💔We all eat lies when our hearts are hungry...

This is so profound and it's the conversation that needs to happen: the real one. There's a danger in forcing the souls of deeply traumatized people. We must never forget that. Keep doing what you're doing.

The Way, The Truth,and the Life is leading us home.

Such a deep wisdom to wake up to this morning. So grateful for your fearless peeling back to self. Sitting there in your garden made it easy to focus on your words.

I have mourned many years of trauma and even more years of inviting more trauma into my life due to unresolved issues of the initial trauma. Accepting that others won't acknowledge what happened and that I need to move on from what I don't want in my life and that will be framed by others as selfishness is something that I'm finally coming to terms with. Many blessings to you dear Sam. Your eloquent descriptions of your process of healing is in turn very healing to others.

Belief in God really does help make sense of so many things. God bless you 🙏❤

"You come into contract with the shear immensity of your own brokenness." It couldn't be put any better than that. Its a hell of a journey.

"The catastrophe of the selfish life." Bravo!

What a treasure you are ❤🙏💜

Keep Going Sam, I have a history of terrible trauma as a child, and we do what we need to do to survive, your a suvivor and you are coming back to core soul self, sending you all my love, we can do this xx

I'm in an emtyness now I'm beyond who I thought I was, everything and nothing has changed. I just realised I don't exist in the past anymore, there is still yearning to be who I was before, but that I can only do that moving forwards. I've dismantled everything that isn't me and the more I do it the more I am. I hadn't noticed how far away from me I was until I'd spent enough time alone. Who am I can only be lived and not explained is where I'm arriving. Thank you Sam and to anyone asking themselves these questions, I love you ❤ be nice to yourself, that's the difficult bit.

I have never transitioned or self-harmed in any serious way, but I have self-sabotaged and acted from a place of desperate delusion and been unable to face the reality of shame and selfishness. And I have spent years running away from things that only existed within. I love life and I am grateful every day for the privilege of experience, and the clarity of perspective. All that is to say thank you for sharing your story. There is a sense in which it is universally relatable, or at least for me, despite my very different form and life story. Thank you Sam. Glad to be sharing the world with you.

You've opened my heart like a little flower blooming this morning. I've never heard anything so wonderfully expressed. Maybe it's just my time to "get it", but thank you for putting so much into perspective. We are already enough. I needed to hear this.

I am so grateful to have discovered your channel. There is so much conversation today about transition and detransition this is so far outside what I have known and understood in my life. To find someone so openly sharing these experiences is so helpful to me in my struggle to understand. Thank you so much for your courage to share your experiences.

Thank you for your wise words. You impart your thoughts in the most mediative and prayerful way. Silence spreads outwards from you and is your great gift.

His voice feels like a cradle .... listening to him soothes the part of me who cries out endlessly that she's not okay..... Thank you Sam. I hear this voice inside myself too . . . .

"We are all already something" ❤ These few words will be on repeat in my mind today. Thank you Sam for being you and rooting for you at this pivotal threshold of discovery. Your honesty and eloquence are a panacea to a lot of the ills and uncertainty of trauma 💓🕊️💕🍀✌🏽🦋🥰

hi sam, its nice to see you again. that place looks so peaceful and you look peaceful, too

OH MY! "With our attention, we worship". Yes! So profound!

Dearest Sam, I am so glad to hear from you! I am blessed to have met you. Yes, your eloquence is outstanding, you have a message to share. It seems that regardless of the original trauma, we all need to get back to finding our true identity. What I am finding out in my 60’s is that even our deepest hurts can serve their purpose, if we let them. My experience also in regards to healing is that we have what we need, we only have to be able to see it. God bless you! I have not arrived yet but I have definitely left that place of self imposed identity) sending you my love and sending love to all who love true and are determined to find it.

Thank you. 'We're all just walking each other home.' Ram Dass

Profound. Utterly real. Thank you. Thank you.

I have been experiencing an extremely painful awakening realization and clarity and this video appeared. This is the most poignant and truthful and hopeful testimony, the utter exhaustion you mention being the start of freedom. You have such profound wisdom and I just keep thinking of this verse. Rev 21:4 “And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes: and death shall be no more, nor mourning, nor crying, nor sorrow shall be any more, for the former things are passed away.” Your former shell has passed away and you have not clung to it - you couldn’t anymore. I believe your tears have watered the garden you will walk in. I’m very inspired by you. I admire your tremendous courage. God bless you.

Excellent testimony to the Dark Night of the Soul. God Bless you.

Loving prayers going with you Dear Sam

Dearest Sam, I’m sending you the biggest hug. Healing trauma is deeply painful. I live with a condition called Moebius syndrome, and the main characteristics are the underdevelopment of the 6th and 7th cranial nerves responsible for eye movement and facial expression. For decades I ignored my condition and felt deep shame, with a deep need to be loved. I was abused by my mother. I’m having a wobble at the moment, but know that I am just peeling another layer away to get ever closer to my true authentic self. You are an inspiration to be sharing your story so publicly, and showing your vulnerability. You are a true inspiration, and I send you so much love on this journey of healing ❤️xxx

I remember my brother coming to me when he was about 15 yrs old. He told me he thought he identified as female. I told him i would be there for him through any journey. I knew he was struggling with being a gay man because in my family that just wouldn't have been acceptable. I believe he thought if he was to be a woman instead of a gay man, then he would be accepted. For many years I supported him coming out, I protected him against my monster of a father. Eventually he was able to accept his true identity as a gay man. Regardless of if he had transitioned, he was my sibling. We have been there for each other all of our lives through familial trauma. I feel sad that not everyone has a person who accepts them for who they are 100%. I wish you love and strength on your journey. You are a beautiful person and you matter. Seeking who you are meant to be is accepting who you are, because you are enough. ❤

Thank you Sam. I have never identified with anyone ever like you. Trauma does this exact thing.There is a solution. You speak it. I thank you from the bottom heart.

I am not trans and never have been, but your videos just randomly popped up on my feed. I love stories about the human experience. You speak so eloquently and are so insightful. I've gone back and watched some of your first videos as well. New subscriber! I look forward to watching more of your videos.

Wow. Your wisdom is inspiring. Thankyou for sharing. Sending so much love to you.

Jesus Christ said “I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life, no one come to the Father (God) but by Me.” John 14:6 When we find Him, we find truth. He is drawing you himself. 🙏

Sam- thank you for putting all of this into words. God bless you for this and for helping others that don't understand that truly we are all imperfect and how hard it is to let go of the trauma. We drag it with us like an eight hundred pound safe wherever we go, and it's never out of mind. It IS selfish. I get so much from your videos, thank you. 🤗

Bless you, Sam - you are well on your way! Well done - we support you all the way. Sorry I can't donate; I'm a widow living in Cyprus but my heart is with you in your quest.

Many people are too invested in one decision to the extent that it becomes impossible to then later admit it was the wrong one...so sad. The stories people tell themselves: when I'm slimmer, when I've had cosmetic surgery, when I've transitioned, when I'm rich, when I'm famous whatever....these are like anything in life no guarantee to happiness. And who really even lets themselves believe they have made the wrong decision when everyone around them told them it was the solution. So it must be, but it isn't. You should be applauded for your honesty and more people need to hear this before making such enormous decisions

very profound, thanks for sharing.

I totally hear you. You are telling my story.❤❤❤

The sincerity and depth of your words reflect a beautiful human being who already is wonderfully whole. Such a flow of wisdom comes only with a connection to the divine. Thank you for being who you are and helping all of us. I too am looking at my stories and the way they have led me down a path of suffering and self centeredness. Yet, the experiences that created the stories have given me the awareness that I need to let the stories go and let the false self die so I can live - your amazing words: “We have to die before we die otherwise we are never going to live”. So, if this world is divine, are there any mistakes or anything to forgive? If everything is divinely orchestrated (which I believe is the case), then there can be no mistakes and nothing to forgive if you let the experiences serve you . In your case, it is abundantly clear that they have given you gifts that are beyond beautiful that are serving you and others. You are awesome! 💗

Oh, Sam! You are so close! You articulate the reality of the sinful self and the Good News of God’s forgiveness in Jesus Christ better than I do, and I’m a Christian minister. Jesus died in his own flesh, killing sin, so that He could cover yours and restore your true identity as a child of God. This is the answer we Lost people are searching for. God bless you, Sam! He loves you and is drawing you to Himself. It’s beautiful to watch and your vulnerable “testimony” is inspiring. If you haven’t read about Jesus, I commend John’s Gospel to you.

I just stumbled upon this video, it now resides in my bookmarks under 'beautifulness'.

Thank you Sam. Your thoughts are helpful for people generally who are trying to come to terms with whatever is going on in their lives. Not just regarding identity (transitioning/detransition) or childhood trauma. I think everyone at different stages of their lives, are pretending to be something different for all sorts of reasons, but they know it's false.

Thank you Sam. You are an amazing person. No apologies needed. Stay well.

Bless you for your struggle to the truth and the light. Praying for your peace, contentment and healing through this process 🙏🏻

one of the best people

Hey Sam! You look so well! You're smiling!

❤️❤️❤️ you are so aware of truths and illusions, it seems rare for people to really think deeply enough like this about reality and about the self. it is relieving and painful at the same time to be so aware and see thru things so much but still be stumped by the mystery of it all. you are such a beautiful human, you r in my thoughts and prayers ❤️

Thank you Sam. For your honesty. Vulnerbility. Authentic self. You do have unique gift to share. And you have courage , so much courage. If you build it ( patron) people will come. I would love to share a hug with you. From US.

Your garden is beautiful ❤Thank you for inviting us in.

Praying for you to be filled with the peace that Jesus gives, the strength that comes in weakness, the wholeness that meets us in brokenness. God is a mystery but revealed in the person of Jesus. “Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace.” Proud of your vulnerability and honesty!

You look so good! Very real indeed, and loveable as always, Sam.

Thank You. I'm reveling in the silence of my apartment today listening to my neighborhood, feeling the mid Atlantic summer heat knowing its ok that I don't do more than this right now. I was bored and scrolling through my subscriptions and this is the second video of yours that I've watched. Very difficult few weeks, you said everything I had no words for, someone else saying them is comforting, maybe like training wheels to accept reality now that the illusion is gone. Its scary out here but I can breathe.

Thank you once again Sam for putting so eloquently what is so difficult to describe. I am working on forgiveness of self, and all the hoops I have made that self jump through in order to gain love from a broken family. Go gently beautiful soul….❤️ I am sure your vulnerability is giving so much solace to so many people….❤xxxx

“Can you include everything?” I recently had what I call my Biden moment - where I froze with fear and became incoherent. And, I can include that part of me. But, as you say Sam, it is hard to live through becoming conscious of the deepest wound inside us. Being with ALL that we are. I have waited to hear from you again. Thank you, Sam, for the fellow-feeling and shared healing. You talk brilliantly.

I very much relate to your intense feelings of shame and guilt. I still continue to struggle with them and to not hide myself away. I will tell you one book that was extremely pivotal for me, The Idiot by Dostoevsky. I cherish it. I think it would help you as well. Prayers for you, Sam.

Sam, you are totally fearless. Perhaps you do not think so, but I'm sure many others agree with me. You have the most incredible ability to speak openly, clearly, intelligently, and without fear. Besides being here on KZfaq, I truly believe you could make a huge mark in this world by speaking on stage in front of audiences everywhere as a motivational speaker. I see it. You have that gift.

You are an amazing human being.

True awakening is from within each being - we are all a mirrors for each other in this great consciousness - the cosmic truth of what Is.death of delusion is the birth of the Truth. You are truly Blessed Sam

"Perfectly imperfect. Beautifully flawed". Oh i love that you are encouraging people to embrace that. I wish we would would celebrate it. Perfection is an incorrect and limited concept, that requires us to believe there is one "way" only. Stifling. No one should have perfection as a goal. It's only destructive. You speak so much sense with a sincere vulnerability. Thank you Sam. ❤️

I am always humbled by the profound insights that you share so eloquently. I watch each of your videos over and over so that I can glean every nuance.

Wisdom and compassion are borne from suffering. Thank you for your wisdom and your spirit.

"We are all already something, we are all already enough." I agree Sam...we're already whole, we're already part of everything. This is such a beautiful insight. I am personally a follower of Buddhism and your thoughts speak to buddhist philosophy. We are what we think. We are what we pay attention to, etc. Thank you for sharing, I thoroughly enjoy listening to your journey and discoveries because you're speaking to all of humanity, to our human experiences.

Thank you so much for your videos, Sam. You have no idea how much you are supporting me on my journey. Putting into words feelings that i couldn't place. Sharing your journey so that others might heal. You're so wise, insightful and real. You're a healer. Love you ❤

You inspire me more than you'll ever know.

John Butler (his channel is Spiritual Unfoldment) says, "The less of me, the more of God." Your sentiments reminded me of this.

People live and die without realising this… You’ve articulated this so so well. Thank you for speaking on a pain so many of us have suffered. I have no doubt that your words will inspire others.

Thank you Sam for another inspiring video. Your reflections and wisdom are improving my life. I feel hopeful again. ❤

Please write your words are so important ❤ They may ease your journey. God bless.

This profound wisdom applies to so many different types of people. You are an incredible person, thank you for sharing this important teaching.

You are putting the most profound spiritual truths into words. Thank you.

Really profound and moving, thank you. I lost my best friend 2 years ago as her son is trans and I wouldn't bow to new pronouns, though I respectfully offered not to use the old ones either. I wish she could see this video, I miss her.

Bless you Sam, you have more insight than most people talking nowadays. What a gift you are to share with us

Lovely share ... I've just had a couple of days of intensitiy and incredible-ness... Seeing and experiencing my own sense of self absorption, and how it spirals me into a feeling of separation, hurt , unworthiness etc... But then spotting it, dropping through it, and without that "me" ..teally being able to walk un the shoes of other and really be there for others, and in that, find that the love I give to others is reflected back, and that there really is no other ...quite humbling and a work in progress... And I recognise from some of your video's, how you talk about this...about being in relationship...beyond the childush selfishness ...so im grateful for your sharings ...they are helping me navigate through this . Much love to you, and you already know I support your idea to set up patreon ❤

Thank you for sharing your journey and giving hope to everyone who is or has been in a similar life situation. God never turns His back on anyone. He is always waiting for us to acknowledge Him and return to Him.

Self awareness is a true gift. X

Hey, I have CPTSD too. I've been focusing on reminding myself that life is absurd. It helps me realize whats important to me, including the values ive found i hold. I think acceptance and moving on is the hardest part. Repeated trauma, especially in childhood, might not ever go away. And to me thats fine. I am control in the moment. I choose what i get to do now. So do you, with yourself. Its just nice be reminded of that every now and again.

From selfishness to selflessness. We lose our identity like a drop of water that is going back to the ocean where it began. This is the stage of life after adulthood, and it is beautiful as well as frightening. Luckily, there are others who have made this journey before us and who have left us their experiences.

Wow, we are perfectly imperfect. This is beautiful, this feels beautiful

Thank you, Sam. Continue at your own pace, no need to speed things up. Thank you

Thank you so much Sam. You are enough. You need to take time for your own healing.

In Ignorance, I am something; In understanding, I am nothing; In love, I am everything - Rupert Spira!!! Welcome home Sam!!! 💖🙏

❤...p.s. what a gift you are, dear Sam, my brother. I thank God for you every single day. Mark

Nothing outside can solve our being which is inside. We are all human beings whatever our bodies are whatever our roles are whatever our minds are even. God bless you.

I actually love you so much ❤️

Love watching de transition stories. I don't think everybody's story is the same, some people have it completely different. I think the magical story about all people is that not one person is the same. I don't think de transition stories collapse others experiences, it's just your story. But I'm proud people are open to express themselves and share their pain. I honor you. Thank you ❤

You are in my prayers ❤

Hi Sam. Thank you for being you. In my heart, I hold a space for you - a place of unconditional acceptance. For whoever you are, and become. Much love.

Thank you, Sam. Your honesty and deep analysis of your pain is deeply moving. Your ability to clearly describe the journey is absolutely amazing. Indeed, we are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are a true image bearer of who God has created us to be. Knowing , that God continues to mold us. I truly appreciate you. God bless you🙏🙏🙏

Good to see you. What is the end of man? To know, love and serve God. When this is removed or not taught, people suffer to understand their purpose and the world will lie, lie, lie about our role and purpose. Much destruction follows. God have mercy on us.

I met a little girl who used to cut herself. She had some very difficult issues going on in her young life and she would cut herself to have some control over her feelings. I said to her (as the stupid adult that I was at the time), "One day, those wounds will heal up." Her response to me was, "Why would I want that? Scars are my story!" I was really amazed at how young she was but how wise she was. It's important that we carry our wounds with us because that is how others like me learn. You are brave. You are beautiful. You are unique. You are worth everything.

Thank you.

You are more than enough, your heart and compassion evidences it xxx

My favorite SAM so far. I like the mystery of God also., but yes sometimes looking at self is painful. The journey will finally lead us to that place. I pray I am brave enough to face myself. I feel you are a friend. So take care friend and thanx

Wow! I’ve followed your channel since before you took down the OG series. You ARE loved!!! You are stronger than you believe! God made you so you are worthy ❤

Thank you Sam.

I am awestruck. You are already something unique and powerful x

Wow! The rarest kind of human being... one that loves Truth over themself. Wow! God bless you ❤

Thank you, your story is helping me too. I surrendered to Jesus in 2022. ❤ from 🇺🇲

Emptiness is me. I no longer feel anything. I can't forget the past and move on. I feel dead inside. Pretending to be happy in front of others is getting harder.

You are a beautiful being Sam.Thank you.....

I send you blessings and courage and strength and kindness on your journey. Thank you for sharing your incredible story with the world.

Hiya! You are so deep! Im not part of the trans community or anything, but I related to everything you spoke on in this video. Crazy how spot on you are! Thank you for sharing your wisdom with us, God bless you! ❤