A Psychologist’s Thoughts On Faith-Matthew Draper

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A Psychologist’s Thoughts On Faith-Matthew Draper

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@kevinsmith3617 26 күн бұрын

I took several classes from Matt Draper at Utah Valley University. He was my favorite professor. A man of great empathy and compassion. I have the highest regard for this wonderful teacher. God bless you, Matt! ❤️

@teresacabrera8694 Ай бұрын

His entire being was on display for us. I have never felt so much more than I did today. Your story was infinitely felt and so impactful. Thank you, Mark, for choosing this man's story. ❤

@the3milestitcher Ай бұрын

Mark Laita, we need more interviews like this. So totally real. So extremely deeply felt.

@bethswalwell6797 Ай бұрын

YES! I also think MARK needs more interviews like this.

@TheAnngirl Ай бұрын

Yes please

@sistersincharge Ай бұрын

Yes double please with a cherry on top 🍒

@justinko Ай бұрын

I'm glad you were entertained.

@demivydE Ай бұрын

No, we don't

@HA-lq4tt Ай бұрын

What a brilliant orator and storyteller. He uses words to paint scenes in a way that invites the listener to feel his pain, joy, and everything in between.

@jbkg5898 27 күн бұрын

Correct, a storyteller. Fiction at its best here.

@MotherLand762 16 күн бұрын

A very exhausting storyteller, you see.

@Brandilyn24 Ай бұрын

WOW "Therapy is not about curing a diagnosed mental illness. Instead, it is how to love, relate, and help others cope in the face of what a broken world gives them." (I paraphrased a bit) Chills, thank you for sharing.

@sistersincharge Ай бұрын

Agreed completely

@ShawnMarie-i5n Ай бұрын

Those are some real healing words right there!!

@bhart1166 26 күн бұрын

I agree. This is often true. I am a grieving parent. I cannot be fixed. I don’t want to be fixed. I just need my therapist to listen to me and then reframe my thinking so perhaps it’s a bit more logical. For a while. I just need her to sit with me in my pain. This episode of SWU was and will continue to be the apex of this channel.

@girlinterrupted9145 5 күн бұрын

Yes, and so well said.

@diggythree Ай бұрын

This is not an interview. It's a well-rehearsed monologue. And he is indeed a captivating and moving storyteller. ❤

@anncarter1663 24 күн бұрын

Yes, it seemed like a brilliant actor delivering a monolog---not that I doubt the story. Not at all. Interesting.

@diggythree 24 күн бұрын

@@anncarter1663yes, exactly! Brilliant and compelling. Many other of these "interviews" are not really interviews. Mark is not an interviewer but a gifted photographer who has the time, energy, courage and interest in helping folks share their stories.

@Northman_nils 12 күн бұрын

Consider it a gift to be able to take your life experiences and orate to others in a way that can offer some solace and help to other people.

@domingopartida5812 7 күн бұрын

I noticed that too

@justsaynotoboomers 5 күн бұрын

yes, very performative

@medtalk1688 Ай бұрын

May we all have broken hearts so that we can provide shelter for others.

@Teresa-jj5mo Ай бұрын

I wouldn’t wish a broken heart on anyone. Not all of us can process this way 💔

@loriflatland3142 Ай бұрын

Yes!

@jakebush4749 Ай бұрын

Wowza! Such strong words “The world that we have given them is fractured. So how do we care for people in a fractured world because the world has a way of fracturing us.”

@middleofnowhere1313 26 күн бұрын

I think I'll pass, if it's all the same to you. Life has kicked the shit out of me quite enough.

@lisaweatheral4458 Ай бұрын

I had to bury a 2 yr old son in 1987 and cremate a 41 yr old daughter in 2020. My culture is Choctaw. We are story tellers. If we were not telling our family or personal stories we were reading books. My fav part of pow wows as a child was the story telling circles and Dancing. When I grew older I told stories in my dancing and my art. Each time my children died I found ways to express these new chapters of my story, to set them down in expression. You are a most fantastic story teller. I could listen to you for hours. My heart goes out to you …

@lisaweatheral4458 Ай бұрын

My great grandsons born two months early on my deceased daughter’s (her daughters twins) birthday in May on the 13th 2024 their names are Asaiah and Amaziah. Home now and healthy. This is amazing in itself but three years ago 6 months after my daughter died her first grand child was born ON HER BIRTHDAY May 13th 2021 a grandson (her son’s son) his is is Xairo. Miracles. What else could three babies in three years born on their young deceased grandma’s birthday?

@lisaweatheral4458 Ай бұрын

The son of my deceased daughter’s who had her first grand child was born with his heart backwards and the valves placed wrong. At 7 days old he had open heart surgery. He lived. My little brother was born with a teratoma. We didn’t know until it was discovered he had kidney cancer and next to it in the area where there should of been a healthy kidney was the teratoma tumor. He couldn’t have the cancerous kidney removed safely. So they flew to another state and had surgery to remove the cancer from his kidney. It was successful. It has not returned. When I was in my mid 30’s they found what they said was a fatty tumor in my back but they removed it they found basal cell cancer cells in it and went back in and cut out more to give me clean edges around the tumor area. They also found basal cell skin cancer on my nose. They said it was caught very early … I am from the San Fransisco Bay Area and Stanford did those surgeries. U.C San Francisco did my grandson’s heart surgery l, the famous medical examiner who had a movie made about him (with Will Smith) who discovered the connection with brain damage and football players he did my daughter’s 2nd autopsy after strangers and family and friends donated to a go fund me account so we could pay him and transport my daughter’s body to the Central Valley. That autopsy gave the cause of why we lost her. She was another victim of one of the pandemics that has hit our world. My son drowned do to a bad baby sitter when I was 27..This is a convoluted telling of part of my walk with loss and losing. My faith is not Christian or Muslim or any well known organized religion. I have had people say similar things to me about the loss of my kids, my husband, my mom etc. big hugs

@user-mi5cm1cm2z Ай бұрын

@lisaweatheral4458 🪶💞

@carolmartinez7825 Ай бұрын

@@lisaweatheral4458I’m so sorry for your losses .

@FoxeLee_ Ай бұрын

@@lisaweatheral4458I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. I’m hurting for you, but I’m happy you’re here.

@iluvjt94 Ай бұрын

I’m not religious but what he is saying about grief is the realest thing I’ve ever heard. I lost my daughter in 2022 and I still get crippled with grief almost daily. I also loved how beautifully he said “I don’t want you to imagine this” because I used to get mad when people said “omg I can’t imagine” when in all facts this is my reality. But he’s right. We shouldn’t HAVE to imagine it. It’s unnatural to lose your child. I’m so very sorry for his loss and the family’s.

@gdash4187 Ай бұрын

I'm sorry you lost your daughter. I am raising my 12 year old son on my own after losing my wife a little over two years ago from a pulmonary embolism. You are very strong, because I don't think I could live if I lost my son.

@iluvjt94 Ай бұрын

@@gdash4187 so sorry about your wife. That’s a terrible way to lose her. Losing my daughter killed a huge part of me. I’d like to go on this channel and tell my story one day.

@gdash4187 Ай бұрын

@@iluvjt94 Thank you. Mark has answered every email I have ever sent him. You should contact him.

@katkohlerschwartz7386 Ай бұрын

❤

@Litigator-4-life Ай бұрын

❤❤❤

@marnaynay585 Ай бұрын

This is one of the most profound interviews I have heard on this channel. The image of God not being on the throne at the top of the mountain, but beside people saying “I know this hurts. Let me know when you want me to help you” (I’m paraphrasing) is so powerful. It reminds me of Psalm 23, that when we walk through the darkest valley, God is with us. His rod and staff comfort us.

@rumbatumblajambomambo6241 23 күн бұрын

I don't believe in god at all but I can 100% get behind what you wrote. In end it doesn't matter. As long as we share compassion and love and undertanding and acceptance we can happily live together on earth :)

@timmywitty1432 18 күн бұрын

@@rumbatumblajambomambo6241. Wow, l am blown away by those that cannot see very clearly that their IS a Creator. Study cosmology, biology, look at the natural world ALL around you and tell me this is ALL random! The ruling psychopaths have done a number on humanity and our objective reality…it’s called mind CONtrol and you are brainwashed. May the Creator bliss you out of your grand delusions!

@trishpugelli5371 Ай бұрын

He would be awesome for audio books... his voice is perfect

@ryanthorne5432 Ай бұрын

Ol Doctor D is his KZfaq channel

@ellengarcia4041 Ай бұрын

He certainly is a great story teller.

@annazamberletti1253 Ай бұрын

Im in terre haute Indiana!

@reneeschwendi8355 29 күн бұрын

His voice is like butter. It soothes my soul.

@bbakus8 Ай бұрын

"As heavy as the lead is in your bones, it is the source of your power". I've never heard more profound words. I love this man!

@CH-lc4zi Ай бұрын

Thanks industrial pollution for adding lead to our bones!"

@Charles-ij1ow Ай бұрын

@@CH-lc4zi I want to be Cyclops

@alixander9401 18 күн бұрын

I don’t understand?

@Healingsoul801 Ай бұрын

From one Utahn to another and from another human who also lost faith in the magic, your story hit me profoundly. You told your story so exquisitely and I could feel the pain in your word. This is one of the best interviews I have yet to see.

@sylviaguerra440 Ай бұрын

Such an eloquent, intelligent, articulate, educated, and passionate storyteller. His delivery was profound! It was like listening to an audiobook. Amazing! Lots of powerful messages to our society. I'm sorry for his loss and pain, but he has persevered.

@Real_Iceout Ай бұрын

As an avid Tolkien reader, man of faith, and love for people and specifically those that can articulate their story so incredibly captivating yet succinct… all I can say is… Wow.

@elizabethk6658 Ай бұрын

Yes. Just wow.

@lauraenslin1761 Ай бұрын

“May we all have broken hearts that we may provide shelter for one another…” Matthew Draper

@danellemarieee Ай бұрын

Wow. Did not plan on crying this morning 😢 god bless this man and his wife and Jothams siblings. My problems seem so much smaller today.

@pamelanana58 Ай бұрын

My tears just flowed, listening to this story - my goodness 🩶

@CraftyGrower Ай бұрын

"I may have lost my faith in magic. I may have lost faith in the way my profession does things but I have not lost my faith in hope. I have not lost faith in love. So to all of you out there for whom the magic did not work, for those of you who have lost loved ones, I get it. And there are so many of us out there. You know, Hemmingway wrote in 'Farewell to Arms', "For whom the world does not kill, it breaks" and it breaks the very lovely, the very kind, and the very capable. One thing you will find when you hold to the faith, in kindness & love, is that your heart will be cracked so wide that others can walk in and find shelter there. May we all have broken hearts that we may provide shelter for one another." Profound.

@brandybrazeale127 Ай бұрын

I wrote this entire part down as well! SO GOOD! ❤

@vickitrotter3404 Ай бұрын

He is correct. That is what I do. I try to lift others because I know what it feels like to fall. ❤😢❤

@stephanierollins4492 Ай бұрын

I wish more men would tap into there emotional side as this beautiful soul has done. 🙏🏽

@gdash4187 Ай бұрын

I'm not trying to be confrontational at all, and I wish men could. Every time I have been emotional or vulnerable with a woman I was in a relationship with, they have thrown it back in my face any arguments that happened. After it happening three times since my younger days, I've learned to keep it internalized.

@justinko Ай бұрын

@@gdash4187 the reason "men don't cry" was passed on generation to generation is because it actually harms our reproductive capacity (it is unattractive to women)

@HHTwice Ай бұрын

You say that but you don’t actually mean it, that’s not what you NEED, it’s a goofy modern WANT

@shariontaylor6814 Ай бұрын

@@gdash4187that unfortunate.

@rong2912 Ай бұрын

Until the emotional side grows to become uncontrollable. Being overly emotional is a burden.

@Lizabethmoore-ow6mw Ай бұрын

Stunning interview!!! I, too, am in crisis with a child - 6 years of crisis. I have completely lost my (old) faith. But faith is a shapeshifter. It morphs into something else when you least expect it. This was the bare truth that he discovered as well. I will never forget this guy.

@brandybrazeale127 Ай бұрын

That is so true! My faith shifted to be more pure! Less religious! More loving! ❤ I am so sorry that you are in crisis! Hoping and praying that you and the child can find peace!

@nikim.5533 Ай бұрын

This man speaks so eloquently. It is not his grief that intrigues me. On the contrary, it is his words. How he chooses to use them that grabbed my attention. Like many of the people who share their stories on this platform, I find them comforting. I hope this man finds it therapeutic in telling his story. It's a very compelling one. May it help him, the way it helps me. I admire his strength and courage in reliving this most difficult experience. My friend, you and your family are in my prayers. Consider writing a book. It would serve you well. Many blessings.

@FLBeautyQueen Ай бұрын

🛑 Matthew’s calling NOW is to write a book to help others overcome grief. I’m so sorry. Just terrible. Sending ❤️💪🙏

@milissameza5432 Ай бұрын

My son passed away 4 yrs ago and I lost all faith when our prayers for him to recover went unanswered. I still struggle with my anger at god for letting my son be killed. Losing a child is a heartbreak that never heals.

@kristieread7558 Ай бұрын

As a non religious person I could never understand how people can have an unrelenting faith in god when kids are dying or suffering. Thank you for sharing x

@rshahid145 28 күн бұрын

My heart breaks for you ❤ Like you I struggled with my anger towards my Christian concept of god. It’s only when I realized that concept of god did not exist, did I find peace. I hope you find your way to heal, to be free. Hugs

@erikamontoya2595 23 күн бұрын

❤

@heathermason489 12 күн бұрын

We live in a fallen world where Satan is in charge. You can't blame God for your sons death🩵🙏

@jenthorson3776 Ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing this incredibly important and difficult story. I lost my 24 year old son. He wasn’t able to speak but we could read each others thoughts. On the day he was diagnosed with renal failure I felt the tiredness in his eyes, his body and his beautiful soul. We stayed by his side and like your family helped comfort him in his final few days. I am so thankful to have heard your story. “Sinking into the crashing waves” resonated with me beyond words. Wishing you peace and love.

@bykycil Ай бұрын

This is the most profound interview and telling I have ever encountered. Thank you, Matthew and Mark. I love you Matthew. And will always carry the life lesson you have gifted me with today. I am grateful for your ability to relive this trial. And will remain diligent, in my love for all things living, forever and ever, Amen.

@janetpersons7647 Ай бұрын

Losing a child. No words. Just devastating. Came close with my granddaughter. And still medically fragile. Your heart hurts. Tough stuff. Thank you for telling your story and pouring out your guts. So much pain. Broken heart open to shelter others. Beautiful.

@chadsteen2505 Ай бұрын

“Divinity is found in the face of the other.” I needed to hear that. Thanks for sharing, Matthew. Sending love and positive thoughts your way.

@labyrinthoflies4438 Ай бұрын

It does sound like a nice quote huh? What I get from what he said, is what a lot of people are saying nowadays; that they are gods and worship yourself because you are god. That's where many people are going wrong in this world, the created being worshipping itself instead of worshipping and glorifying the one who created them.

@Nasosdag Ай бұрын

@@labyrinthoflies4438 and abandoned them or put them through trials they did not deserve. That is exactly why we need one another. You really did not understand what Matthew said. Not one bit.

@EthanS1481 Ай бұрын

Wow the end was so so powerful… it’s said many times on this channel - but this was truly one of the strongest videos yet. What a special human being…

@pyronut212 Ай бұрын

My heart hurts for this man. I feel his pain because I too lost my son and my faith was cracked at its foundation.

@missmiss975 Ай бұрын

I wish I didn't understand, but I do.

@gratefulgram Ай бұрын

Mark, wow this was an amazing interview. I could sit and listen to this man all day every day he has a eloquent way of telling a story. Heartbreaking and felt his pain but glad to hear he stood in his faith. Much love and many blessings to Matthew , his family and all who are here

@ryanthorne5432 Ай бұрын

Ol Doctor D is Matthew’s KZfaq channel

@janbeck7989 17 күн бұрын

"May we all have broken hearts, that we may provide shelter for one another" Thank you Matthew

@DF-et4gs Ай бұрын

My wife and I lost our first son Oliver during the pregnancy, we went on to lose 6 more over the course of 5 years total. When the pastor of our family church came over to comfort us it was very kind but my faith was long gone. We went to church at some point after the loss. It felt as if everyone was staring at us. Thankfully we had eachother and discovered an excellent grief councillor. We're also blessed to have finally had a healthy and happy boy! Thank you for sharing your story, may your Son rest in peace and free from pain.

@kingpin3795 Ай бұрын

Congratulations 🎉🎈🎊

@user-in7cx5lz9c Ай бұрын

What stood out to me the most was that even though Jotham was going through so much, he had so much love in his heart...so much faith... that his last communication was a prayer. He believed. I am inspired by his heart. And God did heal him. Not in the way that we all want. But, He gave him everlasting life with no sorrow, no pain, no disappointment. Matthew, you and your beautiful family will be with Jotham again one day. And what a beautiful day that will be.

@librarium4678 Ай бұрын

Amen!

@user-cs2wk5yr6h Ай бұрын

Amen and hallelujah I can't wait for the day that I'm back with my little girl who didn't get to come into the world her name was Sarah Sarah Ruth

@vanessasalinas3008 Ай бұрын

Amen 🙏

@Malmo117 Ай бұрын

Amen. 💕🙏🙏🙏

@christiezanoni5215 Ай бұрын

I lost my 15 year old Son in 2021 and Matt describes child loss SO perfectly. Learning to breathe underwater. 💔💔

@annacarlstrom3794 Ай бұрын

❤

@ShawnMarie-i5n Ай бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss. That really is an incredible metaphore.

@charmainepriestman915 Ай бұрын

My dear 😢

@LS-nc6kb 24 күн бұрын

An absolute incredible interview that sent me into an emotional spiral! What a great speaker with a philosophy born of pain, perception, faith and growth. Very impressed!

@keira-shae Ай бұрын

I'm so lucky to know this man and his family since 2008. It's all true. He's a blessing to all who know him. He's comforted me because of his deep grief and compassion. So much love to you and Miriam and the Diamond Princess and the Goblin King. ❤️ I'm in awe of you and you have my loyalty forever.

@CorynButter Ай бұрын

This is my absolute favorite interview I’ve ever watched on any platform. Amazing. I hope his family finds as much peace and comfort that can be allowed in the circumstances.

@CopingwithGrattitude 29 күн бұрын

I agree. My absolute favorite.

@user-iq9zn2ic5b Ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing this beautiful man and his Heartbreaking story.

@truesavings1988 Ай бұрын

Wow. I’m saving this video to share and to listen to over and over again. I have no words to express how this interview made me feel.

@toniapedd Ай бұрын

@truesavings1988 Same❤

@laverdadescatolica5 Ай бұрын

Why don’t more women look like you? 😀

@tammyusa7188 26 күн бұрын

It's a rarity that I'm without words to describe how something impacted me. I'm simply without words and left sitting grateful that I had the opportunity to hear this incredible mans experience and views.

@user-jv1mc4or9o Ай бұрын

I lost my oldest son in 2010 so i know this pain. I pretend every day to move forward and being ok. This is what those who don't know this pain expect. The hardest part of my life today... Being a phony. not my true self as they know nothing about. I can't hardly wait to run from this life but just for today i will pretend one more day. Thank God for my 2nd son who is the only one here that knows this rarely spoken pain losing his only brother.

@nicholaskoenig3106 Ай бұрын

This man is absolutely incredible at telling his story. Im blown away...its like reading a fantastic book (altho so sad about his son).

@laverdadescatolica5 Ай бұрын

I know, right!? Now lay off the steroid pills, Nich 😀

@rojasj10 Ай бұрын

"The world that we have given them is fractured". That's the perfect description of the world we have created and given our children.

@carolmartinez7825 Ай бұрын

Jotham was incredibly lucky to have you as his father . He is still with you because the soul never dies . Thank you for sharing your story of utter heartbreak and bravery . Sending love and light to your family 💕🌸.

@blondeambition444 Ай бұрын

I’ve never known a more compassionate person, teacher, and mentor. Unbelievably grateful to continue learning from and working with Matt.

@jacquelinemariadring1187 Ай бұрын

Dear Matthew I do not know if you will ever see this message but I would really like to express my sorrow for your loss and would like to express my gratitude for sharing such an intimate experience in your life in such a heartfelt, candid and incredibly eloquent and articulate way. I was so moved by your words and just sobbed with you final statement " May we all have broken hearts that we may provide shelter for one another " That phrase touched something very deep within me. I wish you and your family much love and healing across the miles.

@CopingwithGrattitude 29 күн бұрын

Beautiful.

@PSthefirst1 Ай бұрын

This man is so incredibly inspirational. Last July I lost my mom. The grief I’ve suffered is immense. To suffer grief is to love unconditional love. That is what I’ve been told. I have struggled so much in the last year. So many times during this interview I wished I could have hugged him.

@Emma-cu2hv Ай бұрын

Words cannot adequately express my gratitude for your talk Matthew. I cried for your son Jotham and my father, whose death broke the magic in my world. Thank you for your time and ability to put this pain in words.

@leemaccoll4730 Ай бұрын

Powerful testimony Thankyou for explaining God so perfectly. My heart was also broken and I now have a spring of compassion and love. Thankyou sir you moved me to tears. You have the gift of a healer ❤

@I-can-c-u Ай бұрын

I wish life was fair and your son would be able to live. I’m sorry for your loss. I’m struggling so much with my situation that your words have a great impact to help me try to understand it. Thank you for sharing. I hope to hear more from you.

@jjrotogeek Ай бұрын

Stories like these make the world better. bring faith back to humanity from humanity.

@mariagrist3348 9 күн бұрын

That’s the most amazing story you’ve recorded yet. What a remarkable man. His description of grief, especially the loss of a child, is like non I have ever heard.

@mcarrusa Ай бұрын

Thank you, Matthew, for baring your soul here, and for showing us-all The Way forward-especially those of us who have lost a child. This comes at a particularly-important time, as it was three years, last week (July 13), that we lost our son, Jordan, in a swimming accident. In the time since, I thought it was impossible to articulate the “11” level of pain, and didn’t even have a label to put on it, but now, I do. THANK YOU! Hundreds of thousands, or more, will hear your testimony, and will now be able to understand. Much love to you and your family, sir.

@jordan_goes_in4378 Ай бұрын

An amazing job at telling a heartwrenching story of loss. I pray for your grief. God bless you sir.

@ChinithaJohnson Ай бұрын

Wow what an incredible story…shared in such a compelling way.

@amyreidling4562 Ай бұрын

I resonate so deeply with this eloquent man’s story. All the levels. The belief in the “magic”. The desperation of soul to end the suffering of your innocent child and the breaking open of your heart that others might find shelter there. Brother, I hope I meet you one day. In the crucible of affliction comes life’s grandest epiphanies. My son passed at age 9 after nothing could be found to save him from the seizures that stole him from us.

@slaughterhouse799 Ай бұрын

My 3-1/2 yr old boy passed away on 1-18-23 and everyday has been difficult since then to make since of my life , I feel your pain…

@katkohlerschwartz7386 Ай бұрын

❤

@deanjohnson3660 Ай бұрын

Theres nothing stronger than a fathers love for his son 🙏

@Teresa-jj5mo Ай бұрын

@@deanjohnson3660 or a Mother’s beg to differ ♥️

@arizona71189 Ай бұрын

Facts

@danielle7061 Ай бұрын

He has the gift of story telling ❤ what a powerful story he has to tell. Thank you Mark and Matthew

@ticketprestigious13 Ай бұрын

Mark, each time I’ve think I’ve seen the best interview on the channel you put out something that tops it. Thank you for letting Matthew share his story and his pain.

@yvonnedeboer7535 Ай бұрын

I agree❤❤❤

@jamilikins5185 Ай бұрын

This man and his story of such love and pain.. I lost my sweet daughter this past Christmas morning and I finally heard someone that understood what I too have been struggling with.. I sense that the people in my life can’t understand why I don’t have a grip on things yet… I lost my brother a year younger than me when I was 25, and both of my parents died within 6 months of each other some years later.. I had always felt I had a closeness to God and those were such hard times but I never questioned what was next.. I knew they were in heaven.. and now my daughter has died… what I had “known” before suddenly is gone.. I don’t know what I believe.. this has taken me to a place I have never known.. I don’t know how to continue on from here.. I talk to her all day long.. I miss her more than I can say.. why does God send many back to living here on earth because they have more to do here.. and not my Ashley? I cried through this man’s story.. indeed he has a way with words..and I could feel his pain too.. I think we all cried with him.. I’m so sorry that this happened.. and if there’s a reason for everything… what I know is that I have a hole in my heart now that will never heal.. I am changed.. I don’t understand why this has to happen.. there’s so much I don’t understand.. take care .. you are a good person..I send love to your family..

@yvonnedeboer7535 Ай бұрын

Take care❤❤❤❤from Amsterdam, the Netherlands 🇳🇱

@Toonces666 Ай бұрын

I am so very sorry for your loss and I wish you peace.

@brandybrazeale127 Ай бұрын

I am so sorry for your loss! And I hate that you are struggling! With your loss and your faith! Both are understandable! Please know it is okay to question God! I have many times since losing my Love, Preston! My faith is NOT the same since losing him, and I think God expects that! ❤ So don’t feel like you have failed at your faith because you are angry and don’t understand. You shouldn’t understand losing a child, and I am SO VERY sorry that happened! Much love to you!

@elizabethk6658 Ай бұрын

Words are not enough, but l am so sorry, and hope that you are eventually able to have some peace and hope return to your life. Blessed Be.

@Cloud-xk3lm 28 күн бұрын

Loads of love from Australia ❤❤ I do not know what else to say, other than I am soooo sorry!!!

@CassieBee88 Ай бұрын

I had to pause it at the part where someone in his congregation told him his faith just wasn’t strong enough. I was already in tears before that, but the audible gasp I let out surprised even me. My son is autistic, and parents of autistic kids spend a lot of time coping with the fact that the ideal situation would be to outlive our children. But not by this much, and most definitely not this way. I pictured my son when he was speaking about his, and I am so heartbroken for this man. My son has been written off many times by doctors and professionals, for much smaller things of course, but it seems to be a trend amongst autistic individuals that they will be written off.

@tylerwilson2037 23 күн бұрын

If that ain't proof theys demonic beings amongst us, ill eat your hat.

@glorprincesa Ай бұрын

His description of grief was beautifully articulated. It is so hard.

@ululuskiappaski190 Ай бұрын

Usually I cannot sit through a video without my attention wondering off, I sat through this whole video hypnotized. Such a great storyteller!❤️ when you are ready let me help you up we will walk together❤️🥲

@yvonnedeboer7535 Ай бұрын

I wish my father loved me this much❤❤❤❤❤❤

@ilariaflores8766 Ай бұрын

Wow, this is one of my favorite videos. This gentleman is in so much pain over the passing of his son. 5 min into the video I was captivated with his story. Will be praying for your family.

@Provocateur991 Ай бұрын

The beauty of this channel is that we get to hear stories from people who would have otherwise remained nameless.

@bennettharvey5162 Ай бұрын

I took a class from Matt Draper at UVU and it was honestly my favorite (and hardest) class from my entire undergrad degree. I never knew this part of his story. Jotham sounds like he was an amazing person. I hope you guys will get to be together again. Thank you for the light and compassion that you bring into this world. We need more people like you, Matt.

@adamroberts1718 Ай бұрын

Another amazing story of pain and suffering and love,,,,,, we need more people like this,, beautiful people inside and out,,, hopefully his pain is less severe today

@familylifescienceeducation5227 Ай бұрын

I lost a loved one to death. I praise The Living God for sending me so much care and comfort during that time so close to the death. God is holy. He provided for me in ways too many to count. I thank Him, and I praise Him when I am in pain and when experiencing joy. It was so good to know that Jotham died a believer. All that pain he went through, and He never let go of God. 🎉❤🎉❤

@CopingwithGrattitude 29 күн бұрын

I worked in a children’s cancer clinic for many years. I was completely captivated by the story of his grief. His articulation of grief as a parent was perfection. It was a job I have held in my heart and miss every single day. Everything else pales in comparison. We loved and fought for them all. Most of them made it or I couldn’t have done it. Healthy coping mechanisms are a necessity. I bet his son’s journey touched many lives of his caregivers too.

@jordanalberts874 Ай бұрын

Please have him back a hundred times. He is impossible not to listen to.

@lauribrantley5658 Ай бұрын

Many times I truly believe God has forgotten me and my oldest son. But then something reminds me HE is with me. The Lord is with this man and his family. I pray you’re suffering lessens and never stop speaking of your beautiful boy 🙏🏽❤️

@lesliemarvin160 Ай бұрын

I had a good friend lose her 16 year son in the last few weeks. I've been struggling to find the words to comfort her. But I reach out each day. Her faith has carried her the last few weeks. Yesterday in our daily connection . I felt this feeling come over for me. I felt like she was feeling inside that she couldn't cry or grive.. because of her faith. She keeps saying as long as I devote my entire life to God I will be reunited. It's keeping her going and for that I'm so thankful but I couldn't help but think she needed to break down and cry. To feel her loss but her faith won't allow her. God bless this man. Thank you so much for this share mark. I needed this so much.

@yvonnedeboer7535 Ай бұрын

You're a great friend! A lot of people feel uncomfortable with grief. They don't want to be reminded of their own mortality I think😢 Even if you can't find the words she appreciate it when you call❤❤❤❤

@christineneel3112 Ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your families story, seeing how painful it was I’m sure you are helping a lot of ppl in their grief!! You are a wonderful storyteller just as your father….the last line is one I will think about for years to come “when you are ready let me help you up, we will walk together!” Truly amazing….💙💙

@laverdadescatolica5 Ай бұрын

Chris… 2 for the price of one? 😀

@ssc4153 Ай бұрын

Thank you Matthew for sharing your story. Three things will last forever-faith, hope, and love-and the greatest of these is love. At a time when our country is so divided, you have shown a bright light for those who wander in the dark. Our world needs more love......thank you again Matthew.

@celinacoombs4367 Ай бұрын

All I can say is Damn! This man took me on his journey and I felt every single step of it. I actually feel changed in a way.

@l.a.t.1810 Ай бұрын

Matthew, thank you so very much for sharing your story. You are an amazing speaker, you had me hanging on your every word. I am so sorry for all the heartache in your life, I have lost 2 children, I feel your pain. I'd like you to know that, for me, your words gave me some strength. You are an amazing human. And Mark, thank you very much for doing what you do best..... just letting people tell their story. Thank you

@ChinithaJohnson Ай бұрын

Bring him back for Part 2

@laverdadescatolica5 Ай бұрын

The sequel! Why don’t more black women look like you, sweetheart? 😀

@timsmolen2279 21 күн бұрын

This was such a profound interview. Matthew spoke so beautifully and with so much emotion. I feel this will help many people that give it a listen.

@andrewwebster5913 10 күн бұрын

Lost my parents to cancer as a teenager and watched my siblings and I fight to cope.... This video resonated deeply with me and my experience of love and faith. Thank you for this moving video.

@MargoRodell Ай бұрын

This touched my soul. I have too lost faith in the magic. I lost my mom a few months ago despite everything I tried to do to keep her here. I feel responsible because the doctors missed a lot of things. I can definitely relate to everything you’re saying and I appreciate you being so real, vulnerable, and honest. Some people won’t get this, and for that I am grateful because I wouldn’t wish this type of pain on anyone. I have learned there is purpose in the pain I’ve been through, and that is so that I can better relate to others going through the same thing and be there for them in any way I can. Thank you sir for your words of wisdom. 💜💜💜

@TheAnngirl Ай бұрын

Thank you so much for this story. Thank you for opening your heart and revealing your broken heart to all of us. Thank you for being so strong and so weak. Thank you. You inspire me to keep helping with my broken heart. I didn’t want to help anymore bc it has been so broken. Thank you dear soul. Thank you.

@pattylowrey8746 Ай бұрын

Matthew's story is heart breaking and beautiful at the same time. I've never heard grief described like this and his words are so impactful.

@jrc7771 Ай бұрын

The best interviews are the ones in which Mark does not need to ask a single question. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼

@lindamishalanie5593 Ай бұрын

This is one of your best interviews. This man is amazing. I could listen to him for hours. Amazing speaker and the way he describes his grief is gut wrenching. I am so sorry for your loss and Thank you for sharing your story.

@susanrevis2925 Ай бұрын

What a profound statement from a father about broken hearts… this man IS grace. ❤ he is wonderful.

@shanalazarone828 26 күн бұрын

This was so very heavy. What a wonderful story teller. When he said his dad was a wonderful story teller I thought to myself that his dad passed that wonderful trait down to him. I can only imagine being one of his children listening to his stories & insight. Captivated the entire time with his big presence & profound love of language. All while holding space and sharing his warmth, heartbreak & kindness! You sir have made me stop today to take a deep breath & look around to be grateful for all that I love. Thank you for being here & sharing your magic 🫶🏼

@erinmoriarity4775 Ай бұрын

Hands-down the best thing I have ever seen on this channel.

@CopingwithGrattitude 29 күн бұрын

Agree. I have been engaged by many of them. Nothing like this though.

@LimoneneDaddy Ай бұрын

Wow, talk about a TRUE storyteller through and through. I can appreciate anyone who speaks with such conviction! He has the warm energy of someone who wants to help others. Please bring this man back on immediately!

@petertornabeni602 Ай бұрын

This guy is . . Genuine, his family growing up, was obviously strong. Thank you for the video

@lauriebyall9199 27 күн бұрын

A beautiful interview that embraced the broken heart of this Momma… thank you 💔

@lisaseaton4989 29 күн бұрын

I feel like I need to tell Matthew my story(condensed). I lost two very close and beloved friends in one week’s time. One night as I lay in bed asking over and over “why”, a voice not my own said to me very clearly and calmly, “ because this is how it’s supposed to be “. I realized in that moment that it was God’s plan, not mine. And that everything is as it should be. I won’t claim to understand it but the sudden calm and reassurance from those profound words helped me greatly. Not just in my heavy grief but in life, daily. May you find comfort in the still small moments and may you understand that God has his plans. Many blessings to you and your family 🙏🏻

@sherryanndambrose574 Ай бұрын

What a beautiful context you put your son Jotham's life in.... Remembered, loved, and embraced in the fabric of your life. I, too, lost a son once but was never allowed the space and time to grieve.❤😢

@carolmartinez7825 Ай бұрын

I’m so sorry for your loss . Sending you so much love and light .

@RobertMajor-jq2ke Ай бұрын

Me either and I have lost 4sons well 6 because she was in her 2trymaster then I lost her my wife in 2018 I have no answers my life is empty lost a part of my soul I have almost died 7 times and I am still here the only reason I go on is because I have 1 Daughter left in her teens life has truly broken me I hope you find a way peace somehow in this messed up world

@yvonnedeboer7535 Ай бұрын

@@RobertMajor-jq2ke😮😮😮 Take care❤❤❤

@FoxeLee_ Ай бұрын

@@RobertMajor-jq2keI try to believe that we are here for a reason, despite our loved ones being left behind. It’s so hard. I’m sorry you’ve gone through such loss.. there has to be a reason why we are here.

@sistersincharge Ай бұрын

@@RobertMajor-jq2kehugs

@jeff1130 Ай бұрын

My friend had a son that died when he was 14 years old he was born with diabetes1 The kid never had a chance, my friend. went to every Doctor. that might be able to help his son. Last month he died. My friend is very strong. . And a month after his son died, his mother Was killed by a drunk driver... My friend is very strong. I don't think I could have handled it...... He always. Tells me tell people you love them. Because you don't know what tomorrow will bring.

@michellealzinki967 Ай бұрын

What an amazing father. Your son must be so proud. Never let words of others stone your soul.

@JenniferTrotter-q3h Ай бұрын

58:39 Thank you for sharing this…so beautiful and so raw. May we all use our brokenness to love and help others…

@UlyssesHaq Ай бұрын

You can't help but be captivated and touched in a profound way. There aren't any words left. Just... feeling.

@KiraBirb-pi6sl Ай бұрын

Mark, this is the most beautiful interview. Every word he said about grief, compassion, and love struck me as hard as the moment my little sister died in our arms. I really wish I could talk to Matthew; just to thank him for understanding that it goes to 11, and for giving words to my pain. Matthew, if you read this, please know that you’ve touched my heart in ways I didn’t think were possible. Oh, how I know how this hurts. Bless you, your family, your loved ones. Please know that your interview is something I have and will watch time and again, grasping at the words that make so much sense in a world where my reality has stopped. Thank you so much, Mark and Matthew