Fun fact: It all ends so u might as well do whatever tf u wanna do with your life

Fun fact: *My emotions are based off what kind of music I listen to*

i feel bad for all the 1,4 million people who clicked on this playlist i hope we're all gonna feel better one day

Music is like a person i can talk to without feeling judged

"I dont even know why you cry." "Your life is litterally fine" "Dont be so ungrateful" "My life is worse then yours and im not crying" "Stop trying to get attention" Humanity is so fucking disgusting.

0:00 alien blues - vundabar 2:35 freaks - surf curse 4:59 breezeblocks - alt-J 8:48 i cant handle change - roar 12:07 unfair - the neighbourhood 15:07 blackout days - phantogram 18:25 dark red - stevey lacy 20:54 washing machine heart - mitski 23:01 hey kids - molina 24:11 fallen down - toby fox

Worst feeling is you wanna bawl your eyes out,but nothing wont come out.

I explain all my anxiousness to people, but they say “Just think positive!”

"I only talk to dogs because they don’t understand me" - literally me:)

"Does it even matter how hard I try?... Do my good grades matter? Does me being patient, me being calm and collected, me working so hard, trying so hard to get your attention that I feel like I'm dying... even matter?"

For anyone who needs it *virtual hug*♥️

Pov: you are the friend that is always here for people and understand they feelings but when it you nobody here for you

Pov: you can only lie about your feelings and how you look on the outside but inside you are slowly fading away and crippling into a darkness that is hard to get out of…

“You make everyone uncomfortable.” one of my close “friends” said to me on my birthday when I was being “too loud” at dinner. *to this day realising that everything I do and say always makes someone uncomfortable, accidentally or not*

Fun fact: music understands u better then your parents

“Go away, you only cause trouble, why are you so stressed no one did anything your just being sensitive, you should go, stop being like this, your so dramatic, life isn’t even that hard, be more grateful” -my parents

Nostalgia run: Remember how you used to hang upside down on your chair? legs where your back would go, back where your legs would be, and your head hanging off the edge as you watched the world move around you upside down. Remember when you could run and play for days? Not a care in the world? Remember when you could sit in a cardboard box and imagine it was whatever you wanted it to be? A car, a spaceship, the options were limitless really... Remember how you used to pour soda into the cap and pretend you were big like the adults? Drinking with the fancy little shots, heh... that was fun. You used to tape your mouth shut, poked holes in your eraser with a pencil, or used the smaller erasers as puppets once they started to break, you also used to put yes or no onto your eraser and ask it questions, you may remember snack time at daycare or home, playing with your animal crackers. You would play with your voice in the fan or have pillow fights with friends and family. There was flappy bird, school trips to the zoo or other places, book fairs, and cartoons, maybe even running under a parachute at the gym. All of this was important in our life at some point, wasn't it? It was always so... thrilling, wasn't it? I miss all those carefree days of being a kid, and I'm sure you might as well, but take care now friends. It will get better soon, trust me. From a trusting cat.

Pov: people comfort you a lot but it still doesn’t help. Does anyone else feel happy when their just balling out tears 🤡 Are you guys okay? I didn’t mean for this comment to be THAT serious.. Edit: You really think I was gonna say “ThANK YoU FOr ThE LIKeS”? I’m not one of *THOSE* kids 👀

“AM I JUST A KNICKKNACK TO YOU?!” “I’M NOT YOUR FUCKING TOY/PUPPET.” “STOP PULLING MY STRINGS, I’M NOT YOUR PERSONAL PUPPET.” “I’M NOT YOUR SLAVE, STOP CONTROLLING ME.” “GO AWAY.” “I SAID GO AWAY”

Fun fact about me : I listen to sad music and test my limits so i can stop crying everywhere

Pov: Your the one friend everyone goes to for help and advice but none of them are ever there for you…

POV : You are tired of everything in life, but you don't know what your tired of, you have friends, family, a house, & food on the table, your not being abused by anyone, or ever, just tired, but scared of dying, afraid of pain. to anyone here, i'm so proud of you for being you, even if you only lied on your bed, nothing else, watching youtube, listening to music, i'm super proud of you

0:01 = Aliens blues - vundabar 💖 2:35 = Freaks - alt-J 💖 8:48 = i cant handle change - Roar 💖 12:07 = unfair - the neighbourhood 💖 15:07 = Blackout Days - Phantogram 💖 18:25 = Dark red - stevey lacy 💝 20:54 = Washing mashine heart 💖 23:01 = Hey kids - molina 💖 24:11 = Fallen down slowed 💖 Y O U R W E L C O M E ! ! 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

To whoever reads this, i love you

Hello my fellow disappointments :) I just wanna let you all know you aren’t alone out there and we are all here to help :)

POV: you want to be a kid again because years ago, you were an innocent, kind and a kid that didnt know about the real world,You didn't know what the future holds for you. Now your probably grade 6 and above im 19 and listening to vent playlists makes you feel.. Better. Also reading the comments from positive people or people who experienced something you experienced too. I get that so like vent playlists are like my thing. I cant be without music. Oh how i miss being a kid. You get presents, Your parents love you, Your friends with a lot of people. What about now? You probably have depression, anxiety, panic attacks or other stuff OR maybe all 3. You wanna be a kid again because you were a happy kid. So remember now that your older. Your a girl? you can cry Your a boy? you can cry Your non-binary? you can cry Your genderfluid? you can cry if your others? you can cry Human? you can cry LGBTQ? you are valid. From earth? you are worth it. If you feel NO ONE loves you, I do i may be the only person that loves you but thats enough okay? if you wanna end it NO if you think no one will miss you? I WILL okay? stay hydrated, stay safe, stay healthy

You know it’s a perfect playlist when you don’t have to skip any song and that you shed a tear.

Animals are my comfort zone... they don't control me, they don't tell me what to do, i feel loved when they let me touch them, i get my happiness from them, They don't make my depression and anxiety worse.

“I NEVER FUCKING LOVED YOU” “YOU NEVER SHUT UP DO YOU?” “I WISH I NEVER MET YOU.” Those words, everything they said…i wish i never existed.

0:01 Aliens blues - vundabar 2:35 Freaks - Surf Curse Breezeblocks - alt-J 8:48 i cant handle change - Roar 12:07 unfair - the neighbourhood 15:07 Blackout Days - Phantogram 18:25 Dark red - stevey lacy 20:54 Washing mashine heart 23:01 Hey kids - molina 24:11 Fallen down slowed

"Now quit crying, that won't work on me." I've been told this so many times by my grandparents and still told it to this day. They used to tell me to "quit being so sensitive" or they'd cheer me up.

“I can do it I promise” That’s a lie we tell ourselves to keep going

Do you remember those sweet memories of ours? Do you remember the park where we used to play? The ducks we'd see? Those lovely orange trees? I was always slower than you, when we raced there. You kept on running. You did not care. And when you beat me, we laughed instead. Because it didn't matter if you were ahead. We felt alive, we were not dead. Did you hear me? We were not dead. "..." I remember the trees. I remember the skies, the clouds. We'd stay until night before we would depart. You said you did not want to leave, every time. Every day and every night. Because It broke your heart. Which was funny to me, Because every morning and afternoon You knew where I’d be, we would be back soon. We would be back soon… “...." ...Did you know, we would be here? Stuck here in this room? While I’m in this chair, waiting here for you? To open those eyes one last time. To laugh like we used to? ...you should have told me you were running out of time. I’m so angry at you. I'm pissed. I hate you. I don’t want to have to miss you. I don’t want to one day forget, Those memories we shared. "..." I won't remember everything. On my own, without you here, To share those memories, we hold so dear. Please don’t let me forget you. I don't want to forget. I don't want to die and meet you there, At those trees, To turn to me and say, "Do you remember those sweet memories of ours?"

“I wanna cry but nothing is coming out.” Relatable. Or maybe, “I don’t wanna cry but they keep coming out of the dark.” That’s..relatable too. Very. Or maybe, “I simply can’t express emotions.” Or even, “I express too much.” But whatever the phrase, you all are amazing, you’re okay. Everyone deserves a life, That’s why you’re here. Do what you love. Don’t give up.

I tried telling my mom that I was super depressed. I was literally having a breakdown. She just looked disgusted the whole time and said “grow up.” I realized she really doesn’t care

No matter what I do, if it's my grades or my social life, or anything I fail. No matter how hard try. I wasn't born with intelligence or nice looks. All I got are disabilities and trauma that stay with me forever. I can tell all of my friends don't truly care about me. They just want someone to be around, not their problems. Even though my mom seems like she cares, I can tell she doesn't. All I am is extra weight to carry. My therapist doesn't care, she's just doing it for the money. I have lost my cat, my dog, my dad, my brother. And yet that's not enough for life, so they take my happiness, my passion, my talent, my motivation. No one wants to truly help me. No one likes me, everyone just talks about me behind my back. I've done nothing to deserve this. Yet when I try to end it all I'm stopped. Nothing I do is good enough for anyone. I can't physically do anything because of my health issues. I am just a burden. And yet I have to go through punishment for trying to free myself from this hell. I barely talk to anyone and those who I do talk to don't care. To them, I am just an object, a joke, a nobody. No one cares about how I feel, when I try to talk to them about it they just act like I don't exist and make it about them. I should have just jumped in front of that car when I had the chance.

"your a disappointment" "coward" "shameful" "disgusting" "useless" ....it's too loud in my head....too many voices....too many alters....

To everyone who reads this. Ur enough, don’t push urself on something u can’t do. U will only get hurt even more.

Came straight here after having a fight with my brother which led to my mom yelling at me. And me cursing the living out of them and now my throat hurts.

POV: you cry to playlists like this and cry because some of these songs are so true and u can’t vent to anyone else because no one else understands you so you might as well cry instead of being with someone who makes u cry.

Things I always hear (might end up as a vent) : “You are so emotional” “You're such a crybaby” “Crocodile tears” “Why are you “depressed”?” “All you do is think about death” “Why are you so interested in death” “You were so extroverted when you were young, what happened?” “Why don't you socialize?” I don't know, I never knew what happened to me. I don't know what hit me so hard that I can't talk to people. I don't know what made me have such a hard time to socialize. I don't know why I'm so emotional, why I'm such a crybaby. I wish I could stop being so emotional, or even start socializing but it's so hard. I want to stop, but I don't know how. If I ask their help for these issues, they always push it away. I wish I knew. I really wish I did.

While listening to this, it made me realize how much I am actually hurting inside. Cursing out my reflection, calling myself a baby, hitting myself when I cry, stabbing holes into walls for comfort, staying up until 3 AM listening to my fan, scratching my dresser all to hell. It makes me realize just how shitty life is to me, how much I resent my own existence. When I was 1 I watched my mom and dad's final argument behind a kitchen chair, when I was 3 I was starved for days on end, having to sneak food to keep my pale, skeleton of a body alive. All because of that damn man... dealing with a suicidal mother, my sister was so depressed she couldn't wake up, my house was rotting, I snapped my arm when I was 3 1/2, I would scrap my limbs for fun, I was hit on at 8, mentally abused in 3rd grade at a shitty school, hit, beaten. No matter how loud I yelled, no matter how blood curdling my screams were no one heard me. Heck, I tried to kill myself when I was 9! I HATE MYSELF. SO MUCH, I WANNA LEAVE THIS DAMN PLANET!!!! LET ME GO, I WANNA BE FREE!!! I HATE THIS, I HATE EVERYONE! WHY!? I DON'T GET IT. I WAS KIND, POLITE, I would behave... but then life would reward me with a hard, stab in the back. What a wonderful life I have, huh? I'm sorry to all of you who read this. I just needed to get my emotions out.

I love how at the end its sort of like a relaxing song to relax you after the pain you were just thinking of

to everyone, who reads this: Well done! You`re so strong. You can handle everything. You`re really a wonderful person.

I never knew that not being allowed to lock your room/bathroom door isn't normal until recently. Thanks, mom.

"Im a disappointment,I stay up till sunrise and not even the sun wants to shine bright at me,I hide I over-think, i look behind and turn around in terror. The rain spits at me even the clouds hide the sun from me anyway."

This really says something when you know all the songs

Pov : you overthink about what you will do once you get a job, and grow up and life sooner turns way harder than you expected.

They expect you to act like what you look like. They don't know how that makes YOU feel. Whether your gay,bi,pan whatever if your family thinks down on you for your gender or for who you love, don't listen to them. Love who you love and be who you want to be

Pov: your mom is yelling at you for something you didn't even do and is comparing you to her friends daughter so plus you told her your sick but she thinks you're lying about it so now you're in your room cry with bloody tissue everywhere with a blocked throat so you feel like you can't breathe so you took your earphones and searched disappointment playlist and now your here in your bed crying😢

listening to this at 11pm after having the biggest mental breakdown while scrolling on the disney fandoms page, making a oc based off of yourself, and having school in the morning hits different.

sometimes you just need to listen to these songs in your car at 6 am and scream. this is the beginning of my villain arch lmao.

To everyone who sees this. You're doing great :) ( i know its really hard for you guys but please keep trying

Do you know what's best to see? how people from different countries, continents, regions and states listen to the same music. We are getting closer. I'm Russian, for example, and I write through an interpreter. and I'm happy to see some people write their concerns here to get support.

POV : Ayou feel like all you ever do just go’s down the drain when all you have ever wanted is recognition from one of the few people who you look up to. Yet you never get it. . .

Woo, it’s vent time! I went to a therapist recently, and apparently there is a reason for why I can’t seem to accomplish anything anymore. The social and general anxiety is crippling at this point. I can’t handle school or even ordering or buying things in person because it feels like I can’t breathe and can’t speak. I pretty much shut down in fear of doing something wrong, and I have no idea why this issue came into my life (nothing really happened). The anxiety is teaming up with a strong dose of depression that keeps me in bed all day. I can’t build up the will to draw, paint, read a book (my hobbies), or even just brush my teeth. I cut off all my friends. I haven’t spoken to any friends or acquaintances since around January (like 6 months ago?). I have no friends anymore, and I’m so damn lonely. I just can’t function anymore, and am falling behind. My grades have dropped from 90s to 70 and 50s, and grade 12 is my last year that has to go well. I have not genuinely looked forward to something in years, I always dread anything to come, be it good or bad. I would say one good thing to happen is that I stopped hurting myself (hitting my arms until they were cover elbow to wrist in dark purple bruises and welts that last weeks), but the only reason I seem to have stopped is because I feel like I don’t have the energy to do it anymore. Seems like I can’t even get that right. I really am just the embodiment of a disappointment. My parents had such high hopes for me, being the only child of three to glide through school and be academic, but I’m failing in that (the only thing I had going for me). Just to add to the bullshittery, my cat (best friend I had since I was five) died a couple months ago, because of fucking cancer, which we treated her for and she was getting better. Then after that (which caused me to spiral into a more depressed state), my great grandmother died, and she was basically just our grandmother because she practically raised my mom. It all just sucks, and I really don’t know what to do anymore. I’m miserable. But I can’t even seem to wallow in my misery because I feel like I’m just too tired to care anymore. I can’t seem to care about myself. Offing myself has been on the table for years and I’ve thought out plans (with a friend that I’ve now cut off, it was a pact in a way, wait til we’re 18), but I’ve never been able to go through with them. I can’t just abandon my pets like that, who would take care of them? My mom wouldn’t be able to handle that either, she would probably try to go with me. If it didn’t hurt my family or my animals then I would probably be dead by now. For now, I guess I’ll just wait until I mess up enough for them to not miss me anymore, and quietly take my leave. Sorry this is written so poorly, normally I’m more eloquent, but I just can’t be bothered.

The reason why I looked for this playlist is because if you have a bad day, nobody there to help you, Strangers can just make your day in a few minutes. Edit: Hi everyone! I hope you have a lovely day, feel free to vent out in the replies I'll be here for uu ♡♡♡♡

"there is something suffocating in my heart, feels like my heart is being squeezed and i want to let it all out by crying but no tears came"

this playlist just hit me like a bus with the first song, too accurate

как же тут много иностранцев, но все мы слушаем одно и то же, и это круто, музыка сплочает нас всех. для меня музыка это моя жизнь, без наушников никуда, какая бы музыка там ни была, музыка это то, чем я дышу, спасибо за все, что вы все ещё держитесь, и за почтение❤️

I've been reading some of these comments, it's really sickening what some parents do to their kid, they should have known that it would be a lot of work, yet they neglect/ abuse them, it's so sad and I wish that upon no one, everyone should be loved and respected, if you've experienced any kind of abuse or your parents neglect you, please talk to someone, I love you

*fun fact* I'm a middle child and generally feel like this 24/7 but with 'so' and 'whatever' I'm practically depended on hiding my sadness Edit: also creator you made me cry listening to 1/4 of my playlist in this video so thanks (that was meant in a good-ish way)

dude, this is my normal playlist, it has all the songs i listen to on repeat on here, and the picture is to relatable

Coming from an emotionally abusive home.. this playlist really helps.. especially with my mental health so thank you

since this seems like a venting space, i hope you don’t mind… TW: mentions of sa from the young age of 2, my father got thrown in jail, leaving my mother alone. during that time, she gave me and my brother all her time… it was nice and comforting , i felt loved. but everything changed when she met my stepfather. she started becoming only more interested in him.. effectively abandoning me and my brother- emotionally. she got so distant to the point that.. she didn’t even realise that i got fucking raped by my stepfathers son .. AT THE AGE OF 10-12. it really shows how much concern she had for me. later on when i was 13, i gained consciousness of the situation and started maturing… eventually realising that what happened to me wasn’t normal, and that started the downfall of my fucking sanity dissipating. my mother became more demanding.. stayed put by my stepfathers word,, like she’s his dog or smth. i dislike it so much… he judges me for literally everything… the way i look.. the way i walk.. the way i even look at things. she seems his judgement as correct. swayed by his judgement and his hate for me, during the first covid lockdown, she took every electronic device away, and the internet. this genuinely made me want to cry, i resorted to attempting to shift into different realities, i was going insane due to the silent 9 hours that i had to stay at nyhouse every day , wait it until my mother came home. regardless, it’s gotten to the point where for the past few months i’ve been realising that i’ve been so fucking manipulated by my mother during the time that my stepfather moved in with it, always fucking prioritising him . all that i’m used for is just … cleaning. she doesn’t talk to me, just shouts at me to go be useful. the thing that’s making it unbearable at the moment.. i’m currently in my exam season. she has no fucking empathy, i’ve been struggling with this shitty mood (i have suspicions of depression but i don’t want to self diagnose) and my energy levels have gone past rock bottom… yet she expects me to clean half the house with such little energy and during exam season. i don’t even have the fucking energy to get out of bed and eat or brush my teeth. it requires do muchcefffort, i just want to be loved, i want to be accepted.

"Why not me?" This question will kill me one day

to anyone seeing this or dealing with depression, you’re doing amazing!

I’m just going to vent… TW: suicidal thoughts Ever since I was little, my parents always expected me to be perfect. They just threw me in whatever activity they wanted me to do and expected me to be perfect at it. They say everything that I actually want to do in stupid and that what they want me to do will make me a better person. At school, my friends just use me and after they are done, they just walk away and don’t talk anymore. I felt like I wanted to kill myself but was scared too tell my parents about it. So as an alternative, I started cutting my wrist. I still have my plan of either overdosing or jumping in my head and the only thing stopping me is the very faint glimmer of hope that someone will accept me. People are constantly blaming me for all of their problems even though none of them has to do with me, making me feel even worse about myself and that I am the cause of the misery of everyone around me. I developed a habit of saying sorry for everything that goes wrong as it is a habit that I never broke out of. Even now I still feel those thoughts and feel like I can never be happy. …thank you for listening to my shit of a story

To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you’re excited i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love the major things you do i love your nose i love your eyes i love your mouth i love your teeth i love your forehead i love your height i love your lips i love your eyebrows i love your body hair i love your chin i love your cheeks i love your eyelashes i love your freckles (or lack of) i love your head i love your body weight i love everything about you as the therapist friend i really hoped this helped all the poor souls that need a hug i wish i knew this sooner but in order to love yourself, you need to stop loving the people that bring you down, as tough as it might be.. i promise.. you‘ll feel a weight fall off your shoulders just so you know, i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)

Listening to these kinds of music makes me feel like the time stopped and while listening im thinking about my problems and how to fix them , it's like it gives me time to think and process what is happening around me and it just comforts me so much

When i was younger i was told that crying is for the weak and it's disgusting. Now i'm older and crying is like a relief for me. But sadly i can't cry when people are around since i still believe those past words. Deep down i always wanted someone to comfort me but never got it. This is why i cry alone in my room and that's what i'm not scared of. Just sometimes life pressures too much and you need to let it out. I get too emotional over some videos with sad music and grey filters. How fucked am i?

Just a few days ago I tried to end it but if my girlfriend wasn't there I probably would have, that showed me people care about Remember that you guys, girls, non-binary, etc. you are loved no matter what so don't end it please

Mira, eres increíble en todos los sentidos y no puedes rendirte. Tus calificaciones no te definen, tu apariencia no te define y Dios te ama. Así que no te rindas. Incluso si las cosas no van bien en este momento, está bien. Te quiero tal y como eres. Translate that. >3

POV: it’s not a pov anymore…

[Vent] Topic contains sexual harassment I was recently sexually harassed and drugged in the process this week on Wednesday, my closest friends were able to track and find me and since then they’ve told my family to keep me locked up for 4 days, I’ve felt so disgusted and uncomfortable in my body that I hate looking at myself even for a sec, many of those who I thought were my friends blamed me for what happened and some have even called me a whore and slut shammed me, I feel like ending it all, I hate the disgusting feeling inside of me and I don’t feel like I can be considered a “victim”…idk how I’ll be able to face reality again..it just feels so embarrassing being around people knowing what happened, it was all such a terrifying experience that I’ll never forget..thank you for listening.

To all those who sees this…. I FUCKING LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! AND DONT THINK YOUR A DISAPPOINTMENT, UR NOT!!!! By the way tysm for the likes ❤️

unfortunately I cut my hands again. it hurts. I don't know why I do this. I'm scared. I don't even know who I am.

I wanted to vent so here you go: I lived in a rather broken asian family, my dad got addicted to alcohol and my mom was just there. She was very supportive at first when i was a kid. She taught me everything basically and sometime when i do something wrong, she would yelled at me because thats how i got in line everytime. Due to my dad non stop beating me, my two sisters up, she divorced him and moved on. My dad now remarried again in Germany and have three or four kids (don't know how many). And then everything changed. i hit 18, my mom started to acted strange. She said it was for my own good, so that when i get married or have a job, peoples won't judge me. She changed a lot after my older sis got married, i still remember her crying a lot and yelled at me when i did something wrong that day. I didn't care because she was sad that my sis was gone so i keep my mouth shut and listen to everything she said. She started to ask more and more and to the point where i would cry in a separate room before continue doing what she asked. She would beat me, yelled at me and then one moment later, turn around and give me nice thing. For years, i thought she was just doing her job as a mom and that i was a brat for asking too much. But i never asked her any too much, i would alway stared at the new stuff before moving on and acted like it wasn't there or when i have spare change left, i would buy it and hide it from her. I lived on eggshells around her, like one wrong breath of air from me would make her pissed off and beat me. I was scared, hurt and genuinely lived in constant confusion. For days, i would make sure everything i do is perfect, every place was spotless, hoped that she would leave me alone. There are days she would and days she would find any mistake possible and blame me for it. Now, i'm on the verge of breaking down completely and just give up everything. She smashed my phone and my older sister didn't help me much because she take her side and all i have left is just a small hope of graduate and get the hell out of my house.

"Why am i never GOOD ENOUGH?! I DID WHAT YOU ASKED, I CLEANED THE WHOLE DAMN HOUSE, AM I NOT DOING IT RIGHT? Just tell me what i did wrong so i can get better... Or leave me alone."

You know it’s getting bad when music makes you cry

My head was a mess before listening to this, it still is but the music slayed my life! It worked for like 10 minutes of my life

I am the disappointment with the best grades in all of my classes. I am the disappointment which has clean room 24/7. I am the disappointment that always respect oldest and youngest ppl. I am the disappointment that always look after herself. I am the disappointment that always next to ppl when they need help. I am the disappointment that cleans all house after everyone else including myself. I am the disappointment that never lied to her parents. I am the disappointment that is always worser than her friends. I am the disappointment....

over the years I’ve been alive, I’ve been hiding my true emotions from the world. I always put on a smiling face, trying my best to make people happy and smile. but on the inside, I was crying. I never reached out for help, instead I just hid my emotions, I still do till this day. I feel as if I’m a burden to everyone, and if I show my true emotions I’ll be worse than a burden to people. I gained major trust issues over the years, people would always promise they would stay, and then days later, they would leave. people lie so much to me, use me, manipulate me, hurt me, etc. a quote I made up is, “You Never Realize How Lonely You Truly Are Until You Have Friends, And They All Ignore You.” that’s a quote that I will always remember, because it’s true for me, I have so many friends, yet they all seem to not care for me, and ignore me.

Everyone tells me I'm not a disappointment, but I feel like I am.

"wish I never had kids🙄" "Want me to give you a reason to cry??!" "Ungrateful to everything I give you yet you give me this!?" "Stop crying my parents (just makes it Abt themselves)" Having told these my entire. Life was told I was a accident my entire life been physically abused mentally verbally sexually yet I get shot down and made to think it was all my fault how my emotions never mattered

I've tried so fucking hard all my life to be the golden child my parents wanted me to be. I worked my ass off to get the best grades possible and be at the top of all my classes, to be loved by teachers and classmates, to be what they wanted me to be just to fulfill their dreams and be what they didn't have the chance to be but they were just never there. I took my report card at home and they would hardly throw a glance at it and give a short hum, they refused to eat, spend time or even talk with me (I haven't heard their voice for probably 10 months), they refuse to spend money on me for anything that isn't the brief necessary. I basically raised myself and my little sister alone since I was six years old...

Thanks to all the people leaving these nice compliments and comforting people on the internet like me, yall really do make my whole night when I read them to the point I cry. Thank you. :)

I feel bad for the 2.1M ppl who clicked on this. I hope you all get better and hopefully get away from these feelings of disappointment and etc.

Time lapses Alien Blues (by Vundabar) - 0:00 - 2:34 Freak (by Surf curse) - 2:34 - 4:59 Alt-j (by breezeblocks) - 4:59 - 8:47 I can't handle change (by ROAR) - 8:47 - 12:05 Unfair (by The neighborhood) 12:05 - 15:04 Black out days (speed up) (by Phantogram) - 15:04 - 18:22 Dark red (speed up) (by Steve lancy) - 18:22 - 20:53 Washing machine heart (by Mitski) - 20:53 - 23:00 Hey kids (by be the cowboy) - 23:00 - 24:09 Fallen down (slowed) (by Undertale) 24:09 - 28:56

I went through so much, I'm used to degradation, I'm the therapist friend, and when *I* snap, I'm the bad guy. It's not fair. I want to be happy when I'm praised, not scared and assuming my dad's on something. I want paragraphs on why I didn't deserve what happened to me. I wanted memories with my mom and dad when I was younger. I can't handle when people yell at me. I've drank to cure my boredom, but no. I get bored when I drink. I'm used to people leaving me. My dad isn't around, and my mom ain't the best. I'm used to being compared. I hate myself. I'm not scared to die. I go through all of that, and I rant to my friends, and all I get in return is oof. I went through all of that and yet i'm the kind friend who listens to everyone's problems. It's like my problems don't even matter. I'm alone in this busy world. I'm so lucky I have a loving girlfriend who knows what I went through, and makes me feel loved despite my flaws.

Oh I’m finally crying again..! letting it all out feels good but terrible at the same time :(:)

This playlist makes me feel I’m not ✨crazy✨

I love this playlist it helps me deal with emotions i love music. And my whole life im moving from one place to another

I need to tell you, that this playlist is so comfort and I really enjoy it

i can’t describe this feeling please help me i have very big problems with my parents i do literally everything to make them proud of me but they don’t see it and i really want to cry because of it, no matter how hard I try, I do everything wrong so that all that calms me lately is music .. but I just don’t have enough attention, understanding and support from my parents ..

I’m proud of you for waking up. I’m proud of you for brushing your hair. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for breathing. I’m proud of you for making your bed. I’m proud of you for eating. I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat. I’m proud of you for drinking water. I’m proud of you for being here. I’m proud of you for being you. I’m proud of you for smiling. I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for sitting down. I’m proud of you for defending yourself. I’m proud of you for believing in yourself. I’m proud of you for simply trying. I’m proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU. ♥

after a while coming back here feels like a burst of emotions, although to anyone reading this i hope that whatever you all are going through gets better and i wish you all the best

To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! -not mine.

To whoever sees this remember no matter how it's seems you are not a disappointment I promise no matter what it will get better please keep going ☺️

“You’re a kid, you don’t know how bad it gets when you become an adult.” I know, you don’t have to repeat it I may be just a kid but that doesn’t mean we don’t have the right to feel depressed, alone, sad, stressed, hopeless, emotional, melancholic, aggressive, unsocial, lost, confused and the list goes on. I repeat just because we’re kids doesn’t mean we can’t feel. Here’s a message for people who are going/getting over some trauma: I love you, this is all gonna pass okay? I’m here for you. I may be just a stranger on the Internet who you don’t know but. I love you I always had, take care of yourself I’m proud of you even if you’re just laying in bed, scrolling through TikTok, watching KZfaq, scrolling through KZfaq shorts, crying, screaming, sleeping, etc… I’m proud of you for still being here, alive you’ve been strong enough to still be alive, breathing, crying, laughing, feeling. Just the fact that you’re reading this comment makes me proud of you. I love you no matter what ❤