I dont think I’m depressed, I just feel these extremely intense moments at times when I feel like a huge weight of despair is just crushing my chest and I don’t know how to make it through it. It feels awful and videos like this where I feel like you are truly here with me make me slowly feel better. Thank you Sarah

I feel like I've been so stuck in my own depression and anxiety for years. Tonight I had my breaking point, I was having a hard time giving myself reasons to live. I desperately wanted to feel better, but couldn't bring myself to. It's currently 5:29am in the morning and I still haven't slept. I thought listening to ASMR could perhaps help me sleep, I had no idea there was ASMR for depression. You made me cry with your kind words and encouragement. I can't thank you enough, I didn't know I needed to hear all this until now. I overthink about the future all the time, and the quote " What's yours will find you" spoke volumes to me in so many ways. Thank you Sarah again, you really helped me in such a dark time in my life when I felt so defeated. Edit: it’s been about 10 months and I can say I’m in a much better place, thank you for everyone’s kind words.

I was an extreme anxiety sufferer in the past and I can attest to what Sarah is saying here: things really can get better. I don't have daily panic attacks any more, and they were so severe it led to something called depersonalization/derealization. But I had to put in a lot of work and patience into it. Some months it felt like I only got 2% better, or worse. And yet each year I noticed tangible progress. I'm dumbfounded that I am now, more or less, anxiety free, because there was one point in my life I thought I was certainly doomed for good. Anyways, good luck to you all 👍

The soft look in your eyes just makes me feel like the whole world is ok ❤❤❤

Hi guys 💜 I decided to make this video because my anxiety relief video seemed to help a lot of people and I wanted to make one for those dealing with depression. I hope it's able to bring you even a little bit of comfort. I know it's a really hard time for many people around the world but just know that I'm here and I care and so do so many people in this amazing community. 💜 If you're curious to learn about other techniques I've learned from therapy, check out my video on anxiety relief! → kzfaq.info/get/bejne/rrKZgdt0utvFgKM.html Please note that I am NOT a mental health professional and if you find yourself in a mental health emergency, please contact your local suicide crisis number. → en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines

You just verbalized everything that I’ve been feeling for a while now. Hearing it makes it a lot easier to manage and recognizing when things start getting dark. THANK YOU!!!

As someone that crys every night and can't sleep because of it. This video is gift from heaven. Thank you so much. Your an angel

“There is nothing wrong with you.” God I wish I could have that on repeat 24/7

I’m autistic and haven’t slept/slept well the past couple of weeks and today I scared my little, 11 year old dog because he wouldn’t stop barking at me and ngl I want to hurt myself a little. I’m not, because I genuinely don’t want to. I don’t think I’m going to watch the whole video rn because I’m so sleep deprived I need something to just knock me out rn. I appreciate you and every other ASMRist who do these types of videos. People should strive to be this kind to others, especially to those with mental illness and are neurodivergent.

I feel like I'm only pretending to be happy during my days. I distract myself and I'm happy for a while but then something happens, often related to a member of my household, and I'm right back where I started. ASMR has never really worked for me in the past but this was wonderful. Hearing all of the affirmations helped, I often forget to say nice things to myself. This video helped me relax a lot so thank you Sarah.

Absolutely broke down at "There will come a day where you are wholeheartedly glad that you're alive." For some reason the concept of just enjoying life and being happy about it has genuinely been unfathomable to me for years but hearing it from someone with such a seemingly incredible understanding of state of mind and who has actually dealt with similar conditions makes it feel achievable. Cannot thank you enough for this video.

I always find videos like these really comforting because of what is said but also because seeing all the likes and views makes me realize that I’m not alone in this. Also, to whoever needs this right now, Please take care of yourself, you deserve it even if you don’t think you do You’re real and you matter

Thank god we have internet and people like Sarah who are just benevolent whithout asking anything in return :) facing myself with severe anxiety, those videos have helped me in a way I never it could !

I'm in a bad place, my depressive episodes go on for short or long periods of time, it's been over a month now. I've pushed everyone away, even my tharpist. It seems to be pathetic to feel some type of reassurance from someone online, but it's helped me get through this. I seriously appreciate you so much. I'm trying my best to get through this

You posted this exactly as I was having a pretty bad episode of gut wrenching anxiety and unbearable sadness... 10 minutes in and I'm starting to calm down, thank you for this. I'm really thankful for all of you ASMRtists, you're the best possible palliative ❤

I've been in a super dark place. I'm diagnosed with treatment resistant depression. Meds help but it's been diminishing returns. I have a wonderful therapist and I'm incredibly fortunate to have an amazing support network. Still, the past six months has been a scary descent into new extremes in my ideation. Real life circumstances have precipitated the decline, as well as a culminating effect of life's challenges constantly overwhelming me for decades. All this just to say that watching this video really brought me out of a place of despair and rumination. Your sweet, genuine manner feels so authentic and it's clear that you're speaking from a place of personal experience. No cheap cliches, no overly easy solutions, just a compassionate and knowing warmth. I hope you take such good care of yourself as you express here. And if I ever win the lotto, I'd offer you a high paying job following me around rescuing me from despair haha, just name your terms. 😆 Really though, without imposing, I would love to pick your brain to learn more about your journey with mental health and wellness. You have the aire of someone who's come to a place of hard-earned contentment, serenity even. Welp, sorry for the novel haha. I've just been really impressed by this and I'd love to learn more/share some of my story with you and your channel. My deep gratitude to you; be well ❤

I’m here because Ive conquered ptsd after a horrible trauma (loss of loved one to suicide) and my life has been wonderful … but I just just diagnosed with a life altering and terrifying illness and I just needed help relaxing so I can get my strength up for the fight ahead. To everyone here who is sad, my heart goes out to you. Please know that people do care and life can be mind bendingly beautiful. The pain and sadness doesn’t last forever, I promise. ❤️

You are a literal angel. I have been struggling with medical issues for the past 3 1/2 months and getting depressed from it a lot. I have lost my appetite completely and suffer with nausea everyday. It has kept me out of work and unfortunately the process of figuring out what is wrong seems like it will never end. I felt incredibly alone last night and watched this and got so much comfort. I was able to dry my tears and drift off to sleep peacefully. I don’t know if you truly understand how meaningful this is to some of us random people in the world, but, from the bottom of my heart thank you for helping me through a very tough night ❤️

After 3 yrs I'm still trying to confront/understand my dad's passing. We loved decorating and dressing up for Halloween so this month has brought some bitter sweet memories to the surface. After listening to 5 or 6 songs that helped bring the pain and grief to the surface so I don't just cram it down and hide it. I found ur video and I feel a little better thank u for being such a calming and welcoming presence❤

I know it’s unlikely anybody will see this but this video was incredibly healing for me, when she talked about forgiving yourself and about depression I was crying but in a good way, and I’m not somebody who cries a lot. The video inspired me to reach out for help and to also appreciate the people I love and what I have. I just want to thank you for making this video as you made me feel understood through a screen like nobody else ever has, thank you so much.

You have such a calming presence that it makes it so easy to trust you. It makes me feel able to fully relax and feel supported by you, especially when facing my own vulnerability can be exhausting! Thank you for being so down to earth and just being yourself. It makes all the difference ❤

why is this video more comforting than anyone in my life is to me

Sarah, you have no idea how much this has helped me. I'm going through a really horrible depressive episode after simultaneously going through a breakup and the end of a toxic friendship at once. I'm struggling so much and this video (amongst your other ones) has made me feel so much less alone. You are a light in the darkness for me right now. Thank you thank you thank you.

老實說，這段影片拯救了我好幾次，每一次憂鬱症發作的時刻，都會固定點開來看

I don’t think I’m depressed. I’m just tired of being alone. Sometimes I feel like a failure bc things haven’t turned out the way I thought they would and I don’t know what path to take to fix it.

i listen to this whenever my depressions really bad & it honestly helps a lot, thanks

As someone who suffers from depression and anxiety I have to say this is one of the best of these type of videos. She seems to actually know some stuff about depression unlike some of the other videos I’ve seen. I don’t want to be too dramatic and say this saved my life but I’ve been having serious suicidal thoughts, up to the point where I was planning how to do it and how I’d say goodbye to the people in my life and this video definitely helped me feel better at least for a moment.

Protect this lady at all cost. Your compassion, care and most of all your honesty in this video is beyond ASMR. Its Life saving. God bless you 💙✨

My dad just passed...so I appreciate this video. It helps.

Calming, creative, compassionate. Everything to soothe an over-active or sad brain! I feel more ready for the day now.

I don’t know what to tell you. I came in here looking for some comfort to get me through the night and send me to sleep faster in order not to deal with my depressive thoughts. But I’m listening and actually being affected by your kind words. This is extremely helpful. Thank you so much❤️

18:13 oh my godd. This made me ball my eyes out 😩😩😭😭 so on point with how i've been feeling 🎯 i just needed to hear some1 to tell me to continue forward

I remember a year ago watching this video on christmas because i was experiencing the worst depression i had ever felt, and it helped me so much. now its gonna be almost a year since my depression started, and i still come back to this video. thank you so much :o)

This could not have showed up at a better time. Thank you Sarah, your presence and overall demeanor are extremely well suited to the world of ASMR. You’ve effortlessly climbed up the ladder of my favorite ASMRtists.

vuelvo a este vídeo en mis peores momentos para sentirme acompañado y valorado, forma parte de un pequeño refugio que construí con algunas de mis películas y álbumes favoritos. espero que nunca se borre de internet. gracias por tu trabajo.

I've been so down lately. This is exactly what I needed. Thank you.

Something that's helped me with overthinking is to literally say "Stop." Either in my head or out loud. It puts a wedge in my thinking and gives me a breather. If one doesn't do it then say it again. Eventually your brain gets the message and stops the overthinking and lets you relax a bit.

Hi Sarah! You can't even imagine how glad I am to know your channel or better, that your channel exists. You are so caring and intelligent, I am always impressed about your knowledge and wisdom about spirituality and psychology. I am nearly 30 and I suffered my whole life from really bad depression, anxiety and panic attacks. With 25 I started therapy, meditation, Kung Fu and Yoga and I am so grateful about what I learned. It helped me to overcome most of my suffering and when I am having a bad time again, you always remind me about things that helped me overcome this bad times, which I often forget. I am happy to see that the same things I learned has helped other people aswell and I am more than grateful, that you are so brave to share these treasures with others. Thank you so much and please always take care of you

When I heard your kind words it felt like I had at least one person to help melt the iceberg around my heart even by a little. Its nice to know that someone can feel the same as me where I feel like nothing will get better, I hope it does though. Not gonna lie my heart felt like it would burst from the emotions i felt listening to this and I wanted to say thank you! Maybe there is still a reason why im still here, hopefully I'll find it.

Hard to put into words just how important and needed this video in particular is for me, as is your channel as a whole. You’ll touch countless lives with your positivity, compassion and love and you should be ever so proud of what you’ve done and continue to do Sarah. It’s priceless. Thank you 🙏

I'm feeling sad and stressed every night and it keeps me from sleeping, tysm for this video, it helped me a lot

It's not easy for me to be open and vulnerable but here it goes. I've battled with depression for most of my life. When I was young, I really didn't have much of a grasp or understanding of reality or where I fit in with the world. I've never felt comfortable in my own skin. And every time I've put my feet on the ground and made a decision to be who I truly am, I've often felt like it's never enough for the people around me, and so I became never enough for myself. I turned to self destruction, turned to drugs and alcohol, turned to more substance abuse and isolation during the pandemic. Running away from my problems, running away from myself. Being pulled down by the weight of my depression that had become so comfortable, but never stopped hurting. Lately I've been experiencing somewhat of a spiritual awakening. Last year I experienced a horrific car accident that almost took my life at a time where I all but wished that it had. I didn't want to take my own life, but I didn't care if I got taken out either. I survived, and I truly believe I was given a second chance at life. I truly believe that the universe has a way of stepping in to put us into situations that guide us down the paths that we are meant to be on, when we find ourselves going down the wrong ones. Meditation and awareness have been wonderful blessings for me on my journey. Therapy has been life changing. And so has asmr. I'm still struggling through intense ptsd from the accident, I face fear and anxiety every single day. I don't know where this path takes me from here, but I keep searching for a reason to get up and keep going and keep staying and find my place amongst the stars. I was reluctant to try asmr at first, not sure how I'd feel about it. But I'm so grateful for it. This particular style of genuine care and loving kindness is so amazing and healing. I'm just sitting here balling my eyes out from the "what's yours will find you" quote. The face brushing is my absolute favorite. To have a place where I can be safe to heal and be seen and find my peace means more to me that I can say. Thank you so much for this.

Thanks Sarah for this video. My depression seems to be all consuming. I don't really have anyone to talk to about it, but because it involves a certain loss, you comfort me. I feel you are sincere and care.

Thank you! I've struggled with depression and anxiety for a long time but the last year has been especially hard. One of the hardest things is going to sleep. Before I would scroll my phone or watch youtube videos 'till my eyes would forcibly shut and I guess that was just a way of distracting myself from all the worries and anxiety. Listening/watching to your videos has really made me feel a bit better and helped with my sleep deprivation so again, Thank you so soo much!☺

I have been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder for a long time, but today I got diagnosed with clinical depression and PTSD, and tonight I fell into the worst panic attack I've had since I started medication in January. I desperately needed this video tonight, thank you so much. I was terrified and now I'm going to be able to sleep. You saved me tonight. Thank you. 💜

I lost my mom almost 2 months ago and it’s been extremely tough. I’m starting college again after 4 years and just got a part time job after 2 years. Sadly depression has been my best friend since I was like 5 😞💔😭

idk how you made my tea exactly how I wanted. It's 2 years later. Thank you for helping me to feel better.

Can’t even make this up! I haven’t been able to watch the full video because I keep falling asleep, it’s like magic! I’ve attempted to watch this 6 times and it puts me to sleep so quickly. Thank you, I’ve been needing this rest! You cure my insomnia haha xxx

Your literally an angel! I’ve been sad and depressed for 5 years and This just saved me a lot. I love you❤️

All techniques were essential for what I was feeling. Every minute, I was seeing the depression melting away. Especially the candle technique, which helped me to focus more and feel that I am in control of my mind. Thanks for helping us Sarah.

Thank you for this video. When you spoke about the comfort of being depressed, and how one almost doesn't want to feel better, I was floored. You hit the nail on the head. Hearing those words out of someone else's mouth (other than my own,) hit me like a sledgehammer. I'm not completely alone. And that in itself is a hell of a thing. Thank you.

hi i just want to say that this video made me cry. i have been severely depressed for years and wake up with a crushing feeling everyday, these past months have been my worst, and today i finally thought there was nothing left to do i felt hopeless, and alone but this video made me feel like i wasn’t alone. so thank you

Sarah.. I keep coming back to this video. This is so therapeutic and helpful. I was having a breakdown down today and instantly remembered this video. I’ve always felt better at the end. Thank you beyond words.

Oh my god, i never cried for someone's sweet words but here i am. I just feel so relieved to hear everything i always wanted others to tell me, thank you so, so much My heart feels incredibly full

Wow, I genuinely almost never see anyone on KZfaq have such an understanding of mental health, much less ocd. I've had severe ocd for years and it's made aspects of my life feel ruined just because of how sticky these intrusive thoughts become. Thank you for your empathy and understanding, it means so much to me and many others like me with this horrible illness. I feel less alone now ❤️

Everyday i feel like i have to be smiling but i want to be sad but noone lets me none of my friends even appreciates my smile thank you sarah you helped me a lot

I am not the type of guy to comment on a video usually but I really want to thank you Sarah for this video. I'm in that college phase of life and I feel like although I've been successful in the past it was empty. I don't know what I want to do with my life and I don't have much motivation to even get out of bed. People like you keep me sane and it warms my heart to know that you and others really do care out there. Wishing everyone else well, I hope you all stay safe!

I have been depressed and anxiety for long time. I'm so glad I found this. Thank you for making this. Keep up the good work. Ps I love your videos ❤️❤️❤️

I'm at the turning point in depression where I'm recognising thought patterns and kind of understand myself a bit more, Depression can make things seem very narrow minded and negative/bitter, for me it's the rumination that makes me blow things out of proportion because my perception is very different to those around me, I'm trying to get better, I'm trying to be patient and gentle with myself and to do better for those that I love and to do better for my mental health. It's a journey, and one I'm learning to navigate and improve with. Videos like these help ground me, they make me feel calmer and more ready to approach those thoughts with understanding so I can let them go and open my mind up to the beautiful things in this world, the happy things, the positive things. Thank you, and to anyone going through a similar point, you're doing really well, you should be proud of yourself, the first step is understanding, and then from there its learning to love yourself and have patience so you can be your best for yourself and to finally open up to the ones you love too.

I was basically rejected by my own parents yesterday for my religious beliefs, I was told I was worthless and that they were done with me, and this had made me feel so much better already. It in fact gave me a craving for some hot tea 🥰

A Collab with you and Ozley ASMR would truly be fantastic.

I’m in a rough mental state right now and these videos are helping me so so much ❤ Thank you Sarah!

Never done anything like this, But I’m the typical gym bro, who studied science and used to think everything needed a rational explanation to be tried and tested. I’m glad 🙂 I’m not like that anymore and more open minded to different forms of healing because my body and spirit is radiating with energy after this moment, I have no anxiety and your voice completely calmed me down to start the day. From an honest person without a doubt everything I used to think didn’t work, was everything I actually wanted and needed ❤️

Im fairly certain im actually depressed. Not just long moments of sadness. Its constant now. I have no energy for anything, i just put on a front for everyone because they wouldnt take me seriously anyway. My mom just says its all in my head, that its just a mindset and that i can control my mind. I cant. Its all too much. Theres so many things i want to do, but i cant. I live out in the middle of nowhere, i cant drive, i only work two days a week, no one nearby is accepting my applications. Recently lifes been ok, but i still cant get out of it. I feel so meaningless. But what can i do? Nothing. Just hope my mom will muster up enough energy to give a shit about me and not be mad at me for once so she can take me for driving lessons.

I loved this so much, thank you Sarah. :) My depression has been bad for a few years now and after therapy and seven different medications failed to bring relief, I just started TMS treatment. Hoping for a happier future. Love from me to you and to everyone here in the comments section, I wish you all peace and happiness.

I am rewatching this video every night, you make me feel safe sarah, thankyou so much💖🥺

You seem like the friend who would bring you soup and flowers when you’re sick and loves coffee shops and good books❤

I've been using ASMR as a meditative coping skill. I'm Bipolar 2, Anxiety, and I get suicidal in my depression phase. I came across your videos about a month ago and they are now a regular part of my mental health management. I love that you make ASMR videos for people like me. Sometimes I don't even realize how bad I get. I call it "The Darkness". Your videos are wonderful and really help me

I have RLS, it is the devil. It’s hard to get comfortable and sleep. I feel Weak, sad and anxious a lot. Thanks for providing comfort for people like me. You are, by far, my favorite ASMR artist. ❤️

I know I'm really late to comment on this but whatever. Hey Sarah, Thank you *So* much for this video. I know this is just a single video you have posted but this one video means the world to me. This happened to be the ASMR video that started me up in a community I have grown to love and trust. ( The Sarah Lavender Community and other ASMR communities alike! ) Thank you for making such heartfelt, and loving work for us, You've gotten me out of some really dark times simply by recording these videos for us, *thank you*. Thank you for it all, Sarah. Logging off from coming back to the first ASMR video I ever got to watch, Marlena ❤‍🩹.

Best ASMR that I saw until now. Very professional!

There are no word I can use to explain what I am going through right now. Thank you so much for this wonderful video. You have provided me with a relief I havent felt in months. Thank you for helping me ground myself.

was listening to you while it was snowing outside, most relaxed ive been in awhile

i’m currently recovering right now and i’ve never needed something more than ever. i adore your style of asmr

I couldn’t tell between the lines of depression or going insane, I’m at a point where when I take a shower I talk out loud to the people I use to love and aren’t here to say hey from time to time, and it’s reached my sleep schedule recently and I’ve been trying my best to not lose myself in my own dark times.

Thank you so much, I can’t explain how much this has helped me. I’ve been going through the worst couple of months and having someone just being there for me comforting me made me feel a lot better. That quote aswell that you told “what’s yours will find you” spoke to me, I appreciate you for helping me through this terrible 4am night

Thank you for this video. I slept in my car last night, and this video was just the thing I needed to listen to this morning. Much appreciated

I've been having really bad gender dysphoria lately, and I'm homeschooled with strict parents, so I don't have any friends who I can come out to without being hurt. These videos are my only way to have someone care for me and comfort me. It's nice to feel like there's someone there for me, even if they aren't really there. You mentioned almost everything I have been struggling to do without my motivation. Thank you so much.

You are so Beautiful and so nurturing it almost made me cry . Just with how lacking love and nurturance has been my whole life . And so many people dont have it and truly need it. These videos your doing are so healing and so important to a lot of people . You are a special soul. 😘❤️

I actually fell asleep watching this for maybe 5 minutes in the middle of it and that's a win for me. I have so much happening right now in life. I'm working through the worst of it now so sleep on top of it is terrible for me. But this actually gave me a sense of comfort for a split second so thank you for that.

Hello! Your videos have really helped me calm down when I had bad depressive episodes I appreciate how kind and down to earth you are.❤

I love the amount of care and love that she puts into these videos. She makes me feel so calm and loved and safe when I’m feeling very anxious and depressed. I almost cried a few times while watching this video but I feel so much better. Thank you so much for making this

these comments are breaking my heart. wishing you all the best, sending so much love ❤

Hi! I just wanna say that this video was so amazing to listen to, I recently had to stop therapy bc of moving away and really needed a refresher from hearing kind empowering words like this. But I also want to say that I do have some tips for those who struggle with OCD and the anxiety that comes with it. I was at a debilitating point with my mental health not too long ago, I thought I would never be "normal" again and that I would never be able to live comfortably. I started getting really into mindfulness and listening to the signs your body gives you, also learning to heal your inner self by telling yourself what you need to hear. So an example was how I had developed agoraphobia due to my OCD, I would be consumed by scary intrusive thoughts and panic anytime I went outside or saw other people. I repeat one of my helpful mantras the second I feel this panic, "uncomfortable does not mean unsafe" followed by "you are doing amazing. you are so wonderful". Finding outlits for your nervous energy also can be so beneficial, I find carrying a fidget cube helps as I can focus my energy and concentrate on something other than my anxiety. Breathwork can also be useful! These are all strategies that can be combined into helping yourself during times of distress. But always remember that what you need can be different from what works for others, don't be discouraged by this. Trial and error until you get to your happy place. No one gets there in a single day, even if they make it seem easy. You aren't doing anything wrong by having a bumpy road to recovery. It will get better.

Snuggled up in bed with a tea ☕️ + this video= PURE BLISS 🙌🏼

Hi Sarah, thank you so much for the video. Dealing with depression with each small task is a great way to conquer that mountain, small step by small step. x

you just saved me from spiraling down a deep, deep dark hole that i was scared i wouldn’t be getting out of. thank you so much.

Ive been crying for 30 min and I just wanted someone to talk to so Im watching this video, thank you

You always know exactly what content to put out there ❤️ Also my hair is getting a little long so I know another haircut video is coming soon 😂 Bless you and happy new year 🍾

I just need to thank you for all you have done, I rewatched this video several times until I fall asleep whenever I got bad brain days. you make it bearable. I feel much calmer now

Thank you, Sarah for this video. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression all my life then a couple weeks ago my mum passed away and i’ve been finding it very hard to cope. I’m up in the middle of the night filled with anxiety and sadness but this video helped so much. You said all the things i needed to hear. Thank you x

This video is an OASIS for me.

I feel you would be an amazing therapist. Sincerely.

Thank you! it did help me relax :)

Literally so, so thankful I found this video and look forward to checking out your channel. I can’t even describe how much I needed this 💕 thank you

Thank you for still doing these - they're pocket-sized miracles-on-demand ❤️

I'm so amotion lol I crying because I saw a monkey drop somethjng get worried and play the piano to make up for it he was so cute 😭😭😭😭

I didn’t think I’d feel any peace tonight, but this video gave me a safe space and 40 minutes of a quiet mind so thank you ❤️

Its been 2 years since this video was posted but im still going to share my experience. I dont have depression, at least not diagnosed, but my guidance counselor said i have many depression symptoms due to grief, trauma, and guilt from my friend's tragic passing. I find myself having mood swings and when its not mood swings, its constant numbness. Theres this constant overshadowing hint of sadness that makes it hard to actually enjoy life. This week has ben particularly rough. Thank you for making this two years ago💕

This is so calming and exactly what I needed tonight. Thank you so much for another amazing video ❤️