yes, this really helped, this is exactly how I felt, ike to a T

Man I needed to hear (or read) this, thanks and may God bless you

Great insight. This is very helpful and I hope you get better with your OCD and scrupulosity. I hope you become a mother one day. God bless you and your family. ❤️💕🙏🏽

I’ve been in the same situation before! You aren’t alone! Praying for you!! ❤️

The consequence of sin is death. Jesus died instead of sinners. So there is no eternal death that waits for you. The death was defeated. God loves you.

I'm here for you, brother. I promise there is an army of people praying for you.

Just you commenting about this is going to help a lot of people. Thank you for your witness.

You’re the man for being vulnerable and sharing. So many suffer from similar things. God is good. You are Normal.

Yep. All truth is God's truth, so it doesn't matter who says it.

whats the mame of the youtube ?

St Therese of Lisieux, St Alphonsus Ligueri, etc. had Scrupulosity, but by the Grace of God , they overcame . Through The Lord , we have endless possibilities

It's very good. I already read it.

I think that was St. Ignatius of Loyola's way of overcoming scrupulosity!

Great advice

My son has OCD and is seeing an Neurologist. This makes me realize that there are so many people dealing with this kind of thing. Actually we are all dealing with stuff. I think it would benefit him to see a therapist.

The consequence of sin is death. Jesus died instead of sinners. So there is no eternal death that waits for you. The death was defeated. God loves you.

Praying for you and I thought of you/prayed when this video came out a couple of days ago that you would see it. I’m glad Matt posted a little clip of this from the longer video. ❤️🙏🏻

My friend, I totally understand. I've avoided communion for well over a year because I never thought I got confession 'right' and it was just easier to go to mass, avoid serious sin, but stay away from communion just in case I wasn't forgiven. I have made many, many confessions, often every few days, and I've re-made my general confession into the Church (I'm a new Catholic) about 4 times. The last one took 45 minutes, 8 pages kf notes, and hours and hours to prepare for. Each time I leave the confessional, I feel great. Then a few days later I think uh oh.... I wasn't contrite, because I did the sin again. Or I think 'I spoke too much, the priest didn't understand me, the sin wasn't absolved. I even went back once, attempted to confess every bad thought I've ever had, struggled to express these thoughts accurately because they were so minor, and then realised later that in my 45 minute confession, I actually said something in desperation that I realised later wasn't strictly 100% true, and then had a complete meltdown because I felt like I'd lied in confession and messed up my re-do, of my re-do, of my re-do. I pulled out my pen and paper, and started writing them all down, yet again..... I actually left the Church for a few months after this, I gave up. But I realised I still needed God in my life, so I came back and found the most conservative, traditional priest I could find (because they have a reputation for being strict, and woumd honestly tell me if I made a valid confession or not) and I laid out all my questions - was this a sin? Did this invalidate my confession? Am I in a state of grace? Can I do a certain action without sin? Do I need to re-do my old confessions? Etc etc. He listened to every stupid thought I ever had, and then told me never to go back and do any old confessions again. He told me why he thinks my confessions were still valid (even when I doubted) and told me that the standard I set for a 'perfect' confession was far too high. I asked him what I do on the day of judgement if he was wrong, and he told me: 'Everything I've told you is from 2000 years of Church tradition in dealing with scrupulosity. I have suffered from this myself, and found peace only in total and complete abandonment to God, which has taught me real trust in him. Nothing we do is ever good enough, which is what the scrupulous person discovers. Scrupulosity can be a gift in realising that, because it forces us to look to God to cover the imperfections we will ALWAYS have'. He gave me permission to use '10 Commandments for the scrupulous' (google it) which I like, and told me that whenever an anxious thought comes to mind, treat it like a temptation (I.e. ignore it) and move on, and commanded me never to engage in a thought that says 'you're not forgiven'. It's a work in progress, but it helps. To assist, I pay particular attention at mass to say the prayer during the Eucharistic prayer, when we say, 'I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof, but only say the word, and my soul shall be healed'. It is a beautiful prayer. I also whisper the Jesus prayer, 'Lord Jesus Christ, son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner' as I bow to the host before reception. Scrupulosity has made me realise that I will never be enough. I can't work my way out of this. I can never make a perfect enough action to please God, which has forced me into accepting that the only way out is through his love for me - it's he that saves me, not me saving myself. This is my mindset now, after all my trials. I will never be good enough. But He can make me good enough, I'll never be anything without him.

You are probably not being as specific as your conscience is telling you to be

@@AussieCatholic Thank you for posting this comment.

you should look into “Catholic Counselors” they are expensive but it is so worth it. i’ve been counseled by them for about 2 months now and i’m doing so much better!! i will also keep you in my prayers!!

Thanks. God bless you.

Hoo boy. Seeing my past self here. It gets better. It really does get better. It doesn't ever really go away, but it lessens CONSIDERABLY. I still get nasty intrusive thoughts, but less of them. I'm able to let them pass by without having to react to them now, and I'm much more at peace. You'll get there too. It takes time to retrain a brain, hang in there.

Wow I do the twitching and rolling thing too !!! Glad I’m not the only one

Wow the knives thing I totally had, though I was afraid "how do I know I wouldn't stab someone?" While walking in the dining hall.

I've had OCD my entire life I suppose (wasn't diagnosed until my early 20s though), but when my first son was born it spiraled out if control. I think stressful life changescan aggravate it. I've learned to manage it much better now, it does get easier. I found the exposure therapy extremely useful especially during that time and it helped me alot

Yes Amen. Fill your head up with God's love and mercy keep studying God's truth. Trust in God's redemption. Some of this could be hearing that God is angry with us. God is not angry at us. Especially people dealing with mental issues because Jesus knows their struggles.

I'd encourage you to continue learning about the Catholic Faith. God loves you. And you can also get professional help with OCD

@@amask99 Thank you! Things are much better these days... Appreciate your comment and still learning :)

The consequence of sin is death. Jesus died instead of sinners. So there is no eternal death that waits for you. The death was defeated. God loves you.

I couldn’t do it without my therapist. I hope you get the help you need

I don't know that a good confessor should give a scrupulous person an entire rosary as penance anyway.

The consequence of sin is death. Jesus died instead of sinners. So there is no eternal death that waits for you. The death was defeated. God loves you.

Yes!

I had that same problem (or still do but not so much anymore). It took me 45 mins. to an hour to pray the rosary because I kept repeating a hail mary/Our Father when I wasn’t paying 90-100% attention to every word.

Yes actually, scrupulous people tend to worry about their past sins they already confessed and doubting if the sins are forgiven. And yes, if they're confessed properly, they are forgiven and we shouldn't hold on to that anymore because that would be an insult to God's wonderful mercy. Easier said than done, I know🤣So, if you haven't confessed these sins yet, you do have some reasons to worry. If you have, let go of it and trust in God. You're right, the devil wants to steal our peace by making us stuck in our past. Stay focused on the present, that would be my personal advice.

@@emamartinic4821 That’s superb advice. Thank you. Nice to hear that. I have confessed so your right. I have to trust in God's mercy. God bless you.

@@stpatrick614 I'm glad I could help😊

Not sure if OCD but I relate to you there with "mental hoarding" (good term you coined there). And then when I find out I am mental hoarding I try to find a way out by THEN trying to lean on Jesus and affirm myself that He is all I need. But really I need to persevere in that and not mental hoarder as you say. I would think of mental hoarding as more of an offshoot of greed potentially - greed for knowledge and self-accomplishment.

@@turkey3gwiddle I think it is a greed for knowledge and self accomplishment for me. It is like I want to know everything. I guess that is pride.

I don't know if hoarding is a form of OCD or not, but I think it is hoarding. I used to know someone who saved every issue of the newspaper to read later. Eventually there was nowhere to sit in the house and very little space to walk. This was back before the internet was a big thing. You are lucky if you can keep your hoarding habits virtual.

@@nightyew2160 I wonder how unhealthy it is in the long run

Same. Or I recite a short prayer such as “Jesus Christ, Son of David, have mercy on me a sinner” or “Most precious blood of Jesus Christ, save us and the whole world”.

It’s about consent. There’s a hierarchy here. The senses introduce an image / sensation / sound etc which evokes an emotion. This so far is not necessarily voluntary but part of the ‘invitation’ to sin. There might even be a feeling of pleasure associated with the thought etc. Still no sin here. The emotions are ‘sent up’ as it were to the rational mind, which contemplates what to do with it (all this is happening in a split second oftentimes) then the mind starts to think about it in terms of making a decision. The will decides. The will is where the consent or not comes in. Eg. Beautiful lady walks past. Emotions and feelings are stirred up. Not necessarily voluntary so no sin yet. There is a feeling of pleasure perhaps associated with the thoughts of what the body desires. Still no sin yet. Then the mind says ‘should I pursue this woman in action? Should I just think about her in a lustful way? Still no sin until the Will decides yes. Full consent if one fully and deliberately chooses ‘yes let’s go’. No consent if someone refuses the invitation so to speak and says ‘I am attracted to pursue this but no I won’t, and turns thoughts / actions away as immediately as they are aware of what’s going on. This latter one is what actually increases virtue. There is no virtue without temptation. That’s why God allows it because then we triumph, grow in virtue and Satan is humiliated.

I agree. I think knowing that scrupulosity is a form of OCD really helps with the distinction.

Yes.

Yes. And it looks that he overcame it in the best way, by accepting what Jesus did for him.

@@loveandideas7826 Luther suffered very much due to abuse he endured from his toxic parents, who beat him and abused him emotionally. Because of his toxic relationship with his parents, he grew to view God in the same way, he saw God as someone who is hard to please. He once said, and I quote "I hated God." He joined the strictest monastery he could find, and punished himself through his mental condition of scrupulosity, to try to please God just the way he always tried to please his father and failed. Everything Luther did was a result of his childhood trauma, a lifetime of wrestling his own internal demons, feeling like he could never please anyone let alone God. It's a very sad tormented life he lived. Had he joined a more joyful order such as the Franciscans, had he had parents who loved him, had he had a more balanced and safe childhood environment, all would have been very different for him. It's a very sad story indeed.

According to Catholic church teaching God is worse than any abusive parent.

@@loveandideas7826 that's the lie that protestants like to spread in their churches. Until one day their eyes are opened to not only the full love of God's grace in the Catholic church, but the fullness of it's truths spanning 2,000 years. I encourage you to take a deeper look, the way former Protestants like Trent Horn, Dr Scott Han, and Jimmy Akin did. It doesn't happen over night, or by engaging in endless debates on KZfaq, but by informing oneself, reading, listening, praying. Praying for you.