I have a lot of questions. I wish I could sit down and talk to you both about all this too. Long story but my daughter is gay and wonderful. Good kid. I knew the second read her letter coming out that eventually she would need to step away from church but it was still hard and Heavenly Father shows me every day how short I come as a parent. I hear your story and am emotional. I love God and Jesus and the church third. I wish we could change the term leaving the church. What if we were so converted to the Jesus of the restoration that it was more painful to leave him than this idea of the church. We do a poor job of teaching a deep love of Jesus I feel. You guys seem like unicorns in a way. How unique are your personal experiences when it comes to your desire and deep testimony that never seemed to leave completely? My perception is that people leave but don't regret it. The last blessing my daughter let me give her I blessed her to wander and hopefully find her way back. I felt strongly about that idea of wondering for her in the blessing then but it haunts me a bit since o watched my brother wander and he still is from my myopic view. I'm the bishop right now and it's been interesting to say the least. Great discussion really.... sounds like vodka played an important role too!