I'm letting go of the dream, and I'm okay with that.

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2 ай бұрын

I've put so much of my life into trying to be "successful" on KZfaq. I've spent years trying to reach a certain point, and it hasn't worked. I'm tired of trying in vain. But more than that, I've realized I've already got what I've been searching for. A simple life that makes me happy. I've got everything I need right in front of me.
So, I'm giving up on the dream of being a big-time youtuber. I don't want to stress anymore. I don't want to feel failure anymore. And that's all that dream led to. Now, I'm letting go, and I'm absolutely okay with that.

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@CargillHouse 2 ай бұрын

Hey lady, it seems like we're on the same page. We're also scaling back on certain things in the garden and planting more of what we eat and restrategizing. It's nothing compared to your plant inventory! We're doing less tomatoes (we have a ton of canned tomato items), more carrrots (I love them spicy pickled), and we're using the seeds we have. I admire your contentment with life. Hearing you say you have all you need right in front of you choked me up. We, as himans, always want more and more, but there's peace in accepting your life and circumstances for what they are. It's fun to dream once in a while, though. Sending love always 💜

@KristyLeeVlogs 2 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for always being here and always offering kind and comforting words of encouragement 💕. I've yet to can any veggies, but I'm hoping this will be the year! I'm feeling much more confident in my abilities, lol. I think maybe a lot of people are thinking along these same lines. Why are we trying to make things so complicated, lol. Also, I've never tried spicy carrots, that sounds interesting! Hope you all are doing well, love you girl!

@CargillHouse 2 ай бұрын

@KristyLeeVlogs anytime you want a crash course in canning: I gotchu! I've been doing it for about 10 years now. I started with pickled items because pressure canning (for low acid foods) was very intimidating! I'd love to talk soon 💜 I add dried Thai chilies to the jar when I pickle my carrots. I will also add (1 tsp/pint, I think) of sambal.

@Angel-jw2vx Ай бұрын

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@alldogsaresmart 2 ай бұрын

Just came across this video and it's title interested me. I have had a yt channel since 2011 and had similar aspirations to you. The desire to work online only and be apprieciated by millions has been drilled into our heads for many years. Everyone wants attention from others. What I learned is that's it's only when you give yourself the attention you want and not care about "success" (like you mentioned) that things will change. So frustrating I know, but totally true. You are courageous to admit what you have in this video. I hope you find clarity and peace in your future. I found being tired/sleepy was actually overwhelm.

@KristyLeeVlogs 2 ай бұрын

I think you're right (about everything but, specifically, the overwhelm). I'm naturally a lower energy person, and I kept pushing harder, trying to be more and more productive. I thought that was the key to success, but it's not sustainable. At least not for me. Thank you for your comment. I already feel better having cutback even just a little. Thank you for taking the time to watch and leave a comment 💜

@tracystandish3420 2 ай бұрын

I just found your channel! I watch an old video and now your newest one. I was wondering how you got back to work with all that anxiety you use to have?? Are you taking your zoloft still? Im really struggling and need some advice.

@KristyLeeVlogs 2 ай бұрын

No, I took it for a few years and got off it. I found a job that worked really well with my anxiety. I was delivering flowers. My boss has dealt with anxiety, so he was very understanding when I had to call in on a bad day. I'm still working for the same company, but he's moved me to a different position with more responsibility, and he's trying to get me to run the shop. It's not going well, unfortunately, and it's making my anxiety worse. I need to get insurance to get back on my medication, but this job doesn't offer it, and my pay is so low that I can't afford it on my own. I wish I could offer you more than that. I'm still doing better than I was before, but I wish I was better.

@tracystandish3420 2 ай бұрын

@@KristyLeeVlogs I'm so sick of this shit,, it has made me lose my job, friends, etc. I just can't do anything. It's awful. I'm so scared of the meds. But this is no way to live. It looks like your function better good. I hope in a couple of weeks I found it in me to plant my flowers. Thank you.

@tracystandish3420 2 ай бұрын

@@KristyLeeVlogs ps. Sorry. I meant to ask you in my last comment but do you have e any symptoms from your anxiety?? Heart pap's, shakiness, vision problems etc.

@KristyLeeVlogs 2 ай бұрын

Oh yes. All of that. Plus irritability, anger, mood swings... the list goes on. Sleep problems. Breathing issues. You name it.

@KristyLeeVlogs 2 ай бұрын

I was scared of the meds, too. And I held off for a long time because I didn't want to "have to" take something. But I finally got tired of it. It took some trial and error to find the right kind of meds for me. But it was worth it. I will note that it wasn't a miracle cure, but I definitely felt more balanced (mentally) instead of feeling like I lived on a roller coaster.