Truth!

Yes it is.@@davemathews5446

I think there's different types and levels of "aware"... people might think they are fully aware. But we are all in prison to our own experience. Listen to ramana maharishi or eckhart Tolles story of waking up and becoming self aware, and it's pure bliss, a connection with the universe, the opposite of lonely. But who the hell knows

I've been in verbal therapy and different groups for almost 50 years. My first therapist with his Ph.D. helped me become aware of some powerful things. But he was very harsh and abusive. I thought this was normal because that is how my father and mother were. They and my brother were alcoholics. My therapist became a severe alcoholic but hid it from me during sessions until it was so obvious. Eventually I sued him and by age 55 he died from the alcoholism. I had to start with someone new after shopping around for verbal therapists. I've been seeing the same guy but not as often for 25 years. I really don't think that I can become much more aware. I know myself now better than any therapist but sometimes a life problem comes and we need help or feedback. @@Jonny-wt3rg

that is not true, unless you want it like that.

same

Same

Same

Well said. Especially wanting to go home. I just want a safe cozy place that doesn’t exist.

you guys aren't crazy. you just haven't tapped into exploring what this pull could be telling you is what it sounds like. A good place to start unlocking this is to think about music, places, art, literature, cultures, etc that you like. try to visit or find out more about the place that thing originates from. you might actually start to feel more at home. there are a lot of people who talk about feeling like they've come here from another planet. I'm not one of those people, but Christina Lopes is someone who has spoken on this topic before.

Same here...I want to change myself but I just can't and I feel like I'm stuck within myself.

@@yuumoe7006 me also

I can totally relate 😢

Same

@@yuumoe7006Same. I know there’s no way I’ll get better.

"There's something back there that you left behind." Time Passages. Al Stewart

Wow. Your comment really hit home for me. Intense.

That's one more thing.

Wow that hurt

Relatable

I think i feel the same way often but I'm still too young to say. Like I'm only capable of observing, i find it incredibly hard to be the first one to interact with someone, I always wait for people to interact with me. I feel like i would bother them and I want to get over this feeling but I don't know how.

I really am one of the freaks that can't fit into the world. What is in my head is my world. I can't think like most people. I only have myself. I can only connect with others for a very short time. Apparently all we really have is our own brain and some people have not evolved past that and think they belong. We only belong to ourselves. If you put most peoples' brains together, you still only get half a brain.

You perfectly described his I feel

Yes. When I walk through a public space, I see couples together talking, laughing, smiling. But I am like a ghost floating by -- I can see others but I can never be like them. Although I'm more accustomed now, still the line between Others and Me grows more distinct.

I remember feeling this way when I was young

Yes you do ❤😊‼️ 23:25

Ditto !

It's both a blessing and a curse to feel that you don't belong.

same and sadly I know it won't ever change

Same here

I understand what you mean.I am HERE,if you want,feel like you want to connect.

@@lonewanderer_n7 I kinda miss the time when I was a kid...I think I was a bit serious as a kid due to my strict upbringing but I was confident and passionate. Somewhere along the way, I become awkward with low self-esteem and just accept and go with the flow, no serious regards for my life. I wonder how I turn out to be like this. The ppl around me are so normal and I'm the only one who's abnormal, a black sheep.

Precisely where I’m at

I used to feel like that too. Maybe not quite as intense, but similar. I even moved to a different country hoping things would feel exciting. Sometimes they did, but honestly, I think I was just trying to run from the problem. My advice is to first understand that this doesn't have to be permanent. There are tools out there to help you overcome certain feelings, or obstacles in your way to get where you want to go in life. (Or to even figure out WHERE you want to go in life.) So, just know that it doesn't have to be this way. I know, from personal experience, that it feels permanent, like "this is just me and I won't change." But circumstances can change. I wish you all the best in finding your own particular tools for making a happier life for yourself.

@@lonewanderer_n7I’ve been waiting for this spark ⚡️ for my whole life. I completely resonate with your sentiment.

I have the same motivations. I don't get other people's hunger for power, money, war, etc. Also just people's superficiality. It's like no one knows how to have deep conversations and deep connections anymore.

So beautifully and truthfully stated.😢😢😢😢

Same, I have just discovered that I am on the autism spectrum (neurodivergent )we see things very differently from people that are neurotypical. Our brains are wired differently, not to mean any better or any worse than anyone else, just different. Unfortunately it seems that if you don’t believe the same as others most are not able to understand, or just don’t want to try to understand.Causing bullying. My experience for almost 70 years.

I'm much like you & always have been. 🤔

Makes me laugh when people say “we are all social beings” not sure who convinced them of this, but definitely not my experience. Social norms are for sheep

What made you die at 14?

@icke11234 not sure, which is why I'm in therapy. Just knew I wasn't happy or interested in life.

Read A Course in Miracles

@Roxcare might do that. I have often passed it in book stores, but haven't picked it up.

​@@hello_sunshine19 No, please don't read that book of channeling dēmons. Oprah used to promote that woman.

I can relate to that 💜🇬🇧

Wishing you the best Lacey@@Laceycrochet

I LONG for those days! Omg yes!

And one of the hardest parts is dealing with the masses that are completely NOT self-aware now

I feel like this is one of the reasons I struggle to get close to anyone. @@hollysquietspace

AGREE

@Mmmmchocolate...have you travelled to other countries, experienced other cultures/ways?

It's evil n gettin worse

Usa sucks

Agreed

"It is no sign of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society". - Krishamurti

This Dr here is saving lives Daily frim his incredibly honest helpful videos in a world right now where's Theresa 5 yr wait to get a Psychiatrist,let alone afford a psychologist,and he shares a very important suggestion in a recent video. Develop a Spiritual connection w Universe,Source,God,Byddah,or Krishna or Allah etc❤

Not by people for the people.

Our society is built for the multi billionaires of the world not average people.

Let’s give brake to society but not design of it, it’s intentionally designed to keep you busy with nonsense, to be focused on survival, most people have no time to stop, too much at stake or too many persons life depends on them, responsible,raised in caring household, with good work ethic person will do anything in its power to not abandon their family, carry on sadness, pretending all is well.

Are we in the Turner show? Remember it?

@@judytaquino6412 you mean the Truman show with Jim Carey?

@@TayWoode Yep.

@@judytaquino6412 that’s slightly different coz he didn’t know he was in a TV show watched by the world, I feel like the world is a show I’m watching and I’m not part of it. If that makes any sense

This sounds like autism

I feel like I don't feel the full impact of feelings. Like theirs a bubble of hopelessness around me.

This life is BS

Whatever happened, I'm so sorry that it had to happen.

Ditto

I can relate to it. I also feel that my cat doll is the best thing ever..but I don't feel "normal" since I love my doll more than human.😢

I totally understand you! I have been feeling the same way lately. Thank you for sharing your feelings, my friend

Uhuh. Transition from childhood to adulthood normally should be a continuity, today it is a rupture

Ahhh this makes SO much sense! Thank you 🙏🏽

I think about this all the time, glad some see it the same way

This makes some sense, but I remember feeling like this since forever, in very early days of my life.

Amen brother, this is living in the state of unconditional love.

Right on. Thank you!

Thank you for sharing that. I often wonder why I can’t just be what others want me to be. I got the license to help others like he did and I don’t like my profession putting people in diagnostic boxes. Some people get the degree, hide behind the wall when being real and connecting w compassion is healing not giving labels and documenting their pain in a notebook.

100 percent …. This world is a rolling ball of bullshit pole to pole …. Those of us who do not fit are like in a chronic viewing of “FreaKy FrIdaY” or the series called “Wacky Wednesday” ….. where everything that is wrong is now, right and what was good is now bad, up is down …. and so on…. And if u don’t believe what the rest of the world believes, YoU are the “odd-man-out!” It is absolutely crazy and the number of narcs that are exploding! into our our mainstream; but it shouldn’t really be seen as an anomaly …as we are encouraged to “live our best life,” or cheered on to, “You be YoU” through life … People feel absolutely “licensed” (by media, government, instructors, those in authority- positions,) to choose their own selves, but it’s just another way to degrade the norms WE …non - narcs… were born with (depending on when you were born). By encouraging everybody to be whomever or whatever they want to be -without any skills, experience, or generational expertise , the norm-makers are producing armies of entitled idiots running the world! And they’re drunk on the power, have a have a vengeance for anyone who still believes ‘you become what you “make”of yourself,’ and the level of authority or of reliability is directly derived by the practices of building yourself up…. With effort, self-control, practice, preparation, planning. Not just deciding to be something …. It ‘s all about fakery these days . AI and tricks, no authenticity , Dysphoric, desperate, “instant” experts are rising every day ! Frauds and imposters . And Narcs gaLoRE!!! Sorry to sound so downtrodden …. But it really does add to the already chaotic wold we live in.

Oh, your comment resonated with me so deeply ❤ I've longed for a simpler life so many times. Every year I spend two weeks as a leader at a scout camp in the nature. We come to a plain meadow and we have to build every tent (with wooden sides and raised beds), every tepee, kitchen tent... everything. And then about seventy of us live there for the next fourteen days basically caring for our basic needs, spending time with each other, preparing activities for the kids... The rest of the world doesn't exist. No paperwork. No computers or phones. No news. No social pressure like career, family, money... All these things are put off for a while and I live free of them while at the camp. Fourteen days. The best ones I have every year. Because without the constant longterm worries I just go through the day moment by moment, being happy or troubled about the present things, instead of the huge things I mostly cannot change. I wish I can do this in my normal life. But I haven't figured out how yet. I hope I will one day. Because I think that is the key for me. I don't need a simpler life - I guess that is just one version of my unfulfillable longing (and frankly, life will never be simple for a long period of time, that's just something what life doesn't do 😅). I need to learn how to be present and less worried about what's gonna be. I'm only at the beginning of discovering this direction so I'm hopeful I can cut my way throught the forest of my feelings and walk the way I like 🙂

That's such a good comment

Yeah that modern day superficiality is getting to me too. Not that I am not superficial in my own way. I used to feel like... well, at least the Prince of shallow fun. But even shallow fun has no glow if it is not supported by actual depth of soul and mind.

Untrue. What makes a positive society is ethics not extreme polarities of primitive vs modern. Living like an animal is also distressing. Pretty sure you do not want to go back in history when society and people were even more barbaric, immoral and cruel, riddled with disease and even basic survival was harsh.

💖💓💕@@nefi_n

I grew up and live back with parents with Aspergers...no emotional connection or warmth...not their fault at all...but I think this is why I feel homeless inside?

Thanks for sharing! I want to read this book

Utter bullshit. My parents were nice. Still depressed

@@markbaker4425 Perhaps so, but I wasn't talking about depression. I'm not depressed but I have this feeling, whereas people who are depressed doesn't necessarily need to have it, since the two are (probably) correlated in the sence that "existential loneliness" likely is one cause of depression, but certainly not the only one. There are many others - one or more of which you obviously struggle with. I hope you recover from it.

This also reminds me of an article "Emotional Neglect and Complex PTSD" by Pete Walker. From the introduction: "This article highlights the prodigious role that emotional neglect plays in childhood trauma, and how it alone can create Complex PTSD. It begins by extensively examining the processes of denial and minimization that blunt our awareness about childhood trauma. Denial is first explored in relationship to abuse, especially verbal and emotional abuse, which then sets the stage for a more complete explication of the trauma of emotional neglect. Denial about the deleterious effects of childhood abandonment seriously delimits our ability to recover. Continuous emotional neglect turns the child’s psyche into a quagmire of emptiness, fear and shame - a quagmire that she will, as an adult, frequently flashback into until she understands and works through the wretchedness of her childhood. Without such understanding, her crucial, unmet needs for safe and comforting, human connection will continue to cause her an enormous amount of unnecessary suffering." The full article can be read here: pete-walker.com/pdf/emotionalNeglectComplexPTSD.pdf

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It's the same for me.

The folly is looking for validation from any other human. It is not there. St John's Wort is an herbal antidepressant I use. Better living through chemistry. It helps quiet my soul.

You are not alone in this

Unfortunately so incredibley true. Even worse here in Europe..

I SEE IT AND FEEL IT. it’s so painful for me to be around people sometimes.

Exactly. I think of this all of the time.

Exactly Right.

Or r they rlly hppy in the shallowness of the moment of keepin this shit at bay??

Odd feeling indeed. Thank you for sharing.

I know the feeling. I do think some people are being avoided despite having a good heart. Are you a no-nonsense and very authentic person?

@@M-i-k-a-e-l Very genuine person and I try my best to be kind.

.“Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them.” - Henry David Thoreau. You are not alone in this.

No love you are not alone

I feel the same.

Yesssss!!! That's why I love this guy!! He's SO real! I resonate with so much of what he says

Being a member of AA, its very similar. True support only comes from those who have walked in your shoes cus they are the only ones that get you. ❤

Absolutely 💯

❤

yes totally, because he understands us.

You likely are depressed. Feeling joy in little things just means you don't have anhedonia.

This is me, 100%

Same, when I had nothing I felt good healthy and happy, now I'm financially stable and have opportunities to live any life I choose, thier was no motivation. For me the answer was returning to my way of life growing up on the grandparents farm..and the RV park thingy I build myself and run while living my life outside the city limits where I was born and raised with 2 dogs and a cat. Still living that 70s life and love it.

@maliniatb Exactly the same for me! Except I can't enjoy hobbies that are unproductive that take time away from working. I envy people who enjoy hobbies like hiking, scuba diving, playing guitar etc. I feel like they are privileged. I feel like I'm so behind on everything that I could never take time away to do something unproductive, I feel like I always have to catch up on work, but I'm always procrastinating (including now).

@maliniatb This sounds like me, I’m currently on the waiting list for adhd assessment (think I have the inattentive type).

How are you on KZfaq? Do you have internet acces as a monk ?

@m444 Agree. People are exhausted living "lives of quiet desperation," and they've become wiser and unwilling to buy into various misguided messages being doled out over the centuries. There indeed is something much more, people are sensing the answers which exist within themselves, and life can be fulfilling and joyful for all here, in true freedom and self-expression. "Only man has tried to rob us of our birthright." - Ernest Holmes. I think we're slowly moving toward an era of enlightenment.

Actually, that statement resonated with me a lot. I don't understand why I have to put in effort for everything I do, and don't get the fulfillment I think I deserve in exchange. Humans in this society are not supposed to be self-aware and rationalize everything because really: Nothing makes rational sense anyway. In the end, fulfillment and happiness only occur when you're ignorant and don't question everything. To me, that's just wrong and my sense of dissatisfaction in my life.

Same way I feel...literally.

I feel the same. It’s exhausting to be here in this weird place Planet Earth.

I feel the same way. So many roles to fill, so many expectations, and if you choose not to participate, then you’re deemed a weirdo… not fun, not a team player and so forth.

I'm crying while reading this bsc I've been there too. I still am. I'm glad that you have found a way to change that. Wishing you all the best, you've deserved it.

Do you know what caused your childhood trauma?

My family would have dinner together every night. I would look at them and wonder who are these people. I'm not supposed to be here or with them.

I feel this strongly. A year ago I’ve never would’ve even thought to bring up the sort of grievances, now, with all my research into complex PTSD, I can see my parents ripped my life away from me at a young age. No one should’ve been six years old and crying on the playground because he had no friends and no one to talk to about it now 35, wasted my entire life in my room where I’m safe and don’t have to interact with anyone. It’s so tough.

I hear you Steve! Things have gotten better for me since I really began to look at my own childhood trauma, and I saw how it has effected nearly every part of my life. It's through understanding that we can find peace. Sometimes putting a name to something is helpful.

Hello there! Always "ask" the universe/god for an answer. He will provide. Good luck mate, you are not alone.

That's because we aren't participating in "real life" we are in the outskirts away from crowds and mainstream ways of distraction. Sometimes I wish there was an app that was called Social Media for The Ones Who Are Lost or some shit I think the name isn't important because you get what I'm trying to say. I think part of the reason we feel this way is because there is no community established for us. If we had one then we could lessen the suffering by bouncing our thoughts off of each other in a vulnerable and meaningful way. Typing this out feels like a bit of that weight has been lifted but it would feel better to have others around too.

Everyone else seems to be doing fine. If not, they just keep appearing to be fine.

It’s because everyone’s living a façade. Even even on Facebook people only put their best pictures up.

well... this here is an echo chamber. but the physical volume of air enclosed in a virtual network bubble isn't continuous but fragmented around junctions | knots in the former. and not unlike physical matter, if you poke into it, you'll utmost probably only hit the void, maybe see some electrons flying around, maybe glance some indicators for protons (that are too small to see). certainly no strings linking stuff. ('connection' as a delusion from sampling too slowly - cf the 'lines' indicating Brown's molecular motion trajectories).

​@@who_we_are______5926I sincerely think that is a really great idea.

Same here buddy

Same

Same here too. Autism is a curse.

I feel the exact same way ~ ADHD, retired, kids gone, divorced from narcissistic abusive husband, and motivation is completely gone!

Yes, same here. 👽

I can feel you. 😢

I know I'm dead I'm so scared

I know how you feel....Happy people say be happy just words

The only thing that's really brought my joy is creative expression in a supportive community. This has been healing ad nurturing. Best wishes..🌷

+1

@@Ayesha_F +2

-1

Damn, that's literally how i see life and why i am not happy to be a part of this world. I don't even know how to feel about it, but thank you for this comment, it made me feel heard and understood.

Lmao your feelings started when my life did. This is all I've ever known. That being said, I spend more and more of my time in quiet desperation, hoping to find some mentor or some way to make enough money to fund my escape from this culture. The greatest INFJ curse is how difficult it is to just take action & commit to a plan. I can't stand myself. I did appreciate a lot about myself for a while before I saw how weak it makes me. Now I isolate & hope for a miracle. Worst thing I could possibly do.

Yeah. It's strange, it's kind of a longing to "go back" where we belong, but to a place that doesn't exist. A place where, if thinking rationally, I've obviously never even been to. It is the most intense of nostalgia for memories that never were, the most intense of grief for family and friends who never lived. How can this feeling be the realest thing ever if it's based on the place and the people most unlikely to exist? The only way the "logical" part of my brain can comprehend it is by seeing myself as some kind of alien who was forcibly taken away from their home world. All I ever wanted was to go back to my people, my home. And aimlessly wandering this cruel, cold and inhospitable world alone, with seemingly no hope of ever finding my way back home is the sickest joke from the universe. I wouldn't wish that empty, meaningless torture on the very worst person who ever lived.

Wow. This is deep. So very articulate. Yes.

@WhatisaLee same here ❤

​@@Hubcool367 I feel the same. As a child, I'd look to the stars in the sky with such a deep longing for a place I couldn't remember but knew. Throughout the years I've been able to preoccupy myself with life here on 🌎. But now, both my parents have passed on. And tbh, I'm ready to leave as well. Grief over my mom's recent death has shattered the illusion of this place. And the feeling Dr. Scott describes is only getting stronger.

@@GooniesGirlI'm so sorry 😞 How have you managed to preoccupy yourself? With non-people/connection related stuff? But I really relate. I still have some "close" family left, but to be honest, they feel like complete strangers. At best, we're strangers who have known each other for longer. I realize though that at the very least they're probably the ones who "know me best", that they might be the closest thing to a "real connection" I'll ever have with anyone in this world. Losing them would definitely shatter any trace left of the illusion of belonging I might have still had. I really hope you find someone, something that helps. Dare I say someone, something that finally makes it feel like it wasn't all just a huge and terrible mistake, that it wasn't all completely meaningless? I'll just say that it makes complete sense to me to feel done with a world that feels like it never had a spot for us.

Same for me, I was bullied almost every day starting in kindergarten and all the way throughout school, didn't feel understood by my parents (or girlfriends when I tried to have a relationship), never really had friends (only a few in high school who were also outcasts), only acquaintances nowadays, it's hard to even maintain connections with family members & acquaintances. I don't know what adult friends do that makes them more than acquaintances. I envy people who enjoy hobbies like hiking, scuba diving, playing guitar etc. I feel like they are privileged. I feel like I'm so behind on everything that I could never take time away to do something unproductive, I feel like I always have to catch up on work, but I'm always procrastinating (including now). I recently realized I check all the boxes for depression but I never felt sad, I never felt much of anything & didn't cry since I was a kid, I'm always calm and composed even in situations where others would be shocked (like in a car accident). Something is wrong with me but I'm not sure what. I thought maybe CPTSD from bullying, but I don't have re-experiencing symptoms like flashbacks, nightmares (I only very rarely have dreams at all), but recently I got triggered when someone said something, then the feelings came back of feeling unwanted, unlovable etc. I think the bullying caused me to become very stubborn, defensive in arguments and have permanently low self-worth. My parents also caused me trauma in the first 6 years of my life through physical abuse and neglect, and screaming at me when being overwhelmed etc., which they recently apologized for. I don't have memories about that time but I think that trauma caused vulnerability which set me up to be a bullying victim. I'm not sure if it makes sense for me to figure out exactly what the right diagnosis for me would be. Part of me was in denial about having trauma or depression. I still don't know for sure if I have trauma because I have a very bad memory for my early childhood, and I can talk about the memories that I do have without getting triggered, in a very calm way as if I'm recounting another story. Part of me thinks that digging in the past could be a waste of time / form of procrastination. Maybe I should just focus on self-care and reparenting. My main goal has always been to have my own family, but it seems I was putting the cart before the horse. It seems I'm lightyears away from that, I first need to fix/reparent myself, before I could raise another child. I don't even have plants or pets right now because taking care of them daily would most likely overwhelm me and I would probably neglect them. I kept telling myself everything would be different if I have my own children, surely my biological urges would kick in and I would take the best care of them and not neglect them (because children are a continuation of me, unlike plants/pets). But when I thought further, how I would teach my children good habits, I realized I could only do that if I'm leading by example, I can't just force my children to obey some structure that I don't follow myself, they would see the hypocrisy. So many marriages fail because people get married before they're ready, and before they fixed their issues. I almost got married too, but it would have been a disaster in that constellation.. People on the internet always say "don't think so much, just take action in the direction of your goals", and yeah, logically it makes sense, but it feels like there's some step missing, or many steps. It's like that meme about how to draw an owl: Step 1: Draw some circles, Step 2: Draw the rest of the owl. Yeah obviously, that's how effortless every successful person makes it seem (survivorship bias). On paper I'm very smart so I should be able to figure everything out for myself. Or so I thought. But not every problem is solvable logically, which is counter-intuitive for an engineer like me. I'm grateful that I discovered the concepts of mindfulness, meditation, journaling, reparenting, self-neutrality, self-compassion, self-acceptance, self-trust, self-respect, self-love. I hope with these tools I can fix myself and accomplish my goal of having a family, before I'm too old. I don't want to keep living a life of regrets..

I think the perpetual isolation cycle happens to avoid rejection and criticism we have learned to expect with c/ptsd

Exactly!

Yes

Yessss!! So true! To know that someone else has experienced something similar to what I feel

it doesn't feel as lonely knowing others can understand how you feel.

Yes! it feels good to be seen

Ditto

Me either

You're lucky it's sometimes, I feel it All The Time.

Can you please explain if i am not my thoughts what am i after this or how i will change and keep it changed? I do feel that i am different then what I am because i have a soul like all other people and this is just the begging of our true life.

The thoughts come from the physical brain. This too will pass when the body dies. The "real" you is the intangible part that lives on when this body/brain dies. The physical brain thinks & feels. The eternal you knows and loves....

​@@ionrazvan126 read the bhagavad gita and you will know 🩵

​@@ionrazvan126 look up 'I AM THAT' free pdf. Might help

Sounds very 12 step. I’ve never found that “greater than yourself” stuff to help. Maybe I’m not embracing it correctly.

At first I wanted to meet you just to connect with another nihilist but it might go against my one goal to contribute to the world. Starting with my presence. My bad attitude can be palpable.

@@TheLoneMitten Ha. Me too. As I'm also 59, nihilistic and am literally right now drinking tea from a mug that states 'Grumpy Man'. But you are right. As self aware folk, the tidal wave of negativity and bad attitude that you, I and @ToddSmith1 could generate if we met is without precedent. However, our new podcast 'The Grumpy Men' (assuming, of course that you are male) would probably be quite entertaining.

I'm 61 and got sober when covid hit. I was at deaths door and it took 4 detox attempts and a year in patient treatment. 3 years later I'm just occasionally having days when I don't think about a drink or even that I'm sober. Just kinda being me! Just Tim. It's weird. This is a total emotional and physical rebuild out at 61. On one hand it's daunting. On the other it's a golden opportunity. Just depends what day it is. Or hour. But no question 45 years of steady to very hard drinking stunted everything. Starting over here. Good luck to you. I get it.

@@timothyslaughter476I watched the morgues fill to capacity with the stench of rotting flesh nearby having worked in a hospital during Covid. Been sober, or more accurately dry, since 1997 and I’m 60 now. I looked at the deceased and sometimes wished it was me.

Where was he?

​@@myownpath1046Standing at the door knocking.

You are 100% right , but unfortunately not everyone will come to this understanding. He is the Potter we are the clay .... Thanks for sharing your thoughts 🙏 its a blessing to hear Jesus working in others.

@@airiksknifereviews9548 so you didn't actually find him then...oh

@@myownpath1046 Međugorje maybe

Sending kindness and love your way 🤍 even though it can be a difficult thing to go through, you are not going through it alone. God bless you friend. Jesus loves you, and cares for you. He gives life abundantly as anyone goes to Him. So know that He is there for you in your struggles

Me also. I have that dream again and again. Trying to find my way home but not finding the way. Bless you.

@@BelaRube God bless you too 🙏 just want to send you kindness and encouragement 🤍 ”The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭23‬:‭1‬-‭3‬ ‭ Jesus is there for you in the good times and the bad. He loves you

That's definition for paranoid schizophrenia, I hope you're fine now. I had some of these issues too, but somehow I don't have anymore, but deppressed af about everything and alot of other healthy issues and I don't even know if I want to continue "living" every day is pain and I keep distracted as much from reality (because I know I have alot of problems and I can't do nothing about)

This is exactly how I feel as well, I tried to find something about this feeling but I never really connected with anything and always felt like what I feel is slightly different. I found this video randomly and I'm scared how accurate it is to me and my life. I'm so glad I found this channel and people who feel the same way, hopefully we'll manage to cope with it

I don't think it's paranoia. It's an attempt to escape from shitty family and trauma. My last fixation was Prince .and I crush on actors and musicians all the time..

I’ve had this since I can remember, limerence. It happens all the time still in my 30s, now more often with celebrities, artists, people who I begin to admire and it turns into this obsession. In my life it happened a lot of time with real people, usually those who would treat me as “invisible”. I’ve been depressed since I can remember, 12-13 years old. I’ve felt lonely my entire life, socially awkward, insecure, social and generalized anxiety and chronic depression. I think it all originates from CPTSD and my upbringing, generational trauma. I stil have periods of time when I feel extreme anhedonia and no motivation and it usually coincides with periods where I am having one of these hyperfixations, and then I spend the whole time daydreaming about a different life which I can never have. I am very thankful to you being this honest and vulnerable, I relate to everything you said and it makes me feel less alone and less “weird” knowing there are others experiencing the same as me ❤

This is exactly how I’m feeling and I have no idea how to change it. I want to go out there and be in the world but none of it interests me.

did u have extreme fatigue and brain fog?

Yeah, because we seek something that’s not tangible, you can’t see, touch or feel it… Perhaps, no such thing exist, but we were taught that there’s something to find, a void to fill.

Good to know that I didn't miss out on anything.

So, nothing helps?

@@lambtypeguy-cd4tp I think it’s like hunger, you eat, get satiated, but you will get hungry again…… everything is temporary, the good and the bad

Peace - I am glad I read your post - it gave me perspective to ponder more. What i feel is you have come full circle and have been able to experience things many never will get or take the chance to( as we are told in this life) and you are still here in the body as yourself (Maybe you thought you'd feel or be different i assume ) but I see it as a great story. You got 3 chances at loving people to commit to you in marriage ( hopefully you had some love in them). You as a woman have had successful business's, (women are craving for that for their independence) you were able to get an education ( some feel they could never go back to college) - you've had more than one career to discover and you had time to go on a spiritual journey (most have to quit work or get sick to do). Although I believe our whole life is a spiritual journey we just get caught in the material systems. SO, thanks for sharing and keep going we all get tired and feel lonely at times in our lifetime but if you can do this, you can rest, reset and go on another "journey" while you still can. Life is an experience and I hope people can really feel love and joy and strength as much as possible. Even if it's a great cup of hot coffee!! Everyday. Blessings

Cymru am byth ❤

I hear that … where am I? And where is it I’m comfortable? This place is alien to me! And nowadays, all the people in it as well.

I don’t think the feeling ever goes away but there is different degrees to it! I hope that makes sense. I never feel as if I belong but the longing to leave isn’t as severe as other times!

insane. i feel exactly the same! never thought i would finally find someone who can relate with me 100% --> school8330 i wish you the same i wish for me: to find a meaning. ❤🙏🏻

This happened to me, I stopped caring about anything and suddenly nothing could hurt me. But trust me, continuing down that road leads to an empty void. I remember when I reached the end, like I finally didn't care anymore, I felt nothing at all, and I wondered 'what next? where do I go from here?' and realized I had to go back. But I'm still pretty much stuck there. I just want you to know that though apathy can appear to protect you, it's actually the most dangerous thing because it will take everything away. It's like dying without dying. In my case, I did it on purpose. I ran away from it all mentally. Idk about you though.

I don't even have motivation to do that much. Used to have a good paying job for where I live, but it was literally killing me to work it. I'd end up in hospital a couple times a year. All my doctors would tell me I needed to quit and find something else. Eventually it came to that anyway after being off work too long. Three years later I'm finally getting back to a point where I could possibly go back to work, but at nowhere near the level I was before. Not many options where I live and most don't pay or would put me back in the hospital in short order.

That's still ok. I have no motivation to go to work at all. No motivation to find a job.

I'm semi retired ..let upstairs love love it ..the relief of not dealing with petty office politics and bullying. But I am unmotivated and need more structure ..just can't be asked..

The world moves to fast, i feel that❤. My son of 5 years takes all the time, is slower and the teachers don't like that. But my son is just relaxed. The world wants you to go fast.

I feel like I SHOULD have been able to cry now for many years. Yet, I'm severely STUCK in anhedonia. I've lost all optimism or "imagination of a good future". I OFTEN think that I need to cry out all kinds of crap. Yet, despite many years of therapy and more, I (so far) simply CANNOT cry out anything. It's VERY frustrating. But, I DO absolutely feel that this doctor is correct about saying that SOCIETY is what is completely broken. Our brains automatically build complete "sets" of feelings, which kind of keep track of how we "are" in life. I think that SOCIETY has had so many crappy "inputs" to us, that many of us are just broken now. We "see" that modern life just plain old SUCKS. It's like we become fully aware that we ARE just locked in a cage of sorts. We're IN A ZOO... and we can't get out.

Same here my friend😢

I wanted to as well but after just having a mental break down less than an hour ago I couldn’t muster up any tears

@AmyCoomer i 1 million % get you, the childhood trauma, my report cards at school sort of said same kinda things, about me, i went through eating disorder issues, a whole life of self harm etc, i just want you to know, YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

Hey fellow South African. I'm sorry that you feel this way. I'm sorry about your struggles. Getting help is the first step. My brother has been getting his meds from a gov hospital. They've given him his life back. Dunno which province you're in. But try. Please. Sending you love💫❤

@@feels.9304 I get my meds from King George/King Dinizulu in Durban. Wish they had some professional psychiatrists. Thanks for reaching out

@@MeekaYammi-xo2hr thank you for sharing. ❤️

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I used to watch old movies and wished I had lived back then. When I was 16, my family and I moved in with my grandmother on my mom's side and she used to tell me about the good ole days and, again, I had that feeling that I wished I had lived back then. Now, I watch the news and see how times have changed and I still wish I could somehow go back to my grandmother's time. I don't know exactly how to explain it but I just feel like I was born in the wrong time. At least that's how I feel.🤔

Oh man , I emphasize with feeling being “overly sensitive “ and “overly emotional “ in a world that seems to consider such gifts to be liability or weakness. Just remember you’re not alone and not wrong for being the way you are. Peace be with you.

Same here, I think if the world is finally vanished with kindness and support. People just being selfish, greedy, and if u have a power with money that's even worse. Wish I could go back 😪

Did everyone feel like this as a child and not just me then? Cause what you’ve said is verbatim exactly how I’ve felt throughout my life dozens of not hundreds of times

I think the larger percentage of the world is lonely , insecure and full of crap. We all just have to pretend that we’re not.

It's possible that once you commit to something it will remove many of the other options. So you'll have incentive to make your choice be the right one. I also kept my options open when I was young. Then I never could decide on one. Too many choices.

That feeling of 'too much' might be you are a hyper-sensitive person, or on the spectrum, or Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, or ADHD. Don't let people gaslight you on who you are, or make you feel like you should tone down. Keep watching Dr Scott.

@@scottys1423 thanks for sharing! I hope that will be the way to solve this puzzle

@@marywiggins7411 thank you🙏 will definitely keep watching!

To an extentent all future scenarios are going feel like that because they aren't familiar. There will always be unknowns when thinking about the future. Our lives change as we move through them. Whatever we do will require adjusting to the change. There are a number of books about helping people decide on a career path. A popular one is What Color is Your Parachute?. I do wish you luck.

Sometimes I grieve the ending of a TV series or a great book. Not sure if it's because I identify with a character or it brought me comfort or relief. And when I know it's coming to the end I start to feel dread.

​@@leannechristianson5218Yeah, I know this feeling 🙂 When I'm watching the last episode or reading the last pages, I often put off finishing it till later, because I need some time to handle the feeling I have to "let the characters go". I often watch or read the same series multiple times because of the connection I feel to the characters 😇

You described that feeling so good, I feel exactly the same! Love reading and watching movies because it is kind of an escape from this reality for couple of hours. I just want to be in this different world and be the character. Feel so lost and unexcited in this world…

I have been feeling the same for a fictional character for the past one year. I joined fandoms on Tumblr, and wrote fanfiction about them to quench my obsession. It has calmed down to a considerable extent but there are still days of flare up and I end up writing more. It had reached a point where I would daydream about them all the time, creating scenes in my head even during work.

This whole statement is the exact way I have been as well.

Yes usa sucks

Rebecca - may I ask what country you went to & made you feel alive again??

You described exactly what I’m going through now. I don’t feel I belong in the country I live in either. It feels like I’m a stranger here trying to fit in this society, culture etc., despite the fact that I was born here. Once I’ve been to the country where I felt like I came home, everything seemed so common and natural, but I had to leave it and this year it’s 10 years that I’ve been trying to come back.

I've never heard anyone describe this.. I've experienced exactly what you're describing since I can remember? I think it did start really strongly when I was maybe 10? I developed a crush on a fictional character that I was obsessed with and yes, it's shifted many many times over the years. Also places-other countries, other cultures-for most of my life it was Europe; currently it's China-I've always just believed it was something about me yes is embarrassing-more so, when the storm has passed-when I'm in it, I've learned to kind of keep it tone down for other people but I don't even feel embarrassed about it I can still barely control my enthusiasm and obsession. I think everyone that knows me thinks I'm a little weird and I get a lot of you know sideways glances and I think they think it's really unhealthy and weirder than that. But the times when this is happening for me are so much happier then the times between when I don't have anything I'm fixated on. Yeah I feel like I'm not saying this correctly and I don't want to write you a novel-but I have so much to say about...this thing- I'm 44, this has come and gone but never stopped-and yeah, when I'm in the grip of this I can't care about anything else. It's going on right now. I've been enjoying it immensely. I may be on the fading end of it, it usually lasts anywhere from 6 months to a year-the decline of my obsession is usually due to lack of content we're running out of new content in this realm- I've been thinking lately that I must be ADHD maybe autistic-and I think that's probably true-but thank you for making this video I just woke up and stumbled across it on KZfaq-and and the title-well usually I don't wake up well I don't have a routine I'm like anti-routine I know it's not healthy.. and a lot of times things about psychology which is an interest of mine especially when I'm first waking up-I'm likeI'm not up for that right now.: but I'm sitting here on the verge of tears but really kind of too stunned to cry-ok now that I said that I am crying. Thank you for making this video I didn't know anyone else experience this. And yeah it's not just a fantasy or the obsession, it's the longing and the feeling of homesickness. I've been feeling this way since I can remember.

Could be something to that , Ive read different souls migrate to different areas. America usa is a young/baby soul arena full of the me me me , my way or the hi way , winner take all , blk n wht scenario.😉 Cut throat , ultra competitive , ass clowns with no compassion.

Me too....all that

Oh yeah. Have lived it most of my life. Faith gets illogical after years of failure .

me with chronic fatigue and severe brain fog

Imagine feeling this way and being so broke at 60 you have to start a new job again? The whole 18 year old looking for a job feel. I’d rather have a shit ton of emptiness and have money .

Don't ruin the experience with other people.

No hope. That

Not hope… ugh my fingers aren’t working!

I'm also 43 and redding your advice❤. I have a son of 5 years, how do i learn to him?

After reading these comments, I think the conflict is there are people who are okay with the status quo and others who are more conscientious and thoughtful. The thoughtful people are few and have a hard time finding each other, so they end up feeling lonely.

​@@aggiesart6 hey beautifull soul Yeah its "difficult" to learn children the way we see the world because society brainwashed or programmed children/ people the way they want with their agenda ...but find balance and be the example.....they will copy (or not) your way of thinking and living. But it depends on many factors....every human walk their path in life and learn....

​@@user-kr2ty9vk5n thats right and there is no good or bad.....end of the day do what makes you happy. Happyness is relativ. Definition of meanings also ....we learn in live

I feel my life took a huge turn for the worst when I moved to a new state with my family when I was 18. I honestly feel if I would have stayed in my home state my life could have been much better. I appreciate your comment because I’ve never heard anyone mention about people taking the wrong path. Ive been trying accept where I am at the moment but feeling a strong pull for dramatic change because I am 43 now and I realize time is running out but I still have hope that things can get better but ever since I moved every job and and relationship I’ve had just doesn’t work out no matter how hard I try and I barely made any friends.

After reading the comments, I see that what my daughter experienced is shared by many. It helps me understand what happened. She met two people who were similar to her (feeling like outcasts) and they left their lives of misery (and anything that reminded them of their childhood, including me) to start a new life. I am heartbroken for myself, and for everyone who experiences these feelings. I love the idea in one of the comments about a Facebook group for people experiencing this. Also, I'm guessing that many of you share the trait of being extra sensitive (like my daughter) to everything from foods to spiritual realms. I tried my hardest to understand and help my daughter, but (sadly) I wasn't able to provide what she needed.