I know I originally promised another video on my magic mushroom ceremony experience... I had a wonderful integration session on Thursday that I wanted more time to digest. Hang tight!

I was physically abused as child...beaten with anything that would fit in my dad's hands and was close by....I grew up and became a firefighter/paramedic. After so many years, so many incidents, including when a plane crashed in my neighborhood and I was permanently injured...I retired. I was passed around from therapist to therapist like a peace pipe "I don't really specialize in this type of trauma".......they just pumped me full of meds and let me loose. I've been interested in microdosing for a long time but never had a chance. I hope it becomes available soon.

I liked the way you described dis-identifying from psychological labels. It seems like there’s a balance between accepting that “you are where you’re at” and the “knowing” that it’s not where you must stay. Thanks for sharing...

Friend, I know 1st hand how crippling (and largely disregarded by med community) CPTSD is. I would offer the most encouraging hope by looking into MDMA treatments. There is an organization called MAPS who for the last 30 + years have done extensive research and curative treatments for army vets, trauma survivors, all sorts of ppl who have greatly suffered. Then engaged with pharma grade MDMA and within 3 (6+ hr highly integrated) sessions, have seen trauma/CPTSD, suicidals cured. There also so many psychedelic psycotherapists now, esp on the West Coast of Cda, and all parts of US. So many believe this is the healthcare of the future.

Ahh yes! Thank you. I've avoided seeing a psychiatrist, exactly out of fear of being diagnosed with borderline, because it seems like such a debilitating identity marker. I already have so many self-diminishing thought patterns, I don't need a box from the system that would just conclusively classify me as "broken". The C-PTSD frameworks brings so much more hope. And so do you! Thank you for all these videos!

I have C-PTSD thank you so much for this

This has been one of my favorite videos of yours, though I’ve been head over heels into microdosing recently, the whole point of it all was to help recover from CPTSD. From that book I learned how much perfectionism made me slowly resent my ex girlfriend and that I had a polarized freeze response. Which made me withdraw to avoid conflict.. I feel like CPTSD ruins your ability to enjoy a fulfilling romantic relationship. When I read a book on relationships and they went over 10 characteristics of a conscious relationship, I HAD ZERO. Let me tell you I have never felt a bigger urge for education in my entire life haha..at least the silver lining is that now our capacity to love overs will be beyond that of someone who was raised properly. Their lowest lows will never exceed ours, therefore our capacity to love should exceed theirs, wouldn’t you agree?

🍃 Wow,... wonderful video ! Soon to be 57 and battling childhood abandonment most of my life, me thinks I may have C-ptsd ~ thank-you for sharing your story & knowledge,... I’d lOve to see more videos on this as well as your MM content 🥰...

❤️🌿💚🌻 Complex Ptsd from surviving to thriving Pete walker. Thank you Miss Julianna, will definitely check out this pearl of wisdom for my healing journey. While I was still watching your video, I down loaded audio book from vancouver public library for free via their lending app called Overdrive. I do better with audio. But paperback is available from amazon.ca for $20. Bless you dear sweet Angel.💚🥰😇

I can't put words to how grateful I am to have found your channel. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.

All of your videos apply to me at this very exact time of my life. I have been awed by how each time I watch one of your videos, it's so profound to me. I don't watch anyones videos/blogs. Maybe once a week I look for you on my list, and what comes up is related to what I'm currently experiencing. I've been doing trauma therapy for 6 months now. I'll be microdosing soon, the past 4 weeks have been experimenting with them all and it's obvious and undeniable MM is what works for me, perhaps the effexor won't rise the dose too much now, since i went from 225 to 150 4 weeks ago. Around the same time I did a gram of mushrooms, because 250mg did nothing. I noticed (afterwards) I was more proactive positive and putting things into concrete action for myself, I placed my order from Vancouver Thursday so perhaps it arrives here in Ontario tomorrow. I'll encapsulate them myself and find the right dosage. Thank you Julianna. Your videos help me alot. I couldn't find a single thing on the internet to help me , I am where you were a few years back, on effexor, about to start my microdose journey. I've reached out to you but it's obvious your doing good staying in the present and not relying on your phone . Your my only and greatest source of hope. What are the chances of me finding someone's KZfaq channel that so far, explains me . Identical. Moving forward I'll be using your material as self reflection. That's why I'm only watching one a week. I never ever click on anyone's KZfaq content, ever, and being pretty doesn't leverage me to do so. I really believe asking God for help led me to you! I listen to you and I'm like wtf Is this my Asian twin? I feel like your talking about my life. I seriously wish I knew you in person because it's odd but everything you talk about your explaining me 100%, I'm serious about microdosing and in my area there's no psych retreats or guides. Perhaps one day I can come to one of those. I'm just getting started on my real journey so I'm glad I came across you at the right time. thank you I'm truly grateful just because there's someone out there just like me who has content posted from when your journey started...that's so valuable to me, no amount of money is more valuable than what you have put up on here for me, perhaps one day we talk on Facebook. Thanks for giving me so much hope, all of your experiences, diagnosis, cptsd, being on effexor, how I'm unable to have relationships with people, the way you used to feel and be is exactly me. There's so much value in your content for me. I appreciate you

You are doing such great work with this channel, I appreciate you so much for creating this kind of content :)

Thank you for sharing. I’m going through huge life changes right now, self reflection, micro dosing, meditation, working on my self, and I want you to know that your channel has helped me tremendously, especially in the realm of educating, destigmatizing, and helping me feel like I’m not alone on my path. Much love to you 🙏🏼☺️

Thank you so much for this video. I am on a long journey already, because it all started like 20 years ago on a physiological level. I went to all kind of doctors. Nobody could help me. But now with the help of mushrooms i found out, that it is purely based in my mind. And after that video I am a 100 percent shure it's C-PTSD. Now I was wondering how psillocybin can help in that context. Thank you again for sharing your path and your words of help.

Great video! This is all the work I've been doing in therapy! Just ordered Pete Walkers book!

So glad to see these traumas can be worked out... You are living proof, there is hope for me. Thank you so much Julianne.

This touched me deeply. I believe you hit the nail on the head. Keep doing what you're doing. You ARE helping us all.

You are so articulate whether you use a script or just allow your truth to be eloquently and beautifully expressed "organically". I love your sincerity and appreciate your authenticity. Thank you for all your deeply informative and enriching videos.

I feel truely the same, thanks for this video! you´re helping all of us

Thank you for this video! I've only recently become aware of this and identify with it so much. Your video was not only informative but also gives me hope I can move through this.

Thank you so much for this video... I have cpstd and don't have this kind of emotional flashbacks but some intrusive thoughts and feelings, less powerful but they re here most of the time in my consciousness. We are so late in France about cptsd, most psychiatrists only speak of depression and anxiety. Most of the time I write comments like this one with a nickname. Now I m very inspired by your Chanel and your "heart to heart" vibes, so I don't want to hide anymore. Thanx

Thank you for talking about these issues and bringing them into light for those with shared experience or even no experience. I feel like it’s rare to talk about in this age cadre and so often this wounding doesn’t get addressed until much later in life which is super detrimental. Instead, people get labeled as addicts, disordered, depressives, etc. instead of being treated as human beings.

Resonate with this so much, thank you 🙏🏽

Thank you, Julianne, have a great day!!!!

Thank you for putting this out there. I really appreciate it and I needed to hear this right now. peace

If you want my honest opinion, I really liked this video format. I’ve only been watching your videos for about a month now, but the way you answer questions I didn’t even think to ask is really great and I respect your hard work. Im glad to have “met” you 👍

I also have CPTSD, your explanation was very articulate & well done. Thank you for being so real. Blessings! 💫

Another great video! Thank you!

tremendous gratitude to have found your channel. thank you.

This is a great video and I want to thank you tremendously for what you're doing

Love Your videos!!! Each of them brings new answers and feeling that there is a light in a túnel ❤️❤️❤️

It’s beautiful to see how you have been so strong through your journey. Iv only come across you now which I feel blessed Because I love the wisdom you able to give me through your experience with complex trauma. Dam right it’s not easy to heal but to do it alone is a whole other level of unbreakable. I honestly don’t know if you will see this but I appreciate your work just you being you as well as all of the mushroom videos. I always love to hear other perspectives on there journey. Much love from a far. WHAT IS REAL WILL PROSPER!!

What a great video. I was so touched by it that I cried through most of it. I actually bought the book a while ago (through Amazon recommendations ups - and thought it was a gem) it’s so nice to hear you speak about it and celebrate as much as I do. I am in therapy for a while now, still experiencing cptsd symptoms, also I am seeing how immensely my perceptions shifted to a way more pleasant one in just about half a year. Love it. Also seeing you and hearing you speak about cptsd being absolutely curable is so exciting. I am considering using psilocybin and/or lsd to maybe help along the way, gonna watch more of your videos ❤️

thank you for this. i have C-PTSD and ADHD as well and i recently thought maybe i have BPD but no..it’s just emotional flashbacks that i don’t even realize are flashbacks like you said. it’s nice to hear someone who actually has the disorder and not just studied it talk about their experience especially with misdiagnosing which happened to me too. thank you again. this was grear

Relating to you so much! Thank you for sharing 💞

Definitely the best book, very emotional read. Also check the writing + short meditation exercise, 'the daily practice', that is explained by youtube channel 'The crappy childhood fairy'. Great addition to this book. Also the book 'The body keeps the score' by Bessel van der Kolk. And here on youtube you can also find 'trauma sensitive yoga', recommended by both books, because emotional trauma creeps into the body, causing anxiety, and can be healed through the body as well. It's different from normal yoga practices.

I really liked this style of video, just straight shooting , human to human ❤️🙏🙌🏼

Julianne, please come back on KZfaq. I love your channel. I know you say you're not a coach but your voice, words, and everything is very soothing.

Hi Julianne .....yesterday I sent you a mail with a novel treatment for c-ptsd ....sincrhonicity? ...You are brave , very intelligent, but most importantly, with an incredible drive for self improvement and emotional healing. Thanks again for sharing and opening doors for those that are ready to go forward.....

I think you need no script, you were great! Haha and very informative too. It's interesting to know more about c-ptsd. I don't think I experience flashbacks exactly, but I do identify with many of the other traits. And meditation has helped a lot as a practice of being aware and letting go of such emotions. Anyways, thanks for the book recommendation, will definitely check it out!

It's often the videos people don't click on that have the most heart. People want to hear about microdosing and heroic doses for mental. But most of the time the answer comes from your trauma. Like healing yourself without any medicine

Your awesome, keep it up!

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you.

You’re wonderful. I’m checking back in to your channel and psychedelics cause I’m micro tripping and getting it back into that. But have you done anything recently would be good to see.😊

Wow, sometimes KZfaq gets it right I guess!!! Watching all your videos and I hope you come back!!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!! ❤️

I saw someone online claiming not to have met any autistic people without at least some signs of C-PTSD. It was implied that the person saying this had met a lot of autistic people who did have such signs, and so this was worthy of comment. I thought that was interesting because I have a few traits that look like they might come from trauma, but I'm sure I never went through anything life-threatening that left any lasting emotional effects. (I've been in a car crash once, and another time I got a bad cut on my hand, but I never had flashbacks or avoidant behavior from those events.) But if the traits I notice are explained by a continuous mismatch between my autistic self and the world, rather than a specific frightening event, then the whole situation makes a lot more sense.

Something that has helped me is to change how you see something. For example the emotion you get when riding a scary roller coaster view that emotion/energy as no different to excitement and not fear/anxiety (logically justify it to yourself whenever the feeling comes, in that small window of opportunity is where you apply this, it literally scientifically is no different). I feel like our anxiety or ptsd might not necessarily come from the flashback, but the energy/emotion from the flashback, and you just associated the emotion to that mental flashback, (separate them) so your actually afraid of the emotion/energy in and of itself, when you change how you see that emotion to just being a physical sensation no different to excitement before hopping onto a scary ride or waiting to see an a good movie, you wont experience it how you do now because how you see something is how you experience it, see that your afraid of the energy/emotion not the flashback/anxiety, see this and you will change how you see things, then change how you see that energy to just a sensation similar to excitement, you dont freak out with extreme anxiety and when you experience the emotion of excitement waiting to see an awesome movie for example, some people see the emotion of excitement as anxiety and fear and thus experience it has such like with roller coasters, why are some people afraid and others not, they are not afraid of dying they are afraid of the emotion that pops up when they think that, when you apply this, this can disassociate the energy from the mental flashback, the only reason why the flashback is on mind is because your afraid of it, thats why it pops on your mind, your like a meerkat always on the lookout to see if it will pop up/the lion will come, and this mental equation stays dormant always in the back of your mind like a minimized tab, you have to completely press x on it and close the tab. To take the mental flashback off mind, realize thats not what your afraid of, its the energy/emotion your afraid of and just view it as a physical sensation no different to the excitement you get when waiting for the waiter to bring out the yummy food.

I needed this video. I also have a parent that has narcissistic tendencies and it has really had a negative impact on me especially when it comes to romantic relationships. Recently I had a love interest who I had been talking to on and off for 3 months (red flag number one lol) come back into my life and swiftly leave after me having a trauma response. I like him and started to be limerent towards him. We hung out and I was analyzing the whole interaction during and afterward. I drunk text and called him at a party I went to after we hung out. The following day I hadn't heard from him the whole day so I gave him something to respond to (seeking validation and creating chaos) I sent him a long paragraph about how I felt about our interaction and told him we were better off as friends and should cancel the date we had that night. He then responded and respected my wishes. I then proceeded to change my mind and he took a step back and decided he did not want to go on the date with me anymore. I tried to compensate but he already caught on to my toxic ass LOL He said the back and forth was making him uncomfortable and that he had been in a similar situation before and that it was not ideal. My initial reaction to that was my inner child throwing a fit. I felt ashamed, sad, angry..etc I automatically thought something was wrong with me and questioned why I had to go ruin a developing relationship. I am so proud of myself because I steered clear of the inner critic and turned to love and acceptance. I reminded myself that I am just a child navigating this world with what I was given (I'm 19 btw) I'm trying my best to switch out my toolbox for things that will serve me where I desire to go. I wrote myself a love letter. Reached out to friends. Spoke to my mom for 2 hours. Cried it out. Most of all I reminded myself that there is something to learn from every experience and that there is more work to be done. I don't blame the guy for leaving I would have done the same. He is just protecting his heart which is something I think we all can resonate with one way or another. If you read through my lil story time I want to remind you that you are loved and you were always enough from the start

Wow...I can relate so much to those first few seconds. My husband knows those looks well. I am so looking forward to the healing I experience with🍄. Thank you for giving me hope for my journey.

Thanks for the lovely video! Very insightful. Sharing is a strong suit, we appreciate it. :) vulnerability, go! Have you seen anything from Laura Malina Seiler, Jay Shatty, Dr. Joe Dispenza, Sophia Bush, Lewis Howes or Rich Roll? These are my recent or long-time inspirations on topics of healing/personal development. Lots of love and light for you. Always excited for your high-quality content. So honest and relatable. I enjoy your channel so much. My dream is to visit Canada one day, it seems so beautiful - all that nature ✨

Watching this video is giving me hope for healing

Awesome Julianne! As usual very well explained where you at and how C-PTSD affect YOU. l had C-PTSD for years only now l"m getting to understand this. It's very complexe to understand but once you can put word to it help so much. Many psychologist and psychiatrist don't have a clue what trauma is. I don't have a degree in any of these profession above, but my personal research has shown me the people you seek help from dont know much about mental health at all. Its despicable to see so many in these profession know nothing , and just want to medicate you. Julianne, have you read the book called the body keep the score by Bessel van der Kolk? Cheer Marcus

this is wonderful, thank you

Mediation can also be triggering for some with C-PTSD

Yes, they called me broken too... and I still don't believe it.... use to call it victim of circumstances, watching abuse for twenty years as a child... I like your non logged diagnosis of C-PTSD, thank you Julianne... feels I learn at every video I've watched so far...

Top ten best videos on youtube. And I’m only in 6:22. (It hit me already within the 1min mark actually, but I was looking for my jaw). Every single word after that was..like..a time warp-distortion-thing. It felt like “home”. I want to cuss now, because I hate typing words that can’t actually express how it hit me and how your words were a complete sync and same wavelength. I don’t believe in guides and also I don’t not believe in guides, but If I had to say who my guide was it would be you. (I’m in 8:07). Almost scared of watching the rest. Excited, My heart.. my ears are glowing, my head is in a weird place of not knowing what’s going on. You say, What is learned can be unlearned. I allllllmost gave that one up. My latest avenue had been microdosing, ..very interesting and now I wanna go even deeper, to the root, with psychedelics + a therapist (hard to find including one I dare to trust) back to the mainbranch of my point, Now as you said ‘what is learned can be unlearned my arms (which were positioned over and around my head still in awe) dropped aside my body. It just felt so good. Who are you? You made this video for me. How did you know? You’ve carefully chosen the words in a way that I could hear them all. As in each and every. So weird. I simply can’t wrap my head around how time passed as I heard you say each word. 11:21 in. You are in my brain.. my face is hot, my feet and legs have flushes. I’m definitely experiencing something here. The arguments are racing as I hear you say something like paying attention to these moments when your heart is kicking in, because I was like, man I’m sooo conscious of every little detail my body is throwing at me and I’m being enveloped by it. I notice them all, and I’m just carying on with what my body is draggin’ me into. Following all the motions. When I stay put and look at it and recognising it, my body gets way more stressed, because now i’m not doing something about my problem that needs my attention. I can’t simply drop it even though I know (=KNOW) that rationally I understand it’s totally unnecessary to go through this. It’s not even me. But it doesn’t change the racing and sweat, shivers, pee, anxious, I’m about to die, itch, swallowing, I’m torn into two me’s. Grown up-get-a-going and child-hurt-scared-like-hell. There’s no stopping. There’s no reason that can stop it. There’s no combination of words that can do the trick. No getting the mind off of things through television, relaxation, sex, sports. There’s nothing. There’s just me following my fear untill it’s over and behind me. Exhausting indeed. 12:31 in. No..Julianne I don’t feel safe. I know I can say it to myself, but I don’t feel it anywhere. I understand it. But that’s about it. There’s no calming the storm so far. I haven’t found it yet. (46 yrs). There’s not a cell in my body that feels safe at those moments. And I feel like there’s nothing I can do. Even though I just KNOW there MUST be something. I got it, so it can be removed as well. 12:40 in. It can be healed, it can be healed, you say. Thank you my sweet Julianne. You’re incredible, but that’s not the word my being is really feeling. It’s more and better. 13:22 in. I bought the book just now. Love you, my woman from the other side of the planet. I salute you for your work in this video. And other videos, sure!. But this one, you made it for me. And that’s just.. yeah..

I also read both books. You may want to check out "Running on Empty: Overcome Your Childhood Emotional Neglect" by Jonice Webb Best wishes for your healing journey

Thanks for this.

Makes a lot of sense to me ! I relate 100%

Very good video! I suspect I have C-PTSD, but I also have PMDD. I really can't tell which one triggers the other or if it's only PMDD, that constantly brings back childhood's trauma.

Thank you Julianne🙏🙏🙏 I recommend anyone who has gone through the witnessing ceremony with Intronaut, to watch Julianne's videos. I find them so helpful during integration, post, and post-post-integration Peace and Blessings🙏🙏🙏

Girl, WHY ARE WE TWINS?! I was incorrectly diagnosed with BPD. I was terrified of that. Years later i was UNdiagnosed and re-diagnosed with CPTSD. I have emotional flashbacks like crazy - some have lasted weeks. I am about to start experimenting with microdosing/psychedelics for healing. Love u and ur content. Thank u 🙏

Great videos.

Hi Julianne! I love your videos, thank you so much for your videos. I was wondering whether you could make a video about how magic mushrooms can help addiction? I have been trying to quit cigarettes for a while now. I’m 21 and been smoking since I was 12 and finding it really hard to escape this addiction. I would be really intrigued to hear your perspective 😌

I'm watching your video and first of all... thank you, it's helping me a lot. I'm in treatment of complex trauma and recently started microdosing with mushrooms. Do you think... or do you feel that is it posible to get worse before to ger better? I notice mushrooms are showing me my shadows. That can be important to be awarness of them but, on the other hand, cause me disturbing feelings. Again... thanks

Omg that book is incredible!!!

I like this explanation.

I wonder if my mom could’ve had a second chance at health :( with a better therapist, with a spiritual experience, with anything that I’m discovering in my life that seems to help me. She was diagnosed with manic borderline disorder- but it doesn’t seem right to me, especially in hindsight. I’ll try to live my life better each day so that she can experience it through her daughter. ✨ Generational trauma is a difficult thing. But I want to heal.

Omg..it's so sad that we have had the same experience with the health care system. I was diagnosed with BPD as well when it was CPTSD. I found your channel around the same time i was diagnosed and it opened up my eyes to how similar our experiences were. I began micro-dosing and following along with your content while doing my own research. Thank you for putting this out here because it has truly helped me on my healing journey! Also a fellow Vancouverite- gives me an even deeper sense of connection with you lol!

Thank you 🙏🏻

Just found your channel while researching psychedelics assisted therapy and now I am thrilled to find your content on cptsd. I am curious to find out how you have incorporated psychedelics in your journey to heal from cptsd, did you go into your psychedelics journey aiming to work through your trauma and rewire your brain and if so, do you kidn sharing pointers of what to do and what not to do. I haven't started yet on psychedelics but I feel like it is time I tried them, atleast start off with micro doses

I love this video.

Excellent clear and correct explanation. Pete Walkers’ book is highly recommended. For some it can be heavy to work through, in which case, taking it in small bite size pieces is helpful. Thank you for being so real and genuine, that in and of itself so helpful and supportive!

Another amazing book you should absolutely read is "The Drama of the Gifted Child" by swiss psychologist Alice Miller. It's the book that led Pete Walker himself to his "awakening" and discovery of his own trauma. One question I have is: how does psilocybin affect you within the framework of Cptsd? You already mentioned in another video that it led to a reduction of emotional flashbacks. Does it also affect the therapeutic process in psychoterapy? And if so, in which ways? Greetings from Italy and thank you for being so open about your experiences 😋

My son was diagnosed with c-ptsd which was triggered by his wife having an affair and divorce. This also brought on anxiety. Will send on this book recommendation. He does have a therapist.

@julianneKeu have you ever tried out Alexander Lowen's bioenergetic excersises?

How do I know the difference between an emotional flashback and a panic attack? What you described is what I just usually assume is a panic attack, but I have PTSD and severe anxiety/depression, so now I'm not sure. The panic is triggered by trauma. Is it the same?

god a bad psychiatrist or therapist can be so unbelievably destructive

Personally I think speaking without a script comes off better ... I have a hard time connecting or listening to someone when they are speaking from a script ... the words come out flat and feels dead (robotic) even if it’s informative ... when I used to teach spiritual discourse in front of people, I would just trust the Unknown and have nothing prepared and start speaking ... I found there is more of an aliveness in the words and I am able to connect with the audience more instead of speaking from something that is prepared and stale as it doesn’t come from the moment ... thanks for sharing as always!

Do you think there’s a relation to your episode and your recent heroic mushroom experience? I don’t have CPTSD but whenever I do more than the usual micro dose I spend the next few weeks constantly thinking about the experience, what it meant and try to make sense of it, so could the episode have been caused due to it your experience being raw?

Hi Julianne, I've watched a few videos but didn't see you mentioning how did you take your mushrooms. Did you use a lemon tek, a tea, or just plain mushrooms? Sorry if you already mentioned this, but it will take ages to go through all comments or all your videos.

Pete walkers book is a bible for people who suffers from C-PTSD. If anyone suffers, I recommend reading this right away! It falls all into place!

How does it effect dooamine? Very hard to find this information.

I spent my childhood being screamed at by a narcissist whom I felt I had to please. I believed that if I could be perfect or do what she wanted then she wouldn't go off on me. Of course, that wasn't true. As an adult I kept getting involved with people who yelled, belittled me, and made me feel horrible about myself. I would constantly try to keep them happy. When yelled at I turn into 5 yr old. I will run and hide. I will run into a bathroom, a closet, a small space in the corner. Anywhere where I can protect myself. I will break down in a frenzy like my life is about to end. It's so weird. I remember as a kid hiding in the cabinets to escape. I would also lock myself in the bathroom and push my feet on the door to keep her out. I screamed one time from the other side of bathroom door how she was scaring me. I was probably 5 at the time. I don't know if I have this cptsd but I know my childhood did some damage. I can't even be involved in confrontation. I end up begging the person to tell me what I can do to help them. Even when they are in the wrong. It's so crazy.

I Witness to 2 homicides.. It been 10 years and still not right In the head I have so much trauma I wonder if It will be too overwhelming. Found my mother dead she was a horrible alcoholic died young. 2nd my lover was hit by a car 2 steps away from me.

SO PERHAPS MY NON Diagnosed issues may have started whe i first witnessed the wallendas in detroit when they took fatal tumbles then who knows how many more things thru the next many years!

I think it's quite normal you're not a robot you're not non emotional, show your thinking about your past is quite normal to give you a downer as is said nothing wrong with being a sensitive thing

Hi, I tryed mushroom but not the micro doesing. I ate a couple of them and set an intention to get closer to myself and open my heart. What happened was not exactly something spiritual that I would expect but I had old traumatic and disturbing memories and emotions coming up. They felt so real and overwhelming. Do you think it's because those emotions and memories were clearing from my system? I tried to stay consious and meditating during the experience as much I could. When it was too much I just went sleeping. Do you think a mushroom trip is also helping just like microdosing? Thank you

Where did you go?

I see you don't post anymore ..hope you're doing well.

The CPSTD, is my nemesis, on meds that I really don’t think work, abused physically, emotionally, life is not working for me at this point. I need help and my doctor is not helping me. Please Help

every single disorder is down to entity attachments trust me

Ironic how CPTSD isn’t in the DSM and yet the Pete walker book literally explains the root cause of so many mental health issues…smh

this is the second video in a row where you have referenced previous video, but offered no link to it. that's frustrating. i really like your videos, but it's not fun to have to hunt through your library in order to get the whole story.

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Sadly, you don’t give enough details about yourself and you talk a lot about the conditions and frameworks without telling about your own personal situation… Understandably you may not be comfortable sharing your personal life …. I have watched a lot of your videos hoping I would get a glimpse of some things that would help me understand things better but I now feel I have wasted a lot of time already …. I wish you all the best in your journey…

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