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NARCISSISTIC PARENTS & THE CORE WOUNDS OF THEIR TRAUMATIZED CHILDREN | DR. KIM SAGE

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Dr. Kim Sage, Licensed Psychologist

Dr. Kim Sage, Licensed Psychologist

Күн бұрын

This video describes several common core wounds of children raised by Narcissistic parents, as they grow up experiencing the damage and trauma of never being truly seen, or safe.
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@theperfectautumn8781
@theperfectautumn8781 Жыл бұрын
These abusive parents only see you in the _role_ they designate onto us at a young age, with the intention of making them look good at our expense, either playing the "hero-parent" or the "victim".
@AzizasPeaceGaming
@AzizasPeaceGaming Ай бұрын
Playing the victim is so fucking annoying it honestly made me hate my mother more
@Old52Guy
@Old52Guy Жыл бұрын
This is wonderful. Thank you. I am 70 yrs old and many would say I'm too old to start this kind of work. My parents are dead, my siblings and I parted many years ago and only have superficial conversations, and many of those who bullied and harassed me while growing up have died. I am working on this because I need things to make sense. I started watching your channel out of idle interest. When you grow up in that kind of environment it is normal. I could remember very little of growing up. After about 3-4 of your short videos it was like a dam broke inside my head and I was flooded with horrible memories. It was this flooding that told me I had found the one of the keys to making sense. This comment has gone on way too long. Just know you have made a real difference for me. Maybe your other subscribers can learn from my experience and not wait.
@cherylmockotr
@cherylmockotr Жыл бұрын
If you scroll through comments on her earlier videos you'll see that there are many, many people in their 60s and 70s who are just now getting their AhHa moments. I've been told that it usually isn't until people are in their late 40s that they're even psychologically ready to start looking at their childhood wounds unless life circumstances have forced them to hit rock bottom before that age, e.g. alcoholism, divorce, getting fired, etc. So you aren't late, you're in good company!
@spriggy4382
@spriggy4382 Жыл бұрын
I hear you and it's never too late to start healing 💜
@anthonyhewat9254
@anthonyhewat9254 Жыл бұрын
Congratulations it’s never too late
@judybartels4339
@judybartels4339 Жыл бұрын
I feel it is too late. So much damage over so many years from so many different people. I have totally self isolated and have no interest in people. Don’t trust anyone.
@elishaskeen9795
@elishaskeen9795 Жыл бұрын
​@@judybartels4339that's where I'm at right now too.
@Ursaminor31
@Ursaminor31 Жыл бұрын
Horrifyingly accurate. No therapist ever knew any of this. I healed myself, and when now encountering these accurate articulations the reality of what I survived becomes clearer and seen.
@velvetmusic9851
@velvetmusic9851 Жыл бұрын
So many people have been abused as children. When they say "a mother's love is the closest thing to God's love" I always think wow, basically we are screwed.
@model1976
@model1976 Жыл бұрын
There are so many "sayings" that are just plain wrong. They are said and written by people who perhaps are blessed themselves, but who don`t ackowledge the complexity of the world.
@Platinumpuppy
@Platinumpuppy Жыл бұрын
I spent half my life saying “I am sorry” for things I didn't do or counot control. Because of limited and inadequate therapy for 15 years I am still dealing with it.
@SWForce
@SWForce Жыл бұрын
My family damaged me. My dad was a narc. Extremely abusive. I ran away when I was 15 and lived on the streets.
@claudiaschneider5744
@claudiaschneider5744 Жыл бұрын
Almost same happened to me - narc mom got jealous bc of her 17 years younger husband when he got his pedophile eyes on me - so in her borderline rage she just kicked me out on the streets with 17 - the rest of my dysfunct. family were abusive and narc. too - it often feels like I woke up from a horrible nightmare.
@SWForce
@SWForce Жыл бұрын
@@claudiaschneider5744 When I got the phone call my dad died. Instead of crying I had instant relief. It felt like I was free from narcissistic slavery. Since that happen my life has flourished. I ran for election won the election. Got invited to be on 4 committees. I'm now opening a food pantry to feed the homeless. My folks and siblings who were groomed to be narcissist. Constantly reminded of me of how I was nothing. It was like I was stuck in that state. So I cut off contact with all of them. When my dad died. That was the final cord that was cut. It took me moving to another state to find peace and start all over again at 60
@moscowcowboy_13
@moscowcowboy_13 Жыл бұрын
1. self blame first- chronic sense of self blame, things are always my fault 2. live in chronic state of hyper vigilance, used over reading and scanning people and situations- hyper focus on others and look for meaning have trouble turning that off. 3. pattern of insecure attachment with relationships- did one parent enable the narc? divorce trauma or abandonment by that parent, feels like relationships are not safe. 4. do not want to be a burden- makes you feel like a burden to others, minimize your needs and boundaries 5. extremely avoidant, don't let people in, must be an island and do not need anyone, 6. parentification and enmeshment are normal so your boundaries often serve as rescuer, fixer, no separate sense of self 7.have narc traits yourself, absorbed idea that only when you do something which is seen an admired do you matter, narc rage like your parent. 8. you carry trauma ptsd or relational trauma, you absorb how little you were seen by your parent, you are stuck living in trauma response ways.
@stevensantora2976
@stevensantora2976 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much.
@LilRed65
@LilRed65 Жыл бұрын
6.5ish out of 8
@evelyngigli1649
@evelyngigli1649 Жыл бұрын
Im 50 years old and i still get the silent treatment from my mother. My sociopathic step father died in 2010 but my mother still defends him from the abuse we suffered. It is insidious. I can't even bring up the abuse because she just shuts down. I also survived a narcissistic psychopath alcoholic ex husband. I tend to isolate a lot because it's safer than interacting with judgemental people who have no idea what ive been through. Thanks for sharing this video.
@model1976
@model1976 Жыл бұрын
Here`s an idea. Give HER the silent treatment.... permanently. She did enough damage.
@AndyCropperArt
@AndyCropperArt Жыл бұрын
I'm pleased to say I've recently started following your channel. I'm sat here silently with hands over my mouth in mid-gasp. Every single point is relevant. Every one. I've been in and out of therapy over many years with varying degrees of success. My Mother has been diagnosed from a distance with borderline personality disorder, and my Father has been diagnosed personally as having "psychopathic traits". My childhood can be fully described as being filled with absence whether talking of emotion or support. With respect to my Father I did not exist unless I acted in a way that was an absolute mirror image of him, all other versions of myself were ignored, my own needs were ignored. There was never any connection between us. With my Mother there was always an element of existential threat if I did not respond in the way she expected/needed me to. She had an ability to metaphorically 'freeze' a room if things were disagreeable to her. This made for a very controlling childhood. I had to be hypervigilant throughout my childhood as I did not know nor understand what was going on. There was many a time when I said something and would be emotionally punished for not understanding what the adults were feeling leaving me ultimately confused and isolated .. How could I understand in an adult way? .. I was a child. It was only on leaving home, developing and being an adult, and then on visiting home, when I realised just what a torturous minefield 'home' was. I ended my relationship with my parents over a decade ago. Not once have I regretted my decision.
@dianegraber9333
@dianegraber9333 Жыл бұрын
So sad to know you went through such a tragic and confusing childhood. What a gift we have discovered Dr. Kim Sage, who is kind, empathic, skilled and wonderful!! (BTW, there are other knowing individuals & professionals teaching on these same topics if you explore KZfaq/ Podcasts, etc.) There are more and more ‘Wise Ones’: Clinical counselors, therapists who are able to help uncover the hurtful truths of emotional trauma, gently guiding us toward positive life-affirming healing paths. Finding learned individuals who share and validate our painful, often puzzling childhood stories are important beyond measure. In my growing up family - Mother was depressed, Father so invalidating and cruel by his profound and deafening silence (both eventual alcoholics). My epileptic sibling, whom I adored, succumbed to severe mental illness and abusive institutionalization in his early 20’s. Medical systems, cultural stigma, treatments/ drugs were just wholly inadequate. I/we children felt utterly invisible. I used to described my family to my Bioenergetic & EMDR therapist in the mid 90’s as an emotional desert! I am now 76y w/ two adult children and 6 grandchildren - tweens and teens - which I helped care for since birth. I cherish them so, but it’s not surprising.. troubled family dynamics there, as well. Functioning fairly well considering.. but the hard truth of it is that in my own state of discovery/ recovery, it is difficult to watch ‘with eyes wide open’ as the saying goes. I needed to forgive myself, too. I loved being a mom and I feel I/ we both did a lot of positive parenting. However, the marriage I blindly stayed in for far to long was not heathy. It was distressing, yet civil. But sadly, the relationship was only a relation-boat! Generational wounds are so very complicated 😢 All the very best to you my friend. 🐛… 🦋
@followyourdreams8673
@followyourdreams8673 Жыл бұрын
Your videos have helped me more than any therapist (who blamed me for being anxious). Thank you for caring for us all with trauma.
@andrewparry7528
@andrewparry7528 Жыл бұрын
All of these. Both parents. Alcoholism and violence. 63 single. Lonely and alone. However, I somehow have two lovely children, and they have none of this. It stopped with me. I live for them. Helpfull. Thanks.
@model1976
@model1976 Жыл бұрын
You are not alone :)
@dyannnew4603
@dyannnew4603 Жыл бұрын
How do we heal? You just explained my mother and father to a tee!
@dyannnew4603
@dyannnew4603 Жыл бұрын
I watched again and caught the end advice I had missed the first time. Thank you.
@thrivewithjesus5216
@thrivewithjesus5216 Жыл бұрын
The saddest part is that it happened in the first season of our life. Having such a horrible start in life set you up to trip and limp for the rest of your life, no matter what. We find therapist and Band-Aids along the way. We do the best that we can but nothing can ever repair what was done in the 1st season of our life. It's like a domino effect but just gone wrong.
@claudiaschneider5744
@claudiaschneider5744 Жыл бұрын
Yes, agree - but for me - organ. religion or narc. christians made it even worse for me - Jesus is not my healer - I am responsible for my healing from all that narc. abuse since early childhood - no therapist could really help me - bc they don´t have the knowledge for narc. abuse at all.
@blueskies6475
@blueskies6475 Жыл бұрын
@@claudiaschneider5744 No one had the knowledge. It wasn't in medical books.
@sparkling_elegance
@sparkling_elegance Жыл бұрын
THIS!!! We were never even given a chance from the very beginning!
@patricialoudon8223
@patricialoudon8223 Жыл бұрын
Spot on! Went from having a mother like that to an abusive husband who always said if hadn't made me so mad fill in the blank. To a second marriage where my husband spent everyday telling me I was stupid. Finally found the most supportive man ever. Had 10+ years with him. He died last year. I feel so broken.
@Rose19695
@Rose19695 Жыл бұрын
I'm deeply sorry for your loss.
@grmpEqweer
@grmpEqweer Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry.💔 I personally am very sad you lost someone wonderful, but I am also happy you had that gift of time. I wish you could have kept him. But I'm glad you had that time. Not trying to harm here, so my deepest apologies if I did. Best wishes.
@Corinna_Schuett_GER
@Corinna_Schuett_GER Жыл бұрын
I do really regret your loss, I can understand being married to my soul mate for 25 years now, I cannot imagine being without him. Our hope lies in Jesus Christ so either way we will be together here or there. Blessings your way, turn to Christ in faith. Much love 🙏💖
@dianegraber9333
@dianegraber9333 Жыл бұрын
😢
@SundaysHealing
@SundaysHealing Жыл бұрын
Sending you eternal love, peace, and healing🙏🏼🙏🏼 You are truly blessed, you hot the opportunity to experience genuine love.
@rtt3166
@rtt3166 Жыл бұрын
Exactly. An island. No kids, no spouse. Essentially damaged. Dr. Sage, your set and video graphics are beautiful. Thanks for your generous, informative videos. A recent takeaway for me is prepping for minimizing hyper vigilance triggers with intention setting and breathing exercises. I appreciate your insight!
@Sarit473
@Sarit473 Жыл бұрын
My father was the avoidant/neglect narcissist and show on on and off. I was the neglect child but also spoiled with gift and my father put all his grandiosity on me. I have ADHD, And eve if I have healed a lot of my trauma and today im soo much better, I still carry on the narcisistic abuse. You are the most accurate about narcissism. Im an empath and I want to help people and I have some people pleaser tendencies, but I also have narcissistic/histrionic traits and PTSD . i think if you have empathy, having narcissistic traits its not that bed if you know how to use it, doesnt hurt anyone. However I also have the rage side which i totally totally hate. You are totally right about everything. Thank you for everything❤
@RichL_Arts
@RichL_Arts Жыл бұрын
I have all of these symptoms. It hurts me because my mother was also a borderliner
@soothingwisdom273
@soothingwisdom273 Жыл бұрын
the effect of the enmeshment thing is huge in me...
@Aineb1039
@Aineb1039 Жыл бұрын
I have been alone my whole family turned against me telling me I am a horrible person and they want nothing to do with and walked out of my life now going on 80 I have been alone for many , many years. I was a very young mother and I did my best and know I made mistakes but I love my children but it is like that is my life. I had an awful childhood with my mother who I have said many times never saw me as a person . .. Just one example that stands out in my mind. I came home Christmas Eve from church and my mother had to my kids up and was having Christmas without me. I was the cause of every problem the family ever had my entire life and still am and could do nothing to change it. The pain is awful if it were not for my faith in God I think I would not be here
@dianegraber9333
@dianegraber9333 Жыл бұрын
Parent who doesn’t apologize!, even if she obviously made a mistake and/ or caused the problem - dead silence: see no evil, speak no evil, nothing happened here… gaslighting! Critical if kids & spouse do not smile ‘right’ for the mega number of cell phone photographs.. ‘tongue on the roof of your mouth, please’ - almost every picture is posed or somehow choreographed.
@laurenbrogan5440
@laurenbrogan5440 Жыл бұрын
I always feel like I am doing something wrong, even if people outside of me tell me what I am doing is kind and empathetic. I deeply fear that I am like my NM and often struggle with it :/
@Sarit473
@Sarit473 Жыл бұрын
Me too! I was raised by a narcissistic father, I'm empathetic and kind but unfortunately taking some narcs traits its normal. I think its called narcissistic fleas.. hugs
@nancybartley4610
@nancybartley4610 Жыл бұрын
I keep trying to recall ever hearing I love you.
@lolitalolipops4154
@lolitalolipops4154 Жыл бұрын
Ohhhh this hit me .. same .. never ..
@nancybartley4610
@nancybartley4610 Жыл бұрын
@@lolitalolipops4154 The more you read comments, the more you begin to realize what was lacking. It isn't fun.
@nancybartley4610
@nancybartley4610 Жыл бұрын
@@heretoday9975 It's devastating when you start to put together the pieces, isn't it? Can ever remember being cuddled, had your cheek caressed, been told you did something well, told you were missed, read a story, taught to cook or sew, played a game with? The list goes on. I can't remember anything like this. I got gifts on holidays/bd, was fed, taken to doctor, schooled, asked how school was. I am grateful for those things. I equated them with love. I feel like such an ingrate for feeling I wasn't loved. But it is very, very strange to not be able to remember your mother ever touching you. She had to when I was very small. Do I just have an extremely bad memory? I tried hugging over not so long ago and she did not respond. Stiff and unresponsive. I envy the commenters who can remember being yelled at or hit. I wish those things had happened. I would know what she felt and not have spent my entire life confused and guilty.
@gailbrack940
@gailbrack940 Жыл бұрын
I was raised by a narcissistic mother. Since my infancy my father was never allowed to say anything positive about me. He rarely spoke, but I always knew that he loved me. I was my mother’s least favorite child. I was whipped often and hard. Mother never ever told me why I was being whipped. If I told her something that I had done well, she would always tell me that if it pleased me that it tickled her pink. I grew to hate that phrase. My sister who was 2 years older than I was her golden child and she never did anything wrong. She got a Mouton coat and I got a vinyl coat with gaudy gold braid. She got piano lessons and custom made gowns for her recitals. When I went to my prom, I got to wear one of her gowns. She got a poodle skirt and I got nothing. She got double promoted in the fourth grade and I failed half of a year in the second grade. When someone would laugh when I said something dumb, mother would say I swear I don’t know how she gets across the street. When I was 22, my father died. I became her caretaker because my 5 brothers and sisters were not available. I took very good care of her in every way until her death at 92. My husband and I took her out to nice restaurants often. I have always said that her childhood made mine seem like a fairy tale. She never acknowledged anyone that dared to compliment me. Once when she and I were touring the wine country and I asked her to take a picture of me, she cut off my head in two pictures. In all of the many years I cared for her, I only lost my temper twice. I’m 76 and I have been under the care of psychiatrists almost all of my adult life. I’m treated for depression and anxiety and I am bipolar. I soothe my anxiety by buying clothes, purses and shoes. I am blessed because my husband is so good to me. We are enjoying our latter years together, especially since he had to stop drinking. I recently tried to find a therapist with training in CPST and B cluster personality disorders, but I unable to find anyone. I enjoy your videos, as they are very helpful to me. Thank you.
@theliftexpert
@theliftexpert Жыл бұрын
Tell the young girl in this story,that she is a beautiful,loving & caring soul and In spite of having a mentally ill mother,she decided to love herself and become her own hero. Best wishes on your journey 🙏🏻
@Corinna_Schuett_GER
@Corinna_Schuett_GER Жыл бұрын
I'm sorry that you might have experienced this for such a long time. Psalm 27:7-11 says "Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me. When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek. Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation. *When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.* Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies." Jesus Christ is the answer to all prayers. Therapists cannot know that. 🙏 Blessings your way!
@gailbrack940
@gailbrack940 Жыл бұрын
@@Corinna_Schuett_GER Thank you so much! And what a beautiful scripture you sent to me! I feel honored! Yes, I too believe that Jesus is the answer!
@gailbrack940
@gailbrack940 Жыл бұрын
@@Corinna_Schuett_GER Thank you again for your lovely reply to my comments. My husband and I have been members of a wonderful church and we are so blessed. As I mentioned before, I know that Jesus is the answer. Thank you for recommending the movie and Robert Breaker. I will definitely check them out on KZfaq. You are so good and kind. May God bless you.
@blueskies6475
@blueskies6475 Жыл бұрын
Bless you!! You are farther ahead than you know!
@memyself4431
@memyself4431 Жыл бұрын
I know I comment on all videos 😊😮 my mom will tell my some things about her childhood she married at 15 first kid 16 and me at 18 so was a child with marriage responsibilities and two kids before adult. I have 3 siblings and all family is addicts. It is tough not having family friends! I went on to college and I am graduating again in a specific field and distance hopes of law school! I am a single mom but the support doesn’t exist and I suffer from migraines! I want to help myself Feel healthy feel joyful and be a better me I don’t know where to start! When I say a better me… eating better exercising smiling dressing better and looking better ❤ it is true that looking better makes me feel better and be better
@erikn54
@erikn54 Жыл бұрын
I have absolutely no compassion with myself. I have more for others. I am attracted to flaws in women I meet but not to my own flaws. My mother always told me I were less intelligent than my sister and brother. She also beat me up a few times and threatened me. She was and still is, very manipuative. I am not down often but when I am, I find it comforting to tell myself that I am worthless and that I dont deserve love. On the same time I am angry that I have been treated this way. I have 3 sons and I try to be a better parent myself. I hope I am.
@model1976
@model1976 Жыл бұрын
I hope you got her out of your life. She doesnt deserve to be in it.
@bobbyb1607
@bobbyb1607 Жыл бұрын
Thank you. Out of all the You Tube therapists specializing in narcissism I like yours the best. You explain things in a calm relatable way and your manner is about being helpful and getting to a solution. I got involved with the Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families program and spent a lot of time in trauma therapy. It's an ongoing lifelong process that's produced good changes and most importantly allowed me to discover and become the person I really am. I get to be the kind of parent and grandparent I would have liked to have had. Keep up the good work!
@janeylynn5934
@janeylynn5934 11 ай бұрын
Some people never get to leave their narcissistic parents. I have chronic health issues, which prevent me from being able to work full time, and will probably be stuck in my parents' house for life. No emotional support, and no resources to get therapy.
@imogenereeve6512
@imogenereeve6512 Жыл бұрын
My father is a narcissistic psychopath. I lived with him throughout the pandemic and have been home (away from him) ever since, recovering from severe ptsd. I have been gaslighted to the break of psychosis. I was admitted to a mental hospital due to severe gaslighting - I didn’t know it at the time, and neither did the staff, of course, being undereducated on all of such. It was terrifying
@imogenereeve6512
@imogenereeve6512 Жыл бұрын
I was in denial when admitted. Extremely damaging. They simply confirmed the narrative of my fathers - of me being insane.
@imogenereeve6512
@imogenereeve6512 Жыл бұрын
That I have believed for two years. Only recently did I figure out what has happened to me. So have been completely debilitated for two years and in complete survival mode.
@Sarit473
@Sarit473 Жыл бұрын
I'm really sorry😢 hugs and love to you❤
@stargazer7341
@stargazer7341 Жыл бұрын
Thank you SO much, Dr Sage 🙏 MY sister & I had to endure a narcissistic mother, including dealing with C-PTSD, MAMA DRAMA, etc as its repercussions. It's an extremely difficult & sometimes tormenting road to travel & every bit of information helps. As I finally reached a place of finally finding peace through therapy with mental health professionals, my one & only younger sister only spiralled into that very dark place & decided to end her journey here with us & find peace with God a little over 3 weeks ago 🙏😢😭
@model1976
@model1976 Жыл бұрын
so sorry for your loss. That is what they do, these narcissists. They kill people. Devils in disguise.
@naturalhealingmexico
@naturalhealingmexico Жыл бұрын
I grew up like this, both my parents are NARCISSISTS and I was the scapegoat, still dealing with the trauma they left me, layer after layer it seems they hate to be parents my siblings and I all were affected by them and yet they keep the demage going on at adulthood, they are cruel and sadistic
@melissamcconnell5002
@melissamcconnell5002 Жыл бұрын
Dr Kim, after years of therapy, heartache and horrible trauma from adopted parents and men in my life I found your videos! This one explained my past to me perfectly which no one had been able to pinpoint before this. At 69 yrs old I have realized I have chosen to carry everyone’s burdens and never associated this with my abusive adopted mother and others. I am now able from hearing you clearly to realize it wasn't my fault for everything…I know it takes time to sink in but this is a start! Now to watch the rest of your videos to become healthier minute by minute! Keep up the great work of sharing your wisdom with us!😊
@aahaider4453
@aahaider4453 Жыл бұрын
100% agree with these 8... the one I’d really find helpful for you to do a video on is growing up from earliest memories to say 10 with a massively chaotic household with plate smashing, threats, crying, wailing even, wife battering, screaming, and then hyper controlling behaviour that meant no one could say anything the next day. And having to use public transportation at age 7-9 to get to school on one’s own, crying oneself to sleep most nights wishing I was dead. Then being thrown into boarding school for a few years. Never ever having heard the term I love you. Where does that fit into your analysis... would be great to know.
@XxGyromancerXx
@XxGyromancerXx Жыл бұрын
I'm not sure if my parents were narcissistic but they were very self-centered and absorbed. I was never a priority to either one of them. Both are (or were) raging alcoholics, my mom was very neglectful and a closet drug addict and prostitute during her marriage with my dad. He had no idea about those two things until some neighbors clued him in. All my dad cared about on his off-time was watching sports and drinking beer. When my dad was working OT on the weekends, my mom would leave me on my own for a solid chunk of the day doing who knows whom. As a result, everybody branded me and I could never understand why I was being singled out and having things thrown at me, or why kids I didn't know would spit on me. I suppose it all came back to haunt me while I was asleep and dreaming about certain events in my childhood. It finally made sense. Now as an adult, it still feels as if the sins of my parents linger over my head. I don't trust people and always on high alert for the slightest thing that makes me nope out of a potential friendship. I absolutely will not bother with any given woman who reminds me of my mom. I stay away from people who are like my dad. I view them as unreliable and stuck in the past. My mom refuses to take responsibility for her actions and deflects her "loose" past. My grandparents- when they were alive- enabled her and would run interference whenever she got herself in a pickle. Know what they did when I asked for help? I got told in a roundabout way to screw off. They felt I was an a-hole through my childhood and turned into an even bigger a-hole as an adult. Perhaps I wouldn't have if my parents didn't neglect me. Perhaps I could have become a better person if my mom didn't let any of her temporary boyfriends mentally, psychologically, and physically abuse me. I asked her why she allowed this to happen and she said, "what was I supposed to do? I didn't want to get beaten up!" As for my dad, he has owned up to his past mistakes and we're cool now. I still don't aspire to be anything like him. After being called a piece of crap, I started to believe I was that. It wasn't until I was in my mid-20s I wasn't any of it. That is when I started cutting ties with toxic family members and relatives. My life has been pretty okay, for the most part. There have been some bumps in the road along the way but that's life. No, I never sought out therapy. I prefer opening up in an online setting for some strange reason. EDIT: Upon watching the video, I have concluded mine were very narcissistic.
@model1976
@model1976 Жыл бұрын
That was a lovely comment. "Lovely" in the way you open up.
@zuzannara6760
@zuzannara6760 Жыл бұрын
omg, it's 100% me and it have been ruining my life for 30 years. it's just now that i'm realizing that it was damaging, wrong and not normal. it took me so long to stand for myself and cut ties with my mother. thank you for helping me to catch the most important points and things to work on in only 9 minutes, wow!
@Scarzkira
@Scarzkira Жыл бұрын
I have a narcissistic mum and a dad who enables her. It's always been hard for me because when she's not around, my dad is fun and kind and smart, but she manipulates him into being her bodyguard and he turns nasty and even violent.
@RoyRefael100
@RoyRefael100 Жыл бұрын
When i was 13 my narc father and mther (grand, covert) were mad at me Why am I so oblique and poker face lack of impressions, obviously i didn't knew then what to answer them, but now at 50 thanks to you i know i learnt to be self reliance and not trusting
@starmc91
@starmc91 Жыл бұрын
I loved seeing cocos face in the middle of my trauma resurfacing lol 😂 much needed
@lithiumgaurd
@lithiumgaurd Жыл бұрын
This is really hitting home for me. I’m a CSA survivor and had the misfortune of parents like this who dismissed the abuse and resent me for having PTSD/CPTSD and want an apology from me.
@kumudm5031
@kumudm5031 Жыл бұрын
both my parents are narcissistic and it's been a hell for me to live in this house! i'm 20 now and graduating soon and i just want to get a job and move out of this housse and then go no contact with 'em gradually! i can't bare them aanymore! i don't have anymore strength or patience or mainly hope that they'll change. even if i have strength i should be doing something that'll do good for me right! i'm grateful that i've found your channel you've helped me a lot! thank you so much! i have all those issues but i'm not narcissistic at allthat's a good thing!
@hologramcard1175
@hologramcard1175 Жыл бұрын
"fight or flight" all the life with these wicked people using their children for their psychopathic needs, they don't treat their children as human person
@Seren1624
@Seren1624 Жыл бұрын
WOW! this video hit home big time...
@OrbAttraction
@OrbAttraction Жыл бұрын
I do believe I'm going to receive the help I desperately seek from you. 🙏 I just found you yesterday. I am ready....😌
@thereseward2591
@thereseward2591 Жыл бұрын
Grew up in a severely abusive home with an alcoholic atheist father (both parent’s alcoholics) and a negative, depressed, narcissistic mother who spent over 5 years in bed in Valium. My parents never spoke to their parents. At 12 years old I learned I had grandparents. I’ve spent over 10 years of my life in counseling and still feel broken. I do have a job I love!!! I do have absolutely wonderful adult children. Hoping to find the courage to go to counseling again.
@model1976
@model1976 Жыл бұрын
Well, you are not "broken". You are just the way you turned out! There is no commandment on how to be an unbroken human. We got dealt different cards in our lives, doesnt mean we are broken. It means we play the best poker we can, with the cards we were dealt.
@johoff457
@johoff457 Жыл бұрын
I am so glad I found this channel. I left home in my teens due to abuse & stayed away due to abuse, but now have to engage with relatives to protect my disabled brother. (My parents now deceased ) I am now having to deal with obstruction & gaslighting all over again. This abuse is rampant throughout the rellies as well. No wonder I walked away from them all. This chanel points me in the appropriate direction for research to present to court. One cousin is a doctor - I am pretty sure he is a "Sherlock Aspie". Smiles to my face & lies to the court.
@reneescott545
@reneescott545 4 ай бұрын
I'm 57 yrs old and still suffer from ptst trauma do to my up bringing. As much as I've recognized and want to be better, the border line personality still interferes. I have no emotional control when it comes to my temper. I need someone who can help me with this, someone supportive. I have no one
@lo-ul8nq
@lo-ul8nq Жыл бұрын
Thank you , you're so right about everything. It's so true. I enjoy watching your videos. You are the best one who puts out these videos. I been to a therapists none of them helped or knew anything on it so I left. I got C-Ptsd from the abuse. I am a Empath. I am a 47 female the oldest of five children my parents had. I always been the black sheep in my family. I went to Jesus cause of the abuse. Jesus is our hope. God is Love. I been a Christian for over ten years. I know my worth and values. My peace comes from God. God is great all the time. I walk away from Narcissists . I stay calm and quiet. It's not worth saying anything to Narcissists since they dont get it at all. Both of my parents are Narcissists so is my grandmother. My brothers and sisters are Narcissists Enablers.
@HekateCirce
@HekateCirce Ай бұрын
My dad was barely this subtle. He would say TO MY FACE, on multiple occasions, and without much trigger on my end that I’m to blame for everything and that I AM a burden. He was pretty clear on that one. Apparently because I was born he didn’t have enough money to get his doctorate and that made me a terrible burden and a curse. He made sure to let me know that every day of my young life.
@BJ-mb2ug
@BJ-mb2ug Жыл бұрын
I’ve been on a road of healing since 2020. I appreciate this video!!! 🎉❤🎉
@isabellairwin4608
@isabellairwin4608 Ай бұрын
I literally cried while watching this video, I’ve always felt like there was something wrong with me and all of my mental health conditions were my fault. It was so Validating to hear this. I know see how greatly I was neglected and abused in childhood and how I developed my coping mechanisms make sense.
@user-rc2xs5ti2w
@user-rc2xs5ti2w Жыл бұрын
Finally, someone looks with cientíific eyes on the parents. Normally everyone wants to bombard them. I can tell that was hard to get unconditional love. Second a child of that generation could not even talk when parents were around. It was super harsh.
@nancybartley4610
@nancybartley4610 Жыл бұрын
I have a lot of trouble relating to many of the comments on the mental health channels on KZfaq because I was not aware as a child that what was happening was wrong, with the exception of domestic abuse. Looking back at the list of things that happened, as well as the things that didn't happen that should have, is overwhelming. I lived in some sort oblivious state without ever questioning it. As an adult I only vaguely knew something was wrong with me and just believed I was defective in some mysterious way that if I could just pinpoint I might be able to fix. (Things like being boring, being unattractive, being poor, etc.)
@ArtsyAries23
@ArtsyAries23 Жыл бұрын
I resonate with this. My family has some generational trauma and I’m pretty certain that my mom has ptsd from that and stress from being a veteran so it was like we inherited empty toolboxes for how to manage stress and it was passed down to me. I just want to say thank you and I appreciate you putting your knowledge out there because you have helped me chart my healing course. ❤
@ryannesumbry4130
@ryannesumbry4130 Жыл бұрын
I experienced all of these issues
@keiradavid20
@keiradavid20 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much. Everything you said resonated with me from my own childhood to my ex partner's daughter who I have felt is suffering as I did as a child from her narcissistic mother. It's very helpful to digest your words and understand these patterns. Thank you again.
@nh255
@nh255 10 ай бұрын
healing from two narcissistic parents and i will say the one thing they are great at is manipulation unfortunately
@yeoldegrayCat
@yeoldegrayCat Жыл бұрын
Congrats on making it to 100k subscribers! Found your channel a few days ago and there's so much helpful content, Thank you!
@crazee.cat-mama
@crazee.cat-mama Жыл бұрын
Oh 💩 I am 58 years old and am now attempting to make sense of my entire life while figuring out who I might be. The abridged story of my life is this: -mother is a narcissist, I finally realized this when I moved an hour away and spent the majority of my time away from her. -bio father of myself and 2 out of 3 siblings was a child molester. I do not have memories of being molested by him but… -I was molested by various males and a few females from as early as 3yo until about 15yo. i do not remember being molested by my father but he often watched. I watched him watching me be abused -I have 2 brothers by this father. The first is 2 1/2 years younger than me. he is autistic and schizophrenic. With about mental age level of maybe a 10yo. The 2nd brother is 5 years younger than me. -The 3rd brother is a product of an affair my mother had with the man who became my stepfather. -My mother had the affair to retaliate against my father because she found out he “slept” with her sister. her terminology -my father did not sleep with his sister in law. He raped her, She was 13 years old, Even very young I did not understand why mother chose the word “slept” -Eventually my father left my mother with us 4 kids. Left state, went to live with his mother. He never returned -one time my brother and i was sent to stay with him for the summer. He did not have time for us and couldnt be bothered, he had a 15 yo girlfriend. Apparently her father was ok with this relationship. Father was almost 30yo, I was 14yo -my father even with being what he was was easier to be with and speak to than my mother. He was nicer than her unless she was away from home. If mother was away, I was beaten pretty severely, even when my brothers were the problem, i was the recipient of the beating. This became the standard with my mother as well once father left the home. -going back to the narcissist mother…I have always been the scapegoat and that situation became so much worse when father left. I know she was under crazyass pressure to raise 4 kids on her own but that still does not excuse so much of what happened -I became the caretaker of my brothers but if they did wrong in any way I received the beatings from mother, severity increasing continually. Sometimes she wound even say she would get mad just thinking about something and i would get the beating. One of the few times she admitted to the crazy. -I was also responsible for most of my mothers care and the housework.. even today my home is a disaster because the thought of cleaning and not being able to pass a white glove test scares the crap outta me -so first guy comes along after i graduated high school that said “I love you” and lets move in together, I did, -ccome to learn he too was a narcissist…SURPRISE!!! -and an emotional, physical, mental and sexual abuser too. He was both of my parents magnified and rolled into one person. I had no clue this was not love and I was afraid to leave, I stayed millimeters shy of 40 years. 20+ years ago my youngest brother attempted suicide by shooting himself in the chest-very thankful no serious damage was done -13 years ago, the brother 5years younger than me put a shotgun to his head, he did not survive. He was the golden child. Mother made it very clear she wouldve rather it been me. -being the caretaker, i took care of all the details of my brother’s death. It was expected of me -then i began the mental break down that makes sure my brain isnt right today -i have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, me/cfs, lupus and other health crap -spouse had no desire to be married to someone who was not going to take care of him…he began his earnest look about for my replacement. -i receive SSDI, spousal support and now have my very own home as of 10 months ago -this is the first time in my life i have been in a safe place and boy oh boy do the memories come flooding in. and thats the short version NOW ONTO THE HEALING Although i must learn to stop with the continual daydreaming/disassociation. Most is about someone/any good person coming to “save”me from this entire mess of a life….but then other people cannot be trusted so even if some kind of rescuer showed upi would be questioning his motives.
@costelloandlizzievolk2233
@costelloandlizzievolk2233 Жыл бұрын
I am working on all these wounds. It does suck. But yes acknowledging it and working on my healing. Thank you ❤
@jacobeickhardt84
@jacobeickhardt84 Жыл бұрын
"Separating the Parent from their Behaviour" Absolute nonsense to say!
@Joshualuv13
@Joshualuv13 Жыл бұрын
Mine father use to blame me for everything regardless of what it was, and I was only a little girl.Yep and all the rest of the aboveAwwv Coco is stunning ❤
@LilRed65
@LilRed65 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much! I'm having to pause your videos as I get so emotional I almost have a panic attack. I have a lot to discuss with my therapist... I have new hope...
@xstatixtribalelectronicmus2787
@xstatixtribalelectronicmus2787 Жыл бұрын
Thank you. That was amazing 🙏
@aleksandrakrivokuca64
@aleksandrakrivokuca64 Жыл бұрын
The first sentence say it all ❤ thank you
@purrbugaloo
@purrbugaloo Жыл бұрын
Coco!! 💕
@nancybartley4610
@nancybartley4610 Жыл бұрын
What does it mean "to be safe"?
@cherylmockotr
@cherylmockotr Жыл бұрын
That's that annoying, virtue-signalling phrase from covid that actually meant nothing. It's pretty much just an empty new-age thing that pretends saying the words actually keeps people from harm... basically childhood magical thinking.
@svatekzprahy
@svatekzprahy Жыл бұрын
This is amazing. Thank you! 🌸
@michellestevens1080
@michellestevens1080 Жыл бұрын
Coco isn’t having difficulty getting her needs met
@elkende
@elkende Жыл бұрын
Coco will not be ignored
@nana_Bee.
@nana_Bee. Жыл бұрын
Ugh 😢❤ I needed this... Thank you 🌹
@nathanmitchell7961
@nathanmitchell7961 Жыл бұрын
Thankyou for these video
@Nicole_elizabeth1561
@Nicole_elizabeth1561 Жыл бұрын
All are true for me but 1 and 7 really stand out. Thanks for helping me understand these responses that seem so perplexing at times. There is healing through learning.
@ZaylaHaven
@ZaylaHaven Жыл бұрын
Wow! Thank you! 💡❤❤❤❤
@instagamrr
@instagamrr Жыл бұрын
Coco is so cute, please give that cat all the kisses for me 🤗
@billienova
@billienova Жыл бұрын
Thank you ❤❤❤❤❤
@xeniyashilina6212
@xeniyashilina6212 Жыл бұрын
So spot on, thank you so much for this
@amyames1979
@amyames1979 Жыл бұрын
THIS!!!! But how do I find a therapist to help me heal from all this and live a healthy life?
@marcharsveld2914
@marcharsveld2914 Жыл бұрын
Often mistaken for autism too those eight points you describe. It's a long road from knowing there's a trauma to recovery.
@barbpace-lamb
@barbpace-lamb Жыл бұрын
Your great!
@joestronge
@joestronge Жыл бұрын
SO I must be late stage na syndrome...both parents dead and gone..golden child a toothless suboxone junky in clv....scapegoat (me) has survived colossal pressures and now squeezed through to some palpable & better state of being. Not much left from siblings whom ive always treated with respect. So this late stage is i think the witness stage as in... wow did it have to be that much of a dud. And then trying to truly admit and feel like...Shit! I Done Good
@jenniferharris7625
@jenniferharris7625 Жыл бұрын
HOLY CRAP! Me😢…
@TaraHower
@TaraHower Жыл бұрын
Where is this wallpaper from?
@DrKimSage
@DrKimSage Жыл бұрын
Wallpaperie!
@Seren1624
@Seren1624 Жыл бұрын
Question? if prior to a family event, my mother tells me that she won't invite that person who I have not worked out a problem with because its just not worth me being uncomfortable with at the present time. Then I show up for said event and that person is there. My mother states that she just decided that the person should be there so they were invited. Your thoughts as to how I should interpret my mothers decision? Thank you all.
@blueskies6475
@blueskies6475 Жыл бұрын
Narcissistic, mean and spiteful.
@ridgegourd9415
@ridgegourd9415 2 ай бұрын
They don't like you grow financially..
@IamCatharinemme
@IamCatharinemme Жыл бұрын
What’s all that background noise
@roseanneladouceur
@roseanneladouceur 11 ай бұрын
HIStory is the system to blame- it was intentional for the ying/yang aka narcissist/empath.
@jackieburkhart.4035
@jackieburkhart.4035 Жыл бұрын
I have ALL OF THEM hahahahaha. I will be okay 🙏🏻❤️
@warrenmoon7709
@warrenmoon7709 Жыл бұрын
💯💯💯
@ThePortalTheory
@ThePortalTheory Жыл бұрын
100% conditional. Ugh all narcissists need to be rounded up and sent to the moon.
@deshawncrisp7174
@deshawncrisp7174 Жыл бұрын
Curious to know ", Are you accepting ", new patients ?", the ", TRUTH is crazy ?",
@SummerfallWinterspring
@SummerfallWinterspring Жыл бұрын
Before you self-diagnose yourself with low self-esteem or any type of mental dysfunction, first and foremost please make sure you are just not surrounded by assholes. I'm here to help. Enough about thoughts that feel bad... Let's talk about your lips pressing up against mine.💋🙃
@lauragadille3384
@lauragadille3384 4 ай бұрын
He ruined my life
@deshawncrisp7174
@deshawncrisp7174 Жыл бұрын
Must we rename ", wrong and Right ?", the Tower of Babel " fell in its day ", by the same way ", for Greed ", INDEED ", WE CHANGE LANGUAGE ", TO CONFUSE KNOWLEDGE " AND A WORD ONCE " HEARD " REMAINS THE SAME ", REGARDLESS OF ITS NAME ", IT IS THE WORD ", THAT DEFINES ", ITS ACTION ", WHY CHANGE THE NAME ", IS IT TO HIDE THE SHAME ?", THE TRUTH IS THE TRUTH ?" IS IT RIGHT OR IS IT WRONG ", ?", WHO DOES IT PROTECT ?", IN A FORGIVING SOCIETY ", IT IS USUALLY ", THE VICTIM ?"
@moodypet8837
@moodypet8837 Жыл бұрын
It's called sin. Everyone is wounded by our parents to a certain degree. We live in a fallen world and the answer it to become Christ centered. We all must repent daily.
@AlCapwnd-tb5ow
@AlCapwnd-tb5ow Жыл бұрын
Keep your middle eastern mythology to yourself please
@richard-en2dx
@richard-en2dx Жыл бұрын
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