This song helped change my mom. She has been sober for 6 years now. She always was there for us and she never got an addiction as bad as Nate’s mom but she was still an addict. I sent this song to her and she cried and hasn’t touched any drugs since. 🙏🏼🙏🏼

I remember the smiles my mother would give. I hated it, I never knew wether she was going to hit me and my sisters or if she drugs. Nightmares stalked me even today. I was in foster care since I was 5 years old and I aged outta foster care. Abandonment and the cold is something I’m deathly afraid of. She’s been gone for four years and I understood the truth. She was just 14 when she was sold into the trade on the Rez. She did everything to protect us even if she took a beating. The three siblings were born into hate and warmth from an unwilling mother. I cried so hard, I screamed at the sky when I became homeless. She o’d and was found hollow and grey in a homeless shelter. It hurt me so badly, it was so painful. 20 years old now and I still think on it. She didn’t deserve that, nobody did she should’ve been playing with barbies and laughing but they took that from her. I wished that i would’ve talked to her. I’m the only sibling left because of suicides. It’s the constant life or death situation for me because, what else could I lose? But then I think about my mother’s bravery for surviving the horrors of the world. NF is my therapist, counselor, it makes me happy knowing I’m not alone sharing that pain.

Crazy that you just got done with college and got the diploma today, wow. Tough one to get through but you killed it! big fan of the channel here

When I was 13 my dad committed suicide due to a pill addiction from a botched surgery. I know this pain all to well. I'm so sorry you had to experience this pain as a child. We are all proud of you that you have your diploma and are carving your own legacy. ❤️

8:54-8:57 you guys had the same exact sniffle and exhale at the same timing, actually powerful showing honestly

I know EXACTLY what you are talking about. Perhaps not as young though, I was 18 when my mother died from a mixture of pills, alcohol, and chronic depression. And I know how it feels to have both the LAST conversation you had with them be an angry undertone... and it was only 4 hours later that she died. It took me around a half a decade before I could forgive myself for that... Here's for *anyone* struggling with such regret or anything like it: You CANNOT blame yourself for the things did not know. You CANNOT blame yourself for not being able to see the future and realizing the situation. Do not hold back the tear that must be shed. But know this, there will come a where you will need to make a very important decision. Are you going to let that stand over you? Or are you going to learn how to stand over it? Because, you are NEEDED to somebody. It may not be today, but a better tomorrow will come. There will be people who need you and your love for them. Love exists. God's love. You are more LOVED than you can imagine. Even and *especially* through the pain.... I'm living proof of it.

My parents weren't addicts as I grew up, but still dealt with a lot of the same issues. I lost my uncle to drugs, his wife went down the same path and lost all of her kids. I've tried to stay in touch to help her, but there's only so much you can do. Ive struggled with addiction, depression, anxiety, and anger my whole life due to my upbringing. I refuse to have kids and pass this curse on to them, it kills me because I love kids so much, but I know I'm doing the best thing. Much love to you for spilling your heart and emotions to the world, you're a strong and beautiful young lady and you're heading in the right direction. ❤

I’ve seen soooo many reactions to this song and for the most part They’ve all been good, but this for sure is the best of them all because like the song this reaction is as real as it gets, for the most part this song always tugs at my heart strings because although it’s sad, for someone that didn’t have those experiences it instead helps you cherish what you have and be grateful you didn’t go through those experiences like others, but NF does such a brilliant way of portraying his sadness and anger in this song that you feel a portion of that listening to it and for the first time I felt that from the song and a reaction, never felt so helpless watching something, knowing what the song says later on and not being able to stop the video for you or warn you, prayers will be going out to you today and hope you know it takes a very strong person that has gone through as much as you to react to this and just made it this far successfully in life, as a random stranger I’m very proud of you and know anyone including your parents would be proud of the beautiful girl internally and externally you turned out to be ❤️

I read that when NF recorded this song he had everyone leave the studio. That's some heavy stuff. NF is by far my favorite rapper, can relate to almost every single song he has personally.. New subscriber 👍

It's alright girl, showing emotion means you got a heart. I'm crying with you, this song is incredible and sad at the same time!

So sorry to hear about having a rough childhood. It seems that the most amazing people have the worst past. And yes you are amazing, and you make my day better. I love you and you’re surrounded by people who love you❤️

I can relate to this song and your situation, so much. I lost my mom to complications from drug and alcohol abuse. I'm 39 now. I was 16 when she died and I spent the next few years jumping from houses and living with friends and destroying parts of my life. Luckily I found the military before I went too far. I just now graduated college and now have five kids of my own. The oldest is in high school and it hurts to know that they'll never meet my mom. My father was a terrible situation as well. It still hits me very hard in moments. It never goes away. I actually have an extreme fear of failing as a parent because of the poor childhood I had. My brother wasn't so lucky, he ended up in prison for life. The percentages of success drop drastically with those kinds of child hoods.

Man NF seriously hit every emotional bone with this one. This was my first time hearing this and I had to personally fight back tears bc you could hear it in his voice. With that said Lilly you are a true warrior for what you’ve been through. You are a epic role model for others who sadly share your pain. Never forget you aren’t alone. Keep your head high and always remember that as much as it hurts that your parents aren’t here physically they are and will always remain in your heart, mind, and soul. May both their souls sit at the Lords right hand and continue to watch over you and your loved ones. And I know this song was very emotional but I’d like to personally say congrats on graduating. You know that your parents are smiling from above, proud of their daughter. God bless.

this song really hits me, cuz my mom left me when I was 4 years old and now I’m 18 and I don’t even know if she is alive or not, I only have 1 single picture of her on my wall in my room, I’m beginning to forget how she sounds like, and thanks for reacting to this, this really made my day😊❤️, love the vids, and I understand how it feels being in foster care, and sorry for making this long, I hope u see this

Connecting so powerfully to other people’s stories, it’s the most beautiful and complexly passionate thing we can do as human beings, and the only thing that truly separates us from most other life on the planet.

NF, just like you. You will absolutely love that song!

We always watch reactions to this song because we know how real NF is and we desperately want to see people connect with such authenticity. Praying for you Lilly and thank you for being so true.

Girl you crying broke me to peace’s. Trying to hold it together watching your reaction

To all the people who are experiencing the unfortunate events of Life Never give up.🖤

I’ve heard this song I don’t know how many times, and I’ve never made it through it without shedding a few tears.

I'm not one to comment on anything, but I lost my mother to cancer a few years back and my father to covid last December so I kinda understand how you feel, but not whole heartedly. I was blessed to have a amazing mother who did not do any drugs and was able to see me grow for the most part, as well as having a lovable father. I do not say this to brag or rub it in anyone's face just after seeing your video I realized I could have had it alot worse! You seem like a genuine person and very down to earth. Please continue with the videos you would be amazed what a 10 minute video could do to someone that is having a very stressful time. Love your content and I hope you go far!!

This is the Lily Jane that most of us wanted to see. Thank you for confiding in us. Much Love Sis. ✌❤🫂

So sorry for your loss...as a grown man I will say this song hits hard. Keep your head up

I really relate with you. My mom passed when I was 13, also from cancer. My dad passed when I was 8 as well so I’ve been wandering lost this entire time.

Thank you for doing this reaction and sharing your story. I've gone through something very similar both my parents were drug addicts, I was in and out of children's services all my childhood and my mom a few years back passed away due to an overdose. The first time I heard this song I was driving to work checking out nf fur the first time, I put it on shuffle and this was the first song to play, I didn't even make it through the first verse brute I was crying, I ended up having to pull over to the side of the road, call into work late, and just cry and listen. I've never had a sing hit so close to home like this one.

I'm sure your mom would be so proud of you! I know it's tough to be so open, but I hope you leave this up. I'm sure there's lots of people who have similar struggles & it could help them. Much love ❤️❤️

You've grown through what you've gone through in a positive way against such painful adversity, that's a massive accomplishment and it takes a really tough person to wear their heart on their sleeve with as much heartache as you have. Congrats on graduating college. This was a lot to take in watching this channel for the first time but I love so much about it already. Sometimes having something new to look forward to can grant you patience when you're in short supply.

This is one of the most raw and vulnerable reactions I have ever seen. Thank you for sharing this ♥️

You're a beautiful soul. Simple as that. I can't relate to the lyrics as directly, but having lost a best friend to a drug overdose, it was close enough to stir up similar levels of emotion anyway. Thanks a lot for sharing this.

Sent this to Nate after my bud Jarad died. Nate used his personal life for some of it!

All I have to say is thank you for not cutting the video, music is art and is meant to speak to the soul. Theres no greater compliment to an artist than to see how their work can reach across time and space and touch another and theres no greater motivation to aspiring artists to see how their work may truly speak to another.

Thank you for sharing this. Took a lot of courage. Many prayers to you.

I just stumbled upon your channel tonight and I’m thankful for how real and raw you allow yourself to be. Thank you for that.

This popped up on my suggested and I’m a fan. Love the real emotions and the fact that you let yourself feel them. NF has a way to let us speak our mind with words we didn’t know we had.

This right here is the same impact NF has on millions of people. He speaks to us and for us. He is so needed in todays society. A true artist!

I appreciate your honest reaction, when i saw you crying, i cried too. sending you comfort from France !

Thanks for being vulnerable and open with your experience. He expresses with so much emotion

Glad you were able to be vulnerable with us. Nothing but support

Don’t be sorry for crying, I’m 32 year old man and I’m crying more behind my screen but I’m thankful because I just came from your newest reaction of the NF song “Hope” and seeing how both have grown. Everyone needs a time of grieving before they can heal. God bless you all

Wow! Ive heard this song hundreds of times,on a daily basis and watching this reaction,u make the lyrics real! Ur truly amazing and an inspiration! Well done on your diploma xx

This was the most incredible reaction I've seen. Glad you powered through the tears to finish it

I lost my dad due to him drowning when I was 8 bc of his alcohol addiction so this shit hits home for me to so dont feel bad for crying I've heard this song like 100+ times and I cry every single time

Yo great reaction!!! And every time I listen to this song I legit get teared up this has to be one of the most powerful songs I’ve ever heard imo

Your reaction to such a difficult song to listen to was very amazing, beautiful and real. If I were there I would have hugged you in a heartbeat! I'm so happy that you didn't let the cards that were dealt to you determine the outcome of your life. You grabbed a new hand and ran away with it. Congratulations for not getting buried in emotional trauma and letting your pains hinder your growth and future as a person! It's truly inspiring! 😊

I just wanted to give you a hug sweetie. Thank you for being real showing emotion and your words of wisdom.

I’m sorry for your parents. Can’t even imagine the pain of losing someone so close. I’m 19 years old and I still have full family with grandparents, etc.. so I can’t imagine what you’re going through but I hope you’re doing well and I hope you know everything gets better eventually. And congrats for finishing the college ! I really like your reactions by the way, they’re one of the best on youtube! Keep it up, love it

Awww man first time watching you but I gotta say I wish you nothing but the best and hope things get better I just turned 16 when I was 15 I lost my mom to a drug addiction I don't know where she is she won't answer anyone not even her own family members I don't know if she's okay so I feel stuck and lost I wish you the best I really do thank you sm for showing emotion gives me confidence to not hide mine ❤

It fit my situation too. Your reaction was the easiest subscribe I've given. I love your channel.

This song gets to me every time, but watching your reaction brings it home even more. I hope you listen to your own words & realize you are strong & valued & absolutely deserving of all the love in the world.

I heard this song for the first time the other day. It really hit hard. I have the first anniversary of my best friends death coming up soon, and this song broke me. It was comforting to see that it hits others in a similar way, although very sad that anyone had to go through this. This was also my introduction to your channel, and I plan to watch more. You seem like a wonderful person, and I’ve seen so much love pouring out for you in other comments. There will always be people here for you if/when you need. It’s difficult to put deep, personal emotions on display for the world to see, but from the bottom of my heart, thank you so so much for sharing.

Good job showing us your emotional side, i know its hard, ive dealt with addiction and this song hits me everytime, let those tears out, its human too cry , own it!!

Oh man u made me tear up watching u react to this song! Thanks for being so real!

Stay resilient! You have a great heart! Keep doing you girl! Beat raw reaction I’ve seen to this song by far

NF always speaking the truth. I hate crying to a song, but on the other hand it gives me motivation to end my life. NF always keeps it 100 percent real. Rip to everyone who we loved who died!!

Thank you for your vulnerability, and I pray it be a help to someone just as NF's song is a gift to you. Blessings on you and congratulations with school. Your strength and perseverance is such an encouragement.

Beautiful reaction and I'm so sorry for your loss. You're an inspiration.

I've seen every reaction out there for this song and your tears are the realest I've seen. I'm sure your parents would be very proud of their daughter and what's she's become. I'm sorry for your losses. You have my love and respect for doing this.

Wow this is the reason I watch these reaction videos.. it tells me that despite everyone’s differences that we are all the same at that emotional level no matter how hard some of try to be, thank you for your reaction young lady.

❤❤❤❤. I have watched literally hundreds of of reactions to this song, and you now have the one that had me 😭 the most! Great/Sad reaction! SORRY FOR YOUR LOSSES.😢

Your reaction is truly one of the best to this song🙏

Your reaction was beautifully genuine ❤. This hits home of for me as well.

Thank you for being so open, I think you would really enjoy listening to Miss the Days by NF as well. This is also a song that NF doesn’t do live very often because its hard for him to get through it

one of the most real reactions I seen. keep up the good work .

All your fans are proud of you. You got through college and you're getting through life!! Just keep hanging in there and keep your head up high! You got this! 😇

Damn I feel you so bad! I lost my lil sister 23 years ago on April 1st, it was the worst April Fool joke for me! She was my soulmate/twin sister, we were called the Siamese Sisters/Twin Sisters by my family and everyone who knew us, she was everything in my life! When she died, I felt like half of myself had died as well, it’s been already 23 years since she died, and still today, I never feel whole, and whatever with anyone I forge friendships or become romantically attached, it never gets to fill that emptiness, this part of me is totally lost and dead and will stay like that until my damn last breath! And the worst is that a few weeks before she died, we got a dispute against each other, and I promised her that I would never cry on her when she’ll die! I feel so stupid for having said such ridiculous, stupid, disgusting and insane thing, and what hits even harder, is that when she died, I was so traumatized by what had just happened, I was just 10 years old after all, and she was just 12 years old, I was so in denial of her being dead that I could have swear seeing her breathing in her coffin at the funeral! I remember having kissed her on her forehead in her coffin, and it felt so cold and hard! But sadly, I kept that disgusting promise and didn’t cried at her funeral, I only let myself start crying only about 1 month or 2 after! I just can’t forgive myself for that stupid horrible promise I made to her, I wish I could see her again and apologize to her, I miss her so bad! And another thing being so hard for me, is that I was living with my wife a few years ago, from September 2018 to December 2021, and she died of a Tummy Cancer in December 30th 2021, 1 day before her 34th birthday anniversary, and she was addicted to opioids as well, the reason why this song hits home close to me, and I nearly killed myself of overdose after her death as it was unbearable and was injecting myself on every 6-8 hours! And what hurts me so bad as well for her, is that 1 week before she died, she was such in physical pain that she was constantly complaining of how unbearable her pain was, and I remember that I snapped at her as I was fed up of hearing her complain about herself and not doing anything to help herself, and told her that I was calling 911 to get the ambulance to send her at the hospital, and that was the last time I talked to her and that she was conscious, the next time I went seeing her at the hospital, she was in the ICU and nobody didn't wanted to explain me anything about what was happening to her and had to face her being in a vegetative state unconscious while she had her eyes still opened wide opened and saliva dripping down from her mouth, and after that, I didn't received any news about her by the hospital, until an ex-colleague of the school she was going when she was a kid texted me on Messenger in the middle of one of my Night Shift 2 weeks ago after her death asking me if she was really dead and linked to me a Facebook RIP post giving Hommage to her and her work, and I collapsed on the ground instantly! Still nowadays, I never got to know what happened to her body and if she has been cremated as she wanted it to be, and if not, I don't even know where she would have been buried! I wish I could speak to her one last time and apologize to her as well for what I said to her and tell her how much I loved her! 😖😖😖

3rd video of yours I've watched. Props to you for being able to make it through this song. Much love ❤️ sorry for ur loss. Truly.

I am proud of you for getting through everything you have been through and I know this reaction was tough but you nailed it.

Best reaction on KZfaq to this song! Emotions were 100% percent real and this song is out of this world! Look forward to seeing some more of your reactions!

My heart goes out to you. You're not alone, we're right here with you. Keep pushing, I know I'm a complete stranger but I'm very proud of you.

Thank you so much for sharing. Like you said…it’s nice to not feel alone. It’s such a human thing to need to feel like you’re not “a freak” because you have such darkness to deal with. Whether our stories are the same or different, some of us struggle with really deep emotional issues, and I am so thankful for a random thing like KZfaq to be able to find some connection, albeit as distant as some person I’ll never know. So again….thank you.

Wow. I am stunned that you were willing to put this online. Definitely a subscriber now.

Huge energy hug, love your emotion, so real. Wish the best from Argentina.

When we suffer trauma early in life, and we don't know what to do with it, we end up bottling it up. Songs like this help us to unbottle that trauma, so that we can process it and start letting it go or otherwise start turning it into something we can use for good. I'm glad you were able to find this song when you needed it so that you could start this unbottling healing process. 🤗❤️

This is why music is so important for people. It connects us all.

Wow, it’s crazy that when I went through shit like this little me just internalized that shit until “it’s just the past”. You think you have to be strong for others when that slowly eats you away. You can either address it then or be forced to address it much later and harder. Great reaction.

thankyou for an honest reaction losing a parent or both is heartbreaking i still have nightmares almost daily a few years later just know your loved and respected for this hun x

Strong reaction 💪🏻. Keep your head up. Great that songs like this are made.

You are strong and are doing great things and congratulations on accomplishing your college goals

I'm just watching this but I've listened to this song many times. My father was an addicted and my wife and I was helping my dad make big changes in his life and get clean and he was taken from me. Stabbed 27 times 3 days before the biggest change of his life. My brother because of our fathers murder went in a downward spiral and fell into drugs really bad and was killed 3 years later. I was just starting to accept that I was never going to get to see or hear my dad again and then my big brother, my best friend was taking from me. I struggle with their absence daily. I can't watch movie were a dad or brother dies anymore. I don't enjoy fishing or hunting as much anymore. The holidays aren't the same anymore. I just miss them so so much.

You did great girl. You were able to get through it. Stay strong ❤️

ive heard this song tons of times and still cry everytime, if it hits close ull always cry i needed that tho love your videos

I’m new to your channel and late but congratulations on graduating and sorry for all your loss. Keep your head up.

Beautiful video from a beautiful soul!! Stay real! I love NF !

WE LOVE YOU SIS, YOURE AMAZING AND WORTH IT!!!!!

powerful. thank you for this.

I feel you lady, I lost my mom also. We always wish we could have that time back ...

You’re definitely not short on perseverance. You have a beautifully loving and caring soul. I hope you continue to grow that strength and be unabashedly you.

Best reaction sorry for you losses! stay strong! 💕💓💕

Lilly, your heart is what we all search for!!!! Best reactor imo

You are so much more than you think you are. You have quite the hard journey of healing ahead, which is the REAL point of the song. Be blessed sister, your gonna feel great in the days ahead. Your no freak and thank you for being you.

It kinda broke my heart watching youre reaction to this.. youre amazing and deserve everything you have built 🎉❤

This was a beautiful reaction. I always get chills and runny eye listening to this song nf mad talented... Congrats on your diploma Lilly 🥳...

Wow beautiful I’m so sorry for your loss makes me even more grateful for my parents even though they weren’t the best they did try for us

Love youre reaction keep it real! Lilly

Hang in there! i lost my dad to addiction when i was 18 during my graduation ceremony. you're killing it with showing your real emotions im subscribing i love the genuine feelings!

Great reaction. Seriously! I'm so sorry bout the loss of your Mom, I don't know what it feels like but what I can say is that I'm always here if you need anything. Im always here to support you. It's totally ok to shed tears. I'd give you a hug if I was able to. Keep doing you though. You are amazing. New subscriber right here. Good job!! 👍👍👍😊😊

good reaction video. i realized there is a silver lining when going through trauma. it's allowed me to look at the other side of the coin. it's helped me understand more about people and allowed me to have more compassion for them. you are great btw.

My moms alive but my dads in prison but still… I’ve heard this song over a thousand times with at least 300 reactions as bonus and I still tear up every time I hear the song. It’s possible the most impactful song ever in my opinion

i still cry to this because its close to home but i still listen to it often, its actually helped me deal with it overall. many of us really appreciate sharing this with others. gratz on finishing school keep up the great work!

I gave you a thumbs up just for The bravery of showing your emotions along with your related story on top of it...