I've had BPD for many many years and have tried to commit suicide many times. It takes a lot of effort to think the way you do, you've learned a lot about yourself, I'm still very much lost, unconnected with it. I've been at level 5 for a long time, I've been highly suicidal for months, even saved up my medications to take, but a year ago I only ended up in the I.C.U for four days with a tube down my throat. I don't know what to do. I feel disconnected from this world and have had many psychotic breaks from reality. I'm actually going threw one now. I find you interesting and encouraging but find myself stuck. Keep doing what you're doing and thank you.

WOW, this was one of the BEST videos I have seen in a long time. In fact, it may have been one of the best I have seen on KZfaq ever! It's so well thought out, so planned, I can tell the hard work and love that went into it. It makes sense and fills the watcher with HOPE. You are quite amazing, Bas. :)

I have just been diagnosed a few weeks back after I had a pretty bad night and hurt some one I really care about. I got in trouble with the law and this person no longer wants to know me. As much as it is a relief to be able to put a name to my behaviours and understand more about my thought processes, this is hands down the most difficult period of my life. I want to thank you for your videos, they help so much. Please keep up the excellent work.

@crazymadonna Aww thank you for the compliment. It's great to be back!

@TheVamp1res I am doing well, thanks for asking. Hope you are ok too. Thanks for the support!

I'm going to buy some notebooks and actually follow through with this... It's the best advice I've ever got.

Welcome back Bas. It's suprising how the whole 'take action' notion of your crisis plan actually does work. I've thrown myself into work after my dad died in March and it's helped keep me afloat and greatly benefited the bank balance which in turns helps the moods as I can treat myself more. The absolute worst thing you can do when your around level 3/4 is to sit and stew. Thanks for another great and very informative video. The gok-wan-esque onscreen keywords are a great addition.

@tostrivetoseek i am sorry for your loss. And you are so right about the sit and stew thing! Of course everyone can have a bad day but we need to make the best of it for ourselves. I wish you all the best.

Whoa! When you went on that rant while talking about level 3 is exactly my thoughts very often, very extreme but too often.

I watch this video again.. and its like a slap back to reality.. I noticed that when I smile or laugh at something when I'm in denial... Someone has confronted me about it.. and all I can say is that "I'm okay, you don't know what your talking about.." but I feel so guilty and I don't know why I can just be upfront..

Watching you go through the levels of crisis was like....Wow..I've been there so many times man, thanks for putting it into words. I don't feel like such an outcast knowing theres plenty others who struggle with this. Thanks for the post

@TheTerrifictara You are more than welcome. And I am not going anywhere with my voice lol. No but seriously, I really hope you are ok and that the summersun can also be good to you.

I have watched all your videos and found them very helpful. It helps to see other men who struggle also struggle with BPD. Thank you for all the work you do with the vids they are a blessing in my life and help he feel that I am not alone. You are very brave for doing what you do.

you have no idea how happy this video made me :) ever since summer began iv been feeling so shitty and tired. Iv had a bad couple of months and for some reason i kept telling myself that if I saw a new video of yours it would perhaps make me happier. it honestly did, i have no idea why but I dont think id be able to make it without ur voice of reason. not to mention that I love listening to your voice and when you just talk XD thank you sosososos much

Bookmarked this video; now it's a permanent part of my "toolbox!"

@crimsontears85 :) Yeah, it's great to be back. Lots of love back!

Hey! I just discovered your videos and I really love them. It's great to see someone speaking about bpd. You are really brave and I admire you for what you do. Sometimes one of the most helpful thing is to just put other faces to the illness to know we are not alone xo

This is EXACTLY what i NEEDED!!!!!!! I am suffering and i see this video. Welcome back and thank you!!!!!

I second Hannah Prescher's sentiment. Bas, your work is amazingly needed and lays healing in reach of countless people everywhere, who are otherwise counted out! Thank you so much Bas!

BASBASBAS!! So happy you're back! X-D With your genius editing skills. Why does this video not have like a million views yet? It was perfect! Well structured, attention getting, and sooooo helpful! Not to mention I could listen to you all day long with that calming voice. All I could think during this video was "He needs to do this professionally, I don't know what 'this' is, but he needs to be doing it" if that made any sense. So happy to see you, so don't leave again.

I wish I had a friend like you, you understand bpd so much and so postive

Thank you for this video, can't believe I learn more about myself and how to take care of my "issues" with every video of yours I watch. Thank you!

Thank you thank you thank you for this. I watched the the 5 faces of bpd and kind of fell apart because I see this in my mental health. You are helping me get back into better mental health.

This video actually helped me out of level 4, dankjewel Bas :) All I have to work on now is writing down my crisis plan :D

@MeAndMyBlackTable Yes, What You Want is an awesome song! Definately worth the wait! Cant wait until Oct 11 for the full album to be released! And so very glad you are back Bas!!!!!

Bas ! welcome back my friend its awesome to hear your voice & see you again! hope you are doing greatt!

@cat1dog789 Thank you for saying that. And you are welcome ofcourse.

Amazing video! Great way of describing the five stages, I guess it is easier if you experienced them yourself. Thank you for the links and keep up the great work!

Yay!! So happy you are back! Awesome video like always! Thanx :)

Another great video Bas, well done. Made me think about myself and how I follow patterns often like you describe, probably not a severe as you describe but they are there all the same and lowering my mood. Why we possibly highlight 'negatives' and not connect with 'positives' I think is such a problem. As you point we can change this with a bit of work.

This video should have a million views!

You are amazing, thank you so much for this video. I don't think I'm being dramatic when I say it changed my life!

Welcome back Bas :) Great video!

awesome video. it totally made sense to me and it was dome in a way that anybody could follow. well done, bas! :D

Welcome back! Missed you! You're great

I found this link while trying to get certificates on Academyofpeerspecialists.org and it's a shame that I would have never found this otherwise. It's amazing. Thank you.

i'm happy that i found your channel,your video are exactly what i needed :)

This was so helpful and made complete sense in the context of my life :) Thank you.

You are so wonderful for sharing this.

OMG YOU'RE BACK! :D how are you bas? :) i've missed your videos so much

@mentalhealthhelpUK Thank you sweeties :) Your opinion means so much to me!! Huge knuffels back! Ik hou van jullie :D xxx.

This is so helpful Bas, thank you!

Brillant video, really glad I found it. Thank you for another great video.

@CandysAllMediaReview :) You are welcome!! And thanks!

@realmofoz You're welcome and good luck. Wish you all the best.

Thank you, man - very helpful tips! I wish I've met you when I was living in the Netherlands...

again very helpful, thanks, keeping them coming

@whiteasafeather You're welcome and good luck!

A well formed plan of action. Great video.

hey bas I been on code red that past week or so... thanks for your great vids! I feel like I'm losing my mind, I also have BDP and everyone ignors me doesn't wants to help me cause I;m just filled with too much rage, but your vids are very helpful. :) I feel calmer now....

This video is helping a lot. im at level yellow everyother day and working so hard!!! this gives me hope. thank you! xx jenn

this has helped sooooo much. im so glad i found this guy :D xxxxx

wow honestly i did not realize im almost at level 5 i mean just brilliant this was very very helpful, not much more i can say just thank you.

This is so useful. You are amazing. Thank you for being you! :)

@CrespinMinPin :) So great to hear that. It feels good to be back. P.s. Loved your little video for Amy Lee. The new single rocks!!! :)

Bas, I honestly think you should have your own Android/iOs app! It could reach loads of people in need who do not know about your channel. Seriously!

I would rather listen to your words of wisdom than any psychiatrist on the planet :^) Today I learned from this video that I am at Level 3. Bit of a shock to me really... didn't see it coming this time. Not that I've EVER seen any of my Bad Stuff coming in the past either, if I'm honest. :^) Now I just need to actually start making some of those lists you were talking about.... hmmm, I may be some time... ! Please keep making these videos - so nice to see uplifting stuff about mental illness.

@Downtownpatrol HEyyyy Laura, How are you?! Great to hear from you again! I hope there are some new awesome Downtownpatrol vids for me to watch :D

very professional,Bas,I liked it! I have a question for you: are you in DBT?

This is absolutely brilliant!!!! Thank you so much!!! :) I plan to do these ideas and share them with my FP (Favorite Person).

Thank you! This is really helpful!!!

@TheNiamhBrett Thank you.

Your videos really help me. I want to make myself a "what if's" book. Can you go into more detail on it? Maybe an outline of how to get one started, i'm stumped on how to get it going.

@startingoutbackwards Thanks! I made a crisis plan myself a few years ago. It helped me to see where i stood since it can change on a daily basis for someone with BPD. Now, i don't need it anymore. I am doing well :)

WONDERFUL VIDEO IT HELPED A LOT!

@powrxplor69 You're welcome of course :)

@BuriedSoldier Thanks Steph! :)

@SeleneFaery Hi Eleni, that must be hard. And exhausting. Hope you are ok, oh and it's great to be back :)

@Denistargirl Good luck Denise! I hope the video was helpful and you'll be better.

im at level 5..and i think i have this strange habit of shutting down...like the intensity of the situation wont strike me...i was suicidal..but it dint sink deep enough..it feels like im feeling pain..but i numb myself ,i catastrophise so much..and genuinly believe i cant do anything ,that i m a victim of situation..i have become so uncohherent..and prbbly messed up my life to a level that i cant fix it on my own...im passively seeking help...with no will at all... i wish to get out of this..not for myself ..but for the onse i care abt..but fail miserably to connect emotionally with..i genuinly need help..but i guess i have been here so long...i dont know if ill be able to point out exactly wat im feeling,or what is bothering me...my perspective is so limited..i cant analyze things.. yeaterday..i was talking about our results with my guy..i scored 93 ,but wasnt happy atall...i gave the exam last month,in same mental state..after exam i felt like a complete faliure..cudnt talk to ppl,and he scored a 70 something,was satisfied enough..we studied together..almost left the same questions unawnsered,but i scored more...he made me realise how hard i worked,icudnt see it...also wen i was feeling low bcoz others did well..he made me see..that they cheated...and it was valid to get pissed off at them..but i automaticaly assumed i wasnt good enough..and started beating myself up..theres so much more i want to express..and talk...maybe just to get a better idea of my ground reailty or what im feeling..plzz feel free to contact me..

Omg Baaaaaas! OK so there are two things I am bursting to say: 1, is that I was so happy to see your little face on my dash! and 2, that YES I AM EXCITED about the new evanescence single =D *excited dance* I'm so gutted they're coming to the UK when I'm gonna be away, booooo. Anyway, brilliant brilliant video, you are awesome as always! Hope you're doing ok, let us know how things are yeah? Love you man xxxxxx

this is actually EXTREMELY helpful=3

@plasmaticat You're welcome :)

Just wondering, is the begining of these emotional attacks some suprise like you dont know whats happening to you or is it gradualy taking you over?

Very good video, dude x x

Bas please come back xoxo

@youevelyn but i dont know how it works 'over there' as we say. do you have to pay to get that kind of 24h help?

Why do I always think you are talking to me personally in your videos? Why does it feel you are always reading my diary? Dont get me wrong, its a wonderful thing because I dont feel so alone.

@MissLizenka Lizzaaa!! :D :D How are you?! I just watched your new selfharmsupport video with the music thing going by outside.. hilarious!! And a great video :D By the way I saw Harry Potter (part1&2) a few weeks ago and it made me think of you and your (tiny) part in the movie. I think I recognized the part that you were in. (Part 2 right?) It made me smile so much! LIZAA on the big screen!!! So awesome. I am doing well. Things are good for a long time now. I'm happy. Love ya too girl xxx.

@youevelyn hi, i feel the same about not having safetynet because friends or family does not feel enough (and it just makes me feel worse asking for their help again and again and again..). I go to the lokal psyciatric emergeny wich is open 24h, they are always willing to listen and get you out of panic even though its a bit unpersonal and static. Is there one where u live? this is in skandinavia were its free to go there (we pay alot of taxes over here)

Good stuff

@mesenvurk Thank you so much!! :)

@mrsbeingmyself101 Yeah :D Feels good!

Thank you

Obrigada...

Good!

@xxashleyRxx Hi Ashley :D Thank you!!

@cheerios0are0forever :) Thanks Kylie!

@lovethewiccan3fl BRITTTT!!! :D Ohh that is so sweet of you to say :) Yeah i do enjoy making videos, would be awesome to do more with it! Loved your video with you on the phone with your girl. So sweet :)

@adrienne317 Well, i am not that tall soooo ;)

@CandysAllMediaReview :)

lol how da hell did i miss this video lol. great job once again. i know all this but siometimes its really diffficult to apply that. thats the real problem afterall... applying what we learn.

I acc love your accent ! :)

@JurgenGustavka He´s Dutch

perfect :D

Is it bad that the negative thoughts make me feel better? Or that I find depression comforting? :( I'm confused with what I'm feeling! Please respond.

I started to make this, but I did start to have feelings for someone.. and I've never been dumped and dated several people.. but I was just tonight. I'm so torn, why would he let me off so nice and feel sorry. I'm hurting, I think I'm at 4-5... I can't be honest really with people I say I'm okay but I'm not. I am so sad, and I'm scared.