Thanks for sharing your experience. I hope it gets better for you. I’d like to know your updates.

@@midnightsky3782 thank you! To be fair I haven't been dealing with this at all lately. Maybe I'll make a video on it at some point!

@@ChaoticNeutralElf Good to know that you’re feeling better. I’m completely new to this, so it was quite educational for me!

I have mostly gotten over that phase in my life but your video seemed pretty realistic to me. The only thing is that the colours are grey, which they never were to me. Things were strangely bright and colourful but it still overall bland. It's like seeing a beautiful cake that in the end, only tasted like sand, but I had to keep chewing, because it was reality and I couldn't just up and stop existing. I think you are pretty right about it feeling different for everyone, but for me personally, it was very relatable.

Thank you so much it is incredibly hard to explain this to someone

Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.

Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏

YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

Yess like weird thoughts and things feel strange

Sarah Brewer like feeling that life is totally pointless

Sarah Brewer yes exactly thinking way to hard it hurts

Sarah Brewer weird thoughts about universe :-(((((

Totally

I had a weird mind trick occur one night. It was strange, I was a little freaked out, but I thought, just go with it. Its like your mind stops thinking, and your more in your body. So I just went with it and actually enjoyed whatever it was that was going on. I felt like I didn't need to be satisfied with life anymore, I didn't need to achieve anything, I didn't need to impress anyone, I just enjoyed whatever I was doing at that moment. So I felt actually un-comfortable in the clothes I was wearing and threw a robe on. I then thought: 'I don't want to wear jeans, t-shirts, jackets, ever again'. I searched that very night for clothing in the world that was loos-fitting, I kept thinking about the robes the traditional Japanese used to wear, they looked so comfortable. I couldnt find much, almost everything modern is jeans, t-shirt, suit, the usual. I then thought about the Jedi lol. I mean, imagine a modern look to them, I imagine it would be very comfortable. Anyway, whatever happened that night I can only explain in a short sentence: Loss of self, completely in every way. Im guessing it was achieved by my mind somehow ceasing to conjure up thoughts willy nilly. As if, If I wanted to think, I could, if I didn't, it was the easiest thing in the world. Which is strange because I am normally a worried person, with anxiety and racing thoughts. I would love to be back in that state of mind. edit: I only enjoyed what was going on when I accepted it, if I were to be weirded out by this strange mind trick that was going on, I would probably freak out.

+aicMadSeason A ghost walking around in a human world, that's one of the greatest ways to explain it that I've heard so far.

Yes holy fuck i hate it

aicMadSeason I agree visual can't really describe the feeling

It likening you are living but your dead like you can see but you are blind like you are awake but your asleep like you can feel but you are numb like you can smell bud you are nose blind like you exist but don't exist that's how I can describe it and sometimes especially at the point I'm at right know in my recovery I just feel like I'm trap in a glass box and I can't do anything about it

Milad Latif i’m like that too but i can’t concentrate on anything because it’s all too much and then i end up doing really weird and impulsive loud things to cover it up

Mine is were my head feels blank and my body isn’t mine and the world doesn’t feel real it feels very fake there’s no thoughts

And I can see a flys face and I’m numb

I don't know if I have depersonalization disorder, but, yes it feels like everything is wayyy too real, and for some reason I keep looking at my hands and they feel small and I keep thinking that for some reason life isn't real and im in a simulation, or it feels like im wasting my life away.

the floating eyes, yes, and I always get an urge to cut my body parts off hands or feet because they dont feel like mine. I start at them and its surreal.

this is a gift, the individual just needs to learn how to master it

perfect description

Yeah that’s true I’ve had it since I was little it’s just not fair

As a lucid dreamer I can confirm

@@hermesthegod33 its not a gift, its an anxiety related mental disturbance, stop romanticizing mental illness for christ's sake

It feels like you are disconnected from the body and only witnessing everything as a soul

Yes exactly

This.

how do you stop it i’m genuinely scared

You put what I cannot descibe into words

Me too

do you still feel like this?

ur never alone. i’ve dealt with this since i was like 5 years old and always struggled to figure out what it was. it wasn’t until i was 14 that it got rly bad. i’m 17 now and it still hasn’t gotten any better nor have i gotten a professional diagnosis but regardless, i know how it felt to feel out of place and crazy and alone.

I thought I was alone, reality though still feels fake. I feel like I'm trapped im my damn. Are you guys even real? :(

@@carjay7 same here..

How time you strugeled from this

@@danchoiordanov6740 do you have it?

@Niclas no I fully recovered already

@Niclas just meditate and stop doing drugs

@Niclas took me like 9 months

i have dp since 2 months how are u now

Flamur Emerllahu OH MY GOSH! seeing all of you guys in the comments having it for so long is so scary. I had it only for a week and thought my brain was fucked up. Drinking triggered it for me. How do you cope for having it for so long? Have you been to or considered going to a doctor?

That’s exactly how i explain it. It feels like your high at a buzz level 24/7. Its annoying af. I can live with it, but it would feel great to be able to feel normal again.

Alygalv it’s very temporary. It’s your brain’s reaction to severe anxiety. Most people have had it at least once in their life. It’s not a disorder, it’s your brain taking a step back to prevent trauma. You have to look at it that way if you want to recover. Looking up stories about people’s experiences is a bad idea. You’ll start believing misconceptions about DPDR. Accept it and accept that it will take a little while to recover. I say this to everyone who has had it for more than a year. You may think that you are anxiety free, but DP is a numbing tactic that your brain uses, so you are probably full of anxiety. You have to realize what those anxieties are and talk to someone about them or write them out.

It is not life long. You should accept the DPDR, but never accept the idea that it is lifelong. It is very temporary.

the crazy thing is with me i never get it at home

Yeh it’s terrifying

yep.

God I thought i'm the only one with that

That was to terrible for me

I have the opposite where my body doesn't feel real. Everything else is but me. Took my a while to realize my coworker was disassociating because she couldn't tell the walls were real and kept having to touch and knock on them to double check

I look at myself in the mirror and wonder if anything that I’m looking at is real

@@tobikms1709 I look in the mirror and don't know if this is my face or someone else's. I think I am trapped there. That I died already and now got trapped in this body. Do I even exist. I even doubt that this comment is real. What if nothing is real.

@@shirinsendur4066 when i was 17, i have a thought like that while i look in the mirror, and i thought it was normal thoughts. until i asked my friends if they felt the same way, and they said no..

When I was dissociated very often, I would pinch myself pretty hard to feel... something real, if that makes sense. I wanted that feeling so bad. I'm glad it's so much better now and wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy

i have it but could never put it into words like you do. but youre dead on accurate.

Yes!!!

Hope you’re feeling better brother

Yeah for me when my OCD triggers this it often feels like I'm seeing 3D objects in 2D and my vision gets upgraded to 1080p.

It is like constant thinking, sometimes I have to close my eyes cause of how intense it feels

I ate 3.5 of mushrooms all at once my first time, on top of smoking weed everyday.. I still haven’t been the same since

Heyyyyyyy finally i found a comment that similar to my situation 😭 Mine all started after a highdoze of psychedelic mushrooms

Zak Dwyer I got depersonalization but around the year 2017 It stopped for a second when I was on my way to school and then bang I had it again

@@Daddyangel603 how you holding up now man, sorry to hear

Yea I toon shrooms and I remembered a dream where I took them and then I started wondering if this was even real or if I was in a dream and ever since I’ve had a bit of that

I think this seems like derealisation rather than depersonalisation

MrTboneKG I have been getting these...im so scared

I have it very extreme. To me, the moment when everything "bubbles out", that's what I call it, it's weird and even scary to me. I can count on one hand the number of times I've had "the veil" lifted, another term of mine, so this is my reality. I don't remembering it being any different. For me, this is a perfect example of what I experience on a bad day. Especially the talking bit, that really hit home. Everyone has different levels of trauma, so if you don't relate, that's ok. Call yourself blessed. Because this is what I live with everyday, and honestly if one day I got rid of the derealization completely and THAT became my constant reality, I think I'd lose my mind.

I agree with Daniel. That's because we experience both DP/DR.... it's like you're been kidnapped by your own brain and it's broken you to the point of forgetting who you are. I can't accept that life is real anymore. Even this message seems pointless

I've had his shit for 10 days now. It's making me go crazy

Camryn Argenziano it’s the vignette effect

Its called a vignette

How are you now?

Everyday n it only seems to get worse

It’s like oh shit they gone notice I’m fake. Just act right and respond. Hurry leave now

@@callherfoofoo honestly. I always fear others might notice im fake and so i try my hardest to be normal and respond correctly. i hate it when I can't connect to people like i used to, and nobody really understands the feeling except those who have had a similar experience, but that is around 1-2% of the population and idk if i should be thankful that there's not many people who experience it or if it makes me feel worse because i feel kinda alone irl

its everyday tings

did it stops till now?

@@TomiShow PLEASE ANSWER! I actually want to know if it went away bro

@@gixerson8212 no.. sorry to inform you that, but at least in my case ive been lowkey stuck in that shit for long time and dont know when it will went away.. but keep your hopes up, many people get cured fast

@@TomiShow I just started driving and it’s making it so hard to learn. I hate this shit, it’s all from being a dumb ass and smoking weed bro

5 years late but watching this immediately made me dissociate because it’s my body’s go-to base point. i hate it more than anything.

Morgan Nelson same with me like I feel like nothing is real but my senses are fine but I just feel really off and that there's sort of a pressure on my head and like it's super hard to explain but it's like ur in a dream

@@ryanaguirre9907 same here

If every sense was dialed at normal volume before, your vision and sound go higher, while your common sense gets cranked down

Your Boi i have the same problems

Same

I'm on the same page...

2 years later, but same here guys

Same ...

I had this after I quit smoking weed, and I had my first Panic attack. Just remember mind over matter. Don't think to much about your disorder, and focus on trying to get back to normal, and staying positive! If you focus on it to much you will just become more anxious, and depressed.

I needed this right now. Thank you so much.

Doesn't help me to recover from DP/DR by readinh your comment but ty

thats exactly what a fake person would say! nah im kidding lol this helped a lot

@@cherrypython666 you aint real stop trying to act like your a normal human being

@@evildeed90s this was a comment I left nearly 2 years ago 💀 bfr

Im sorry

Same it really freaked me out

hater I have it 😪

hater Me too!!! I have ptsd and c-ptsd and i started flashbacking. Wow! Good depiction.

Same 🙁

the bluriness is literally how it feels too. the feels of this video did a great job at portraying the feelings of derealization/depersonalization

How are you doing now I need some hope please I’m absolutely destroyed by this 😢

What you're describing is exactly how I have felt for almost a year now, and I feel like there is no way I can be cured of this. What helped you to recover in the end?

+xkimixzeex I haven't fully recovered... It still happens quite often to me, but it isn't nearly as bad before when I dealt with it 24/7. I personally think that people deal with it and recover different ways. When it was continous for me, I would always see people say "oh I recovered by just living my life and occupying myself and that's all you have to do to recover" but that just seemed so stupid to me because I was trying my very hardest to occupy myself and my mind but it is very hard when all I could think about is how horrible I felt. Pretty much the first step for me was realizing that I wasn't the only one who dealt with this, so getting better is possible. At first, I had no knowledge on this disorder and I thought that I was completely crazy... that even if I went to a psychologist they wouldn't know what was wrong with me. But once I found out that it was a genuine problem that people dealt with, it made me hopeful that one day I can get better instead of feeling like I will forever be like this. Then I would just try my absolute hardest to find things that made me "happy". At the time I felt like nothing made me happy but I would go to school and talk to other people about their lives instead of being so focused on how mine is. I watched KZfaq videos on the disorder and I saw that you can see a psychiatrist and there is medication that can be prescribed (ideally that is what I would've done instead of all of the extra suffering but I was too afraid to tell anyone about it and to ask for help). Also at the time I was moving so I put all of my time and effort towards moving and spending time with friends. Before I knew it, I started realize that slowly (very slowly) I was not thinking about the disorder and I was returning to how I felt before I was trapped in this hell. Another thing that was important to me is music. I have always loved music because it does feel like an escape. One of the worst times for me was night because that was when I was alone with my thoughts. I would hardly ever sleep at night because I kept occupying myself with other things instead of sleeping because I was too afraid of my own thoughts and what kind of mental breakdown I might have because of this horrible thing I was dealing with. Music always helped me because I would listen to it as I went to bed and before I knew I was asleep. My personal recommendation for you, if it's possible, is to see a psychiatrist. If it isn't possible you can try the things that I suggested and I truly hope it helps. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this and that you've had to deal with it for so long. Trust me, I know how horrible it is. Like I said before, I'm not fully cured and I still deal with it but I have for the most part learned to cope. Sorry that this is so long lol. (Also sorry for any typos I hope I at least somewhat answered your question). ☺

Thank you so much for your reply! Honestly the hardest part is feeling like there is no hope, like there is no way I can possibly recover. But reading how you are slowly improving, restores some of that hope. My doctor has referred me to a psychiatrist and although I was reluctant to go, after your advice I think it may be a good idea. Sorry to ask you another question but would you say you vision, or the way everything looks flat, 2D or like a movie, would you say that improves slightly, because that for me is one of the hardest things to deal with atm. Thank you so much again

+xkimixzeex oh it is totally okay... ask as many questions as you want! And um yes the vision part has improved. Don't worry I know what you mean... that was the hardest part for me too. I don't know exactly how to describe how it changed and got better.... but it just did, without me realizing it. Don't get me wrong... some days I do still have it completely bad but I am also dealing with this 100% on my own, you know without seeing a psychiatrist or even really talking to people about it. So I have faith that it will get better- and stay better for you. I'm happy to see that you are considering seeing a psychiatrist. From what I've heard, it really helps.

+Kaitlyn Carter thanks so much for your help. I'm sorry you're still going through this. Is there anyway I could email you? I'd love to pass on the advice I get when I see a psychiatrist

True

it is but its never ending

Except when your high , you usually feel happy instead of just feelings zone out.

Yes, because DP/DR is an effect of marijuana. This also happens when you're high on dissociatives.

Without the enjoyable, euphoric aspects. It's also a lot less enlightening, and more emptying.

Everything everybody feels fake. So when I actually open up and have interaction with someone that feels genuine I just talk talk talk about everything because I don’t wonna forget the point of the conversation. I slowly feel my self sliding back like naw you don’t really get I ain’t gon bother you no more. I’m constantly thinking what am I supposed to do and if I did it right then I’m like fuck it next😭😭😭😭

How are you feeling now I’m going through this the past few months just hoping for a miracle it sucks i miss the old me my old life I don’t even recognise who I am anymore 😢

I’ve had it for 6.1/2 months it’s gotten better the anxiety isn’t bad I forget I have it but do you still have it

@@swisscheese-ss8ov i still struggle with it

@@swisscheese-ss8ov i still have it yea. but i do indeed also sometimes just completely forget i have it because it’s like my constant state of mind.

What medications are you taking

How are you feeling now I see this is a from a year ago ?

Have you cured yours?

@@astroarts713 sadly not yet no hopefully I can eventually. I’ve had it about 6 months now but I’m working on it hoping for the best with you aswell

@@dacoolmilkshake4917 idk but having a depersonalization i think change your perception i n world

@Legend Music What do you think triggered it for you though?

no

@@tayyy2k757 yes

I am glad I could help even the slightest bit. I hope you will feel better soon!

Kitiara Howard same for me like I can understand it or atleast hear it but I don't know if they're really saying anything or if I'm just imagining it same thing for when I talk I have to say it like 5 times to even know if it might be real but most of the time I still feel like I'm imagining what I said

I can understand what they are saying but It is like the previous poster said, watching animals at the zoo

Hi Kenzie, I just added you on snap. This helped me understand DPR a lot more, my brother and I both have DPR- he struggles with it most likely because of drugs; I’m not sure why I am depersonalised I believe it’s from some kind of stress. I have a pretty good life, I still struggle mentally just like any human. Thank you for your words! - Ari

@@justagrassblock2293 hey hun. whats your username so i can be sure to add you back

Hi Kenzie I just added you on Snapchat

I think I meant to say Ur not alone😂

Hi love. How are you doing? Genuinely concerned. I'm here to talk.

In the same boat. At least it can suck for us together. Talking and shit is so difficult though, and existing without a single memory or no thoughts, my minds completely blank 2, wanna end my life cos I aint even recognise my face in the mirror, know it ain't ever gon change but what can u do innit

Bailey Johns I know cannabis is different that alcohol but also a drug and I got it from alcohol

WinchestersWinterSoldier it sucks but it went away after about 4-5 weeks

Bailey Johns yup

i suffered it for one year after smoking cannabis and then it disappeared but i'm so scared to smoke again

Yeah. I remember the day I realized I had it. I was just sitting in my old classroom and I felt like I was going insane tbh

whateverdawg ya asf

wtvrdwg the audio is accurate lol, when I’m high out of my mind I start to become def in Breif moments

i hope you are okay now wtf

Everything you said here is exactly like my situation

had it on and off through childhood and to this day. She'll be okay, once she comes out of it, encourage her to be proactive in stress management and avoid illegal psychoactive drug. Let her know that she's not the only person to expirence it.

Can we talk about this on insta or fb or ...

Same ! But when I’m driving it looks like the video

@devious no unfortunately:(

Viral Mayhem Official pretty much

How are you doing a a year later I feel the exact same way as you everything you said I’m ruined by these keeping strong

I get it from the second i open my eyes in the morning to when i fall asleep at night, Fucking sucks man. wouldn't wish it on anyone.

rAge Gamer I have the same question man and sometimes I even feel like I can’t move, or speak, or do normal human behaviour. I can’t do the smallest things. I can’t focus and do the things I enjoy,It’s an odd feeling, as if I don’t belong here. Everything and everyone seems unreal. Even the memories I had seem fake. Also my body feels heavy

Hey is is gone now ?

It definitely changes how things look. But showing it to someone who already has it doesn’t really have an effect because it already looks like we’re watching a film in 2D.

Me too!

I noticed it and was scrolling the comments to see if anyone else had lol