To be honest, Midsommar changed how I view my relationships, myself, and even how I deserve to be treated. It’s such a brutal and intense film, but it’s so beautiful and it’s genuinely my comfort film and my most favorite film of all time simply because of the things it taught me.

wow, you're so brave to be sharing these personal stories online. your honest emotion can be so helpful to people who are struggling with things. well done, we love you

Requiem For a Dream (2000) just WOW , I was scarred, seeing this film opening weekend in a theater of 6 people .... just wow.

no.1 film that changed me was Donnie darko. I found it when I was 12 and every few years I learn something different from it. from understanding non linear storytelling to dealing with schizophrenia and now realizing the duality of life and acceptance of fate. it's a movie I would give everything else up for. great vid as always.

The first movie that comes to mind for me is “Girl Interrupted”. I saw it when I was 13, probably 6 months after I went through a very similar situation. Although obviously at the time I was a minor so it wasn’t exactly the same. I’ve only ever watched it once. I’ve tried to watch it again more recently but it just brings up too many memories that I’d rather not think about, even though this all happened to me almost 15 years ago.

The one movie that definitely changed me the most was *"Eraserhead".* Never before - or after - have I seen a movie that made me this uncomfortable, especially in such a subtle and surreal way. It's hard to describe, but this movie still gives me the chills, it's a nightmare. Others would be: Jacob's Ladder, There Will Be Blood, Lake Mungo, Alien, Jurassic Park, Mulholland Dr, Martyrs, The Incredibles, Peter Jackson's King Kong, Clockwork Orange and Fight Club.

The worst thing about Compliance is that it ALL was true. Makes its messages about blind trust in power and the influence of fear of authority that much more real

Perks of Being a wallflower, I dont know what it is I just think this movies perfect in every way.

Melancholia. I only watched it once years ago. Haven't been able to get my head in a place to watch it again, knowing what I'd be in for and how it would make me feel. But I think about that movie all the time. I think it would be even harder to watch now, given how bleak everything seems to me in what we're doing to the planet.

Palendrom rocked me when I saw it years ago. Can't say I thought it was a GOOD film, but I find myself thinking about it even now (just like welcome to the doll house)

The Lost Boys (1987) - in a time where I too, felt like a high school reject, I was on a search for the most horrifying horror movies EVER. And then I watched The Lost Boys, and it re-shaped my view on horror. I know it’s really not scary, but the cheesiness, the 80s music, the questionable acting, the nods to horror gems such as Nosferatu and Edgar Allan Poe, everything about it just made it such a fun and cool movie for me. It’s a guilty pleasure that I am honoured to have😂 That’s also the first time I ever experienced escapism via film❤️🦇

Palindromes totally scarred me, not gonna lie. I was definitely too young to watch it when I saw it, lol. I'm always surprised and happy whenever someone else has actually seen it so that I can talk to them about how weird it made me feel, lol.

The Blair Witch Project To this day I am still terrified of the woods, especially at night, because of that movie. Listening to a narration of "The Stairs in the Woods" only deepened that fear. I watched it with my brother when I was in 6th grade (11-years-old), and at the scene when the guy drops the camera in the basement I started frantically telling my brother "turn it off! turn it off right now!!" to which he replied "it's just a movie" but he turned it off fast af, haha. We were so scared we slept with our dad that night. It wasn't until I rewatched the movie at 16 that I realized we had turned off the movie only 30 seconds from the end, smh. To this day it is still my favourite horror movie, and the only one that has ever truly, truly scared me.

I had honestly never thought of the movies that have changed me, but there are definitely movies that have and immediately come to mind. I only first watched Fight Club last year (and I'm 27😅) way after the ending was spoiled for me, I wish I watched it years ago without any spoiling. These are the movies that come to mind when I think of films that have changed me. I have found they all surround mental illness, coming of age, and psychological issues. Issues I struggled with as a child and teenager. Thirteen Girl, Interrupted The Virgin Suicides American Beauty Melancholia The House that Jack Built

I clicked cause I saw "Palindromes" in the avatar (can't remember the name lol). That movie was so.. the storytelling as you said was incredible. You have to check out that directors trio: Welcome to The Doll House, and Storytelling.

Watch the film Lilya 4 Ever. I’ve seen it only once but it always stays with me and I think about it a lot. It’s incredibly heartbreaking and based on a true story

When I was 16 I went through almost a year of watching the most disturbing horror movies ever made, just out of my love for scary and disturbing films, I wanted to see how far I could go. I watched a movie called The Heart is Deceitful Above All Else. As far as subject matter, this isn't the most intense thing I've seen by far, however the dread and sorrow and amount of sheer pain that the main character goes through even in the few years the movie takes place.. is enough to never make me want to see it again, and yet i still think about this film everyday. No other movie has taken me so far down.

The original susperia changed my life , up till then i just watched movies , after i understood directing , cinematography, lighting , editing etc... From then on i started enjoying films in every aspect , absorbing extras on dvd's commentaries, the entire experience.

Thanks for this great brief collection of reviews! Definitely please do a part 2 (or an open-ended series!) because your background and grasp of the language of cinema makes these every bit as educational as they are entertaining!

"Lilja 4-ever" is one of the most emotional and depressing films I've ever seen and of course I like Rammstein !!

yay, high five on the Fight Club. For me it was also the most important movie that started my love for cinema. It's brilliantly done, and still love it years and years after

I'd have to give my pick a long thought, too many have changed me. I'd love to see a part 2! This is one of my favorite videos you've done. 💜

I personally really enjoy these types of videos. Seeing what films really affected people really speaks on who they are or what they’ve been through. I would be totally happy if you did more videos like this in the future.

Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind

Inside out I loved how it showed emotions in a way anyone can understand and I gets me every time and reminds me to not push my emotions away.

Would love to see a second part of this video. Thank you sharing with us what movies have changed your life. This was amazing to watch. x

Emma, I did enjoy this more personal video about films that changed your outlook on cinema and your life in general. It is fun you learn about your mind, & how it works. Thanks for the journey ! Part two sounds like a fabulous addition to your content :-) Thanks for sharing with your community.

midsommar helped me come to terms with the fact that i have ptsd and im getting help for it now. ive never seen trauma acted out in film exactly the way i experienced it (sans the ending of the film lol) and it was such a healing movie for me.

Some of mine include Jaws (saw it at 9yrs old in 1975 and saw it 13 times that summer. Still the most times I saw a movie in theaters.) and I’m still afraid of the ocean because of it. Eraserhead was one that opened my mind to films that could be difficult and surreal. Star Wars made me a lifelong geek, The Exorcist because my parents took me to a rerelease at 13 and it scarred (and scared) me for life. Made me a true blue horror fan. It was my first R-rated movie. Then there was Friday the 13th that gave me a love for slashers. I was so inspired by the makeup effects, I drew a severed hand for an art class and got in trouble for it. So that film gave me the love for makeup effects in movies, AND my rebellious disdain for stupid art teachers who were spooked by a drawing.

Awesome video 🖤 wishing you a speedy recovery. Congrats to being so close to 40k, I remember when you hit 20k! So glad more and more people are seeing your content, it's horror fan gold.

Thanks so much for sharing this with us. I would love to see part two! I've only seen Fight Club on this list. I would say that the movie that most changed me is Secretary 2002. I just identify we everything about it. It's about finding love and acceptance where you're at right now and personal growth through that support. I just love everything about it.

I adore this video, I've never thought about this as a topic of discussion before. I've heard favourite movies, worst movies, technically brilliant films. But never ones that changed me. Maybe I'll come back and share one when I have the brain capacity to put it into words. But thank you for this video, it's given me a lot to think about

I watched Compliance back to back with Killer Joe several times in the theater. Those are both crazy films. It’s also good to hear some more love for Scott’s film. Instructions Not Included is a big one for me. Not many films put you on a roller coaster of almost every emotion like that film does.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower for me. My all time favorite movie. I have never felt so emotionally connected to a film and its characters before. I genuinely felt an attachment to the three leads and every time I watch it, I never want it to end because I don’t want to leave them. It sounds weird, but it’s a film that makes me not feel so alone. Plus it’s just such a beautiful film with beautiful performances.

Thank you for sharing your personal opinions on these movies Emma. I hope you make a part 2!

Don't ever regret putting stuff like this out, and don't feel embarrassed, we all appreciate this a lot and love your content. Keep up the amazing work!

Keep doing videos like this! They're amazing and real and we all love them. A movie that definitely changed me would be How to Train Your Dragon which is probably the first film I remember watching and I think I begged my parents to get the dvd. I've probably watched it over a 100 times since with my family and it includes a character that really shaped me into who I am today. I've been following it for an entire decade and the final film came out last year and I really feel like I've closed a chapter in my life.

Great great topic and happy you shared your inner journey through pictures. A lot of titles are on my 'to-watch list'. "Palindromes" I haven't seen. "Found" has been on my queue. "A Ghost Story" is wonderful. That's actually when I got hooked onto your channel when you shared how much of an impact it made on you, because there's many KZfaqrs out there who review horror movies etc, but it was refreshing to see the sincerity and authenticity you were sharing with the cosmos. It meant something! "Fight Club" punctuated my coming-of-age teen angst (my conscious fallout with Catholicism in which I was raised into, family divorce, living in a post-9/11 world, and an overall existential crisis of 'what's my meaning vs. what's expected of me') with unseen self-actualization. "Fight Club" and Chuck Palahniuk's work ("Choke", "Invisible Monsters", and "Haunted" really come to mind) was 'life', was my second wind with finding myself. "Bowling for Columbine" also was a cousin to this sphere for me. As a kid: "Edward Scissorhands" taught me 'don't judge a book by its cover' while also feeling empowerment for being 'me' someone who always felt different in school, and "Terminator 2: Judgment Day" was like a fantasy of having the dad I didn't have growing up (he was lost in alcoholism) while also getting some sort of validation that hey despite your upbringing (John Connor's turbulent past) you could be destined for greater things ala 'the future is not written'. During my teens: "Leon: The Professional" struck a cord where 'it's better to get hurt because you have something to lose than to go through a pacified life having not gained anything', and "Girl, Interrupted" as well as "Magnolia" reflected the whole 'what does it mean to be living' inner dialogue that I found myself relating to the mosaic of characters. They're all films I'd 'live in' and can't count how many times I'd replay them. Just felt like 'this is where I am right now, this is the world as I see it'. Nowadays, since I've integrated more as an active filmmaker, I re-watch movies that serve a certain tone/theme I'm currently writing/developing etc. Would have to meditate on if there's a title that I re-visit countlessly. Hmm!

Inside Out for me too. In childhood, all her memories are one color. One emotion. Made me realize that part of becoming an adult was experiencing emotion as something mixed, like at the end of the movie, when her memories change. Made me accept a lot of things I didn't want to accept about adulthood, but ultimately made me better. So damn deep for a Pixar movie. x

Antchrist and David Lynch stuff really struck a chord with me

"The passenger" with Jach Nicholson (the search for identity), "Synecdoche New York". There is something also something very special about the movies by Alexander Payne, especially the endings. Like the endings to About Schmidt, Sideways and Downsizing taught me so much about being a human.

Amazing video Emma, really enjoyed it. Movies can be such an important part of people's lives in many different ways, was really moving hearing your stories. Look forward to part 2!

"A Ghost Story" was my favorite film of 2017. As one of your older viewers (59), I could relate to the passage of time and how environments and homes change after we're gone. I often wonder what my childhood home and neighborhood, both of which are still intact, will change in the next 100 or 200 years. Who will be living there? The final shot (which I won't spoil here) is both cathartic and heartbreaking. Thank you for mentioning this beautiful film.

Everyone laughs at me for this. But it’s legend 1985 by Ridley Scott. I will never forget the intensely magical feeling it gave me at five years old.... because miraculously I still get it every time I watch it and I’m 34. It makes me cry every time and reminds me of everything that was good about my childhood. It’s what made me obsessed with films, and there has never been a film that comes close to being as magical. Also hereditary, it feels like the horror I’ve been wanting to see all my life.

Thank you so much for being open and honest. Loved this video Emma

Thank you, thank you, thank you so much for introducing me to A Ghost Story. I have a lot of films that changed me.. Fight Club for similar reasons you discussed. Alien showed me that girls kick ass and Donnie Darko helped me realise it's okay to be different. I could go on all day to be honest, but I'll stop there.. Love your work Emma!

Emma I really did enjoy your personal movies video I think it's neat that you make a video like this you have no reason to be embarrassed by it, just proves your real and not fake and I like that.

I’d def love to see a Part 2. Movies are powerful!!!

ready for part 2, thanks for sharing, i really felt the emotions involved in this video

Thanks for opening up about the films that changed your life Emma. A few that really affected me: Jack the Giant Killer (1962) hallucinogenic imagery that has returned to me over and over through out my life. Texas Chain Saw Massacre (1974) completely changed my aesthetics. Taxi Driver (1976) long long story. The Elephant Man (1980) I probably don't have to explain this one to you. Tarkovsky's Andrei Rublev & Stalker, changed my vision of art and the world. Martyrs is probably the 21st Century film that meant the most to me. And I could go on and on. But I think those are the big ones. YES! Part two & three!

I don't comment much but I watch all of your videos and you always raise such good points. You also make me think of a lot of stuff in different ways. Totally agree on A ghost story, it made me feel so much!

I love this! Thank you so much for sharing! Do a part two! I had a similar experience with watching Palindromes as a teenager.

The part where you talked about never being able to fit in the class, I had the exact same experience and feeling when I was a teenager, realizing I was probably very different. The movie that changed me and determined my passion for cinema is James Cameron's Aliens. I watched it on TV when I was 13 and I was amazed by how good the movie was. I felt I wanted to share it with everyone in the world that this is the best movie I saw. My movie geek life started and never ceased since then.

“The Deer Hunter” and “Coming Home” Are, Perhaps in the truest sense. Horror masterpieces

It was really tough to choose, movies have been such a huge part of my life and such an amazing way to connect with my family. But I think the movie that hit me the most and it had me sobbing uncontrollably for a while was The Fall (2006). I've been suicidal for most of my life so this movie hit me like a sledgehammer and I deeply related to the character of Roy. On having such a wonderful imagination and fantastic creations in your mind but how you just want it to end, how you lash out and resent others for loving you and not wanting to let you go despite how desperately you want to go. In the end, you hold on, live for others while you find a way to live for yourself and be at peace with yourself. Thank you for sharing this, it really reflects how movies go so much deeper than just entertainment for a couple of hours.

I think it's amazing how there are movies that can be so impactful and meaningful to you, and yet I haven't even heard of most of them. It just shows how vast and wonderful the medium is, there's always something new out there to find. Personally I'm another person who was really impacted by Harold and Maude. That and Dead Poets Society, I watched them both in high school when I was going through a lot of shit. More recently, though, is The Florida Project. I can't even quite explain why that movie moves me so much, I think it's a combination of reminding me strongly of of my own childhood, sometimes in oddly specific ways, while at the same time being about circumstances that were very different from mine. It's definitely one of the best portrayals of children I have ever seen in a movie, while also shining a light on a group of people who are often forgotten about or looked down on.

The Edge of seventeen, that movie made me realize how I have to behave with my family, at the time I saw hit I was always fighting with my brother so it really touched me, and it is also a pretty funny movie. Other movies: Hereditary and Jurasic park, I bought a lot of dinosaurs books when i was a llittle boy because I was obsessed for dinosaurs. (I hope my english is correct)

I loved this so much! It's always so interesting for me to hear about other people's journeys into cinema. I'm sure there's many more so would love to see a part 2 sometime 😊 The main one for me that comes to mind is Some Like It Hot. I remember being made to watch it by a friend when we were teens in high school. It wasn't really sure I wanted to watch it at the time because it was an 'old black and white film', but I ended up falling head over heels for it. Now I can't even think how many times I've seen it, and it's most definitely the reason I'm into classic cinema. And the other one is The Breakfast Club. I was obsessed with it in high school, and could quote practically every line. Then when I went to uni, my friends told me they were in a stage production of it that was being run by some guys in the year above us from school and our old drama teacher, and they wanted me to play Allison in it. I said no initially because I was worried I wouldn't be able to handle it on top of my first year uni work (lol at that thought now), but ended up saying yes. And at the first script reading I met my future husband! ❤️

Great video, definitely make a part 2 because I love hearing others opinions and stories and this type of video is really interesting and introspective. Some movies that changed my life: A goofy movie - I know, dumb Disney movie from the 90s, but watching it as a kid really made me think about my parents and helped me empathize with them, and rewatching it as an adult still makes me tear up. Alien - fuckin amazing, and the first time I honestly watched a film and appreciated the nuance of scene composition, atmosphere and horror that is not in your face and jump-scares. It really changed the way I view films and gave me an appreciation for the slow-burn horror, which has honestly become my favourite style of horror filmmaking. Not really movies, but the documentaries Exit Through the Gift Shop and Hail Satan? really opened me up to new things and are surprisingly uplifting and life affirming, in a weird way. In the Mouth of Madness and Event Horizon - gave me a life-long obsession with lovecraftian horror, which has really impacted my own personal writing style. There's a bunch of really good movies like Interstellar, Blade Runner 2049, Dredd and Mad Max: Fury Road that really move me whenever I watch them but I can't articulate why exactly lol. I am now incapable of sitting through the mediocre action trash that Hollywood pumps out because of these types of films. Also the old Guy Ritchie movies like Snatch and Lock, Stock, Monty python, Dogma and What We Do in the Shadows, and the Cornetto Trilogy had a huge impact on my sense of humour. I'm sure I missed a bunch of shit, but these were just some off the top of my head.

Mine are Last orders, a British film and my all time favorite, Kontroll. Love your channel Emma!! keep up the great work!!

Found is a hidden gem that I stumbled upon. I loved this film and the ending damn!!!!

Parasite was the best movie theater experience of my life. My friend and I got tickets to watch Knives Out, but it was playing in a room that served alcohol and we were 19 at the time, so they couldn't let us in. They offered to either give us a refund of our tickets or trade them for another movie that was playing at that time slot, so we traded them for Parasite. Neither of us had heard anything about it beforehand, and we were lightly stoned. Left the theater feeling like my life had just been turned upside down. Every time I watch the trailer I tear up, wishing I could watch it for the first time again.

Great video, Emma! The movies that changed me might sound pretentious, but they are what they are. Ingmar Bergman's Persona is the first movie that REALLY made me think, I just couldn't get it out of my head and I had to read a lot about it, investigate and overthink in order to decide what had happened and what it meant. Michael Haneke's The Piano Teacher showed me the difference between "commercial" movies that make you THINK something's wrong, as opposed to art-house movies that make you FEEL unnerved, uncomfortable and restless. Jessica Hausner's Lovely Rita showed me there was a different kind of movies, those that don't have a soundtrack and many dialogues, those that don't explain themselves. Clive Barker's Hellraiser made me enjoy horror movies, because as a child I was too scared of them and didn't like them. And I think that's it.

Ah man i love cinema... For me Arrival, that movie absolutely stunned me! Also i think the pie scene in a ghost story is one of the most relatable moments ive ever watched

I love that you brought up Compliance. I watched in on a whim one day and it disturbed me badly.

Fun flick....Motel Hell. Lol My kids and I love watching it and just giggling at the gory silliness. Happy Wednesday Emma from Minnesota in The States! :)

Doctor Sleep-taught me that death is inevitable but that we shall not fear it. If you fear death that means you've lived a meaningful life. Blair Witch Project- Never before or after this movie have I stayed up all night long ,terrified to go to sleep. SCRE4M- Scream 4 (and the first one) were to me what Fight Club was to you. An escape from reality. It's the reason I got so much into horror and the reason why I want to becomea horror filmmaker. Also Gayle's character was really important to me. Her bitchiness,while to some people might seem irritating, to me was a way of learning how to defend myself in a world that looked down upon me because of my sexuality and body type. I don't know if that makes sense😅. Dark Water-I've never cried this much with a film in my life. The whole mother-daughter dynamic really gets to me,since I'm really close with my mother. Oooh and that ending😭😭😭😭. Also don't feel stupid or nerdy just because you share your feelings. I don't understand why people think that being honest about the way you feel is something geeky. That's bulldust!!!!😂

This was a great video! Thank you for letting us know about the movies that impacted you! I think the movie that changed my perception of how movies can effect you was "Magnolia", it changed how I thought my life impacted the lives around me and the way that could change someone else's life that I didn't even know.

The movies that changed me are: Hereditary Before I fall The shining

Movies that have changed my life: - Harold and Maude (Watched this one recently, but Maude taught me and Harold so much about how to enjoy life) - Life is Beautiful/La Vita e Bella (Saw this in middle school and this movie taught me to enjoy life through an optimistic lens) - Creepshow (Although my first horror film was The Evil Dead (1981), this was the film that made me fall in love with horror and Stephen King) - Happiness (This film changed my perception on what could be shown on film. Much like Todd Solondz's other works, he presents his film with an extreme depiction of characters that only want to achieve happiness and it is an unapologetic view on how life treats people) - School of Rock (Along with expanding my love for Classic Rock, I loved Jack Black's interactions with the students and how he never discouraged them) - Can't Buy Me Love (What I consider to be the best romantic comedy of all time. I loved the nerd and popular girl dynamic and how it's great to just be yourself)

Martyrs scarred me for life. And I'm not the soft type at all. I literally won't look at the humanity the same ever again.

I 100% agree with you on A Ghost Story. That one and Joker are to date the only two movies that have hit me in such a deep, raw and personal place that I couldn't cry and just needed to process the emotions they brought out in me. The very end of A Ghost Story is just... I think I have mentioned before how the ending made me gasp out loud and then I just felt the grief so heavily that I curled up in my bed and stayed there until my body was ready to move on from that gut punch. With Joker it was just everything. I talked to one of my friends about it recently and she had had the same experience as me. It truly was a movie for people who have been hurting and struggling and dealt with intense loneliness. It hit me so hard because I felt like this movie understood me. My friend said that when she watched it she was like: omg this movie gets me. I thought it was so empowering too because it forced me to face my lowest point in life once again through this other character and while he gave in to the hurt he experienced I had managed to pull through it. Joker was like watching what could have happened if I hadn't been stronger. My friend said the same thing. I don't think this movie will ever leave me. Took me two to three days after watching it the first time before I broke down bawling my eyes out. Couldn't stop. Just cried and cried and cried. Man it hit some deep shit in the soul.

Loved this vid! Definitely would love to see a part 2 if you get a chance! I would say Donnie Darko, The Perks of Being a Wallflower and Call Me By Your Name are films that have changed my outlook on certain things, each in a completely different way!

Fight Club has been my favorite movie for over 20 years. It transcends film into a modern philosophy lesson that amazingly becomes more and more relevant as time goes on, and the world grows more and more twisted.

I would have to say ‘Radio - 2003’ severely changed my life. I was always raised and still believe that you need to treat everyone with respect and dignity, regardless of who they are. Unfortunately, I went to school with kids that were always picking on the mentally disabled and that always broke my heart. It made me feel like I was them for a moment and I hated myself sometimes because I was “normal”. I could never fully be in their position to understand but I always try to.

just got on net but your a great help for me choosin movies your a gem keep it up

So I checked out Compliance, because it had such an impact on you Em... Far out. I'm shaken to the core. So it took me three sittings to watch it all, i kept getting up and walking away in frustration, rage, and sheer helplessness. I knows its 'just a movie' but fuck, i love horror, however this one really got to me. Its brilliant, unbelievable, and shockingly yes it can and does happen. I think thats why it resonates. We all believe we would never fall for such insanity, but would we question the obvious in the face of 'authority'? Lucky, i checked out your other recommendation, Extra Ordinary. An antidote if there ever was one!!! That all said, thanks Emma, for sharing a couple of movies that knocked it out the park. :)

Glad you shared where you got the name for the channel. I definitely want to see A Ghost Story now.

3 years late, but... while I was watching your video I was thinking what movies could make this list for me, and Pink Flamingos came to my mind, and then you read that comment, it's strange cause for me it wasn't the disturbing aspects of it (althought it was for sure the first movie that extreme that I watched), I was 18 and I became obsessed with Divine, it's an icon and I still love her/him today, one of those people that you just wish you'd met in your lifetime... anyway, so this movie was the first one of her and John Waters that I saw, and it's so special to me. I have a poster since then that I've put in my door (outside) in every room that I've lived in. It's so strange to me to see that movie in every "disturbing movie iceberg" video or thing like that, cause although I know it's INSANE and probably it deserve that place, it's so different in my mind. Anyway, it was always about Divine and her powerful powerful presence, being unapologetically you. So much to say about this movie I guess hahah. Love all your videos Emma!

There are some rare moments, you watched a movie and the world will never be the same. First movie that changed and started my love for movies was in 1978, I was a little 8 year old boy and STAR WARS on the big screen was my first and longest love of my life. The original trilogy is part of my DNA. Alessandro Jodorowski’s SANTA SANGRE was one with the biggest impact as an as an adult: When you smell the blood of the dying elephant, Jodorowski infected your mind, it's like a LSD trip. MELANCHOLIE DER ENGEL by Marian Dora is another life-changing experiment. The title says it all: The angels melancholy - disturbing and beautiful at the same time. This piece of art is mindblowing. The newest movie of little list is by far the most extreme movie experience of my life. Me and my girlfriend watched MARTYRS without knowing anything about of it. We love Horror, but the kick in your stomach was to much, normally we talks about the movie. After MARTYRS: No talking, just silence… I've never had such a feeling: disturbed, depressed, overwhelmed that we just watched the best movie of all time!! Pascal Laugier made the ultimate Horror Movie and changed the world forever.

Grave of the fireflies (1988). I wasn't ready to watch that when I did. It stayed with me to this day. And the fact that it is an animation does not tone it down. It actually made it even harder for me to watch. I have another one... I will save for part 2 😉😉😉. Thanks for such a personal video Em.

I loved this, Em and it's always interesting to hear what movies shape people. :-) As for my own picks? I'll leave a few underneath; The Shawshank Redemption - It didn't 'change me' but rather just completely reaffirmed both my faith in humanity and amazing, compelling and brilliantly told film-making. It's one of the only films I give a perfect 10/10 too because it simply does not put a single solitary foot wrong in every second and every frame of that movie. The Shining/The Exorcist - My 2 favourite Horror movies of all time and not just that, 2 of the greatest films I've ever seen, regardless of genre. Of all the Horror movies I watched as a very impressionable (and highly under age) young pup, these 2 classics left an indelible mark on me as they did practically anyone else who grew up on these. I can't even imagine how jaw-dropping it would have been to have seen The Exorcist on its original cinema release?! Primer - Not even close to one of my favourite films as I'm not even sure if I really 'like' this? But in terms of the effect it had on me? I saw it for the first time under the influence of some very strong cannabis and about halfway through the film, I sort of 'tranced out' and when I came to it was near the end. The same thing happened the second time I saw it completely sober. The film is a first time very low budget indie sci-fi drama and it is so impenetrable and just 'off', I can't even aptly put into words what it did to me. But I've never felt quite the same since and I don't know if I'll ever try to watch it for a 3rd time. The Exorcism of Emily Rose - I saw that at the cinema at a time when I was going through some stuff (both worldly and possibly other worldly) and it just hit me in a way that I don't think any other Horror film has ever done before. And I've seen PLENTY of them in my time. Jennifer Carpenter is so staggeringly good (and scary as fuck), that to then find out that she herself had some real life dubious possibly supernatural activity aimed at her (go watch any video or interview on here that mentions it)....it just adds to an already deeply unsettling film. Even more hard hitting that it's also loosely based on a real life exorcism of a German girl that ended in tragedy. I bought the DVD of this years ago and I've never managed to watch it again. That is really saying something when a movie can do that to me, despite how much I liked and admired it!

I had to digest your video. Your topic really got me thinking. I have struggled with drug addiction my whole life. I have been a "sober man" for 22 years. On a dark melancholy day as I was feeling sorry about myself and my f-up situation and felt beyond hope. The film "Ben-Hur" 1959 ‧ Drama/Historical period drama ‧ 3h 44m aired on TV. This film touched me emotionally and had such a profound impact that summer day . After watching this masterpiece of Cinema. I was compelled to change my life and to get my act together and sober the hell up. Thanks for the memory cue. Peace, Rob

Personally the movie I'm A Cyborg But That's OK really resonates with me. I think it's easy to get caught up in the weirdness but at its core it's so sweet and heartfelt and imaginative, it really changed my perception.

Yay, Fight Club! One of my all-time favorites. It was a film I knew next to nothing about and thought I wouldn't like...within a year I could probably quote it from memory. Also, thumbs-up to whoever mentioned Heavenly Creatures, the film that proved that love conquering all is not necessarily a good thing. That ending is positively gut-wrenching. I suppose mine would have to be the original Star Wars. It made me want to be a filmmaker...finally getting around to that.

Was wondering if “a ghost story” was gonna be on here. I haven’t seen it (yet) just remembered how much u love it lol

I absolutely loved this video! And it gave me a lot to think about because I am very into film and the emotion I get from it so I tend to be less analytical, that being said I'd still have a hard time saying what movies changed me or my life or my view of the world. And now all I want to do is think about it. But I will leave this with the fact that when you started talking about it all I wanted to do after the video was finished is watch A Quiet Place because that movie can really hit me in a way most movies cannot, so even though I can't articulate how it changed me I believe it did.

I’d have to think about what movies have changed me, so many flash through my mind. So hard to conceptualize into words for me though! I guess one I can I really say is, As Above so Below. It just bothered me. I don’t know how else to say it. Thank you for sharing! I have a full week/weekend now watching new films! Would love to see a part two.

Part 2 would be awesome. Probably A Clockwork Orange.

I just found u and subbed instantly.ur knowledge has opened up my mind to so many more horror movies,and some are really diaper worthy thx for the sleepless nights.😰

Im new to the channel and I found this video and it really hit me the movie that really hits me the hardest is Roberto Benigni's Life Is Beautiful the movie is about a father and son in a concentration camp. Determined to shelter his son from the horrors of his surroundings, Guido convinces Giosue that their time in the camp is merely a game. And till the moment before his death Guido has a smile on his face and tries to keep his son in the dark of whats going on. As a single dad I use Guido as a becon to try and reach as a father

The first film I remember seeing that could be called 'disturbing' was David Lynch's Blue Velvet. I've been a huge fan of 'disturbing' cinema ever since. Emma, of course we want to see part 2! It is so endearing when you open up.

Most of my life-changing movies I saw during my late teens/early twenties. I think it's such a vulnerable point in your life, looking for hope and validation and comfort wherever you can find it. Here's a few...not exactly favorites, but still have a deep place in my heart for how they made me see myself, life, and film differently: The Hours Minority Report The Fall Stranger Than Fiction Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Garden State

Children of Men really effected me in a visceral way seeing it by myself in a small cinema with no expectation. I don't think I'd felt so immersed in a different world before, I was staggered by the technical achievement but also I was moved by it. There's so many great experiences I can recall though. Man, I just love movies so much.

Spring Awakening- its a musical but it really changed me and helped me understand that there will always be powers greater than ourselves fighting against us. It's extremely emotional and not scary at all, but the way it dealt with one characters suicide really affected me emotionally, first time I experienced this musical I had to go to the bathroom to audibly bawl.

I saw Brokeback Mountain and Mysterious skin when I was like 13, it definitely showed me a different take on life and the way some people lived. Also Requiem for a dream left a big impact. And probably Tideland helped me discover my taste for weird dream-like movies.

To be honest i feel that serials often inspire me much more and also changed my view on certain things much more then most movies could. Things like The Wire or True Detectives or even Breaking Bad had very interesting perspectives on crime, guilt, responsibility, etc.

I thought no one had every saw Found except me; any time I bring it to other people, they don't know what it is. Such an amazing film. Compliance was also very unforgettable (btw, the SVU episode with Robin Williams is one of his best performances). But i would say that The Seasoning House has never left me. An excruciating but enthralling watch. That would definitely be close to the top of my list. Love this video and hope to see more like this!

Emmaaaaa!! :-) A very interesting and personal video this is! Maybe the only movie that really "changed my life" is still my favourite one...Martin Scorsese's Taxi Driver really blew me away when I saw it as a Teenager. Not because of it´s raw violence but because of it´s truthful potrait of isolation. But I will give some more milestones of my "movie life" that at least affected me somehow: Gremlins was the first movie that I ever "saw" (or at least experienced). I never knew where the scene with this cuddly thing in a toycar fighting with a slimy monster came from until I saw it years later as a whole ;-) Prematural Burial by Roger Corman was the first Horror movie I ever saw. My first "great cinema experience" was Jurassic Park in 1993. I´m not a huge fan anymore but I will never forget how this felt on the big screen then. Top Gun was a big deal when I went to Junior High because everyone knew it and found it supercool...so did I...back then :-D Clueless because I had a crush on Alicia Silverstone in 1995 and watched everything she was in at that time :-D The movies that scared and gave me nightmares for real as a child: Candyman, Suspiria, IT, Halloween, Cheerleader Camp (I don´t know why it disturbed me back then, now I enjoy it as a cheese fest ;-)) Two movies that really made me puke because of explicit scenes: Cannibal Holocaust, Saving Private Ryan (the D-Day scenes) Two movies that made me cry in the cinema: Big Fish, Pan´s Labyrinth My scariest experience in the cinema: Watching Lost Highway all alone at a Midnight screening in a very run down theatre...the screen was in a seperate building in a dark alley and the movie creeped me out that I often had to watch behind me :-D Two Horror movies that truly scared me as an adult: Blair Witch Project, Don´t Look Now (never finished it as a child because it bored me...but when I finally did I shit my pants :-D) Of course there are many more...

Another great vid! Yeah I can totally relate on Fight Club. Big Fincher fan. For me I was a teen in HS when Se7ev came out and that film blew me and my friends minds. I just graduated when Fight Club came out and loved it. One of my GF's favorite films is his Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. As a HUGE fan of the first 2 Alien movies Im so Fin pissed we will never know his vision for Alien 3. On the notion of what makes Fincher great, its his honest portrayal and development of characters. And one of my favorite films of this and in general is Eastwood's Unforgiven. Not sure if youve seen it yet but its a must see. And agree on A Ghost Story. Such a shame many will never see it. Its not at all art house pretentious. I know you liked A24s High Life but for me that fell into that. Ghost Story was a heart felt film that simply needs a viewer willing to focus and let down their guard for an emotional ride. On it's notion, here in WI my boys Jay and Mike of Redlettermedia named it their favorite film of 2017. Check out their Half in the bag episode 138 where they dive into it 22 min in. I love their sense of humor and read redbox comments trashing it at the end of the episode showing the ignorance of internet haters LOL. Oh and Kevin Smith commented on while making, it may have been Tusk or Red State (both amazing IMO, I know you dig Tusk), one of his crew asked if they were gonna "Fincher" the shoot. Aka endless retakes of scenes. His response, We dont have the budget to Fincher this man. One maybe two takes tops dude LOL.