Bálint's Depersonalization Recovery Story (2024)

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03:27 Vape Pen Panic Attack
06:20 DPDR 24/7
07:23 HHC vs THC
09:51 "What is existence?"
11:24 Emotional Numbness
13:00 Dizzy all the time
14:05 "I'm sorry, I can't do this"
15:08 Seeing a Neurologist
18:59 Medication and Depression
20:18 "I just wanted to go home"
21:48 Too scared to open my eyes
23:42 Feelings of Exhaustion
25:14 DPDR Recovery and Playing Chess
30:30 The DP Manual
31:22 Can you REALLY get back to normal?
33:08 Advice for people with DPDR
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Balint is 21 years old. Last year he developed Depersonalization Disorder after accidentally smoking a HHC vape. He experienced symptoms like existential thoughts, feeling like he was living in a dream, and emotional numbness even for loved ones and friends.
Balint struggled with DPDR and its symptoms for about a year. But fortunately he has since made a complete recovery. A he wrote to me in a recent email, "I’ve successfully recovered from DPDR and you were a very big help during the journey. I would love to help other people by telling my story!"
In this brand new extended interview Balint tells me all about his experience with and recovery from Depersonalization Disorder.

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@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

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@MarcelFerrin- Ай бұрын

You guys got this recovery is very very very very possible

@audiovisualss Ай бұрын

Yep I had it for a month and few weeks I’m slowly and gradually recovering I’m maybe at 80 percent just lingering thoughts about dp but I’m back to normal

@MarcelFerrin- Ай бұрын

@@audiovisualss I hear you I wouldn’t label how far you think you are in recovery because we never truly know But being able to be aware that you’re getting better is important . You may think you’re 80%. And then you get hit with the crazy setback. You just never know so I don’t want that to discourage you. Just some advice

@audiovisualss Ай бұрын

thats valid advice thank you@@MarcelFerrin-

@slv6470 Ай бұрын

Im 5 years in dpdr i feel i cant reverse this :(

@audiovisualss Ай бұрын

just got hit with that crazy setback today lol i smoked and i thought i was going to be ok and got hit with big load of dp lol back to the start@@MarcelFerrin-

@deirdreoconnor8281 Ай бұрын

Amazing interview. Thank you.

@pitchbuckets2860 Ай бұрын

I have been DR/Dp for 19 years … god bless those who struggle and those who prevail. I’m use to it now

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Watch this, I think you'll find it inspirational: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/e62ImpWZ2L-sh6s.html

@taylorthomas85 Ай бұрын

These videos of positivity are so helpful. I am in the midst of recovery right now and these are really helping me stay positive and optimistic. This is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life.

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

So glad they've been helpful Taylor 😊

@balintszekeres3464 Ай бұрын

I know how bad it feels but once you overcome it, you will be much more stronger!

@daumele Ай бұрын

Very similar symptoms I have. When I went to GP I said "I feel dizzy and disconnected from reality". She sent me to vestibular therapist and somehow he found out that I have vestibular issues. For two months I believed him but when I found this channel DPDR resonated more with me. Now when I look back, everything makes sense. I have had very stressful few months and then a panic attack from nowhere triggered DPDR. Hands down worst experience in my life. Darkest times ever. I am 14 weeks into this but last week was very decent. Tinnitus and floaters are still persistent and when I get into high stress situation DPDR kicks in. It just shuts my brain down, spreads some numbing cream on it and puts a fish bowl on my head :D Anyway, I hope I forget about this soon. Keep healing people. P.S. Do patterns irritate anyone? For example carpet or striped shirts etc. They seem to be so weird, very hard to look at them.

@balintszekeres3464 Ай бұрын

Yes, patterns are normal things, most people are seeing them weird but now you are more focused to it.

@anatolips Ай бұрын

I also have it i just cant believe that i will go away

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

it's scary right now but push through man we can do this ignore these silly thoughts

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Don't worry, you can and will get 100% back to normal 😊www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

@balintszekeres3464 Ай бұрын

Don’t worry it will go away 100%

@hannahkozie7956 Ай бұрын

Wow dpdr actually made him experience more in life than he would have if he didn't fall in.

@balintszekeres3464 Ай бұрын

What do you mean?

@hannahkozie7956 Ай бұрын

@@balintszekeres3464 he picked up new habits and tried new things. Whereas before im sure he wasn't even thinking about going out and experiencing the new things

@alaaalhosary8309 Ай бұрын

I suffer from DPDR, but I always have low blood pressure, is this normal?

@alexknibbs1372 Ай бұрын

I have it aswell

@anatolips Ай бұрын

Do some of you this vision in night where it feels like the wall is flimmering

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

hey bro don't worry I have this to yes you can expect this during the DP dr I experience vision problems aswell

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Don’t worry, visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/

@slv6470 Ай бұрын

Yes

@daumele Ай бұрын

Thats the word! :D I tried explaining my partner how do I see walls at night or in very low light... Flimmering :D

@MichelangeloGarofalo Ай бұрын

how can I not think about the DP/DR distracting myself, if I no longer care about anything about my life, because before entering it I had some bad news that I already couldn't get over and it brought me anxiety, and it had already created a depression in me I wasn't interested in anything anymore, and in this state I smoked a joint for the first time which made me enter the DP, now I've been in it for a month how can I not think about it if I no longer have anything to distract me since I don't I don't care about anything, and this feeling of zeroing out the emotions of DP doesn't make me face the cause of my depression before smoking, am I stuck like this?? How can I do it? Should I try to resolve the cause of the depression first and then go back to not thinking about the PD and making it disappear?? Thank you

@zackvasek-mp7dc Ай бұрын

also how would I know this is what I have without seeing a doctor I mean sometimes I feel just fine then I just get anxious and feel so lonely

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Hey Zack, if you're in any doubt take a look through the list of symptoms here and see if they sound familiar: www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/ www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-symptoms-the-10-most-common/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

@zakofmakof4652 Ай бұрын

Is it normal like i whas going good for a week and training aggain en do my things not to think about it bit like now its coming back a little bit i have the feeling like its a reset like it whas hiding and live is stil a scary place i just wasting my time i did it just for nothing all the training. is this normal plzz can someone help me is this normal in recovery i also just cant relax and watch a movie or anime it feels like when im relaxing its dangerous for me than i gif it the chance to come aggain someone have the same?

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

you just have to focus on things that engage you a movie won't really engage a video game will do something your involved in not just something you can observe I experienced this last week and was doing great this week but it got bad today so just keep pushing

@zakofmakof4652 Ай бұрын

@@timmeh-fr5dbty man for this answar cant wait to relax aggain and enjoy the things and for you 2👊🏼

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

@addisoc5195 26 күн бұрын

please help me. i feel like i have dementia. im looking at pictures of my dad and i feel like he’s a stranger, like i know it’s him but he looks like a stranger. i want to cry. what do i do

@Dpmanual 26 күн бұрын

Don’t worry, worries about loss of memory or time are super common with DPDR. I know they can be scary but they will fade away and stop completely as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/

@erb9956 Ай бұрын

Is it still DP when im obsessing over suicidal thoughts? I mean that, DP is making life hard and pointless so my mind tells me "so if your life is so bad and pointless, then why you still try to live" I bought your manual today and i,m currenly obsessing over this thoughts. Should i see a doctor?

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Intrusive thoughts are common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions, and they will fade away as your recovery continues: www.health.harvard.edu/mind-and-mood/managing-intrusive-thoughts But of course if you are experiencing persistent thoughts of self-harm, please don't hesitate to speak to a medical professional as soon as possible.

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

does anyone know on average how long it will take to recover and how will I know when I've recovered I'm only a week in and about to cry I can't take this anymore bro I can't tell my parents

@daumele Ай бұрын

Yo, probably no one has average number for you. I had it once for two weeks, but at that time I did not know what it was. Not I have it again, for 14 weeks now but I am almost back on track. I suggest keeping yourself busy as much as possible. It will go away on its own. It feeds on your thoughts about it. Give it more time. Hope you feel better soon.

@mateusz8088 Ай бұрын

Dont worry brother just try to accept it and it will go away at some point, the less you think about it the quicker it will end

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

ok I'll try

@mennayasser3675 Ай бұрын

Is it normal to experience that my head is so full , like i can't stand hearing any voice or someone talk to me it really get on my nerves

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

@sandrakerkez5172 Ай бұрын

Yes

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

today marks 1 week and 1 day of either depersonalization or derealization I don't know which I don't even know what caused it but I used to be puffin on some janky carts everynight for about since January 21st of this year and 3 weeks ago I greened out on a cart and started seeing creepy eyes just staring at at me it lasted a few minutes because I told myself it goes away very soon I also used 3g of mushrooms and 3 blinkers and that was pretty not fun like I visited hell for an hour but that was back in mid March and I have been experiencing either dp or Dr for id say about a week now last time I took a puff was last night and next time I will will not be for a long time I've already threw everything out and got rid of my nicotine vapes as well I thought it weed got me into this weed will get me out and when I had this anxiety I was taking small hits and last night I took a big hit and started fearing that I would see the eyes again but I never did keep in mind I know I have dp or dr and know im not supposed to use weed right now bit since i use it every night I couldn't sleep so that's why right now i feel so empty my vision is so weird the after images are weird and i just feel depressed ive had it for a week and don't know what to expect or how long this will go for sometimes i just get a break and feel happy for a few minutes but comes back to depression my tips are to stay distracted ignore this mf thoughts and push through its like a bison going into a snowstorm instead of avoiding it know this is temporary and i can recover i dont know how long it will last though im pretty sure its either dp or dr with my depression emptiness and very weird vision so stay strong yall i love y'all trust me we can do this

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

ps the main symptoms for me are depression emptiness and extremely weird vision but I hope (I know) this will end soon so I just distract myself I've heard from another person to treat dp dr like your friend and say to it what's the worst you can give me also I just experienced memory loss of what I was gonna say but stay distracted if you can't sleep at night don't judge me but listen to ASMR it helps greatly and don't become too overconfident if you have a sudden feeling of happiness and also try to ignore these thoughts distract yourself ride a bike be social get outta your room do something but nothing that triggers anxiety

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

ps ps also focus on these breaks of dp dr when you don't have these thoughts notice how long these sudden happiness lasts for and the more longer the time your not thinking of dp dr it's proof you are recovering stay strong yall♥️♥️

@twilliams4880 Ай бұрын

@@timmeh-fr5dbdo your eyes feel like they’re heavy like having pressure behind them??

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

kinda bit not really

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

why

@zackvasek-mp7dc Ай бұрын

I just experience mainly anxiety and then I feel fine for some time everything mainly feels real but like I feel lonely forget things often and I can't sleep so I use melatonin but keep waking up and going back to sleep but yesterday and slightly today I did feel high without taking anything does anyone know what I have

@zackvasek-mp7dc Ай бұрын

ps I feel normal and happy when I don't think about this stuff

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Hey Zack, thanks for your comment 😊 That sounds like it could be DPDR, but if you're in any doubt take a look through the list of symptoms here and see if they sound familiar: www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/ www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-symptoms-the-10-most-common/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

I don't know how to deal with this anymore what do I do it's so intense I can't even sleep without feeling like I'm about to panic and the weird vision when I close my eyes to any tips please

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and vision are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/ www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/

@balintszekeres3464 Ай бұрын

Don’t worry, I had the same thing, just try to drink some relaxing tea before sleep, and try to meditate, it really helps

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

ok ty I did take melatonin and rink sleepytime tea too

@timmeh-fr5db Ай бұрын

also what is some good meditation I can do

@daumele Ай бұрын

@@timmeh-fr5db I would suggest mindfulness. Concentrating on sounds around me worked for me wonders.

@alexknibbs1372 Ай бұрын

The weed vape fuck Me up

@Dpmanual Ай бұрын

Don’t worry, I know weed-induced DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website, starting with this: www.dpmanual.com/articles/drug-induced-depersonalization/

@diartahazrolli9411 Ай бұрын

What to do with intrusive thoughts guys? I feel like i can’t forget about dp/dr they became so primary in my life it’s like it’s impossible 1 day to not thing about “am i normal” or “will i stuck like this for so long” they are so annoying. They come to me in automatic away

@athho Ай бұрын

Sorry to hear this, and what you are going through bothers me. You are focusing the wrong focus: You are dividing your focus into two parts, half on life and the other half on your thinking about life. Before you got sick, you were focusing on only one thing, which is life. You are afraid that you will be stuck and not be able to experience any feeling, even joy, so when you start to take your mind out of this loop and thoughts, your feelings and thoughts will return and you will integrate with life without you noticing it. The treatment is not waiting or wishing, because you will divide your focus on experiencing a feeling, but rather ignoring this situation, and over time, your feelings will return without you noticing it.

@diartahazrolli9411 Ай бұрын

@@athhoyes i know that i have stuck in the loop but believe me i’m trying to get out of the loop but i’m asking how to react when thoughts come to me , how to react , should i just change my focus and immediately think smth else right?

@athho Ай бұрын

@@diartahazrolli9411 Yes, diverting attention to other things is very important .. ا cuz once you start forcing your mind out of the loop, your emotions come back by themselves without you even noticing it, and ironically that happens only when you stop checking if they're back (stop counting the days you have it). After all, the less questions you ask yourself and the less time you spend looking for answers, the quicker you will move on from this. So have patience and a great recovery!

@diartahazrolli9411 Ай бұрын

@@athho you can’t imagine how i miss my normal life , i miss being connected to myself and others , my blurr vision sucks and my body and mind is like floating but i’m a littel bit happy that i have overcome 50% of it , most of the somatic symtoms , panic attack, terrors and i’m not afraid of symtoms like before . I’m in the final step like the only problem is that i need to stay more busy and to not have free time to think or analyze 🙌🏻. Thank you for your answers ❤

@diartahazrolli9411 Ай бұрын

@@athhoyou can’t imagine how hard is for me diverting attention to something else , did you guys have the same problem? I have constantly unwanted thought and feeling that i need to check the reality , if i’m feeling better or no? What is the best advice from you , i need help!

@zackvasek-mp7dc Ай бұрын

is depression a symptom as well

@balintszekeres3464 Ай бұрын

Yes it is.

@zackvasek-mp7dc Ай бұрын

anyone know if I can use nicotine while having this

@balintszekeres3464 Ай бұрын

You can but it will make it worse for a few days, so I suggest to stop consuming nicotine while having DPDR

@zackvasek-mp7dc Ай бұрын

wait wdym it will get worse the symptoms will get worse for a few days or what? will I still be able to recover

@balintszekeres3464 Ай бұрын

@@zackvasek-mp7dc Yes you will be able but nicotine makes it worse, so I would quit until recovery, it did help me

@wilhyche6582 Ай бұрын

@@zackvasek-mp7dcof course you can, the solution is very easy but hard to trust at first. Live your life as you did before you experienced this and it’ll gradually fade. You will recover I promise