Ocd has robbed me of everything (emotionally) and I mourn for the life I had before this. Having to survive each day with more thoughts takes all of my energy. But thank you for making me feel less alone.

i'm currently experiencing this, my ocd theme shifted towards my sexuality. i am noticing that i am participating in the same compulsions and rituals as i did when experiencing the first theme, but the biggest struggle is the question, "is it real or is it ocd?" that and practicing acceptance of uncertainty

Its been getting worse and I'm scared I won't be able to tell the difference on whether its real or not. I have a major fear of being a bad person and I'm only 13.

I’m 14 years old and heavily struggling with this. It affects my daily life so bad, I wish I never had these thoughts

thank you SO MUCH for this. ive had ocd my whole life and only recently have i started having pure ocd (pocd and incest ocd, which has been awful). it truly is terrifying and like living a nightmare. i was bawling my eyes out the other night because i felt so horrified and wondered why this was happening to me. your videos make so much sense and even though i still suffer with bouts of doubt, ive been doing better because of this

My HOCD doesn't let me write stories anymore. I just feel my characters are fake. I can't imagine genres anymore, like I dob't trust what I'm creating. In the past it was a good way of escape but now... uff is like I have lost a part of myself I used to enjoy a lot. I don't know how to work on that.

When you said you will never be able to convince yourself that you have OCD I actually felt like I can finally accept that it is OCD😂

The one thing that I am certain about is that there isn't enough evidence on heaven or earth to satisfy the doubts generated by OCD.

OCD made me feel in denial about a fetish I don't have 😂

Chrissie!!!! So nice to see you on KZfaq again!! ❤️

I agree , I have OCD and it's changing themes , What relay helps me with dealing with my scrupulosity OCD is good Catholic confessor , good books and you. thank you !! I did not have time to go the psychologist or psychiatrist ,but I am planing to do so soon.

Congratulations Chrissie with news regarding your foot injury! That's wonderful news. And thank you for the video! It really helps.

Your videos help so much not felling alone and have a positive attitude towards OCD and recovery thanks!!!!!!

Really liked this video, and it was nice to see a video that addressed some of my questions! I have a new hope for myself

groinal Syndrome +HODC=Hell

Yeah I admit, I'm still stuck. I thought I was "cured" one time, but no I'm still in this "rabbit hole" even though it felt like I wasn't for a month or two and battle my OCD like a champ in an arena.

You are the best! Thank you for all your support.

I love you Chrissie Hodges (I don't want that to sound weird), you're the only person that makes me feel not alone nowadays. Your words give me the strength to get up and keep going, like a superhero. Thank you.

Thank you for your videos and support! Kiss from Italy ♥️

Wow I really, really , really needed this today. Chrissie, you're helping me SO much! I actually feel like I can get up and do my daily tasks today. Oh my god you say things that really help me make sense of things :(

I have had a lot of moments where I felt like "but this time it must be true, what if it's not ocd" And also whenever I got better and didn't get anxiety about a though it backfired and went to "omg it's not ocd because I didn't have anxiety" But lately with my therapy I am aware that it is ocd and whenever I have intrusive thoughts now, BEFORE I go down the rabbit hole I try to TRUST that it is ocd and I have nothing to worry about. And it is helping me to "act" as if the thoughts don't bother me even if they do. Don't try to push them away, and they will go away eventually, just trust it is ocd even when you can't see it. For me I say I am having this intrusive thought, I know you, you've been here for a while, I am feeling scared but I am not my intrusive thoughts and I trust that this is ocd.

OCD has made me into someone I do not recognize and I fear it will stay that way. Morality OCD mixed with real event OCD is HARD. It sucks when you actually have done something wrong and your OCD attaches to it! And it sucks when you haven't, and it still attaches. I'm only about halfway through this video, but I feel seen. I can't explain how much my life took a nosedive after my OCD really got bad. Like I said, I am terrified that I won't ever get back to something that resembles a normal life. But I try to have faith. Thank you for posting this. Also- OMG you are spot ON when you said ocd is traumatic. It is 10000% traumatic. My therapist agrees, but I rarely see it talked about. It changes you. It does things to your psyche.

Thank you, I have not been diagnosed. I'm on the verge of seeking help.

Very inspiring video! Thanks Chrissie!

Uh huh I feel like I’m stuck in a rut of thinking is it Ocd or am I a pedophile?!? And I’m doing my tics and compulsions even more and I think I’m trying to deny that I have ocd 😢😢😢 it’s such a crippling mental illness. Xx

I was diagnosed with pocd and I felt horny and my groin was going crazy and now I'm really nervous because I feel like I want to look at people and I felt like I enjoyed the thoughts and feelings please help me I want it all to stop

It's really convenient that this came out when it did I've been worrying about whether or not I'm a good person! Btw could you do one on false memory or real event OCD next time?

I’m so glad I found your channel, I just recently found out I have pure ocd with the sexual and violent themes and it’s ruined my life for 2 years. Every day I felt like I was the only one in the world and I was the worst person alive... I’m still not completely sure but I do know I have pure o ocd and it’s been a nightmare, but finding others like me and a channel where I can find help has given me so much hope.

I just want to stop feeling like I’m a bad person sometimes without being perfect!!

Thank you! This helps a lot❤️

Thank you very much chrissie

Wow, I've had this worry many times, too. OCD is one clever SOB.

Thank you so much for this

The point is you'll have to accept that you may be in denial - basically recovery for SOCD is about completely not caring about finding the answers / the truth.

Thank you Chrissie you really have brilliant points and truly understand. Xxxx

I love you Chrissie. I literally do. Wish I have a girlfriend who understands my hell just like you. I have real event OCD combined with other type of OCD that sometimes makes me feel even Stalin or Hitler stands above me morally. The only real solution is really not to go into the rabbithole and "let" the thoughts be there but ignored. I should be act like a "man", but I feel so weak and miserable so often.

I came across an article about the jungian shadow theory, and it scared the living crap out of me. What do we make of the shadow?? Bc it has really driven my fears even farther and the anxiety has spiked a huge amount.

Chrissie how can I talk to a psychologist about this or my primary doctor about this without being judged.

Will you every talk about Eocd. btw thanks for your help

I rlly need help because before these thoughts happened I was straight, had emotions for and arrousal for women. Now after the thoughts, i suddenly start now thinking random. People off the street and my mates (which is weird) are cute or something and im paranoid abt it. And also I cant get turned on bearly by women anymore. Have I turned gay or am is m mind playing tricks on me? I need help please. I cant look at men and women the same anymore

Really struggling with this lately, it's HORRIBLE!

Thank you x

how does ocd relate to DR/DP

why im quiet when you see it may ocd?plz ask me anyone

Great!!!

I love your video but you can recover from OCD through ERP. I feel you are saying it is chronic. Correct me if I misunderstood you please :)

I want to help people with ocd so bad here in Sweden (enannantypavtvang on instagram :) ) - what education do you have? Or "just" your own experience with more knowledge? big hug!

My girlfriend's son is struggling with social skills basically he fights with everyone including the girls some whom actually like him. OCD has made him overly neuropsychopatic to reason with anyone. He's only 23, very intelligent but at the same time unrealistic & immature. His latest obsession is cosmetic surgery - he will go on the whole day suggesting everyone should consider a face job only that he can't afford it. He will tell the girls, you're pretty but you should consider a nose job & doesn't understand why all the girls blocked him online 🙄. He doesn't realize why he can't find a girlfriend.

I think I might be a bad person. Maybe it's my OCD, maybe it's me. I have argued with my mom so many times, and I'm not good at controlling my cool, even despite my prayers. I always apologize in the end, but the repetition and not doing better...Makes me feel like a bad person. I just can't help myself. whenever we have a fight, it's always MY fault. I have very bad OCD, and it makes me lose it, get touchy, flip out, and yell. You know, there are pairs in life where one person is practically always right and the other person is practically always wrong. Like, the winning/innocent wife and the losing/guilty husband. Well, basically, I feel that way about my mom and me. I own that I screw up and lose my cool and make our arguments worse, with my emotions, pride, and OCD. It is my fault. But that's the problem. It's always my fault. I'm always the loser here. This isn't as simple as "human beings make mistakes" or "Everybody has flaws." No, I'm part of the _real_ pathetic humans of this world, like Nick Godejohn or Joe Biden or any other politicians. I am always the source of our fights and my flaws and mistakes lead to them. I just can't seem to stop my behavior, and in addition, I have to be the loser here. I don't know what to do. If I could take a buIIet for her I would. I wish I could make up for my faults and redeem myself, but until I save her, I don't know how I can. (Not to imply I want her in danger, so don't take my words literally.)

An interesting double-edged sword of OCD: actually being queer, but also having a taboo sexual OCD theme. So, I'm bisexual, and I've always been OK with it. I know that I mostly like guys romantically: a good descriptor would be "straight with a bit of spice to it." But lately, I've been anxious about the prospect of not marrying a man and having a family (something I've dreamt of my whole life), but instead living as a completely gay woman and engaging in random hookups. Some would say this is internalized homophobia, but again, I have no issue with being attracted to women at all. I have no issue with LGBT people either. But, for some reason, my mind has been fixating on this issue. So, that's where the double-edged sword comes in. I think to myself: well, if I'm attracted to women, but don't really want to engage with women romantically because I want to save myself for my future husband (as are my moral values), then how do I know my sexual intrusive thoughts aren't just denial and being someone who doesn't want to act on thoughts that reflect desire? It becomes worse because, whether or not it's caused by OCD, anxiety feels the same way in your chest. It's also made worse by the fact that, just like ROCD, I sometimes look at women on KZfaq that I COULD potentially find attractive and anxiously assess whether or not I could see myself spending my life with them, in a similar way I'd ruminate about my taboo sexual intrusive thoughts. Huge mindf*ck, see? Of course, I understand my genuine bisexuality is pleasurable to me, unlike my sexual intrusive thoughts, but that doesn't matter to my OCD brain. Now that I think of it, the rumination about my future sexual engagements is just one huge rumination that my primary theme has tried to suck me into. As I was getting better, I was seeing through my OCD tricks. So, my OCD has pulled a bigger trick on me. I have also engaged in more self-loathing. This video has helped me further understand the nature of my illness, but Chrissie is so right: no amount of ruminating will convince you 100% that it is OCD.

I am suffocating with racism ocd, it’s getting to the point where my school life is affected so heavily by it, when I’m even watching someone on a screen I am constantly thinking what they think of me and if they think I am racist, for no reason, because racism disgusts me and I try to get out of this hole but I’m just digging my own grave. I’m even overthinking if this comment is racist, i feel like killing myself.

Is googling a compulsion?

I feel if I ignore the thought, then I would be a bad person because it wouldn’t bother me.

Fuck OCD! ❤❤❤.

Can you help me please? I've sent you an email!

= I have fear of rabies I was bitten by a rabid dog and gotten all 5 anti rabies vaccines along with 1 titanus shot Its been 61 days of bite.... = I was so scared of swine flu when i had cold a month ago = Also, i was stressed that i may have caught hiv when i was drunk unconcious with My friends Plz suggest what should i do ...

Hey Chrissie can I have your email????

Can you please respond to my email. I really need your help.

But I’m gay and the fear of turning straight like I will watch straight porn then regent cuz I know I’m gay

I like your hair do a lot 😏👌