“I just stood there reflecting” me every time I watch these podcasts

I love Amanda so much. She seems so genuine and pure.

The not knowing if you’re horny or need to pee is SO TRUE😭

Alyx and Amanda’s chemistry is top tier. they need a ship name

That girl who is homeless needs to know she is definitely NOT an awfull person! Just feeling guilty about it means she has empathy! Also she sounded adorable and is probably just in a very hard situation, sending love her way

Holy fuck hearing your voice on this podcast and having Alyx and Amanda talk about you is SURREAL. Thanks for being so kind about my story I won’t say which one because obvi but that was unreal. ❤

I’ve had many conversations regarding sex with my mom because she’s a nurse. I can confirm that kinks can be passed through genetic 😭😂

I love how we went from talking about the amazingly spiritual, transformative, beautiful, wonderful experience of momma Aya to someone stomping a turd down their drain 😭😭😭😭😭 I fucking love this podcast

peeing in the shower is one thing but 'waffle stomping' is news to me lmfao

It's always so sweet seeing Alyx and Amanda showing their love for eachother and being super supportive of eachother. We all need people like that in our lives ❤

I absolutely loved hearing you talk about your ayahuasca experience. It really is such a big turning point for most, one of the best forms of therapy there is. I’m proud of you and so insanely happy that you had a positive experience 🥺

Amanda seems like such a lovely person. Her commentary makes me cackle

The homeless girl, I really feel bad for her and the boy she’s dating. She shouldn’t be stringing him along but also I understand that she probably doesn’t have many people in her life and he’s probably a comfort to her in this hard time and she doesn’t want to lose that. ❤ my thoughts are with her.

I'm so glad you had that ayahuasca experience. Absolutely life changing and reality shattering in the most empowering way. Illusions are revealed, pain becomes integrated, the ability to connect to the Self is incredibly strengthened. And it allows us to experience Universal truth beyond the man-made world. It brings us to a much deeper purpose, and helps remind us of this sacred experience that is so often littered with distractions and useless thoughts. Thank you for sharing!! I'm celebrating you and so excited to see how your journey evolves, Alyx!! AMANDA, Just got to your portion where you're sharing about your journey too 😭 YOU ARE SO SUPPORTED. What a beautiful realization you had for following what you know you deserve. I've also cut out substances and what a beautiful thing it is to explore a new way of living for the sake of your well being. I love you and I am so proud of you. This is truly a time of awakening on the planet and it's incredible to watch you evolve and find yourself even more. Thank you for sharing. You two are so fucking badass. Celebrating you both. 🥳🥳🥳

22:00 I asked my older sister and mom and I can say that we are not into the same type of kinks but it was actually a really funny conversation that I feel brought us all closer together so I would def recommend!!

The guy with the roach literally had me cackling 😭 i thought it would be something crazy insane and it was a roach

Yall I'm high and the f*cking roach situation has me cryyyyinngggg 😭 Alyx's confused face when he was freaking out bahahha

Does anybody else like every single one Alyx videos before it even starts cause they’re your favorite thing ever and you already know you’re gonna love it? ❤

The beginning of this podcast made my entire day! Both of you sharing your experiences made me tear up. So excited for you and your profound shift (neutrality zone) . I’m also realizing that there is great power in letting yourself be supported. It’s all connected, thanks for that extra bit of confirmation❤️

Thank you for making my Thursday’s so much fun Alyx!

The "waffle stomping" secret made me not wanna finish my fries 😭😭😭

sounds like you went to a great place for your journey yayyyy we’re so excited for the newness it brings

I'm in the same boat as Amanda on the "lie about or omit" question. I was sex trafficked and abused as a kid, and it plays a huge role in who I am to this day. I never used to tell anyone that, and still am careful about who knows.

playing animal crossing and listening to dirty secrets is truley the best combo

Hi Alyx, I’m sorry to inform you that I do not in fact poop in the shower 😂

I can't say how amazing this episode was this week, ugh I couldn't survive without it

Just finished the ep! The entire thing was incredible. Beautiful and also super hilarious! Thank you Alyx & everyone else!!!! ❤️

Just had surgery and thank fucking god this just came out

No matter how depressed i am i have a good time when you post! Love you and Amanda💙💙💅🏼💅🏼

Earliest I’ve ever been 😭😭 this video’s literally are one of the things I look forward to on Thursday

It was really interesting to listen to your experience with your trip but it also brought me anxiety which I have no idea why. I hope I could reach some kind of peace like that one day. Glad it was good for you.

This is your best yet. Also that first guy with the roach 🪳 😂😂

I could absolutely never do ayahuasca because I have a major phobia of throwing up/others throwing up. But one time I took a dab of what I thought was reclaim, which is the leftover wax in your dab rig, we used to scrape it out and save it in a little puck for when we ran out. I live in Denver now so no more of that, but anyways, I went to take a dab of it and it turns out it was dmt. It was a huge dab too cause I was thinking it was reclaim and not very strong. I smelled the infamous dmt smell as I excelled and gasped and screamed, "I accidentally did the dmt!" I had never tried it before, it was mt boyfriend's. And as I said dmt my voice went into slow motion and really low and echoed. I basically melted into the floor. I didn't know much about it so I really thought I was dying. It was lile roller coaster tycoon but falling through a tunnel in the floor. I have ocd and anxiety, never like to lose control, so it was super traumatizing but also therapeutic in a way. I basically was flopping around on the ground like a fish and saying "hello" and "am I dying" over and over. It was so weird cause my voice echoed, it was like when you're in a fun house of mirrors, but instead of a million images(probably because I closed my eyes) it was a million different voices echoing. About 5-10 minutes into the trip, my roommate was cooking a pizza and the oven timer went off. That beeping brought me back into reality. The idea of time and food and my roommates were within grasp again. Such a crazy experience, and like Alex said, I felt this huge bravery and lack of fear after doing it. Like if I can do that, I can handle anything. But since I do have ocd, it was traumatizing to lose that much control, so I did develop severe panic attacks for about a year after. Something would remind me of the trip, almost like ptsd, and I would feel like I was falling through that hole again. I remember being in the middle of eating and having to spit out my food cause I suddenly felt panicked and nauseous. Driving and feeling like I was floating and having to pull over. I couldnt even smoke a hit of weed for a few months after without tripping out. It's a lot better now, though and I'm grateful for the experience. I've definitely grown as a person since then. I go to a lot of a music festivals with music that people like to do dmt to in the crowd and the smell always makes me smile, looking back on all of that and the wild ride. I wonder if I'll ever do it again, but on purpose lol

this podcast is definitely NOT something i should be watching while eating… especially with the first secret😬😬

i love this podcast so much Alyx 😂 please never stop

There is no poll , I wanted to immediately add my vote of NOOoooOooOOoo

Ugh I love this episode ❤️❤️ so many beautiful discussions

the transformative nature of psychedelics is truly fascinating and remarkable to me, i am eternally grateful for the experiences i’ve had both personally and with those i’ve encountered along the way..i feel that the more information we’re exposed to in safe spaces such as the one you’ve created here will further advance us as beautiful humans, thank you for sharing!

As a raging emetophobe……….. I could not imagine…… a more horrific yet tangible description……. of hell

my man rlly got scared over a roach😂

this is the only podcast i continue to listen to, love u alyx and amanda!

Thank you so much for sharing your experience (both the good and the bad) with ayahuasca because it is something that I want to try. If you did ever make a video specifically on that I would definitely watch it.

i used to lie and tell people i wasnt autistic when dating them. my boyfriend now knows and hes autistic too (he actually found out from realizing how similar our traits are). warning: for trauma in the next bit for why i dont tell people (also sorry for any spelling/grammar errors its 3 am i dont give a shit) me being autistic is kinda obvious but i was still terrified to tell people because my dad would always tell me growing up that nobody would ever care about me because im autistic and i would "ruin" every relationship (platonic romantic whatever) by being autistic (he would even use the fact that my mom was a politician to manipulate me into believing that everyone knew i was autistic and thats why everyone bullied me at school and hated me and thats why all my friends were moving away and i just didnt pick up that my mom was "hinting at my autism" (she wasnt) because im "stupid for being autistic") so i had so much internalized ableism and fear of abandonment that i wouldnt tell ANYONE im autistic. i was diagnosed at 8 and im 16 and i only told my own siblings last year and 1 possibly 2 of them are also autistic and i was still TERRIFIED to tell them. none of my friends knew nobody knew. now i tell people right off the bat because if i get attached i will spiral and try to take my own life if i get abandoned (not an exaggeration but it mostly happens with the one person i get attached to) because of my internalized ableism. there have been times where ive put up with others hurting me to the point of re developing ptsd and while its hard to admit ive been toxic and obsessive and jealous at times because of how bad of a fear i have of people abandoning me. im working on overcoming all that and being a good person. its not even my disabilities that make me toxic at times it is my trauma/internalized ableism directed at myself but that isnt an excuse to make others feel bad so im working through all the trauma to be a better person for myself and everyone around me. and if anyone has any sort of disability and had a similar upbringing or similar fears of abandonment: just know people WILL still love you and you will find good people in your life, your disability is not burdening to others. having a disability does not make you unlovable or a bad person. if people abandon you because of your disability that is NOT your fault. once you find supportive people in your life things do get better. and parents: if you tell your kids they are a piece of shit or a burden or unlovable or any negative things for having a disability, i hate you. telling a child how horrible they are will destroy them for life. if you are going to hate your kid for any possible unchangeable aspect of their life, dont become a parent it will HEAVILY mess up a child if you hate them for something out of their control. whether that be their, race, gender/sex, sexuality, gender identity, physical disability, or mental disability (including mental illnesses those can be disabiliting). also i find it pretty ironic that my dad thinks im stupid for being autistic, i have a far higher iq than him. sorry for the long rant. tldr: my dad is an ableist asshole causing fear of being abandoned for being autistic, took years to tell anyone about me being autistic.

I love when Alyx says she's a little turned on because I'm like "good, it's not just me" 😅🤣

this is my favorite series ever

Alyx I listen to We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle religiously and I don't recall them ever having Subway ads lmao

the one about the pee & them literally being a minute from their house is SO FUNNY i literally cant stop laughing

So excited for this one! ❤️

Thanks so much for sharing about your ayahuasca experience!!

Omg what a wholesome birthday cake person. Love them ♥️

Where's the poll? My answer is NO.

Regarding relationship lies- one ex literally pretended like his grandma died so I’d feel sorry for him and bond over it or smth?? Later I found out both of his grandmas were happy and well. And another one did the classic “yeah we’re in an exclusive relationship“ but went on to date 5 other girls simultaneously thing

THIS IS MY SECOND TIME THIS WEEK HEARING OF WAFFLE STOMPING TOOOOOO SOMEONE TAUGHT ME YESTERDAY

the trip you went on sounds insanely powerful i’ve had a long journey with psychs everything you said was relatable

I like the lil "Im lying" house shaped cardboard cut out in the thumbnail

That old man holy shit. Wow. I feel so bad for that girl.

I hope every episode is this!!!!!!!!! Posted over and over and over and over again catch me watching again friends

Ive NEVER pooped in the shower. One time I pooped behind my work building though but its ok because I work at a vet.

For the last few months,I've been doing that "set intentions" method without even knowing it was a thing. I kinda just started doing it cause I discovered it worked on me 😂 its cool hearing you talk about it

Wooooow Alpaca bag was definitely iconic 😂😂😂😂 that NEEDED to be commented on Was that not always a thing guys telling girls it’s backshots that give you a butt cause everybody in my high school was talking about that Sometimes I’ll try and go pee to see which one it is 💀💀

where’s the waffle stomping pole

gosh i love amanda. she’s so precious 🥹

i would love a full video talking about your Ayahuasca experience!

I love how honest alyx is like if something turns that girl on she’s gonna tell it like it is!

loving the podcasts

I Love these podcasts soooo So MUCH . How was the ayuhasca?

Alyx, how do you manage to not fall in love w/ some of the sweet guys u find on chat roulette?!

I WISHHHH we could see the people you admit your subscribers secrets to on chat

Last round of a pause convinced me to stop contemplating and make that only fanss, and tonight I just made $50😜

the lord blessed me today with a podcast episode

The chemical that's in Subway bread and yoga mats is water it was written in a very scientific way.

Alyx. You’re just glowing lately - you’re beautiful friend!

"That's gonna be a no from us dawg" 👌🤣

I was still living in a homeless shelter when I got my first security job and no one at work had any idea. You really never know what’s going on in someone’s personal life. I feel like most people think it’s really obvious when someone is homeless, and while it can be (especially if they are completely unsheltered), that’s not always the case.

that is actually the best round of apause ty

This podcast gives me life

This video is over a year old but found me when I needed it to. Is there a video where you talk more about your experience?

I’m imagining the “what are you listening to?” Guy coming up to the cashier…

this was not the episode to listen to while getting ready for a night of drinking at the club lmfao

do they distort the audio ( the session where they call a secret submitter)? because it sounds kind of the same in many episodes.

Anyone happening to see Alyx's check list on this day would be thoroughly puzzled

I love u so much been watching u for years! Ik u mean no harm

So I’m a guy, and umm, my bf doesn’t know that I’m gay. What do I do?

Just a quick correction about pigs and sweat, sweat is not meant to eliminate toxins, that would be urine and blood filtering organs (which I can't recall the name of in english), sweat is meant to lower body temperature, which only adds to pigs' stress, but nothing to do with toxins

The remedy for pain is pain. Ive heard that before and its so true. 🖤✌️

Omg I think I might be first. Love you and your videos!

I don’t see the poll, but I definitely don’t poop in the shower 😂😂

I’m sure the guy he’s dating knows something’s off. They won’t get closer unless he tells him, and even then he may leave

first roulette guy was so funny

How that merch coming along I need to wear those masterpieces

i will have the conversation with my parents. they are super open & honest about everything so it won’t 'ruin' anything 😅

Where’s the poll? (btw no i don’t waffle stomp)

Bruh why did that guy scream like that 😭😂😂

I also have pica! Wanted to answer some of the questions that came up! Yes. Eating a lot of anything that isnt meant to be eaten is bad, it causes abdominal blockages. My version of pica is fairly extreme. I eat plastic, glass, myself, string, i ate a blade once. But some important things to note! If you have pica DO NOT eat toys! Get those chewable fidgets or eat candy wrappers normal plastic is not safe! It releases chemicals that can cause BRAIN DAMAGE!! Some people recommend gum but it doesnt work for me as part of my pica is the ripping up things part (which is good because everything i eat is small enough to pass through) for me when i eat myself its mainly the skin around my nails or my nails themselves, i think cutting your nails is overrated, let them grow untill theyre inconvenient and chew them off i say! But yeah just remember the thing about plastic and consider an autism evaluation if you also have pica! Just dont hurt yourself

Where's the waffle stomping poll? I was genuinely interested 🤣🤣🤣

Oh this is intriguing

Aww amanda's words really touched me i just wish the best for her i’m sure she’s a greater person that what she thinks she is i hope she finds happiness and healing ❤️‍🩹 lots of love amanda 🤍🥺

girl i came to watch something while i eat and the first story demolished my apetite😭😭😭

my mom is a chronic oversharer and I can say that we both had an experience with a certain kink where we thought we were into it and then realized it's not for us.

the yoga mats thing was a joke post…the ‘ingredient’ was water…….