im sorry mum

Its strange how people can be so, connected through things like this, but are completely different in every other way

“I’m mentally sinking, but I’m physically here?.”

"the way those butterflies in my stomach turned into hornets felt nostalgic, somehow."

The last day of happiness was at the age of 7 🗣️🔥🔥🔥

"If you went back in time and fixed all of your mistakes, you would erase yourself"

Oh man younger me would be so disappointed.

One day you will look back at your troubles and smile, seeing how far you have come.

A poison tree by william blake I was angry with my friend; I told my wrath, my wrath did end. I was angry with my foe: I told it not, my wrath did grow. And I waterd it in fears, Night & morning with my tears: And I sunned it with smiles, And with soft deceitful wiles. And it grew both day and night. Till it bore an apple bright. And my foe beheld it shine, And he knew that it was mine. And into my garden stole, When the night had veild the pole; In the morning glad I see; My foe outstretched beneath the tree.

these comments are destroying me.

it's funny how on the short one the comments are like: we are going into depression with this one 🗣🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥🔥 but this is like geniune ppl confessing about their struggles and just talking about the song and how it impacts them.

Imagine laying on the wet ground in that forest with the light rain and listening to the ghosts playing this music around you. Hauntingly beautiful. 🖤🖤

myb in another lifetime ill be loved like i love

im sorry dad

God why am i like this

i never wanted to end up like this....i was once happy

It's confusing right? However, you know perfectly well when you are bad, your whole body physically and mentally lets you know, you feel lazy with fatalistic thoughts, that feeling that everything is lost, that nothing will be like before, you torture yourself remembering a random past experience at that moment or even It didn't even seem like a good time but compared to how you feel now it could even be said that... You were happy without knowing it.

My friend got killed ,listening to this help cope with the pain 💔

me listening to this makes me wanna go back to the day where i was happy. where i could be my self where i smile more. my real smile man i havent smiled in so long i just wanna sit back and enjoy life its hard to when everything is to much to handle everday it feels like a loop.. wake up eat school eat sleep over and over and over. nothing changes its just. hard.

still hate myself and cant connect w anyone but this song calms down my constant intrusive thoughts

I feel that i wanna hug anyone even the most person i hate . . .

I’m so fuckijg alone it’s insane . Everyday I’m alone it’s a cycle , I work , I study , I come home and cry to these songs to fill some type of sound in my ears . Cause I hate the silence , I hate myself , I hate this life . I’m so alone it’s so scary . I’m so scared I’m gonna go off the edge . I’m scared

Youre not alone. It may feel like it. But someone is out there Maybe not close They may be far You might not even know who they are But someone in this world will be here and ready to help when you need it. Youve still got so much to live for You might not know what to live for or have anyone to live for. But live for me Live for the daylight Live for the fresh air Live for the rain Live for the young one that was once happy, youre not broken, youre just experiencing the shit life throws at you. Youre strong, tough soul . Crying does not make you weak. You are loved by people You are loved by me. You are a good person You are beautiful Youre human, youre going to make mistakes, mistakes do not make you a bad person. I love you. If you even need someone to talk to I will always And i mean always be here. Because you matter.

oh beautiful poison tree, please let him love me

I miss myself

Please let my suffering be worth it in the end...

I don't feel like living anymore its..... just a cycle and it gets worse every day, year, I can't do this anymore.....

I had so many opportunities to make a good life for myself, to have a path, to be happy. I ruin everything I touch, including my own life. G-d forgive me for wasting the gifts that you gave me.

I changed a lot

I will hate myself forever because of what I did.

I’m never enough.

Why don’t I find things fun anymore

"My girl didn't love me but it doesn't matter anymore because im fine by my self 😞"

You're all going to be okay guys

oh beautiful poison tree please take me away from here..

I don't pass my grades, I can't even fulfill my dreams, I hate life

it reminds me of her.

Oh beautiful poison tree make me disappear

for anyone doing bad rn, ik it’s something you don’t wanna hear especially when things seem to not get better. But trust me, they will. Maybe not for days, week or even months. Eventually tho, things will get better. Don’t give up. Don’t make a decision that you will regret later on. And if anyone needs to talk, I’m here. Take care y’all.

Please don’t leave me again it hurts..

He told me I reminded him of this song. We broke up 2-3 years ago and it pains me to listen to this song, but somehow I'm so drawn to it. I'm scared that he was my first love.

Numb. 0:43

he was the biggest part of me. until he wasn’t.

The sadness level is strong with this one.

Having emotional stress

Its currently Valentines day 2024 and i want to confess my love for my best friend but hes straight and im gay so if i do i would ruin the friendship with my best friend, so yet again i have to hold my tongue and be alone. What a funny twisted life we live 😔

Sorry mom, I'm trying my best

I couldn’t stop them.

Verse 1] Throwin’ poison seeds into the wind Make the poison tree to grow in me begin Let your branches fork my veins Let your honey tide in me Blood lovin’, poison whisperin’ [Chorus] Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrow flow in me Take away my blood and bones Make your flowers deep inside of me [Verse 2] Least I’ll still have company My inside, tiny poison tree I’ll seal my love in me Tiny beautiful poison tree [Chorus] Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrows sow in me Turn me into a poison tree [Verse 3] Turn me into a poison tree Make my shadow go away Make my branches strong and hard Make my leaves flower and spread Make me feel like something powerful is growing deep inside of me Turn me into a poison tree

Im sorry. Im sorry for existing.

i wish i can stop sh mys i wish i can over come my fear of food i wish i can make my mother proud of me i wish i can be better i wish i didnt ruin the family i wish it was me that wasent born i wish i can make my family proud of me again i wish to be loved again i wish to not pass out from days of not eating i wish to not exist i wish to fade i wish to make better grades to make my parents proud of me i wish i never affected anyone i wish i stfu i wish i wish god takes my soul when i sleep

oh beautiful poison tree, please let me break this cycle.

I hate school and making friends.

sorry I hurt myself I didn't want to. they made me do it. they hurt me

I’m so tired man.

why do i still exist

I’m speechless. I feel something and nothing at the same time but all i know is that I’m feeling it all. There is something or someone inside of me. That’s dying all alone. They know they are dying. But they can do nothing about it. Asking for help isn’t a possible thing. So all they could do is just..be there. Not existing or being alive. When they realized that they are starting to die.disappear..they were already dead. I can’t tell if they are me or i am them. I can’t even tell if we are the same things. I would say “the same person/people” instead of “the same things” but i don’t even know who are they.nor who I’m i. So even when I’m all on my own. My own is not with me. I’m just there. With no one. Not even with my own self . I stopped waiting for death. Or even for something to happen or someone to come up and do something. Good or bad. Sometimes i think that it’s already over a long time ago. That this is not the end. The end has come for time ago. This is after the end. And some other times i think that nothing was meant to begin. Nothing started and nothing ended and nothing is still going on. I can’t decide if im lost. Or I wasn’t even found so i can be lost. I can’t decide that this is my “lost” or if nothing happened so I’m in the “found”. I can’t tell where I’m living. I can’t even relate to the word “living” because i never did. I can’t find a way to say that I’m living because I don’t know that. I don’t know where im i or why im i here and is this where i belong to. The words are gone. And so I’m i. Death or life. Can’t choose because I don’t know both and I don’t know where my position is. Im i now in the “life” or in the “death” or in between..or neither of them and I’m not “there” yet or probably i was never meant to be “there” in some place some time some moment..I’m speechless. I can’t describe anything inside of me and I don’t know what I’m feeling. I don’t even know if I’m feeling something or if I’m not feeling anything . But all i can figure out is that whatever is it. I’m feeling it all..

my keyboard still remembers your name

Those tears on our mothers face shall not be forgotten

i just feel so tired, but i don't want to give up.

This makes my comfortable in my saddness.

I'm sorry god.

Ngl this song makes me feel calm yet makes me want to apologize to so many people and forget the hurtful times and wish i did better

The worst loneliness is not being comfortable with yourself.

I think I just lost a battle that was crucial to win my war... Back to the drawing board or whatever... And this music reminds me of someone... Someone who broke me inside but that I still like.

"Love's bloom inevitably withers into disgust's shadow."

“Butterfly turned into moths.you hurt me more than anyone has ever done.

"My biggest dream turned into a nightmare. The dream was you."

My Favorit song if i hurt myself fr

they are gone but i can't leave, i must stay here

I feel nostalgic and ppl must be prayin on my downfall....😂🙏🏻

im not currently sad at the moment, but if i am, i will come back here and listen to it.

I wish there was someone by my side

I miss the old me.

I always get asked questions like " Why didn't you cry at your dad's funeral? " People think i don't care. I didn't cry not because i didn't feel bad, not because i was strong or wanted to be strong..i simply didn't deserve to. I grew up being quite a rebellious teenager going through normal hormones and constant mood swings. My dad had been a huge part of my childhood, but the more i grew up, the more we got into pointless arguments because of my stupid mood swings. He told me I'd regret it one day when he was gone, I didn't listen..but that day finally came and i believe its karma for me, that's why I didn't shed a tear even if i was dying inside. Please don't be like me.. and spend time with those you love..

Real (the devil is trying to make me kms but God is the way and in God I trust)

i haven't left my house in over a month bru im cooked

Hi...... I feel that I listen to this song too fall asleep but first I need to cry ALLOT so.... Most of the times I am sad\calm\depress , but I just fake it with a smile ;) but, always trying to be helpful so.. What about you please put alike if you are like this. I really need to know if someone understands me.......

we need a 10 hour one fr fr

There's strength in your pain

We hanging with this one 🗣️🗣️🔥🔥

"I love you with my soul, because the soul never dies." -random bathroom graffiti I saw today

i fell asleep too this so relaxing..

Why are there so many people venting in the comments🔥🔥 (y’all are gonna get better I promise god loves you)

I'm sorry dad

i wish i could be the daughter my mom wished for

As a poison tree gourment, I apporved... this is the best

Oh beautiful poison tree

i would give anything to be happy again. like how i was back when i was in kindergarten. like how i was before 2017.

oh beautiful poison tree, let my parents care about me

Still I search for an escape from my endless agony. This music took a moment away from my mind so thank you... Maybe one day I will not suffer but I doubt it, I can never escape my own mind.

Every day that passes feels the same.. so why can’t I remember what I did the day before the accident? The one that changed the cycle, then brought it right back..

it's a long life..

mother, please stop.

im not depressed this song is just relaxing and motivates me to be a badass tree and helps me sleep

the song i listened to in my worst moments of life? I WILL cry while listening to it for one hour

The first time I listened to this I cried without thinking about anything

I tried my hardest dad..I loved you, but now I have too leave.

I was once happy😢

I’m so worried…who even am I, I feel guilty being alive, I feel guilty being happy, I feel guilty being miserable. If I am not perfect, if I am useful, I am unloved, what’s wrong with me why can’t I just be. I’m sorry. Please help me God