lilypippili He speaks the absolute truth

A lot of people in the military today think there badasses and just join to be cool especially young kids but have no clue when a big war pops off what they really got themselves into

lilypippili Wish him peace in the end

"One Volunteer is Worth Ten Pressed Men" so yes they do have an idea. It's the people who these men and women protect who don't

At 1:22, you can see him go back to that moment. Heart-wrenching...

Lynne Dumas what did Gabriel Garcia Marquez say? Wisdom ones to use when we no longer have need for it

Lynne Dumas agree. and he is still so torn. just like what he said. it's confusing. like he wants to agree or believe on one side but then also agrees with the other. just shows he had seen saw much and many things from war.

He went through some fucked up shit to gain his knowledge

Wisdom comes alone through suffering - Aeschylus

Lynne Dumas it is how wisdom is earned. The long hard road ahead.

CallmeMat That's the look of horror, or possibly him understanding he just took a man's life by squeezing a trigger.

Reliving the moment

Gave me fucking chills

for that second lonnie was back in 'Nam pulling that trigger all over again.

Don't see how it's so scary, he was back there in that moment. Obviously most of you haven't had a near death experience. Never experienced the moments that slow down where you can see every millisecond as if it was a day, almost like you are god fucking with time itself.

CJ Hill Look at Donald Trump he got 5 military deferments from being drafted,

Reffo News who?

The president and those in Congress should never have the power to vote on war unless they've been in it.

CJ Hill cough cough Donald trump

Clorox Bleach bad timing bro

+testenten ....Did you look up that statistic? I don't think you did. I think you just posted a comment. Because the amount of federal-level action being taken to create more sustainable programs for veterans such as PTSD dogs, medicine, and other post-war related symptoms has increased as of late. Hell, that's the whole reason we found out how good dogs were at assisting with not only PTSD but also with Anxiety.

+majmunko23 more to it then that. but I know what you mean. the problem is that this world doesn't function without war... we are Godless. but I think its 85% of the time we have spent on Earth we've been at war. I'd say more then that. there's always war, no changing it.you can argue if it's right or just, but its going go happen. so you still fight for your country and family because war is happening regardless of you. I'm not lecturing you lol I know it probably seemed like it. I agree, but there's nothing that can be done. that's why I'll serve. God bless man

+majmunko23 you have no fucking clue about that entire war do you, it started because the northern Vietnamese which were communists were invading the democratic south Vietnam and slaughtering thousands people and to save them we went in but the north had the advantage so we and millions of people from south Vietnam lost

War has changed a lot actually. What we see today are hardly wars. The farther back you go in history the worse, more violent and more brutal war was. People today couldn't even imagine what the world used to be like, we are living in the most peaceful time in human history. You think syria is bad? Go read about what the mongols would do to the people they conquered, go read about a guy named tamerlane. Really people should be so grateful for the peaceful times we live in.

MoMoneyMoBUCKETS soldiers coming back today are affected way different from previous wars, one of my favorite subs was in the Vietnam war (drafted) he knew this one lady at the airport right (flight attended or something idk), and he would always talk to her every time he flew since he returned from his war, he noticed once the soldiers coming back aren't happy or excited to be home like how he was and others were, she said something like "this war has done something to these boys, these aren't my boys coming home" it was surreal how he explained it

oh and everyone commenting about the bleeps: you're all retarded, seriously. how fucking dumb are you.

how does he feel?

I agree, i hope he can forgive himself, he truely seems remorseful,and i believe he should be forgiven

Jeremy Jacobson dafuq are you transvestite?

+Berüchtigt187 er 😂😂😂😂😂😂

I believe once you send a person to another country to fight a war you have already destroyed their soul. If you are fighting on your own soil that's different because you are fighting against an invasion. Smaller countries do need a hand from other allies from time to time but no one is fighting for freedom anymore.

Robert Mackrell you idiots created the damn caliphate of Daesh you created the evil what don't you get about that? And you supported Iraq for a long time before you made the excuse of WMDs to invade the land and made it much damn worse and a breeding ground for terroristic activity. Your shenanigans caused the existence of Daesh, Al Qaeda and Taliban. Usama Bin Laden and Mullah Umar were your operatives. You also don't do shit against Israel who is committing genocide against Palestinians and Also the Saudis who are known to fund terrorism and cause so much problems for their citizens and the middle East. USA has no damn moral high ground to stand on. You are not fighting any evil you are begetting it. And let's be real US doesn't want the end of Daesh it wants the end of Assad's rule in Syria for their own rich people benefits. Your soldiers are not fighting and dying for the American people, they are not fighting for the good of the world or USA or Syria they are just fighting to make rich Americans that much more richer. That's all there is to the agenda of USA in the middle East. USA does not care how many terrorists it creates or lives it destroys or countries it tears apart as long as the richest people in the world get richer because of the richest military in the entire damn world

Matthew Julian I can see why they wouldn't want the names of dead war vets thrown around.

Thanks for clearing that up.

You can see he was starting to feel that fear again.

Exactly.

rick nineg It's sad, but no one can ever heal from something like that. Gain a different outlook and more understanding, yes. But heal? Never.

This is what PTSD is ^^^ aside from that its apart of life, natural coping mechanism. It never heals, it gets better, but the intensity of the thoughts and the effects vary over time. Long after the traumatic experiences have ended, like 50 years you wont be affected to the extreme you were after the first year of the experiences, but it gets back up there. Nothing really heals, everything turns into a scar.

He can't, it's the craziest thing.

That thousand yard stare.

Brandon exactly.

It's called having a bad memory, none of these guys have the thousand yard stare. It takes serious, serious combat to get to that point. I mean the war in the middle east is hardly even a war, there are literally 12 year olds in chicago with more combat experience than almost all of those guys... And that's not even a joke. 6,000 dead in 15 years is the opposite of intense combat. Vietnam was much much more intense than iraq or afghanistan but still not enough for something like that. Only living americans who saw combat that intense are korean war and ww2 veterans.

MoMoneyMoBUCKETS Spoken like someone who's never seen combat

MoMoneyMoBUCKETS 6000 dead in our side, hundreds of thousands of dead middle easterners. you do the math

philipofmacedon They've had a lot longer to think about it.

philipofmacedon Also the mental conditioning for warfare is a lot better these days

philipofmacedon People today are not nearly as articulate, nor do they have the vocabulary, grammar or spelling of most people born from the 80's and back.

What you just said makes no sense. Josh was far more articulate than Lonnie.

Different situations as well. The Vietnam vets and the Iran-Iraq vet were drafted. They didn't have choices in the matter. The younger guys enlisted. I don't think it's surprising that people who had the choice to join up might ultimately be less morally unsettled by the idea of killing for your country.

We meet again

They guy he blasted right ?

Giorgi Sabashvili exactly.

It was due to improving accuracy when training by shooting at a human silhouette, not to harden them

He even said "That just came out", like its something he tells himself on the regular...

@@julianlocileno2968 no he was saying that’s what they used to tell him

@@Elgallo1107 it’s how he copes, tell yourself they weren’t real people in order to downplay the situation, saying it out loud even proves it more, usually you can keep coping thoughts in your head but yeah this time, he really had to say it out loud to convince himself, the long pause before it brought bad memories and he really had to focus and talk to himself in order to not cry, or feel bad, or have a PTSD episode. People who feel anxious sometimes tell themselves « Everything’s gonna be okay, just relax » out loud right? Well it’s the same thing here

Imagine killing a child. If you're not mentally strong, it will overwhelm you.

​@Elgallo1107 Yes, that's what they told him. And that's why he still uses that line today to try and convince himself. Unfortunately, he doesn't believe the only lie, that is supposed to make him feel better about killing another ordinary human being. But it's the only thing he has. The reason he said he "didn't mean to", was because he's not supposed to talk about that part of it, as ordered by his superiors.

Youre so smart and pretty😘

@@coochykilla Can't say the same thing about you.

Some things stay with you for life.

Jennifer C if you would have talked to this guy at joshes age he would have been the same way...

Jennifer C fuck you have you served? killed? no? then fuck off!

Heinrigh Stoltz shhh easy there

Lol you're replying to a comment from a year ago

A lot of younger vets say some of the same things Josh does. My great uncle, a WWII vet, talked about "missing" the war when he was younger.

toiletshits "Protected"

Protect? Protect who? This guy sounded like he had been in Vietnam. How and when did Vietnam ever threaten an American civilian strolling through Central Park? Like the vet said, they (the enemy) were only defending their own country.

So.. Why exactly did the US need to fight in vietnam?

Emil Wiklund: Communists are scum. That’s kinda the only reason I can think of, that and defending south Vietnam against the north

USA deciding to fight Vietnam was a very stupid decision and we payed the price for it. It wasn't just the fact that we had no good reason to be there, it was how we decided to enlist boys who were only 19 to fight such a terrible war. It's not just that the war was brutal that causes PTSD in these men, it's how fragile their minds were as they experienced it. The Vietnam War was one of the stupidest mistakes we've made as a country, in my opinion, and I hope we can learn our lesson before we go to another one like that.

@@averythesuperhero Looking back on the Vietnam War and looking at Vietnam today makes my stomach turn at the fact young men died for no reason. Not to mention the South Vietnamese regime was eerily similar to 1950s South Korea.

weeblswobbls I think he described it perfectly you know. "He was just a young man like I was. Only he was in his country. Only trying to keep me, the son of a b*tch out of his country."

Well there are people willing to commit to evil deeds so universally naturally there will be a form of energy resisting it's opposition. In this case " people who don't deserve their life " because they abuse their power and the people who have to straighten things out with the abusers. Not trying to bring you down but there will always and there will be a need for violence. Conflict solves problems wether verbal or physical

galaxa13 Sometimes the only way to save life is to take a life that the sad reality.

I feel murderers, rapists, and paedophiles shouldn't be allowed to keep living in our world.

H Se what an original thought, keep fighting for this idea i know many people must be fighting you on this one

Crow Blade stfu

Nobody should ever stop thinking about this video.

Indeed. He also says that kills weren't memorable while he was actually deployed, but once you get home, everything sets in.

Hermann Schönbächler Just because his views of war arent like Lonnies or other veteran's doesnt make him childish, he just had a different experience when it came to killing.

He's younger than Lonnie when he will understand what he have done... he will change his tone.

Nimo 5432 I disagree man, they both killed people, the wars were different. Vietnam is kinda known as a war that really fucks people up, not to say other wars weren't it's just Vietnam was especially disturbing. Furthermore Josh is much younger. I think some people handle things differently. My mom is a nurse and she witnesses people die on a regular basis and it doesn't bother her at all. Now that would really screw me up. People are just different.

Nimo 5432 doesn't mean he doesn't deserve the same amount of respect

+Mattia Siro The guy pulled the trigger, and is sitting there talking about it, im sure he knows what he did, dumb ass.

Couldn't agree more

Yeah I agree with you

+Max kill Oh, so the other guy is a piece of shit because of his emotions (or lack thereof)? People can't control their emotions, you reprehensible piece of shit. They did the same thing. You should judge them the same way. How they feel years later is irrelevant.

+PaleBlueVoice i have to disagree. the manner this guy talked about his kills made it seem they were actually people. the other guy didnt. The guilt this guy feels means he regretted it. if he regretted it, wouldnt it mean his morals are stronger than the previous guy?

+lol You can become disassociated to the extent of no longer caring and wanting more, I cant imagine the power of holding someones life in your hands for some its intoxicating

Vietnam Vets in particular were spat on, harassed, etc by the liberal Americans. They most definitely were not taken care of by the people they fought for

Collin The horrible liberal Americans you’re talking about were the ones who were fighting for them to come home. What are you even talking about?

Collin liberals were against the war. Against sending Americans to war.

He's saying it sarcastically. He knows it's a lie. He's not using it as a coping mechanism.

MrElectricRazor nope it’s real life!

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