*Timestamps* 0:00 How to fix a vase (wormtutorial) 0:21 Part of me is still waiting (Regular show) 0:36 I'm not gonna cry 0:44 Special people (Bluey S01E43 x September by Sparky deathcap) 1:02 That summer (The Fault in Our Stars) 1:18 Never see each other again (Thor) 1:42 Let's go back to the other room (The Stanley parable sideshow) 2:36 Fox (Zoomania) 2:58 And I messed that up too (She-Ra) 3:25 This line between life and death (Grey's Anatomy) 4:14 Made a total fool out of me (Dhar mann) 4:25 Play both sides (Tokyo ghoul) 4:42 You never came (Avatar The Last Airbender) 4:51 My creator my mother (Genshin impact) 5:02 All I ever wanted (American horror story) 5:08 I don't like anything about me (BoJack Horseman) 5:19 The other woman (Corpse bride) 5:30 Okay 5:42 Kinda miss him (Harley Quinn x Young by Vacations) 5:50 Unacceptable (The Florida project) 5:56 You're being mean (Little women) 6:05 Given enough (Luckiest Girl Alive x Gilded Lily) 6:14 Not your fault (BoJack Horseman) 6:31 Whose fault is it? (Audiobook Solitare by Alice Oseman x Cry by Cigarettes After Sex)

That summer audio has always made me so sad, I’m so scared of losing people

OMG STANLEY PARABLE OMG IM SO HAPPEY

I hate both of my parents i feel like they never care about me, they scold at me at everytime i make a mistake. I mean... I di not mean too.... I try to not to be so clumy but i can't lm making a fool outa me. I have this voice in my head saying " lm really gonna leave them if i grow up" but my inner child can't just leave them.. bc i have spend my life with them, i just can't understand why they don't get me.

1:42 NOOOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STANLEY GO BACK NOOO 😭😭😭😭 NOOOOO

2:36 hit hard thoo 😭

4:51 that made me cry so damn hard... Its true my mom betrayed me and acts like she's the victim

I never know how to speak properly directly, i dont know how to express myself, but i miss the people i have lost.

them: "sophie was demented and ABUSIVE!" me: "yeah.. i kind miss her"

Thank you so much for including a Stanley parable audio

Tw! Vent, SH, suicidal thoughts! My older sister never really cared for me, if she did, she never showed it. All I did was exist and she shunned me out of her life like I was some sort of disease. Whenever she cried, I would try to comfort her, and she would push me away and yell, and I understand she was upset at the time, but being only 4 when that started, it really hurt. When she was happy, I tried to be happy with her, and ask her if she wanted to do anything that day or wanted me to get her anything from the shops, and her mood would then drop and she’d get irritated that I even spoke to her, she’d roll her eyes and say “No, now go away, I have stuff to do.” What’s worse was when she got her boyfriend and started inviting him over, I’d try and make conversation (even though I was quite shy and very isolated at the time) and all she would do was give me nasty look and brush over it like I never said anything or it didn’t even matter. Like I had said something wrong. I never existed to her, but when she did notice me, I was a bother, a burden. As time passed, I learned to give up on the hope that she’d one day change and want to get along with me, and she never did. Now she’s moved out and we barley speak now. I don’t have any other sibling to talk to and I rarely ever see my cousins. I don’t have anyone else to confide in. When I was 9, I began to have thoughts of SH and su!c!d£ but I didn’t come to her, or my parents, because I was “Too young to feel that way.” So, by age 11, I completely dropped the idea that she or my parents would ever listen or think that there was something up with me. At age 12, I SH for the first time and it didn’t go unnoticed: I brushed it off and said it was my subconscious scratching (something I do as a stim of sorts) and even after my parents tried to find out more, because they thought I did it for attention, my sister still never cared. They never found out, luckily. Now, she has a younger friend who she treats like a proper younger sibling. Why does her friend get that and I don’t? She was always capable of change, but never did it for me, I was never worth the time or effort, the only times she ever showed be she ‘loved me’ was when my parents where contemplating divorcing and we went to her room and watched a show. After that, she left me, completely. I never reached out because I was always busy, by then, I turned off my emotions to stop the hurting. And now, she still barley speaks to me, and when she does, it’s family calls with grandparents or just our parents. The worst part though, is that my parents are still fighting, nearly every other day, and not getting a divorce, and there’s no one else in the house to talk to besides my teddy bears. I’d just prefer if they’d get a divorce and remain friends rather than staying together and trying to work out what’s already gone to shit. My sister never bothered to ask how I was doing, even when I asked her. During this time, I had lost my childhood best friend of 10 years because she thought I was being mean to her, even though I was just talking to other people that weren’t her, and had no real ‘best friend’ to rely on. My only other option was talking to people a year or two younger than me, and now I treat them like my children, like how parents should take care of their kids, and I’ve grown stupidly attached and all because I never got any of that care, and I’m luckily still in contact with a few of them. And now, I’ve resorted to just leaving myself in my room and overloading myself with work to stop all the thoughts going through my head, and because of my craving for academic validation. I never received any validation from the one I required it from the most: my sister. The person who I was meant to look up to, and find comfort in. I never got that. Thank you so much if you got this far, and I just want you to know that you’re loved, appreciated and if you need any comfort, I’m here, a stranger who is willing to listen. I love you and I hope you know that my lovely

Warning: su!cid3 mention (towards the end) I haven't felt the same since the last day of middle school. The only people I've actually seen and talked to was my parents and my therapist. I haven't even made a full on conversation with my best friend in almost two weeks, and it's been depressing me, because they're the one person who's actually been helping me, it's not only from me venting to them but their presence has made me feel happy, but I barely talk to any of my friends anymore, only one person out of all my best friends that I actually talk to. And yes, I would start conversations but I don't usually start conversations and when I do send someone a message, they usually don't message me back for an hour or more, the longest was about a day. I just really wish someone irl I know and close to could just.. look at me, give me a big hug, and say that they know I'm not ok.. but nobody does that, someone did say that but.. idk.. I feel sad, it's not the sad some people would think. It's kinda like being numb on the inside, stronger at the core, but the numbness is weaker to the outer layers. Right now I have a best friend who is having su!cid@l ideations, they told me that they wouldn't try, because I was there and some other people. But I know, I KNOW for a fact that it could change, especially if someone has been through so much pain that they don't even care who it is, because of the pain someone would've endured, and I just don't know.. I don't know what to do or say for them. I just feel miserable. What a wonderful starting for summer break. If someone read this, thank you so much for reading and tbh I'm going to be surprised, due to this being so long P.S. 0:01 really did hit hard, it's hard to describe how it felt hearing it

DUDE I WAS CRYING AT THE BLUEY PART MAN- 😭😭😭

2:59 ENTRAPTA NOOO MY HEARTTT :(

STOPPP THE LOKI AND THOR ONE KILLED ME- 😭 (SO DID THE NICK WYLDE ONE)

my friend resiliently killed himself and i had no one trough this and i still have no one and it hurts cause when i want to know where his grave is i get nothing at all i miss him but what can i do

My friends keep leaving me with no explanation, no matter how many times I try to change myself so they’re happy they always leave for someone else

0:21 means so much

thank you!! i say this to the playlist creator for giving me voiceover audios ^^

NOT STANLEY PARABLE ZEN ENDING STOP STOP STOP STOP GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD

MY JAW DROPPED AT THE THOR AND LOKI ONE 😰

PLEASE STOP ANYTHING BUT THE STANLEY PARABLE AUDIO NOOOOOO IM SOBBING WHYYYYYY

Nice.

YOU DID NOT JUST PUT ZENDING ON HERE I'M CRYING

I love my parents but sometimes they just find ways to just mess up my happiness but at the same time they also make my smile but also the things they say just messes me up i don't like it i want to not remember everything they say cause sometimes they just hit me hard also not only that but they yell at my for my "additude" but ig i just can't see it or control it i wish i was someone better than me...

I never realized how much family makes me cry. For both positive and mostly negative things. I keep seeing these things as I get older, and it makes me cry more to think about leaving them no contact. I want to express my feelings and have tried, but end up nearly crying and walking away because I’m scared of denial or being hurtful to them. My parents pushing me religiously doesn’t make it any better. I DO want to connect with god but I know I don’t have the time and patience. But thats not a good excuse for my parents. I’m now only starting to make connections and relationship with one of my older brothers, but he gets influenced by my other brother who shames me for my appearance and likings. Now school is my only escape from my home.

My friend.. she is still so pretty after those years that were tough I get jealous of her she is more skinny doesn’t need makeup for looking good I want to be her but I can’t I’m to far ugly for her…🙂👍

0:21 hits hard

I always feel like my friends hate me, or just they would be better off without me. Every time I spend time with them it's like I ruin the moment and whenever I'm away, they're happy as can be. Im getting so many mixed signals, they say they love me, but I can't help but feel like they hate me. Why do I feel like this. They give me attention, they say they love me, they even support me. Why don't I believe them? I should, but I won't.. I have so many questions for myself I don't know how to answer.

0:44 this is me now talking to 2nd grade me

I dont know if im my mom's fav anymore. She said she loves me more but whenever i do something small, she would scream and scold and then compare me to others..

Ive been feeling so empty lately idk what this is but it feels like I’m missing smt deep inside of my heart and it’s getting worse idk how to stop this idk what it is I js feel like I’m not good enough and I’ll never b able to do anything right

When i hear this audio makes me know how much i endure my oain in me every time and i try to keep my feelings away so taht i dont wnt people to worry i want to help people but idk why j dont want ithers to help me idk anymore i cant think normally anymore and i just want to have a break down if i do talk about my problems sometimes my friend would make fun of ut sometimes and then feel bad i just put a smile to hide how much pain i hold in I know everyone has painful life just like me but i cant control who i am from feeling insecure anxious selfharmfull have suicidal thoughts pressure i try my vest to help people but i believe im ganna have a breakdown one day

im not gonna cry

I hate crying I hate crying so much…. But oh I love it. I love it I love it so much. I never want to stop crying. It just feels good to cry sometimes. Why am I like this?

my hand hurts

I Just…. Remembered my First Friend and She…. was always by my side… and She’s Gone And im Afraid she is Dead… And i think Its My fault…😢

0:44 🗣️:Sometimes, special people come into our lives, stay for a bit, then they have to go… Me:But that’s sad…! 🗣️:It is…But the bit that they *were* here was happy, wasn’t it? Me:yeah…..We spent halloween together and made our own aus! 🗣️:maybe that makes it all worth it…

Getting as loud as I want but I still can't be heard 😊

do your sobbing like this cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

I don't have any parents who abuse me (mentally or physically) but for some reason I feel like I don't belong with them. I have this voice just telling that they don't love me or care about me. School is whatever, I mean there are people who make fun of me and my friend, but I am an overthinker so I don't take slightly hurtful things easily or like a joke. My dad has a girlfriend I hated her the moment I laid eyes on her and yet 1 year later he asks "Why do you not like her, you guys would hang out all the time" and I just wanted to ask him if he knows what faking is so bad since he would not let this go. He would not let me not like her. Is it bad to not like someone? I am so confused by his words. The older I get the more I think about my past trying to figure what had made my parents break up. I keep asking them and they say it's just fighting. But I know it wasn't if it was I don't think my dad would cheat multiple times, make my mom do all his dirty work, force her to do a job, and try to run over her foot when she was talking to him about something outside the car window. I feel like if this relationship had gone further it would've gotten abusive. I sometimes have su!c!dal thoughts and think about hurting myself I had tried but I couldn't. I don't like this world in any way and I am only under 15. I've tried telling my friends but this one girl did not give a sh!t she contiued her day like it was nothing.

First day of school.. I finally feel like Im not Real..

TW: self harm For most of my childhood my peers saw me as strange and weird, I never had real friends and those who I thought loved me just wanted to hurt me, sure I have a good family life but due to how I was treated in elementary school, I always felt like I was worthless. A few months ago my parents found out about my sexuality, they are pretty homophobic and well they lectured me about it, I guess that was my breaking point because I saw a pair of keys on my nightstand and well you can imagine what I did next. I hid it for a while my mom saw them tho and asked about it, I just said it was the dog and I think her teeth were just to sharp, later in school I started to notice things about my classmates, I noticed that they weren't in good health, I try and stay away from talking about mental health, due to my own issues, but my friends are texting to me about their problems, and what their going through, and I just don't want them to suffer, I know they come to me because I can be very understanding, but I don't know if I can do it anymore. I feel like my emotions are irrelevant because others look up to me, and its not like I can ask for help about it because my parents still see the happy and frilly little girl I was years ago, but im not but at the same time I don't want to let anyone down. Im more mature for my age, my parents and my teachers tell me this, but I don't want to be someone like that because I'm the one who helps people, I'm the one who gives others advice, who gives a shoulder to cry on, but where's that person for me? I always feel like I'm being selfish for saying I want someone to help me but at the same time isn't what I'm being for others? if anyone has advice for me, please tell me? Also I need a way to tell my parents I need therapy can someone help try to explain why I need it?

my dad is telling everyone about my youtube. I can’t say anymore that my oc is a self insert because now _everyone_ will know.

What happened to the other video?

Im sorry that u had to go threw that im the older sibling im 17 while my brother is 13 i never really got along with him and i acted kinda like that,thats bc i never really got the love and care that my mom and dad gave him when we were little i feel awful when i tell him the things that i was told even though there not true for him and now we have a little sister and im trying to be a good sister but i feel like its to late i get mad a lot and my mom only stated to talk to me more after my sister was born and my dad only started to care more cuz he's getting married to another women they havent said nothing to me in years and i never even saw them a lot when i was a kid they just took my brother and left me home by myself the expectation they have on me bc im older i should know better when i look at my friends and see how nice they are to all their siblings makes me feel bad for mine ive been doing self h since i was 11 my mom found out but just got mad at me then never did anything about it then she keeps telling my doctors that ive been going threw a lot since there divorce but its never been bc of that it kind hard to explain but im sorry i keep rambling i hope things get better for u i really do

I love eating eggs.. 🥚 but now I have no more eggs, because I ate them all.. 🙁

i dont know why

I want my mommy

4:51 NOT SCARRYMOUCHEE

i noticed that 6:14 is labeled "it’s not your fault" and the 6:31 says "Whose fault is it?"

I hate her I hate her But I care But I love her

Tw: porn grooming self harm fetishes!!!! I was just a child with internet access what could possibly go wrong? I mean other than the furry weight gain comic vore etc! Yay! Off to a great start. When I was 10 I had discord, I trolled as a furry saw one and got their discord. Some months later I was in a group chat! With others who watched porn and said they were teens! Atleast I think… but this one “trans” girl named burn I trusted them and they never showed their face but I did! It was weird I already felt wrong watching pornography that was introduced to me from the group! Yay I leaned self harm etc. I tried cutting myself but all was left was like cat scratches. *i tried* and it haunts me still. It’s not right. Whenever I explain to another furry when they ask why I hate furries it’s “live leak” or “the past” it’s not fair. I don’t wanna know who the real me is anymore because of furries….. (some other shit I’m to sad/tired to type)