Damn, watching a human being open about so personal things is truly empowering. Huge respect man.

“What you still need to know is this: before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream. That’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.’ -Paulo Coelho The Alchemist

I think we all kinda lose our sense of “why” at some point. All we gotta do is keep going, no matter what we do, and the why will eventually get clearer. What’s the purpose of life? To live every second ✨🙌

I’ve had panic attacks before because I had no idea that I was anxious because I bottled it all up. Then I read that gratitude can help with anxiety, I tried gratitude meditation and I’ve not had them since. They say that it’s almost impossible to feel anxiety and gratitude at the same time. Thank you man! I’m forever grateful for your videos. You make us feel less alone.

can we appreciate how far he’s come. his content used to be all videography (which isn’t bad) and now there’s all this personal and intimate insight :’) it’s so nice to see the growth over the years.

Nathaniel is helping thousands of people work towards their goals in a way that promotes wellness, not sacrifices wellness. He is giving people a better chance at understanding their lives and making an honest evaluation of it. Very important; thank you Nathaniel.

Living with a narcissist is so emotionally exhausting. I've lived with one my whole life. It's all about them and their needs; stepping all over your sense of self and turning your self-esteem into dust is what they do best. I feel so disillusioned with life right now, like it's not worth living anymore, since I spent all those years trying to please that narc that I don't know who I am and what I really want to do. And I'm constantly pushing people away because I'd rather not be hurt in any way by anyone again.

One thing I've learned through my life is sometimes quitting (and letting go of something) is a good thing

It almost feels like everyone has to go through some level of depression to figure out what we want from our life.

I loved this video. It felt like just sitting down and chatting about the moments that have shaped us into who we are today. I think many of us have years or times that we can reflect back on like this. I know I look back on 25 like it was the worst year but the most productive year to show me what I deserve in life and what I don't. Thanks for the reminder that through pain comes growth if you're willing to walk ahead of the shadows!

Sit down storytimes are great! It's like sitting down with a friend with a cuppa. Thanks for sharing your journey. Really resonates sooo much!

*”We have two lives. The second begins when we realise we only have one”* - Confucius Love from a small KZfaqr 💙

I'm going through one of those bad periods in my life at the moment. Thank you for making this video. I'm trying to work really hard to fight through it right now and get to a better place and this video helps in a small way on my own journey.

“It’s okay to not be okay sometimes” Really needed to hear it, thanks for sharing your story, man!

You’ve no idea how understood I felt while watching this video. I’m 20 years old and I have no clue of what the hell is going on. The hole past year is such a blur; I feel like I lost control of absolutely everything, but the worst part, and you put it into words, is that I lost the reasons and I lost the point of why I was doing the things that I was doing. I don’t know what’s going to happen and definitely not know where my life is headed, but is nice to hear that it will no always be this confusing. I guess you’re right, it’s a part of growing up. By the way, I’m sorry that you didn’t have a very pleasant time in Argentina, we would love to have you back!

I went through the same experience: 2019 was supposed to be one of the best years of my life, as I had begun a study abroad programme in Paris, but my year was spent recovering from burnout, suffering from depression and feeling numb inside. It was really difficult but it helped me begin my journey of personal development and taught me to take care of myself more

Whenever I watch your videos I feel like I'm becoming more and more wiser with every video. -THANK YOU 🙂

I'm so sorry that the time you spent in Argentina was so hard. I know that this country can be very tough (actually, it's never been easy). But also I think that probably it was the time and place you have and will learnt more from, in due time. Nietsche made the famous quote: lo que no me destruye me fortalece. I hope if you ever come back you'll have a better time here. Your videos are consistenly better each time.

I think what I’ve struggled with the most is that “why”, which is something still hard to make sense of but hopefully one day it will:/

The level of genuine interaction I get from watching this channel is too real. Even though the video is a bit more relaxed, I feel like I am right there with you as a mate. Guess that just speaks to the power of storytelling right?

Worst phase in our life teaches us most important lessons than a good phase in our lives . I am experiencing it:) Thankyou for sharing Nathaniel❤

I am suacide survivor and disabled 32yo male. Broke my body because of narcissistic abuse explained in your previous video. My self-conficence fall off the cliff. Felt so deep sence of shame that nobody is up to endure. I still suffer from PTSD and daily pain. It's very comforting to know that it can pass with time, although disablility cannot be undone. Thank you for seriousness here.

Having parents who are narcissists. Living in a "third world" country and being socially isolated contribute to the misery and hopelessness and the question "why" that complicate things more.

well this is probably the most relatable youtube video I have ever watched, thank you for sharing. It makes me feel a little less alone, grateful for what is and motivated to keep going.

I really needed to hear this right now. Not only have you validated my struggle but to see you on the other side of it, successful and happy, gives me alot of hope. Thank you for sharing.

"Streangth grows in the moments when you think you can't go on but you keep going anyway." Thank you nathaniel for putting this out you are mentally so strong. I have been feeling this way and your video really came at the right time. Please keep doing this storytime videos this will really help us.

Thank you so much for sharing this with us Nathaniel! When I was 18, depression, anxiety and suicide attempts entered and devastated my world and everything I knew till that point. I was also abroad, also felt super alone, no friends and no one to speak with. So, hearing people share their disadventures really touches me in some type of way. So, thank you

I'm 19 and I feel like I'm going through the worst year and the best at the same time, and it's sooo reassuring to hear someone who has grown out of it and can look back saying that it had to happen this way ❤️ thanks so much for opening up!!

Your honesty and authenticity is really encouraging. I love your videos!

Your vulnerability in this video is very inspirational! I think that many of us can relate to many elements of your story in one way or another. Thanks for sharing man!

I actually feel like im in this place at 18 years old and its comforting to see that you aswell were in a dark period and ended up in such a great place not too long after. Always appreciate your videos man. We dont really know eachother but im sure speaking as a viewer you have many friends who appreciate your existence.

This piece really encouraged me as someone who is pursuing a path in the creative field without college. I've got to work hard while also not overburdening myself with pressure and realize that these things take time. Thanks, Nathaniel.

Wow... thank you for this video man! Not sure if you'll see this comment, or anyone else for that matter... but I've been going through a lot lately and definitely relate to a degree of that lost feeling and feeling like overwhelmed about the future etc.

Feeling sadness can be so lethargic and took so much of our energy. I'm glad you're now in a good place, Drew! I love your videos and often replay it, for your deep thoughts & inspiring life journey!

that's such an awful experience Nathaniel, i'm so sorry, so happy you're out the other side. i really enjoyed this format - you are an excellent storyteller :)

Thank you for sharing so openly. Your experience applies to so many of us, I'm sure, going through all different kinds of things. It is hope-giving to hear you sharing in hindsight. Thank you for the vulnerability and the honesty.

Yes, please do more of this style! Thanks for sharing your story Nathaniel 🙏

It's refreshing to see someone speak of their experience as the observer, life unraveling itself to help him grow. Such an awesome video!

Thank you for encouraging us to be real and to embrace our humanity! Transparency is such a big act of self love

I appreciate this so much, thank you for sharing stories like this. This one touched a part of me that believes that just maybe the worst year of my life won't last forever...

can we just appreciate the quality of the videos he makes!!!!

This resonated so much with me. The video felt like a warm comforting hug from a wise person I trust. Thank you

This affected me so deeply. I find myself on a parallel path-- workaways, narcissists, valuing reflection, travel. Suddenly out in the big bad world. What an articulate and thoughtful portrait of a past version of self. I hope that five years from now I can sit down and recount the connections and trials of life, and continue to strive forward. These sorts of videos make it measurable over time and prompt self awareness in others...myself included. Fantastic.

Thanks for sharing the most vulnerable moment of your life. I feel like the society has always been telling us that we need to know what we want in our life, but to get there, we have to go through a process, we will struggle and get lost…but not many people talk about it.

watching you this past year has helped shift my perspective on content creating. there's something so special about a creator being honest about their lives, lessons, and mistakes. thank you nathaniel and keep it up.

I was missing a video of yours 🧡 thank you so much!

Thank you for following the path less travelled and following your passion for travel and film making. We wouldn't have your amazing creations if you'd followed society's expectations. We need more people like you! You're an inspiration to so many and I'm so glad you can now look back on the tough times with grace ❤

You have put all the feelings I’m experiencing these days into words my friend. Your words are a true inspiration 😊🙏🏻

Wow, I really love how vulnerable and real you've been with this video. I've been through some similar issues and resorted to strange coping skills. On top of that, I felt so much pressure to make a toxic situation work. Thank you for sharing this 🙏 ❤

Absolutely love this. I love your mind- and I’m sure others do too. Some may not understand it but that is alright. Your stories and mindsets with connect or help most people that watch. I love your content so much- I see the rom you put in. I can’t wait to see the next video like this in five years about how your life has been in the now!

I really liked this. I'm in that stage of life right now where I feel lost and I need to figure out what kind of life I want to live. Thank you for letting me know that this was normal :) It really helps a lot

I’m currently going through a tough time mentally and I’m learning to find the beauty in those struggles. Future me will be much stronger than before. Appreciate you sharing this means a lot to a lot of us. ♥️

wow, this is super inspiring- especially because I am in that "trying just to get my foot in the door" phase of life right now, just to hear someones story turn to success is the best motivation to keep going- Thank you Nate!!

Thank you for sharing this part of your journey. It was exactly what I needed to hear right now - just to feel understood and not alone in the season of life I'm in currently. It will pass ♥

Love these videos! Thank you so much for sharing. Narcissists bring you to a place on your Heroes journey that show you your own wounds. It’s excruciating, but the truth is within ourselves. Exploring that, rather than remaining paralysed is life changing. You give hope to many that their suffering is ok, and that nothing stays the same. 🙏

man, your openness is so precious and rare - thank you so much!

Wow Nathaniel... Thanks for sharing so many of your worst moments in life, I believe we all appreciate your vulnerability!

Loved this video! Hearing your struggles makes me feel less alone, when live can be so overwhelming and i feel lost on where im going. Thank you for sharing, I found it very valuable.

loved this video nathaniel!!! really felt like I was sitting down and listening to a friend. I think intimate and vulnerable storytelling is your strength :) thank you for your beautiful content!

This actually inspired me. Tour videos are my little daily highlights. Tha k you for sticking to what you believe in and what u dreamed of. Always remember, there are a million people always standing behind you

So glad you brought up these points of learning from painful periods. I’m finally moving on from a phase of my life that’s been so painful and difficult, and even though I know I’ll have very painful moments in this next phase of my life, I’m ecstatic to see what I learn from my new experiences. I loved this laid back feel. Felt like I was at lunch with a friend!

I love listening to you speak, it feels like having a conversation with a close friend. Thanks so much for sharing this perspective and how you grew from that rough period in your life ❤️ I hope I can reach your level of contentment one day

Can’t even begin to explain how deeply I relate to this story! It’s a beautiful video with well thought out message. Thank you, I’m sure there’s more people that can relate to this than you think there are!

I've gone through a similar experience in my life, thank you for sharing your story with us. It makes all of us feel less alone when we open up like that.

Nathaniel, your story in this video is precisely what I needed to hear. Right now, I am feeling what you felt back in 2016-2017 and I’m struggling big time. But somehow, you have managed to transmit hope for what’s to come. Thank you for this video :)

The best video I saw on the internet this year. Your storytelling is inspirational and I heard what I needed to hear - about the moments in life when you feel lost (I'm kinda in that stage right now). Thank you for that video and I'm looking forward to more videos like this one. :)

This video is so inspiring, and thank you for sharing the perspective of how hard times are necessary! It's so easy to get sucked into a victim mindset of "woe is me" carrying around the pain of our hard times, rather than growing from them

"Pain is one of the biggest teacher in life" , couldn't agree more!! ❤️🖤🙃

This video is absolutely lovely. Hard times add depth to the human experience, they help grow the vital life skills of resilience and compassion (for ones self and others). Understanding the darker sides of the human psyche (including narcissism) and why they manifest themselves can not only aid in appreciating the genuinely positive people in ones life but, help in creating empathy for those who do harm themselves or others. Importantly, empathy and forgiveness for those individuals does not mean forgoing empathy and compassion for ones self. Boundaries and distance from negative behaviour is essential. Perhaps understanding that people are the way they are for a multitude of reasons including past events, genetics, etc, can help alleviate the pain felt internally, making it all seem a little less personal. To sooth the fear created by others, one must have boundaries for how they will be treated, reflecting respect and love for ones own life. These are just some thoughts tho haha, did not expect to ramble so much this morning. I hope you enjoyed my unedited stream of consciousness hahahah 😅

Thank you for sharing your story, hearing you say " it takes time to process the things that happen to do" really resonated with me. We don't grow up in a day, we're always growing and it helps to hear people share their stories. Thank you!

I relate so freaking much. Thanks for being vulnerable man. All the love 🙌🏼

Thank you for this! Very inspired, and listening to your story at this exact time was so on point. You're a good storyteller by the way)

I sincerely hope that this is the only thing you ever have to go through in your life. It might have been the worst year but it wasn’t bad at all.

Thanks for sharing! Really like this kind of videos, such a heart-to-heart :) i am happy that you are in a point in your life in which looking back is not painful anymore, and you can reflect on what you got from that year.

Thank you for sharing, had a very similar experience when I went to university! Your videos are always so honest and insightful

This "conversations" are the best! Really love this kind of videos!

Thank you for sharing your worst part of your life. It's good to normalize that we all go through some tough times in our lives and it is not a shame to share it but it rather encourages us to feel more compassionate towards others. For me, this period is teaching me to be a lot more patient with myself and to accept things take time in life. Enjoyed the content, thanks!

Thanks for sharing Nathaniel ! Your stories are like guiding light to my journey❤️

Nathaniel channel is the gift that keeps on giving

Truly appreciate your authenticity and openness as always. It's so easy to see people on what they've achieved and forget the hardship and challenges they went through to get here. Everyone faces obstacles in their lives, the question is what you decide to do about it. Love the heart and soul you put into your work and thank you for being you.

Another fascinating video Nathaniel! You remind me of me in many ways, specially in reflecting, empathy, I’m feeling like experiencing things lead us to a bigger frame of reference, in feeling uncomfortable, and most importantly in being a dreamer and having to deal with the harsh reality that dreams do take a lot of energy even though in our heads it can seem a lot more clear cut.

"Mar calmo não faz bom marinheiro", é o que penso quando passo por um momento de dificuldade. É relaxante e aconchegante ouvir um relato como esse, porque todos passamos por essas fases e esquecemos que faz parte. I love your videos, they're so inspiring! Have a nice day, Nathaniel ( :

I’m tearing up watching this video ❤️ thank you for sharing this, it really makes me feel less alone.

Yess!! This is so encouraging and it's good to know you're not alone! You are awesome keep going!!

Thank you for opening up and sharing this with us all. A brave choice to be so vulnerable...bless be for that courage! And what lessons you've learned (and thankfully are sharing!) that have made you so very empathetic!

I like hearing about your life on a more personal level. I like the artsy videos and experiments too, but this feels more like actually getting to know you

Thank you so much for this video Nathaniel! I really can relate to your story here. Happy that you are living your dream now, it's so inspiring

Thank you so much for being vulnerable and open about your experiences and struggles, I know I needed to hear what you said. Having these conversations is really important and taking that extra step to share with all of us took courage so seriously thank you!

Thanks so much for this Nate, I'm currently 18 and feel like I'm so lost with my own thoughts, past (mistakes), and more. So much encouragement and insight from you. Lova ya man!

Please make more videos like this Nathaniel. This feels so much real, thanks for sharing your struggles on this platform.

Its nice to know that I am not the only one who went through something life changing in 2016-2017. Thank you for making this video. I am late comer to your channel but I am looking forward to watching your videos!

What you create and share here helps a lot man, thanks for that.

First huge respect Nathaniel. You got it right there is beauty in sharing our struggles and time of sadness. I personally love this style. I resonate so much with you. As i also learn that my darkest moments are infact my turning points. So i think it is important to share these moments with the world. Thanks for the video Bless

Most def would watch more vids like this. The story was so powerful and the depth of discussion, riveting! Thanks for sharing.

Thank you for your honesty. I'm currently going through my second bout of what you're talking about. Really needed to hear something like this from a stranger. Agreed, it's so important to stop and reflect and kind of let the situation wash over you but remember it will pass and to keep learning and growing. Thanks, all the best to you!

You're awesome! A true example of success in life: ' Learn about the value of reflection '👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻💯 Thanks for telling this to us!

Nathaniel always save my day. Thank you! ❤️

felt like i needed to hear this! i resonated a lot with it as last year at 18 I had decided to take a gap year, and have felt the exact same as you described it of feeling lonely and lost questioning if I made the right decision. i’m still learning and it’s just a season of my life but it was reaffirming to hear this. thank you and i’m very proud of you and inspired by you to see where you’ve come from and all that you’re creating.

I'm 18, and I am experiencing the same experience that you had. I just graduated from high school. I decided to get a job first before entering college (i don't have a particular course in mind), and maybe, that way, I can connect with myself again. I don't have any idea about what's going on in my life right now. That's why I am so grateful for this video. I learned a lot. Thank you very much! Thank you for enlightening lost souls like me!😭

That is so interesting! Thanks a lot for sharing. I like hearing stories like these. For me my toughest year was probably 2014/2015 when I started high school and had no clue what I wanted to do and changed schools a few times and completely lost interest in anything. So thanks again for sharing. I think most people do through something like this. :)