I begged my family for help. Cried blood. They said "We have our own issues"

I’m a year late but I’m so glad I found this. I suffered from PPD for months after I had my second baby. It’s started about 3 months postpartum. I felt alone, isolated, and extremely irritable...like a rage. Eventually I started having suicidal thoughts It was awful. I stood in my closet with my husbands gun to my head. I was going to do it, but I heard my son coming up the stairs calling for me. Thank God! My husband tried everything to get me help, but I was so scared they would take my kids. These feelings progressed and I began cutting myself. I also began having terrible thoughts toward my daughter. Tears are rolling down my face as I write this. Eventually I saw my GP and he was incredible. He hugged me and told me I wasn’t alone. I was placed on a low dose medication and it worked! I began to see a psychiatrist and talk therapist monthly and it helped me immensely. It’s been almost 2 years since and thinking back on that time brings such guilt and shame but I know I made it. My kids have their mama and my husband has his wife. Ladies, please don’t suffer, there is help out there!❤️

Thanks for this video... I’m there right now... so alone. Everyone judges the mom who can’t handle it.

"Stay on the road, stay on the road" almost cried.

I'm a father and a husband here watching this video at 10:50pm while my 2year old is already in bed and my wife is sleeping, the baby blues is real, help your wife as much as you can!!! Literally help them in every way possible, offer yourself, let her nap, do the dishes clean the house! Just my 2 cents!

When you talked about the inner voices saying, “They’re probably better off without you,” I completely lost it. I’m a new mom with a seven week old and I hear that voice pretty often. It’s scary! Watching this video makes me feel like I’m not insane and that I’m not alone. Thank you.

A lot of people are reluctant to admit that they are suffering from depression. They do not want to look weak in other people's eyes. They want to uphold an illusion of perfection. But inside, they are dying.

wow. I'm trying to find out what's wrong with me she explained everything that I'm feeling and going through. I'm a new mom of a three month old and i through I was going crazy with all these voices in my head yelling at me. sometimes I can hear my baby crying (screaming) but when I checked on him he's sleeping, sometimes I feel like running away that I'm not fit to mom, now I know so I will be taking to my doctor now. thanks for this video I almost didn't watch it.

Being a new mom to a 3 week old, I am crying my eyes out listening to this. As a new parent it is important to ask for help and take it when you get it. Talk it out when you feel low

My marriage is definitely falling apart and I'm hurting everyone around me too I feel so hopeless and I feel so alone.

My baby just turned 1. I’m still fighting this difficult battle but I think us al being open about it it DOES help! Wishing all fellow new mom and dads all the best and to be in the best mental health possible.

I think traditional confinement (willingly and safely done) needs to be revisited. Rest, community, self care, revitalisation are some of the core beliefs behind trad confinement. And a paternity/maternity leave that is long enough. Expecting a mom to bounce back soon after having a child is actually insane.

I’m scared to get help . I’m afraid they’ll take my kids away even though they really are the only reason I’m still living

It’s all true. I’m currently there. Bless all those moms❤️ get help don’t hesitate please

My youngest is almost 1 and I've ignored my depression way to long. It's now a large monster in my head. I'm now seeking help.

I really pray for everyone going through this. Understanding that you’re experiencing symptoms of PPD is the first step and talking about it is the next. After my previous pregnancy, I was honest about how I was feeling when doing the questionnaires at my baby’s appointments. Those few times I spoke to his doctor about it really helped me seek out further help even though it was a huge struggle. Family won’t always understand, especially husbands. I’ve come a long way through prayer and therapy which eases my anxiety during my current pregnancy.

All mothers who suffer from postpartum depression or postpartum psychosis need helps and support from their husbands, family and community. Help them . There is hope and the postpartum depression and more severe one, called postpartum psychosis can be treated with medication. Psychiatrist can help. Reach out for help . Support group and friends can help. Moms who are struggling with the postpartum depression, you are not a failure, you are not alone, Thanks for sharing this story.

I told my partner this weekend I didn't feel well in my head and everything was setting me off... he didn't take me seriously and I have never felt more alone...

I went through it by myself not talking to anyone and this speech made me remember so much stuff. How I wished I would of spoken up back then. Such a nice speech, it made me cry.

“Then go and see a doctor” that’s what I’m getting too. I feel so so alone

Thank u for this You made me cry when you said your husband held your hand tight. Thank u for talking about this

I searched for this video because I knew have ppd this is my third child . It has been easy cause I can hide it verse with my other two kids I couldn’t control it but it’s bothering me really bad my husband tells me nothing wrong with me but I know how I feel in the inside it’s making me feel alone ….. I can say so much but thanks everyone for sharing I’m not alone here

This is so touching and devastating. I’m trying to become a psychotherapist to help ppl struggling with depression and ESPECIALLY those who struggle with PPD.

Im still here watching the wondering how to get out of this depression

2 week boy with colic with no help I cry constantly I never felt so helpless in my life.

In my case I raised my hand super early on. I had prenatal depression, spoke with my health professional, communicated my concerns with my partner and my family. Got medication, the works. Still, not everyone got it, some said it's all in my head. Others said medication was gonna turn my baby into a junkie. Still, I struggle to have access to a mental health professional (1+ year waiting list, thank God I wasn't suicidal but my heart breaks for all those who are and can't get the help they need), and add the pandemic and isolation to the mix... My pregnancy wasn't all roses and glowing skin. Giving birth was traumatic, the hospitals are so understaffed where I live, they were closing half the birthing block the day after I gave birth. To recognize you have depression isn't all that. We need REAL health care, we need REAL medical teams who are WELL-taken care of and not overworked and exhausted. We need better education of the general population and not from mothers going through depression. We're busy, y'all. We don't have time to educate everyone while trying to stay alive. Literally, alive. Reaching out only works when you have people close to you. What do you do when your village is so far away?

Camille, You are a Rockstar Mom! Important subject people need to reach 'out' and 'in' for support. Too many women are completely alone in those early years.

My third will be 3months next week, me and my husband had been fighting more then usual I finally talked to him a little bit about it and I felt a little lighter he said he needed an explanation for my behavior lately he said I was a completely different person. Much needed wake up call I wasn't hiding it well and then I realized I really was hiding something. I thank God his so supportive because if wasn't I'm pretty sure I'd completely lose it. Mediation has been such a help I'm slowly getting back into it and I'm feeling like I can almost recognize myself. Staying in your life is so important I hadn't realized how far I'd actually fallen.

Camille Mehta, you addressed this topic so eloquently. I will easily remember each symptom and how to approach my clients and patients. Thank you so so so much for sharing your story.

Wow, I knew I was still struggling from PPD 4 months out but this video really put things into perspective for me. I'm new to the 2 under 2 club plus have a 13 year old and am really struggling. I have to go back to work soon because I can't afford to stay home anymore but I don't know how I'll do it. When I tell people they tell me "you just have to create a schedule, pick up a remote job, take this Google course to get new skills to switch careers e.t.c" and I'm feeling like a failure because I can't put the energy into doing anything but feeling sorry for myself.

Thank you for talking about such an important topic, PPD affects so many of us and you are lifting the stigma!

It is so moving when the truth is told. Your courage to tell the truth is inspiring and potentially could save the lives of others who struggle with post partum depression. Thank you for being the light, and shining the light on this super important issue!

This is powerful. When you pointed to the "death threats" my hairs stood on end. This talk is so brave and so needed. Thanks Camille!

I needed to see this. I’ve suffered from Postpartum from all my children. It’s so real! Smh talking about it working through it & figuring out what works for you is what helps

Thank you so much for this video. This gives me hope to hold on and keep doing my best. That part when you said a stranger came up to you and asked how YOU where doing really hit me the hardest. My own family doesn’t even ask me that, they see my son and only speak to him, so I don’t speak to them either now. I pretend they aren’t there the same why they do me, but when people do talk to me as an individual person, it reminds me that I actually am still a person with a name and not just my sons mom or as my mother likes to say “his milk”. I love my child so much, but this has been such a traumatic experience I don’t plan on having any more children ever again.

A global pandemic is taking this to a whole new level right now

Heart warming and heart-felt talk about a difficult topic. Kudos to you, Camille, for speaking out so openly about PPD. You have done a great service!

I would've loved her to shed light on how this affects dad's as well.

Thanks. I’m sobbing.

Thanks, Camille for sharing your story and raising awareness on this subject. I am sure there are a lot of new moms who need to hear your story.

Your talk gives people the courage to reach out, ask for help, be authentic and REAL. Life's beautiful moments can be tough and the more we can be honest about that, the more we can heal - and connect. Thanks for sharing your authentic message of strength Camille. XO

Camille thank you so much for this powerful talk! I really love how you’ve continued to read even current comments and are responding to women suffering from PPD! It reflects the compassionate caring person you are! 🙏💗

I had no symptoms earlier but now my baby is 1.5 yr old and I am going through this.

Thank you Camille for raising awareness on this important health topic.

Great Job Camille! You went on right after me, so I didn't get a chance to see you live. Im glad i got to see this!

This pulled my heart strings! So real thank you !!!

This video has saved many lives! I can only imagine! Thank you!

I’m so happy you made this video. So so so happy.

Thank you Camille! Your strength means support for thousands of woman. I can't wait to share your talk with all our Fit 4 Two mammas.

Thank you for this!!! I wish I would have done this. I was you. As many, many moms are.

This is so touching. Thank you for this!

when i clean my house and my kids make a mess then my bf comes home and says ur fucken lazy the house is a mess i can never win

All I did was listen and cry thank you for explaining your story, I'm not alone 🙏

Camille you are amazing mom to your kids! And I know how much they mean to you, don’t ever think bad about yourself ever again! I’m so glad that I have a chance to see your presentation on this matter, well done Camille , so proud of you! Xoxoxo Sanela💖

Thank you so much for making this video. I have a 3 week old babygirl and I’ve been called a drama queen and told if I can’t deal with being a mother then they don’t know what to tell me..I’ve already suffered from ptsd and social anxiety before giving birth to her and i stayed strong for about a week and a half and ppd hit me like a brick. I’ve had many suicidal thoughts that then turn into guilt every time I looked at her. I couldn’t imagine leaving her alone so I eventually lost my mind and attacked the love of my life who gave me this beautiful babygirl. Ppd is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with. I’ll be definitely get some medication to help. You helped me not think I was crazy or acting out of control for no reason . Being a new mom isn’t just shits and giggles.

I just feel like a bother to everyone, when people ask if I’m ok I try to say I am because I don’t want to be the one that everyone remembers as a negative person or someone who complains all the time, a miserable person, so I hide from everybody, and I’ve alienated myself, got rid of all friends, I’m struggling, I hate being a mom I just feel like I can’t give them what they need, and I’m just unhappy all the time. I’ve had 3 kids and can’t ever find a baby sitter. I’m just so tired, I’ve had a very very difficult life and I’m just tired. I’ve had friends who even tried to downplay what I was going through. I feel so alone. And most of all I feel embarrassed.

Just found this video. I’m just about 8 months pp. I didn’t start experiencing depression until at least 2 months after giving birth. It’s hard! You explained some of the things I feel down to the T. I keep trying to excuse the way I feel, I’m just tired, I’m just stressed. On my way to seek help.

Thank you so much for this insight.

Thank you for sharing this story.

Thanks camile. God bless your heart.

Just beautiful! Thank you!

Thank you thank you thank you, finally; someone gets it... ❤ God bless you

Such a brave and powerful tedtalk ❤ thank you so much for being a voice for us.

This is real. I am having one but I cant reach out to no one. I just dont know what to do but to just go on with my life. At the same time, there is a hug lump in my chest that I cannot do anything.. Watching and listening to this really make me cry.. At least, I am able to let out some of the lump and burden I feel inside..

Thank you for sharing your story so clearly and powerfully, Camille. Your openness and honesty will help more women and families than you will ever know.

Thank you so much

I just want to feel warm again

Thank you for sharing. I hope this will help my daughter who is suffering with PPD.

The book "30 Days to Reduce Depression" by Harper Daniels was also a huge help.

Perfectly said 🙏👍❤️

Amazing video! Thank you, Camille!!

Living it right now.

Definitely needed to see this! Touched on this on my channel as well.

Thank you for sharing, it’s beyond necessary to bring awareness. If you are suffering you’re not alone. ❤️

After i gave birth to my first daughter i had postpartum depression, i hated her at first and after 3 years it moved to my husband and i wanted to divorce, after realising i cant love without him i planned to have another child so our relationship would be stronger.and now after my second daughter shes 9 months old and im suffering from anxiety. The problem is ive been telling everyone about it and noone cares they say im over exaggerating , and where i live all therapists just want money noone wants to actually help. I tried to reach out to them but none actually took my hand. And here i am at 4 am not able to sleep and im exhausted

Thank you.

Thank you

This feels like me for the past 2 years

amazing lady ever so true

I had to handle it and that rock solid relationship was worse when I spoke up he started telling me I was a bad mom. When I got thyroid problems (which can happen from postpartum) he told me to just die, or kill myself now I'm with my baby without him and happier! Unfortunately I still have to goto court and fight him for custody

Bravo! Incredible speech and a much needed message. Thank you

Reaching out and no one is there besides Mr. No ones ever been there, my parents reminded me how incapable they are to provide emotional support and understanding because it makes them feel some type of way, and even right after a traumatic birth of our twins. The pandemic has made this much worse.

Thank u

Good job, nice speech

I can feel correlated with her

PREACH PREACH PREACH! 💓

I’m convinced this may happen to me, it’s why I’m petrified to have children

I am a new mom of a 1 month old and from India. I am I think suffering from PPD. I thought I was not a good mom for having such thoughts, atleast that's what my parents said. But now that I have watched certain videos on KZfaq I have a feeling that I am suffering from PPD. But unfortunately my husband also thinks that I dont handle my baby well. So support from my husband is far off the list. He is enjoying his bachelor life now and I am stuck here at my place with the baby. So I guess I will just hv to deal with the problem myself.

the milk stain clothes line is sooo relatable

I am so glad more moms are now talking openly about this subject. Just knowing that you're not alone is pretty helpful. I'm also glad that the varied stories being told are shattering the MYTH that every mom who experiences postpartum depression ALSO experiences suicidal or homicidal thoughts. Postpartum depression DOES NOT always mean that you battle urges/thoughts of harming yourself or your child. The experience can look like intense sadness, extreme fatigue, debilitating fear and anxiety, hyper-worry for the safety of your child, frustration over circumstances you can not control (i.e. the social climate, the weather, exposure to possible illness like flu season, etc.), feeling as though you're going insane, anxiety attacks, physical pain like head/body aches, intense mood swings, hopelessness and shame and just being overwhelmed by common life occurrences. Feeling these things for a prolonged period of time during or after your pregnancy ARE symptoms of postpartum depression. The experiences this speaker has shared are real and brave and more common than we ever knew but they are NOT the only type of experience mom's have with postpartum depression. Postpartum depression occurs on a spectrum. Seek help even if you do not want to harm yourself or your child because the absence of those very severe symptoms which occur at the severe end of the spectrum DO NOT mean you are not experiencing a mental illness which may require medical intervention.

Im glad someone is talk about it ,it is still a taboe topic.

The only time I felt like this I had been using a birth control method called Nexplanon, I was depressed, my body changed completely, my figure slowly but surely was demolished into a hormonal VERY unfit body I've never seen before, suicidal thoughts, random crying, everything. I took it out, it took about another year for my body to recover and symptoms to go away but... After that experience I cannot stress enough how this might have affected the lives of so many women, before and after pregnancy.

All Iv ever wanted was a baby. I gave birth in July 2021. I love my son to pieces but I’m constantly reminiscing about my pregnancy,I’m really missing being pregnant and I even loved my labour. I even miss the hospital where I went for scans ect. It’s getting bad to the point where I feel I’m going though a bad breakup I can’t seem to get past this I’m constantly crying and looking back to the past.

P.S. I cant reach out - we have no family around us - when I tried to reach out to my family, they minimalize my feelings. I have also have gone to a psychologist for help on other issues at one point in time in my life and she diagnosed me with complex ptsd from childhoold traumas; codependency, secondary traumatic stress and adjustment disorder, and she never TOLD ME - I had to threaten to sue her to get my records to go get other help - so my faith in the psychological profressional community is slim...

This is how I feel 😢

My son is 7 months old and I’ve been battling this for a long time now. I feel sick at the thought of telling someone, I don’t even know how to make the words come out of my mouth. I need help and I don’t know how to get it

I'm right here now. 8months after giving birth and I'm still struggling. Unfortunately I have noone to reach out to.

I cant anymore

My boss's wife took her life a couple months ago. She wasn't able come out of the postpartum depression., 😔. RIP

I don't want to live but I don't want end my life nor that of my child. I suffered from emotional neglect so I don't want her to feel any of that😭😭 I just need help with the house, that would help so much.