Tears, for the boy. I know, as do many men, what he was feeling. I came out in 1983. Was secretly dating a man. My parents became suspicious. Then after about 10 months confronted me. I thought my mother would be accepting. I was given 30 minutes to pack what I wanted, leave house keys, and keys to the car that was given to me as a gift and get OUT. I was in shock as I dragged my luggage to the nearest pay phone. Passing neighbors sitting on their porches in the dark, wondering what had happened. I called my boyfriend who raced to pick me up. When we got to his house I was crying non stop. I woke in the middle of the night, his nose pressed to mine, his eyes looking into mine. I asked “what are you doing?”. He said, “I just wanted to see if you were alright”. Tears again until I fell asleep. I got a job, we tried to make it work, but he didn’t want to live with anyone, code for, “I like to date around”. I moved out, bumping along, dating others. Going back to my first one. Tried to make it work. Then in a split second, he was gone. Not AIDS. Leukemia. I went to the funeral. Felt like I was beginning to spin out of control. Dated others, or should I say jerks. Met a handsome man in his 30’s. Shoulder length blonde hair, stubbly beard and moustache. Rimless glasses. He looked like a model but was shy. We started dating, then 3rd date, he broke my heart. He had just moved back to his parents from Maryland. He was fired from his job, because he had AIDS. More tears. I told him it didn’t affect how I felt about him. We continued to date. Not long after, he found a great job. He wanted to find a house closer to where I lived. I was excited. Then just as quickly, he broke up with me. He couldn’t continue seeing me because there was no future for us. Tears again. I was quiet for several months. Then about a year later I saw his obituary. I went to another funeral. His mother looked shocked when I arrived. She was so happy I came. She walked up to his casket with me. Then she said I’ll leave you alone. I must have stood there too long. Somebody behind me asked “excuse me, are you John?”. I turned around and a tall handsome man shook my hand when I said yes. He was a friend of Stevens from Maryland. He told me he hoped I’d come. He wanted to tell me how much Steven cared about me, and that I’d given him some happiness in the last year. We sat and talked for a bit. Then I felt it was time to go. I found his mother to say goodbye, she asked me to wait. She came back with an envelope. It was a picture of her son she thought I might like to have. It was a tough year. I didn’t really want to go out. I found a shrink. After a while I began treating myself better. My parents and I were getting along. One night after an appointment, I wandered into Tiffany. As I looked around day dreaming, I thought “who can afford all this?”. I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around looking into the eyes of a taller, dark haired guy with a full moustache. He was dressed all in beige. “See anything you like?”. I thought “O.K. who’s screwing with me?” We talked a bit, then he asked me if he could buy me a drink. The following week he called asking me to dinner, “anywhere I’d like to go”. We began dating. When we reached our 10th anniversary, my parents wanted to take us on a cruise to celebrate. Things continued to go well. After a number of years, we lost both my parents, and his folks as well. In the middle of everything, we decided to marry. We escaped for a quick weekend to a state where we’d be legal. 1, 2, 3, we were married. When the housing market started to recover, he said enough of renting, we had to buy a house. He told me, “pick out what you want, I want you to be happy”. I found a beautiful New England style 3 bedroom. I thought it might be too much, but it worked out fine. We were in the house 2 years, and I hadn’t been feeling well. After many doctors, we found someone who knew what they were doing. I was scheduled for exploratory surgery, I woke up with my husband holding my hand with tears in his eyes. I thought this isn’t good. “It’s cancer”. LOTS of tears. The winning streak had to end sometime. After all the treatment, chemo, radiation, surgery, more chemo, I still didn’t feel right. I couldn’t do what I used to do. The doctors said I might never recover fully. My husband is still by my side, I love him more than I ever thought I could. In October we’re going away to a little cabin. It’ll be 32 years, it all flew by in a second. I wish we could go back to that October night at Tiffany and start all over. All the happiness, AND the tears.

So many of us who battled our demons in the 70's and 80's can relate to this story. We've fought so hard to make the road less challenging for those who came after us, but still the fight is being waged. Keep moving the needle forward. So many lives have been lost, families torn apart and friendships destroyed all in the name of ignorance. Never give up. Live your authentic self.

The first kiss really resonated for me. I was caught off guard by my first kiss by a guy. He apologized while I sat there with a stunned look on my face. I was freaked out but wanted to kiss him again. He said he did it because he thought I wanted to kiss him. He was totally right, but I wasn't ready to admit it.

This was so educational for the millions of men in the world who struggles with identity issues. I’m on the edge of my seat hoping for a part 2🔥🔥🔥

Short films are never appreciated enough. This film managed to tell a strong story in only 15 minutes and did a better job than a lot of films that drag on for 2 hours. I was impressed with the acting as well. The father in particular was well cast and the scenes with him had the strongest emotion. To anyone watching this who's in the closet, I will say that some people's reactions will surprise you. My dad always made comments about certain clothes being gay or mentioning gay couples on tv in negative ways. However, after I came out he completely changed his tune and has been very supportive. Never assume how people will react. Just make sure you only come out if it's safe and you have plans in place

Sometimes a short film evokes a stronger emotional reaction than a full feature-length production. Homophobia (internalised and regular) isn't eradicated in all parts of the world equally; even within the borders of a single country there can be areas, subcultures or classes whose attitudes still lag behind. To assume that homophobia doesn't exist in northern working class areas of the UK just because gay couples can legally get married, is to overlook the individual, specific causes that need addressing.

This ending made me so angry and sad! This was well-done! It needs a part 2 or just a series overall. Mike is just a loveable, cute, scruffy guy who’s true to himself, and Aaron still struggles with a new side he finally got to explore. It’s so tragic. Please do more with this couple! :(

I'm sure I'm not the only one who needs a part 2 😭

I know the actor who played Aaron and I am exceptionally proud of his work in this film! I didn’t realize that it had been released onto KZfaq! 👏🏻👏🏻

Oh it's so sad. I've had my heart broken so many times falling in love with people that either didn't know who they were or couldn't accept it. That's ok for them, each of us has their own journey but its tortious! I can relate so much with Mike but I feel so heavily for Aaron too. I really hope there is another part to this and they can find each other again! x

Not even one bad review, which says a lot about this film in just about every way. Emotional and real. Well acted and filmed. Great job boys.

This is an exquisite film and very sad. I hope there's a 2nd part for this with happy ending.

Beautiful film. I identified with all three characters instantly. Please make another one with the same people, they were all excellent. You can feel the joy, anguish, confusion, as they try to sort through their feelings. Well done! [Seattle Washington]

Powerful and touching. Aiden Nord's eyes just drew me into him - like fiery darkest onyx jewels. they almost transfix those who look into them. I hope he (and Miles) have gone on to great futures at whatever they do. And, man, do I LOVE that Northern England accent.

Short but very powerful. Many of us went through this period of feeling unsure, scare and fear of rejection from people and society around us. but I do want Aaron and Mike have a very happy ending.

Beautiful and powerful short film. The excitement of young love, the angst of self-acceptance, and the sheer terror of even thinking about coming out, all in one. It hits close to home. Brilliant production.

This is a really good short that doesn't make fun of LGBT love but actually embraces it in a more justified way while still showing hardships that are faced

I don't consider this movie a bad or sad ending. In my opinion, Aaron is just not ready, he needs more time. He just does not know yet how to tell his dad. Aaron wanted to tell his dad, but at the last moment he holds back. I guess scared, plus he sensed the time wasn't there yet. And dad has no clue about his son's sexuality. Judging from dad's earlier behaviour, I figure he might be in the beginning not be happy about it, but somehow I think he will accept it. As for Mike, understandable he reacted dissapointed and walked away, but as he said to Aaron, he just likes Aaron more than 'I just like you', which, I believe, means he truly loves him. I don't think he will just give up on Aaron so easily. And let's not forget, it's Aaron first crush or whatever you call it. I did not expect him to have met his 'one and only''after his first encounter with a guy and be happily married and be with him ''till death do us part'. At least he didn't commit suicide or wasn't murdered (which, as we all know, sadly truly happens). About the film: I like the setting. Sound and music are perfect. I think the acting on all 3 of them was brilliant. The chemistry between the actors playing Aaron and Mike was spot on. Love the accent. Well done!

This isn’t in my opinion a sad ending. It’s what I call an open ending because it the film gives you the imagination as to what happens next. Neither of them died which most films have the characters doing so either they leave it as it is or Aaron tells his dad and ends up calling Mike to apologise and ask to start again. I prefer the latter. 10 out of 10 for an excellent film with actors who had such good chemistry. Here’s hoping they do a sequel 🤞🙏

Wow. I understand this totally. I grew up in the north of England. Dad was an ex coal miner, mum a catholic. She screamed at me one day "Are you one of them, and arsehole poker"? I was devastated. Attempted suicide at 19. Stayed in the closet most of my life. I just hoped the film would continue and Aaron and Mike work it out and Aarons dad supports him. Would be a great part two with a happy ending. The write up into to the film says "he begins to consider the impact this (Continuing the relationship), will have on the rest of his life". It will be a worse impact by discontinuing the relationship. He will never forget it. I met someone on a train when I was 17 but pulled back because I was scared. I have never forgotten it and still regret not moving forward and allowing fear to stop me.

Very touching, the stolen kisses and especially the chemistry between the two. But the worry about disappointing one’s parents is never far from the mind.

This is a truly fantastic portrayal of the hell that some of us go through. As many others have said, please do more with these two characters. There is a great story to expand upon here. Great opportunity.

An unfulfilling ending. Overall, a beautiful story. So much more yet to be told. That father could easily accept his son. Everything about him revealed compassion and understanding. I hope there's more to this story in the future.

This short movie is just the reality for so many people out there who aren't ready to be themselves because they think their family is gonna reject them or worse😢. This movie 100% deserves a part 2, Aaron and Mike deserve to be together😢. It must feel horrible you wanting to be with someone, but you "can't" because everything's so confusing😪

This is a heart wrenching short film! I learned early that I can not live my life for other people. I would have gone insane and died young.

Beautiful short. The ending is very open. It leaves room for ideas. When is father said: “I don’t like what you are turning in too” can be viewed from different angles. It doesn’t have to be negative. Maybe he sees his son struggling and lying and this is what he doesn’t like. I had my own struggles and it took me very long to come out. I came out 3 years ago. Blessed with two beautiful sons and surrounded by great people. But still it was a struggle.

I saw "touching short file" and thought it was going to sweet and instead I walk away with angst, hurt, and a ton more emotion than I thought could be fit into 15 min. Well done! I will keep my eye out of more from you. This was amazing!

beautifully acted. I've been there. heartbreaking.

A beautifully made film with some very touching moments, like when the boys are sitting drinking tea and one says, we`d best be getting off` and the other clings to his mug like he`s trying to hold the moment and make it last , as if he senses that it won`t last forever and he`ll not have another like it with this guy. Life is full of those perfect moments in what turn out to be fleeting relationships, the kind we look back on later and regret the chances we didn`t have the courage to take. very well done and wonderfully acted.

j'ai adoré cette virée des deux lovers pendant le week-end , c'est toujours difficile de comprendre ce qui se passe quand on commence à aimer.Les deux acteurs sont remarquables, on a l'impression qu'ils sont faits l'un pour l'autre.Thank you NQVmedia for this adventure.More series and films gay please.Big kiss

My 1st kiss with another man gave me my life, and after it happened I began living my life for me. I was 22, just out of college, working my very 1st job, & I met him at a rather exclusive professional association dinner...he was the bartender as well as an employee of the organization. I was there at the invitation of the main host & represented the company I worked for. We spent the night together at his place...he was my 1st & I fell in love & so did he. 3 weeks later we began living together. In time my parents figured out my life but we remained quiet, especially with my father. Within a year my mother & I were talking to each other openly. Our 1st experiences are always emotional & life changing events. Every fellow should know that beginning to live for yourself creates freedom & happiness.

Beautiful, touching film. We'd all like to meet a confident, loving and gentle bloke like him.

That's It? Second part with happy ending please 🙏

when they were just laying there and one asked the other "so how are you so cool with it, then?" and he answered with a chuckle and "i just deal with it" it hit me especially hard. accepting the fact that you're gay when others don't seem to ever be able to do so is a challenge for sure. but it's also they only way out. you just have to deal with it, because you have to live with it, no matter what others think.

This touching story parallels the relationship with the only "love of my life." Lost. No where to be found or seen again.. "POOF" "Love is Love" brilliant film!

Nice movie. I won't pretend that I didn't like the cute actors. The movie is really well made and is so realistic in its portrayal of all the characters. Special thanks for the English subtitles .... being from India, I wouldn't understand a line without them. Also, it makes my heart heavy when I realize so many people in the world still hate themselves just for loving someone. That's so unjust. This is not a negative movie. It just leaves many things to the viewers' interpretation.

This ending got me crying, screaming, and throwing the cluck up.

This film is so heartbreakenly real. Kudos to all of you involved in bringing to life the almost universal angst of coming to grips with being gay. Someday........

Wow.. impressive how this captured just about every gay man’s story at some point in their lives ..loving someone and getting turned away for no fault of theirs .. 💔

Wow! A beautiful story, with so much truth. It’s so hard coming out, you’re so afraid of what will happen. Will I be accepted, disowned , hated, beat up, rejected, or even killed. I was lucky, my parents were loving and excepting.

Life is too short to live life through our parents. They had their chance, we must live ours to the fullest.

A lot of us have been in this situation. And sometimes denial is an easier path to tread.

What a fantastic film and it has stirred up a lot of memories of the one I let get away out of fear that I haven't thought about in a long time.

Aww, that is touching indeed.....and sad...I hope young men like these can find their way to truly accept themselves for who they are.

one of the stories of my life... after all these years it still hurts

Crazy how a short film can be so relatable ……. I wish nothing but peace and happiness for everyone in the comments section ,you all are worthy ✌️

A thought provoking short film. We all must own our truth if we're to survive and flourish. Love is love......

Growing up with a loving father, an Alpha man in All of his ways, who survived the Japanese war&labor camps, he raised me and was watching me, he sometimes told me stories, with slightly LGBT content, he knew about me, even before Me! He never treated me differently , after he passed, I heard from my siblings, that he knew about me , he loved me unconditionally, I was his First born Son, it took me some time to forgive myself, not telling him personally, I miss him every day!

i would like to think Aaron finally accepted being gay and after a few months, he and Mike find each other and get back together

The actor who plays Mike, Miles Higson is talented !!! 👏👏👏👏

Mike represents all I want in a man: full of life, smile, easy going, no hard time.. I felt his energy, his passion, not too intense or fiery, but warm like a fireplace in winter, cozy and inside-inviting. I love how he totally surrenders to love, not give a sh1t to the world, as long as Aiden keep walk side by side with him. I got hurt so bad seeing that negation, and Mike reacts exactly like I react: smiling with surprise, like that's unbeliavable, like a prank. It’s so sad. And I want a love like Mike, but I fall in the reality that most of us still acts like Aiden, for survive purposes.

Life is just like that. Not only of joys and fulfillment of desires. It's much more complex. Between desire and reality there are great distances. Not always controlled by us. There are factors that imply decisions that hurt us, that mark us deeply and, even so, we follow them. From the outside, everything is much simpler, but when we are inside the situation, we don't always see a solution, other possibilities of paths. Beautiful script! Careful direction with the actors. And the cast's complicity is very empathetic and great. I loved! Congratulations!

Wow, this short film hit me hard, I'm in tears...because I did the same thing he did when I was still in the closet, except instead of meeting face to face, I did it over a text after we went out...because I was so scared to come out to my family...I regretted to this day. And he was the very first boy I went out with. I move to a different city now...it was 7 or 8 years ago...if fate ever let us encounter each other again, I owe him a big apology, because I feel so bad that I never gave an explanation why I call it off. 😢😭☹️ (Just in case he ever read this, this is our first date, we went to eat at a vietnamese restaurant, then we went to watch guardian of the galaxy (the first one), then he offer to take me on a second date to a coffee place he knows (we never made it to the second date...).)

I love how the blond guy goes after what he wants, driven by love and youth and the world abound. I wish I had his guts to just push myself onto someone based on sexuality. I’d have run on the first no.

I enjoyed this.The ending is what it is and can be interpreted many ways. Not every story is a triumphant, happy, or win/win. It's a teachable moment, a new experience, and/or a harsh reality. He wasn't ready and the other one was. Hope is not always rooted in the fantastical, it can be rooted in reality. Bravo to the cast.

This is an amazing film, with brilliant acting by all and a very moving story. Whoever wrote & directed this could not have done a better job. All in 15 minutes.

This film needs a sequel it’s absolutely brilliant great actors brilliantly talented ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

that hurts💔, why sh*t like this always happens to us?? i hope mike understands aaron's situation and be there for him, he should be the courage and strength to aaron for finding himself and to overcome that struggle to come out, i'll be pissed off if there isn't a part 2 for this, c'mon man😒

i want so much a Mike in my life ! he is handsome and so adorable ...

So many went through this. Many still do. Hopefully the heartache makes it easier for the next person to live their truth without the pain. Hopefully that one takes nothing for granted.

This ended so sad. I loved it. Never have I found love like that.

Nicely done and well acted by Aiden, Miles and Howard. I so remember those days

EXCELENTE REALIZACIÓN... MUY SENTIDA HISTORIA, CONVINCENTES ACTUACIONES, HERMOSOS PERSONAJES, GRANDIOSA FOTOGRAFÍA. QUÉ BUENA...!!!

Beautiful, whilst at the same time so heartbreaking because of it's raw truth. To know that in 2022, right at this very moment someone is fighting that outdated mentality, feeling all alone, trying to be someone their not. Take care X

This is a good part of a much longer story. Would be terrific as a full length feature.

This was a beautiful movie but why doesn't have to have a sad ending? I just loved it! They were really so much in love! Drs.

So poignant, but this story needs a part 2.

An eminently good film to watch. All the characters were instantly believable.

Wow. Short, understandable, and painful. I thought the dad would be so supportive honestly, but it seems like it wasn't 🙃. I really loved this short film it holds reality.

such a cute couple. I want my happy ending !

Liked it alot , Please make another part , there's so much left to the story ...

I was him in 1982. Brought back so many painful memories. It did get better though.

How rare... a gay story ending badly... how rare.

Crying 😢 so emotional

Although I did not like the beginning of this short film, I grew to like it more and more, after the first five minutes. This remains very timely, given today's challenges against the LGBTQIAPlus Community. Lovely and touching.

Utterly engaging. So much potential for a full drama. The characters felt so authentic (along with the acting).

I liked the cinematography, the contrasts in lighting, the closeups, the long shots of the scenery. You captured moods and the plot in short blasts, which emphasized the character's nervousness about whom he was. (Too bad it couldn't be done without the smoking, whether tobacco or weed. Is there not some other device that can occupy hands than cigs? I've seen people die of lung cancer---wouldn't want it to happen to these handsome dudes.)

Great movie, it's about complicated life, so sad

Sure stirs up the emotions,glad I've come to love myself. It can be a rough road.

Damn! That hurt to watch. However, experience tells us that eventually, even in spite of ourselves, we become who we are meant to be. Sending strength to all.

So sad! And so true! I grew up in a conservative part of the country and it took me years go come to terms with who I am and i has interferred with intimacy many times. I can't believe, it's been a year since I posted this note and saw this touching movie. I still to internal battle with being gay and have met many men here in gay "mecca," San Francisco. It's so so difficult for gay men to be intimate with each other after so much oppression and prejudice.

So well done- The actors are great. expand the story

Loved this movie far to short ...actors and script were excellent ...They were playing roles that were real and they played their parts in such a brilliant manner so real loved it and was moved by the actors and the story..........well done to all involved hope to see more of this type of quality drama

love this. It's only 15 minutes but the emotions are so intense. I really wish the film was longer..Aaron and Mike are so sweet together ❤ but Aarons Dad made me really pissed...i will never get why and how parents can be like this to their own child... I hope there will be more good gay movies in the future. Sadly most are only short Films. The ending made me think but also sad...i really wanted a happy ending for them. I'm glad its open for interpretation though...so i can just imagine they get together again. I feel so bad for Mike

I know I am not alone in being able to relate to this. Coming to terms with my homosexuality tore me apart and it took many, many years before I could accept who t was. I hurt so many people just like Mike. I have lost contact with them now but wish I could just say sorry. My advice for people who are newly grappling with all this is,:"just get on with your life, love those you know deep down you love and love you, life is too short to worry about the things you are worried about". If you can do that your life will be free and happier. You will free yourself from absolutely unnecessary angst and pain.

Thanks for the Vietnamese sub 🥰 I like this short film a lot. I've watched it many times🌈🤗

Sad, but compelling short film 😞 Powerful storytelling. Would love to see how Aaron's story progresses. Great job 👏

I grew up in a very homophobic family. Was also a break-dancer in a hip hop scene so all the rap music, lyrics and social circles equally homophobic. It was and continues to be a journey growing past the trauma it leaves a young gay mind that's closeted within a toxic reality that's all they know of for safety and connection. I've unconsciously repeatedly gravitated to abusive relationships since then, where I'm perpetually left feeling guilty if even treated poorly or unfairly. It's brutal to admit but upon inner-awareness, my own choosing given my silent mental self craves an abusive "person" whether it be friend or lover... to somehow "wake up" and realize their wrong doing. A cross none of us should be seeking to bare. To whomever is reading this... it's "okay" to let other humans go if they continue to diminish you. Of course it's healthy to at least try... give them the chance to grow by translating to them the hurt they cause you... given even us LGBTQI+ folks have our own flaws that prob. hurts others... alas, if you try this and they continue to dismiss you... it's fine to walk away. You're going to be... okay. I promise you. Life has a way of opening up to those who wish to walk it in their truth. May the stars guide us all and continue to expand our species awareness of both ourselves... and of others. Warmth and bearhugs. ox

Must every gay movie out there have a sad ending? Enough of the sad endings, I'm tired. Y'all make it seem like being gay means you can't have a happy life 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

I and probably many other watching this film are able to relate to Aaron and the emotional turmoil he is going through. The saddest part is I was eighteen fifty years ago.... And nothing has changed.

Tremendous acting. I hope both the leads have great careers as that would be well deserved.

Wait, what? That’s it? OMG, how sad! Why why why just end it like that. 😩

another typical "SAD" gay film. why did i even expect it to end well hahahaha

Beautifully acted and filmed !

I liked the way the boy with the dark hair played his part. Very reserved, very afraid, very cautious. Just like in real life. It’s such a difficult plight that nature serves, to those who have those kinds of feelings. It’s not right or wrong. It just is.

Part 2 pleaseeeeeee 🙏 this short film was make my hearth fall in love, with the story and the actor 🇮🇩🇮🇩🇮🇩 eps 2 pleaseee

we need a part 2 of this, infact a whole seriess, this was so good but you cant just live it there, please no:(

naw, such a good flick! Got all the right pieces and chucked it all into 15 minutes; just like life is. Well done. Thank you for sharing your tallent with the world!

This is very good short film. After many years I want to share snd remove a bit pain from my chest. This is the same reason why I'm in the closet my whole life. Now at age of 38 still cannot come out since I know my family wouldn't accept it. Maybe they could but I'm afraid of their judgmental looks, their disappointment. They still talk abot marriage, grandchildren that I cannot offer. Not at least on way they want. Yes it's true we live for ourselves, not for others. But damn it would hurt so much more to be left without people that I spend my entire life and love more than myself. And it's been few years, more than six to be honest that I'm alone. I stop searching the perfect one, anyone. Even if I do regret my decision, since I have so much love, care and many more beautiful things to give, still I stand behind it.

Needs to be a series or feature film.