As another commenter said, the scariest part about this level of self-consciousness is the isolation that comes with it. I feel that heavily! I just never know what to do when I'm not working and on my days off. It's scary when I am alone with my thoughts. I just want to continue growing and getting better in life, I just wish I had more control over my life. I figure I may never know why I am here, but I try to make my own reasons for existing, and continuing to live. I don't have too many fears in this life. My only fear is that my loved ones will pass away and I will never see them again. I just hope that there's something after this, but if there's not, that's okay as well. I hope we all find out together.

Despite being so alone in everyday life, here I find my community of those who delve into the depths of thought, and are subsequently tortured by the terrible beauty of reality and existence.

“Maybe it wasn’t God, but god was it impressive” This hit so much harder than I ever thought something could.

Consciousness. It’s great time to be alive don’t get me wrong. But I only dislike that I probably won’t live long enough to solve its mystery. I remain convinced that a full understanding of it is the key to truly understanding reality at its deepest level

Many people have existential crises despite having "foreknowledge" of the world and its indifference. However, I think it's one thing to know something as a fact, and another to be truly acquainted with it and have it shape your worldview. Just as in the "Mary's room" scenario, Mary (who has been completely colorblind since birth) knows all the scientific facts about color, but is wholly unacquainted with it until the day comes where, miraculously, her color vision is fixed and she can see the world in all the color her mind can conjure. One can "know" about the world by attaining academic knowledge about its contents, but to "know" it is to truly experience it to a deeper, emotional extent - it's that moment where it feels like it really hit you deep and you don't know how to process it all. It is foundation-shaking moments like this from which the existential crisis arises. It's a very deep and mysterious thing that happens to us. It is a massive overhaul to the brain's software - the mind. A rewiring of neuronal connections; a restructuring of the architecture of thought patterns in an organism's mind that makes navigating their environment seem wholly new and even treacherous. Organisms respond to this mental upheaval via the two standard responses: become depressed and stagnate (flight), or live life with a renewed sense of direction and clarity (fight) - sometimes one of these responses will follow the other. I didn't necessarily believe there was a purpose to any of this but nevertheless the reality of my insignificance, and the brutal, unrelenting horrors that accompany and perhaps even define the existence of life struck me so deeply that I became nearly mentally paralyzed with dread and hopelessness. I managed to get through that time, however. Although, it took many years and cost me dearly - squandering the precious days of my youth that I will never be able to have again now that I can fully appreciate them. Friends not cherished, careers not started, love not made, exercise not had, living not done. Luckily, I endured and eventually broke through the malaise just in time to see the dwindling light of my youth. I pulled myself out of this hole somehow but I will be honest in saying there are no correct answers to the questions that initially sent my mind into this spiral. Questions like: "Given my insignificance in the face of the infinities, what ought I to do? What is morally good or bad? Does morality matter? How can death and suffering mean so much to me yet seem so meaningless to the silent, uncaring universe? Are human beings evil given how cruelly they have treated others in both present and past?" There are answers to such questions but the very nature of these (being synthetic and not analytic) questions necessitate an indeterminate truth value - there is no fact of the matter. There may be better questions to be asked... or there may not be... this is also arbitrary. I have come to realize the only answers are the ones we do and do not like. Again, there is no fact of the matter. For the universe is neutral, and we, not by our own doing but through the forces of our very own biological evolution, are the ones that impose meaning and answers onto that which has none to offer. So here I am now at 27, doing my utmost to catch up on those lost years. Enjoying life for what it is, not for how I want it to be.

"Maybe we need to hope for something else to keep going... but we don't need anything else to keep going." So eloquently written. I'm carrying this in my heart.

I once pondered the earth is a spaceship & we are astronauts with amnesia & no destination... Fun existential times!

A dawning came to me when I was young. I learned the whole reason we are here is to experience life. No matter what you do, how big of a statue you build, how loud you yell, one day this will all end without a trace. Only to be reborn in a supernova or some other cosmic phenomenon. Enjoy the experience. Stop worrying about the after. I wonder what came before me.

No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it

“Why are we here” “Because we aren’t over there. Next question.”

All day, I work so hard to enjoy life...seeking meaning & purpose. Then, I fall asleep and wake up in the morning...only to have to do it all over again. I'm exhausted. Is it really even worth it?!

the scary thing for me is that things end or they don't, both being equally terrifying. there's no inbetween, and eventually we will all have to face infinity.

The sad thing is that you have to exist in order to wish that you didn't.

Yes, barking up the tree of knowledge can cause angst and frustration. But gratitude feeds the soul.

"How do we meaningfully go forward without any reason?" THAT is the key to life!

A nice little thing I tell myself often: "I do not exist." Don't know why, but it's comforting.

What a great analogy for our place in the universe. Our cold and silent reality, we have a how, but never a why. We cannot use science to find a meaning to our existence.

This channel makes me think unlike any other channel on KZfaq or anywhere else. I get this in-depth and comforting feeling.

The old man didn't really refute Nihil's argument though. It's still neglecting the fact that life is suffering. Life is a constant cycle of anxiety, boredom, existential dread, pain, etc. And yes there are good moments, but that only makes things worse, because you know you will lose those moments, that it will all pass. You know that in the end you will lose everyone you love, and there is nothing you can do about it. And then, you realize that the whole reason you are here is because someone decided that they wanted to try to ignore this reality, to escape from the meaninglessness of their suffering, by having a child, and making that child their meaning. And thus, they have essentially "passed on" the angst of life itself to a new being, who never asked to be here. Just for them to live it out in equal dread. And again why do we put more emphasis on happiness? All throughout history life has been suffering. The default state is suffering, happiness is always a temporary state. It is proven scientifically that we can never be constantly happy, we can never be fully satisfied. It is built into our brains to encourage survival. We are stuck in a state of constant anxiety, constant striving. For what? That is a completely valid question. Why should I be here if all I am doing is suffering, or waiting to suffer? Everything that makes us happy in life will end, everyone we love will eventually die. When you really, truly love someone with all of your heart, you realize how awful this world is. When you really fall in love, you understand that this world is pure cruelty. Because you will lose them, just like everything else. Our bodies force us along with fear, even if we are unhappy with life. The essence of existence is cruel. And everyone always states: "well, if we were always happy, we wouldn't truly be happy. Because we would be bored". And that's exactly my point! There is no end to the suffering. We are stuck in a constant state of uncomfortableness, and that will never change. I find myself in a constant tension of anxiety, being thrown back and forth like a ragdoll by emotional highs and lows. I am a puppet to my circumstances, and this god-awful sentience. And to make matters worse, I am too attached to those I love to die, too afraid of being forgotten to die. So I am stuck here. And so, I make the most of it, sure. I live out my life to the best I can, and I enjoy the moments I have. But I would never bring someone into this world. The old man in this story is selfish, whether he realizes it or not. He is bringing beings, sentient beings into this world only to suffer and then die. A blip of consciousness for the sake of what? We don't know why we are here. But in my opinion, whatever it is, it's a cruel system not worth fighting for. To me, the personification of life, Mother Nature you might say, is not an inherent good, she is instead truly a parasite. She feeds off the suffering and toil of the beings she creates, merely for her own purposeless self-preservation. I think the problem I have with the old man's line of philosophy is we have this cultural/evolutionary view that life is inherently good. But why? Have we ever stopped to ask ourselves why life is morally good? The only reason we feel this way is because we have the evolutionary instinct for self-preservation. But in light of modern knowledge, it makes no sense. Death, the absence of life (the great nothingness, the void, etc), is also the absence of pain, the absence of suffering, of all of this anxiety, this endless and exhausting battle between emotional/physical/psychological states. It is freedom from the prison that is our brain. Our never-ending, and buzzing thoughts finally ceased. Our worries and concerns finally put to rest. Death is the moral good. Death is the original state, the blissful infinity of non-existence. Freedom from this small moment of anxious being. So, no, I think life is not worth living, I do not think it is morally right to have children, and I think we are a pathetic race of creatures. Our sense of the beauty of life merely comes from our own constructions around evolutionary self-preservation. But who knows what is right and wrong, what is good or bad? All I know is that I am suffering, and I hate it, and I am perpetually and existentially uncomfortable. And I want it to all end, I have wanted it to all end for a long time. But sadly I will have to wait. Because love is cruel, and I love the people in my life, and I couldn't hurt them. To make them suffer more just so I can suffer no longer would be selfish. I will wait for my turn, for death to come knocking. And I will finally be at peace. In the meantime, I will make the most of what I have. And in this, I agree with Camus. There is no point in moping. My time will come, and I will live with as much joy and gusto as I can, in the face of this sad and absurd existence. But I will NOT bring anyone into this world, that is for sure.

Thank you for uploading 🙏🏻

A person might think that the creators with their vast knowledge to create a ship to last millions of years they would of had the idea to leave the generations a message of who they were and where they came from along with where their journey was taking them. Just a small video or audio message could have really made a huge difference on their journey.

Despite all the things to look at that we've done it still doesn't outweigh all the hardships life has thrown my way since birth. I know the only meaning life has is whatever meaning I give my life for me. I can't say what meaning it has for others or what purpose they feel they have. For me I don't feel I have one. I'm just here trying to live and make the best out of what I have till I die. If I could of had a say so in any of this? I would have chose not to be born at all. I'm not saying it's been all bad, but all of the pain suffering and saddens I feel or have ever felt far outweighs anything good that's ever happened or the good times, that are too far and few between. I say a lot and yet, Nothing I ever say seems to be worthwhile for anyone to read. To make matters worse is how the number of times I've seen an old comment I made and notice NOT even 1 single person read it or if they did it was Not worthy of so much as a like. I keep trying to say something hoping one day someone else will be able to relate to it.. I don't really know how to articulate my thoughts into words or how to say anything anyone cares about. Thus making me feel more and more utterly useless, worthless, and boring. My whole existence is a completely meaningless pathetic joke. I'll die one day and not one thing have I ever done or said ever made any difference to anyone at all. It was all for nothing and than I cease to exist.

These videos are so enlightening, I love and can't get enough of different perspectives, and hypotheticals, and metaphors. Thank you !

Very moving & challenging, as always.

My guess is that love is the rightness, greatness and gain of a person. You dont need anybody else to love you. Love yourself. Every living being with a conciousness can love self. Love others also without expecting in return. If you get love, thats a bonus.And about suffering, pain and pleasure are equally balanced in a person's life I think. So suffering is ok.

Ever since being a kid and then coming to the age of reason I've known that life has no meaning.

Your stuff is amazing. Thank you.

These videos always help me mentally relax 😌

For the people already there, it should be up to them whether they want to continue, but they should have no right to bring another person into that situation. They're just creating needless suffering. A new person born there might learn to be fine with their fate but that doesn't negate the fact that their suffering is unnecessary. On the other hand, if they don't learn to be fine with it, they'll be trapped in a situation they don't want for an entire lifetime. No one knows which it will be for the new person, so bringing people into that is essentially gambling with the best outcome still being crap and with someone else suffering.

I think about the absurdity of existence all the time, to wonder why it has to be absurd

Fantastic video and analogy 💯💫🌏🪄 thanks 🌟

Thank you i needed this video

Life is a miracle eons in the making. My only purpose is to appreciate all life. My refuge is knowing that my inner life and how I express it is independent of the billions who express theirs differently. I hope everyone everywhere finds what their searching for. Peace

It's my firm belief that we are in a superposition: We're alive and dead at the same time. We're just under the illusion that we're somehow only "alive". We're all Schrodinger's Cats.

i really needed this, thank you

Wonder... 💙 The existential questions I've been asking my entire LIFE! Thank you

- I wouldn't call that "the" terrible paradox of consciousness, but it's definitely one of them. **edit** This video was titled "the terrible paradox of consciousness" when I made this comment. **edit 2** this is at least the second time this video's tittle and thumbnail have been charged. Previously it was titled something like "Lost in Space" after it was titled "The Terrible Paradox of Consciousness." For the record, now it's titled "The Terrible Tragedy of Existence." And now to apply the original joke to the new title-- - I wouldn't call that "The" "Terrible Tragedy of Existence." but it's definitely one of them.

This video actually aligns almost directly with the world we're in now. There are many different religions and beliefs of how we got here. It also shows how we're constantly searching for an answer. The people in this story took apart and studied as much of the ship as possible, much like how scientists are constantly studying the earth. In a similar way, many philosophers are also trying to study as much as possible to find an answer to the question of life and why it first began. The person who told the other people they'll likely never be able to answer the question how and why life began shares a lot of wisdom and makes some really good points. That final character to speak is someone we should all be like. There's no use in arguing about the great question of life and there's no reason to worry about how we got to where we are, for that is in the past and the past is the past. People also tend to worry about the future too. The future is always changing. In fact, every decision you make affects the future. Even the simple ones. For example, When you decide to wear a specific shirt, you directly affect the future. After all, that shirt will likely gain wear and tear later on if you're always wearing it. You also change the immediate future by changing your appearance.There are many unknowns in life, but those unknowns make this world interesting. After all, a truly perfect world would just be downright boring. It would get so repetitive like a standard 9-5 job would. That is why I try to embrace the unknown with hope and love while doing my best to stay present in the present moment

teared up after watching this one. great video as always

Thank you so much for your videos! Truly awesome!

When you consider conscious life on this planet as a whole which includes human and non-human animals, the conscious suffering which exists clearly outweighs the non-suffering hence why it should all end. For example, assuming that lions and gazelles are sentient beings which I believe they are who can suffer, a lion who experiences stomach pains because it has not eaten in days is suffering. A gazelle who runs in fear and then gets its neck snapped by a lion is suffering. That is just one example of suffering which exists every single day and the only way to stop it is to end their lives, peacefully if possible. So with all things considered, it makes logical sense to end all life on this planet in order to prevent more suffering.

At age 5 or 6, I found the neighborhood dog dead. Asked my brother & cousin where the dog went and they laughed & told everyone i was on the short yellow bus. Black sheep ever sense but the thinkers here have such interesting things to say, it makes me grateful to be a bit different😊

WOW. Not what I expected and yet it is everything that I hoped it would be. Brilliant job, mate, brilliant.

If humiliation by absurdity is the purpose, then I refuse to be humiliated.

Excellent and profound analogy. Our purpose is to be. Conscious tendrils of an ever curious universe, learning.

So, I'm curious, nobody here feels bigger than this lifetime? I feel like I came in knowing this life was not all we are, that this is one manifestation of many more expressions and experience. I absolutely believe I'm an entity (spirit/soul/being) trapped in this body suit for a reason, something that needs to be learned or.. example: like becoming an adult from a child requires the time and experience. I developed depression as an adolescent and have kind of realized that I just don't find joy in this in this world, and so have always consciously pursued a life of meaning. Meaning is what brings me closest to real joy and fulfillment, that feeling of gratitude inside for this experience. Over the years, when I find something that really nurtures me, like gardening, I'm always aware of how deeply satisfying that is, and how connected I feel to life. And those are the things I make a lot of time for in my priorities. Floating on a desert river is on my top 5 list of things I enjoy. When I find anything that truly holds me in the present, I put it on my life priorities. One of the most meaningful is when I've really connected with someone on a very deep level, beyond our human being. There's a greater power that flows and surrounds us in those moments and they can leave me spiritually energized for days and weeks. Being of service in that way, making a deep meaningful connection is what my growth and development in this lifetime has allowed me to offer, and I know when it has touched people. Its what is essential that our world is lacking.

An excellent video keep going

Yuor content is paramount and timeless.

Honestly agree with “Nihil” because it makes since. The only difference between their reality and ours is that we have countless of things to do on earth to distract from getting bored and depressed but even then ppl still commit. So the spaceship is earth but 10x worse , just saying if I were there I would have no problem or guilt going out first.

If you don't fear death, life is full of possibilities not yet realized.

This was my favorite upload of yours since "the man who found the edge of the universe".

I recently saw Melodysheep's new video about optimism-a great video, by the way-and this feels similar to that one. Maybe these are the descendants of humans who had to flee a planet and tried their best to avoid another catastrophe. Great video!

Ah, some consciousness talk the perfect material for an existential crisis

Been waiting for that one for so long, thanks !

Joy and laughter, playing, creating, exploring....discovering. These are feelings that don't question. They feel good, and I don't wonder why during these good times.

This is so beautiful

In this universe the human being is a perfect liability. There's no part of him that isn't that. His consciousness is that.

I have been watching this channel for a while now, and one thing that always seemed to grab my attention is how usually when you post, the topic you post about is seemingly always exactly what i needed to hear, or what has been on my mind recently. But to say all that, for a while i’ve known the answer to life. For those who are unaware i’ll have the answer and explanation below. “Because” is the answer And i mean in every sense, the word because even in its root value is the answer to life. To “Be” is the cause therefore the answer. It’s mathematical explanation as to why we exist or why anything exist is 0. For 0 to exist 1 exist, and since we had made it clear that 0 & 1 exist… 2 exist… and so on. meaning 0 = ♾️ Therefore, we exist because the opposite of is that is us not existing. And with it not existing, with infinity already proven, we both exist and don’t exist at the same time. And now for the fun part. In order for us to exist, there must be something to observe our existence (insert cat reference). Meaning… god exist… but that’s up to you, i can’t change your mind. Anyway, the answer to life simplified is 0 = 1 1 = ♾️ 0 = ♾️ Anyway, it doesn’t matter and you should just enjoy the present whenever you can. Recognize that bad times won’t last forever, and the reason good times are good is because they aren’t good all the time. There you go, enjoy your life. (edited for typo)

Thank you for the video ❤

This is brilliant.

De pequeño pensaba que nada tenía sentido y eso me asustaba, pero pensaba que no era lo suficientemente maduro como para entenderlo y que con el tiempo empezaría a entenderlo. Poco a poco me fui dando cuenta de que nada tenía sentido o si lo tenía yo jamás lo entendería, que nadie podría explicarme la razón del por qué estamos aquí. Creía que el mundo, la vida, tal como la conocemos no podía ser así. Ahora entiendo que no hay explicación y vivir en esta extraña realidad es duro, triste y sumamente difícil.

Great story. Our big brain seems to always confuse meaning with striving especially when we have time to think, & are not preoccupied with finding better ways to survive whatever this is. I wonder if octopuses need meaning in their lives?

This gave rise to the "brain in a vat" idea where we are just that, connected to, aware of the universe through our senses...Although the "meaning" of our lives given us by evolution omnipresent, that provides little direction about what we should do and to what it all means (if anything). Looking backwards might provide answers about where we've been, it doesn't so much say where we might or should go. Lessons from our pasts only show some of the constraints on our futures...great video!

This is the best episode so far 🥹

I’ve been thinking along these lines for years. Existentialism. We don’t need to understand, have a reason or purpose. We just are. ENJOY IT❤

If the mystery remains a mystery to everyone who lives here - then our purpose (by default) is to live and make meaning for ourselves (no matter how small or big that meaning is) inside of the mystery. I think all of us do that everyday. We are doing exactly what we are suppose to do. What we really long for is for someone or something outside of us to care about what we are doing. When we begin inventing that thing that is like us, but not us... things get messy. What isn't there, isn't there. What is here, is here. All you need to do, is accept those two differences and make a little meaning in your life.

Wow. Brilliant!!!

Amazing ❤

That spaceship looking very much alike that huge separatist one from Star Wars. Named Lucrehulk and used during Clone Wars. Great video.

Anyone else notice how all these videos show up at the perfect time to make everyone feel like they are connected in their pain? I think this is good to an extent but don’t use it as an excuse. Go and do something with that feeling, don’t keep on like this. Make a change

I have to say its intriguing and almost a confirmation to me that so many people here are so openly candid about the real disappointment of this life. Ive always wondered if people who claim to be so filled with life are actually just too fearful of death to consider it. Society is so clear in so many not very nuanced ways about never discussing death, or the possibility that it might be a preferred option.

This beautiful. A perfect allegory of life.

Consciousness is nature's nightmare.

Incredible!

The fact that someone called Heisenberg said "hardest" and "comes" in the same comment makes me glad I am incognito on this platform.

Amazing, great, and powerful video! Thank you!

Your videos are very good I like your youtube channel

This takes me back to the first Millennium Ship novel I read as a young teenager, "The Star Seekers" by Milton Lesser. It was published in 1953, and I probably found it in the school library and read it around 1963 when I was about 13 or 14 years old. It fired my young imagination like hardly any other book ever has. As with most such novels, the situation it describes is not so unlike that in which we all find ourselves in our current reality. Only the scale and construction details of the ship are different. Spaceship Earth is what we call this vessel in which we now find ourselves, but the philosophical and psychological challenges of life here on THIS ship are not so different from those of the characters in these stories. Here we are, hurtling through space along a trajectory determined long ago by some force -- intelligent or not -- to which we do not seem to have direct knowledge or access. We can study and learn more about the "how," but the "why" remains a tantalizing and fascinating mystery.

Beautiful ✨

About three minutes in, I'm assuming this is a metaphor for planet Earth and Humanity.

This was quite interesting actually, so much so I ended putting myself in that situation and I ended up with one question. What would happen if 1 of the 50 men and/or 50 women had their memories intact? My thoughts are, would they take command as the only ones with concrete information or would they be outcasted for being the only ones with their memories intact. Like what would happen?

It's beyond my rationality as to why Google pushes advertisements in the midst of intellectual videos like this. It's time Google does service to Humanity.

This made me cry.

Can money pay For all the days We lived awake But half asleep

Yes

OK I hit the like button and I subscribed but I'm just waking up I haven't finished my first cup of coffee but this kind of thing is definitely my cup of tea even if it makes my head hurt sometimes😅

Maybe life is ride, like a rollercoaster. The mind, body, and emotions are the ride. Your essence - the one who is aware of the body, mind, thoughts and emotions - is who you really are. The passenger strapped into the ride. Like life, the rollercoaster has twists and turns, loops, uphills and downhills. You get on it voluntarily, for what ever reason you want. Once it begins, it doest stop. You're strapped in for the length of the ride with everyone else. Trying to escape mid-ride means certain death. It can be truely terrifying or it can be fun. Sometimes its both. The only point of the roller coaster is to experience it. And when the ride is over, the passenger is back to the safety and comfort of solid ground. You are free to do what ever you want. Maybe you go on a different ride. Maybe you do something completely different. Maybe you just go home. Regardless of what your decision is now, it's most definitely going to be a decision based on having just had a very rich and vivid experience. I believe, like a rollercoaster, we get on this ride of life voluntarily. And when we exit the ride we are still the same essence that we always were before we got on, only now we are enriched with that new experience.

For anyone into the subject of the futility of existence, I recommend the works of author Thomas Ligotti. You will not find consolation there, but perhaps some food for thought. And entertainment of course.

4:45 that's Nietzsche 😅

Given the type of analytical intelligence we have, it makes an absurdity of our status as humans if we choose to stop making progress. We could very easily regress as a result of thinking we have no real purpose or that all the purposes we have are for short-term gain or gratification. It's very difficult for us to think about holistic solutions to ensure our own survival as a species but in reality, if we care, that is a task we give ourselves no right to give up on.

Beautiful

Nihil = Nihilism, this video is so well tailored! Love!

I think depression is on the rise in developed countries because the individual is supposed to find their own meaning, materialism and hedonism are empty promises and people don’t know how to deal with their existential angst which is natural but seen as abnormal by many people. Discuss

2:20 expected to remember is right without a doubt

Just keep swimming 🐟

The consciousness is torture. On earth, human beings is the only being that has it. The anticipation of upcoming pain is in every minute of our lives. We suffer from every form of enjoyments. When we eat and drink, we have to urinate and defecate. When we love someone, we suffer loss of family from death, change of heart. Our entire life, we must achieve more than we possess. Therefore suffer and work and being disappointed forever repeatedly. We suffer from excruciating pain even as children physically and emotionally. Throughout our lives we must fight like gladiators with each other and sometimes fight to our death. It’s a fun world? I don’t know what you call fun? Maybe some alcohol? Or some food tastes good? Some temporary love? All I know is, the same story goes on and on and human history is a boring repeat.

A very thoughtful story/allegory.

thank you for thid video

There’s a layer of self-projection that is intimately linked with consciousness. We think of ourselves as so extraordinary, so fantastic a creation that we cannot fathom there being no purpose after all. But once the ego is stripped down, calm and understanding follows.

I have never been able to relate to the "existential crisis" people go through with trying to figure out "why" we exist, or what our "purpose" is. I don't care. I don't need humanity to have a purpose. I don't need a "why". I'm am endlessly curious about how the world works, and why things happen... but for some reason I have never had any desire to know why we exist. Maybe because I believe that the question makes no sense to me. There is no purpose, and there doesn't need to be one.