This documentary opened my eyes that I should stop gambling. Gambling made me an angry person. I will start my recovery journey today.

Thanks for sharing. Iam addicted, lose my family, my kids, friends, my house. Im trying to rebuild my life now. Not gambling for 4 months.

Such a horrible feeling to blow your paycheck within 2 - 3 hours of getting it. Driving home with tears in your eyes and wondering how in the hell am I gonna pay for gas/groceries the next 13 days? Loans? Credit cards? Pawn shop? All terrible choices 😢

Heart wrenching! Kudos to the sister for telling her brothers story. Gambling is very addictive! I’m struggling to give it up! For me it’s not about the money but trying to fill a void. I would honestly warn anyone who’s contemplating gambling. It starts Subtly and then it grows into a serious problem.

This has brought tears to my eyes. My gambling addiction is slowly deteriorating my mind and soul. I've began isolating myself away from friends and family, not wanting to hang out or do anything involving them in fear of being judged. Simply because playing slot machines is all I ever really want to do anymore. This is still the case to this day.. Seeking help may be what's best (along with pushing my ego aside believing I don't need help hoping someday it will magically get better). This documentary has truly inspired me. I pray that everyone going through gambling addiction can and will gain control back over their lives and have another inspiring story to tell. ( R.I.P Philip.. you are never alone ) Bless You All

I was a compulsive gambler from 15 years old to 30 years old.I would gamble all my money that I worked hard for.Although I was never in debt from it I still missed much through my late teens and 20s. I was luck enough to stop through self control by 30 and When I got married I knew I could never go back to my old ways. It is possible to stop is my message.I am now 59 and retiring. Gambling is def a disease I was saddened by this video as I know my life could have ended up going in the same direction.Thank you Jesus for saving me.

I'm so blessed I no longer go to the casino I remember one Christmas I lost all of my money we had nothing that Christmas especially since I'm the bread winner but now I don't go to the casino and I'm now able to provide for my family

Michelle is such a smart, compassionate, loving & understanding sister. She has shown so much strength keeping her family together during this tragedy.

It doesn't stop until you stop. I am sorry for your brother. Thank you Michelle Wong

Don't matter what nationality or colour skin you are.. gambling is probably worst addiction of all..even to this day I gamble even though I not only lost money but friends girlfriends family respect etc.1st of my condolences to his family and loved 1s and thank you for sharing this video.kinda of a wake up reality call

One of the best documentaries I’ve seen on KZfaq. So we’ll made. Rip Phillip

good i found this video just lost nearly thousand pounds in roulette few hours ago gambling really is a curse!!!! last two weeks I am winning 7 k pounds but just this week everything is gone !!! the big problem is trying to win back what you lose !!!! thank you so much for sharing the story it enlightened me to stop gambling for good

I do feel sadness and compassion for everyone involved. But I can’t help also feeling a LOT of anger towards the gambler.

I cried when they cried. Sadly this story also mirrors my family's. I am thankful I found this story on YT. Hopefully, millions of ppl sees this bc compulsive gambling is a hidden mental disease that are often misunderstood and judged harshly from others. I hope the family is doing well and thriving today so Phillip didn't go in vain.

When his friend broke down crying, my heart shattered. So much raw feelings, it’s hard for me to watch, so much pain.

I never thought of the connection between Domestic Violence and gambling addiction. the wife and kids are lucky to be alive.

When the mother said 'Phillip is my favorite son okay' I burst into tears. Still I'm tears as I'm typing.

You never think you will become a compulsive gambler I have been doing it for over 20 years and I can tell you it does get much worse you cross the line you say you wouldn’t time and time again the best option you have is walking away forget the venues you went to or how much you lost betting online Focus on yourself and becoming a better person you will realise how much better life truly is without it I have had time up and believe me when I did have time up my mind was clear I haven’t had a bet for almost two months now and hopefully I don’t relapse as everytime a relapse happens I feel very depressed and sad it’s a really depressing way to live your life enjoy life its short and we don’t know when our time will end.

Prayers for the Wong family still. I was becoming a gambling addict and I can understand not being able to quit and the devastation Phillip was probably feeling . However, Thank God for the Covid disease in a way........ Our casinos were all closed and I could not go play slot machines anywhere and it tore me up inside not to go but after the few months they were closed I started to realize I actually had money in my bank account again. Yay. ( I never got into online betting thank God). I have gone back a couple times since they opened a couple months ago and I found I had broken the addiction .... well at least so far............. I have not gotten that feeling that I just have to go. Thank you for this video it has helped strengthen my resolve not to start gambling again. God bless you and your strength and your beautiful family.

Addiction comes in all forms and everyone reacts differently to how their addiction affects them. Suicide also happens for different reasons for each person but unless one is suicidal themself how can we ever understand. What I do understand is that life is extremely precious .

😢 R.I.P. Phillip. May God continually comfort and provide for his siblings and family.

Thank you for this moving story. I struggle with gambling as well.

Destruction -- that's the word Self -- you can't blame anyone but yourself Hit rock bottom--- Thank you for sharing this video Realizes how sad and bad I became

This has really got to me, not long ago I tried ending my own life cos of gambling. I'm 32 years old and been gambling since 18 19 years old and I have just had enough. Gambling ain't fun one bit and whoever says different then they are a ass. I have lost lot of people in my life including my family, I am now getting help by professionals but so far it's not helped me but I'll give it some time. I am aware taking your own life aaint the way but sometimes u just have enough of the same circumstances your in. I totally understand this story and I am sorry. Rip sir

Thank you for sharing your very personal story! I, too, lost my big brother (not to gambling)! I am a problem gambling therapist & have lost clients to this dreaded disease! I share your story with clients in the hope that it will help emphasize the horror of the disease of gamnling & encourage them to seek professional help before it's too late.

I went To The casino earlier today and lost whole lot of money i have never been that irresponsible I am so sick to my stomach. I use gambling to fill a huge huge void A Traumatic event but now i have to make it through December miraculously.

I have gotten myself into $17000 debt with lines of credit and credit card. I’m not sure why I chose this road but here I am. Say a prayer for me if any prayer warriors are reading this. God bless you all whoever is struggling.

That you Michelle Wong for making and sharing the story of your brother. At this very moment I am writing a book about pathological gambling. My own gambling problem is the starting point in my book; I also worked about 8 years in the gambling business. This documentary really touched me...

Your story will help to remind those who are still blinded by the thoughts that gambling is a way to make easy money and encourage them to stop now. This story will open up the eyes of gambling addicts who may not stop until they see the destruction that has befall on to others.

I went through the same, I missed my brother so much. Memories are the hardest things to forget ! 😪

WOW! I just watched this. A bit speechless really. Such an honest and incredibly well told story. Blessings to you and your family Michelle Wong. So many families have secrets ...probably all. I’m sure you’ve made a difference in a lot of peoples lives. All the best.

Never understood gambling. A friend of mine her partner lost everything due to his gambling. They have 2 children together and it got so bad he'd sell their christmas presents and thats just one of many things he did. Weirdly enough his name was Philip. Gambling especially when somebody is a compulsive gambler never never ends well in the end, the house eventually always wins!!

Addiction tears families apart

This is so sad and I get it. It’s hard and as an Asian ethnicity. I completely understand the shame and secrecy. I hate myself for having this addiction as well. It all began due to a failing relationship, loss, abuse, and grief. The casino became my outlet when nobody was there to help me through it. I’ve always been the selfless one to see and relieve others from their hurdles or stress in life. When it came to me, no one saw my suffering. I dealt with it in the best way possible. My friends would slowly invite me to the casino to help me forget all my worries, but over time it created more worries beyond repair. Till this day, I’m still struggling to recover. It doesn’t help when I beg or try to explain to my family about this illness and I’m trying so hard to help myself. A few of my family members would make my life hell by forcing me to take them to a place I do not wish to see because they don’t have a reliable vehicle. How do you stand up to your family when it’s 10 against 1? My family calls me names, degrade me, yell/argue with me, and takes me as crying wolf. There is so much more toxicity that I don’t even want to go there. It’s mental abuse. There is no hope when I turn for help from family. I nearly succeeded at one point in taking my life one year. My doctor had to send me to a Psychiatric Institute for help. Even so, till this day, I’ve lost trust in my family. I slowly got treatment through my Psychiatrist. My family degrades me as a lunatic in trusting white doctors to treat me and I’m a drama queen. If I can turn back time, I’d tell my younger self to never allow these people come into my life or allow them to spiral me down. There are still days that light switch is about to turn off. The battle is exhausting.

what a great documentary that gives love and respect to the departed. Phil would be proud. I'm sure people who pass by taking their own lives wish deeply to be loved and understood and you are doing that by this documentary. THank you

Thank you Michelle for your strength to share a very intimate family tragedy with the world. Phillips gambling addiction and ultimate suicide even if it helps just one person who is suffering from the same addiction, his passing will not have been in vain. I believe it was no accident that God put you and Phillip together so that you as a film maker, and your brothers gambling addictions, and ultimate suicide can help millions of people today who are experiencing the same gambling addictions. I pray you, Phillip and your families heart heals.

This is the truth about gambling. Never closure always pain.

Las Vegas has such a dark vibe to me. Just seems like an evil place. Lots of temptation

it is really sad to lose a best friend.. I felt you bro and I'm sorry for your loss

Thank you for sharing your story, gambling addiction is a terrible disease.

My ex husband did drugs before I met him and was in rehab a few times. He told me that if he didnt stop that he would die or go to prison. Eight months ago, he died of a drug overdose. A counselor told me that people who gamble will commit suicide. I am very sorry for you and your family.

This is a wonderful documentary, thank you! Gambling addiction has ruined many lives...sad.

I felt sorry for this dude at first but then I heard where he beat the crap out of his wife and threatened to murder her, his mom, and kids. INEXCUSABLE. Absolutely reprehensible. I have been to hell and back with this addiction but I never laid a finger on anybody! Let alone threaten to kill my own child. Absolutely disgusting.

this was very well done.. thank you for sharing your story.. May your Brother Rest in Paradise and Bless you and your Family.. as Gambler myself I came across this story while searching for ways to stop Gambling and I always known that it just doesn't affect me but everyone around me.. I've contemplated suicide many times because of my Gambling.. I'm really trying to stop

I thank god I got over my gambling addiction. I hit rock bottom when I had 5 loans and needed more money and went for another loan and could get it. My mom loaned me the money and thank god I paid her back and after changing my mindset I learned that money is not to spend but to grow and invest

Thank you for your time, energy and love that you so honestly put into this story. I am so very sorry for you and your families heartbreak and loss of Phillip. Gambling addiction is insidious and dangerous for sure, it should be banned! My prayers to you and your family.

The saddest part about this story is the price the children are having to pay without their father. The problem with taking your own life is the mess that's caused through problem gambling. It just doesn't go away. Everyone else has to pick up all the peices then suffer them selves. Like i say every action has an affect on the future for everyone. If i lose all my money due to gambling. If some one robs you then everyone in your family suffers. You can not win gambling long term so dont start.

Grief never ends, you don’t get through it, you learn to carry it. Also, suicide does not end your pain…….it passes it on to someone else😔

Sad when you hit rock bottom, and the tremendous guilt. I felt Phillip why he had done that. Feels like no way out or up. And you just want to stop being scared and stop hurting people you love not realizing that it will hurt them more with you gone. Addiction in any form is evil and destructive, yet we will only know we are in one when we're in too deep.

please be assured that i prayed for you and your family. i felt the pain because i was once a compulsive gambler. you are a great sister. GB.

I’m so sorry for the family’s loss. I came across this video because my parents both go to the casino everyday and I’m trying to learn more about this addiction and help my parents recognize they need help.

Thank you so much Michelle..... I've been addicted to gambling for years now......at times when I lose so Much next is thinking about suicide...real one There was a time I couldn't help myself but now I've learnt to stop keeping in touch to people with gambling mentality.

I am so sorry for your Loss. Thank you for sharing your story. It helps spread the word of the seriousness of a gambling addiction.

This is a story that millions of families can relate to . Very sad what addictions can do not only to the affected person but everyone around them. Unfortunately the ending is often tragic as the demons of the addiction suffocates the person whereby they can see no way out. The documentary is poignant but also presented in a way that shows dignity and poise to her brother and surrounding family and friends. Rest in peace Phillip and to the many people that succumbed to these addictions.

When I was a child, my dad ( gambling addict ) took me and my brothers to casinos, bingo halls, etc. We had to stand outside of the rope, where the gambling machines were. At bingo, he even let me dob the cards as a 10 - 11 year old. It was a different time back then and I think he knew the owner. So they let me do that. Anyway, putting a naive, impressionable, easily manipulated child in that environment is hideous. Two of us three brothers became massive gambling addicts, as soon as we were of age. Not a coincidence obviously. I have a ton of debt right now and it makes me sick. Wish he had waited for mom to come home from work, then go gamble by himself. Leave us kids out of it. What a horrible addiction. Absolutely financial obliterating, stressful, depressing, life destroying illness 😭

This documentary broke my heart…im really sorry for your lost❤❤❤

Don't gamble people! It ruins your life and destroy it! Yesterday I felt it for the last time!!! I promised to myself never again!!! Otherwise my fate will be the same as the person in the video! Oh God!!! Unfortunately the pity thing is that after such a tragedy the people who has been involved then become more closer and united.... So the lesson is to value the people when they are sill here and alive and to help them when they are struggling with something! Be better people between each other before everything is too late!!!

Incredibly moving & courageous documentary Michelle. Gambling addiction is a terrible affliction. Blessings to all of Phillip's family.

Omg thank you so much.. I have struggled with this disease most of my life..I was born in bonnyville and curently I live in Calgary.. this is an eye opener

A wonderful documentary. It's a shame it hasn't gotten more views!

Your family's and Phillip's story will help others in ways you'll never know. Thank you for sharing!

I'm so glad how clear and smart Michelle is with what happened to Philip. I love how self-reflective and that she recognised how much everyone in her family had to talk, had to feel, to mourn, to get closure of some kind.

This story made me see that if I don't stop gambling I will end up being like him

Such a powerful message. Thank you for sharing this painful journey with us all. I hope for all of you that there is peace in your lives.

Thanks for sharing your story. I pray that your brothers soul rest in eternal peace. May you find comfort and happiness in your life.

Thank you so much for sharing this story of your brother. Your honesty is so brave, showing your pain is brave and healing for yourself, and all of us watching this documentary. Peace be with you.

Ah man, I wish I had seen this years ago, before it was too late. It's really a wonderful tribute, very kind and compassionate.

Such a moving, compassionate and heart-wrenching account of a real life tragedy. Thanks you Michelle!

My condolences to you and your family for your loss. Maybe when others see this video it can help them and their loved ones. 🙏

You are a very strong and brave woman, so sorry for your loss and wishing you a peaceful and prosperous future.

This came out in 2003, 20 years ago. I have to wonder how his children are at this point, if they feel different looking back on their father's death from the perspective of adults who are nearing closer and closer to the age that he passed at.

Thank you for the story, it was told well. It made me sad as I know your brother was a good man. Life can be so difficult, I pray for you and your family.

To answer the question how do you help a gambler..you can't. They have to hit rock bottom. Once they surrender they need to enroll in 12 step meetings called GA. They will need to go to meetings for the rest of their life. There is no cure!

I didn't go to my grandpa funeral because I lost so much time and money to gambling I lost a lot of family storys to gambling and I didn't know I had a serious gambling addiction until look back at all the years I spent my time and money away

Really touching and heartbreaking film. 💗💗💗💗

Thanks for sharing.

With every hardship comes ease Sorry for your loss brought such a great insight of what this horrendous addiction can do to family’s av got my own gambling addiction but always brushed it under the bed, this video has inspired me to change Wish you the best in life 😊

So inspirational Michelle. This moved me so much that I stopped gambling here in NY. It moved me like no other video I’ve seen. Thanks for sharing. It might have saved my life. Thank you

I'm sorry for your loss. May you and your family find peace!

Gambling breaks family apart. My mom is a gambling addict and pushed my Dad into gambling. Now, they are both addicted to gambling. They would rather take their money that they worked hard for to bring to the casino than paying their medical bills. They even ask my sister and I to borrow them $3000 each so they could pay for my mom’s dental bills. I just have a feeling that it will just go straight to the casino and we are just feeding them their addiction, like giving them alcohol when they are already addicted to alcohol. My parents’ income is higher than mine, and still they complain that they are still poor.

I’m sorry for your loss! I’m struggling with gambling addiction too

Good bless Michelle for this moving story in honor of your brother rest in peace!

Wow you put me on an emotional roller coaster. You are a good person. I too could have been Phillip but I was lucky. I saw the light The end of the tunnel. Screw Vegas.

For him to leave his kids. He must been really depressed and troubled. Addiction is a sickness

🙏 May all be freed from this addiction🙏

Thanks for sharing your family's story... sorry for your loss.. he heard your love

Once you feel an ounce of stress gambling, stop. Gambling is entertainment, not a way to male money in the long run.

Very heartfelt video. Thank you sharing.

Very well made! Thank you for sharing this story

Thanks for sharing this story. We all need to see this stuff. Amen ❤️🙏💯

So sad!! I'm so sorry for your loss!

Thank you for this a lot of families are going or gone through the same thing. God mess the family.

Just self excluded today ❤️🙏🏾 Thank you for this video

So sorry for your loss. This must have been a difficult story to tell.

gambling is an individual s inability to handle pressures of life ignited by dysfunctional families and surroundings. thinks its easy way out but its a bottomless pit/

Thanks for this story I gamble as well and have set limits because I was just throwing away too much it’s used to get me out of my spiraling thoughts regrets lost of loved ones etc. I am currently in therapy and am weening myself down thanks again and God bless...

Casinos should watch this so they can see what they cause in people's lives

This is a very good documentary, it touched my life in an instant and woke me up from reality. Thanks a lot for this!

That poor wife went through so much hell 😔

I’ve been contemplating to commit suicide as well but then I thought of my kids and my family members. I’ll fight for it so they won’t suffer.