 4 months. Instead, I just got asked if I was doing it for attention, they said I have nothing to be depressed about, and they criticized me when I told them some of the stuff I was depressed about (a few incidents that happened years ago that, even after talking them out, I can't let go off.) Then the next day they asked me if I was feeling depressed, and in all honesty, why would I say yes when I got called an attention seeker the day before? So of course I said no and plastered on the biggest fake smile I could muster. Then for the next couple of days, my mom, in a way, made fun of my "non-existent" depression, saying I can't be depressed but want to hurt myself and constantly, constantly popping out our private talk in public situations. Even when I recently came out to my parents as pansexual, I'm told it's normal for girls to want to experiment and that I've never dated a girl (I have online dated girls a few times, never physically dated any.) so I wouldn't know, even when I've felt this way before I knew what pansexuality was and what the "normal standards" are . Little do my parents know that sometimes when I'm in my room, I'm crying because my demons are tearing me apart. When I hold a bottle of pills longer than I should be, I'm thinking about how much I would have to take to overdose. When my own mother says I'm worthless when she's in a fit on anxiety, I'll remember it for as long as I live. The only person I feel comfortable to talk to is my best friend, I'd say we're practically sisters. It's better than having no one, but it hurts that I'm not comfortable telling my parents anything personal about myself. I just realized how long this is, sorry for that. I just feel safe in the comment section telling my story, your music has changed my life. Whenever I get into a rut of self doubt and my demons come back to haunt me, I turn your music up real high and sing, sometimes it's just sitting on my bed crying everything out, and that quiets them down for a little bit. Thank you guys so, so much from the bottom of my heart for what you do, it's helped me and lots of others cope. Much love to you guys and God bless

"Seen so many things I can't unsee; I've learned to suffer silently". So powerful and so true of trauma survivors

That's another song to add to my playlist that represents my life!

This songs sums up my PTSD, every day I try to sleep but memories keep flooding into my brain that I cant get rid of

This song hit mehard as i know that im not alone with this struggle. This is relatable to me because of what my mother has done in my past.

This hits too close to home. I just found this man and his wonderful voice. This group is amazing

This is way too relatable. Reminds me of my own little secret. Listening to this physically hurts.

I’ve been fighting my PTSD for 3 years now, I’m happy that this song reminds me I’m not alone

Never clicked so fast in my life and never been so surprised when i saw u release a new song great as always

Wow, you really do know how we feel. I feel like my past is still haunting me. And that it won't let go even if I tried to fight it..🖤 Thankyou soo much Citizen Soldier❤ You really understand your fans, and we understand how you feel❤ Love youu so much ❤❤🤍

This is the song you wish you could share with your family but you're to afraid and ashamed.

Sweet buttery jesus I love this song. Long Live Citizen Soldier!!!

"The weight of this is breaking me to keep it under lock and key" This line really says a lot to me. Fortunately I met someone who I can unlock everything to. To everyone out there dealing with this, telling someone you trust really helps. There are people who care, silencing your pain only gives it fuel to have it build up over time.

Me sobbing in corner: Why Do All Your Songs Hit Home So Hard?!

Haven’t heard a bad song from this band yet. Really love this one, wish I could give it more than one like.

Yesterday I was goin to tell my mom that I've been thinking of suicide for the past weeks, but she had friends over so I had to hide it bcz i ddin't want to ruin anything on that moment. So now, I can relate to this song even more. But I'll make sure to tell her today.

Your songs always hit right in the heart. They always say what needs to be said, what the world needs to know. Thank you, citizen soldier, for everything you're doing. And also for amazing inspiration for the series I'm writing.

Fun fact: This guy's music never diasappoint 👌❤

My little secret would be suffering from sleep paralysis every single day for the last 2 years. I don't want to go to sleep, but after listening to you guys I feel like I can take on another round of torture. In case you read this, thank you so much, you're actually keeping me alive.

There's a chance you won't see this... I resonate so much with this song. I've been through hell and back, recently discovered something that makes sense, and overall been feeling like I need to hide my feelings and put on a mask. I love you guys. You make songs that actually matter and reach the hearts of millions. Thank you for releasing this song. It means so much to me. ❤❤❤

I'm so glad that KZfaq recommended yall to me 3 to 4 months ago! Yall have made excellent music! Yall are just amazing! Love yall!

I know this probably isn’t the song premise but this describes perfectly how it felt when I suffered from addiction and I was afraid that everyone I know would turn their backs on me. Thank you so much for this song

The lyrics "trying anything to forget what you did to me" hit me a different way

I think you guys are my spirit animal.. Words that get so close to what's in my head. So far every song I have listened to resonates with my whole life. The depression, the insomnia, the anxiety.. All of it.. Right here in music.

Few seconds in and I'm in love already, you guys are so creative ❤️❤️

Loving the new song!! The edit is lit! The music is addicting! The lyrics are connecting to me! A new song added, and in repeat! 😍

This song is so important, I’m so happy you guys wrote it, mad respect ✊

This band has helped me in my darkest days. There will never by words to express how grateful I am to these people thanks for being awesome guys

Even though I'm a teen living in a pop world, I always keep coming back here. No band makes songs this great!!! I genuinely love Citizen soldier. My first song ever of yours was 15 minutes of Fame and I absolutely loved it. Thank you for this song!! My list of favourites only keeps getting longer.♥️

Actually amazing how every time Citizen Soldier uploads a song, I have to mentally prepare for being hit with a truck of feelings.. and I was always taught to suppress everything. Just.. mesmerized by this band.

I've been spamming listen to all your music on different platforms, your songs help to know that no one is alone in what they are feeling. I've been using your music to help calm down after I have my panic attacks.

"I've learned to suffer silently I don't want them to think I'm weak So I bite my tongue until it bleeds" As someone who comes from a family where i always had to be the strong one for everyone els and never had a chance to show weakness myself i can relate.

I swear you guys never disappoint. Keep up the good work

Every song is a masterpiece. The best band is this world.

To anyone struggling in silence just know no matter how hard it is to talk about it you unfortunately have to tell someone. I was in your shoes once and it took awhile but I finally opened up and got help. That was about 7 years ago still struggling but in a better place now. We're all rooting for you.

This band helped me through a dark time in my life, and it‘s good to know their still producing incredible songs.

Every song you guys make I feel like you understand the pain alot of People struggle with it feels good to not feel alone in this world it's all because of you guys I feel like texting you guys personally and telling you everything about me I love you guys

Citizen Soldier once again writing about my life. I'm so glad I found these guys. Great work.

Every song just hits the feels so hard. They are so amazing and heartfelt and I feel each one says how one person or another feels in their lives, so many of them hit home for me. You are a truly amazing band and I hope you are around for a long time to come. Stay positive in this crazy world. God bless you all.

Holy fuck this was literally me last night. Yet I’ve been in therapy for years- it seems to make no difference when the memories attack -hold on by the skin of my teeth to my 2 years of sobriety. Thank you Citizen Soldier. You make us survivors feel less alone

It’s sad and scary to think how many people relate to this song

I enjoy this kind of rock based music. The type that feels like it’s telling a story instead of putting words left and right. Has a good rhythm also.

It hurts when you know you can't tell anyone. Yet another song that's just too damn beautiful.

Every song, I still battle the demons in my head. Singing along at top of my lungs is so cathartic. The relief feels so good and it’s always good to know that someone understands or has been in your shoes. You’re awesomesauce and I can only imagine how many people you’ve touched with your music and just how many have been pulled back from the edge knowing that things can get better

I'm pretty sure I was a narcissist as a kid. I don't even know why I was the way I was or why I hurt others. I never treated anyone with respect or show that I even cared that much about them. My therapist once sat down with me in 2nd grade and said "Hey, if you don't change your behaviour, all your friends are going to leave you and you'll be alone the rest of your life. You don't want that, do you?" And that finally got through to me. I tried to apologize to my friend for allcthe shit that I had done, but I didn't even know where to start. Nothing went right with that half-assed apology and at the end of 4th grade I just gave up. I told myself that everyone already hated me for what I had done and how I acted so what's the point in trying to mend something unmendable. I didn't talk to my classmates for 2 whole years after that. I never spoke in class unless I absolutely had to, I sat alone during recess behind the school, I never paid attention in class and only stared at my desk. Pretty patheric, not gonna lie. But my mentality back then was that I can't hurt others if I don't get close to anyone. That I was bad and didn't deserve the kindness of others when I never showed any myaelf. I was pretty depressed about it too and tried cutting myself, but when the pain didn't help me feel better anymore I quit. I ended up befriending a girl I had bullied back in 1st and 2nd geade by some miracle and she introduced me to one of the new girls in her class. After 6th grade me and the new girl (let's call her Sam) got pretty close and I'd dare to call her my soul sister. She helped me through so much by just being there. I never wanted to hurt her or anyone ever again. Never again would I lose someone because of being a piece of shit. I regreted evrything I had done from birth till 5th grade and never ever wanted to lose someone who I loved and cared about. I got help in 7th grade again. It was the same therapist that I had in 2nd grade. I had her for nearly the rest of middle school and I got better. I was more social, I had friends and I was doing so much better mentaly. Hell, I even got a long distance boyfriend in 8th grade. I was sure that I'd never be loved by anyone because of my past. Because of being a piece of shit child. Sam was the first one I told about our relationship, I didn't tell my parents until it we were already past the 2 year mark. So 9th grade came to an end and I was feeling good about myself. I had noticed Sam seeming a little off, but I thought that it was either just hormones and teen angst or smth at home that she hadn't told me about yet. How stupid of me. 3 months before school started again, she sent me a measage telling me that she didn't want to be friends anymore. I didn't even question why and said that it was fine and to pretend like I never existed. I told my boyfriend who then went and asked her why she didn't want to be friends with me even tho I told him not to do anything. Turns out that I was too affectionate to her liking. Fuck me, am I right? I didn't know if I should laugh or cry at that point. I lost my best friend, my soul sister, because I was too affectionate. How do I even fuck up this bad? How? For 3 months I tried to brush it off. It was nothing, I had lost people before. How is now any different? After the first WEEK of high school and me realizing that we would have to see each other once a week at the same damn art school, I had a breakdown. I cried at home, in school, at night, didn't sleep and played tug of war with myself over if I should push everyone away in case they decided to leave me too so it wouldn't hurt as much if they left, or if I should embrace them and beg them not to leave me alone. If my best friend of 5 years could leave me like that over text, what's stopping everyone else from doing the same? It took nearly 6 months for my other friend and my boyfriend to convince me that they weren't going to leave because of Sam. I was scared that I'd fall back into depression and tired to get help from my high school but the school therapist told me to come back when I had "real problems". I had fits of paranoia and fear all throughout the year and ended up failing the first year of high school. Not a good time, to say the least. I dropped out and switched to a Vocational Colledge to study media. I broke up with my boyfriend of almost 3 years at the start of the new semester and I'm much happier now. He wasn't a bad guy, the exact opposite actually, I just felt more like a therapist than a girlfriend and I was mentaly exhausted from everything. And I don't mean only him, I was exhausted from being everyone's therapist while trying to keep my own shit together at the same time. I need to get some time for myself to just think. What is the point of my sob story essay? This song reminded me of how scared I was when Sam cut ties with me. I felt like I was 8 again and had completely failed to turn my life around. Like the past was going to repeat itself no matter what I did and I was going to lose everything and all my hard mental work would be nullified and I'd be back in quare 1. Sorry for the long comment.

I was talking to my mother about parenting with violence, even to this day, she thinks it is the best way of parenting and they do not believe in the consequences that it can leave. She will never know my little secret, that her way of raising me left me with consequences that I had to solve alone.

honestly you probably wont read this but this song is now my anthem cause no one listens to me about my pain my mental trauma nothing but u helped me atleast tell people what i think even if they dont believe me

The 6 people who disliked this clearly failed an IQ test and don't have ears.

It’s like Seether meets Bad Wolves.

Damn.. it's sad to see how so many relate. I'm glad I'm not alone. When we cry for help we're called liers but when we die were called selfish

I know what it feels like to hardly fall asleep. Every time I wake up I feel like crap, because I feel like nothing will change in my life & there have been many times I still can't forget my past pain experiences. And not matter where I go in life, I still feel like I'm always alone this dark world we call reality.