The black dog has been by my side most my life, sometimes next to me, sometimes running ahead in the distance, but he was always there. Watching your videos inspired me to go for a walk. Baby steps to start with, do to having an physical disability. Just short walks along the beach early in the mornings, finding a quiet spot at the most easterly point in the UK to sit and meditate and watch the sunrise. After a couple of weeks I realised the little black dog was, for the first time in 30yrs, behind me. Still near, but behind me and I a new sense of calm within me. This gave the confidence to go out of my comfort zone and hike part of the Angles Way, followed by a trip to Robin Hood's Bay where I hiked from Scarborough to the Bay, then from the Bay to Whitby and back again. Upon returning home I was dog free!. Walking, along with meditation has given me a new outlook on life and a sense of freedom. My physical disability and mental health issues used to leave me feeling full of despair with no way out of the darkness, but thanks to you I've found a way of banishing the negative thoughts, leaving darkness and an ability to see the positives and light by achieving things I thought I couldn't physically do or mentally handle. Thanks so much Hazy for the inspirational videos and for being such an open, honest, down to earth & encouraging human.

For future reference, it's a good idea to unbuckle your backpack waist strap and loosen the shoulder cinch straps a bit when crossing a dangerous river or creek, because if you do get swept down stream you can get yourself free from the pack instead of having that extra weight pulling you down in the water.

The mental strength required to achieve what you did is massive!.. I served in Iraq (UK Army), basically been sitting on my arse since, you're an inspiration to kick it & get a life again. Huge respect & as soon as I've finished this comment, I'm subscribing.

WOW! Mate, that was the best vid you've put out on all sorts of levels 😢😂 I've been struggling with mental health issues mi'sen since Iraq and Afghanistan as a veteran, but getting off my arse and getting out there has helped me immeasurably. I really appreciate your candour and openness. Keep on kicking your own arse! I'm 68 years old now and I'm going camping on the Yorkshire Moors next week - whatever the weather😂.

"when life's kicking your arse...kick ya own arse"......wow I felt that 1 hazo

Cap is tipped. Outstanding performance 🫡

Nail on the head Hazey, this vid got me out of bed - i didn't achieve anything but I still got up. Trouble is often times people unafflicted don't realise that just having a shower, brushing your teeth and having a shave, clean kit on is an accomplishment in itself for people like us. Many a time I've gotten to my car and not been able to turn the ignition and decided no, tomorrow and gone back to the four walls because it feels safer there, but then you're cemented with your thoughts. We're lucky to have you mate cause your wisdom shows us we can get back out even when that heavy old bastard is sitting on our shoulders. Hope your noggin is in a better space and thank you for keeping us going ❤

If that waterfall got you and the footage got found weeks/months/years later and you didn't sign out with a "MEDIIIIIC" i would of been devastated mate 😂😂

Black Dog is f'ing with Hazey. Hazey takes it out for a hike in the freezing cold pouring rain, makes it sleep in a puddle, and damn near throws it over a waterfall. Black Dog, "I'm out, this bi#ch is crazy" Take care. Much Love.

The swim came to you man 😂❤

Loved this! Sitting on my sofa, fire on, beer in hand! Watching you get pulverised! One of your best vids for a while!

You may not have cried, but I did. I love you from afar. You are an endearing young man. Take care of yourself.

This is one of those moments where when you're struggling to get out of the house just remember how you pulled through to get into those soaked clothes...getting out of the house should just be a little easier when you remember that moment. Easier said than done. Thank you for your videos and helping me in my noggin moments

Jesus Christ, you are one tough bastard. Had me worried there crossing the river! Well done for doing this and kicking the black dogs arse and getting this done. Much love. ❤

35:55 Hi, I am a white water kayak coach and wild camper and I echo what others have said. You were pretty silly to film while crossing and you were lucky when you did fall. 1) Be very careful in water flowing that fast when its over calf height. 2) Stop bloody filming 3) face upstream legs placed well apart 4) Use a walking pole or sturdy stick to form a tripod, with the stick upstream and lean on it, this gives you firm base to move across the river 5) shuffle your way across, you dont want a foot slipping into a hole and getting a foot entrapment, then you really will be in trouble 6) Undo the bloody rucksack, never cross water like that with a fullly loaded rucksack fastened up, it will kill you if you fall. Apart from that looks like you had a great time. Sometimes useful to take spare socks, thermals so at least the base layer starts dry.

Young sir, brutal honesty without needless dramatisation again. Years of sharing a plethora of entertaining and educational content while also sharing extreme highs and lows of mental fortitude. You should be forever proud of what you have given to so many for so long and i hope you continue for as long as it pleases you. Dig deep and keep your head up Brother, God bless 🙏

You should've called mountain rescue and told them you were tired mate..😄

Mate... This video hit me square in the feels. I saw that look in your eyes a couple of times, the same look that I've got at the moment. Stay strong brother, remember you're not alone. I'm gonna book me a visit to the Docs and get out next weekend in the rooftop tent. Much love.

You have to love the North of England. I used to camp in the Lake District for days at a time in the 70s when I lived in Wigan and we wore the wet clothes till they dried, but it wasn't too bad coz they were wool, but they were bloody itchy wool for some reason and the tents were that heavy we had to split the load. One guy had the inner and pegs and the other bloke had the fly and poles. Miserable conditions but great memories. Thank you for a great trip!

You’re the guy who I admire most when it comes to addressing and talking to the Black Dog. Thanks for all you do ❤

This really struck a chord with me, I feed a pack of wild black dogs on a daily basis, lately. It helps me to hear how another sees it from their own perspective. Thanks and keep on fighting mate.

Why have only 16% of viewers liked this video? Where is the support for our man?! Show some support!

Wow that was scary! But loved seeing how happy you was after it. Just remember when your mind wants you to stay at home.. you have people who genuinely love watching your videos.

It wasn't a chance to encounter meeting you today at Derwent Dam! It was almost spiritual pal, because I have been having a real bad time this last 10 month I won't bore you with the details but the conversation Mrs Mole and myself had was about how you said if Life's kicking your arse, kick your own and I was telling her about your video and Life is too short and then who bloody walks around the corner, but you and Fern and the Doggo! Gave me a shock to start with because it was surreal, but it gave me a real boost and the photographs Fern took you can see in my face that for those few minutes (didn't want to start waffling on and left you to your walk) but that's the first genuine smile I have had for sometime! Good to meet you both and the dog and I hope you enjoyed your walk! Thanks for making my day. Urban Angler ❤

Yep. Longest journey is to the front door.

"Good, honest hardship. I know where I am with this." Got me mate. Had a rough few months myself but you've inspired me to get back out and kick my own arse next week. Good on you lad.

Good on you, Hazey lad. You're the kick in the arse that a lot of us appreciate. That was a tough one.

On behalf of all your subscribers, we bloody love you, Haze. ❤

Having PTSD most of my life (now 60) your vid is awesome well done and a great inspiring message.

100% want a haze t shirt that says “when life is kicking your arse… kick your own arse”

Hazey my brother... I won't bore you with long motivational platitudes and advice. I just needed to let you know you need to be so fuckin' proud of yourself for you and everyone that has any time for you and your videos. Thankyou from the very bottom of my heart, I have nothing but love and true respect for you bro. Take it easy ❤️🙏

An old mate of mine used to say "What don't kill ya only makes you stronger". Well done mate!

Always undo hip belt and chest strap when crossing a river.

Hit me in the feels this one brother I was almost crying watching you buzzing on ya way down ❤ I’ve turned my dark times around recently with exercise and wild camping ⛺️ and in a good place atm ✌️ All the best brother hope you’re good 👊🏼

Great respect !!! What we learned ?: carry a strong staff (not a flimsy telescopic walking pole), particularly for river crossings nad rough ground.

So beautiful there. Well done for pushing through and getting out

“Kick yer own arse”. Yes mate, I needed to hear that.

you are inspirational ive had a really shit start to 2024, in january i had gone missing couldnt see anyway out of my own head. one of the first videos i saw when i was found was you and joey d you have inspired me to wild camp just thank you and joey much love

Dude, thank you so much for this video, your honesty about the "black dog" is like an absolute search lantern to my soul, I absolutely love the fells and getting out walking, but haven't been out much the last 18 months, and I then give myself a hard time mentally about not going out, which just exacerbates things, but hearing you say you have the same struggles is a real soul mender for me, so brother, thank you for your honesty and keep the videos coming.

"Just go and have yourself a near death experience with a waterfall. It'll sort you noggin right out " Was that your advice when you worked for the Samaritans? 😂 On a serious note, I'm so pleased you are feeling better in yourself. I can totally empathise with the darkness and zero motivation, just sitting, staring at the wall. When I'm in that dark place and trying to get back, I've learnt to praise myself for every forward step no matter how small. That turned into an epic overnighter! You still make the best hiking and camping videos on KZfaq. Take care of that noggin ❤x

Wow that's a lot of rain 🌧 😳 waking up in a puddle...so much fun huh? At least you have the right attitude 👍 here's hoping the next trip is warm & sunny 🌞 ❤ that plunge at the end was crazy! I bet it took you awhile to feel warm again after all that! I'm sending that love right back at ya ❤

Oh mate... That will be a memory that will stay with you forever. It tried to defeat you and failed. Well done Hazey!!

You do make sence. By putting yourself in a hard situation you are showing your brain what truly is a hard situation. And you are reminding your mind to be greatful and when you are greatful life feels good. It's all about states. Life is like the landscape, peaks and dips. 💚

What a “Camping in a Puddle” Legend!! Thanks for this amazing vid Haze! Cheers! ❤🍻😎💧☔️🌧️

Thank you matey just what I needed to hear peace our brother x

Brother thank you for you!!! Your honesty about depression, you are brave in so many ways and you help people more than you realise. So much love to you! Cock n baws. ❤

I had a similar fall crossing that exact point in that beck back in 2021 and did some serious knee damage on a submerged rock. I haven't really been able to hike as before since then, so I've been simply living my fell adventures through your vids since then. Hoping to be getting it back to normal this year. Thanks for sharing your adventure as always sir!

I’m shouting at the screen telling you you’re a total maniac for going out in such crazy weather. 😂 Sending Hugs for your noodle. You are always enough. Thank you for keeping it real. ❤

Wow I bet that felt amazing when you got back to the van,knowing all what you over come on that adventure 😍 best video I've seen in a while. Look after yourself and keep the good work up 💪🏕⛰️

Your such a lovely man, this video was really heart felt and made me feel better from your kind words. Love you bro

When the mental health assessment asks me if I engage in risky behaviour like gambling and drug taking, and I say no, then go out and sleep on a mountain in the ice and swim in 3c water and almost sign off running too fast down wet boulders on a descent. Love it up there. I’ve had a life changing night in Warnscale Bothy on a 3 nighter, best nights sleep this insomniac has ever had. You could have bailed to Lingy but that would have been cheating, and I’d take a flooded tent over the piss hut anyway. Love you Haze. Try not to log out on any more waterfalls. Keep kicking your ass. 😊

Thank you so much for taking us along! It was a very pleasant experience (for me 🤭, warm and dry) Looking forward to be in your company more! Hats off to your courage and persistentness (is that a word?)

I’ve had the black dog on me for the last couple of weeks, this video has helped no end. Got out, swam, ran and beasted the weights down the gym. Proper kicked my own arse for a little while. Your philosophy works Hazo. Big thanks for doing what you do Brother. Nowt but love from me too X

That crossing was well sketchy mate. I taught myself to paddleboard on a freezing cold lake by myself on Sunday, just had to get out in nature, loved it. Brighter days are coming lads 👊🏻

You’ve made my worst hike ever seem like a stroll through the park, big respect to you Haze, absolutely love your videos and I’m so glad you left the black dog up there in the fog. It seems that fall in the river was a signal the black dog was gone, the last of the bad luck and a weight lifted ❤

" kick my own arse..... " love it . Thanks This is so weirdly relaxing to watch !

River crossing! Epic!! Glad you made it, Hazey.

You weren't joking about beating yourself up 😂

First time film for me, I've subscribed, 'nough said! Like your style, chat and humour, thank you!

Awesome vid!!!!!! Mother Nature tested you there but you kicked your ass on your terms !! Respect on SO many levels ❤️

Dry/wet drills - absolute purgatory. Great effort Paul. It's great seeing you out again. That black dog is getting lighter by each wet sock experienced.

Yeses the mojo,s back, great stuff

Thanks so much for that vid. I loved it and totally relate to the "black dog", especially right now. I've been finding it hard to motivate myself to do things that are right for me and to get out into the mountains too. Finally today, I pushed myself to do 25km even though it was raining and I feel much better for it.

Mate I so feel your pain. Been in this situation at least once in my home town of Wellington, New Zealand (hint: it rains and blows a LOT year round). Still watching your video. Nothing sucks more than waking up in middle of night to realise your warm lovely home is in fact home to a stream/pond. Ugh! Thank God for Back Country Huts!!!

Adversity makes the best memories 😉…. thank you for sharing your experience and memories …. 👍👍

Yes brother good to see you back with another vid

Thank you for all your Wit, all your Wisdom and all your Love

This is such a moving vlog - I watched it yesterday and it hasn't left me for a moment. We don't know whether your situation has come about from a particular event/episode/relationship, or whether you are just prone to being accompanied by that black dog from time to time in your life, but sharing this video shows so much about your grit and mettle. Like you, I'm a firm believer in giving yourself a kick up the arse: help starts at home. But equally, that's not where it ends, and if a self-administered kick doesn't crack it, then that's not 'another failure' to add to the load, it just means it's time to speak to someone else in confidence. Maybe a friend; maybe a professional. Because if you can go through that environment and make this video, you can sure as hell chat whatever this is through with someone. All the very best!

That was a beast of a camp mate!! I had a similar soggy bogfoot one on Saturday up the brecons. That dry tent, dry clothes moment is a special feeling innit! (But savage in the morning) Congrats on getting to the start line. It’s so hard sometimes, even though we know how good it is for us. On the ups and downs of the noodle - I got one of those cold plunges and have been doing it every morning since January. It’s levelled me out so much mate. It’s obviously not the same as a good wild swim, but the mental and physical ritual of getting into that damn cold everyday I swear has transformed my brain chemistry. Big up Hazey 💚 Looking forward to the tent review ⛺️

One of your absolute best videos!

Thank you for sharing your honest experience 🙏 So much more than a camping video ❤

This is a great video on the reality of backpacking/ wilderness camping. So many variables when in the wilderness.

An epic adventure Hazey and good for the noggin, mother nature at its rawest, wise words on the river crossing.

I’ve been on one of those trips. All you can do is laugh, get through it and you also have a good story for later.

Thankyou for being so real about the black dog n how hard it is to even leave the house sometimes. Our young men need guys like you to keep it real. Thankyou 🙏🏻🙏🏻

I was feeling pretty worn out and low lately, I just took a week off and went canyoning and hiking in Maderia. Such a beautiful island, was exactly what I.needed.. feeling rejuvenated now.. There's a hike there where you can cross the whole island.. who should give it ago when you get a chance... All the best mate, and thanks for the videos

Bloody hell man, you do pick ‘em don’t you 🤣

Entertaining and uplifting as always,thanks for all the content and dragging us all out of the darkness with you mate 🤜🤛

Thanks for that. You tell it as it is. We all have shit but try to do something different, something to shock a positive response. It works for me and thank you for taking the time. I'm out this weekend with my wife of 36 years. She has seen my highs and lows but together in nature is a beautiful place. Certa Cito from an old scaley. Much respect and love back at ya! Cheers Sel

Sometimes we have to get covered up to the neck in a freezing river to appreciate the next one. Heart of a lion this guy. I get Hazey completely. I recently walked from Stockport to Walsingham. Great yo call ourselves out and humble ourselves. Love to you brother

This was emotional. You dunked the bollock whether you liked it or not son! Good effort.

The stone house you passed on the way up looked cool

Wo, that was relayed right back to me. It was a true don't try this at home episode, I was feeling it, it took me all my time to light my pipe back up. Glad you realised you reached your limit and didn't go for a swim although something was pulling you to cross that waterfall. Hats off to Hazo. Always remember, from here, keep safe,

Thats what I watch YT for - proper hardship and peril! Great stuff Paul! Well done!

I don’t know how this appeared on my feed - but this is one of my favourite coming videos I’ve watched. I have to admire your honesty & sheer determination. Good for you lad.

That was an amazing video. I really enjoyed watching it, thank you. I bet the feeling of getting back to the van and getting warm again was the best feeling in the world.

Sorry to hear you’re struggling Haze. Life is ruthless and the black dog relentless but keep up the fight mate. You got this.

Haze mate, thank you, thank you, thank you. Going through the mill at the moment and this really really helps. Cheers buddy

Mother Nature she's giving it "Have some of that" So-Long LOWA hello studded waders by JR Hartley. Good on ya Hazey, that's another for the highlight reel.

This was very brave trip Haze and made for a fantastic video. Thank you!

Blimey! I thought my allotment was bad this winter! Glad to see you got back without getting hypothermia. 😬 Stay warm and dry!

Respect mate smashed it! 👊

Loved this, glad you got out! ❤

Wow, congrats on surviving that one! Cheers x

Film Maker of the Year….strikes again ! What a video and thank you.

Only recently come across your channel and so glad I did. I'm binge watching and absolutely love it. Hope you're doing well mate 👍

Tea!!! YESSS !!!!

I think the views are beautiful....there's beauty in the mist and the rain too....great video....thanks...😊😊

Cmon now, if a river runs through your tent at 2am then we all watch. We all hike in sensible conditions and enjoy nature. We just watch these guys for the madness!

That was a mad expidition, amazing skill to stay dry at night and a mental journey tye next day. Really appreciated this one. Cracking stuff.