Having depression is like being colourblind and people are constantly telling you how colourful the world is..

"I'm Fine!" "I'm okay" "I'm just really tired today" "I didn't sleep well ya know" "I was up all night I'm tired" "I don't feel well.." *My new favorite and most recent words...*

“Hey! Wanna go out today?” No. “Why?” Im tired. “Tired of what?? You’ve been inside all week and havent done anything!” _Tired of living_

When you can’t even cry anymore and you just feel utterly empty

Attempted suicide Failed Attempted again Failed Hospitalized Got help Attempted again Failed Got help Had Hope Still broken Going downhill I tried I failed I'm done

2019 anyone...?😭😪

“I’m fine” F fake smiles I ignored N not cared about E eventually used to it by now

It's almost 2020 and who is crying and listening this?😭

The people who disliked Where Crying so much They didn’t see the right button

"They said *they loved you back* .. they said they would *always love you no matter what* ... *then what about now ?* "

I hate to see me in the mirror I hate myself...really hate.. I feel that everything is my faults. I think i don't deserve to live...

Once Life asked death : ,,why does everyone hates u and love me?" Death answered:,,because ur a *beutyful lie* and I'm a *painfull truth*..."

*I* I hate myself *M* Misunderstood _______________________ *F* Forgot how happiness felt. *I* I cry every night.. *N* Negative feelings eat me up daily *E* Either way I'm not okay. I M F I N E. I'm fine is a cry that only a few people know. It's like screaming for help... But NOTHING and NO ONE helps you...

I've never heard anything more like my life ever

Friend: are you ok?? Me: **stayed up all night crying about past memories, old friends and the best exes** yea, im fine...

“You need to tell them how you feel” What’s the point when they’re not gonna listen anyways😔💔

Mom: "are you okay?" (Mind): "no.im drowning and I can't seem to reach the surface. I cry out for help but no one hears. I hurt...but no one cares. Please help me get through this" Me: "I'm just tired..."

My friend told me "Are you ok" My Mind:....No...I'm dead...I would be better dead.....everyone does anyways Me: " I'm fine😊" Friend"no your not Kim" Me: "I'm positive 😊" Friend: "Ok😊😊💕" Me:....Wow that easy.....

“You’re just faking it”. “You just want attention” “You’re just sad” “Nothing has happened for you to feel this way” My current battle with myself

*we don’t cry because we are weak...it’s just that we’ve been strong for too long*

You said everything I've always thought about my depression💔

She understands... I told a person I had depression and they said “ So you say you have depression just because one person you loved left! Your so selfish! Other people have it worse! “ I got yelled at... Then that person walked out of my life... I trusted them... I thought no one understands... that he’s not the reason I want to give up! It’s everything that is exciting has ever happened in my life seems dull... I can’t even remember the last time I was truly happy... But she understands... Edit: if anyone here needs someone to talk to my Instagram account is @newtie._.pie

depression is living in a body that fights to survive with a mind that tries to die...this one hit me hard

Friend ask if your okay every single day: me- "I'm okay" "I'm alright" "I'm fine!" .. edit: thank you for all the likes ily all sm. please keep trying and never give up. just know theres someone out there that is like you and struggling aswell. you are loved goodbye, have a good day.

Everyone around me: Are you okay? (My mind): No, I’m internally suffering with the intention of giving up and ending my life because no one cares, everything is bad, the pain is too much for me to take, and I tell myself it’s fine, but it isn’t, you should’ve checked up on me more often to know that I’m NOT. And now it’s gotten to the point where I can’t find a reason to wake up, a reason to carry on living this so called ‘life.’ So god help me you’re lucky if I’m alive for another day. What I actually say: I’m fine.

Dad:U alright? My mind:NO Im not..I cry myself to sleep..I hate myself..I wear an fake smile and hide everything.. Ya! Im just an bit tired.

People say I need help... And I completely agree But.. The thing is... I’m terrified..because I don’t even understand it. So if I don’t understand it how am I meant to tell someone what’s going on When I can’t even explain it myself...?

My friends : "Are you OK?" My mouth : "Yes, of course." (i said like that with my smile) Then my friends said, "Ooh okay." But .... My heart : "No, I'm not OK. I'm broken, I'm in pain, I feel sooo tired with this cruel world, I feel nobody cares about me, I always thought die is the best way. Pls someone! I need someone to talk abt my probs, but ...., hhh."

I felt this on a deeper level. She knows how I feel. She’s speaking my feelings for me because, I never knew how to express my feelings .

Anybody who has ever said any of these things, just shut up, your not helping. 1. Your looking for attention. Then you stop expressing your feelings 2. Don’t keep it in, tell someone. I can’t because that will be attention seeking 3. But you have such a good life. Makes me feel guilty about my depression 4. Your too young to be depressed. Makes me feel stupid 5. Your overreacting. Makes me question it all, and feel like a big baby 6. Cheer up. It doesn’t make a difference, I can’t just cheer up out of no where 7. But there’s no cuts in your wrist. Who’s to say I don’t cut my thighs or my stomach instead 8. Your always so happy. Yeah because I’m hiding the wreck that nobody wants to deal with.

"Leave me aloneeeee" "why?" "I just want to be" No I do want to be, to think how people live without me the silence that you can hear How it is How it feels like to be alone Really alone In mind in heart in life It's unbelievable It's too much for me

"You don't want to keep going but,you know you have to." It hit me really hard Everyday i come back from school I get yelled at every single thing i do wrong And I just dont want to keep going but i have to Because I know there are people who care about me But only online Because my real life friends dont seem to understand And they allways get annoyed when i talk about "anxieth and depression" and i just have to keep to my self

Behind My Smile there is a story you would never understand 😭😭😭

Me:mom I am suffering from depression Mom: nahhhh you are such abig fool who are good on kidding me

having depression is like having asthma and everyone telling you there is so much oxygen

I love the fact everyone can say "i'm fine" but I never get ask because am worthless

*Wish he’d talk to me.*

DAMN.

When someone else isn’t okay everyone is like, “oh my god, are you okay?” “What’s wrong” and many other stuff but when it comes to me.. heh.. everything fine no one notices my pain.. just my “mistakes”

I really love this audio and to be honest I wish I could get help and talk to my family but I’m scared not of what they’ll do or think but how they’ll feel. My teacher once overheard me talking to my friends about how I feel. She told my mother and reported to the school. But when I got home my mother wouldn’t stop crying. So I told her it was a joke. I told her I was joking about depression and feeling like shit. But I wasn’t and I never would joke about something like that. But then she believed it was because of KZfaq and now I’m not supposed to be on it but I don’t really care anymore because there’s so many things on KZfaq that makes me feel just a little bit better and a little less lonely. Sorry for the rant I just needed to talk and have at-least someone read or care

I have everything I have parents who love me I pretty smart I have loyal friends But why do i feel sad ?

I never cried so much I was never in a relationship but this is so relatable . I broke down in tears on the friend part no one understood my depression 😭😭😭😭

Friend:Wanna hang out today? Me: No, I'm tired Friend: Tired of what u haven't done anything Me: I'm tired of living

"You'll be fine." "Just push through the day!" it's not that easy. I cry sometimes. I plaster a non existent smile on my face EVERYDAY.

I keep thinking about her

Somone uderstands....if only I knew her in real life

The thing about depression is that it feels like you’re constantly being bullied by the people around you but none of them are actually doing anything against you. But everywhere you look, you can feel the pressure of everyone’s judgement. I read this quote once. “Having both anxiety and depression is like caring about everything and nothing at the same time. It’s like not wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be around people. It’s like everything is empty but overflowing at the same time.” It’s hell. Especially being bipolar as well. I look for reasons to feel this way but they all come up to be insignificant compared to the situations of others.

*That one person you told all your secrets, that you loved, you thought you loved them,You still do,And they said that they loved you back, they said they would always love you no matter what* This is what im going through rn :).

When u started crying I started crying ur words are so strong I love them thank you this will give me strength to get up for the next 2 days

How did she know exactly how I feel. There are some days I'm sad. Some days im happy. I just am a what. Not a who or a thing. I'm a what.

people don't understand what depression really is. it's not just being sad for a certain amount of time. it's being tired, not feeling like doing anything, lack of sleep, and also sadness. sometimes it can happen from the impact of an event.

I've never teared so much in my life before. This is the fist time hearing someone telling me what I'm going through. With each line finished, more tears came down. When she said "i have friends and families who loves me, but that's the type of love i need." I BROKE DOWN. That's exactly what it is that haunts me.

“How are you?” “Im fine im just tired” 🤧

-• You were my love- -• You were my world- -• You were my muse- -• You were my life- -•You were my everything- And now your gone.. TELL ME WHAT I HAVE TO CHANGE! WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO BRING YOU BACK! HOW MUCH DO I NEED TO HURT *i miss you* -cause i still love you-

When she started crying, I gave up and the tears ran like a river down my cheeks

“How are you?” I’m dying. Help. I’m screaming for help. I’m not loved. I want to die. I’m afraid of death. What happens when I die. Would you care? I wanna die so much. PLEASE I’m screaming for help! “I’m fine. How about you?”

You're fine, yes you truely are. Because you still cry. Some people don't even cry anymore. And i'm one of them. I'm not fine. You are.

why is this exactly what is in my life rn :/

"I don't know anymore, I really don't" that hit hard I used to hear it from my mom when shed come home drunk or the seemingly never endless weeks after my dad and her broke up it just reminded me of that that hit hard like a damn truck

This made me cry bc the last week it’s just been hard without a break 🥺😭😤

Girl i need to talk to you😥When pain come to visit you You may think it will stay permanately but its not it is temporary Every sunrise need to pass the night before she start to shine😥Please be strong i know what am saying i'm in this problem for more than 4 years and till today i still have it My friend use to told my try counting sheep to sleep but my mind keep counting reason to stay awake😢😢😢I exactly know what you are going through😢😢Just be strong 😢I have no word to describe this pain but all i can say is Yes i know how to survive now😢❤Drama/Problems keep happening in my everyday life all i do is just smile just to cry for the late night😢Be strong girl😢Just be the one to get up even you are not in a state to❤😣Because every step you take is just one step closer to your goal 😉Girl be strong NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN JUST PROMISE ME THAT YOU WILL BE STRONG 😭❤

Ye im really fine I LOST EVERYTHING I LOST MY FRIENDS WHAS NEXT? DO YOU ALL WANT ME OR SOMEONE ELSE TO DIE?! JUST TELL ME

"I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine" - the word only can say. Only a person with mental health really can understand that. 😔 But our heart sad and crying a lot. 😢

Everyone has their own troubles in life, sometimes we just need someone who we know is going to stay. This world is filled with both love and pain. Sometimes it can cause heartaches and hurricans. Sometimes It's just to hard to deal with, so we start using excuses, because nobodies perfect. We call ourselves useless, even though we should tell ourselves we're worth it. Everyone changes throughtout life, some get sad, some get happy, some just feeling like there's no point in living. I've lived with depression throughtout my whole life. I feel pain and heartbreak everyday. By people who leave, when they said that they would stay. The people who made everything alright and okay. Sometimes I find myself on the edge, I have the choice whether I want to keep hanging on, or if I just want to let go. I try to force myself to breathe. Ever day it gets harder when I can't see myself in the future, as happy. I've been through and through, the thoughts of being suisidal, and being alone. The pain never heals it just piles on and grows. Medication might make you think that it helps, but it doesn't. Depression controls everyone in a different way. It can make ourselves bleed and even cry everyday. But the moment we get happier, the moment we realized that we aren't ever the same. Because the true part of ourselves and the depression, becomes buried deep inside of everyone of us. And just one simple bad thing could trigger us off, and make us feel lonely, and dig our feeling back up.

For one I found someone who gets what I’m going through Edit: thank you so much for liking. The part were you say “you keep thinking about him” I do.. and I’m crying while typing this. Cuz I fell in love before, and it broke me. I tried. I tried to end it. I tried to stay happy. And I met another guy who I still love. And he said he loved me back. But he doesn’t. He never did. He just said he did. And he told me “I will always be here for you, if you need to talk I’m here” but like you said “but what about now??” If I even tell him anything he walks away.. if I try telling him I don’t wanna do it anymore, he doesn’t listen. He says I’m faking. He keeps saying that I’m doing it for people to feel bad for me. I’m balling my eyes. I cut myself everyday cuz of him. I can’t sleep cuz of him. If you are still reading, I thank you. Not to mention the part with the new guy had all happened this month. And I keep telling him “are you gonna stay by my side? Stop lying! Stop saying you get it WHEN YOU DONT! You don’t get it!” I’m not fine, I’m not okay. I’m done pretending I am. Im done pretending that I’m happy. Im done pretending I’m worth it. I’m done pretending that I will be okay..

Your audios are really deep ella, you're awesome

Her voice is painful for me, I am going through this situation, I just wanted to say a prayer for you, don't worry everything will just go fine, nothing is permanent in this world everything will go as per time, it just a matter of time it will go away, don't stress out your self. Gods has a plan for you. Go on in life.

Last year, I just wanted to end it. You know? This one girl in my art class, in my comfort class, kept telling me I was annoying and it hit me hard because I am annoying, the name Gabby means excessively annoying and talkitive. My friend didn't want to get in trouble for calling the girl out. So I had to deal with "I'm ugly..." " I'm stupid... " "I'm fat..." " I suck compared to them... " And I am so scared of death, so I couldn't. I couldn't. I felt trapped, like I was pulled under water, unable to breathe, to understand to respect my life. The only thing that keeps me going is my friends. They are so beautiful and amazing, I would die for them, but most of them are like me. We get it.

i cried cause this is actually the same exact thing i went through

This is my life I cried so hard because I have depression and anxiety and just hearing this makes me so sad 😭😭😭😭

What people dont understand is that when you say im fine, just tired. Tired does not just mean sleepy, it means tried of existing. Tired of being alone.

I keep telling myself I’m fine even when I’m at my worst and feel like giving up. the sad part is all of my friends think I’m better, when in reality I’m worse, I’ve been worse

Please I beg that you are ok I feel so sad please never end your life all of you people please don't leave this world because everyone needs you

She understands me more than anyone ever could

"Depression" 10 words 1 sentence 1000 pain -mutiara💜

One day, i feel like "why am i alive in this world?" "what exactly i want?" i feels like, i wanna life but on the other hand, my mind keep telling me to die

It's describes me....I'm 13 I've been depressed since age 3...Am I ok? No I'm not...But I say I am so people don't ask questions because I know they *Won't understand* ..Does it matter? Do I matter? No...I don't, so please if you read this I need to let you know you do matter...I know I'm confusing but... I'm not going to make it about me...I'm making it about you, if you're depressed seek help...Please,cause you matter. You matter to your mom, your dad, your friends, if you have siblings you matter to them...You are their role model, don't leave them. You matter to everyone, and those bullies who say otherwise...They're just hurting and they don't know what to do...Be the bigger person, and seek help, don't bully others or bully the bully. Every life matters...So live Live! Your! Life! You are too young to give up!!! And if you're old, well...You came this far why give up now? *YOU MATTER* You matter to me! Even if I don't matter to you...You will forever remind in my prayers!

Literally whenever somone asks how I'm am my answer is fine cause I dont how else to explain it

this is so fukking beautiful. the world is full of broken people and those who are better at bandaging themselves

I have done something bad ... and all I say to them is *"It was my cat"* *"I fell of my bike"* *"I scraped myself on the door"*

Why does this describe me so perfectly it hurts so much to actually hear it

this is what i feel every day

I never knew what was wrong with me, but now I know I'm depressed because this describes me 100%

The saddest part about this is that it’s true....

I'm totally Fine.. :/ This is actually my life.. it was so deep ND I started crying at the end... 💔

You need a hug...you should get an Awsome hug like a cuddle it helps

This made me cry and I really feel like this summed up my entire life. Thank you for making this.

This is me, my best friend my brother left me I was so close to him and he left me he doesn't care anymore! I can't go further with this anymore! There is no one here for me and what im going through

Always convince myself "I'm FINE. I'm OKAY". But until now, I wonder what it's like to be okay and fine...

I wish I would've saw this last year

i had a partner who i loved more than anyone and i shared everything with him. he meant everything to me. and one day we broke up. he was blinded by love until the day we parted. he soon discovered a lot of shit that i did to people i didn't even realize i did until he made a google doc and shared it. i thought it was over. the one i loved the most left me in such a horrible way and all the drama came down like a huge boulder on my back. and in that time period i also lost friends, i lost memories, i lost myself, too. i was a *_horrible_* person. but you know what? i kept going, i researched things i needed to change about myself, i listened to advice from those who stayed. i was still hurting but i tried not to let it get the best of me, and i told myself it would be okay. people told me that, i told myself that, and we were right. one day, the one i loved so very much came back to me. he's my partner again and today is our five month anniversary. he still loved me the whole time. he missed me and i missed him, too... your loved ones might not come back but you need to know that you can be happy by yourself. you don't need anyone to make you happy. spend some time out, do things you love. i never expected him to come back and i tried making myself happy. i did succeed but when he came back it made me happier than ever. if you don't think you're fine, don't worry. you're not supposed to be okay 24/7 and nobody should expect that from you. the only thing i ask is that you keep going. don't try to harm yourself. life has good moments along with the bad moments, and if you stop living then you won't ever experience those good moments. get help, accept it, take advice, reach out. anything you need to make yourself okay again. it's okay to not be okay. -zo 💙💫 p.s. ily keith (3

Tears ran down my face as I could relate to and understand every thought and feeling in the words you spoke. I too struggle daily with anxiety and depression, judgement and lack of understanding, love and loss and the loneliness of it all. I commend you for being a voice for those who can’t find their strength to express or even begin to understand what the hell is even happening because I still get so confused by it and I’m 40!!! Just know you aren’t alone and day by day, hour by hour and even minute by minute things can and will be ok if you believe that they can be. The power is yours and yours alone to either beat it or let it beat you. You got this as do us all fighting this never ending battle, one day at a time. ✌️❤

This whole video explains my life step by step...

😞😞If only...my mom and dad...are not mad at each other...its so hard..without a daddy i always get jealous....with the children gets spoiled by their dad then there's me crying every night bout my problem😢😞😞

Depression for me is like a endless road that I wish it would stop but it doesn't. It just keeps going and sometimes I can't keep moving forward so I give up. I really try but fail I just wish it would stop... until I told someone how I felt than that road I was on was no longer there it was just a little path and I felt finally free...

I literally drag myself through everyday and it’s the hardest thing I’m doing in my life! I think I’m losing myself again

How emotional.....😭😭❤️❤️I cried a lot all this 6 minutes..... OMGF...

That *him*💔😭 the one that you miss

Why is this so relatable 🥺😢

The crack n pain in her voice made me emotional......