OCD: when you become so obsessed with a problem that the obsession becomes more of a problem than the actual problem

The thoughts wouldn't cause distress or anxiety IF you were really a psychopath. You are anxious because you believe that thought is horrible and would never do it.

As someone who's experienced this, it's a living hell! You can't live a normal life you're literally being tortured by your own brain and it's mentally crippling. I'm praying for anyone who's experiencing this. There IS hope I promise, I've completely recovered after seeking help. Love you and stay strong!!

I feel a lot less alone

For me it's died down, as soon as I accepted that my thoughts can never harm anyone, it calmed down.

Pure O sucks. That's what I'm dealing with and the intrusive thoughts and images really give me terrible anxiety. ugh.

I think you just explained my whole life. I never brought this up in therapy cause I'm scared of what she would think (that I'm a psychopath). Wow. Just wow.

thank you so much for this. i get physically nauseated from my intrusive thoughts

I have pure O and it sucks. I remember back as young as 8 have intrusive thoughts. It went away for a while then came back viciously as a teen. I kept it to myself because I knew it wasn’t me, I knew something was wrong but I was too scared to voice my concerns because I thought if I talked to someone they would think I was crazy. The intrusiveness eventually subsided for about 6 years. Fast forward to pregnancy and having a child. My hormones were thrown completely out of wack and once again intrusive thoughts came back and hit me like a truck. It was almost constant. It would play on my worst fears(loved ones dying, me hurting them, suicide and leaving my child motherless). Even though I 100% know none of this would ever happen the fact that the thought popped in my head made me absolutely disgusted with myself because I didn’t understand my disorder. At this point I didn’t even know wth intrusive thoughts were let alone pure O. I decided one night to get help after thoughts kept popping in my head that I should commit suicide(even though I wasn’t depressed and in no way shape or form wanted to. The thoughts were scary and dark just like all the others). I went to a therapy session. ONE SESSION that changed my life. I learned that with my disorder this process is normal, and now I know that if an intrusive thoughts happens I can just push it aside mentally. I know that others have this issue as well and it helps so much. Sorry that was extremely long I just wanted to share my story.

I'm crying in bed because it's so overwhelming to Even open up about.

Oh my God. I have this and I had no idea it was an actual thing. It's not exactly easy to google and not something you would want to discuss with someone else. So glad I subscribed!!

I had this for about a year and a half. I really considered killing myself... taking Prozac helped me IMMENSELY. Please don’t give up if you’re going through this, it will get better

This video made me cry. Ive spent 15 years thinking I was crazy for my thoughts. Thank you for relieving a 15 year stress. Now I know I need to talk to someone and there is a name for what I have.

I had this and it was HELL! It started when I was 16-17 and it was SO bad, that I tried to commit suicide : ( The thoughts didn't stop until I fell asleep and I actually needed the radio to be on the whole night so it would distract me even a little from the thoughts. They were the typical ones, sexual and very violent. I honestly believed that I had psychosis or some other. Then suddenly it stopped and I was SO happy! Until it came back when I was 19 : ( It was a little milder but still horrible. It all stopped when I was 22 years old and chose to seek help. I got meds for it and a weekly therapy session. Nowadays I still need to use meds but they help A LOT! I have other diagnosis too, like PTSD, Avoidant personality disorder, generalized anxiety disorder but honestly the OCD caused me the most problems and I'm super happy that even just that is now controlled.

Does anyone else have fear and intrusive thoughts about breaking the law and ending up in jail? I have been a super straight arrow all my life but I've been stressed and mentally tormenting myself about my accidentally or unknowingly breaking some huge law and having my life ruined. I also sometimes have other types of intrusive thoughts but the criminal one is at the forefront now. I had the violent ones real bad when I was younger. Scary thing is it's all too easy to slip back into.

My experience with pure OCD began a few months ago. It started off as general panic/anxiety attacks and then progressived into anxiety from only intrusive thoughts. I stopped driving for over a month in fear of hitting a pedestrians & I began to isolate myself from friends and refused to spend time with family in fear that I would hurt someone. I can't stand being near knives. I've searched for so many ways to get better but I have such a hard time accepting these thoughts. I find that creative writing and listening to upbeat music helps a bit. I hope to find more strategies because this is no way to live. I feel for other people suffering from this. We will all get through this. Don't give up!!!💗💗

I definitely identify with pure obsessional ocd but not with the compulsive side of washing your hands or cleaning the whole time. It really gets me when I have those horrible thoughts, it can manifest as dark demonic type of images, or memories of a video game that overwhelm and crowd my mental space, which is why I can't play video games.

Since I was 12 years old, I've had intrusive thoughts. Throughout the years they've changed. It's scary. Now it's stupid, I have to compare & repeat things in my head over and over. I really don't know what to do.

Wow I'm glad I don't feel so alone anymore, I feel understood...thank you so much for this

I have this! Took me stinkin' forever to get diagnosed because I had no idea what it was and neither did anyone else. It was hell for a long time before I was officially diagnosed at 19. But my obsessions started at 7. 12 years and no idea what was going on. I am a happy person by nature but it got to the point that I wanted to kill myself because I didn't know what I was going to do, but I was afraid to do that because I was afraid that I would be damned because of my thoughts. At 25, I no longer feel that way. Exposure therapy actually REALLY helped me! It was AWFUL at first but it really helped and am now in an amazing place where my OCD rarely affects me and I can manage it easily. Thank God!!! I hope that more people become knowledgeable about this so another little girl doesn't have to grow up thinking they're demon possessed or going to hell because they can't control their thoughts. 😫. Thanks for this video, Katie, and for raising awareness about mental illness!

for those who don't want to go to the doctor, here you go. • i constantly thought i was a psychopath • i thought i was gay • i thought i wanted to have sex with the members of my family. • i thought every human is a criminal waiting to become. and the only reason i'm not a murderer or a rapist is because i haven't been put in a situation that facilitates it. • i thought i was a racist and i hated people that didn't look like me. • i thought i didn't actually like, and didn't deserve the girl i so madly in love with, i was constantly worried about not loving her anymore and was constantly worried about harming her mentally or changing her personality or believes by force. .... of coerce none of this was true, but it felt so real. and living with that was pain on another level. please, PLEASE seek professional help, if you find yourself thinking these or worse, *YOUR DOCTOR WILL NOT JUDGE YOU* .

Thank you for this video! I suffer from Pure O, and intrusive thoughts that really plagued me a few years ago. During that time I would get thoughts about all kinds of disgusting and morally repulsive things. It was very scary, especially for my family who knew little about the subject. Thankfully we went to my doctors and he told me I was a good person, that I would never do any of these things etc and prescribed clomipramine before referring me to the community mental health team. Two weeks later I had a interview with them, who also reinforced the fact I would never do anything like said thoughts and they refereed me to a few self-help CBT sites, which really let me understand my mind better. In a way, I am glad it happened. Since doing CBT and learning more about my brain, I have found my life has changed for the better. I feel stronger and I have been told my confidence has greatly improved. Sure, its not something I am ever going to be 100% cured off, and rumination is something that I suffer with a lot too. But I feel more able to carry on with life now. I simply have a brain with is far to creative for its own good! ^_^

Great meeting you at Playlist, Kati!

I knew I was struggling with this for a while now, but this video really "set me free" in a sense. I am regularly seeing a therapist but she doesn't seem that knowledgeable about pure O in particular, and I now feel the courage start telling her about it and explain it to her. Really the worst thing is that the more you try to deny it, the worse it becomes. It's just pure hell. Just ... thanks Kati.

This was hell growing up with. I had no idea what was wrong with me until late high school/college. I'm 24 now and have a much better handle on it. 24/7 of the thoughts were unbearable at times. Thanks for shedding light on this topic. Blessings!

Lately I've been having scary thoughts & it frightens the hell out of me! It's to the point that I'm avoiding certain people, places and things. Its not fun at all and I dont wish this on people at all. Thanks Kati!

I had no idea this existed, but I think it describes me perfectly. Thank you for this video.

My pure O seems to just latch on to anything distressing that I happen to be thinking. I'll spend the entire day obsessing about multiple different bad things, especially regarding my health. It's exhausting.

I feel so weird watching this bc I'm half like "this is 100% me" But the other half is like "I wasn't even diagnosed with OCD to start with wtf" either way! thank you for your work and information

My husband has Pure O and I'm just praying and praying we get to see a therapist soon!

Yay! I've been looking forward to you making a video on intrusive thoughts for a while. Thank you for making it so easy to understand and follow as always. 💛

Thank you for doing this! I tell people I have the obsessive and intrusive thoughts that are part of OCD but no one thinks that it could be a real thing. Finally I can show them this incredible video!

I can’t even leave the house anymore without getting scared my intrusive thoughts get triggered.

Has anyone had an experience with intrusive thoughts where you start to speak them out loud when you don't want too?

You’re a queen. Making these videos so easy and clear for everyone. There’s so much misinformation in psychology today. Thank you 👍🏼

I have Pure "O" OCD. thank you for this video and for including that we actually DO have compulsions, it's just still in our heads. but yeah, we do have triggers, a WORD can remind me of a similiar word that exists as a part of my intrusive thoughts. I had times when I couldn't really listen to music, read books or watch tv shows, lol. Love the video though!

Finding this video saved my life. I thought I was crazy and a bad person until I realized that I have this, thank you 💖

I feel like this is me. But I’m too afraid to say how bad my thoughts are because they are so graphic. Whenever I get these thoughts I try to pray so I can “balance” out the bad thought or stop it. It doesn’t work usually. The thought just gets worse. I’ve never been diagnosed but I feel like I have OCD. I also stress out about events that I know never occurred. Like “what if I just told that lady she is ugly and fat”. Even though I know I didn’t say that I stress about it.

Kati yay!!! I'm so glad you're talking about Pure O OCD. I talk about it so much because so many people need to hear it. I'm glad you're able to reach so many people with this information!!

i think i probably just watched a video with the potential to change my life. ive been im treatment trying to deal with anxiety panic disorder self harm depression etc for 8 years and little to none improvement because I still have these "intrusive thoughts" all the fucking time and nothing makes them go away. for the past months I've been reading about ocd and thinking that could be it but I don't have compulsions so it didn't quite fit. the thing is, I never brought up this obsessive thoughts in therapy or to my doctor cause they are extremely grafic embarrassing chocking and weird and I don't feel ready to talk about them. maybe the time has come. I have never heard about pure o in my life (I'm from Brazil, maybe this is not well know around here? I had five therapists and six psychiatrists in the last 8 years and nobody mentioned it) but I'll certainly keep looking into researches and stuff like this and eventually talk about it in therapy. thank you, kati, I thank you profusely. keep spreading knowledge!!

Kati, I’ve been stressing bc I’ve been thinking I’m a narcissist for about 2 years. I have empathy, I have hurt people very close to me, like I was controlling to someone in my family at a young age and an old friend. I was also in some bad relationships and rn have insecurities. I am good at listening and I’m good at empathizing. I just over think and obsess over small things and beat myself up when I think I’m being selfish. I’ll neglect myself just to help ppl sometimes bc I think helping me is slfish. That’s another thing is when I act as a therapist to people, they usually seem to feel heard and understood and feel like I give them some pure useful advice. I’m just struggling bc I read all day about narcissism. Find what traits I can relate to and then start freaking out and thinking I’m a narcissist and will almost mimic the traits in my head. I once read narcissists think they’re perfect and I was always told by a close person when I was younger “you think your just so perfect sonny” and I’d feel like shit bc I don’t want to think that. So an intrusive thought I’ll have is “you think your perfect” and I’ll think “I’m not perfect” and I’ll get anxiety and think “I’m perfect” then “NO NO NO IM NOT PERFECT” then I’ll beat myself up bc I’m not being fair to others thinking that, and i think I’m really being dillusional about being perfect when really the dellusion is what I think I believe........ FUCK that was a lot for you to read if you read this

Pure O can be a real bitch to root out, because there's nothing you can do to break the compulsion physically, you have to break the chain of thinking, and describing horrifying or embarrassing stuff to a therapist can be really difficult. And the obsessions are often dug in deep and use all the mind's own resources to try and stop...the mind!...from healing itself. But it can be done.

Woo, great to see this video! I also raise awareness for OCD on my channel - and keen to see other people do the same. I can also recommend Kat from Shalom Aleichem as a channel with loads of resources on Pure O. :) The term "Pure O" is a fallacy though, they do have compulsions (I hate it when people call it Pure O, because the compulsions are mental and can be treated in the same way..)

Pure O is terrible and so scary, mine are philosophical instructive thoughts. I’ve Sally’s tumbled upon some philosophical videos and topics and I of course did more research out of fear which made it even worse. The thoughts come and stay for a while I’ve had one stay for almost 4 months until another came on. I luckily have great friends who have helped me through eh tough times and am so grateful I found videos about how to cope and how others have struggled. If you are dealing with these thoughts I’m sure reassurance hardly works but please know you ARE real and you WILL be okay and WILL overcome this.

I was having intrusive thoughts as young as elementary school, it's literal hell. I'm so glad I learned about this!

Thank you for making this! I've dealt with this type of OCD in the past. In my own experience, I've found that the book 'Brain Lock' by Jeffrey Schwartz really helped me learn how to break the cognitive cycle that fuels the obsession. Despite the name 'Pure O,' it's important to identify the cognitive compulsions and to work on eliminating them. Examples include obsessively seeking reassurance, mental checks, going out of your way to prevent yourself from acting on impulse, etc. The more you do these, the worse the obsessions get! A good mantra to remember is that thoughts are not reality.

Thanks for this...it definitely helps create conciousness around the realities of what it really means to struggle with OCD. The more we speak about it the better others around us can be educated.

Thank you so so so much for making this, I really needed it. This helped me a lot and gave me hope

I'm seeking help for this. I'm scared shitless. But my best friend convinced me to go to a psychiatrist and seek help. I'm going to do this before it's too late...

I was diagnosed with pure O OCD which is pretty stressful, but hey, once you're diagnosed treatment can begin

Hey Kati, you did super well explaining Pure O. Good job!

Great video, Kati! Thank you so much!

I've struggled to explain this to so many people. Thank you, I've been dealing with this since I was a kid and have never had the words to properly define what was going on in my head.

We all think mental health should be destigmatize but we all struggle to talk about our own issues. This is my experience: I initially had regular ocd, it's always been very secret for me, noone would notice unless I told them. Lately it got almost pure O, my ruminations got worse and worse. It's terrible, sometimes I think I can't get through this, that there's no way out and that my life will never be normal/happy. If you're going through the same thing please seek help and don't be ashamed of yourself for who you are. You are not alone.

Your approach of explaining is very simple and easy to understand. Thank you Kati

you just described the EXACT way ive been feeling the last two weeks. the ontario covid lockdown got extended to 6 weeks and it triggered a lot of anxiety that led to intrusive thoughts. i convinced myself i was going insane and labelled myself every mental illness in the dsm until i found this. I'm currently waiting to see the doctor this week and hopefully get a referral to a psychiatrist too. my mom has ocpd but i resonate so much with pure o OCD. i feel so much better knowing im not insane and that there is hope. im looking forward to doing CT and getting medicated. THANK YOU SO MUCH

I have pure o. Does anyone else see "floaters" and have a ringing in their ears every now and then?

Wow I just self diagnosed myself and I’ve never had anything describe my thoughts more accurately in my life. I’m gonna start therapy ASAP

Thank you so much Katie. I have been going through this for a while now and had really no idea what it was. This video has been so helpful and informative. I really love your channel it's been a lifesaver! ❤️

ive had pure o since i was 10 years old! i understood everything that you are saying! well said, thank you for informing the world about mental illnesses

Jesus. I always wondered why I got these types of thoughts. There’s OCD in my family and they have different compulsions from what I suffer from. I thought I was just fucked up in the head. Thank you so much, this brings me a bit more peace.

I’ve never heard of this and been following you for a long time. My psych told me she suspects OCD. I didn’t understand so I started digging for internal OCD. This was the first video that came up. Thanks again Kati. I kind of wish this had a different name because OCD research is dominated by the compulsive side of things and it just presents so differently like cptsd and ptsd

thank you so much for this video Kati! having more information out there about OCD/Pure O that challenges the stereotypical assumptions of what the disorder is makes me feel such relief. thank you for all your work. posi vibes from Scotland ^^

I just flat out adore you. You phrase everything as I would if I were a psychiatrist.

I thought this was a normal way of thinking like my whole life..... glad to know I'm not the only one dealing with this.

I have been regularly sitting for hours trying to fix things in my head, trying to obtain some sort of mental closure each time a new realisation comes into my head. Is this a strong sign of OCD?

YAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally they also just mentioned this type of OCD in the news last night in New Zealand! Thank you so much! This has plagued me for so much of my life and still continues to plague me today!

Saving this to send to people who, when I say I’ve been diagnosed, say “but your place isn’t always tidy” 🤦🏼‍♀️

I have one small comment Kati. ERP is definitely necessary for Pure O, just as necessary as for OCD with physical compulsions. I'd argue ERP is more effective than CBT for OCD, all types of OCD. In my experience alone, ERP helped my Pure O tremendously, in conjunction with CBT. But CBT alone does not help Pure O as much as CBT with ERP. Pure O is really the same thing as OCD with physical compulsions, and needs the same treatment. Pure O may be harder to treat to therapists without experience with it, but with a therapist experienced with Pure O can treat it effectively with ERP. It's about finding those mental compulsions and refraining from those, since people with Pure O DO have compulsions, they're just internal. Other than that, thank you for talking about such an important topic! :)

expose yourself to the situations which fears you of, stay there and don't do anything, don't even judge, don't even ruminate.. feel the fear... do this for few times and over the time u feel it is just an unwanted thought... this is how I cured.. I had an intrusive thought of jumping off the building and fear of loosing mind.. for over 6 months.. this is how I cleared

Your hair looks incredible. Love it. ❤

This is the most enlightening thing I have seen. My entire life I have had this "fear" or "urge" to throw myself out of moving cars. Just what if I would unbuckle my belt and open the door on the highway? WHY? WHY WOULD I DO THAT? It scares the hell out of me. Or in the shower...what if I pushed my razor down on my leg and scraped my skin off? I am not a self harmer. I don't want to hurt myself. But my brain has these horrible intrusive thoughts ALL THE TIME. It usually isn't directed at other people, but they are SO SCARY. And now this. THIS VIDEO. I was planning on looking for a new therapist after we moved in a few weeks bc my depression and anxiety are getting bad again, and I will definitely be showing him/her this. THANK YOU.

Thank you @KatiMorton for explaining Pure O! As a sufferer, I had a therapist who did not know how to help me with my sexually violent thoughts. That was 5 yrs ago. Now I have a great therapist who understands me:) My question to you: Why aren't some therapists knowledgeable about this subtype of OCD?

i've been struggling with this for so long i forgot how to feel normal

Your videos are a life saviour! THANK YOU 🙏

Wow... so this is what has been torturing me all my life. Very informative, thank you. 💌

Invite the thoughts and feelings in, break the cycle! taking me years but its worth the hard the work.

Jesus, I just thought I was becoming a monster, I just need therapy and medicine 🤣 thank you so much

youre really great kati!

Great video, thanks for discussing this topic Kati!

Love your hair here it frames your face nicely

Actually, I believe ERP has in recent years surpassed CBT and has proven itself to be the most effective treatment for this condition. ACT seems to be used quite often as an adjunct to ERP.

I suffer from schizophrenia but find myself with this type of mindset many times as it seems to kick in as a self defense mechanism especially when outdoors. I noticed one way to make the conflicting positive thoughts win out over the negative ones is by looking at people's faces directly which helps me to snap out of the negative fantasy thinking as i all of sudden see them as people and tell myself that was some foolish negative thinking. Thanks for the always excellent videos Kati Morton :D

Finally a pure o vid from you.

I have had these thoughts for years, It's highly distressing but you learn to live with it. It's incredibly interesting to watch this video though, It's nice to know there is a diagnosis for this. I was always told they were just 'intrusive thoughts'. Every time I have one I have to tell myself it's an 'intrusive thought' and it helps it go away. I don't know if this is normal but they tend to stay the same for a while then I'll get a new one? It sounds ridiculous but I struggle to hold a hot drink around people out of fear I'll chuck it in their face. I then have to abandon my hot drink because of the worry i'll lob it over someone. (I have many different 'thoughts' and it's embarrassing to share them because some of them are so horrific but It's reassuring to know other people have them too.)

I relate to a lot of this. I probably don’t even have pure o but, since April, I had terrible sexual thoughts and I hated myself for it and even thought if suicide. It sort of calmed down but, I still get intrusive thoughts from time to time and recently, I’ve always found myself thinking about near death situations that have a 5% chance of happening and start to panic for one second before calming myself down and realizing none of the thoughts are real, get thoughts about my loved ones dying or me accidentally killing them. I’m not really ashamed of the thoughts about death but, I’m more ashamed about the sexual intrusive thoughts. I might talk to my school therapist tomorrow though.

THANK YOU FOR RECORDING IN 60fps!! 😻

This is so eye opening. Thank you.

I feel fearless today!! And won't let the mindless bring me down!! : D

You look so beautiful and I love your hair so much 😍

Thanks Kati for another wonderfully informative video. I had no idea something like Pure O even existed. xoxo

I didn’t know this was a valid thing! I feel relieved. I was diagnosed with OCD by 2 different psychiatrists and was on medication but I never fully resonated with my diagnosis if only for the compulsion part. I felt like was doing OCD wrong. It’s good to know that you can have OCD without the C.

I suffered with this my whole life along with general anxiety and depression. They’re all beasts. Ugh. It’s funny for so long I thought I just had obsessions but then I realized that I have a ton of mental compulsions too. My OCD is almost entirely about perfectionism with myself and my experiences. I obsess about interactions with people, stressful things at work, if some part of my body isn’t perfect. It’s awful. I’ve been off meds for 5 years, have many coping mechanisms and therapy has helped a lot but it’s hard. It’s also hard for me to do ERP because of these hArder to see mental compulsions. I wish OCD specialists were covered in my insurance plan but they’re not so I can’t see an ERP specialist. 😭

I’ve begun the process of writing a book on my experience with Pure O. It’ll likely be called “Oh god, I think I might be gay!” My intrusive thoughts are based unfortunately in pretty violent thoughts as well as the frequent fear that I may be gay when I know I’m not sexually attracted to men. I’d love to collaborate with you on the book, Kati! Perhaps quite you on occasion throughout the book!

thank you for this ! i've had pure o for a long time but only got properly diagnosed in the last 5 or so years .. good to hear this being talked about openly :)

Stay strong guys ❤

For me personally Pure OCD feels like you are in court everyday you are the prosecuter, the lawyer on both sides, you are the jury, the judge, the audience, and your own witness. It feels like everyday I need to battle myself in court and argue "evidence"(thoughts memories sometimes false memories) as to why I am not a rapist, a murderer, a pedophile, and so on.. Memories are the worst because since you can not remeber specifically every detail it is so easy for your mind to change the memory I always use this example when I try to explain this (I hope it makes sense)🙏. "You are an adult 20s or so and you get a memory, you remeber you went to the park when you were 6 and you were playing and suddenly saw a butterfly. You go and grab the butterfly but at the early age of 6 you didn't know that if you touch a butterfly to hard it could die , this memory suddenly comes to you and a voice inside your head (the OCD) says "oh YOU killed that butterfly" "YOU wanted to" "YOU probably liked it" "Are YOU sure YOUR not a murder" "what if that was an early sighn you are messed up" " end of story. So in conclusion at some point you can't even trust your memories you will now forever remeber and organize that memory as "evidence" that you are a "BAD PERSON". Now for the reality you are not you didnt know you were 6 for crying out loud there alot of memories, actions, and things that people do by accident. Sometimes the way you grew up what you knew what you didn't know. What I learned is present you can not judge past you. YOU ARE NOT THE SAME PERSON YOU WERE LAST YEAR LAST MONTH LAST WEEK EVEN. Everyday you learn something new maybe you didn't know something was wrong that ok well now you do. Thats it. Thats were one should stop. But....its not that easy you have to keep reminding yourself everything a new piece of "evidence" shows up of what logic lies behind it. The shame guilt and PANIC behind every thought is real it really truly does feel like you did something horrible unspeakable. When in reality it is the furthest thing you could possibly do. For me it feels like OCD or Pure OCD is just a different version of a phobia. It takes what you consider to be the worst person on this planet (aka a murder, pedo, rapist...) and then you become so scared to become them that you start to look for any signs in memories thoughts actions that could indicate you might be this horrible person. The thought I consistently get is "what is I am a horrible human being and I just don't know it?" I know it makes no sense its just a fear I have and I become obsessed with looking to see if I can find any evidence to back up that fear. Its a horrible court game played every day. When in reality I actually wouldn't hurt a fly. I think for me personally it stems from the want to always be perfect and to always be a goody tooshoes. I think maybe for me personally I am so afraid of doing anything bad or making a mistake that now I am just looking for things to punish myself for not being perfect all the time. I actually love children and was a tutor for a long time i have always been great with children so for me doing any harm to them would be my worst fear😰. I know I would never in a million years do ANYTHING. Yet I can not help but be scared and torment myself. Anyway that was a long rant I am sorry. Please be kind to others because sometimes I just want to roll up into little ball.

Is it possible for my intrusive thoughts to be focused on metacognition? Is that maybe even the nature of these thoughts and I’m misunderstanding? I don’t know if that makes sense, sorry lol. Like I’ll be experiencing intrusive thoughts, and then I’ll end up cycling back around to “my thoughts are going so fast and I️ can’t control them” and I’ll keep returning to this terrible feeling that I️ am basically not the author of my thoughts at all which is kind of horrifying to me.

I did NOT know there was a name for these intrusive thoughts! Today is the first time I've heard of Pure O. This helps me understand myself better!

I love this! This has helped me so much. Thankyou !