Poor guy

We all experience this. Pls hit the gym it does help. The shadow realm. Is coming soon enough. Be the best version of you for now.

Improve your diet drink more water go for a nap. After that for a walk.

Same lol😆

Do something physical, work or go to a gym. Move your muscles and don’t dwell on your thoughts. You are creating your thoughts and emotions. Just observe your thoughts and don’t attach any danger to them.

classic hedgehog dilemma

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Hell is other people 😊

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No emoji, my mouth is agape...WOW. I think i feel this. An eternal life force that animates without any benevolence or malvolence, a cathode effect(if you will). Ether of non agency...Thomas Ligotti vibes...

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You know, it is more common to see people who, after their first disappointment in love, no longer want to live, because they no longer want to feel the pain of "feeling." It hurts more to have tasted and then lost the sweet taste of life than to never have tasted it, since in the second case you can still imagine how wonderful its flavor must be and not feel the disappointment. There is a reason why we are happier when we are children.

I bet he hated his mother.

why? @@Em-mr6wu

@@lovethyneibor22736 Because this very wise thinker in the youtube comments said so. Also a psichiatrist, able to determine someones trauma only through a phrase.

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I'm pretty sure Cioran had good relationships with his parents despite his philosophical views about birth and life @@repolhoazulado1028

That’s exactly how I describe the state I’m in, I don’t want to kill myself but I don’t want to exist anymore. I’m not suicidal, I don’t dare to do such a thing but most importantly, I care way too much of the effect that would have on my children if I were to do it. sometimes I wish I could just give up and nobody would be affected by it. Ultimately, Im more grateful I have reasons to exist. My kids existence has saved my life more than they will ever know

@@gmack. hitchhiking, busking (street musician in case you're unfamiliar with the term) for cash. It would be more appropriate to say "no savings" instead of "no money" in general. I only acquired money when I needed it.

How long and where'd you go? I had a similar journey and fell in love with all that travel. This is a phase of life that can bear tremendously rich fruit.

Youre an Alchemist. You are stronger than 99% of the rest. Just AMAZING!!!!

@@geekvinos down to Florida once and then back and forth across the US a few times. But I spent most of my time traveling up and down the west coast. I was on the road for about 2 years. It was the longest 2 years of my life in a good way.

I literally stood up and clapped. This is genius 👏

@@sebastianelytron8450 It's witty, but not genius. Genius is realizing that no physical body has experienced nothingness, so they could not genuinely market the experience.

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Pls explain the difference 😭

I'd rather feel than not, I'd rather breathe than not, I'd rather grow slowly if not at all, when i die I'll wither, not feel, rot. Find something.

The book Ecclesiastes it's quite nihilistic, so I think that guy had a bias for a topic like this.

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Reason to not have children, Islam wants world domination anyhow.

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​@@lovethyneibor22736Islam has no issue subjugating females, Catholics are against contraception, they seek power control and spawn large families. That's population creation. While plenty of westerners prefer to not to exist in poverty or be bothered with the mess and drag kids into it, religious people will still be here making babies for their cause.

agree

Wanting to avoid suffering leads me to thoughts of death.

Nietzsche argued that humans do not avoid suffering, but seek it

“…joy is only a symptom of the feeling of attained power…one does not strive for joy…joy accompanies.”

@@lucre113it seems many women do .

@willcross5512 I started smoking weed at 17 but it got out of control from 22-27. Made a lot of bad decisions and got behind in life. I was born and raised in the hood and feel ashamed that I haven’t been able to get out. Gang violence all around. I’m 5’10 but last year got way over weight. I blew up to 250 lbs. In a short amount of time. I’m now 190 but I have stretch marks all over. Everywhere. The ones on my stomach hurt me the most because even if I ever get back into shape, get all cut and lean then I’ll still have these ugly stretch marks on my abs. Not to mention everywhere else. I can’t even look at my arms or thighs without getting depressed and anxious because I can’t help but to be reminded about the mistake I made of gaining so much weight. I feel so unattractive. I know it’s vain but still. Before I felt like I could get any women in the world even if it wasn’t true. I guess you can say I’m a pretty handsome guy but now I feel hideous since I’m out of shape and have stretch marks everywhere. Im broke as shit. In huge debt with high interest rates. No car. Live with my parents but my dad hates me. Siblings not too fond of me anymore either. My mom, idk, she’s my mom but I know it’s not like before anymore. I have periodontal disease because I failed to take care of my oral health during the last 5 years of going off the rails smoking every day and eating like shit. Idk man I know I still have a lot to be grateful for and I listen to and read lots of motivational inspirational things but I’m just so ashamed of who I am and what I’ve become. It’s so embarrassing. I use to be an athlete. Lean. Responsible. But I just got out of control with the drugs and partying and haven’t amounted to anything so far. I have a bachelors. But haven’t really done shit with it. I’m going to be 28 at the end of the year and just feel like a fucking loser. Thank you for your insight though. It means a lot. You have definitely been through the ringer. I just feel like I’ve fucked myself up way too much at this point. It’s like I’ve said game over because I’m no longer physically attractive. The stretch marks really traumatized me and I fear never recovering from that. In all honestly that’s what bugs me the most and I know it’s pathetic. I’m balding a bit too. But nothing too crazy yet. But yeah I feel I threw my 20s away and my looks are gone too cus my skin is all fucked up.

@@scoobydooby6180the only way is up my brother. We all start somewhere, its time to start. For better or for worse. Make a change. You will thank yourself later, trust me. Work out, get fresh air, read. Who cares what anybody thinks…I know it sounds cliche but its very true. This change will be for you and only you. Head up chest out one day at a time. You’ve got this, I believe in you.

How is that being kind to yourself? It’s the equivalent of sending flowers to your own funeral attendees. Nice and all, but not really for you.

@@Vapourwear I do things that are kind to myself such as not drinking alcohol, respecting myself, spending time in nature, prioritizing sleep, etc. Doing things that will benefit others and the planet helps me because it adds meaning to my life .

@@higherlove8886 That is called conscious evolution.Your are breaking free from your "little-big me" identification and expanding and including all around : others, animals, plants ...

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​@@higherlove8886this is great! It really makes a difference for others! I try as well. Even just smiling at people especially those who need it (homeless, or look angry, etc) I think the best thing for us all is to adopt veganism. Think of the holocaust that happens every minute to innocent animals. We could stop that! And the byproduct would be feeling much nicer towards each other, knowing we aren't responsible for such harm to conscious creatures. And think of how many trees we could plant then! Like 80%of land use is for farming animals. All that land could become forest and homes for many wild animals! People often just feel better in this diet too! The only downside is being aware and trying to convince others it's a worthy endeavor. It can be depressing how people treat you for just wanting less suffering to happen to innocent animals (we are often the most hated people in the planet). Still, I will never stop advocating because I truly believe it the next step in our awakening! On a different note, I also think having a creative pursuit is highly important. It's the opposite of self destructive! I paint, do photography, and play music just for myself. They make me much happier!

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sounds like a morbid joke lol

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Well how else are you going to rebuild it after it burns down?

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proof?

@@JohnSmith-fo5cx Jesus H. Christ, proof of an eternal consciousness that permeates all things and is all? What a pillock. Go and read every religious text ever written. That's your PROOF. What an idiotic comment.

@@JohnSmith-fo5cxbruh, are you serious? Source: he made it up

yes, this might well be

@@JohnSmith-fo5cx You can’t disprove a negative claim regarding metaphysics. People who lean on materialist science for some reason don’t disregard all of science in physics because science can’t prove that there was nothing before the Big Bang. But I would suggest watching some of philosopher Bernardo Kastrups videos/discussions here on YT. He makes logical arguments for the world being mental instead of actual physical stuff.

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Interesting thought I haven’t ever quite thought “how about I jump” but I’ve always been petrified of heights and especially standing near balconies or railings because I’ve always had a weird feeling of not being able to trust myself to not slip off/have a weird urge to get closer to the ledge and lean my body over and fall to my death the closer I am to them and or if I touch a rail or balcony rail I start to get stressed and feel like either I’m going to get pushed over by someone or do it to myself and my body completely takes control over everything while my brain is stuck thinking wtf dont jump idiot? lol so I just avoid being anywhere near them now

I've experienced this. My boyfriend at the time had the keys to give him access to the roof of his 16 storey apartment building since he was on the board. We went up there to enjoy the views and he got on his stomach and lay near the edge to briefly look down at the street below. He asked if I was ok with laying next to him. I refused to go near the edge. I told him I would find a way to jump or roll off the edge if I stood that close. The urge was strong for some reason. My life was and still is great. Have good family, friends and relationship. I'm happy, financially doing well, enjoy my job, never had depression. Yet...I have that curiosity of what will happen next? Dr. Edith Eva Eger's story described surviving the Holocaust due to her drive to live through curiosity. Wondering what was still in store for her life. For me, this curiosity is sometimes linked to the opposite. More about knowing so much about this life and wondering what comes after it.

I think you can expand on this as a natural Human drive we have. We are self destructive by nature if you look at Humans as a whole. A specific "group" of people will oftentimes bring Humanity down as a whole in the aims to increase the standing of their "group" over others. The best example would be either of the World Wars and some of the worst results, nuclear armament. By all intents and purposes self destruction is the most likely future of Humanity unless we can overcome what at least seems to be in our very nature. Edit: This comment was before I watched the video btw

@@Jackmonkey66666hghinnv Same here and a few others I know. I thought originally that it was a latent feeling from when we were tree dwellers jumping tree to tree as I am drawn to the edge but also fear it. Just going to the roof of a tall building provokes all sorts of contradictory feelings and impulses. Had an office on the 22nd floor. Kept the blinds closed almost always. To see another person on the top of another building doing some maintenance without a tether was too much. Old pictures of people working in perilous conditions on skyscrapers with little or no safety precautions taken is too much to look at and it gets worse with age. I would be paralyzed in certain situations.

We don’t need ur children

Correct why bring in new life when the world is garbage anyway, humanity had it’s time and we failed.

@@TheRealZombieWizardsaying we failed implies that that there was a way of not failing or a ‘right’ way to exist. Life is not an assignment, there’s no failing

To desire the absence of suffering is to desire the destruction of all things, everything is connected through a bond of both suffering of the soul and elation of the soul. Even if you wish to deny the world, the world will never deny you. Your flesh and bones will return to nothingness , the cycle, sure. But the universe is always moving , changing therefore if we bring that to its absolute conclusion you will still contribute to "suffering" by simply being, you WILL always come back and be *something* after all, so it makes no difference. But you harp to much on this side of the coin, life and death the natural and unatural, thanatos and Eros are something you must acquire in balance. Together. If you are weighed down by one side or the other, it will only perpeuate a cycle that continues to affect *you* (the royal YOU) even after your death, placing you into a cycle for eons you might not even be aware of. So to chose the future of humanity is only natural. And the future is something you cannot disassociate from.

​@@Paradox1012If your parents wouldn't have had you then you wouldn't be you. Sure your energy would have become something else but it would not be you. So when people decide not to have children they are still sparring them the pointless suffering.

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Same here

Reminds me of my theory that heaven and hell exist in the last moments of life

@@nothanks9503wonder if that results from whether one has a good conscience or a bad conscience 🤔

@@alextomlinson yeah like final moment when you look back at your life will you think to yourself “I did good” or “I could have done better”

@@nothanks9503 Everyone can do better I suppose. It's probably whether you did good or bad. Maybe the subjective ego goes away and you're left to confront who you really are objectively with out any defences. No repression, no amnesia, no justifications, no dissociation.

@@alextomlinson Yeah I mean you don’t need the defense strategies anymore if you’re dying

My first step Was accepting that I am not the first person to go through this And they made it So why can't I

Good luck with your struggles, and know that you aren't alone. Being able to express yourself, to yourself, or other people is a great help.

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I'm with you! We struggle collectively, we must acknowledge that. But dont worry, this is just the cocoon state of metamorphosis.. darkness incubates growth of the soul! You will transcend!

How are you doing?

Sorry

I feel the exact same way. I really never enjoyed life much tbh. But these days, I absolutely hate it. Nothing in this world brings me any happiness anymore

@@oldmanhendo7183 Same here ! How do you get going?

@@lobiaking8318 I’m trying lately just to really get into some of my hobbies. It’s the only thing that at least brings me a little excitement

I watched a movie about a virus and was more disturbed by it than being in hospital because of covid, having lung inflammation and problems breathing. There was a dead body on the floor next to bathroom, people seemed to be mad at the guy for being dead. Nurses were smoking 🚬 in some room on the floor (Eastern Europe).We would close window because it was cold, they would open it every time. They gave me wrong medication, i didn't care. It was so silly.

It's not so much abandonment for me, as much it's disappointment. To be disappointed, to disappoint others. Alone, I can only be disappointed in myself. I can deal with that.

I feel both of you. I avoided relationships alot as a kid for fear of hurting them and being hurt. I prefer to be by myself alot but if people have similar interests I can tolerate being around them but not for a long time.

@@NIL0S yes !! That too! My fears of abandonment actually begin with Disappointment… My negative core beliefs are: -I’m a disappointment -Disappointment leads to being abandoned, either emotionally or physically. So, Eventually I will disappoint a person in my life that I’ve attached to. I’m not a clingy attachment style, I’m mostly an anxious and somewhat avoidant attachment style, so in play it cool but inside the fear of loss is equivalent to fear of death almost. And that disappointment will make them like/love me less (emotionally abandoning me) and then leave me one day. So now I isolate myself to just avoid all that inevitable pain.. but on the conscious level, I know all of that is not true and that the real danger is my isolation but my subconscious and core beliefs have hijacked the drivers seat, driving us over the cliffs thinking it’s keeping me safe lol and im trying to regain some control

I think your introspection is laudable, and is many steps past lying on a couch with someone asking about your mother. What you said here affirms what I've thought for many years.

​@@minkorrhBeing in therapy and self acceptance are not necessarily mutually exclusive. It depends whether the motivation is self loathing or self care.

I don't think love--even self love--is something good in and of itself. There are many things about each of us that we ought to hate. I can't for the life of me understand how you could possibly have complete self-love and not be victim of complacency. The minute you have only self love and have shed all self hatred is the minute that you actually are dead. I don't want anyone to die, but I don't see why you would have nothing but self love and then have any motivation to do anything but sit there and rot. Without acknowledging your deficiencies, there can be no motivation for improvement--or becoming more than what you are. If you're not becoming more--improving, then how can you possibly be in a state of enjoying who you are--who you are to become? There cannot be self love without self hatred--not because hatred makes you appreciate love, but instead because you're limiting the potential of who you might become.

@@NicholasRees-ic8jx I personally believe unconditional, gracious love is a much healthier motivator. I certainly wouldn’t hate my child for their shortcomings. That doesn’t mean I don’t acknowledge their shortcomings and immaturity, I do. Same for myself. But with, patience, kindness and acceptance of the present condition. Self Love doesn’t motivate me to go into denial or complacency, it motivates me to keep growing and have some joy during the process. ✌️

@@WorkingMan1177 Why would your child have a desire to change if you didn't express your dissatisfaction with their behavior? I'm not saying that you got to beat your child for doing something wrong--far from it. However, I see no reason to express love for something that you clearly have disgust for. If you see a shortcoming, then that is literally something that you do not like--and it ought to be expressed. That's not unconditional love--far from it. As I see it, the idea of unconditional love is nonsensical and inherently self-refuting, and I don't see how you're doing anything except asserting that self love is a greater motivator. Wishing something to be true does not make it true.

I'll tell you one thing. Life is much better rich

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@@lorenzog7811 Yes, if the rich are a psychopath. I personally won't be able to bare the weight of guilt, knowing I exploit, scam, and manipulate people to get rich. Probably will down in alcoholism.

@@daddy6757 ill take the money thanks. This world is a shit hole might as well enjoy it with money. Without it youre nothing but a slave. Not my fault "God" made it this horrible way

Ah there is a reason Roger Waters, freely and fearlessly express his opinion.

Rose colored glasses……

I look into systemic corruption and psychology every day. It's certainly baffling how many people have their heads buried in the sand ignoring atrocities or People that buy happiness with random consumerism. People are isolated and don't trust in each other. But we are physical beings, not some consciousness separate from everything. Our emotions dictate our logic just as our logic dictates emotions. Sometimes all I see is a burning fire that is our world's past and future. It's hard to even coax myself to do anything. Yet even with all the pain in the world, when I'm working with community, taking care of myself mentally and physically ECT I find life worth living. I don't believe in a god. But I still think the miracle of life is worth trying to preserve. Life doesn't have meaning and we're slaves to our condition. But that doesn't mean we can't make our own meanings and try to be more conscious and do what we can

100% feel that.

​@@RayneNikolevery valid points

🙏 thnx for sharing 👍

Does the book also give advice on how to get over it and start actually living life? Thanks. 💙

TRUE!!! 👏

Rule of Boring seems to apply to this world lmao

Me too I guess. I suppose it is also a topic of taboo. Telling someone that you would prefer to not exist often often raises concerns with people. They try to convince you that there is so much to live for.

It is actually fear of death. Everyone is anxious about their own certain death. They flee it, in to everyday banality, where one is to busy to be concerned. Death is a basic transcendental structure of your Being, humans are the only creatures in the universe that knows some day they must die. Wishing for it is a bit more structurally consistent than covering it up. But your thrown in to feeling the way you do, a throwness you can not get before. So accept your structured condition and choose from the way you feel it, don’t try to flee from it.

The public thinks it will never die. The language we share reflects this fleeing of death. So thinking about death, which involves the use of language is often an aversion of it. Feel your own death and within that mood choose what life you want to live.

I love the quotation marks with successful 😄👍

How interesting.

Biology actually is a kind of simulation or game, everything is interconnected through relationship of life and death..Ouroboros, preservation of life, chaos is a human perception. A story, game woven in cosmic entertainment industry

I do not want to die all the time but there is a part of me that enjoys flirting with disaster. In putting myself in dangerous situations, throwing caution to the wind and saying '"f it", there is something truly badass and exhilarating about it. I've come close to death a few times and in those final seconds before either death or miracle, I felt a strange sense of calm and a kind of acceptance. That being said, I do have a slight fear of death at other times but this could relate more to the "unknown" aspect of it.

Damn, thats ruff.. yall need help, life is not that hard..

​​@@lancerussell755You don't get it bro, it's also not that rewarding. Life = snore. Not to mention the fact that you have no idea what other people have been through. Your privilege is showing.

@@bobbydigital8056 Everyone alive is privileged

@@lancerussell755Maybe yours isn’t. Congrats.

@@bobbydigital8056It’s no use explaining something to someone who can’t see.

it's understandable ,I'm also going through the same thing......But then you've made it this far ,Somehow ,someway your still here ......I also don't want death/pain but then I get to make myself relive the pain ,but we're still here ,still living ,and maybe that's enough.

@@dionkhoboka6455 Word bro. I do believe it's a necessary struggle to find our way back. If you're a metaphysical thinker like myself, then we are meant to have this raw material experience in survival mode. Cursed with the potential to feel every ugly thing that happens. But there's light on the other side, that's what keeps me going forward.

​@@killyourego1185Why bother? Suicide is the way for me

@@killyourego1185would you mind sharing a bit about what you learned in your DMT experience? You don’t have TK give every detail but maybe just the main lessons/themes? Thank you!

​@killyourego1185 though I've always wanted to sample ayahuasca, the absence of inheritance has necessitated heavy workloads to sustain my flesh. My mind is wounded though. And it must be healed. For now, i have arrived at the conclusion that I will live as best I can and embrace death as my friend at the end.

Well I hope you don't feel this way at age 50 as I do now. Never desired self deletion until about now.

I'm exactly the same, friend. Consistent routine and habits staves off the existential dread.

Your comment reminds me of a quote I saw that read “ A man can die at 25 and won’t be buried until he’s 75.” It signifies that life ends quick long before death arrives. The only thing that’s living between that gap is the death drive through habitual escapism.

This sounds really profound.

Where a lot of people get it wrong is assuming that all pleasures are in service of things that support life. Some things like drug abuse can actually be more likely to lead to death, but they give pleasure just the same. It's not even as simple as that. Some things simultaneously lead to life and death. On the individual level, the most pleasurable foods to eat are often "junk foods," which provide some nutrients necessary for life (caloric energy if nothing else), but at the same time when frequently consumed can lead to disease and death from excess sugars, fats, etc. On the level of life as a species, reproduction (or simply sexual gratification) has its risks, especially for women. It sometimes happens that in trying to bring one new individual into the world, a preexisting individual is taken out of it (often taking the new-person-to-be out with her).

I think you're incredibly correct. Hedonism isn't enjoying life, its denying it.

Okay, William S. Burroughs.

How do you personally cope with a darker part of yourself that wants to express itself in socially unacceptable ways? Currently struggling with this myself

Thank you :)

This is the comment I was looking for. *There is no such thing as Death Drive* . As for those people who choose to isolate themselves from others, many of them remain their own best friends. Nothing to do at all with wanting to end their lives.

Yes, Pete Walker is his name, the title is CPTSD from surviving to thriving. He has a disclaimer somewhere in the book that thriving is not in the cards for everyone, no matter how hard they work on healing. So I guess it is back to acceptance again? I'm still not sure what I truly think/feel about the quote but it intrigues me: Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. Other highly recommended authors on cptsd are Judith Herman (iirc she was the first) Bessel Vanderkolk and Gabor Mate. ✌️

Teaching them about the probable pain love can bring is important

Yes! True for me as well. I’ll spare you my long, painful backstory, but the only reason I keep deciding to “be here” really comes down to being curious what tomorrow looks like. I’ve learned to “weaponize” that curiousity against the SI and ramifications of major chronic medical burdens. Even if tomorrow comes and is as miserable as the last, holding out curiosity from what the next day may bring regardless. It’s one thing I can say to those younger than me to urge them to hang in there. Life can throw some terrible curveballs, but there are also good people out there willing to help “lift you up” if you ask for help. One woman (a stranger then) unexpectedly helped me out and was incredibly generous to me, at a time when I thought it was all over, and she helped “prove” to me that, in darkest times, it was worth it to hold on and be curious for better days and chance for something new, relief from physical & mental pain, or another fleeting moment of contentment. Today, I’m happy to have connected with your comment about the effect of curiosity on this mentality, and that I’m not alone in that sentiment. Even if I don’t choose to end things, my incurable brain & spine tumor might any day w/o warning. With the pain and symptoms it can be hard to be grateful to still be alive sometimes, but curiosity, that comes much easier. ❤

That is why 99% of philosophers and therapist even study the fields. They are super depressed, and they want to figure out why and how to change it.

To me it feels like homesickness, to a place I don't know where it is or even whether it even exists, but a homesick type feeling nonetheless.

@@evadebruijnI agree 100%. Homesick is the best way to put it. I always felt the exact same way. I hope there’s a real “place” we all came from, but there could just be nothing after this 🤷‍♂️

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Alcohol causes depression, careful

Go for a walk in nature! Or exercise, but that might be hard with a beer in your hand, although my friends and I do it far too often

Alcohol is great until it’s all over ,depression the next day , for me anyway !

I thought it was "life's a bitch and then you die that's why I get high cuz ya never know when ya gonna go" "that buck that a bottle could struck the lotto"

Was thinking the same. Please share if you make any progress regarding this question.

Denial of Death is often the tandem of an amazing high you get from seeking thrills. Just knowing when to stop is what's crucial! Some just don't, or they're bad at weighing out the pros and cons 😅😝

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@@Johny40Se7en Can you give a negative example of this? The not being able to weigh out the pros and cons

@@jaredthomas9584 Being impulsive when it comes to anything. Prime example being something as simple as gambling, taking a narcotic, it's like people say to themselves "Oh, I'll only do it once", or "It's nothing major", then they get a little high, and it becomes addiction to them, where they're haemorrhaging money, or life...

Bro. I’d stop. I was a severe alcoholic for 15 years…. 15-30 years old too, so my body was in its prime. It was the nastiest disease and one of the most MISERABLE ways a human can exist. I wouldn’t wish alcoholism on my very worst enemy. You will either die and quick, or have to get sober. Both are extremely painful. I’d pick ANY other drug than alcohol to abuse… just so you know.

I went through a hellish time when my wife and I divorced, she alienated my kids from me and took every measure she could to destroy me ,it would’ve been so easy just to buy alcohol and get wasted , but I chose to buy a new gravel bike and get fitter than ever , that’s the best middle finger to her and the system.

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It's a question worth answering! Overcome your fear of death and you can truly be alive in this finite experience! Samurai used to meditate on their death every day. I think that's how they lived so fearlessly!

​@@MattAngiono, I truly agree, if You go deep enough into it _ you find only freedom and a joy for a real unfettered life. It's hard to explain to certain people's but having death as a true friend makes every day a gift! That's the real brain scrambler...but we learn from dichotomy, that's a key, and if you want to know life... know it's twin. 🤠

It's a false sense of having "control", sad things will happen but at least this (listening to sad music) I can control

Why can’t it exist exactly? Being fittest may mean dying at the right time. Apoptosis keeps you alive by killing the individual cell. It makes perfect evolutionary sense that a death drive may exist in a larger organism.

You are mistaken that evolutionarily it can't exist--it absolutely can, and does. I suggest you look into the sizeable research that exists on animal species with self-destruction built into their genetics.

You don't know what you're talking about.

What’s always kept me optimistic about living is the fact that I am conscious, I can think, and I can feel. I can wonder about life and reality’s many curious quirks. If I am dead, I can’t do any of those things. Who’s to say I wouldn’t wish to go back to living once I am dead, should I be given the chance to have that wish? I am young, so I look forward to a long and memorable life. Internal and external expectations of me are slowly killing me though. Wish me good fortune and health.

> Who’s to say I wouldn’t wish to go back to living once I am dead To a rotten world like this?

@@brindlekintales I’m sorry to hear that’s been your experience so far

You might be a psychopath.

I go back and forth on this... Even that's a cycle lol

When I have depression episodes I realize that I live in reality again. People that never have trouble with it live in dream world chasin hedonism. But at some point we all realize what life is about: suffering.

I have in the past... The main solutions for me are nature, creativity (art or music), and exercise. You can even mix them together! Just try to think outside your box. The Tao de Ching is immensely helpful with that IMHO Cheers

Suffering through depression myself for a while, but I was able to ignore it after I got into a relationship which I can only explain as extremely blissful. Well either way no matter how good my partner was, I never changed and my mental state and it ruined the relationship; causing its end. Even though I had so much, I still developed self destructive behavior. My depression is back and at an all time high, currently figuring out if I am weak enough to admit that I am not able to endure life’s smallest challenges.

No, it doesn't explain itself if you think about it as a subconscious drive.

@@krampusthunderstick3729 that's all the information you can offer, maybe it's not a subconscious drive but what else is under the surface making us act in ways we're not aware. Only on the subconscious can happy be made sad.

Please who is the consultant that assist you with your investment and if you don't mind, how do I get in touch with this person..

I am going to look her up, I have about $81k i want to start with, might be small but it's better than nothing though. Since the 08 crash is playing out again..

Yes, now that you have explained it, I can see the return in investing in investing in a good coffin.

The guy's talking about death and you guys are talking about investments. If you guys invest wisely, you can get time time off in purgatory for your sins....