My mom yelled at me cause I kept calling her after I lost my 17 year old cat. Told me it was just a cat. It crushed my soul . Like I wasn’t allowed to grieve. Please don’t ever allow anyone tell you your feelings aren’t valid. It made my grief worse. I loved my Tiger Lilly so much. She traveled with me and she loved everyone. She was my family. You have the right to grieve and I pray for everyone’s healing. ❤

Nora McInerny said on her podcast "We celebrate and insist on living a good life, and no one talks about how wonderful it is to have a good death." I've worked in surgery for over ten years, and I can't stress enough how brave and how noble it is to give someone (pets included) a peaceful, calm, loving death. Edit: For anyone who is interested, the podcast is called "Terrible, Thanks for Asking". It's the antithesis of toxic positivity; people needing validation for their pain and suffering will find it there.

You gave Eloise her best life and passing. My brother, a surgeon, always said that our pets believe in us--that we will always make things right for them. They trust us, their parents. Your love and compassion for Eloise was your gift to your sweet child. Having your vet into the familiarity of home is the kindest thing we can do. Animals don't fear death; we fear losing our loved ones--our babies. Thank you for easing her home. 💙

Did this take anybody else multiple attempts to watch all the way through? I can’t imagine the grief Hannah and Andrew are feeling right now because this was so hard for me and I’ve never even met Eloise. I’m so sorry for your loss ❤

(-Update-Having to let go of my 16 years old cat sucked just as bad if not worse . It’s been a month and I’m still in denial, I can’t and refuse to accept that he’s gone. Accepting it would make that horrible empty feeling come rushing back, I just don’t want to feel it. I don’t even remember what life was like before him 😞) Deciding to euthanize my two year old cat with pancreatic cancer was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It was the one and only time ever, that I felt like I couldn’t handle life. I’ll never forget that feeling of complete despair. I am so very sorry for your loss of Eloise 💔

Eloise was so loved, and she knew that ❤

My sweet baby Cleo was diagnosed with that exact same oral cancer yesterday and I'm in anticipatory grief hell. She's 12 years old and I really thought I'd have so much longer with her, I've had her since she was a tiny kitten. I'm devastated. The vet thinks we might have a few weeks, it's so hard.

I lost my 10 year old cat this morning after a brief fight with kidney failure. I am absolutely devastated. I chose to euthanize rather than proceed with surgery when her body was telling us it had had enough. Big grief for big love is such a beautiful way to put it, and as I’m sitting in a puddle of my own grief over the next few weeks I am going to try to remember this. Thank you.

I didn’t realize this was the first time you lost a companion cat. You are able to articulate your grief and process so well. Sharing your pain and emotion on the internet is so brave. You gave Eloise an amazing life and such a dignified death. Much love to you and Andrew.

Your description of “anticipatory grief” was the first time I’ve heard anyone say it out loud that way. I lost my 20 yr old “love of my life” kitty, Leo about 6 months ago. I remember vividly everything you described leading up to the euthanasia decision and the questioning of the timing on that choice. I really appreciate this conversation on quality of living and the gift we can give to alleviate suffering.

From that beautiful poem.... "Just think of her as living In the lives of those she touched. For nothing loved is ever lost, And she was loved so much." Goodbye Eloise ❤

Two days ago, I had to euthanize my cat Mrs. Norris. I grieved with you in this video as it's still raw and hard. My cat was 26 years old and I cried harder, longer and louder than any other loss of my life. Thank you for this video. I'm watching it a second time. 😥

I thought I was ready to watch this, but I was sobbing by the end. Thank you for sharing this, truly. It's rare that a video can bring me to tears, but your story brought back unprocessed feelings of grief for cats I've lost that I didn't know I still carried years later, and helped me process them just a little more. Grief is grief, for any species, and we don't talk about it enough. It's comforting to hear another person talk about it in such a real and vulnerable way.

“It’s better to be a day too early than a day too late”. The kindest, most loving thing we can do is letting them go with dignity 💕

I am old, I have lost many pet friends over the years, it never gets easier. They let you know when they are done with the pain, the refusal of food is it. I hope you heal soon, love yourself, allow yourself the time. Til you meet again in a different plane of existence. ❤

Losing my cats breaks me to a point that I have never experienced with losing people in my life. Not many would understand but I know that you would. so thank you. 💔

It's so nice that the vet came to their home for this. I wish more vets offered that. Pets should be able to pass on in their safe, happy and calm space.

I’m so sorry for your loss. 10 weeks ago, I found a litter of abandoned kittens, with just one barely alive. We brought her in, not knowing what to do, and your videos saved us. I learned so much and I’m so proud, relieved, and in awe that I am able to say we saved her with your help. Thank you for what you do. ❤

Your cat looked very similar to mine that my wife and I recently lost but Snowy was a male. We had him and his sibling cat Squeaky for almost 18 years. He passed then she past recently exactly 6 months after. I still grieve over both of them. Life is very different without them. I pray that everyone that loses their pets find comfort in knowing that they loved us as much as we loved them. I also believe we may see them again when it’s our time. Love and blessings to all.

One of my cats, Daisy, had the same kind of cancer. It has already spread throughout her entire mouth. We went to the vet for just a check up and ended up leaving without her. No words can explain how much that hurt. I’m so sorry for your loss.

I just lost both my 14 yr old Marie, and my 15 yr old Sam within a week and a half of each other. Loss is so hard, when those furbabies have been there through everything with you. My condolences, hon.

Oh Hannah, I’m so incredibly sorry 😢 Eloise was (and still is) such a bright star. My cat is 22 years old and I can feel she is slipping away, I’m nowhere near ready to say goodbye yet. We never are. All my love to you 💖

I just had to put My Precious Greyski to sleep. She was 16 yrs old. Had kidney & liver failure. A. Infection & very dehydrated. I feel like I made the wrong decision. Depressed ~ Crying 😢 Everyday. I miss her soooo much. Beyond Heart Broken 💔 & Devastated. Till we meet again at The Rainbow 🌈 Bridge. I Love 💗 & Miss You 🥰 Sooooo Much Greyski. You made My Life Soooo Much Better …

I cried uncontrollably for weeks when I lost my cat. I'll always feel guilty that when it was time to let her go I couldn't hold her in her basket on the way to the vet as it was as if I was taking her to her death (even though she was in a bad way and suffering). The vet was amazing and I was with her when she passed. I miss her every day and my heart goes out to anyone who loses an animal.

Imagine everyone could leave life so peacefully, safe and loved. Eloise was truly lucky to have you. I´m so sorry for your loss.

Thank you so much for this video. I lost my cat unexpectedly from cancer in April. The more you share your experience, it helps other cat guardians like me feel seen. He wasn't "just a cat", but someone I felt and feel soul connected to. I have had people shocked I'm still gutted over it but it's just as valid as the loss of a beloved human.

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your dear companion Eloise. As Vision so eloquently put it, "what is grief, if not love persevering?" Our pets are our family, and our love for them endures after they're gone. My kitty Sophie was my companion and when we had to be evacuated from our town during a wildfire, I forgot her litter box. She didn't use the bathroom for 24 hours until we could make it to a pet store to buy her one. A month later, I returned with her to help the municipality in its re-entry efforts. A week or so after I came back, she stopped eating and was throwing up bile. I knew something was very wrong because the next day, hour by hour I could see the skin inside her ears turn yellow. Thankfully a vet was back in town and I took her in, did bloodwork and a scan that revealed what looked like a large mass on her liver, which was likely cancer but also could have been a blockage. I was given the hardest choice: take her back to the town I evacuated to in order to do an invasive exploratory surgery that likely would only have confirmed the mass (if she even survived the trip or surgery) or put her to sleep then. She was suffering, and I was alone and working 17-hr days trying to help people navigate the most traumatizing moments of their lives. I decided to end her suffering, but I still feel guilt, and I still wonder if there was something that I did to cause it, like what if it was a blockage caused by that 24-hr period where she couldn't use the bathroom because I was so preoccupied with getting my family out of a town on fire that I forgot her litter box? Whether it was or wasn't, I know that I made the right decision for her with the circumstances and the resources I had, and I know that I gave her a good life. I still have her little paw print and pictures of her, my darling girl.

I'm in the anticipatory phase... my 18 year old Blondie baby has had kidney disease for nearly 6 years.. She's a tough old lady, but has declining rapidly. I'm balling right now thinking about her. thanks for being so candid about your feelings and experience. RIP Eloise

Euthanasia is such a brave, selfless decision. The book, The Other Family Doctor, is written by a veterinarian who speaks about euthanasia and her personal experience with it from both sides. Thank you, Hannah, for sharing your experience with Eloise. Your relationship with her was so beautiful!

I lost my cat Isaac to squamous cell carcinoma in January 2022. He fought hard but it's such a terrible disease. I'm so sorry for your loss of Eloise, she seemed like a real sweetie.

Even in death, my beloved senior cat , Mat never really left me. He will remain in my heart and soul forever and ever... Now Im bursting into tears..

Thank you for acknowledging anticipatory grief. No one seems to understand that is arguably the hardest part. I've been tearing up every day for a week with my sixteen year old buddy. He's been having health issues over the last few months.

Losing our furrballs is BRUTAL 😭They are our family and we love them, but I always remind myself of the following. The sadness I feel, is directly proportionate to the love we shared 😿

I lost my boy Ted in Nov 2021 to renal failure. I was his person and he loved me. He picked me. When you give an animal a wonderful life, you are their angel, you are their whole world. I'm glad you crossed paths with this lovely kitty. So sorry for this tremendous loss. 😢❤💐🐱

I am a non believer as well, and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE your statement. “When u leave, you become a story.” I agree!!! Thank you for this video. It had me crying too but I believe you gave her the best life and best exit from this world! She was so loved!

I've recently lost a cat and I hope everyone else who's grieving is doing ok and will reach out to others. Goodbye my very special friend!

I’m so so sorry kittenlady. What you do is amazing and Eloise has been a big part of it so her loss is deeply felt. Thank you so much for sharing her with us and for telling all us with fur babies it’s okay to grieve in our way because so often it isn’t treated like a true loss when we share so much of our lives with them 🥺

Letting go of your suffering pet is the ultimate and greatest proof of love. Strength to you Hannah

It is always hard to say goodbye, even I still miss my old cat and it has been 12 years ago. Still miss him.

Thank you so much for sharing this. After 21 years together, I had to say goodbye to my cat when he was diagnosed with cancer. He’s been gone two months now but I’m having such a hard time managing my grief; I often feel like I have to hide my despair since most people will say he was “just a cat”. Your story is very relatable to my experience and I found your words so comforting. Big grief for big love. ❤

Our 20-year-old cat passed because of a tumor on her spine. We were so worried that we wouldn't know when it was time but she let us know. She was just so done. Thank you for sharing this with us. I truly understand how hard it is

It's a gut puncher every single time for me. I've buried 3 amazing feline companions as an adult. But I always feel so lucky to have had them in my life and received their endless love. And then I get them cremated and then eventually bury their ashes under the rose bushes that they loved to sun themselves under so much in my backyard. ❤️

I am only 7 minutes into the video and already crying because one of my cats is currently not well at all and I fear that I may have to make the difficult decision to have him euthanised soon. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. My deepest condolences to you and everyone else who has ever lost a beloved pet ❤

Cats are part of our family. We miss them dearly.

I've never sobbed so hard as I did when I had to help my first two rescue cats cross the rainbow bridge. I think of them often, even all these years later. My profound grief didn't put me off adopting another cat. There are so many sweet fluffs in need of our love.❤

Hannah.. My soul kitty was diagnosed with squamous cell carcinoma two weeks ago, and my gosh how this video resonates with me. I spent 4 hours weeding yesterday! Please know that sharing your story is so significant and meaningful to someone like me. Especially right now. I just want to say thank you for opening up and being so vulnerable. You are truly making a difference.

Thank you so much for doing this video. I lost my Best Friend, Freska, a big Grey Guy, he had been born at my house, and since that very first day, he had claimed Me as his human🥰) in my early twenties ( I’m 52 now), and I wish that I had this type of video then. He did live to the age of 20- but when he passed, my heart literally felt empty. The only regret that I still have is that he had to be euthanized at the vet office. It would’ve been So much easier/better for him to have it at home… and have no extra stress having to be at a scarier place 😭❤

My precious Mr.Kitty 13 years left us last weekend from Cancer!! I just got his ashes Friday and immediately gave them to my daughter!! Her cat, he lived with us for the last 10 years because she wasn’t allow to have pets where she was living!! It’s such a enormous heart felt lost!! But I know Mr.Kitty’s soul will be with us forever!❤️❤️

In the last year I've lost three rescue cats, one of my German shepherds, and, one week ago, my mother. My heart goes out to you and everyone who's experienced loss recently.

I lost my best friend of 15 years just last year. Cancer diagnosis, very aggressive. I spent two weeks doing hospice care at home before I had to make the call. Making the decision was the worst thing I've ever had to do in my life. I'm so sorry for your loss

My first cat is currently 15 and even though she's in good health I'm still worried, always. Thank you for sharing your story and sharing ways you were able to prepare and make the time special for the both of you.

From one cat parent to another, my deepest condolences for your loss. We lost our 17 year old boy to stomach cancer in 2015 and the grief has never gone away, I’ve just learned to breathe around it. For these small fluff balls, they leave spaces larger than they actually take up. Much love from the UK ❤

Rest In Peace, Eloise 💜

Thank you so much for being there for Eloise and making these tough decisions on her behalf. I'm always shocked at the amount of pet parents who choose to not be present for their animals' last moments. It's gut wrenching to know the fear and confusion of those last moments searching for their people.

I cried at 15:40 When you showed the plush cat and explained how you put recording box of Eloise's purrs inside of it that's so sweet! 😭

I had to let go of my cat of 18 years last week. I described my body as “sad Jello”. She was very loving and comforting to me. Your video was very relatable and kind. I love hearing about the reality of the trauma of making that choice to cut your time with them short. I appreciate it. Much peace to you.

It's been 5 years since I lost my Fred and I still grieve him. When I first lost him I felt silly for grieving him so hard, I cried several times a day for months, but it wasn't silly they're part of our families even if they aren't human. I hope anyone grieving their pet won't feel alone like I did. ❤ I'm so sorry for your loss 💔

It never gets easier, I’ve said goodbye so many times and I know I will have to do it again one day… My kitty Arwen is around 18, in good health now, but I know that day will come.

I had to have my beloved kitty euthanised last year. We had one last week of time together, quiet time, all his favourite food and treats. On the day I went to the vet with a heavy heart. He was suffering so I had no choice. I held him in my lap in a cosy blanket and stayed with him until I couldn't because I was scared of feeling him go cold. I have a lovely urn with his photo beside it. Life is not the same without him but I have 17 years of memories and I am very glad that he was in my life.

My childhood cat had to be euthanized the summer before last. I made the trip to my mom's so I could be there for her. We'd had a health scare the year before and had prepared ourselves for the eventuality, and were all in agreement that under NO circumstances would we be putting her through the trauma of having to go to the vet's office; the vet would come to us. We used a woman who had done the same for a friend, and was actually surprised to get our call because she'd recently retired. But she agreed to do it for us and she was great. My beautiful calico baby spent her last hours roaming her house, eating the finest cat gravy I could find, and laying on the front steps soaking up sunbeams. I held her while she got the first shot and fell asleep. RIP Khalima. You were a cantankerous old bat, but you were *my* cantankerous old bat.

This video will help me one day. My soul cat is 8 yrs old and healthy. But of course, one day... My promise to him : I'll be with him to the end and we will avoid suffering. RIP Eloise, and sincere condoleances to you and Andrew. ❤

As a former vet tech, this is such a beautiful explanation to the hardest and most loving decision we can make for our pets. I made the same decision for my own cat when the vet found a mass. She told us when it was time❤ Hugs to you!!!

This video is the reason I could do what I did for my Jasmine. We got Jasmine from a family friend at around 6 years old. She hadn't had medical care for a while, was overweight and not taking good care of herself. She spent a 12 hour car trip to bring her home with us on my lap. She was opinionated, loud, playful and loving. She loved licking our dogs face, even if he didn't. She loved sleeping in the sunshine, getting chin scratches and eating catnip. I watched this video when it first came out and cried right along with you. I spoke with my husband about the concept of bring a pet to 0 when their quality of life is starting to decrease. We agreed that is how we would want to take care of our pets to their last moments. We brought Jasmine in to the vet on Monday because she wasn't eating. She had been having kidney problems for about a year, and we thought this would just be another bump. She did have a UTI so she got some antibiotics and fluids and came home. After a night at home, something wasn't right. She wasn't perking up and still didn't want to eat. Her breathing increased to 70 breaths a minute, so we brought her back to the vet. After taking an X-ray, the vet found tons of inflation in her lungs. Jasmine always had this large belly, and we thought it was just her weight. We found out she may have been struggling with congestive heart failure for years. We missed it. All her previous vets missed it. We couldn't treat her UTI without damaging her heart. We could treat her heart without damaging her kidneys. Her kidneys were already 75% damaged. She was clearly uncomfortable and in pain On March 12, 2024 we made the decision to say goodbye. We knew she was in the negative, and that going to 0 would take her suffering away. We gave her scratches, and told her all the things we love about her. We stayed with her til the end. Our lives feel wrong without her. I'm so grateful I found this video so I could do what I needed to do for Jasmine at the end. Thank you Hannah

I'm so sorry that you had to say goodbye to Eloise! I had to euthanize my sick and elderly white cat who looked so much like Eloise when I was a college student and it was extremely difficult to say goodbye. This video will surely help many who are going through similar situations right now! Hugs to you! 💞

The description of her falling asleep in the the sunbeam was absolutely beautiful I cried like a baby. I think that it’s almost symbolic of the love and warmth she was surrounded by in her final moments. It makes me remember how pure animals really are and how lucky we are to be our pets owners. Thank you for sharing ❤️

Sorry for your loss, I had to let my best friend Kobe (18.5 years) go back in Dec of 2021 and it was the worst day of my life, but the vet was great, they had a room well away from the main practice with a separate entrance where could go and just be alone with your companion at the end. I haven't cried that much in my entire life. I still to this day miss him, but he'd be happy that I've spent the last year socializing my semi-feral rescues into almost "normal" kitties. Still a work in progress, but they make me laugh every day with their weirdness.

When I realised how special He was to me, I started anticipatng grief. So I had 14 years of grief and he's been gone ten years and I still cry when I think of him.

I lost my cat, Simba, 2 days ago after they found a mass in his brain 1 year ago almost to the day. He started showing signs of confusion and was scared and drooling. December of 2022 they gave him 4-5 months to live with it and we had him a whole extra 9 happy months and I'm so grateful for that time with him. Although we knew it would come eventually its still so difficult and the pain never goes away. We decided to put him to sleep because I didn't want him to suffer 💙

I’m so very sorry for your loss, and so appreciative of this video. I broke down when you described how she fell asleep underneath a sunbeam. As someone who has made the euthanasia call too late, it was so heartwarming to know that Eloise didn’t suffer and had a beautiful ending. Wishing you strength and healing during this devastating time. ♥️

It is not just a cat. They are our family. We had to put Rusty boy to sleep on May 13 because he started with breathing issues after being diagnosed with hypothyroidism and a stroke. He was 16 years old. I am sorry you had to go through this also.😢

I lost a beloved cat in June. I still cry for her often, but I know deep down I could not have improved her life - only prolong the painful situation and possibly increase her suffering. As with all lost loved ones, I remind myself of this truth. If they gave me no moment of grief in life - only joy - then they would not wish grief upon me now. So I cry and I smile and I remember the good times with my sweet little lady. And another cat somewhere needs the love I have to give.

I had to say goodbye to my 19 year old Emmy 33 days ago on May 16 and I still miss her everyday. I’m so glad that I have my photos and videos of her to help me. Making the decision for euthanasia was the hardest decision that we had to make but we don’t regret it since we could tell that she was going downhill quickly. Our process was the same even though we did ours in the vet office and I will forever cherish the pawprint and little satchel of fur that I received. I did not make it through this video without crying and want to thank you for sharing your and Eloise’s story.

She passed beautifully from a earthly sunbeam into a sunbeam in another realm to wait for your energy to join hers again. You gave her the kind of passing any of us would by blessed to have, I hope you feel pride in how amazing her life was up until the final second. 💜💜

As someone who has lost a companion cat of nearly 20 years, who's family didn't decide to euthanise, but to wait until the very end, I thank you for this video. My family are very closed off in terms of expressing emotions, so grieving has been difficult. I wish we had euthanised our cat, witnessing pain and discomfort was heartbreaking. I would rather have fond memories of when they were healthy and happy rather than the ones i have. My kitty passed away in 2019, and it's still hard even now. Thank you for everything you do, Hannah.

For Mink, who lived for only two days but whose memory changes the world. For Badger, whose life is amazing and Leeni who loves him. For Fergie, who has lived longer than I would have thought possible and is still (to the best of my knowledge) going strong. Finally: for Eloise, because she was Eloise--and amazing. I can't physically do work for cats, because I'm severely disabled. But I can support your work on their behalf. Love and blessings to you always, Kitten Lady!

This was so hard for me to watch as I’m struggling with lifelong generalized anxiety disorder. I have 2 cats, Molly and Nelly, both born March 6th 2022. Your story, and the way you convey your feelings and your grief, is the most beautiful, and rare, video I have seen on KZfaq. I have been hugging and kissing my little Nelly for the past 2 hours while crying so I am totally exhausted. Cats are so unique and they bring so much joy and love to my life, but I also know joy comes with pain. A lot of pain. Sadly my GAD causes me a lot of ”unnecessary” pain. What a beautiful video and thank you for sharing your experience so openly. What a sweetheart Eloise seemed to be, very beautiful. Cant stop crying… If I could I would give you a hug right now. Thank you.😢

I’m so sorry for your loss, Hannah. Losing a furry friend is the worst feeling in the world. I hope you’re doing well. Just know, you’re a wonderful person and no other cat could have a better owner. We all have your back if you ever have this happen again. Fly high, Eloise🕊️. Edit: I ended up sobbing

Dear Hannah and Andrew, I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved Eloise. As someone who has had to make these hard decisions for most of the beloved cats in my life, thank you for sharing your journey so honestly and gracefully. After only losing our very dear 15 year old cat, Deano, last September with a very quick end of life decision after nursing him for many years through a medical condition this was very raw for me. Only two weeks ago we adopted two year old rescue sisters, whose previous owner had passed away several months ago. Whilst I’m delighted to have them in our lives I was surprised by a new wave of grief for Deano. I’ve just sat gently with it, and given myself permission to grieve the loss of those many years of knowing each quirk of each others personality. I’m allowing myself time to get to know my new girls, not forcing that closeness (impossible with most cats anyway) and learning what makes them who they are, and gradually, naturally letting that love grow between us. As I write this both my new girls are curled up asleep against my legs in bed, after we’ve spent the afternoon together in the sunshine. It’s also been beautiful to watch my teenage kids form new relationships with the girls, something very different from when they were tiny and we had new cats.

I've been grieving for my Tiger baby for 3 years now. He was my whole world for almost 9 years and he declined so quickly. I regret not catching it sooner but I held him as he passed and tried to comfort him the best that I could.

I will NEVER let my cat suffer. When the time comes you will know. I also will NEVER allow my cats to die alone. I am always there when they pass and will NOT allow my cat to see me cry and in an upset state. I am there for them and will be strong FOR THEM. After they have passed then i can break down. Our cats give us so much we deserve to do right by them and be there for them till the very end. 😻😻😻

Thank you for this video, Hannah. My childhood dogs were euthanized before I had a chance to get to say goodbye to them 12 years ago. Seeing all of the love, grace and consideration you put into Eloise’s goodbye was very cathartic for me to watch. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. All the best to you, Andrew and the kitties. 💖

Hannah, you are an Angel among us. I'm so sorry you had to finish Eloise's story. The quote that got me through my loss of my 15 year old soul kitty, Mittens, was "the size of the love, is the size of the grief." Legends never die! What a beautiful story, your sweet, sensitive Eloise has.

Sorry for your loss, I'm grieving a baby named Lluvia, she was black 🐈‍⬛ and I had to run at five am two days ago because she could even hold her head up anymore... It's so painful when this time comes. All ways of grieving are ok, I don't have ashes but I spread high quality kitten food between her stray friends and that was part of my grieving rituals.

I'm a week in, (renal failure) she was 17. My vet followed up with a card that has a pic of similar cat on the cover with the words 'As you say farewell to a dear friend' . The inside read 'We know how much your pet meant to you and how sad you feel in your loss. In missing your special friend, find comfort in knowing you gave your pet a good home and a wonderful life'. The card also included a tuft of her fur and an inked pawprint on paper. I think I will frame this with a few pics of her , Her original name at the shelter in 2009 was Bianca, It would have been easier to loose my entire family than her.

Sorry for your deep loss! I lost two cats from oral cancer. One came from a barn and one was a rescue kitten. Pieter was euthanized and Sharon went suddenly before she had signs of distress. Pieter was put down at diagnosis because of the tumors position. The trip back to the vet would have been potentially horrible and painful. Better sooner than later. It's such a peaceful way for them to go. Better when they aren't struggling. You did right! You are very compassionate!

My condolences. May you always remember her with a smile and a full heart.

This was beautiful and so relatable. I’m in the anticipatory phase right now with our 22 year old cat. Thank you for the reminder to record voice and favorite things. When you already have thousands of photos, sometimes it feels silly to take more. But…I want to capture this phase which is still part of his beautiful story. 😻

Thank you for suggestion of monthly weigh in. I lost a cat two months ago. He had lost weight. I wish I had monitored monthly and noticed sooner than when it became an emergency. That not noticing the weight loss has caused me 15:27 feelings of guilt. This suggestion will help me moving forward. 9:19 It was good you were able to prepare and give her palliative hospice care. I was able to do that with Ra when she had cancer. Thank you for sharing 14:57 your journey. Making a euthanasia choice is hard. Not wanting my cat to suffer and making that choice what is best for them (not me). I stay with them and give love and reiki and be present to their last breath. I call on ancestors to greet them on the other side.

Jackson Galaxy recently used the word "disenfranchised" in describing our grief for our feline companions and I've often felt that way. So it's beautiful and validating when someone like yourself shares their grief and vulnerability. I cried with you and smiled when you said you recorded her purrs and toes and nose because I did the same thing leading up to the loss of my 20 year old love of my life. My sincerest condolences to you and your family and thank you for your sharing and all the work you do. (I used Lap Of Love and highly recommend.)

I am sorry for your loss of Eloise. She was special and remains engraved on your heart. Coming to the time when it’s time to say goodbye is hard for all our special fur friends. I have had a few pass over the years and I have always been with them. Loved in life, in their passing and in death. Today is hard, tomorrow you will still be wanting them to be there, next week your heart will feel warm. It gets easier but they are never forgotten ❤❤

Seeing Eloise rub her face on her memorial flowers was the sign I needed to let my sweet dog go. Thank you. It’s my first time making this decision for a pet and I’ve been agonizing over it. I see a normal, happy moment and think it’s too early. But I see now that if I wait until those moments stop it’ll be too late. She deserves to go still knowing what comfort feels like. Thank you.

Thank you for sharing this. I lost my Annabel Lee only a few weeks before Eloise. The anticipatory grief was heart wrenching. I feel like my emotional journey was very similar to yours and that brings me some comfort. I felt like people didn't care as much about the loss of our cat as they did for our dog, which was sad in itself; they didnt understand the deep, bonding love of a cat 🩷 Eloise and Annabel forever 💞

Me...and half the world is crying with you. The other half of the world doesn't know about this vid. It is so hard losing our companion kittehs. I hope your sweet Eloise flies high and lands gently at the Bridge. Eloise had a wonderful home and she was loved by all.

The loss of a beloved pet is a pain I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I am so sorry for your loss. Fly high little Eloise, fly high.

I am 68 years old and I’ve put many pets to sleep dogs and cats. This is never an easy decision but for some reason if you can’t make the decision, they help you make it by a certain look like I’m done let me go I had one cat lived to 24 years old, who I adored and one day I just looked at her and she looked back at me and I knew, she had been having some problems with weight loss. She had a form of cancer in her intestines, but it was the look she gave me. I picked her up heated bed and all and that’s how we went to the doctor. It’s never easy our pets become our children. And we love them with all our hearts. I have had about 13 cats and six dogs and each if I could’ve traded places with I would’ve. May Elowise rest in peace, knowing how much you loved her.

I'm so sorry for your loss! This video came out at the perfect time... We just got the news that our 17 year old cat has a cancer spot on her back. The vet said he did not recommend surgery to take it off because of her age. So, it's gonna be managing it at home until we can't any longer. 😭 I'm so sad for her. But she's eating, drinking, toileting, and as active as she is being 17, so antibiotics, pain med, and anti-inflammatories to keep her comfortable... until it's time to make that call. 😭Thank you for posting this video. ❤ Your tribute to Eloise is beautiful. ❤

I am sitting here crying with you. What a perfect, loving transition you gave her, though! I still feel horror for the fear my last cat experienced at the end because the vet did not sufficiently sedate him before administering the fatal injection, so he briefly struggled and howled. I still feel guilty and traumatized.

Saying goodbye to my Alice it's been the hardest thing I've ever done. I miss her I feel broken it's been 9 months and I'm still in so much pain 💔 Eloise, we love you so much sweet sweet lady

I lost my King Frank 2/9/24, I'm devastated, best cat child I could have asked for...

I had an awful experience with end of life care for an elderly cat. The vet I was seeing kept suggesting additional treatments and, as I was in a vulnerable state emotionally and because it was the first time I needed to make a euthanasia decision, I let it go on too long. I struggled with a lot of guilt afterwards. From now on, my mantra is "better a day too soon than a minute too late".