What an absolute statement. Heard it as the drop gap to so many tunes on nights out. THEO WARMS MY HEART. PROTECT HIM.

Pfff

“I can’t drink bc if I have 1 beer I also have 3 cocaines”

I am so glad my favorite type of weed is weed. Tried cocaine, didn't like it, too expensive, hurt my nose. Love xtc, but that isn't a drugs you will use on a Monday morning. I do it once every 2 - 3 year.

@@danilonden3782 bad coke, coke doesn’t hurt your nose or body, the cut and impurities do. If you liked school, you’ll love work. If you like ecstasy, you’ll love lsd. All the feels and none of the hangover.

I was gonna say the same thing. John was me 3 years ago. I hope your recovery goes well my friend 🤝

Lol

Yup

What

Sometimes the first hit of a cigarette lighting it up taste like crack even though its been 7 years for me and im just like god dam it and wince

Ice cream. For me it's ice cream

Ice cream. For me it's ice cream . I did it all

Ice cream. For me it's ice cream . I did it all

Ice cream. For me it's ice cream . I did it all

​@@rellenozWhat is it for you?

Doesn’t really make sense to me though because I never really could get my hands on more shit in the mornings. Most dealers weren’t up and answering their phones until late in the afternoon.

​@@bailmasterflex you're not dealing with real professionals.

​@@natebaxter9551 😂

@@natebaxter9551 I was dealing with what’s called a drug dealer.

​@@natebaxter9551 In the words of the great lou reed "he's never early hes always late the first thing you learn is you always gotta wait."

wishing you strength on your journey Joseph. really cool that you got yourself into a better pattern of behavior and hope nothing but the best for you. continue to take it one moment at a time - you got this 💪🏽

I have a little over a year! Keep it up

Oh, for sure. I don’t think it’s talked about enough, for better or for worse. I can’t speak on the addict side but I worked for a company that had the whole recovery package, from detox to half-way house. Only people with the means to afford the program went there, so you can imagine which professionals I saw walking in through those doors, and ofc the children of those professionals.

It's a personality type for sure

Ive been clean for 7 yrs now and yes its crazy people seem to believe all addicts cant hold jobs down and are just completely broken. When in all reality the amount of functional addicts is crazy. I had a full time job for years well being an addict everyday was the same routine. And people after got clean would say, ya I could tell when u were high lol. No they could tell when I wasnt high that was the problem.

That's the one rule that's always kept me safe. Even witih meth, if you have some and don't go get more when it runs out you're probably fine.

Yea i would always have a cut of time like after 5 I'm not doing coke anymore because I know I'ma finish it at this time and then I can't sleep

For me it's the afternoon, I spend all morning saying nah I don't need it and all that but when the evening comes I start to craving

@@lomuus yea especially on Fridays when your friends would be like let's go out to some bars and being tired from work you buy some just to get you in the mood to go out

Yep, when the high isn’t even halfway through and I can’t even enjoy it because I’m thinking about how much I don’t want to be sober

He definitely knew lol

He did not know what Theo was saying - I still don't know what Theo was saying

What Theo said had no meaning

ong u could see it in his eyes 😂

@@ottoavila9895 he was saying he bought drugs and didn’t know what drugs it was (like, he was told it was coke but it wasn’t- like when people sell coke but actually it’s fent for example). He thinks one day he will smell /feel. something that will remind him of what those drugs were, like it’ll click in his brain. Smell and taste are connected to memory more so any thing else.

Amd smoked some meth

Please tell me “zip” was on purpose

@@benparo171 yes ,it was . I say that all the time . No sarcasm. Why though? What kind of imagery did it give you?

@@user-sn9mg8oj4c you can see it in the BRIEFEST flash of a smile lol. And yeah definitely memories of Zips past doing on there

That’s kinda part of the problem.

Mmmmm... Dope

See watcha did there 😂

let's hope not literally

Didn’t Dave Chappell do a bit about if everyone just told exactly what they were thinking all the time?? I don’t think it would be as nice as you imagine

I'm 8 months sober, and I wish I quit sooner. Try taking a couple weeks off and see how you feel. If you think it's impossible to take a few weeks off, you probably have an issue

I'm working on it thanks for the advice I don't know if it's that bad but day two no smoking I'm doing good

@@killerjoker222 hope you keep going!!

​@@killerjoker222 good shit bro u got this!

The hard part about getting clean, is learning how to enjoy life without substances to help you feel. I used to do coke and play video games all night and I’d be chatting with everyone, yelling etc. Now it’s a struggle to socialize most of the time. It’s definitely improved over the years, but it’s definitely a hard transition. But it’s worth it, and it dramatically improves your personal life. Stay safe out there, and I hope things go well for you

Bro anytime I open a bottle of excedrine when I got a headache I get hit with that smell and memory too, smells like straight tar

​@DP C sometimes when I smoke a cig ill feel like I'm on perc even tho I'm not I'm still an addict tho not even tryna get clean and I'm only 20 get good yall we ain't gonna be alright like this

Lol when someone's painting and you can smell the ether

@@pepsiman1043be safe 🥲 real percs hit soooo good but the fake fenty ones make me sick i had to quit cuz i kept throwing up then i got surgery and got real percs and ooohhh it was exactly what rue from euphoria was describing of being addicted cuz it silenced her mind

I did h years ago anyways, I drank a hi c fruit punch from the pack and it tastes like h or something! I loved hi ci as a kid, it's a different taste, when I have gotten it from burger King it didn't have the taste either. It's the material or something ig but yeah I can relate

Damn what rhymes with experience cause that’s a killer line?

@@stoneagealienz874 disobedience, Benevolence, ambivalence, adolescence, eminence, deference, difference, dependence, there’s more, but those felt like some of the better options I could think of…

​@@stoneagealienz874 Experience / innocence, limerance, adherance, more clearance, "more dreary ends", "here I've spent..." "oh here I am..." 😂

on god thats exactly what it is cause after a while its not that drug experience anymore its just a mood lift and its like their is so many better ways to get that

"I'm the same way." Hopefully you meant that in past tense, as it doesn't sound like a fun time from what I'm hearing and seeing. if not, i hope you have people to help you stay above water, cause you deserve to

Congrats man

From my own experience, and the fella in your story, getting sober from opiates is more painful than major injury. Pain isn’t the worst of it though. While you are in A LOT of pain, the things that linger in my mind 10 years later are *the muscle spasms of restless legs (you know when someone tickles you by poking your ribs, it’s that sensation in your thigh muscles, without stopping for weeks at a time. *A ceaseless irritation that could only be calmed by pulling my hair out in chunks. *Nausea - like the worst hangover you’ve ever had. *And despite the fact that every neuron in your body is on fire and you’re exhausted, you CANNOT SLEEP. So you’re awake for every second of it. So I’m not being flippant when I say that I’d rather an unmediated broken limb than to detox again. That would just be the pain, not the other wild, competing symptoms. Don’t do the hard drugs, kids. And if you need hard drugs to feel normal - go find out why that is instead of just taking the drugs.

Definitely not reminiscing. If you watch the full 12 minute clip of John talking about his recovery he definitely does not talk about it fondly. In fact like 10 different times he reiterates that drugs are a “disaster”

It's a stimulant that's job is to speed up your central nervous system/brain. It's literally making you high as well you just don't know it because you have ADHD.

Good luck on your Journy!

Sober 3 years today..

It takes so much to quit man… but might I suggest taking the time and going to treatment? Sometimes going to rehab and seeing where you could REALLY end up and just taking time to get away from the booze and reset… did wonders for me man.

I feel this for sure

It's all an illusion. Anything that takes you from your real self is from the devil. God made you in his image, and you are perfect in his eyes. 🙏

You lied to you, drugs are inanimate.

This is very sad

​@@genuinedelusionsmusic God is in DMT. 😂

Eye dunnooooo..... There's some that steal right from Under your nose to sell everything but the shirt on their back just for another hit...

Facts

​@@justthegist Addiction can look a lot of ways on a lot of people

Nope. The worst addicts are both the people able to hide it and the people unable to hide it. Some people can just hide things that others can’t. It has nothing to do with being a worse addict

⁠@@manicpepsicola3431 which is exactly the point the person you replied to is making. The original comment says the worst addicts are the ones able to hide it but that’s just wholly untrue. Like you said addiction can look a lot of ways. Assuming that the worst addicts are hiding it so well that no one knows is bs. The worst addicts are just regular people. Some good at hiding it, some not.

Yup. Lost everything, gained debt.

Wow. Tbh I’ve never thought about that before

keep it that way i'm begging

@@oobageeba7847 I’m good bro it’s been about a decade now 😂 I appreciate that

I felt the same way. I did it a couple times with a guy I was seeing and I liked it way too much.

It did for me 😂 I wasnt a drug addict though, I just dont want to stop existing over a line of this crap theyre selling now

What do you mean

​@@blaackberry If words trigger you then chances are you were/are an addict.

​@@blaackberry Dude I used to love using casually every now and then, but now I would never. I would if there wasn't a chance of taking one whiff and dropping dead. It used to be a fun thing to do every now and again for special occasions but not anymore. 💀

I was the exact same way for 10+ years. blackout every single night. never could just have 1 or 2. usually a 12 pack and a pint of 100 proof. if I could make it 7 days... it was a lot easier. finally completely quit around Thanksgiving. havnt touched a drop other than some nyquil once when i got covid. went through some tough times and almost bought a case... but I talked myself out of it. had a dream a few nights later where I downed a couple shots and in the dream when I set the glass back on the counter I woke up wide awake and super pissed at myself. realized it was a dream... and havnt craved any since. I'm all about letting things be legal and letting people do their own thing... but there is zero reason why alcohol is legal and weed ain't.

@@pigtrapper1329 well I’m in Alaska so we have as many pot shops as we do liquor stores now but I totally agree it should be federal. I am constantly dreaming that I took some kind of drug (pills were my bigger problem, drug of choice if you will, alcohol was more like my early 20s issue) and wake up like phew😆😆.

This is why i dont drink, when i start i find it so difficult to stop

He was being serious-ish.

For me antidepressants didnt dull down a bit they completely destroyed my libido, its sad and i didnt take them for long. Hope you good mate take care ❤

Low expectations?

Girl or guy 😏 ?

​@@YaBoiLacroix on KZfaq ? are you that desperate?

Shut the hell up 3-4 hours😂😂😂

It’s different for addicts. Most in recovery will realize that it is just not the same for them as it as others.

Yea it's a whole different schedule you know if you buy this much will hold you off till 5 but if you go later you cross that threshold that either your up and burying at 2am or your sleeping for work the next day

I never even consider it, so I get you. I didn’t think about them becoming dependent. I always thought about if they died. Anyone can have an adverse reaction to a drug. With my life luck, it would be end them permanently.

@@IlikemyprivacyNN With methylphenidate, it's almost impossible to have a fatal overdose unless combined with other hard drugs or alcohol. I think that's why it shouldn't be Schedule II as well, since that class also includes methamphetamine, cocaine, and fentanyl.

Ya they are not any smarter or empathetic than you or anyone else for that matter lol.

They are not emotionally intelligent. They have weak characters and not smart enough to hide it.

Nothing about either of these men screams intelligent, all addicts are weak minded in all capacities. Intelligent people don't even touch drugs.

​@@mariem6605 What are you talking about? They are former addicts and recognize it. Stop projecting your insecurities onto these guys.

no dude, this is a real world problem not some hentai tv show you degenerate watch

Maybe you end up looking older, but statistically you'll live longer if you go through sobriety, and hopefully have a more fullfilling life with healthier relationships. And those things are worth more than looks - I hope John can keep healing and helping others by talking about it.