This theme seems tough. I hope anyone going through this can stay strong and don’t let ocd win.

I’ve currently been struggling with the feelings and emotions. Ive been dealing with this theme for a little over a year now. I don’t get a lot of initial anxiety anymore and I don’t get a lot of images. It’s more of me asking questions relating to theme or my brain telling me statements like “you are your theme” or “the only way to be happy is to come out.” It’s all very confusing. Growing up I always liked girls and was always confident being a straight male. But now when I try and remember those feelings I had for women before this started it’s like my brain tells me they weren’t true or that I hadn’t been introduced to this new side of me yet. I just don’t know how to feel. I don’t believe peoples sexuality can just change but my brain keeps making me feel like I did change and everything before my ocd started was a lie. It gets even more confusing when I ask myself if I just agreed with my theme and did what my ocd wanted then things will get better, and then my body will give me a feeling of relief or a feeling that I am my theme now. It drives me crazy. Or when people say just “listen to your heart” or “deep down you know”. I can’t ask my self those questions anymore cause when I try to my brain just tells me I’m my theme. This is alot of stuff and I know reassurance is bad but I just wanna feel like I’m not the only one that struggles with the feelings, urges, and emotions part of this theme so much.

When you said "you just think you're fn sinning all of the time" I subscribed immediately. 😂 Growing up with OCD, being religious and bisexual was the ABSOLUTE worst.

I’m glad I’m not alone

Thank you for this video. I’m currently going through this theme, and I’m trying not to fall into compulsions and ruminating.

Just found your channel. Watched a few vids... The Pure O diagnosis fits me perfectly, & was like a revelation when I first heard of it. Love your style & humor. You seem like a cool lady. Thanks for the great content!!😊

Momma Chrissie back to help us to know that we are not alone🙏🏼 I’m honestly just surviving bc of her videos, I’m a month from traveling to visit my Girlfriend and enjoy a great time but my feelings and thoughts of “it’s all fake, you’re this and that” its killing me but hey stay strong you all, don’t trust the dreams, don’t trust the feelings, don’t trust the sensations bc our brain is the most beautiful machine ever that can really build a total “LIE” and make us think that is real and will happen but hey, 85% of the things we overthink never actually happen, 15% happen even better than we thought. Not trying to reassure you but tell you that you’re MAD strong for being you and been here still trying to learn more about you and how to be that 1% better than yesterday. I RESPECT YOU AND I SALUTE YOU MS. & MR.🙌🏽🔥

Mines started recently. It drives me crazy like if I’m on drugs on something and makes me feel like ion know who I am no more. I know for fact I was always into females but with all this social media going on and all these rappers & celebrities on that weird stuff and what they do to get in position for the industry and all that really f***** my mind up fr. I can’t even watch a movie in peace either or YT without seeing something 🌈. Then these intrusive thoughts be trying to trick me into thinking that I’m on that and everything and it just insane. growing up ian even knew none of that stuff existed till socialmedia came along and everything. all I thought was that men get with women have children and that’s that. That’s what I was first taught atleast

May God help us with this problem. It will go people trust me. The worse part when you see pictures that play in your mind automatically

You’ve saved my life honestly

Lovely Chrissie Hodges.

My daughter has intrusive thoughts. Since she was pre teen. She has ocd and is delusional and hallucinates. She is not gay but has delusions she has came out in the past. She also has epilepsy so all of these meds she is on (that are not working) are making her epilepsy really dangerously bad. And she thinks she has came out and we do not know how to get any of this under control. She’s missed her whole sophomore year and she is not getting better on meds. It’s ruining her life and we also moved away and know no one here and it is so isolating. We do not know how to help her.

Thanks for being so honest.

The piece about doubt I feel could also be said about relationship ocd. I suffer from this theme and at times I’ll feel that I know I want to be with my partner yet there is also the questioning and debilitating doubt in my mind

Love you! Thank you 😊

I am so thankful for you Chrissie

I’ve had this theme for 11 years and it’s always been by FAR my most torturous theme. I’ve been doing ERP for about 8 months and I’ve recently just felt like I’ve hit a wall with it. Everything just feels so confusing and exposures that used to be easy now feel super hard again. Has anyone else experienced this??

Hello I’m struggling with this as well and it’s been going on for months, I used to love females and these thoughts are literally making me depressed, I know I’m straight but these thoughts are trying to tell me otherwise, I’ve had some trans thoughts beforehand like last year to tell me that I’m trans and I was panicking over those then it got better. I keep googling information and every time when I see a man I feel anxiety and fear of what I might become. This is awful and literally a fate worse than death man and I hate it. Before these thoughts I want a wife and I want to have kids and I can’t let these awful thoughts win me over. Wish me luck because this is just awful. It feels like my identity is losing itself and I keep having a panic attack. I feel like I’m having a whole identity crisis. I cant even sleep nowadays without feeling so much fear of these thoughts. I had a very mild case of OCD when I was younger but idk if these thoughts are HOCD

I had a severe porn addiction for over a decade which escalated into transgender porn, i became numb to almost anything until i had a night with a girl and couldn't get it up, and since then I decided it was the ultimate turning point: I HAD TO QUIT PORN. But since then I have had severe HOCD, I've never slept with anyone else who isn't a biological woman, but that somehow 'deep down i am actually gay' (i never watched any gay porn though, and was never tempted to do so either). I have no hatred towards the gay and lesbian community whatsoever, it just isn't what I want. So a lot of people probably would jump to conclusions that 'i am an undercover gay man using women as a prop for me to look straight', but truth is i absolutely loved and adored these beautiful women and the mere thought of sex with a man or trans person disgusts me. I have seen a therapist, and when I speak about it with her, she has been very good at certain aspects such as improving my self esteem and being firm with people, but she also tells me that these thoughts could be a precursor to wanting to come out of the closet which is very counterproductive and confusing. This is why i have such a hard time being treated.

i don’t know. i’m so confused. this has made me question my entire existence. i’m losing it. i feel like i’m denial for sure. i don’t want this for myself. i don’t wanna be this person. i’m losing it 🤯

I have this type of ocd but I don’t even know how mines started

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