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Depression is a prison where you're both the suffering prisoner and the cruel jailor. remember that;

It’s taken me years to accept the fact that I have depression. I’m in constant denial and just think that I’m lazy but damn sometimes it’s hard to put one leg in front of the other, it really is hard. Depression sometimes comes with muscle aches.

I know the feeling all too well. Most times I just spend 90% of the day in bed. I do barely any housework or the dishes. I don't even watch my favorite movies or TV shows because I've lost interest in everything. I just lie in bed and take every day I'm given for granted. If that's not a sad story I don't know what to call it.

You probably only know what depression feels like when you experience it yourself :/

Depression is when you feel everything and nothing all at the same time. Whether you over sleep or having restlessness don't matter to you any more because at the end of the day and it all boils down to "I WILL DIE OTHERWISE" Everything is pitch-black despite being in captivating places in broad daylight. Getting up is the hardest thing to do, because what's the point right? Otherwise you would feel the same exact excruciating and numbing sensation the entire day again. Silver linings are just massive cover-ups to your meaningless life, you engage yourself on several activities and fill up your head with false hopes just to evade your hideous reality even just for a while. You go out sometime when it's only convenient to you. You communicate with people, you tell them jokes and make them laugh hard, you tell them interesting stories, you do these things just to make sure you won't appear empty as you feel because you want them to remember you how they used to know you.....a clever, wild, and lovely creature. And when you head back home and you're all alone on your bed again, it's evident, it's undeniable that you aren't built for bona fide happiness and wonderful moments, because witnessing how happy and elated those people you've been with just made your life even more darker and emptier. It just shatters you into pieces. The worst part of hell isn't about the flames, it's the hopelessness. It's the portion of hell that depressed individuals literally taste.... the terrible, horrendous hopelessness.

I procrastinated to watch this video...I was uncomfortable knowing that what I'll see is actually my reality. Truth hurts and we tend to sabotage ourselves. Whoever reads this - have a pleasant day!

Procrastination,depression,lazyness,anxiety - worst combination ever😫😫

Thank you Kat. Sometimes we just need to hear this after being judged badly.

This is spot-on. Especially the extremely low energy, and need for rest after doing even a small task. Not having enough energy to attend important events (plus anxiety & panic attacks) damages relationships, which drives one deeper into isolation & depression.

I have let my controlling parents run my whole life and suffer with depression every day since I was 17 years. I'm now 40 year old man who has never left his childhood home. My parents have shamed me infont of family and what little friends I have. I have lost my confidence, self esteem, self worth, and self love and it hurts soo bad! 😭😭😭😭😭

You know it came back when you are searching this kind of videos again...

I realized I was depressed. It was less of that I wouldn’t do something but that I wouldn’t want to do it and even once it was done it was like nothing changed because it was still all pointless anyway. I am yet to find a calling, a passion, something to motivate me and yet I’m still only a teenager. I decided to talk to my mom about it and she asked me if I wanted a therapist, something I had been afraid to ask for up to that point. I said yes and I started having therapy sessions every other week. So far I have had two sessions and I have broken down crying both times. What changed me was when I went away to a summer camp for 8 weeks this summer and I met the kindest friends I’ve ever met and they showed me how it felt to be happy which is when I realized just how sad I have been for the past couple of years. I’m lucky I am getting the help I need and I know that. I never completely pulled away from people because of my family’s support and I truly believe that the friends I made this summer have changed my life for the better. I don’t know if I will ever feel it again, but it felt amazing to be happy for once in my life. If you are here please find those people. Force yourself out of bed in the morning and though I can’t promise you it will get better, I can only hope that you will try, like me.

It is always so sad when people judging someone as a lazy person when he have a depression accualy. I experienced it in my closest family…

Anxiety & Depression birthed my eating disorder.. it’s not something I’m choosing.. it’s just something that seems much too overwhelming for me to concur each day

My life the past few years, it honestly feels like sleep paralysis. When you’re screaming trying to make a noise or to move your body, but you lay still not making a sound, desperately trying to gain control again.

I 100% stand by this. However, the more I used it as an excuse for myself, the worse I got. This is coming from someone who has been clinically diagnosed with sever depression for over 7 years.

So true and when it's mixed with high functioning depression from childhood trauma it's even harder to see yet the person feels this exact way inside and everything is a burden

you put into words in a video what cannot be spoken out loud, kat. thank you for being an incredible asset to the mental health community and giving us a voice to explain what we are going through. much love ❤️

My final exam is in 4 days. Rather then study I laid in bed all day today. I’m tired all the time. I feel unloved, unwanted, a massive burden to everyone.

i wish i could be a kid again.

This video really helps me to learn about this topic, I have a few family members struggling and these videos help me get some insight about it! Thanks so much for producing these truly amazing videos, you are helping a lot of people! Thank you Kat. ❤️

I’ve been struggling with all of these for months lately so thank you for not making me feel bad and just human ❤️

I don't suffer from depression but I definitely do get the "life's pointless, why do anything" energy often... It's so easy for me to skip eating for a day, forget to shower or to brush my teeth... And it's a vicious circle, because the less you take care of yourself, the less you want to. In a case like me, it's important to learn discipline, to take a quick shower, eat a fruit, even when you feel like doing nothing, because you will feel better afterwards and it's practicing self-love !

these videos always open my mind more and more

thank you. it really makes me feel valid and helps with letting go of unrealistic expectations

I'm ofently depressed but at the same time I feel like im an impostor bc I have no reason to feel that way(?

I wanna tell you that you're helping lots of people by doing this sort of videos, including myself. Thank you

So touched and identified by this video, thank you 🙏🏻🤍✨

my god, this reminds me of when I was at the lowest point of my life. it was hell. Today, I still don't feel exactly great either but I've come a far way when I remember those days..

Depression isn't just feeling sad or lazy, its literally you giving up all your care and love to the world yet wanting to feel happy, its like trying to find the edge of the earth but you know there is no edge and you have no hope for it yet you still try to find it, its as if everything you want is impossible yet you agree with your anxiety, its so bad some can't even have the courage to suicide, because they're secretly afraid of death aswell, but when there's life there's always hope, whether its philosophy, therapist, drugs, lifestyle, or unfortunately for some even suicide (don't ever touch it), there's always hope, you don't need to be depressed to understand depression, just look into nihilism, or atleast ask depressed people themselves about how they feel like and help them before they disintegrate, I recommend everyone who's depressed go look into the "law of attraction", it shows you tge exact reasons and steps to your depression and steps to overcome it and feel at ease

Thank you. I needed to hear this today.❤

Idealnie to opisałaś. Dzięki za ten filmik teraz

everything in this video completely describes what ive been feeling for months! i wish people understand it from the outside, its hard to find motivation

Another spot on video....when you have been there. Thank you

Thank you for your videos 💙

This channel deserves more than a million subs.

Depression is not just being sad . When you feel that the world is too heavy to handle and you wanted to cry but can't cry and you feel more pain and wounds in your heart. It's really hard to heal the pain and the wounds. It's really take time to get better. You know i experienced depression it's really hard time.i lost interest in things that i used to enjoy. It's hard......💔

My past self never thought that I would find it hard to do the simplest things In life but I one day I'll get better , I really will

Enjoying loneliness while making worse then the worst mistake.

Thank you for this video and puting words. After 7 years of studies ive been depressed hard for a year, doing nothing back to my parents, unable to finish my thesis. I just cant anymore and i feel stupid, there are better days though. Sometimes i do think im lazy but how could i have worked so hard all these years if i was.. i barely recognize myself. I'm waiting for results for the autism spectrum too to understand better, you should make a video about it someday, because ppl on autism spectrum are really hiding it well especially women

Just wow..🌻 thank you for this

I am 17 . It doesn't matter how much I try I can't focus on studies, Even Smallest things has became something which I don't wanna do it's just painful I use using phone whole time even if I don't have to cause it's the only things gives comfort I feel hopeless it's feel like I have no purpose, I don't feel comfortable around people cause I feel like everyone will judge me I think very low of myself 😞 !

Qué bonito trabajo haces. La combinación entre las imágenes, la edición, la voz y lo que dices se ve muy bien 😍

Dear Kat.. Trust me when I say this. I have never felt so understood ever before until I came across your videos. You put everything into words so accurately that even I myself think "So this is what it is actually" I have never being diagnosed with depression but every other video of yours feels so personal that I can no longer deny it even though I want to. I don't have any friends and somehow, I don't find any interest in any sort of relationship. How can I when I can't focus on anything else other than this hollowness within weighing me down? I once told my family about my anxiety and although they comforted me back then, eventually everyone moved on and I never had the courage to ask for help anymore because my family's going through a lot. I'm alive out of habit every single day and I believe it'll be like this until the day I die. I am thankful for your videos because you make me feel heard and understood. I don't belong anywhere but whenever I watch your content I do, for a little while. Thank you Kat for being my friend.

This is a masterpiece. I couldn't find a video that described what I go through theses days, but this Cheff kiss you made says it all. Thanks for the effort. If you would like me to help you with French or Arabic subtitles don't hesitate to contact me 😀 I would like the majority of people could hear this video and understand it...

depression really hit me, literally it was started because of my teeth issue and as I keep thinking about it day by day I'm falling , it has led to despair and do any daily work, I'm dead but my heart still pump. 😌😌😩😩

you sound so much like Lana Blakely! Not only the calming tone of your voice, but also the choice of words

Just got this in my recommended on youtube... Probably because for the past 4 days i've been watching videos about depression.. im guessing to maybe find a way out of my current "funk".. For 4 days, i've avoided work.. calls and text messages.. i've been switching between apathy, shaking in coldsweats, crying hysterically and uncontrollably for no reason whatsoever, having hard time to breathe from panicattacks, sleeping for more than 12 hours straight to not being able to sleep at all even though im exhausted.. i have however managed to eat 3 "proper" meals and even a shower. Friends and family tell me to call when i get in these "funks" cause they wanna help.. but even tho im holding the phone in my hand... it feels so far out of reach. Maybe showing this video to them will make them understand how energydraining even writing a textmessage can be when you are fighting your own war inside your head.

Your voice are so cute :) ur wisdom soothes my anxious soul :) Thank u.

Incredible how it can speaks to us. And amazing shots, lighting and color grading. What did you use for this ?

I had two depressions without even realizing that was what was happening to me. The fact that people judged me and criticized me made me feel even worse until I belived that I was a lazy person with no value. It wasn't until I was recovered that I realized that I went through a depression. There's not many people concious about this, and it's very important to spread that this is a mental health problem and not a problematic personality. It's not difficult to understand, it's just that there's a need to spread this information. Edit: I'm not a native english speaker, I try to do not make anyortographic mistake, but if I do, take this in cosideration ;)

True sometimes depends on social circumstances.

girl , i love what u doo , keep it up ❤

I never imagined I’d be including waking up, showering or making the bed 🛌 on my to-do list.

Beautiful work!

This is amazing!!

I hope everyone who doesn't understand depression watches this... it's not as easy as they all think...

Beautifully shot and told Kat x

Beautiful work ❤️

lovely x

Can depression be cured forever or will it comeback?

Me: denies suffering from depression for years Also me: * cries seeing this video due to realisation * wrote it for "Laughing purposes" but now I realize I feel like sharing it with strangers is more worth it then make my family make a deal out of it. Thanks for your time :)

Hits too close to home :/

Thank you.

Can't wait :(((

Hi Kat, I've just found this channel and think will stay longer with your videos, because I've found them interesting. Just a question... is this video about you (do you personally feel depressed) or it is just for the viewers to get more information about depression? Regards, J.

Jak dobrze, że pokazujesz, że depresja też dotyka dorosłe osoby.

So true and so sad...

thank u kat

Gratitude 💗🤍✨

Totally understand this unfortunately 😞

It looks like social anxiety and depression overlaps. I’m not even sure if it’s just anxiety or if I also have depression

Ive never told anybody from my real life that i have depressions, not even my parents (im 14 years old), i just feel like they would laugh, all of them, from the start of this summer till now i felt down almost all the time, i found happiness when i was in love for a while, but after he left me, i still feel like im broken, like im just dead, empty inside, all the time, i just have thoughts that i dont matter and that they are laughing at me, i just want to kill myself, i cant do it, idk how to tell this to people around me, it feels...like its impossible. I know some people care about me, but i feel like they dont. People are wondering why i go sleep so late, its not like im not tired exactly, its rather just me not wanting tomorrow to come.

Depression is inexplicable sorrow, pain, brief euphoria that dies when reality sets in, it is a tunnel with no light at the end. For those of us seeking hope with depression, it is pushing in the darkness, hoping deep down we will find that light. That light for me is believing I will find a loving partner and raise a family of my own. Keep that torch burning and don't let anyone or anything show you otherwise, keep hope. Depression will never completely go away, but you can start on the path to healing. I wish you all the best.

❤

Name of the song?! Thank you ❤

Can you do something about self harm and suicidal thoughts?

this is the thing I didn't know about myself...

Gosh. Glad I found Kat.

God bless you

💯% spot on kat you well don. I buy you beer if I saw you in a pub

I know what is like to feel this way, if you want to heal your traumas, anxiety and insomnia just try to meditate on this.

Witam serdecznie. Proszę zrób polskie napisy udostępnia to moim znajomym bo bardzo mało osób to rozumie A film jest wartościowy i może pomóc im zrozumieć jak ciężka jest depresja. Pozdrawiam 😍

Pokazywalem twój film o depresji 17 osobom. Wszyscy obejrzeli. Mają mnie nadal w dupie. I nawet psychiatra - o leniwy alkoholik. Czasem już ciężko uwierzyć że jutro zaświeci słońce

Będzie tłumaczenie pl? c:

Please everyone don't forget me I just want to be happy life is not worth living

I would really love that this could have Spanish subtitles to send the video to those who don't understand depression

me seeing this while on bed, depressed😪

This is what people don't understand. They assume it's sadness or laziness. I don't feel like getting out of bed , doing daily tasks or go to college. I have lost interest in everything. I don't feel like getting out of my room .

Jesteś świetna

FRENCH SUBS : Intro : Il y a des choses dans la vie qui peuvent paraître facile pour vous et moi, comme brosser nos dents, prendre une douche ou préparer le dîner. C'est pourquoi nous pouvons parfois être tentés de tirer des conclusions hâtives et étiqueter quelqu'un qui les trouve dur comme paresseux/flemmard. Voici une liste de choses que ceux d'entre nous qui ne souffrons pas de dépression prennent comme acquis. 1. Sortir du lit : Vous pouvez être une peu grognon si vous n'aviez pas assez dormi et aviez à vous lever tôt, mais ce n'est rien qu'une tasse de café ne puisse fixer. Pour les gens qui souffrent de dépression, rester au lit toute la journée peut souvent être le seul moyen de survie, et spécialement si le poids du monde est trop lourd à supporter pour un jour donné. La dépression peut se manifester par une fatigue mentale et physique et des fois, cela dure des semaines ou même mois. 2. Les petites discussions : Écrire un mail qui devrait prendre 5 minutes et être oublié quelques secondes après pour une personne saine peut mener à se sentir littéralement HS quand vous souffrez de dépression. C'est pourquoi certaines personnes vont avoir besoin de faire des pauses après des tâches d'apparence simple. Se reposer est la seule façon d'avancer pour eux. 3. S'exclure socialement : Cela peut s'exprimer par votre moitié qui semble vous ignorer ou ne pas faire assez d'efforts dans votre couple. La vérité est que les gens qui souffrent de dépression s'excluent car ils ne veulent pas gêner. À l'extrême, durant les mauvais jours ils préfèrent rester seuls que vous emporter dans leur détresse. Une autre chose est que sociabilité peut parfois être énergétiquement crevant, donc lors d'un jour difficile, les personnes ayant une dépression ne l'ont simplement pas pour s'engager dans n'importe quelle interaction. 4. Négliger les corvées, son apparence physique, et de mauvaises habitudes alimentaires : Comme je l'ai mentionné avant, des choses qui peuvent vous paraître vraiment très simples paraissent impossibles pour ceux qui souffrent de dépression. Les gens qui ont des problèmes de santé mentale ont souvent du mal à s'engager dans des activités qui peuvent leur apporter de la JOIE, sans mentionner les corvées mondaines, de tous les jours. Le truc c'est, que ce n'est pas un choix. Les dépressifs ne peuvent pas trouver la motivation ou même énergie pour effectuer ces tâches même s'ils en ont souvent VRAIMENT envie. C'est un peu comme essayer de se dresser sur une jambe cassée - physiquement impossible- jusqu'à ce que cela guérisse.

"Just get over it."

Yep, This 👆🏻

Fajnie by było gdybyś dodawała polskie napisy

But if they stay in bed and dont go to work, how do they make a living?

that's me

Mozna dodac polskie napisy?

im both

😞💔