I think about ending it all every day 👍🏿. Each day here on earth feels like I'm serving time.

"I wish I could just die in my sleep" about every evening...

I agree so much with that quote you mentioned at the start. People who say "suicide is selfish" say so because the friends and family of the deceased will grieve that person's death, but the pain that led that person to suicide was incomparably worse; it was absolutely unbearable! I find it utterly selfish to focus on one's own grief about the death of a loved one rather than considering how much that person had been suffering.

Getting help for suicidal ideation is difficult because it seems like there's either a rush to hospitalize you, or people think you're just trying to get attention. There seems to be no middle ground where you can discuss it and work through it, and I know for me what started off as passive has been building up for years and I'm scared that one day the pain will just be too unbearable. It seems like the average person and even doctors think that suicide just happens over night. This is not my field, but I would imagine for most it started as passive ideation and became active.

Every f'ing day. Each day is worse than the one before. I can't even appreciate the amazing things I have. I sleep most of the time because dreams are sometimes better than reality. Sleep is my escape.

Talking to someone ends up being put in a hospital (like jail), they keep you in the till they feel you are OK (you pretend to be ok). Then once you get out you have more problems because you were unable to work so your bills a mounting up, ppl judge you. It drives you down more. I have been there.

I lost my 13-year-old daughter to suicide seven months ago. I wish I had understood more about it sooner. Please keep doing good work like this to have the difficult conversations and spread the message.

Hospitalization as a last resort doesn't also mean it will be a good or helpful thing, since involuntary stays still cost $ here and does not gurantee quality, unbiased, compassionate care. My last stay for active suicidality was enough to convince me if I am ever actively suicidal again, to never seek help and to be sure my next attempt is 100% lethal.

Rule #1. Don’t trust anybody

Sucks when you have no one.

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

I told my best friend about my plan to kill myself and said something similar to the suggested "script" in the video. She got so mad at me and said a lot of things that it made me feel attacked instead of supported. She even told me I don't know how it feels to lose someone (she lost her mom to cancer when she was in college), which made me think she cares more about how she feels than what is happening to me. I felt worse after telling my situation to her.

I've been considering suicide for a long time, but I'm afraid to tell anyone because I do not want to be hospitalized! But, I assure you, I do feel close to carrying out my suicidal feelings. And when I do, nothing in the entire world will change, except that I won't have to deal with this entire world anymore.

Im suicidal, why should people try and stop me? If nothing is changes, I just wanna get out of here. Stopping me or convincing me to stop seems cruel.

You don't want to die, what you want is an end to your pain." I don't believe that is true for all. Some are just tired of life's continuing struggles and pain , and want to be done with it once and for all. At least i do, and struggle with that thought process

Thank you Sadly sometimes money will help a person not commit suicide. Not having a job to make ends meet can be humiliating and make you feel hopeless

The fear of guilt and shame if I mention my thoughts to a person is very strong. There is an extremely strong fear of judgment if it's mentioned in the workplace and the work force is a strong trigger of these thoughts.

I am 48 years old, I failed at every honest uplifting endeavor in my life, my family hates me, my longest intimate relationship was only 10 months long, my career in software development is going nowhere, I have no friends, I have made repeated calls to the suicide hotline. I have been struggling with this my entire life and always hoped I would grow out of it. The stresses of life have just made it worse.

I am afraid that if I talk about suicide to a friend, I'll bring them down and they will also feel bad like I do. I am afraid that they won't want to associate with me anymore and that I'll be even more alone than I already am. I am afraid that I will be committed to a mental hospital and I won't be able to work or earn money causing me to be evicted and homeless. I am afraid of being homeless. I am afraid of being forgotten like my life never mattered. I prefer to watch youtube videos on suicide rather than get help because I don't think anyone can really help me. I was destined to be like this.

What if I don’t enjoy living but I’m too scared to die?? Like the best way I can explain it is I enjoy going to sleep because im not conscious

I told one of my friends I was feeling suicidal. Now, My entire circle of friends have isolated me… I made that mistake once, never again

The thing is I want a permanent solution. I'm tired of the highs and lows of my life especially when the low just seem to get lower. When I look at myself I see nothing worth saving, and nothing worth living for. But I am too pathetic and scared to take the plunge. I don't matter. No one really cares

I'm 17 and I once expressed passive ideation to the in-school therapist because I was dealing with so much shit and felt so alone that I felt that people would genuinely be better off without me around. I even went so far as to assess how hard my family and friends would grieve in the event of me carrying this out. The therapist referred me to my guidance counselor who then went to the emergency room and my mom for a risk assessment. Easily one of the worst days of my life. It destroyed my mom, they went through every measure possible even when I told everybody it was just passing thoughts in a moment of pain. The IOP program I was referred to was going to be impossible to work around my schedule and drain all of my college savings so I decided not to go through with it. It relieved my parents greatly probably more that I wasn't going to drain them financially and put them through schedule hell. My parents definitely gave off suicide is selfish vibes during the whole ordeal and strongly emphasized that it was a meltdown gone too far. That was true but I still can't help but feel disgusted by the fact that they felt that way about this situation.

Ppl say that suicidal thoughts aren’t normal but I swear everyone has had them

I'm screwed then. "Friends" don't take my calls or texts anymore, family gets way to uncomfortable about mental health topics, let alone this, and either change the subject or walk away. I have no one to confide in about anything and have no money for "professional" help. I don't make enough money to have extra for that. Coping skills haven't done anything, no matter what it was. This is a great video though and if anyone else is able to get help or has friends and family that are there for them, use the tips in this video, they seem great 😊.

I felt like dying multiple times during my life but I’ve never gotten to the point where I’m depressed like I am right now. I’m so sick of dealing with such tough things in this world that the only way to get away from them and to not have to deal with them is to die

I've looked at people who have committed suicide with envy in that they had the strength to carry out through. I sometimes wonder that when you are absolutely sure you are going to do it should you just do it before a change of mind or should you take time to enjoy the fact that it'll soon be over

If you tell anyone that you are suicidal, or they say it's things will get better it's not that bad don't be selfish. If you tell a therapist, they report you. Then CPS comes and threaten to take your kids to a group home. So who can help? No one.

I've dealt with passive thoughts for over 30 years without leaning on anyone. No safety plan, no therapy - I don't know when or how but it became "normal" and just sits in the background. I don't have crisis days or anything like that. It's not particularly a threat to me, it's just something I think about daily. 🤷‍♂

I am the epitome of someone who should never have been born and people have explicitly told me I don’t belong and to go away, to say the least. I think it’s commendable I’m still here. I have nothing and no one today. I’ve endured far too much hostility. This is a cruel world. I wish I was never born. I sincerely hope that considering how bad my life was and is, that I do indeed die by age 29. Because if things were going to get better they surely would have by. Nobody should have to endure that which I have endured and am enduring. I am a resilient person but this is no life quality. I have stayed alive too long only because I am incapable of action. If I had a choice or wish I’d definitely ask for an immediate death. Anyway, I hope all people enduring depression may be healed quickly and permanently. Thank you

I have passive and active suicidal thoughts. I am frequently, activily suicidal (going through that currently). I work with a therapist ( I have been seeing her for over 2 years). There is one other type of suicidality - if you would use that term for it). And that is what I call suicidal feeling. That is absolutely the most dangerous for me. I am in a heightened state of anxiety, I have to get away from harming myself. This is like crisis times ten. When I am like this - can't drive. Being anywhere is dangerous ( I might run out in traffic). The last time I felt this way was about 6 months ago. I called my therapist, she agreed to see me. One of the things I noticed was when I walked into the clinic and sat down: I felt safe, I knew they wouldn't let me hurt myself there. (I know alot of the staff). After I met with my therapist, she told me anytime I felt that way, just tell them that you need to see one of the behavoral health professionals and you're just going to sit until one becomes availiable. I thought that was a good plan. I just wanted to mention this other sense of suicidality I have: Suicidal Feeling. Action is immediately required.

Others have probably said the same but, I can't believe how relaxing those thoughts are

Living in the USA as a person with mental issues, in my case, Chronic Major Depression, has got to be like living in the Dark Ages. I’ve been hospitalized twice and both times were a travesty of epic proportions. I could’ve taught the ‘classes’, they were so simplistic…and how I ended up there, in both cases, was criminal. We ARE treated like criminals from the first moment to when we finally leave the Mental Hospital. I learned, VERY QUICKLY, how to play the game so I could GET OUT of there ASAP…but it shouldn’t be that way. They pile indignity upon indignity on you from the beginning. My examples: I was surrounded by armed security guards the 2nd time after I went in to the clinic to ask for new medicine since my old anti-depressant wasn’t working. When I realized they were going to 1) send me to a mental hospital because they determined I was a “threat” to myself and others (I was not - never was), I sneaked out the back and tried to leave in my car. 2) That’s when I was surrounded by gun-carrying guards as if I had murdered somebody. At that time a white-coated Doctor approached my car and told me that if I went with him to his office to tell him what happened, he’d let me go home, as he was the Head Dr - my own sensible doctor was on med leave - so I followed him back in to his office where he 3) locked his door and told me I could go in an Ambulance or in handcuffs under police escort, but that that was the only way I was going anywhere. 4) They took me (by Ambulance) to the ER and refused to feed me, made me wear a hospital gown and would not let me go to the bathroom without an armed guard. 5) They handcuffed me in another ambulance (so I wouldn’t be a ‘threat’ to anyone…I think they handcuffed the wrong person!) and drove me two hrs away to a Mental Hospital. Before handcuffing me, the EMT told me to scratch my nose as I wouldn’t be able to on the trip! 6) This was after I told them that I was my mother’s ONLY caregiver…they couldn’t have cared less. 7) Once there, they tried to get me to sign a contract to pay them when I got out but I refused. When they FORCED the paper and pen into my hands, I crossed out their words, and wrote that as I had been taken here against my will, that I wouldn’t be paying them a dime. Then I signed that. 8) They then forced me into PAPER PJs that didn’t fit me, and put me into a room with a roommate far worse off than myself. Still, I made the most of it, ‘cause I needed a friend. (It was to be a good decision) 9) When I chose to stay in my room instead of attend a “mandatory” class, they said my ‘punishment’ was a cold plate of food for dinner and no dessert. I started attending classes so I could get food. The classes were useless and stupid. A Chimpanzee could’ve taught them, they were so one-dimensional and simplistic (sorry to all the chimpanzees out there!). 10) We were not allowed any sharp writing utensils since they cleverly showed us how we could make weapons out of them (!) but I called my pastor and asked when he visited me, would he bring me a few well-sharpened pencils and a puzzle magazine in a shopping bag. When he did, right in front of the guard nurses (not to be confused with guard dogs…), I slipped a pencil and the mag into my bra, while putting the rest into a box marked as my personal “contraband”. It worked! My first escape hack as a prisoner of war! That pencil was a lifesaver. It turns out my roommate was an artist, so we took turns using the pencil so we could both keep ourselves from truly GOING insane. I was given a private Psychiatrist for a half-hour a day and, besides the puzzle mag and pencil, this guy saved my life. He believed my story completely (hmmm that’s disturbing on its own), gave me new meds and some useful tips to survive being in that Hell Hole. I really appreciate him. Lesson I learned (not taught in their classes): attend whatever stupid thing they want you to attend, no matter how useless and ridiculous it may seem. It won’t help you, but you will get hot food and vending machine privileges! 11) Two days later, my brother-in-law called me and told me that without me there to take care of her, my Mom had fallen and broken her hip and was in the hospital. She never fully recovered from that fall, and never walked again. Needless to say, I had a FIT right then and there. Thankfully, even the guard nurses seemed to sympathize and let me see my shrink in the mental facility, immediately. I found out from him that Kaiser, or ANY hospital, for that matter, is NOT ALLOWED TO TAKE YOU ANYWHERE WITHOUT PROVIDING YOUR FAMILY, CAREGIVERS WHILE YOU ARE GONE. Kaiser DID NOT DO THAT. He told me they would arrange to get me home earlier because of this…though TOO LITTLE TOO LATE - THE DAMAGE WAS DONE. I never forgave them for that. For any of that. When I finally left, I had choice words to say, you can best believe. I knew it was a hopeless endeavor, but I contacted my case worker and threatened to sue Kaiser Hospital for their cavalier treatment of me and mine. The case worker got the first initial therapist who sent me there, fired. I don’t know what happened to the Kaiser Doctor but I hope he’s working in fast food now. Important for all of you out there who can relate: my case worker told me I was under NO LEGAL OBLIGATION TO FILL OUT ANY PRE-OFFICE VISIT FORMS…such as a psych form, which I had filled out, ‘cause up to that point, I had always followed the rules. NOT ANY MORE, thank you. Now, if someone thrusts an iPad at me and says, “Fill this out please.” I hand it immediately back to them and say, politely, “No. I am under no legal obligation to fill this out for you.” And that’s that. Well, that’s just one of my many examples of how stupidly our mental health services run roughshod over their patients. BEWARE. Very few in this industry are after your best interests. Those “Call this number” ads after Suicide stories may be well-meant but until our country does better at serving the mental health community, I’d call anyone else BUT a suicide hot line. You’ll just get treated the way I was. I once quipped to my case worker after this debacle, that prison would’ve been an upgrade. At least I would’ve been given better PJs and a hot meal!

It is so hard to tell it because they often don't take it seriously, some even accuse me that I am just seeking attention and wants pity. It is very provoking and encouraging to carry it out.

It doesn't get better, depression always triumphs in the end. Good luck people.

We need to drop the stigma against leaving this world. Sometimes, it's just not a very good place for some folks and they're ready to see what, if anything, is next.

I cry myself to sleep every day.😢

I’m here for anyone who need to talk, I’m the same boat as everyone I think about but it but don’t want to hurt my loved ones by doing it

I wish I’d go to sleep and never wake up everyday. Psychiatrists and counsellors cause more harm than good. I’ve been on Atleast 20 different medications and nothing works. They made me sick, sleep my life away and cost a fortune.. over 15 years of it. I missed, or don’t remember half of my daughters childhood. Hopefully tonight will be my lucky night!

You are not alone. We got this people 💪 keep strong

I wish I could hug each one of you going through such thoughts. I have been dealing with these from many years and I know how exactly it feels... we can't describe in words... I feel someone would hug me once and ask about it. That doesn't happen...

Something I’ve learned while working with suicidal clients is that the ideation often gets meshed with a fantasy that death and dying is somehow going to be better than what they are currently experiencing. The reality is that death isn’t necessarily going to relieve anything. We don’t actually know what happens when you die and rarely have I seen people who go through the death and dying process find it peaceful for them as they are actively dying or for the loved ones who remain and witness it. Suicidal ideation often has a way of fantasizing or romanticizing death. There is little about the process that is nice even in the best cases. Life is short even if it doesn’t feel like it sometimes. Get help and talk about your feelings with someone.

I'm totally dependent on my husband of 23 years, he doesn't know how to be empathetic. I suffer from bad fibromyalgia, depression, osteoarthritis, sporadic lameness, bad hips, hands and knees, severe IBS , blind spots in each eyes and a cancer survivor. I'm only 55 years old and feel 90. I would cook dinner 90%of the time, do house work but can only do laundry and light cleaning now. Over the past week he brought it to my attention that I don't do $hit. I've had a really bad flare up so it really knocks me through a loop of endless excruciating pain and swelling so I wasn't able to do what I normally do in the house for a couple of weeks. So the clean dishes stay in the dishwasher and the dirty dishes pile up in and around the sink till I start feeling better then I empty the dishwasher put all the dirty dishes in it. It doesn't matter that I have problems bending or reaching up high to put things away. I do what I can at my own pace but since his outburst I'm in a 24/7 flare-up and in tears. I asked him to apologize but he won't apologize for something that he says is true so I have been isolating myself in our bedroom to try to stay away from any negatively. I have thought about suicide for a few year's bc of the constant pain, I have thought about how to do it and I absolutely know I won't be missed bc I dont have family. It's just my husband, I have always kept people at a distance bc of my past so I don't get close to anyone. Doctor's don't want to hear u they just want ur money, they don't want to help u. It's mostly u walk into a doctor's office and they try to sell u other stuff and try to get u to buy from this one company when come to find out they are part owners of the said company. U will absolutely not be given any kind of medication that is a pain reliver besides telling u to take IB profin or Tylenol but please do buy something I'm getting profits from. I see no help nor support for a person who needs it now a day's. I do like ur video, u gave very good advice but how do u get doctor's to care and treat thier patients? spouse's and loved ones to know empathy and want to help and hear u? I'm at the point to were it's pointless to keep hoping, to consider anyone is really going to be there for somebody, to believe what for my instance my word's, feelings and thoughts r true and raw not seeking attention, not faking anything. I've thought about sending this video to my husband but he wouldn't have the patience to watch the who thing, if he did by some miracle he'd probably use it against me saying I'm trying to put blame on him and it'll probably get worse for me here at home. When I say I have no one and no where to go I really mean no one and no where, I'm just tired of feeling the constant pain that wakes me up even when I sleep. I never have a time of complete peace. Thank u Doctor for doing what u do, putting these videos out and being the person u r. I'm sorry for this long post.

So, what do we do when nothing helps? Therapy, meds, fitness, healthy living, journaling, meditation, religion, time with friends, family…when we’ve tried it all, and things just get worse every day, what do we do?

WARNING!!! What she hasn't told you is this. If the US crisis line is same as Australia, if you admit to suicidal thoughts and speak freely to the call centre, even if you are not going to actively suicide but need to unburden your thoughts and what caused them (you often just want someone to understand what life factors are making you feel that way ie by talking through these events to a sympathetic listener often diffuses the intensity of the problem and then the suicidal thoughts lessen too. HOWEVER, all health professionals under law have a Duty of Care so IF this person on the phone doesn't know you and doesn't understand your situation and why you are so distressed, this invisible person after only minutes of listening can have your call traced and the police turn up banging on your door. The point is, of you ring, you are at the mercy of the competency of the one on the other end of the phone. And not all therapists get is let alone a phone counsellor with no background story. So beware what you admit to and always visualise how this other person may perceive if there is danger or not. They will push the find and send authorities to cover their butt. You should end up just needing someone to understand you and talk through the situation, to LISTEN non-judgementally! And before you know it, you are taken away by police to the mental lock up for evaluation which could take days in conditions that push you closer to the brink. I know this to be true because I pinned them down one time and said your intro says our privacy is valued etc etc but eventually admitted that our calls are easily traced and they have the option to notify authorities if they are worried. Some inexperienced or inept person has the right to pass judgement on you even if they're WRONG. Don't believe me?? Any free help call line even if it's not a suicidal help one always asks "do you have suicial thoughts? Are you alone" ? The min you admit to suicidal thoughts even if they were in the past ), the trace is activated (your cell phone number comes up automatically to see when you phone in) so things are ready if the talk goes south and "they" believe you might hurt yourself. Everything is also recorded "for training purposes" =BS

Being constantly reminded by life that you deserve to suffer becomes more and more of a burden. Sometimes you want to end it but the thought of what might await me in the next chapter of existence is the only thing that keeps me alive. For now.

I so badly wish I could actually talk to people about my problems but I’m terrified of driving away the one close friend I do have

I'm proud of you young lady. I hope you help some folks. I'm schizophrenic and manic depressed, that's just on paper. I'm here today, and I'll be here tomorrow

One thing is America's mental healthcare system is a joke. Say someone has been taking benzos for actual anxiety, off the streets because a doctor wouldn't prescribe them to someone who actually has panic disorder. And they end up having to go to a detox center, instead of listening to the person and maybe setting up a slow taper off. Just saying

Some of my favorite Artists died by suicide, Vicent Van Gogh, Yukio Mishima, or Andres Caicedo. Some of them died for philosophical or political reasons, but others to stop their own human suffering. If a person who has a chronic illness thinks about suicide from a rational point of view, seeking not to suffer in the future, is it still not justified ? There are many difficult questions don't know.

I’m glad that I have not had active suicidal thoughts in years. I’ve struggled with active suicidal thoughts and later passive suicidal thoughts before. In the past few years these thoughts were intrusive and unwanted whenever I was exposed to a stressor in my life. I’m glad I haven’t had any thoughts of suicide in almost a year.

I know that if I kill myself my family will be very upset, but while I am alive my depression is upsetting them anyway so I dont know what to do ?. I cant seem to let go of the past. I even have dreams about it. I can relate to this video.

I don’t have anyone to talk to 😊 I love this world so much.

I have always had them- and it somehow makes my depression better. I think about it and oddly feel relief.

I am a successful case of survival and I thank my psychiatrist for it. Without meds I am a hot mess but with them I can live almost like a healthy person. And therapy helps a lot too

I have been tortured by suicidals thoughts for most of my life. The only things that help me is getting love and support from people -- that is the only thing I will accept.

I hate being alive. Why does this endless, lonely dark tunnel never end?

I am 10 and I’ve gone through a hard time and also I’ve been having suicidal thoughts and this video has helped me

Expectation: “Hey, are you suicidal?” “Yeah, thank you for caring.” Reality: “Hey, are you suicidal?” “The easiest answer is no.”

I never knew that talking about suicide is ok. Thank you for this info. I think I will watch this again A lot of information in this video and all of it is new to me.

The only thing keeping me around rn is my dog, it just breaks my heart thinking about him just wondering where I am and confused why I haven’t came back yet

I don’t have any friends I can confide in, so my therapist told me my homework is to try to make friends. But tbh, I don’t want or need them. Having friends (even nice, supportive friends) is exhausting. I’d rather just disappear. Not sure how talking to someone/getting support helps. The support doesn’t stop the ideation for me.

It's December 18th I'm about to be made homeless ( my landlord was illegally subletting ), I have no savings to move, no friends or family, Feel so alone and want to give up and die, but too scared to carry it out. What can I do? Society just seems selfish , uncaring and only want money.

I been dealing with sucide thoughts for about 19 years of my life. Early in my 20s tried three different times . But failed each time . Now be 40 years old. My sucide thoughts all stronger than ever . Believe if I try agian which is a real possibility . I will succeed this time .

Wow this is such good advice! Talking about this topic is insanely hard, I am so glad resources like this video exist! Thank you!

This is so true. I have had to learn so much about suicidal ideations with my therapist. It was really scary but I am starting to better process my pain.

As someone who struggles with long term depression, a hug goes a long way. Seriously. Family, friend, partner, etc. It doesnt matter. A hug goes for miles. I cant begin to understste the value. Serioisly, it goes on so long.

Everytime I try to reach out to my family for help I get criticized for complaining about taking care of my aging mom with Dementia or my nonverbal brother with ASD. So even if I talk to a therapist it's not going to make things better. I'm still going to be overwhelmed. My ADD isn't going to go away things I need to take care of her just going to keep piling up. I never thought I would feel tempted before but now I can see why some people are.

To anyone at a point like this in their life. Just know that others are out there who understand what it’s like. There’s nothing wrong with you. It’s understandable why you feel like you do, sometimes just knowing others understand that you’re struggling helps. Life isn’t always smooth sailing. We are all in this together. Much love.

Thank you so much for this video. I appreciate so much that you care about others struggling with suicidal ideations.

TW: This contains harm and suicidal stuff.. Here I am, My first "suicidal" time, 5th grade..I was scared for 5th grade at first, but was not expecting the pain and help of it, I first showed signs when I would write notes to myself in my personal notebook, now, usually my teachers (or even my school threapist) don't look at my notebook, the 2nd week of it I wrote "Roses are red, Violets are blue, Death is the best thing" and my therapist looked inside my notebook, she tried to talk to me, I told her "I'm fine" when going home that night, I would start to get worse and worse, I went to school the next day, tried talking to my friend, all they did was tell me I should, it causes me to be a "insane" person, I would go home that night, tell my friend online I was done. She ended up calling the cops on me, (good for her) I went to a hospital and was put on medicine (not admitted) 6th grade was pain, That was the first time I tried, I held myself under a pool, trying to drown, it didn't work (as expected), I tried a few months later by overdosing, and it didn't work...I was straight up scared. And I made a plan over and over again. I was talking to my therapist (I have one online) and I decided to attempt with a knife, and it failed, I was admitted for 3 weeks for suicidal ideations and attempting. I love life, but sometimes it is hard, this story is dumb, and I doubt anyone even cares about my thoughts or story, but I'm writing this for some reason. Edit: I am kinda mad I made this.

I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my KZfaq channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤

I want to stay here.just cant take the pain. It doesnt seem to get any better

I just want the pain to stop. And I want to do it in a way that no one will know. I don't care how much it would hurt me. I don't have any support. I'm lonely all the time and the pain just won't stop and it leaches into being physical pain.

when i see you how much effort u put in this video it gives life meaning ❤

I've posted on a previous video about this, but thank you for guidance and insite🙏 And yes you may have saved my life not just today but ongoing.

To everyone in the comments of this video: I don’t know what you’re going through. I don’t know what kind of problems (mental, phyisical, emotional, financial) you’re experiencing. I know only this: I'm glad you're all here. Please don’t hurt yourselves. You are worth so much more than you think you are. You are not a burden. Your pain is real and valid and nobody has the right to tell you that you're selfish or awful for feeling this way. I live with these thoughts every day. And yeah, we are small, insignificant, immaterial aspects of the universe and we are all going to die one day. It’s true, nothing matters. And that's why EVERYTHING matters. THAT’S WHY *YOU* MATTER. You being here is a one in a million shot, as likely as two bullets striking each other head on. You’re something in a universe full of nothing. You are breathing existing life in a place that is so much bigger and fantastical than you know. That’s why I don’t want you to go. That’s why I want you here. Because there would be so much that you would miss out on. Because as you fade, the first thing your mind would think is "This hurts. I don’t want to die." Because I would miss you, even though I've never met you. Because there are so many new books to read, movies to watch, plans to make, pages to write on, nature to experience, and sunrises to watch and feel. I want you to feel the rain on your faces, to feel the wind on your cheeks. You deserve that. You deserve all the love in the world. You deserve to experience everything that is you, even if it is painful or scary to face. You deserve to be here, to exist. And I don’t want to lose you to something you can't change your mind about tomorrow. Please...even if it's just for me, some person on the internet you don’t even know, or even if It’s for yourself, please stay. Live out of spite if you have to. Please...just live. 💜

Suicide awareness is really important, people often forget that its always an option!

Finally a person that can explain this to me... Thank You

thank you so much for making this video! Although we are really making huge progress in understanding mental health and welcoming it to the conversation, suicide really is taboo still…it makes us feel lonely, isolated and scared, it makes us feel like we’re freaks and we really have no where to turn to even though we want to…we often tell our therapists everything, but that because we are so afraid and ashamed…talking about it really helps and I cannot tell you how grateful I am to you for making this video! (I am doing very good rn, just so nobody worries)

My dad, his sister, their dad, my sister. When I over did it at my job I hit the grey zone for 2 weeks. After 7 doctors got the right one. Almost 20 years now and I think every day how. But I promised my kids. Its not a wonderful life.

First, a question: What about cases where someone has a painful, untreatable, terminal physical disease? Second: The worst thing you can do when dealing with any mental health (or physical health) condition is to pretend you care about someone when you clearly don’t. This happened to me with a self-proclaimed suicide “expert” and I wound up having to give her therapy (which I am not qualified to do) when she called me in a panic because she thought I was suicidal (I wasn’t). Suicide is best prevented by caring about someone years before and showing it, not faking concern for your own ego.

let me be the first to say thank you Micheline for making this video im eternelly i'm grateful youve helped me see things in a better perspecive

I lost the love of my life, who I met shortly after my wife filed for divorce, because I left where she was living to get treatment for Intrusive suicidal thoughts back at home, where I could get the meds and therapy I needed. So now I have lost my wife and home and pets, the girl I love and I have two friends left. I am sleeping on a sofa in my parents bedroom, they have moved to the living room, hundreds of miles from my two friends (but they also caused me loads of trauma as a kid). So living really feels pointless and I'm in so much pain.

Thank you this video has helped but the problem still remains

Dont tell family they make it worse most parents are useless in this situation

Hey thank you for making this video! I have experienced a lot of suicidal ideation at different times in my life and am now very supportive of normalizing taking honestly about these things because the shame/stigma made it so much harder to work through. That said, I actually had a huge breakthrough in acceptance of those thoughts and myself and am in a MUCH much better place now. It took time, but I have learned and am still learning to express my emotions (even just to myself) so the pain doesn’t build up, and I have also managed to change my mindset around so many things. It took time, and to be honest I largely did it on my own (or, at least, I didn’t tell most people in my life directly about my thoughts) but it IS possible to move past this and it IS worth it. That said, I have no judgment for anyone who is or who has even been there. I do get it. And I hope it becomes easier for all of us to be honest about these things the more people who are open to having conversations like this. Thank you!

Thank you so much for making this video! This is the first video about suicide that actually made me feel seen. I’ve been struggling with passive and active suicidal thoughts for a while now and I really don’t know what to do anymore. I think about taking my life at least once a day and even started doing research on methods and all that. The problem is that it’s really, like really hard for me to open up and to talk about my problems. I’m scared that I might end up being a burden, that they would start treating me differently or that they wouldn’t believe me. I’m also still really young, which makes it even harder for me, to reach out for help on my own. One day I decided to call a hotline. I tried calling there 5 times and no one picked up. Then finally, the 6th time I called, someone picked up. I was ready to talk, I even had the words laid out in my head, but as soon as it was my turn to speak, anxiety overcame me and I immediately hung up. I do have some save persons like my mom but she’s incredibly selfish when it’s about topics like that. I tried telling her several times about how I feel (without mentioning suicide though) and how I wanted professional help, but she for some reason always blocks the topic and says that she doesn’t want me to have therapy because it would make her feel like a bad mother, because it’s expensive, because she has bad experiences and so on and so on. I really don’t know what to do anymore. Everything seems hopeless. It got to a point where I think, that not even a therapy or a hospital would help anymore. I’d love to hear your guys opinion and maybe even some advice on this.

Fantastic video, everything was explained very simple and easy to understand, thank you

I used to be in a major depression and wanted to die every single day. Since then I’ve become a much better person! I started getting out of depression in September 2022. I started with trying to get out of depression. I then started with becoming a better person, that took a while. I then started to take a shower every day and wash my body. Now I’ve started to wash my hair and I’m working on brushing my teeth twice a day. Good luck people

Thank you for your words. I am crucified by my family for any emotion I share, or they notice. I am Bipolar, Have ADHD, complex trauma, 11 years sober, I believe undiagnosed autism, and I also have a TBI from an attack. I don't always have control and mask so much. I am always so exhausted. I am my fathers caregiver, and have a 15 yr old who shares a lot of the same diagnosis I do. Usually the painful. all-consuming thoughts of just giving into the peace of not fighting anymore go away as fast as they come. But they just haven't, I've been avoiding the doctor because I know hospital will be the answer and I can't leave my family alone and have no help with them. And how can I get help with all my thoughts are the mess I just have waiting. I really needed to hear I actually need help, I am not over exaggerating. You have impact. Thank you again.

If I had a gun right here right now i would be dead today

I needed to hear this ❤

With the belief that you are a burden on people that are close to you. With the feeling of despair and emptiness. With the intollerable mental pain that i live with I feel it would be better for all of us if i wasnt around. I would finally be at peace and the mental pain would be gone. People close to me wouldnt be burdened and would be free to live freely. This is how i feel. Even though there are alot of people around me, i feel so alone. Your video brought tears to my eyes.

Thanks 4 this video new subscriber here I've had these thoughts before 😢especially dealing with toxic narcissistic individuals making me feel less than and or worthless.

Thank you for this video Micheline :)

Not gonna lie, this video really helped in understanding some things... don't wish to go any further but just wanted to say...Thankyou so much ❤👍

Real 😞 thanks for the vid micheline

Thank you so much for this video, this is very important and everybody TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND FOR OTHERS

You are so calm when you speak it's making me less anxious